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- TAKING CARE OF BUSINESS ...
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- TAKING CARE OF BUSINESS ...
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- [ MUSIC ]
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- - KELLY WRIGHT: THE CAMERA, [PICTURES SNAPPING]
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- ONE OF MANKIND'S INGENIOUS DEVICES HAS
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- SPAWNED A MULTI-BILLION DOLLAR INDUSTRY
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- THROUGHOUT THE WORLD.
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- FOR GENERATIONS NOW, THE PHOTOGRAPH HAS BEEN USED
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- TO CAPTURE LIFE'S EPIC EVENTS, THE MILESTONES,
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- THE MOMENTS THAT WE TREASURE.
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- BUT THAT SIMPLE PHOTO THAT WE CAN TAKE WITH THE
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- USE OF A SMART PHONE NOW THAT ONCE CREATED A SENSE
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- OF BELONGING IS NOW TAKING A MUCH DARKER TURN.
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- MORE AND MORE, THAT FROZEN MOMENT IN TIME IS
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- USED TO DETERMINE OUR VERY WORTH.
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- YOU GET THE PICTURE.
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- [ SMART PHONES BEEPING, DINGING, RINGING ]
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- - SOCIAL MEDIA MADE ME QUESTION A LOT ABOUT MYSELF.
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- - KIDS THAT JUST BULLY THEM.
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- - FRESHMAN YEAR I STARTED CUTTING.
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- - ONE OF MY BROTHER'S FRIENDS CALLED ME A FAT
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- B, AND I WAS MAYBE TEN YEARS OLD.
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- - 4600 KIDS TAKE THEIR LIVES IN THE UNITED
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- STATES EVERY YEAR.
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- - I WOULD GET MESSAGES SAYING FOR ME TO
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- KILL MYSELF.
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- - MY FIRST THOUGHT OF SUICIDE WAS WHEN I WAS ABOUT 9.
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- - 157.000 HURT THEMSELVES ENOUGH THEY
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- END UP IN THE HOSPITALS.
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- - SOMETIMES KIDS CAN BE REALLY CRUEL.
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- - YOU'RE GOING TO PROBABLY END UP DEAD.
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- - THOSE STATISTICS AS HIGH AS THEY ARE, ARE REALLY ONLY
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- REALLY THE TIP OF THE ICEBERG.
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- [ MUSIC ]
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- - SOCIAL MEDIA, CYBER BULLYING AND THE PRESSURE
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- TO SUCCEED HAS CAUSED A PANDEMIC OF YOUTH SUICIDE
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- IN THESE UNITED STATES.
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- [ MUSIC ]
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- - ABOUT 12 YEARS I STARTED TO SEE MAYBE A
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- LITTLE BIT OF A PROBLEM WITH THESE LITTLE PHONES
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- THAT WE WERE HOLDING IN OUR HANDS.
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- FROM 1990 TO 2007 WE SAW A DECREASE IN DEPRESSION,
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- ANXIETY, AND SELF HARM, AND SUICIDE.
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- [ MUSIC ]
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- - THE BIGGEST INCREASE IS TEENAGERS SKYROCKETING
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- IN THE LAST FIVE YEARS.
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- WE HAD A CLUSTER.
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- WITHIN A 2 WEEK PERIOD, WE HAD 3 YOUNG TEENAGERS,
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- 13, 14, 16 YEARS OLD TAKE THEIR LIVES.
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- BUT WHAT WE'RE SEEING NOW IS SOMETHING NEW AND
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- DIFFERENT, AND THAT'S KIDS WHO ARE HIGHLY
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- SUCCESSFUL TAKING THEIR LIVES, AND I WANTED TO
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- FIND OUT WHAT'S GOING ON THERE.
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- - THERE WAS TWO FAMILIES IN PARTICULAR.
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- IT WAS UNIMAGINABLE TO ME THAT A 13 YEAR OLD WOULD
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- TAKE HER LIFE.
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- EMMA PANGELLANAN, SOFTBALL PHNOM, THE DAY THAT SHE
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- TOOK HER LIFE SHE HIT SEVERAL HOME RUNS THAT SUNDAY.
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- [ BALL SNAPS, CHEERS ] AFTER SOFTBALL, SHE AND
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- HER DAD SHE DROVE HOME SINGING THEIR REGULAR SONGS.
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- THERE WERE NO SIGNS THAT EMMA WAS GOING TO TAKE
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- HER LIFE, BUT THAT NIGHT EMMA SNUCK OUT OF THE
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- HOUSE AND WENT TO A LOCAL PARK, AND ENDED HER LIFE.
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- HER HEART STOPPED BEATING.
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- [ MUSIC ]
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- - THERE WAS ONE YOUNG, I WANT TO SAY MAN BUT HE
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- WASN'T A MAN.
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- HE WAS 16 YEARS OLD. HE WAS A BOY.
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- PATRICK TURNER.
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- BASEBALL, FOOTBALL PLAYER.
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- GREAT ATHLETE.
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- GREAT GUY.
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- THE KIND OF GUY THAT WOULD HUG YOU IN THE
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- HALLWAY, THE KIND OF GUY WHO HAD LOTS OF FRIENDS.
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- PATRICK WROTE A SERIES OF LETTERS ABOUT WHAT WAS
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- GOING ON WITH HIM.
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- WHAT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT WAS PRESSURES OF ACADEMIC
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- PRESSURES THAT GO ON IN SCHOOLS.
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- - IN ADDITION TO THE INTENSE PRESSURE THAT WE
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- ARE PUTTING ON OUR CHILDREN THESE DAYS LIKE
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- GPA'S, GRADE POINT AVERAGES, SAT SCORES, AP
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- CLASSES, NOT TO MENTION ALL THE PRESSURE TO
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- PERFORM IN SPORTS AND EXTRACURRICULAR
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- ACTIVITIES, WELL, NOW ADD A NEW DARK TWIST TO ALL
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- OF THAT, THE EXPLOSION OF THE INTERNET AND
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- SOCIAL MEDIA.
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- IT IS A PERFECT STORM.
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- - IN 2007, SMART PHONES SPREAD ACROSS
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- THE COUNTRY.
