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Ruth Graham | A God Who Forgives

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November 13, 2019
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Ruth Graham | A God Who Forgives

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  • - WE DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO THE PLACE WHERE WE'RE STUCK.
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  • WE DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO THAT INJURY.
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  • WE DON'T WANT TO GO BACK AND ASK FOR FORGIVENESS.
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  • LET'S BURY IT, LET'S COVER IT OVER
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  • AND JUST KEEP MARCHING FORWARD.
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  • BUT GOD WOULD HAVE US GO BACK TO THOSE PLACES
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  • AND DEAL WITH THEM HONESTLY;
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  • THEN FIND HEALING FOR THEM
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  • AND WE'RE ABLE TO MOVE FORWARD.
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  • BUT IF WE JUST COVER THEM OVER
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  • THEY ARE BURIED ALIVE, THEY WILL COME BACK.
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  • Announcer: RUTH GRAHAM ASKS WHAT'S HOLDING YOU BACK
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  • FROM FORGIVING OTHERS AND YOURSELF. NEXT!
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  • Sheila: WELCOME TO LIFE TODAY .
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  • I'M SHEILA WALSH.
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  • SO GLAD YOU COULD JOIN US.
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  • AND I'M SO GLAD
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  • THAT MY GUEST TODAY
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  • RUTH GRAHAM,
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  • DAUGHTER OF BILLY GRAHAM
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  • HAS WRITTEN
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  • A PHENOMENAL NEW BOOK.
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  • IT IS CALLED
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  • FORGIVING MY FATHER,
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  • FORGIVING MYSELF .
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  • RUTH, WELCOME!
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  • I ACTUALLY WANTED TO ASK YOU
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  • A QUESTION ABOUT THE TITLE.
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  • I'VE READ ALL SORTS
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  • OF THEOLOGICAL OPINIONS
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  • ON WHETHER WE'RE SUPPOSED
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  • TO FORGIVE OURSELVES.
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  • TALK TO ME ABOUT WHY
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  • YOU'VE TITLED THE BOOK
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  • Ruth: WELL,
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  • I STRUGGLED TO FORGIVE MYSELF,
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  • FOR REPEATED SINS,
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  • OVER AND OVER AGAIN
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  • I EVEN BEGAN TO WONDER
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  • IF I WAS EVEN SAVED.
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  • I THOUGHT, OH
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  • SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME.
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  • I'M MISSING A PIECE SOMEWHERE.
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  • SO I KNEW I HAD
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  • TO FORGIVE MYSELF.
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  • THEN I HAD TO FORGIVE
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  • MY FATHER
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  • FOR THE MANY ABSENCES
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  • IN MY CHILDHOOD.
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  • I WAS LEFT WITH
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  • A SENSE OF ABANDONMENT.
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  • I'M NOT BLAMING HIM.
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  • I KNEW HE WAS CALLED BY GOD,
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  • I SUPPORTED THAT.
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  • HE'S MY HERO.
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  • HE WILL ALWAYS BE MY HERO.
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  • BUT IT DID HAVE
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  • A PROFOUND EFFECT ON ME.
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  • HE WRITES IN HIS OWN MEMOIRS,
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  • THAT "HIS ABSENCES MUST HAVE
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  • HAD REPERCUSSIONS
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  • IN MY CHILDREN'S LIFE."
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  • I WAS ONE, YES.
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  • THERE WERE REPERCUSSIONS
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  • IN MY LIFE, SEVERE ONES.
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  • DON'T BLAME HIM.
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  • THEY WERE MY CHOICES.
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  • SO I HAD TO LEARN
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  • TO FORGIVE HIM.
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  • AND ALSO GOD.
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  • THERE IS NO THEOLOGY
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  • FOR THAT EITHER
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  • BUT SO OFTEN WE EXPECT
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  • GOD TO INTERVENE, TO CHANGE
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  • THE COURSE OF HISTORY,
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  • TO FIX OUR NEEDS
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  • AND IT DOESN'T HAPPEN
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  • AND WE GET ANGRY WITH HIM.
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  • AFTER MY FIRST DIVORCE
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  • I WAS VERY ANGRY WITH GOD
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  • THAT HE DID NOT INTERVENE,
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  • THAT HE DIDN'T STOP IT
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  • FROM HAPPENING.
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  • IT REALLY CAUSED ME TO WONDER,
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  • WHAT IS GOD ALL ABOUT?
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  • I HAD CLAIMED VERSES
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  • THAT THE LATTER
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  • WOULD BE GREATER
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  • THAN THE FORMER
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  • AND HE WOULD DO
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  • A NEW THING IN ME.
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  • I DIDN'T REALIZE THAT HE
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  • WAS DOING A NEW THING IN ME,
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  • TOTALLY DIFFERENT.
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  • FOR LACK OF A BETTER WORD.
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  • AND THEN IT IS AN INVITATION
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  • TO THE MIRACLE OF FORGIVENESS
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  • TAKE PLACE IN MY OWN FAMILY
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  • AFTER SOME PRETTY BUMPY ROADS
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  • BUT GOD BROUGHT US
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  • ALL TOGETHER.
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  • Sheila: I WANT TO GO BACK
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  • TO THAT FORGIVING GOD,
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  • BECAUSE I ACTUALLY DO THINK
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  • THAT IS ABSOLUTELY
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  • SCRIPTURALLY ACCURATE.
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  • BECAUSE IF YOU LOOK
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  • AT THE BOOK OF JOB,
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  • JOB RAILED AGAINST GOD,
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  • AND THEN HIS THREE
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  • WELL-MEANING FRIENDS
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  • SAY ALL THE RIGHT THINGS.
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  • YOU JUST WANT TO SMACK THEM.
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  • BUT AT THE END
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  • IT'S JOB THAT GOD COMMENDS.
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  • HE COMMENDS HIM FOR HIS...
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  • I THINK TO THE LEVEL
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  • YOU'RE WILLING
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  • TO BE HONEST WITH GOD
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  • IS AN INDICATION
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  • OF HOW DEEPLY YOU TRUST HIM.
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  • Ruth: YES! I DO TOO.
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  • Sheila: I WANT TO TALK ABOUT
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  • -- YOU TALK ABOUT CONFESSING
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  • TO ONE ANOTHER,
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  • NOT JUST TO KIND OF, LORD,
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  • I ASK FOR FORGIVENESS.
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  • I LOVE THE FACT
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  • THAT YOU HAVE WHAT
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  • I LIKE TO CALL "SAFE SISTERS"
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  • BUT YOU HAVE SOME PEOPLE.
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  • HOW IMPORTANT IS THAT,
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  • DO YOU THINK?
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  • Ruth: IT IS VERY
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  • IMPORTANT TO ME.
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  • I HAVE A WONDERFUL
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  • GROUP OF WOMEN
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  • IN CHARLOTTESVILLE, VIRGINIA
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  • WHO PRAY FOR ME
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  • ON A REGULAR BASIS.
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  • AND THEY'RE PRAYING FOR US
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  • THIS AFTERNOON.
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  • BUT I JUST NEED A PLACE
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  • WHERE I CAN BE HONEST
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  • AND VULNERABLE AND SAY,
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  • "I NEED HELP HERE.
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  • WOULD YOU PRAY FOR ME?"
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  • AND THEY HAVE BEEN
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  • LIFESAVERS FOR ME.
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  • AND WE ALL NEED COMMUNITY.
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  • WE CAN'T DO THIS ALONE.
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  • WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE
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  • IN COMMUNITY.
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  • AS YOU KNOW, WHEN YOU TRAVEL
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  • AND YOU'RE GONE ON WEEKENDS,
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  • YOU ARE ISOLATED SO YOU DO
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  • NEED A BODY AROUND YOU.
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  • MY PRAYER GROUP
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  • AND MY SUNDAY SCHOOL CLASS
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  • ARE THAT FOR ME
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  • AND I'M VERY GRATEFUL.
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  • TO BACK UP A TINY BIT.
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  • YOU TALK ABOUT
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  • FORGIVING YOURSELF.
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  • I'M THINKING OF A YOUNG WOMAN
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  • AND SHE'S HAD TWO ABORTIONS.
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  • HER THING IS,
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  • "HOW CAN I FORGIVE MYSELF
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  • FOR SOMETHING
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  • THAT I CAN'T UNDO?"
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  • WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO THAT?
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  • Ruth: WELL, SO OFTEN
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  • WE CAN'T UNDO IT.
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  • FOR INSTANCE,
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  • IF WE SHARED A CONFIDENCE
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  • WE CAN'T TAKE IT BACK.
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  • SO WE CAN'T UNDO IT.
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  • GOD UNDERSTANDS THAT
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  • AND RENEWAL.
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  • HE WILL TAKE THOSE CHILDREN,
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  • HE'S GOT THEM NOW, AND
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  • SHE WILL MEET THEM ONE DAY.
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  • ALL IS FORGIVEN.
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  • THERE IS HEALING.
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  • THERE IS WELCOMING.
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  • WE DON'T NEED
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  • TO BE AFRAID OF GOD.
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  • Sheila: YOU'RE RIGHT
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  • ABOUT HOW CHRIST MODELED
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  • TAKING OUR VERY REAL EMOTIONS
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  • TO GOD IN THE GARDEN.
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  • I FOUND THAT
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  • A VERY POWERFUL PASSAGE.
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  • JUST SPEAK TO THAT.
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  • Ruth: WELL, MY FRIEND
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  • DR. TERRY WARDELL IS THE ONE
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  • WHO SHARED THAT WITH ME.
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  • I THINK, EMOTIONS
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  • AS WE'VE TALKED BEFORE IS
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  • DO KNOCK US OFF OUR PINS.