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- ON TOP OF THAT, WE'VE GOT SNAP CHAT AND INSTAGRAM
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- THAT CAME IN IN 2010.
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- - 2010 SNAP CHAT AND INSTAGRAM ARE LAUNCHED.
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- PROBABLY A COINCIDENCE.
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- PROBABLY A COINCIDENCE THESE KIDS ARE SUDDENLY
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- THRUST WHERE THEY CAN COMPARE AND CONTRAST TO
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- ALL OF THEIR PEERS ON A LEVEL LIKE WE'VE NEVER
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- SEEN BEFORE.
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- IT'S HARD ENOUGH TO BE A TEENAGER.
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- IT'S HARD ENOUGH TO BE COMPARING AND CONTRASTING
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- YOURSELF WITH SUPER MODELS AND ACTORS, BUT
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- IMAGINE HAVING TO COMPARE YOURSELF WITH THE
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- FILTERED PICTURES OF YOUR PEERS WHO ARE ONLY
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- PROMOTING THEMSELVES AND PUTTING FORTH THEIR BEST
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- ONLINE DIGITAL PRESENCE.
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- [ BUZZING ] AND NOW WE HAVE GIVEN THEM THIS
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- DIGITAL PLAYGROUND, AND IT CAN BE VERY, VERY,
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- VERY MEAN.
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- AND SOME OF THE STUFF THAT'S GOING ON WITH
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- CYBER BULLYING WHICH IS MY RESEARCH NOW IS
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- TERRIFYING, AND YOU WOULD NEVER BELIEVE THAT KIDS
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- WOULD BE CAPABLE OF THIS, BUT THEY ARE.
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- - BULLYING HAS BEEN A PROBLEM SINCE THE DAWN OF
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- TIME, BUT WHEN THE BULLYING IS NO LONGER
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- CONFINED TO A HANDFUL OF FRIENDS ON A SMALL
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- PLAYGROUND OR IN A CLASSROOM, WELL, THAT
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- KIND OF BULLYING BECOMES PUBLIC ON SOCIAL MEDIA,
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- AND THEN IT BECOMES GLOBAL.
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- IS THERE ANY WONDER THINGS GO REAL DARK
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- REAL FAST?
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- [ MUSIC ]
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- - MY HIGH SCHOOL EXPERIENCE WAS NOT A WALK
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- IN THE PARK.
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- MY PARENTS GOT DIVORCED WHEN I WAS IN MIDDLE
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- SCHOOL, AND I HAVE ADHD SO I WAS A BIG TARGET FOR
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- KIDS MY AGE.
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- SOCIAL MEDIA MADE ME QUESTION A LOT ABOUT
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- MYSELF, ALL THAT TERRIBLE STUFF, AND VIEWING OTHER
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- PEOPLE AS BEING PERFECT AND SEEING THEIR LIFE AS
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- PERFECT DEFINITELY WARPED MYSELF ESTEEM, AND THE
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- MESSAGES THAT WE'D GET AND HATE COMMENTS THAT
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- PEOPLE WOULD GET INCLUDING MYSELF WERE
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- BRUTAL AND MADE ME FEEL REALLY INSECURE ABOUT
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- MYSELF AND HATE MYSELF, AND THAT'S WHAT LED ME TO
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- MY DEPRESSION AND MY ANXIETY.
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- SOME THINGS THAT GOT COMMUNICATED TO ME WAS
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- THAT I WAS FAT.
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- THAT WAS A BIG THING, THAT I WAS UGLY, SO THEY
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- REALLY TRIED TO HIT AS CLOSE TO HOME
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- AS POSSIBLE.
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- - BECAUSE KATIE'S FRIENDS WERE SO CRUEL TO
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- HER, SHE FOUND NEW FRIENDS, MUCH OLDER
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- FRIENDS, AND THEY LOOKED AT KATIE AS SOMEONE THEY
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- COULD MANIPULATE.
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- ONE NIGHT THEY GOT KATIE DRUNK, AND A HIGH
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- SCHOOLBOY SEXUALLY ASSAULTED HER.
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- BY THE WAY, DID I MENTION KATIE WAS JUST 13?
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- - I WAS INFLUENCED HEAVILY BY THEIR
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- ACTIONS, AND I DID NOT KNOW THAT IT WASN'T
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- NORMAL FOR THEM TO HAND ME HALF A BOTTLE OF VODKA
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- AND THAT YOU SHOULD DRINK ALL OF IT.
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- I HAD NO EXPERIENCE PREVIOUSLY OF DRINKING.
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- AND THEY SAID, OH, YEAH, YOU SHOULD DRINK ALL OF IT.
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- IT WAS PEER PRESSURE.
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- I REALIZED THAT I WAS ONLY ONE WHO WAS DRINKING.
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- - I DIDN'T HAVE ANY IDEA ABOUT WHAT'S HAPPENING ON
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- SOCIAL MEDIA OR AT SCHOOL, AND IT WAS
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- BECAUSE SHE WASN'T COMING TO ME AND TELLING ME
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- ABOUT IT.
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- - I WAS TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF AT A PARTY
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- BY A LOCAL FOOTBALL PLAYER AT THE HIGH SCHOOL.
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- AND IT WAS POSTED ON SOCIAL MEDIA.
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- BUT I GOTTA APPROACHED BECAUSE OF THAT VIDEO
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- BEING SPREAD BOTH RANDOM PEOPLE THAT I'VE NEVER
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- TALKED TO BEFORE, AND THEY'RE LIKE OH, I HEAR
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- YOU MESS WITH HIGH SCHOOL GUYS.
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- WON'T YOU MESS WITH US?
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- - THE DAY SHE GOT ASSAULTED SHE LIED TO ME
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- ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED.
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- THE KID THAT WOUND UP ASSAULTING HER ACTUALLY
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- SHOOK MY HAND.
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- IT WAS OUT OF THE EYE LINE OF THE PARENTS.
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- THE PARENTS DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON.
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- - I WOULD GET DEATH THREATS.
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- IN-PERSON I EVEN GOT A DEATH THREAT IN MY
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- LOCKER, AND THE MESSAGES WERE JUST BRUTAL
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- REGARDING THAT TELLING ME I SHOULD KILL MYSELF, AND
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- IT WAS BRUTAL.
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- YEAH, AND THAT LED ME TO A VERY DEEP DARK
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- RABBIT HOLE.
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- - A LOT OF THE PEOPLE WHO WERE THREATENING HER
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- LIFE AND SAYING ALL THESE HORRIBLE THINGS TO HER
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- WERE PEOPLE THAT HAD BEEN TO MY HOUSE, THAT HAD
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- COME TO TO A BIRTHDAY PARTY THAT SHE CALLED HER
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- FRIENDS, YOU KNOW.
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- I KNEW SHE WAS DEPRESSED AND GOING
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- THROUGH SOMETHING.
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- I DIDN'T EVER -- IT DIDN'T EVER OCCUR TO ME THAT
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- SELF-HARM OR SUICIDE WAS SOMETHING THAT SHE
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- WAS CONSIDERING.
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- SHE'S A GREAT MUSICIAN.
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- SHE PLAYED AT CARNEGIE HALL A COUPLE OF TIMES.
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- COMPARED TO ALL THE GREAT THINGS SHE HAD GOING ON
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- IN HER LIFE COULD HAVE ONLY BEEN COMING FROM
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- SOME KIND OF EXTERNAL PLACE.
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- IT COULDN'T HAVE BEEN COMING FROM HER AND HER
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- OWN SELF WORTH BASED ON HER OWN ABILITIES BECAUSE
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- HER ABILITIES WERE GREAT.
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- [ VIOLIN MUSIC ]
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- - I FELT THAT WAS MY ONLY WAY OF ESCAPING.
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- AT ONE POINT THIS GIRL SAW MY SCARS AND
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- EVERYTHING, AND SHE TOLD THE SCHOOL ABOUT IT, AND
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- THE SCHOOL MADE ME SIGN A RELEASE AND EVERYTHING
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- NOT TO DO IT AGAIN.
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- WHATEVER.
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- BUT I REMEMBER WHEN I GOT HOME MY MOM WAS LIKE OH,
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- YOU DIDN'T DO THAT, RIGHT?
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- AND THEN YOU GUYS CHECKED MY ARMS.
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- THEY CHECKED MY ARMS, BUT THEY DIDN'T THINK TO
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- CHECK RIGHT HERE, SO IT DIDN'T LOOK THAT BAD.
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- YOU GUYS SENT ME TO THERAPY AND IT DIDN'T
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- DO ANYTHING.
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- I WAS CONVINCED THAT THE ADULTS AROUND ME COULDN'T
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- HELP AND THAT I NEEDED TO WORK ON IT MYSELF, SO I
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- DIDN'T REACH OUT FOR THAT.
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- [ VOICE BREAKING ] AND SO I LIED TO THEM AND I SAID
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- THAT I WAS JUST DOING IT FOR ATTENTION, BUT I SAID
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- THAT SO THAT THEY COULD SEE ME AS OH, LITTLE
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- BLONDE GIRL WAS UPSET ABOUT LIVING IN HER
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- LITTLE HOUSE IN THE PALISADES NOT GETTING
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- ENOUGH ATTENTION.
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- OH, SHE'S FINE.
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- BUT I DID HAVE THOSE PROBLEMS, AND I WAS
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- CONSTANTLY ANXIOUS BEING AROUND IN SCHOOL, BEING
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- AROUND THE PEOPLE THAT PUT ME THROUGH ALL THAT,
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- WALKING BY ANYONE WITH BLONDE HAIR AND A BEARD I
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- WOULD FREAK OUT IN THE HALLWAY AND I WOULD HAVE
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- A PANIC ATTACK AND I WOULD HAVE TO RUN AWAY
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- AND GO TO A RANDOM BATHROOM AND CRY.
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- I DIDN'T FEEL SAFE IN MY SCHOOL.
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- I DIDN'T FEEL SAFE AROUND ANYONE.
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- - YOU KNOW WHAT IT REMINDS ME OF?
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- IT REMINDS ME OF LORD OF THE FLIES.
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- THE ONLINE ENVIRONMENT IS LIKE A BUNCH OF
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- CHILDREN THAT ARE SUDDENLY WITHOUT ADULT
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- SUPERVISION, AND THEY TURN TO THEIR ANIMAL
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- NATURE, AND THEY WIND UP TURNING INTO THESE LITTLE
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- BEASTS WHO RIP EACH OTHER APART.
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- - WE GAVE OSTENSIBLY IN MY OPINION THE MOST
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- POWERFUL TOOL WE COULD HAVE EVER INVENTED THUS
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- FAR TO KIDS.
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- WE DON'T GET IT.
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- WE DIDN'T EVEN MONITOR IT.
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- WE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THEY WERE DOING, AND WE
- 00:12:52.070 --> 00:12:53.220
- JUST LET THEM DEVELOP AND PLAY, AND WE'RE WONDERING
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- WHY IT'S SUDDENLY IN SOME CASES HAVE BECOME DIGITAL
- 00:12:57.260 --> 00:13:01.290
- LORD OF THE FLIES?
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- WHY WOULD IT NOT?
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- WOULD YOU GIVE A SET OF POWER TOOLS TO KIDS
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- WITH NO DIRECTIONS?
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- SAY HEY, JUST PLAY WITH THESE KIDS, AND EXPECT
- 00:13:11.000 --> 00:13:12.140
- THAT TO BE -- THERE'S GOING TO BE BLOOD.
- 00:13:12.160 --> 00:13:18.010
- AND THERE'S ALWAYS GOING TO BE A RALPH, AND
- 00:13:18.030 --> 00:13:20.230
- THERE'S ALWAYS GOING TO BE A PIGGY, AND THERE'S
- 00:13:20.250 --> 00:13:23.040
- ALWAYS GOING TO BE A JACK BECAUSE THAT'S HOW
- 00:13:23.060 --> 00:13:25.120
- KIDS ROLL.
- 00:13:25.140 --> 00:13:26.200
- GO TO ANY PLAYGROUND.
- 00:13:26.220 --> 00:13:29.180
- - YOU KNOW, YOU'RE KIND OF HELPLESS AS A PARENT.
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- THAT'S WHY I THINK THERE NEEDS TO BE A PARENTS'
- 00:13:31.170 --> 00:13:33.260
- BILL OF RIGHTS.