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  • WE THINK,
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  • OH WE'RE BACK HERE AGAIN.
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  • BUT THOSE ARE EMOTIONS.
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  • WHAT JESUS DID IN THE GARDEN,
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  • HE WAS POURING OUT
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  • HIS EMOTIONS TO GOD.
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  • AND HOW DO WE KNOW THAT?
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  • BECAUSE JOHN OVERHEARD.
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  • IT WAS LOUD CRYING
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  • AND SOBBING AND WEEPING.
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  • JOHN HEARD THAT
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  • AND SO JOHN
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  • RECORDED IT FOR US,
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  • WHICH IS REALLY POWERFUL.
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  • WE CAN FOLLOW JESUS' EXAMPLE.
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  • WE DON'T HAVE
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  • TO TELL EVERYBODY.
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  • AND R.T. KENDALL SAYS
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  • ONCE YOU'VE CONFESSED IT,
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  • STOP TALKING ABOUT IT.
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  • JUST TALK ABOUT IT
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  • TO THE POINT YOU NEED
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  • TO GET HEALTHY BUT THAT'S IT.
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  • DON'T GO AROUND TELLING
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  • ALL THE DIFFERENT PEOPLE
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  • YOU NEED TO TELL AND
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  • TRY TO GET BACK OR WHATEVER.
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  • BE HONEST WITH GOD,
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  • HE CAN HANDLE IT.
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  • HE WANTS US
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  • TO BE HONEST WITH GOD.
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  • HE KNOWS IT ANYWAY.
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  • HE MADE US
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  • TO BE EMOTIONAL CREATURES.
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  • HE DOESN'T CONDEMN US
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  • FOR THAT.
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  • I LOVE JOYCE MEYER'S BOOK,
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  • GOD'S NOT MAD AT YOU
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  • BECAUSE SO MANY OF US
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  • THINK HE'S MAD AT US.
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  • HE'S JUST STANDING IN HEAVEN
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  • WAITING TO GET US.
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  • BUT HE'S NOT.
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  • Sheila: YOU CONTRAST THE WAY,
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  • THE DIFFERENT WAYS
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  • THAT PETER AND JUDAS,
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  • WHERE THEY WENT TO GET HELP.
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  • THAT'S VERY INTERESTING TO ME.
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  • WOULD YOU TALK
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  • A LITTLE BIT ABOUT THAT?
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  • Ruth: WELL, JUDAS,
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  • APPARENTLY BECAME VERY
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  • DISILLUSIONED WITH JESUS;
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  • THAT HE WASN'T
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  • THE CONQUERING HERO,
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  • HE WASN'T GOING
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  • TO SAVE THEM FROM ROME.
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  • AND SO HE BEGAN TO STAND
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  • A LITTLE CLOSER
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  • TO THE PHARISEES
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  • AND THE PEOPLE
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  • WHO WERE CRITICIZING JESUS.
  • 00:07:05.230 --> 00:07:06.280
  • AND HE BEGAN TO LISTEN
  • 00:07:06.280 --> 00:07:08.030
  • TO WHAT THEY WERE SAYING.
  • 00:07:08.030 --> 00:07:09.080
  • HE DECIDED THAT
  • 00:07:09.080 --> 00:07:10.130
  • HE WOULD BETRAY JESUS
  • 00:07:10.130 --> 00:07:12.150
  • INTO THEIR HANDS.
  • 00:07:12.150 --> 00:07:13.260
  • HE DID SO
  • 00:07:13.260 --> 00:07:15.120
  • BUT HE NEVER DREAMED,
  • 00:07:15.120 --> 00:07:16.200
  • I DON'T THINK,
  • 00:07:16.200 --> 00:07:17.240
  • THAT IT WOULD GO
  • 00:07:17.240 --> 00:07:18.260
  • AS FAR AS IT DID.
  • 00:07:18.260 --> 00:07:20.000
  • AS SOON AS HE REALIZED
  • 00:07:20.000 --> 00:07:21.060
  • THAT JESUS WAS IN FACT
  • 00:07:21.060 --> 00:07:22.110
  • GOING TO BE CRUCIFIED
  • 00:07:22.110 --> 00:07:23.290
  • FOR BEING AN INNOCENT MAN --
  • 00:07:23.290 --> 00:07:25.130
  • JUDAS MUST HAVE
  • 00:07:25.130 --> 00:07:26.180
  • BEEN HORRIFIED.
  • 00:07:26.180 --> 00:07:27.250
  • BUT WHERE DID HE TURN?
  • 00:07:27.250 --> 00:07:28.290
  • HE TURNED TO THE PHARISEES
  • 00:07:28.290 --> 00:07:30.010
  • AND THE SCRIBES
  • 00:07:30.010 --> 00:07:31.060
  • AND THEY THREW THE MONEY
  • 00:07:31.060 --> 00:07:32.110
  • BACK AT HIM AND SAID,
  • 00:07:32.110 --> 00:07:33.170
  • "WE DON'T WANT YOUR MONEY!"
  • 00:07:33.170 --> 00:07:34.220
  • HE CONFESSED
  • 00:07:34.220 --> 00:07:36.020
  • TO THE WRONG PEOPLE.
  • 00:07:36.020 --> 00:07:37.040
  • Sheila: AND THEN HE WENT OUT
  • 00:07:37.040 --> 00:07:38.070
  • AND HUNG HIMSELF.
  • 00:07:38.070 --> 00:07:39.090
  • Ruth: HUNG HIMSELF --
  • 00:07:39.090 --> 00:07:40.140
  • HOPELESS!
  • 00:07:40.140 --> 00:07:41.220
  • PETER DENIED JESUS
  • 00:07:41.220 --> 00:07:43.020
  • THREE TIMES,
  • 00:07:43.020 --> 00:07:44.050
  • NOT ONCE BUT THREE TIMES.
  • 00:07:44.050 --> 00:07:45.100
  • AND AS HE SAID THE LAST ONE
  • 00:07:45.200 --> 00:07:48.200
  • THE COCK CROWED
  • 00:07:48.200 --> 00:07:50.050
  • AND JESUS TURNED
  • 00:07:50.050 --> 00:07:51.190
  • AND LOOKED AT HIM.
  • 00:07:51.190 --> 00:07:52.240
  • CAN YOU IMAGINE
  • 00:07:52.240 --> 00:07:53.280
  • WHAT THAT DID TO PETER?
  • 00:07:53.280 --> 00:07:55.000
  • I JUST -- AND HE DIDN'T KNOW
  • 00:07:55.000 --> 00:07:56.050
  • THAT JESUS WAS GOING
  • 00:07:56.050 --> 00:07:57.070
  • TO BE RAISED AGAIN.
  • 00:07:57.070 --> 00:07:58.080
  • HE DID NOT KNOW
  • 00:07:58.080 --> 00:07:59.090
  • HE'D EVER SEE JESUS AGAIN.
  • 00:07:59.090 --> 00:08:00.120
  • BUT JESUS WENT TO THE CROSS
  • 00:08:00.120 --> 00:08:01.160
  • AND PETER THOUGHT
  • 00:08:01.160 --> 00:08:02.200
  • HE WOULD KNOW ABOUT HIM.
  • 00:08:03.280 --> 00:08:05.060
  • SO HE TURNED TO THE DISCIPLES
  • 00:08:05.060 --> 00:08:06.140
  • AND HE WAS IN THE ROOM
  • 00:08:06.140 --> 00:08:07.210
  • WHEN THE WOMEN CAME BACK
  • 00:08:07.210 --> 00:08:09.080
  • HE'S RISEN."
  • 00:08:11.250 --> 00:08:13.170
  • AND HE RAN, HE HAD TO GO.
  • 00:08:13.170 --> 00:08:15.210
  • AND PETER BEING PETER
  • 00:08:15.210 --> 00:08:16.250
  • JUST HAD TO MARCH RIGHT IN
  • 00:08:16.250 --> 00:08:18.000
  • AND SEE WHAT'S GOING ON.
  • 00:08:18.000 --> 00:08:20.060
  • BUT PETER CONFESSED
  • 00:08:20.060 --> 00:08:21.110
  • TO THE RIGHT PEOPLE.
  • 00:08:21.110 --> 00:08:24.030
  • HE WAS IN A COMMUNITY
  • 00:08:24.030 --> 00:08:25.080
  • OF PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTOOD
  • 00:08:25.080 --> 00:08:26.180
  • GOD'S GRACE --
  • 00:08:26.180 --> 00:08:28.030
  • AND THAT'S IMPORTANT FOR US.
  • 00:08:28.030 --> 00:08:29.120
  • WE NEED TO BE IN A COMMUNITY
  • 00:08:29.120 --> 00:08:30.160
  • THAT UNDERSTANDS GOD'S GRACE.
  • 00:08:30.160 --> 00:08:31.180
  • WE CAN'T OUT-SIN GOD'S GRACE.
  • 00:08:31.180 --> 00:08:34.110
  • Sheila: AND DON'T YOU LOVE,
  • 00:08:34.110 --> 00:08:35.140
  • AND I THINK
  • 00:08:35.140 --> 00:08:36.170
  • YOU MENTION IN HERE
  • 00:08:36.170 --> 00:08:37.190
  • THE FACT THAT ANGEL SAID,
  • 00:08:37.190 --> 00:08:38.210
  • "GO AND TELL THE DISCIPLES --
  • 00:08:38.210 --> 00:08:39.230
  • AND PETER."
  • 00:08:39.230 --> 00:08:41.000
  • BECAUSE HE WAS
  • 00:08:41.000 --> 00:08:42.030
  • PROBABLY WONDERING,
  • 00:08:42.030 --> 00:08:43.050
  • WELL, SHOULD I GO?
  • 00:08:43.050 --> 00:08:44.120
  • I WAS THE ONE WHO DENIED HIM.
  • 00:08:44.120 --> 00:08:45.160
  • THAT TO ME IS ONE OF
  • 00:08:45.160 --> 00:08:46.200
  • THE MOST GRACE-FILLED VERSES
  • 00:08:46.200 --> 00:08:48.160
  • IN ALL SCRIPTURE.
  • 00:08:48.160 --> 00:08:51.010
  • IN THE BOOK
  • 00:08:51.010 --> 00:08:52.090
  • OF GOING BACK TO GO FORWARD.
  • 00:08:53.140 --> 00:08:56.000
  • IT REMINDED ME
  • 00:08:56.000 --> 00:08:57.070
  • OF ONE OF MY FAVORITE
  • 00:08:57.070 --> 00:08:58.110
  • QUOTATIONS OF ALL TIME.
  • 00:08:58.110 --> 00:08:59.160
  • "LITTLE GIDDING"
  • 00:09:00.220 --> 00:09:01.240
  • WHERE IT IS LIKE,
  • 00:09:01.240 --> 00:09:03.000
  • "WE SHALL NOT CEASE
  • 00:09:03.000 --> 00:09:04.080
  • FROM EXPLORATION.
  • 00:09:04.080 --> 00:09:05.100
  • AND THE END
  • 00:09:05.100 --> 00:09:06.130
  • OF ALL OF OUR EXPLORING
  • 00:09:06.130 --> 00:09:07.160
  • WILL BE TO ARRIVE
  • 00:09:07.160 --> 00:09:08.160
  • WHERE WE STARTED
  • 00:09:08.160 --> 00:09:09.170
  • AND KNOW THE PLACE
  • 00:09:09.170 --> 00:09:10.180
  • FOR THE FIRST TIME."
  • 00:09:10.180 --> 00:09:11.200
  • WHAT DO YOU MEAN
  • 00:09:11.200 --> 00:09:12.220
  • BY GOING BACK TO GO FORWARD?
  • 00:09:12.220 --> 00:09:13.260
  • Ruth: WELL,
  • 00:09:13.260 --> 00:09:14.280
  • SOMETIMES WE'RE STUCK
  • 00:09:14.280 --> 00:09:16.000
  • IN A SIN OR A BAD MEMORY
  • 00:09:17.030 --> 00:09:20.030
  • OR A RESENTMENT,
  • 00:09:20.030 --> 00:09:21.200
  • A BITTERNESS AND WE HAVE
  • 00:09:21.200 --> 00:09:23.090
  • TO GO BACK TO THAT PLACE.
  • 00:09:23.090 --> 00:09:24.140
  • AND I USE HAGAR
  • 00:09:24.140 --> 00:09:25.190
  • AS AN ILLUSTRATION.
  • 00:09:25.190 --> 00:09:27.050
  • HAGAR WAS SO BADLY
  • 00:09:27.050 --> 00:09:29.070
  • TREATED BY SARAH
  • 00:09:29.070 --> 00:09:30.210
  • AND IT WAS SARAH'S DOING.
  • 00:09:30.210 --> 00:09:32.270
  • AND SARAH BLAMED ABRAHAM
  • 00:09:32.270 --> 00:09:34.180
  • BUT HE WAS ONLY DOING
  • 00:09:34.180 --> 00:09:36.020
  • HER BIDDING.
  • 00:09:36.020 --> 00:09:38.050
  • AND HAGAR FLED.
  • 00:09:38.050 --> 00:09:39.270
  • SHE WAS IN DANGER SO SHE FLED.
  • 00:09:39.270 --> 00:09:41.260
  • SHE FLED TO THE WILDERNESS.
  • 00:09:41.260 --> 00:09:43.230
  • THE WILDERNESS WAS NOT
  • 00:09:43.230 --> 00:09:45.060
  • A SAFE PLACE AT ALL.
  • 00:09:45.060 --> 00:09:46.220
  • AND SHE FLED TO GET AWAY
  • 00:09:46.220 --> 00:09:48.140
  • FROM SARAH.
  • 00:09:48.140 --> 00:09:49.150
  • SO SHE WAS WILLING
  • 00:09:49.150 --> 00:09:50.180
  • TO FACE THE WILDERNESS
  • 00:09:50.180 --> 00:09:51.230
  • RATHER THAN BE
  • 00:09:51.230 --> 00:09:52.280
  • IN SARAH'S TENT.
  • 00:09:52.280 --> 00:09:54.030
  • WHILE SHE'S THERE
  • 00:09:54.030 --> 00:09:55.240
  • THE LORD APPEARS TO HER
  • 00:09:55.240 --> 00:09:57.170
  • AND SAYS, "YOU NEED
  • 00:09:57.170 --> 00:09:59.260
  • TO GO BACK TO SARAH'S HOUSE."
  • 00:09:59.260 --> 00:10:01.230
  • [Gasps]
  • 00:10:01.230 --> 00:10:03.010
  • THAT'S THE LAST PLACE
  • 00:10:03.010 --> 00:10:04.060
  • SHE WANTED TO GO!
  • 00:10:04.060 --> 00:10:05.110
  • SO OFTEN THAT'S THE LAST
  • 00:10:05.110 --> 00:10:06.160
  • PLACE WE WANT TO GO.
  • 00:10:06.160 --> 00:10:07.220
  • WE DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO
  • 00:10:07.220 --> 00:10:09.000
  • THE PLACE WHERE WE'RE STUCK.
  • 00:10:09.000 --> 00:10:10.030
  • WE DON'T WANT TO GO BACK
  • 00:10:10.030 --> 00:10:11.070
  • TO THAT INJURY.
  • 00:10:11.070 --> 00:10:12.110
  • WE DON'T WANT TO BACK
  • 00:10:12.110 --> 00:10:13.160
  • AND ASK FOR FORGIVENESS.
  • 00:10:13.160 --> 00:10:14.250
  • WE DON'T WANT TO GO BACK.
  • 00:10:14.250 --> 00:10:15.290
  • LET'S BURY IT.
  • 00:10:15.290 --> 00:10:17.020
  • LET'S COVER IT OVER
  • 00:10:17.020 --> 00:10:18.070
  • AND JUST KEEP ON
  • 00:10:18.070 --> 00:10:19.110
  • MARCHING FORWARD.
  • 00:10:19.110 --> 00:10:20.160
  • BUT GOD WOULD HAVE US
  • 00:10:20.160 --> 00:10:21.200
  • GO BACK TO THOSE PLACES
  • 00:10:21.200 --> 00:10:22.270
  • AND DEAL WITH THEM HONESTLY,
  • 00:10:22.270 --> 00:10:24.130
  • THEN FIND HEALING FOR THEM
  • 00:10:24.130 --> 00:10:26.050
  • AND WE'RE ABLE
  • 00:10:26.050 --> 00:10:27.190
  • TO MOVE FORWARD.
  • 00:10:27.190 --> 00:10:28.230
  • BUT IF WE JUST COVER THEM OVER
  • 00:10:28.230 --> 00:10:30.070
  • THEY ARE BURIED ALIVE,
  • 00:10:30.070 --> 00:10:31.160
  • THEY WILL COME BACK.
  • 00:10:31.160 --> 00:10:32.280
  • Sheila: WHAT DO YOU DO
  • 00:10:32.280 --> 00:10:34.240
  • IF YOU GO TO SOMEONE
  • 00:10:34.240 --> 00:10:36.010
  • AND YOU ASK
  • 00:10:36.010 --> 00:10:37.280
  • FOR THEIR FORGIVENESS
  • 00:10:37.280 --> 00:10:39.110
  • AND THEY REFUSE TO GIVE IT?
  • 00:10:39.180 --> 00:10:42.180
  • Ruth: YOU'VE DONE YOUR WORK.
  • 00:10:42.180 --> 00:10:44.050
  • YOU CAN'T CHANGE THEM.
  • 00:10:44.050 --> 00:10:45.230
  • GOD WILL HAVE TO WORK
  • 00:10:45.230 --> 00:10:47.110
  • ON THEIR HEARTS.
  • 00:10:47.110 --> 00:10:48.160
  • BUT YOU HAVE DONE
  • 00:10:48.160 --> 00:10:49.190
  • WHAT GOD ASKED YOU TO DO.
  • 00:10:49.190 --> 00:10:50.250
  • YOU'RE OBEDIENT AND
  • 00:10:50.250 --> 00:10:51.280
  • YOU HAVE TO LEAVE IT THERE.
  • 00:10:51.280 --> 00:10:53.030
  • YOU CAN'T CONVINCE THEM.
  • 00:10:53.030 --> 00:10:54.060
  • YOU CAN'T ARGUE WITH THEM.
  • 00:10:54.060 --> 00:10:55.150
  • YOU CAN'T DEFEND YOURSELF.
  • 00:10:55.150 --> 00:10:57.060
  • JUST SIMPLY SAY,
  • 00:10:57.060 --> 00:10:58.140
  • "PLEASE FORGIVE ME."
  • 00:10:58.140 --> 00:10:59.250
  • AND IF THEY CAN'T,
  • 00:10:59.250 --> 00:11:01.060
  • GIVE THEM TIME.
  • 00:11:01.060 --> 00:11:02.060
  • THIS MAY BE NEWS TO THEM.
  • 00:11:02.060 --> 00:11:03.150
  • SO YOU NEED
  • 00:11:03.150 --> 00:11:04.230
  • TO GIVE THEM TIME TOO.