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- I THINK FOR THESE TECHNOLOGY COMPANIES TO
- 00:13:35.190 --> 00:13:38.000
- THROW THESE THINGS OUT THERE THAT DON'T HAVE ANY
- 00:13:38.020 --> 00:13:40.100
- KIND OF LIMITS ON PEOPLE'S ABILITY.
- 00:13:40.120 --> 00:13:45.190
- AND I'M A BIG PROPONENT OF THE FIRST AMENDMENT,
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- BUT LIKE I SAID, JUST THE ABILITY FOR A PARENT TO
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- TURN OFF THEIR KIDS' PHONE IF THEIR KID IS
- 00:13:52.170 --> 00:13:54.180
- ACTING OUT OR DOING SOMETHING THAT THEY
- 00:13:54.200 --> 00:13:57.050
- SHOULDN'T BE DOING, THAT SHOULD BE LIKE SEAT BELTS.
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- THAT SHOULD BE SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T, THAT ISN'T
- 00:14:00.110 --> 00:14:04.230
- EVEN A CHOICE FOR THE TECHNOLOGY COMPANIES.
- 00:14:04.250 --> 00:14:07.100
- [VIOLIN MUSIC]
- 00:14:07.120 --> 00:14:13.150
- - HE TOOK ALL OF HER DEVICES AWAY FOR SIX MONTHS.
- 00:14:13.170 --> 00:14:17.080
- TO WEAN HER FROM THE APPROVAL AND JUDGMENT OF OTHERS.
- 00:14:17.100 --> 00:14:21.250
- TO HELP HER FIND HER VALUE.
- 00:14:21.270 --> 00:14:24.090
- RIGHT WHERE IT HAD ALWAYS BEEN.
- 00:14:24.110 --> 00:14:27.060
- ON THE INSIDE.
- 00:14:27.080 --> 00:14:29.210
- - A LOT OF PEOPLE CANNOT LAST FIVE MINUTES
- 00:14:29.230 --> 00:14:31.240
- WITHOUT THEIR PHONE. THEY CAN'T PUT IT DOWN.
- 00:14:31.260 --> 00:14:34.100
- THEY CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF IT BECAUSE THEY LIKE THAT
- 00:14:34.120 --> 00:14:37.080
- RUSH OF DOPAMINE EVERY TIME THEY GET A NOTIFICATION.
- 00:14:37.100 --> 00:14:40.220
- AND ONCE I DIDN'T HAVE THAT FOR SIX MONTHS,
- 00:14:40.240 --> 00:14:43.290
- IT MADE ME FOCUS ON MYSELF AND MY MUSIC AND
- 00:14:44.010 --> 00:14:50.170
- CREATIVITY AND HELPED ME SO MUCH.
- 00:14:50.190 --> 00:14:54.200
- I'M NOT CONSTANTLY LOOKING FOR THOSE LIKES,
- 00:14:54.220 --> 00:14:58.130
- OR THOSE COMMENTS, OR THOSE SNAP CHATS,
- 00:14:58.150 --> 00:15:00.160
- OR THOSE TWEETS.
- 00:15:00.180 --> 00:15:02.120
- I'M LOOKING FOR REAL COMMUNICATION.
- 00:15:02.140 --> 00:15:04.220
- I THINK THAT IN REAL LIFE YOU CAN GET THAT A LOT
- 00:15:04.240 --> 00:15:08.200
- BETTER THAN JUST LIKES AND COMMENTS.
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- [VIOLIN MUSIC]
- 00:15:13.160 --> 00:15:19.110
- [APPLAUSE]
- 00:15:19.130 --> 00:15:24.220
- - NOT ALL SUICIDAL IMPULSES ARE DRIVEN BY
- 00:15:24.240 --> 00:15:27.090
- BULLYING OR CYBER BULLYING.
- 00:15:27.110 --> 00:15:29.110
- SOME PROBLEMS ARE MORE COMPLEX.
- 00:15:29.130 --> 00:15:32.000
- FOR EXAMPLE, MEET JAMES, A HIGH SCHOOL ATHLETE WHO
- 00:15:32.020 --> 00:15:34.250
- SEEMINGLY HAD IT ALL TOGETHER UNTIL HIS LIFE
- 00:15:34.270 --> 00:15:38.070
- BEGAN SPIRALING OUT OF CONTROL TO THE POINT THAT
- 00:15:38.090 --> 00:15:41.120
- HE ACTUALLY LOST HIS OWN IDENTITY.
- 00:15:41.140 --> 00:15:45.200
- - JAMES: THE OLD JAMES WAS ATHLETIC.
- 00:15:45.220 --> 00:15:48.050
- HE WAS REALLY BIG INTO ICE HOCKEY AND SKATEBOARDING.
- 00:15:48.070 --> 00:15:52.150
- - HE WAS DOING REALLY WELL IN SCHOOL,
- 00:15:52.170 --> 00:15:55.000
- PLAYING ICE HOCKEY, DOING INCREDIBLE THINGS
- 00:15:55.020 --> 00:15:57.280
- AS AN ATHLETE.
- 00:15:58.000 --> 00:15:59.280
- HE HAD SOME UNFORTUNATE INCIDENTS HAPPEN ON ICE
- 00:16:00.020 --> 00:16:03.060
- AND ENDED HIS ABILITY TO PLAY ICE HOCKEY.
- 00:16:03.080 --> 00:16:05.190
- HE HAD SEVERAL CONCUSSIONS.
- 00:16:05.210 --> 00:16:07.070
- THE LAST CONCUSSION THAT HE HAD, HIS SEVENTH
- 00:16:07.090 --> 00:16:09.080
- CONCUSSION, THE DOCTOR SAID THAT HE COULD NEVER
- 00:16:09.100 --> 00:16:12.110
- PLAY AGAIN BECAUSE THERE COULD BE PERMANENT
- 00:16:12.130 --> 00:16:15.040
- COGNITIVE INABILITIES TO LEARN.
- 00:16:15.060 --> 00:16:18.250
- - DOCTORS WERE LIKE THIS IS IT.
- 00:16:18.270 --> 00:16:21.230
- YOU CAN'T KEEP DOING THIS TO YOURSELF.