  • 00:11:04.230 --> 00:11:05.280
  • BUT I THINK, BY AND LARGE,
  • 00:11:05.280 --> 00:11:07.060
  • PEOPLE WANT TO FORGIVE.
  • 00:11:07.060 --> 00:11:09.130
  • Sheila: ONE OF THE ISSUES
  • 00:11:09.130 --> 00:11:10.220
  • THAT'S VERY MUCH TALKED ABOUT
  • 00:11:10.220 --> 00:11:12.080
  • AT THE MOMENT IS SEXUAL ABUSE
  • 00:11:12.080 --> 00:11:14.280
  • THAT'S BEEN COVERED UP
  • 00:11:14.280 --> 00:11:16.070
  • IN THE CHURCH.
  • 00:11:16.070 --> 00:11:17.090
  • THERE IS A LOT OF WRITING
  • 00:11:17.090 --> 00:11:18.130
  • ABOUT IT AT THE MOMENT.
  • 00:11:18.130 --> 00:11:20.010
  • SOMEONE ASKED ME, SHE SAID,
  • 00:11:20.010 --> 00:11:22.030
  • "MY GRANDFATHER WAS THE ONE
  • 00:11:22.030 --> 00:11:23.200
  • WHO ABUSED ME AND HE WAS
  • 00:11:23.200 --> 00:11:24.280
  • AN ELDER IN OUR CHURCH.
  • 00:11:24.280 --> 00:11:26.030
  • HE'S DEAD NOW
  • 00:11:26.030 --> 00:11:27.180
  • SO HOW CAN I FORGIVE HIM
  • 00:11:27.180 --> 00:11:30.050
  • WHEN I CAN'T GO
  • 00:11:30.050 --> 00:11:31.110
  • AND TALK TO HIM?"
  • 00:11:31.110 --> 00:11:32.230
  • IT DOESN'T DEPEND
  • 00:11:34.210 --> 00:11:35.290
  • ON THE OTHER PERSON.
  • 00:11:35.290 --> 00:11:37.040
  • IT DEPENDS ON YOUR HEART
  • 00:11:37.040 --> 00:11:39.120
  • AND YOUR OBEDIENCE.
  • 00:11:39.120 --> 00:11:40.230
  • LIKE WITH MY FIRST HUSBAND.
  • 00:11:42.010 --> 00:11:43.040
  • I TOLD GOD,
  • 00:11:43.040 --> 00:11:44.070
  • "YOU TAKE CARE OF HIM.
  • 00:11:44.070 --> 00:11:45.110
  • TELL HIM I'M SORRY."
  • 00:11:45.110 --> 00:11:46.150
  • BUT WE DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT.
  • 00:11:46.150 --> 00:11:48.230
  • GOD CAN GIVE US THE PEACE
  • 00:11:49.140 --> 00:11:52.140
  • AND THE SENSE OF FORGIVENESS
  • 00:11:53.000 --> 00:11:56.000
  • EVEN IF THAT PERSON
  • 00:11:56.000 --> 00:11:57.100
  • IS NOT THERE.
  • 00:11:57.100 --> 00:11:58.130
  • BECAUSE A LOT OF TIMES
  • 00:11:58.130 --> 00:11:59.170
  • PEOPLE ARE GONE.
  • 00:11:59.170 --> 00:12:00.280
  • Sheila: ONE OF
  • 00:12:00.280 --> 00:12:02.090
  • THE MOST INTIMATE
  • 00:12:02.090 --> 00:12:03.250
  • AND REVEALING CHAPTERS,
  • 00:12:03.250 --> 00:12:05.070
  • AND I THOUGHT
  • 00:12:05.070 --> 00:12:06.130
  • ONE OF THE MOST HONEST,
  • 00:12:06.130 --> 00:12:07.190
  • AND IT WOULD HELP
  • 00:12:07.190 --> 00:12:08.240
  • OTHER PARENTS,
  • 00:12:08.240 --> 00:12:09.270
  • IS YOU TALK ABOUT
  • 00:12:09.270 --> 00:12:11.010
  • YOUR RELATIONSHIP
  • 00:12:11.010 --> 00:12:12.050
  • WITH YOUR DAUGHTER, WINDSOR.
  • 00:12:12.050 --> 00:12:13.080
  • THAT'S BEEN QUITE
  • 00:12:13.080 --> 00:12:14.130
  • A JOURNEY IN ITSELF.
  • 00:12:14.130 --> 00:12:15.200
  • Ruth: YES, IT WAS!
  • 00:12:15.200 --> 00:12:16.220
  • YES, IT WAS!
  • 00:12:16.220 --> 00:12:18.100
  • WINDSOR HAD TWO BABIES
  • 00:12:18.100 --> 00:12:19.130
  • OUT OF WEDLOCK
  • 00:12:19.130 --> 00:12:20.200
  • WHEN SHE WAS A TEENAGER.
  • 00:12:20.200 --> 00:12:21.230
  • THE FIRST ONE
  • 00:12:21.230 --> 00:12:23.010
  • SHE RELEASED FOR ADOPTION
  • 00:12:23.010 --> 00:12:24.100
  • AND 22 MONTHS LATER
  • 00:12:24.100 --> 00:12:26.240
  • GOT PREGNANT AGAIN
  • 00:12:26.240 --> 00:12:28.040
  • AND HAD ANOTHER BABY.
  • 00:12:28.040 --> 00:12:29.130
  • I THOUGHT SOMETHING
  • 00:12:29.130 --> 00:12:31.040
  • WAS WRONG WITH HER.
  • 00:12:31.040 --> 00:12:32.080
  • I THOUGHT THIS KID,
  • 00:12:32.080 --> 00:12:33.120
  • CONNECTIONS ARE NOT BEING MET.
  • 00:12:33.120 --> 00:12:34.290
  • I DIDN'T KNOW
  • 00:12:34.290 --> 00:12:36.120
  • WHAT WAS HAPPENING.
  • 00:12:36.120 --> 00:12:37.220
  • SHE JUST REFUSED
  • 00:12:37.220 --> 00:12:39.020
  • TO OBEY ALL THE RULES.
  • 00:12:39.020 --> 00:12:40.140
  • SHE JUST WAS OVER THE TOP.
  • 00:12:40.140 --> 00:12:42.210
  • AND I HAD HAD IT WITH HER.
  • 00:12:42.210 --> 00:12:43.290
  • I LOVED HER.
  • 00:12:43.290 --> 00:12:45.010
  • I KNEW SHE WAS NOT
  • 00:12:45.010 --> 00:12:46.070
  • IN REBELLION.
  • 00:12:46.070 --> 00:12:47.140
  • I THINK SHE WAS HURTING.
  • 00:12:47.140 --> 00:12:48.190
  • SHE RELEASED THAT BABY.
  • 00:12:48.190 --> 00:12:49.230
  • SHE WAS WANTING
  • 00:12:49.230 --> 00:12:50.290
  • TO MAKE THE HURT GO AWAY.
  • 00:12:50.290 --> 00:12:52.140
  • HER FATHER WAS NOT
  • 00:12:52.140 --> 00:12:54.220
  • THAT KIND OF FATHER.
  • 00:12:54.220 --> 00:12:56.060
  • AND SO SHE WAS
  • 00:12:56.060 --> 00:12:58.110
  • LOOKING FOR LOVE
  • 00:12:58.110 --> 00:12:59.170
  • IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES.
  • 00:12:59.170 --> 00:13:01.020
  • WHEN SHE GOT PREGNANT AGAIN
  • 00:13:01.020 --> 00:13:04.000
  • SHE DECIDED
  • 00:13:04.000 --> 00:13:05.100
  • TO KEEP THAT LITTLE BOY,
  • 00:13:05.100 --> 00:13:06.190
  • PARENT HIM.
  • 00:13:06.220 --> 00:13:09.220
  • SHE REALLY STRUGGLED --
  • 00:13:09.220 --> 00:13:12.110
  • REALLY STRUGGLED.
  • 00:13:12.110 --> 00:13:13.230
  • SHE DID GO ON TO COLLEGE.
  • 00:13:13.230 --> 00:13:14.250
  • SHE GOT HER INSURANCE LICENSE.
  • 00:13:14.250 --> 00:13:16.070
  • SHE GOT HER ASSOCIATES DEGREE
  • 00:13:17.070 --> 00:13:20.070
  • WITH HONORS.
  • 00:13:20.070 --> 00:13:23.000
  • I MAINTAINED
  • 00:13:23.000 --> 00:13:24.130
  • A RELATIONSHIP WITH HER
  • 00:13:24.130 --> 00:13:25.220
  • BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK
  • 00:13:25.220 --> 00:13:26.270
  • SHE WAS IN REBELLION.
  • 00:13:26.270 --> 00:13:28.060
  • I THOUGHT SHE WAS HURTING.
  • 00:13:28.060 --> 00:13:29.250
  • WE WOULD HAVE HER FOR DINNER
  • 00:13:29.250 --> 00:13:31.130
  • AND HAVE HER FOR HOLIDAYS
  • 00:13:31.130 --> 00:13:33.090
  • AND WE WOULD GO
  • 00:13:33.090 --> 00:13:34.190
  • TO THE BEACH WITH HER
  • 00:13:34.190 --> 00:13:35.240
  • BUT IT WAS ALWAYS UNEASY.
  • 00:13:35.240 --> 00:13:36.270
  • SHE WASN'T
  • 00:13:36.270 --> 00:13:38.020
  • A SAFE PLACE FOR ME.
  • 00:13:38.020 --> 00:13:39.070
  • I DIDN'T WANT TO GET TOO CLOSE
  • 00:13:39.070 --> 00:13:40.120
  • BECAUSE SHE HAD REALLY
  • 00:13:40.120 --> 00:13:41.170
  • BROKEN MY HEART.