- 00:16:21.250 --> 00:16:24.120
- YOU'RE GONNA PROBABLY END UP DEAD.
- 00:16:24.140 --> 00:16:26.270
- SO FOR A KID WHOSE WHOLE LIFE REVOLVES AROUND
- 00:16:26.290 --> 00:16:29.200
- THAT, FROM COMING HOME AFTER SCHOOL AND GOING TO
- 00:16:29.220 --> 00:16:32.040
- THE ICE RINK, TO GOING TO THE SKATE PARK, YOU KIND
- 00:16:32.060 --> 00:16:34.150
- OF ARE JUST LIKE ONCE YOU HEAR THAT FROM THE
- 00:16:34.170 --> 00:16:36.060
- DOCTORS, YOU'RE LIKE WHAT DO I DO NOW?
- 00:16:36.080 --> 00:16:38.040
- YOU'VE GOT TO BASICALLY REEVALUATE YOUR WHOLE LIFE.
- 00:16:38.060 --> 00:16:40.270
- - THAT WAS HIS IDENTITY WAS A STAR HOCKEY PLAYER.
- 00:16:40.290 --> 00:16:43.260
- HE FELT LOST.
- 00:16:43.280 --> 00:16:48.280
- HE FELT LOST.
- 00:16:49.000 --> 00:16:52.120
- - JAMES: FRESHMAN YEAR I STARTED CUTTING.
- 00:16:52.140 --> 00:16:55.220
- I GOT REALLY INTO CUTTING.
- 00:16:55.240 --> 00:16:57.130
- I WAS ANGRY.
- 00:16:57.150 --> 00:16:58.260
- I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I WAS ANGRY AT MYSELF
- 00:16:58.280 --> 00:17:00.080
- FOR SOME REASON.
- 00:17:00.100 --> 00:17:01.160
- THEN THE SUICIDAL THOUGHTS STARTED COMING.
- 00:17:01.180 --> 00:17:03.180
- AND JUST CONSTANTLY HAVING THAT, I STARTED
- 00:17:03.200 --> 00:17:05.210
- GETTING INVOLVED IN DRUGS.
- 00:17:05.230 --> 00:17:07.160
- WEED, PSYCHEDELICS, LSD, MUSHROOMS.
- 00:17:07.180 --> 00:17:11.090
- AND THEY REALLY STARTED TO TAKE HOLD OF MY LIFE.
- 00:17:11.110 --> 00:17:15.170
- - ISOLATED, SEPARATED FROM THE FAMILY, EVEN
- 00:17:15.190 --> 00:17:18.290
- FROM PEOPLE THAT JUST REALLY LOVED HIM, FROM
- 00:17:19.010 --> 00:17:22.230
- FRIENDS THAT HE HAD THAT HE DIDN'T FEEL
- 00:17:22.250 --> 00:17:25.250
- HE HAD THINGS IN COMMON WITH ANYMORE,
- 00:17:25.270 --> 00:17:28.010
- HE HAD ISOLATED HIMSELF FROM.
- 00:17:28.030 --> 00:17:29.240
- EVERYBODY PROBABLY ON THE OUTSIDE WOULD LOOK AT US
- 00:17:29.260 --> 00:17:32.010
- AND SAY OH, THEY'RE SO HAPPY, THEY HAVE IT ALL
- 00:17:32.030 --> 00:17:34.040
- TOGETHER. ON THE OUTSIDE IT LOOKED GREAT.
- 00:17:34.060 --> 00:17:36.170
- ON THE INSIDE IT WAS, THERE WAS A LOT OF
- 00:17:36.190 --> 00:17:38.290
- BROKENNESS AND HURTING FOR JAMES.
- 00:17:39.010 --> 00:17:41.030
- - YOU KNOW, IT'S HEARTBREAKING BECAUSE YOU--
- 00:17:41.050 --> 00:17:44.000
- THIS IS YOUR SON.
- 00:17:44.020 --> 00:17:47.080
- THIS IS YOUR CHILD THAT YOU'VE RAISED YOUR WHOLE
- 00:17:47.100 --> 00:17:50.240
- LIFE, AND SEEING HIM AND THE JOY OF MOMENTS AND
- 00:17:50.260 --> 00:17:54.000
- SHINING STAR PLAYING ICE HOCKEY, TO THE POINT
- 00:17:54.020 --> 00:17:57.080
- WHERE HE'S LOST WHO HE IS, IT'S JUST SO HARD.
- 00:17:57.100 --> 00:18:02.090
- AND SO IT'S JUST HEARTBREAKING AS A
- 00:18:02.110 --> 00:18:07.010
- COUPLE, AND OUR FAITH JUST KIND OF PRESSED IN
- 00:18:07.030 --> 00:18:10.040
- TO PRAYER AND REALLY WANTING TO SEE A
- 00:18:10.060 --> 00:18:14.080
- MIRACLE HAPPEN IN OUR CHILD'S LIFE.
- 00:18:14.100 --> 00:18:17.020
- - JAMES: I WENT OUT ONE DAY TO SMOKE WEED AND CAME
- 00:18:17.040 --> 00:18:21.060
- INSIDE, GOT IN A FIGHT WITH MY BROTHER AND MY
- 00:18:21.080 --> 00:18:23.140
- MOM REVOLVING AROUND DRUGS AND STUFF.
- 00:18:23.160 --> 00:18:27.030
- - JAMES, YOU'RE NOT A DRUG DEALER!
- 00:18:27.050 --> 00:18:28.240
- I BELIEVE IN YOU!
- 00:18:28.260 --> 00:18:30.120
- - SHUT UP! YOU DON'T KNOW WHO I AM!
- 00:18:30.140 --> 00:18:31.240
- - THIS IS NOT WHO YOU ARE.
- 00:18:31.260 --> 00:18:34.070
- I BELIEVE YOUR LIFE IS BETTER THAN THIS.
- 00:18:34.090 --> 00:18:36.100
- TAKE THE STEPS NOW TO BETTER YOUR LIFE.
- 00:18:36.120 --> 00:18:39.040
- COME ON MAN. LET'S GO!
- 00:18:39.060 --> 00:18:40.230
- - JAMES: I THOUGHT IT WAS THE BEST WAY TO COPE.