  • 00:13:41.280 --> 00:13:44.280
  • YEARS LATER
  • 00:13:44.280 --> 00:13:46.110
  • SHE MARRIED A WONDERFUL MAN
  • 00:13:46.110 --> 00:13:47.190
  • AND THEY HAVE TWO CHILDREN
  • 00:13:47.190 --> 00:13:48.220
  • OF THEIR OWN.
  • 00:13:48.220 --> 00:13:49.260
  • ONE WHO HAD
  • 00:13:49.260 --> 00:13:51.070
  • SEVERE BIRTH DEFECTS
  • 00:13:51.070 --> 00:13:52.160
  • AND WAS ON LIFE SUPPORT
  • 00:13:52.160 --> 00:13:53.280
  • FOR QUITE A WHILE,
  • 00:13:53.280 --> 00:13:55.130
  • AND STILL HAS A FEEDING TUBE
  • 00:13:55.130 --> 00:13:57.140
  • AND HE'S NINE YEARS --
  • 00:13:57.140 --> 00:13:59.030
  • OR TEN YEARS OLD NOW.
  • 00:13:59.030 --> 00:14:01.110
  • YOU WOULD NOT KNOW
  • 00:14:01.110 --> 00:14:02.260
  • HE WAS DISABLED BUT HE IS.
  • 00:14:02.260 --> 00:14:05.160
  • AND SHE STRUGGLED WITH
  • 00:14:05.160 --> 00:14:08.010
  • HER OWN PRO-LIFE ISSUES.
  • 00:14:08.010 --> 00:14:10.070
  • OBVIOUSLY,
  • 00:14:10.070 --> 00:14:11.150
  • CHOSE LIFE TWO TIMES
  • 00:14:11.150 --> 00:14:13.190
  • WITH THE FIRST TWO BABIES,
  • 00:14:13.190 --> 00:14:14.240
  • AND THEN THIS CHILD,
  • 00:14:14.240 --> 00:14:16.020
  • SHE CHOSE LIFE FOR THAT CHILD.
  • 00:14:16.020 --> 00:14:18.280
  • SO ONE DAY WE WERE INVITED
  • 00:14:18.280 --> 00:14:20.160
  • TO SPEAK AT
  • 00:14:20.160 --> 00:14:21.210
  • PRINCE EDWARD ISLAND, CANADA
  • 00:14:21.210 --> 00:14:23.110
  • AND I THOUGHT MAYBE THIS
  • 00:14:23.110 --> 00:14:24.170
  • IS A GOOD OPPORTUNITY
  • 00:14:24.170 --> 00:14:25.190
  • FOR WINDSOR
  • 00:14:25.190 --> 00:14:26.230
  • TO GET HER FEET WET.
  • 00:14:26.230 --> 00:14:27.290
  • Sheila: HAD SHE SPOKEN BEFORE?
  • 00:14:27.290 --> 00:14:29.060
  • Ruth: NO.
  • 00:14:29.060 --> 00:14:30.080
  • TO TALK ABOUT
  • 00:14:30.080 --> 00:14:31.100
  • HER OWN PRO-LIFE STAND.
  • 00:14:31.100 --> 00:14:33.000
  • AND SHE ALSO HAS
  • 00:14:33.000 --> 00:14:34.090
  • A LIFE-THREATENING DISEASE
  • 00:14:34.090 --> 00:14:35.120
  • WHICH WILL REQUIRE HER
  • 00:14:35.120 --> 00:14:36.170
  • TO CHOOSE LIFE FOR HERSELF
  • 00:14:36.170 --> 00:14:37.210
  • AT SOME POINT -- OR NOT.
  • 00:14:37.210 --> 00:14:39.140
  • SHE IS VERY HONEST ABOUT IT.
  • 00:14:39.140 --> 00:14:41.070
  • SHE SAID, "I MAY NOT
  • 00:14:41.070 --> 00:14:42.170
  • BE ABLE TO DO THAT."
  • 00:14:42.170 --> 00:14:43.280
  • BUT I WANTED HER
  • 00:14:43.280 --> 00:14:45.070
  • TO GET HER FEET WET.
  • 00:14:45.070 --> 00:14:46.170
  • SHE SPOKE WITH SUCH POISE,
  • 00:14:46.170 --> 00:14:47.250
  • SUCH GRACE,
  • 00:14:47.250 --> 00:14:49.130
  • AND I SAT THERE WITH TEARS
  • 00:14:49.130 --> 00:14:51.090
  • STREAMING DOWN MY FACE.
  • 00:14:51.270 --> 00:14:54.270
  • SHE WAS SO GRACIOUS
  • 00:14:54.270 --> 00:14:56.190
  • AND SO ENGAGED.
  • 00:14:56.190 --> 00:14:58.040
  • JUST HEALING TOOK PLACE.
  • 00:15:00.230 --> 00:15:03.230
  • I REALIZED,
  • 00:15:03.230 --> 00:15:05.070
  • BECAUSE AT THE SAME TIME,
  • 00:15:07.140 --> 00:15:09.060
  • MY FOURTH HUSBAND
  • 00:15:09.060 --> 00:15:11.000
  • HAD BEEN IN A TERRIBLE
  • 00:15:11.000 --> 00:15:12.110
  • AUTOMOBILE ACCIDENT AND HE
  • 00:15:12.110 --> 00:15:13.160
  • WAS ON LIFE SUPPORT MACHINES.
  • 00:15:13.160 --> 00:15:14.260
  • SHE CAME DOWN TO BE WITH ME.
  • 00:15:14.260 --> 00:15:17.070
  • AND SHE KNEW HER WAY
  • 00:15:17.070 --> 00:15:18.200
  • AROUND HOSPITAL MACHINES.
  • 00:15:18.200 --> 00:15:20.010
  • SHE WAS ABLE TO SAY,
  • 00:15:20.010 --> 00:15:21.120
  • "MOM, THIS MEANS THIS,
  • 00:15:21.120 --> 00:15:22.240
  • AND THIS MEANS THAT.
  • 00:15:22.240 --> 00:15:24.010
  • YOU NEED TO ASK
  • 00:15:24.010 --> 00:15:25.070
  • THIS QUESTION."
  • 00:15:25.070 --> 00:15:26.120
  • I RELIED ON HER.
  • 00:15:26.120 --> 00:15:27.190
  • SHE WAS WONDERFUL.
  • 00:15:27.190 --> 00:15:29.010
  • HEALING TOOK PLACE.
  • 00:15:29.010 --> 00:15:30.050
  • CAN I TELL YOU WHEN OR HOW?
  • 00:15:30.050 --> 00:15:31.070
  • I DO NOT KNOW,
  • 00:15:31.070 --> 00:15:32.130
  • BUT IT TOOK PLACE
  • 00:15:32.130 --> 00:15:33.170
  • AND I'M SO GRATEFUL.
  • 00:15:33.170 --> 00:15:34.170
  • AND SHE NOW LIVES
  • 00:15:34.170 --> 00:15:35.250
  • FOUR BLOCKS FROM ME
  • 00:15:35.250 --> 00:15:36.290
  • AND WE THOROUGHLY
  • 00:15:36.290 --> 00:15:38.020
  • LOVE ONE ANOTHER.
  • 00:15:38.020 --> 00:15:39.040
  • Sheila: OH, I LOVE THAT, RUTH!
  • 00:15:39.040 --> 00:15:40.080
  • Ruth: BUT IT'S BEEN A MIRACLE.
  • 00:15:40.080 --> 00:15:41.130
  • IT'S JUST A MIRACLE.
  • 00:15:41.130 --> 00:15:42.250
  • Sheila: BUT AGAIN
  • 00:15:42.250 --> 00:15:44.050
  • IT WAS PROCESS; IT TOOK TIME.
  • 00:15:44.050 --> 00:15:45.150
  • Ruth: YES!
  • 00:15:45.150 --> 00:15:46.160
  • IT TOOK MANY, MANY YEARS.
  • 00:15:46.160 --> 00:15:47.180
  • Sheila: ONE OF THE THINGS
  • 00:15:47.180 --> 00:15:48.210
  • YOU TOUCH ON IN THE BOOK
  • 00:15:48.210 --> 00:15:49.230
  • AND REALLY,
  • 00:15:49.230 --> 00:15:51.000
  • I LAUGHED WHEN I READ THIS,
  • 00:15:51.000 --> 00:15:52.050
  • ABOUT HOW DIFFICULT IT IS
  • 00:15:52.050 --> 00:15:53.100
  • WITHIN THE CHRISTIAN WORLD,
  • 00:15:53.100 --> 00:15:54.150
  • AND PARTICULARLY WITH WOMEN,
  • 00:15:54.150 --> 00:15:55.200
  • TO BE ABLE TO EXPRESS ANGER.
  • 00:15:55.200 --> 00:15:58.050
  • IT'S JUST "NOT ACCEPTABLE."
  • 00:15:58.050 --> 00:16:00.170
  • Ruth: NO, IT'S NOT!
  • 00:16:00.170 --> 00:16:02.030
  • I REMEMBER TELLING MY MOTHER
  • 00:16:02.030 --> 00:16:03.090
  • I WAS ANGRY ONE DAY.
  • 00:16:03.090 --> 00:16:04.130
  • AND SHE SAID,
  • 00:16:04.130 --> 00:16:05.160
  • OH YOU CAN'T BE ANGRY.
  • 00:16:05.160 --> 00:16:06.200
  • WELL,
  • 00:16:06.200 --> 00:16:07.210
  • WHAT WAS I TO DO WITH THAT?