- 00:18:40.250 --> 00:18:43.220
- IT'S EITHER THIS OR IT'S I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF
- 00:18:43.240 --> 00:18:47.250
- AND I TOOK THAT REALLY SEVERELY.
- 00:18:47.270 --> 00:18:50.160
- THIS FIGHT HAPPENED, I TOOK THE CAR AND I DROVE OFF.
- 00:18:50.180 --> 00:18:54.270
- ON THE WAY HOME, I WAS DRIVING HOME,
- 00:18:54.290 --> 00:18:57.080
- THE SUICIDAL THOUGHTS REALLY CAME OVER ME
- 00:18:57.100 --> 00:18:59.200
- LIKE VERY STRONGLY.
- 00:18:59.220 --> 00:19:01.060
- I WAS LIKE THIS IS IT.
- 00:19:01.080 --> 00:19:02.200
- I JUST KNEW THIS WAS MY TIME.
- 00:19:02.220 --> 00:19:05.050
- I WAS LIKE THIS WAS THE END OF THE LINE.
- 00:19:05.070 --> 00:19:07.270
- SO I JUST WENT STRAIGHT TO MY ROOM, I GRABBED THE
- 00:19:07.290 --> 00:19:10.000
- PILL BOTTLE AND JUST DUMPED WHATEVER WAS LEFT
- 00:19:10.020 --> 00:19:13.000
- IN THE BOTTLE AND THREW IT IN MY HAND, AND I
- 00:19:13.020 --> 00:19:15.090
- PASSED OUT MOMENTS LATER.
- 00:19:15.110 --> 00:19:18.110
- - MOM: IN MY HEART, I JUST KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG.
- 00:19:18.130 --> 00:19:21.060
- I WENT IN, KNOCKED ON THE DOOR, HE DIDN'T ANSWER.
- 00:19:21.080 --> 00:19:25.100
- SO I OPENED THE DOOR.
- 00:19:25.120 --> 00:19:27.010
- I SAW THE PILLS NEXT TO HIS BED.
- 00:19:27.030 --> 00:19:30.160
- AND THEN I NOTICED THE CUTS ALL OVER HIS ARMS.
- 00:19:30.180 --> 00:19:35.020
- HE HAD CUT HIMSELF.
- 00:19:35.040 --> 00:19:37.260
- LIKE JUST HIS ARMS WERE JUST BLOODY WITH CUTS.
- 00:19:37.280 --> 00:19:44.100
- - DAD: I GOT A CALL FROM THE EAST COAST FROM MY WIFE
- 00:19:46.210 --> 00:19:49.270
- JULIA AND SHE WAS JUST BROKEN UP.
- 00:19:49.290 --> 00:19:54.260
- SHE WAS SO WRECKED.
- 00:19:54.280 --> 00:19:56.140
- AND SHE SAID I FOUND JAMES IN HIS BEDROOM.
- 00:19:56.160 --> 00:20:00.080
- SHE SAW AN EMPTY BOTTLE OF THE MEDICATION NEXT TO
- 00:20:00.100 --> 00:20:03.230
- HIM, AND THAT SHE RUSHED HIM TO THE HOSPITAL,
- 00:20:03.250 --> 00:20:06.250
- AND THAT SHE BELIEVED THAT HE HAD TRIED
- 00:20:06.270 --> 00:20:09.220
- TO COMMIT SUICIDE.
- 00:20:09.240 --> 00:20:11.290
- - WHAT DO YOU DO AS A MOM?
- 00:20:12.010 --> 00:20:16.230
- I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
- 00:20:20.040 --> 00:20:22.070
- I JUST HELD HIM AND I SAID NO, JAMES.
- 00:20:22.090 --> 00:20:27.150
- I SAID NO.
- 00:20:27.170 --> 00:20:30.100
- WELL, WHEN I GOT TO THE HOSPITAL, THE POLICE WERE
- 00:20:31.130 --> 00:20:35.050
- THERE. IT'S KIND OF A SCARY THING.
- 00:20:35.070 --> 00:20:38.190
- - DAD: HE'S UNDER SECURITY, A WARD OF THE STATE
- 00:20:38.210 --> 00:20:42.150
- BECAUSE HE'S TRIED TO TAKE HIS OWN LIFE.
- 00:20:42.170 --> 00:20:44.170
- - MOM: I DID NOT LEAVE THAT ROOM FOR THREE DAYS.
- 00:20:44.190 --> 00:20:47.090
- I SAT IN THE CORNER OF THE ROOM JUST CRYING AND
- 00:20:47.110 --> 00:20:51.160
- CRYING AND CRYING, AND JUST CRYING OUT TO MY
- 00:20:51.180 --> 00:20:56.070
- GOD IN HEAVEN, AND JUST SAID SAVE MY SON.
- 00:20:56.090 --> 00:21:01.080
- LET HIM KNOW THAT HE'S LOVED.
- 00:21:01.100 --> 00:21:04.130
- LET HIM KNOW THAT HE'S ADORED.
- 00:21:04.150 --> 00:21:06.160
- LET HIM KNOW THAT HE'S A CHILD OF GOD.
- 00:21:06.180 --> 00:21:11.180
- - DAD: AND I WOULD SPEND HOURS LAID OUT ON A FLOOR
- 00:21:11.200 --> 00:21:16.120
- JUST CRYING OUT FOR HIM AND BELIEVING THAT
- 00:21:16.140 --> 00:21:21.110
- GOD WOULD RESCUE HIM.
- 00:21:21.130 --> 00:21:24.180
- AND HE DID. HE DID.
- 00:21:28.150 --> 00:21:32.120
- - MOM: I JUST REMEMBER THAT SEASON OF COMING OUT OF
- 00:21:34.020 --> 00:21:36.290
- THE SUICIDE ATTEMPT JUST REALLY FEELING IN MY
- 00:21:37.010 --> 00:21:40.000
- HEART THAT I JUST NEEDED TO LOVE HIM, JUST REALLY
- 00:21:40.020 --> 00:21:43.010
- EMBRACE HIM AS A SON, AND JUST GO UP TO HIM AND
- 00:21:43.030 --> 00:21:47.000
- GIVE HIM A BIG BEAR HUG.