  • 00:16:07.210 --> 00:16:08.220
  • WHAT WAS I TO DO
  • 00:16:08.220 --> 00:16:09.250
  • WITH MY ANGER?
  • 00:16:09.250 --> 00:16:10.270
  • I WAS FEELING IT.
  • 00:16:10.270 --> 00:16:12.050
  • AND OF COURSE,
  • 00:16:12.050 --> 00:16:13.070
  • I NEVER SAW MY MOTHER
  • 00:16:13.070 --> 00:16:14.110
  • AND DADDY ANGRY.
  • 00:16:14.110 --> 00:16:15.120
  • AND IF THEY WERE,
  • 00:16:15.120 --> 00:16:16.170
  • THEY HID IT VERY WELL.
  • 00:16:16.170 --> 00:16:17.240
  • I DIDN'T KNOW
  • 00:16:17.240 --> 00:16:19.010
  • WHAT TO DO WITH IT.
  • 00:16:19.010 --> 00:16:20.060
  • ONE DAY AFTER
  • 00:16:20.060 --> 00:16:21.170
  • MY HUSBAND'S INFIDELITIES
  • 00:16:21.170 --> 00:16:22.240
  • IT JUST EXPLODED.
  • 00:16:22.240 --> 00:16:24.020
  • I MEAN THE ANGER
  • 00:16:24.020 --> 00:16:25.120
  • JUST ROARED OUT AND
  • 00:16:25.120 --> 00:16:26.190
  • IT EXPLODED OVER EVERYBODY.
  • 00:16:26.190 --> 00:16:27.280
  • AND I DIDN'T CARE WHAT I SAID,
  • 00:16:27.280 --> 00:16:29.160
  • I DIDN'T CARE WHO IT HURT.
  • 00:16:29.160 --> 00:16:31.030
  • I WAS JUST ANGRY.
  • 00:16:31.030 --> 00:16:33.030
  • FORTUNATELY MY PASTOR
  • 00:16:33.030 --> 00:16:34.120
  • WAS WITH ME
  • 00:16:34.120 --> 00:16:35.240
  • AND HE HERDED THE CHILDREN
  • 00:16:35.240 --> 00:16:37.010
  • BACK TO THEIR HOUSE.
  • 00:16:37.010 --> 00:16:38.080
  • I WENT IN TO TALK WITH TED
  • 00:16:38.080 --> 00:16:39.210
  • AND MY ANGER FINALLY SPENT.
  • 00:16:39.210 --> 00:16:42.170
  • THAT'S THE SITUATION I WANT
  • 00:16:42.170 --> 00:16:44.020
  • TO ASK HIS FORGIVENESS FOR.
  • 00:16:44.020 --> 00:16:46.090
  • WHEN I GET TO HEAVEN,
  • 00:16:46.090 --> 00:16:47.110
  • AND GOD'S TAKING CARE OF IT
  • 00:16:48.150 --> 00:16:49.200
  • IN THE MEANTIME.
  • 00:16:49.200 --> 00:16:51.240
  • BUT THE BIBLE SAYS,
  • 00:16:51.240 --> 00:16:53.050
  • "BE ANGRY BUT DO NOT SIN."
  • 00:16:53.050 --> 00:16:54.140
  • AND I SINNED AT THAT POINT.
  • 00:16:55.180 --> 00:16:57.050
  • Sheila: BUT YOU'D NEVER
  • 00:16:57.050 --> 00:16:58.100
  • BEEN TAUGHT HOW TO BE ANGRY
  • 00:16:58.100 --> 00:16:59.120
  • AND NOT SIN.
  • 00:16:59.120 --> 00:17:00.190
  • Ruth: NO.
  • 00:17:00.190 --> 00:17:01.210
  • BUT YOU HAVE TO BE ABLE
  • 00:17:01.210 --> 00:17:02.230
  • TO EXPRESS VERBALLY
  • 00:17:02.230 --> 00:17:04.020
  • IN AN APPROPRIATE WAY.
  • 00:17:04.020 --> 00:17:05.080
  • I HOPE I GAVE MY CHILDREN
  • 00:17:05.080 --> 00:17:06.150
  • THE OPPORTUNITIES
  • 00:17:06.150 --> 00:17:07.220
  • TO SAY WHATEVER THEY WANTED
  • 00:17:07.220 --> 00:17:09.010
  • RESPECTFULLY, BUT SAY
  • 00:17:09.010 --> 00:17:11.020
  • WHATEVER THEY WANTED TO ME.
  • 00:17:11.020 --> 00:17:12.260
  • AND I THINK THEY HAVE.
  • 00:17:12.260 --> 00:17:14.260
  • AND SOME THINGS
  • 00:17:14.260 --> 00:17:16.070
  • I DIDN'T WANT TO HEAR.
  • 00:17:16.070 --> 00:17:17.100
  • [Laughter]
  • 00:17:17.100 --> 00:17:18.210
  • AND I SAID TO SOMEONE
  • 00:17:18.210 --> 00:17:19.290
  • THIS CHRISTMAS TIME, I SAID,
  • 00:17:19.290 --> 00:17:21.030
  • "I'VE LIVED LONG ENOUGH
  • 00:17:21.030 --> 00:17:22.050
  • TO LIKE MY KIDS."
  • 00:17:22.050 --> 00:17:23.080
  • AND THEY LAUGHED.
  • 00:17:23.080 --> 00:17:24.120
  • BUT I WAS PERFECTLY SERIOUS
  • 00:17:24.120 --> 00:17:25.150
  • BECAUSE THERE WAS A TIME
  • 00:17:25.150 --> 00:17:26.200
  • I DID NOT LIKE MY KIDS.
  • 00:17:26.200 --> 00:17:27.250
  • THEY GAVE ME A RUN
  • 00:17:27.250 --> 00:17:29.000
  • FOR MY MONEY.
  • 00:17:29.000 --> 00:17:30.060
  • BUT THEY'VE TURNED INTO
  • 00:17:30.060 --> 00:17:31.070
  • WONDERFUL, LOVELY,
  • 00:17:31.070 --> 00:17:32.120
  • YOUNG PEOPLE.
  • 00:17:32.120 --> 00:17:33.180
  • Sheila: WHEN YOU FINISH
  • 00:17:33.180 --> 00:17:34.260
  • THIS BOOK, WHEN YOU'VE
  • 00:17:34.260 --> 00:17:36.050
  • DONE THE FINAL EDITS
  • 00:17:36.050 --> 00:17:37.080
  • AND YOU'VE RELEASED IT TO...
  • 00:17:37.080 --> 00:17:39.030
  • I SEE YOU'RE WITH BAKER BOOKS.
  • 00:17:39.030 --> 00:17:40.150
  • THEY'RE MY PUBLISHING COMPANY;
  • 00:17:40.150 --> 00:17:41.190
  • THEY'RE AWESOME.
  • 00:17:41.190 --> 00:17:43.000
  • WHAT DID YOU FEEL IN YOURSELF?
  • 00:17:43.000 --> 00:17:45.070
  • WAS IT FEAR?
  • 00:17:45.070 --> 00:17:47.190
  • WAS IT EXCITEMENT?
  • 00:17:47.190 --> 00:17:49.100
  • Ruth: IT WAS FEAR!
  • 00:17:49.100 --> 00:17:50.240
  • I THOUGHT MAYBE I SHOULD GO
  • 00:17:50.240 --> 00:17:51.280
  • HIDE IN A CAVE SOMEWHERE.
  • 00:17:51.280 --> 00:17:53.140
  • MY FATHER
  • 00:17:55.090 --> 00:17:56.180
  • IS REVERED AROUND THE WORLD
  • 00:17:56.180 --> 00:17:58.050
  • AND I WOULD NEVER WANT
  • 00:17:58.050 --> 00:17:59.170
  • ANYBODY TO THINK
  • 00:17:59.170 --> 00:18:00.270
  • I WAS CRITICAL OR HARSH.
  • 00:18:00.270 --> 00:18:02.010
  • BY TWO PEOPLE I TRUSTED
  • 00:18:03.110 --> 00:18:04.200
  • TO MAKE SURE
  • 00:18:04.200 --> 00:18:05.210
  • THERE WAS NO HARSHNESS
  • 00:18:05.210 --> 00:18:06.270
  • OR NO EXCUSING OF MYSELF.
  • 00:18:06.270 --> 00:18:08.020
  • I DIDN'T WANT TO DO THAT.
  • 00:18:08.020 --> 00:18:11.000
  • I WAS NERVOUS.
  • 00:18:11.000 --> 00:18:12.130
  • WHEN THE EDITOR GOT BACK TO ME
  • 00:18:12.130 --> 00:18:13.240
  • AND SAID IT REALLY HELPED
  • 00:18:13.240 --> 00:18:15.050
  • HER VIEW OF FORGIVENESS,
  • 00:18:15.050 --> 00:18:17.190
  • I WENT...
  • 00:18:17.190 --> 00:18:18.280
  • [Sighing]
  • 00:18:18.280 --> 00:18:20.000
  • ...LIKE THAT.
  • 00:18:20.000 --> 00:18:21.010
  • Sheila: YOUR EDITOR
  • 00:18:21.010 --> 00:18:22.010
  • IS MY EDITOR.
  • 00:18:22.010 --> 00:18:23.010
  • Ruth: THEN YOU KNOW
  • 00:18:23.010 --> 00:18:24.020
  • HOW GRACIOUS
  • 00:18:24.020 --> 00:18:25.030
  • AND LOVELY SHE IS.
  • 00:18:25.030 --> 00:18:26.040
  • Sheila: SHE IS.
  • 00:18:26.040 --> 00:18:27.050
  • BUT I HAVE TO SAY
  • 00:18:27.050 --> 00:18:28.060
  • HAVING READ IT AND OBVIOUSLY,
  • 00:18:28.060 --> 00:18:29.070
  • I LIKE MANY,
  • 00:18:29.070 --> 00:18:30.080
  • LOVED YOUR PARENTS,
  • 00:18:30.080 --> 00:18:31.090
  • THERE IS NOT A HINT OF...
  • 00:18:31.090 --> 00:18:32.170
  • YOU HONOR THEM.
  • 00:18:32.170 --> 00:18:33.180
  • BUT YOU HELP US SEE
  • 00:18:33.180 --> 00:18:35.110
  • WHAT LIFE WAS LIKE FOR YOU
  • 00:18:35.110 --> 00:18:37.070
  • AND FOR MANY OF US
  • 00:18:37.070 --> 00:18:38.160
  • IN MINISTRY
  • 00:18:38.160 --> 00:18:39.250
  • OR WHO HAVE MINISTRY FAMILIES.
  • 00:18:39.250 --> 00:18:42.020
  • SO I JUST WANT TO SAY YAY YOU!
  • 00:18:42.020 --> 00:18:43.210
  • WELL DONE!
  • 00:18:43.210 --> 00:18:45.060
  • Ruth: WELL, EVANGELICALS
  • 00:18:45.060 --> 00:18:46.180
  • HAVE PUT MINISTRY
  • 00:18:46.180 --> 00:18:47.240
  • BEFORE FAMILY FOR MANY YEARS
  • 00:18:47.240 --> 00:18:49.090
  • AND IT IS A CONVERSATION
  • 00:18:49.090 --> 00:18:50.190
  • EVANGELICALS NEED TO HAVE
  • 00:18:50.190 --> 00:18:51.240
  • BECAUSE IT IS NOT RIGHT.
  • 00:18:51.240 --> 00:18:53.180
  • Sheila: ABSOLUTELY NOT.
  • 00:18:53.180 --> 00:18:55.050
  • WELL, I'M GOING TO TELL YOU
  • 00:18:55.050 --> 00:18:56.250
  • HOW YOU CAN GET A HOLD OF
  • 00:18:56.250 --> 00:18:58.120
  • THIS WONDERFUL BOOK OF RUTH'S.
  • 00:18:58.120 --> 00:18:59.190
  • I COULD NOT RECOMMEND IT
  • 00:18:59.190 --> 00:19:01.000
  • MORE HIGHLY.
  • 00:19:01.000 --> 00:19:02.080
  • BUT FIRST OF ALL,
  • 00:19:02.080 --> 00:19:03.220
  • I WANT TO SHARE SOMETHING
  • 00:19:03.220 --> 00:19:04.290
  • WITH YOU.
  • 00:19:04.290 --> 00:19:06.040
  • RUTH AND I HAVE BOTH
  • 00:19:06.040 --> 00:19:07.060
  • WALKED IN SOME OF THE HARSHEST
  • 00:19:07.060 --> 00:19:08.080
  • PLACES IN AFRICA
  • 00:19:08.080 --> 00:19:09.100
  • AND WATCHED CHILDREN
  • 00:19:09.100 --> 00:19:10.120
  • WHO ARE NOT LOOKING
  • 00:19:10.120 --> 00:19:11.170
  • THEY WOULD JUST LIKE
  • 00:19:13.080 --> 00:19:14.170
  • ONE BOWL OF FOOD A DAY.
  • 00:19:14.170 --> 00:19:16.150
  • ON MY LAST TRIP IN ANGOLA,
  • 00:19:16.150 --> 00:19:18.000
  • WE WALKED TO WHERE
  • 00:19:18.000 --> 00:19:19.100
  • IT WAS A GRAVEYARD
  • 00:19:19.100 --> 00:19:20.270
  • SIMPLY FOR CHILDREN.
  • 00:19:20.270 --> 00:19:22.250
  • AND EVEN AS WE WERE LOOKING
  • 00:19:22.250 --> 00:19:24.100
  • AT THE LITTLE MARKERS LEFT
  • 00:19:24.100 --> 00:19:25.250
  • WE REALIZED THERE WAS
  • 00:19:25.250 --> 00:19:27.130
  • ANOTHER FAMILY APPROACHING
  • 00:19:27.130 --> 00:19:28.250
  • WITH THEIR LITTLE ONE
  • 00:19:28.250 --> 00:19:30.040
  • AND SO WE ALL MOVED ASIDE
  • 00:19:30.040 --> 00:19:31.150
  • OUT OF RESPECT.
  • 00:19:31.150 --> 00:19:32.270
  • BUT HERE'S THE THING
  • 00:19:32.270 --> 00:19:34.070
  • THAT'S GOOD NEWS.
  • 00:19:34.070 --> 00:19:35.130
  • THAT ALL SOUNDS
  • 00:19:35.130 --> 00:19:36.200
  • LIKE DEVASTATING NEWS
  • 00:19:36.200 --> 00:19:37.250
  • AND IT IS
  • 00:19:37.250 --> 00:19:39.010
  • BUT THE GOOD NEWS IS
  • 00:19:39.010 --> 00:19:40.110
  • WE CAN CHANGE IT.
  • 00:19:40.110 --> 00:19:41.170
  • I'VE SEEN WITH MY OWN EYES,
  • 00:19:41.170 --> 00:19:42.230
  • I'VE WALKED INTO
  • 00:19:42.230 --> 00:19:44.010
  • A MALNUTRITION CLINIC
  • 00:19:44.010 --> 00:19:45.070
  • AND SEEN THESE BABIES WITH
  • 00:19:45.070 --> 00:19:46.160
  • RED HAIR AND SKIN PEELING
  • 00:19:46.160 --> 00:19:47.260
  • AND DISTENDED BELLIES.
  • 00:19:47.260 --> 00:19:49.060
  • LITERALLY,
  • 00:19:49.060 --> 00:19:50.160
  • THEY CAN'T LAUGH ANYMORE
  • 00:19:50.160 --> 00:19:51.250
  • BECAUSE IT TAKES
  • 00:19:51.250 --> 00:19:53.040
  • EVERY OUNCE OF ENERGY
  • 00:19:53.040 --> 00:19:54.150
  • JUST TO TAKE THE NEXT BREATH.
  • 00:19:54.150 --> 00:19:55.230
  • BUT THEN I'VE GONE
  • 00:19:55.230 --> 00:19:57.050
  • TO THE VILLAGE WHERE
  • 00:19:57.050 --> 00:19:58.120
  • WE'VE SET UP MISSION FEEDING
  • 00:19:58.120 --> 00:19:59.180
  • AND I'VE WATCHED
  • 00:19:59.180 --> 00:20:01.000
  • THESE CHILDREN LAUGH
  • 00:20:01.000 --> 00:20:02.070
  • AND STAND IN LINE.
  • 00:20:02.070 --> 00:20:03.140
  • THEY COME TO SCHOOL BECAUSE
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  • THAT'S WHERE WE FEED THEM.
  • 00:20:04.180 --> 00:20:05.260
  • NOT ONLY DO THEY GET A MEAL,
  • 00:20:05.260 --> 00:20:07.050
  • IT BREAKS
  • 00:20:07.050 --> 00:20:08.150
  • THAT CYCLE OF POVERTY
  • 00:20:08.150 --> 00:20:09.230
  • BECAUSE THEY GET AN EDUCATION.
  • 00:20:09.230 --> 00:20:10.260
  • WHO KNOWS IF ONE
  • 00:20:10.260 --> 00:20:12.010
  • OF THOSE CHILDREN IS GOING
  • 00:20:12.010 --> 00:20:13.070
  • TO BECOME THE PRESIDENT OF
  • 00:20:13.070 --> 00:20:14.080
  • ONE OF THESE AFRICAN NATIONS?
  • 00:20:14.080 --> 00:20:15.110
  • ORDINARY PEOPLE LIKE YOU
  • 00:20:15.110 --> 00:20:16.190
  • AND I CAN CHANGE THIS.
  • 00:20:16.190 --> 00:20:17.270
  • SO WE'RE ASKING YOU HERE,
  • 00:20:17.270 --> 00:20:19.040
  • WILL YOU PLEASE HELP US?
  • 00:20:19.040 --> 00:20:20.130
  • JUST $30 WILL FEED
  • 00:20:20.130 --> 00:20:22.230
  • THREE LITTLE ONES
  • 00:20:22.230 --> 00:20:24.120
  • FOR THREE MONTHS.
  • 00:20:24.120 --> 00:20:26.000
  • $50 WILL FEED FIVE CHILDREN.
  • 00:20:26.000 --> 00:20:28.130
  • $100 WILL FEED TEN.
  • 00:20:28.130 --> 00:20:30.100
  • $1.000 WILL FEED 100 CHILDREN
  • 00:20:31.050 --> 00:20:34.050
  • FOR THREE MONTHS.
  • 00:20:34.050 --> 00:20:35.180
  • SO PLEASE GO TO YOUR PHONE.
  • 00:20:35.180 --> 00:20:37.100
  • GIVE THE VERY BEST GIFT
  • 00:20:37.100 --> 00:20:38.260
  • POSSIBLE AND WE'LL BE ABLE
  • 00:20:38.260 --> 00:20:40.170
  • TO BRING YOU SOME FOOTAGE BACK
  • 00:20:40.170 --> 00:20:41.250
  • AND SHOW YOU THE ANSWERS
  • 00:20:41.250 --> 00:20:43.140
  • MISSION FEEDING BEGAN WITH A PROMISE
  • 00:20:46.260 --> 00:20:49.000
  • TO BE THERE IN TIMES OF CRISIS
  • 00:20:49.030 --> 00:20:51.030
  • FOR THOUSANDS OF HURTING AND HUNGRY CHILDREN
  • 00:20:51.060 --> 00:20:53.030
  • IN THEIR TIME OF NEED.