- 00:21:47.020 --> 00:21:49.100
- - IT WAS A VERY LONG PROCESS RECOVERING AND
- 00:21:49.120 --> 00:21:52.140
- EVERYTHING, AND RECEIVED A LOT OF PRAYER, STARTED
- 00:21:52.160 --> 00:21:55.230
- TALKING TO MY PARENTS MORE, BEING MORE OPEN TO THEM,
- 00:21:55.250 --> 00:21:58.150
- LIKE WITH THE MOODS AND HOW I WAS FEELING AT THE
- 00:21:58.170 --> 00:22:02.080
- TIME AND JUST KEPT HAVING TRYING TO STAY STRONG AND
- 00:22:02.100 --> 00:22:07.140
- HAVE FAITH AND JUST BELIEVE THAT SOMETHING
- 00:22:07.160 --> 00:22:10.290
- BETTER IS GONNA COME.
- 00:22:11.010 --> 00:22:12.190
- AND IT DID.
- 00:22:12.210 --> 00:22:14.240
- EVENTUALLY I FOUND MY GRANDPA'S OLD DIGITAL
- 00:22:14.260 --> 00:22:19.110
- CAMERA AND I JUST PICKED IT UP, TOOK IT OUTSIDE,
- 00:22:19.130 --> 00:22:22.240
- AND I WAS TROMPING THROUGH THE WOODS TAKING
- 00:22:22.260 --> 00:22:25.070
- PHOTOS OF RANDOM THINGS, JUST TRYING TO JUST
- 00:22:25.090 --> 00:22:28.150
- PUT EVERYTHING IN MY PERSPECTIVE.
- 00:22:28.170 --> 00:22:32.110
- I WAS OUT THERE FOR THREE OR FOUR HOURS.
- 00:22:32.130 --> 00:22:36.130
- - ONE DAY I REMEMBER JAMES SAYING MOM, I KNOW
- 00:22:36.150 --> 00:22:38.100
- I CAN'T DO SPORTS ANYMORE, AND HE PICKED UP
- 00:22:38.120 --> 00:22:42.190
- A CAMERA THAT MY DAD, HIS GRANDFATHER GAVE HIM, AND
- 00:22:42.210 --> 00:22:47.120
- HE SAYS I'M JUST GONNA GO OUTSIDE AND EXPLORE.
- 00:22:47.140 --> 00:22:49.190
- HE CAME BACK ONE EVENING AND HE SHOWED US
- 00:22:49.210 --> 00:22:53.190
- THE MOST AMAZING PICTURES.
- 00:22:53.210 --> 00:22:55.180
- - I JUST CAME HOME AND I FELT LIKE HAPPY.
- 00:22:55.200 --> 00:22:57.280
- I HADN'T FELT THAT.
- 00:22:58.000 --> 00:23:00.140
- I WAS SMILING AND I WAS LOOKING BACK THROUGH THE
- 00:23:00.160 --> 00:23:02.270
- PHOTOS, AND I WENT ON MY COMPUTER AND UPLOADED
- 00:23:02.290 --> 00:23:06.030
- THEM AND EDITED THEM.
- 00:23:06.050 --> 00:23:08.010
- I JUST FELT LIKE I HAD SOMETHING AGAIN.
- 00:23:08.030 --> 00:23:11.290
- - AND HE BEGAN TO JUST FLOURISH AS A MUSICIAN,
- 00:23:12.010 --> 00:23:16.020
- HE BEGAN TO FLOURISH IN PHOTOGRAPHY AND TAKE ALL
- 00:23:16.040 --> 00:23:19.060
- KINDS OF REALLY CREATIVE STEPS IN DOING NEW
- 00:23:19.080 --> 00:23:21.170
- AND ADVENTUROUS THINGS.
- 00:23:21.190 --> 00:23:23.260
- - MOM: HE JUST STARTED BELIEVING IN HIMSELF EVEN
- 00:23:23.280 --> 00:23:26.130
- THOUGH HE WAS DIFFERENT, AND HE WASN'T THE
- 00:23:26.150 --> 00:23:29.130
- FOOTBALL PLAYER ANYMORE, THE STAR HOCKEY PLAYER.
- 00:23:29.150 --> 00:23:32.140
- I JUST KEPT TELLING HIM JAMES, WHEN ONE DOOR
- 00:23:32.160 --> 00:23:36.100
- CLOSES, ANOTHER DOOR OPENS.
- 00:23:36.120 --> 00:23:38.250
- I KEPT TELLING HIM THAT.
- 00:23:38.270 --> 00:23:41.000
- I SAID SOMETIMES WE DON'T WANT THIS TO, WE DIDN'T
- 00:23:41.020 --> 00:23:45.230
- WANT THIS TO HAPPEN TO HIM, BUT I KNEW THERE WAS
- 00:23:45.250 --> 00:23:49.120
- A SPARK, THERE WAS A FIRE, THERE WAS IGNITING.
- 00:23:49.140 --> 00:23:53.050
- - THANKFULLY, KATY AND JAMES OVERCAME THEIR
- 00:23:53.270 --> 00:23:56.000
- PROBLEMS AND THEY ARE ALIVE TODAY
- 00:23:56.020 --> 00:23:58.130
- TO TELL THEIR STORY.
- 00:23:58.150 --> 00:24:00.220
- MANY THOUSANDS CANNOT.
- 00:24:00.240 --> 00:24:03.130
- EVEN THOUGH THIS PROBLEM MAY SEEM INSURMOUNTABLE,
- 00:24:03.150 --> 00:24:05.260
- THERE REALLY IS SOMETHING WE ALL CAN DO TOGETHER.
- 00:24:05.280 --> 00:24:10.050
- 16 YEAR OLD PATRICK TURNER, ALONE IN HIS ROOM.
- 00:24:11.030 --> 00:24:16.010
- BEFORE PATRICK TOOK HIS LIFE, HE WROTE A NOTE
- 00:24:16.030 --> 00:24:19.280
- CLEARLY ABOUT WHAT WAS ON HIS MIND AT THAT TIME.
- 00:24:20.000 --> 00:24:23.160
- IT'S A NOTE THAT SPEAKS TO SOME OF THESE
- 00:24:23.180 --> 00:24:26.170
- PROBLEMS, BUT IT'S ALSO A NOTE THAT OFFERS SOLUTIONS.
- 00:24:26.190 --> 00:24:31.100
- - DEAR FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND WHOEVER READS THIS.
- 00:24:31.120 --> 00:24:33.280
- THERE IS A KID OUT THERE WHO IS ALONE.
- 00:24:34.000 --> 00:24:35.200
- IT NEVER HURTS TO SIT WITH THEM AND ASK
- 00:24:35.220 --> 00:24:37.020
- HOW THEY'RE DOING.
- 00:24:37.040 --> 00:24:38.230
- NOBODY CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT PEOPLE MIGHT BE
- 00:24:38.250 --> 00:24:40.150
- GOING THROUGH. BE NICE TO EVERYONE.
- 00:24:40.170 --> 00:24:43.160
- AND MOST IMPORTANTLY BE INCLUSIVE.
- 00:24:43.180 --> 00:24:47.250
- - AND IT'S THOSE WORDS THAT DON'T JUST CHANGE
- 00:24:51.170 --> 00:24:55.150
- SCHOOLS BUT THEY CAN CHANGE KIDS, THEY CAN
- 00:24:55.170 --> 00:24:57.190
- CHANGE FAMILIES AND THEY CAN HELP ALL OF US.
- 00:24:57.210 --> 00:25:01.000
- THESE PROBLEMS MAY SEEM INSURMOUNTABLE, BUT MAYBE
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- IT'S AS SIMPLE AS LETTING ONE CHILD KNOW THAT
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- THEY'RE VALUED, THAT THEY'RE LOVED, AND
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- PERHAPS MOST IMPORTANTLY THAT THEY'RE NOT ALONE.
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- - SOCIAL MEDIA, I THINK IT'S HAVING A BAD
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- INFLUENCE ON PEOPLE RIGHT NOW, BUT WE CAN
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- DEFINITELY USE IT TO TELL PEOPLE THAT YOU ARE NOT
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- ALONE AND THAT YOU HAVE SOMEONE ELSE.
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- THERE ARE LOTS OF PEOPLE LIKE YOU.
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- - SO HERE'S WHAT I'M GONNA SUGGEST, AND I KNOW
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- THIS IS GONNA SOUND CRAZY, ESPECIALLY TO THE
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- MILLENNIAL. YOU'RE GONNA THINK I'M NUTS.
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- BUT I'M GONNA SUGGEST THIS.
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- LOOK UP.
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- LOOK UP FROM THAT DEVICE.
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- LOOK UP FROM THAT TABLET.
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- LOOK UP FROM LOOKING DOWN.
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- LOOK UP. AND LOOK UP AT SOMEONE AND SMILE.
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- I KNOW, IT SOUNDS SO SCARY.
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- OH, MY GOSH, TO MAKE EYE CONTACT?
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- LOOK UP AND SMILE.
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- - JAMES: THE SCARS I HAVE ON MY ARM FROM THE CUTTING
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- AND THE PAST, I'VE KIND OF JUST LEARNED
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- TO EMBRACE THEM.
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- I USED TO FEEL SHAME FOR THEM AND I WOULD LOOK AT
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- THEM AND WANT TO HIDE THEM.
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- I WORE LONG SLEEVES CONSTANTLY AT SCHOOL FOR
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- A WHILE BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT PEOPLE TO SEE THEM
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- OR ASK QUESTIONS, BUT I LEARNED TO EMBRACE THEM.
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- AND I GOT THIS TATTOO WHICH IT'S JOHN 16:33 AND
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- IT SAYS FOR I HAVE TOLD YOU THIS SO THAT IN ME
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- YOU MAY HAVE PEACE IN THIS WORLD, THAT THERE
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- WILL BE TRIALS AND SORROWS, BUT TAKE HEART,
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- I HAVE OVERCOME THE WORLD.
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- I'M GETTING ANOTHER TATTOO OF THIS
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- JESUS PORTRAIT JUST TO SYMBOLIZE, I'M GONNA PUT
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- IT RIGHT OVER ALL THESE SCARS TO SYMBOLIZE THAT
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- THROUGH ALL THIS, YOU'RE STILL LOVED.
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- I MEAN WHETHER YOU BELIEVE IN JESUS OR NOT.
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- YOU'RE LOVED OUT THERE.
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- SOMEONE LOVES YOU.
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- SOMEONE'S OUT THERE AND YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO THEM.
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- SO THERE'S NO REASON FOR YOU TO END IT BECAUSE
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- THEY WOULD BE, THEY WOULD BE BROKEN JUST AS
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- MUCH AS YOU ARE.
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- - JAMES IS LIVING.
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- IT'S NOT DOES HE WANT TO.
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- HE IS. HE IS.
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- HE'S IN THE MOMENT AND HE LOVES PEOPLE.
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- HE'S GOT INCREDIBLE FRIENDS.
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- HE'S GOT INCREDIBLE COMMUNITY AROUND HIM.
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- IT'S JUST BEAUTIFUL.
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- IT'S JUST NO LONGER AN ISOLATION,
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- A SELF-CENTEREDNESS.
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- THERE'S JUST INCREDIBLE, BEAUTIFUL, RECIPROCAL
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- RELATIONSHIP NOW.
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- - I'M JAMES ALEXANDER ANNIBALE AND I WANT TO LIVE.
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- - ANNOUNCER: SUICIDE IS ONE OF THE LEADING CAUSES
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- OF PREVENTABLE DEATH IN OUR NATION TODAY.
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- BY STARTING THE CONVERSATION, PROVIDING
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- SUPPORT AND DIRECTING HELP TO THOSE WHO NEED
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- IT, WE CAN PREVENT SUICIDES AND SAVE LIVES.
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- UNDERSTANDING THE ISSUES CONCERNING SUICIDE AND
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- MENTAL HEALTH IS AN IMPORTANT WAY TO TAKE
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- PART IN SUICIDE PREVENTION.
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- TO FIND IMMEDIATE HELP,
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- CALL THE NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION LIFELINE AT:
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- FOR FREE AND CONFIDENTIAL SUPPORT.
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- FOR MORE INFORMATION GO TO:
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- TOGETHER WE CAN SAVE LIVES.
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