  • 00:20:53.060 --> 00:20:55.030
  • NOW MORE THAN EVER WE NEED YOUR HELP TO SAVE LIVES
  • 00:20:55.060 --> 00:20:58.020
  • BY FEEDING AND CARING FOR CHILDREN
  • 00:20:58.050 --> 00:21:00.040
  • ACROSS THE CONTINENT OF AFRICA.
  • 00:21:00.070 --> 00:21:02.040
  • WITH FOOD RESERVES GONE
  • 00:21:02.070 --> 00:21:04.040
  • AND MANY AREAS EXPERIENCING SEVERE FAMINE,
  • 00:21:04.070 --> 00:21:06.050
  • WE URGENTLY NEED TO REPLENISH OUR SUPPLIES
  • 00:21:06.080 --> 00:21:08.230
  • TO REACH THE 400.000 CHILDREN WHO ARE COUNTING ON US.
  • 00:21:08.260 --> 00:21:12.210
  • YOUR GIFT OF LOVE CAN BE THE MIRACLE ANSWER
  • 00:21:12.240 --> 00:21:14.280
  • TO A DESPERATE MOTHER'S PRAYER.
  • 00:21:15.010 --> 00:21:17.130
  • CALL NOW WITH YOUR LIFESAVING GIFT
  • 00:21:17.160 --> 00:21:19.130
  • OF $30, $50 OR $100
  • 00:21:19.160 --> 00:21:21.220
  • THAT WILL HELP FEED AND CARE FOR THREE, FIVE OR TEN CHILDREN
  • 00:21:21.250 --> 00:21:25.040
  • FOR THREE FULL MONTHS.
  • 00:21:25.070 --> 00:21:27.120
  • WITH YOUR GIFT, WE'LL SEND YOU
  • 00:21:27.150 --> 00:21:29.120
  • THE "ALTARED" WORSHIP CD BY ANTHONY EVANS.
  • 00:21:29.150 --> 00:21:31.160
  • THIS POWERFUL FULL-LENGTH ALBUM
  • 00:21:31.190 --> 00:21:33.160
  • INCLUDES UNIQUE VERSIONS
  • 00:21:33.190 --> 00:21:35.160
  • OF SOME OF TODAY'S MOST CHERISHED WORSHIP SONGS
  • 00:21:35.190 --> 00:21:37.180
  • THAT ARE SURE TO UPLIFT AND INSPIRE YOU.
  • 00:21:37.210 --> 00:21:40.130
  • WITH YOUR GIFT OF $100 OR MORE PLEASE REQUEST
  • 00:21:40.160 --> 00:21:42.150
  • THE "FILLED WITH FAITH" AND "...JOY TRAVEL MUG SET.
  • 00:21:42.180 --> 00:21:46.080
  • THESE 12-OUNCE MUGS ARE CRAFTED WITH LARGE HANDLES,
  • 00:21:46.110 --> 00:21:48.200
  • DOUBLE-LAYERED INSULATION
  • 00:21:48.230 --> 00:21:50.200
  • AND VACUUM SEALED LIDS TO PREVENT SPILLS.
  • 00:21:50.230 --> 00:21:52.260
  • EACH MUG INCLUDES A MESSAGE TO REMIND YOU
  • 00:21:52.290 --> 00:21:54.260
  • OF GOD'S BLESSINGS AND FAITHFULNESS.
  • 00:21:54.290 --> 00:21:57.140
  • FINALLY, WITH YOUR GIFT OF $1.000 OR MORE
  • 00:21:57.170 --> 00:21:59.270
  • TO HELP FEED AND CARE FOR 100 CHILDREN,
  • 00:22:00.020 --> 00:22:02.070
  • BE SURE TO REQUEST OUR COMMEMORATIVE BRONZE SCULPTURE,
  • 00:22:02.100 --> 00:22:04.230
  • "SAFE IN THE SHEPHERD'S ARMS."
  • 00:22:04.260 --> 00:22:07.260
  • PLEASE CALL, WRITE, OR MAKE YOUR GIFT ONLINE TODAY.
  • 00:22:07.290 --> 00:22:12.290
  • Sheila: THANK YOU SO MUCH.
  • 00:22:15.020 --> 00:22:18.020
  • PLEASE KEEP CALLING.
  • 00:22:18.020 --> 00:22:19.110
  • WE WANT TO CONTINUE
  • 00:22:19.110 --> 00:22:20.180
  • TO BE ABLE TO MEET
  • 00:22:20.180 --> 00:22:21.220
  • OUR COMMITMENT
  • 00:22:21.220 --> 00:22:22.260
  • TO FEED THOUSANDS OF CHILDREN
  • 00:22:22.260 --> 00:22:24.010
  • IN AFRICA.
  • 00:22:24.010 --> 00:22:25.090
  • RUTH, I WANT TO THANK YOU
  • 00:22:25.090 --> 00:22:26.160
  • SO MUCH FOR BEING OUR GUEST
  • 00:22:26.160 --> 00:22:27.210
  • HERE AT LIFE .
  • 00:22:27.210 --> 00:22:28.290
  • Ruth: THANK YOU FOR HAVING ME.
  • 00:22:28.290 --> 00:22:30.040
  • IT'S BEEN A JOY.
  • 00:22:30.040 --> 00:22:31.110
  • Sheila: I WANT TO THANK YOU
  • 00:22:31.110 --> 00:22:32.180
  • TOO FOR THIS INCREDIBLE BOOK.
  • 00:22:32.180 --> 00:22:33.270
  • WE JUST LOOK FORWARD
  • 00:22:33.270 --> 00:22:35.050
  • TO SENDING IT TO YOU.
  • 00:22:35.050 --> 00:22:36.160
  • SO FOR JAMES AND BETTY,
  • 00:22:36.160 --> 00:22:37.210
  • FROM ALL OF US HERE
  • 00:22:37.210 --> 00:22:38.260
  • AT LIFE OUTREACH ,
  • 00:22:38.260 --> 00:22:40.010
  • I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU
  • 00:22:40.010 --> 00:22:41.080
  • SO MUCH FOR BEING WITH US
  • 00:22:41.080 --> 00:22:42.130
  • AND WE'LL SEE YOU NEXT TIME
  • 00:22:42.130 --> 00:22:43.180
  • WHEN DARKNESS TRIES TO ROLL OVER MY BONES
  • 00:23:09.280 --> 00:23:16.160
  • WHEN SORROW TRIES TO STEAL THE JOY I OWN
  • 00:23:16.190 --> 00:23:23.060
  • WHEN BROKENNESS AND PAIN IS ALL I KNOW
  • 00:23:23.090 --> 00:23:28.160
  • OH, I WON'T BE SHAKEN
  • 00:23:28.190 --> 00:23:32.010
  • I WON'T BE SHAKEN
  • 00:23:32.040 --> 00:23:36.160
  • 'CAUSE MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:23:36.190 --> 00:23:39.290
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE
  • 00:23:40.020 --> 00:23:43.060
  • MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:23:43.090 --> 00:23:46.180
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE
  • 00:23:46.210 --> 00:23:49.250
  • MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:23:49.280 --> 00:23:53.060
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE!
  • 00:23:53.090 --> 00:23:57.130
  • SHAME NO LONGER HAS A PLACE TO HIDE
  • 00:24:03.190 --> 00:24:09.250
  • FOR I AM NOT A CAPTIVE TO THE LIES
  • 00:24:09.280 --> 00:24:16.100
  • I'M NOT AFRAID TO LEAVE MY PAST BEHIND
  • 00:24:16.130 --> 00:24:21.170
  • NO, I WON'T BE SHAKEN
  • 00:24:21.200 --> 00:24:24.290
  • I WON'T BE SHAKEN!
  • 00:24:25.020 --> 00:24:28.090
  • 'CAUSE MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:24:29.260 --> 00:24:33.070
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE
  • 00:24:33.100 --> 00:24:36.160
  • MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:24:36.190 --> 00:24:39.250
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE
  • 00:24:39.280 --> 00:24:43.050
  • MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:24:43.080 --> 00:24:46.140
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE!
  • 00:24:46.170 --> 00:24:50.250
  • THERE'S POWER THAT CAN BREAK OFF EVERY CHAIN
  • 00:25:03.080 --> 00:25:09.200
  • THERE'S POWER THAT CAN EMPTY OUT A GRAVE
  • 00:25:09.230 --> 00:25:16.140
  • THERE'S RESURRECTION POWER THAT CAN SAVE
  • 00:25:16.170 --> 00:25:21.250
  • THERE'S POWER IN YOUR NAME
  • 00:25:21.280 --> 00:25:25.100
  • POWER IN YOUR NAME
  • 00:25:25.130 --> 00:25:29.260
  • THERE'S POWER THAT CAN BREAK OFF EVERY CHAIN
  • 00:25:29.290 --> 00:25:36.120
  • THERE'S POWER THAT CAN EMPTY OUT A GRAVE
  • 00:25:36.150 --> 00:25:43.040
  • THERE'S RESURRECTION POWER THAT CAN SAVE
  • 00:25:43.070 --> 00:25:48.060
  • THERE'S POWER IN YOUR NAME
  • 00:25:48.090 --> 00:25:51.290
  • POWER IN YOUR NAME!
  • 00:25:52.020 --> 00:25:56.070
  • 'CAUSE MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:25:56.100 --> 00:25:59.290
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE
  • 00:26:00.040 --> 00:26:03.050
  • MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:26:03.080 --> 00:26:06.160
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE
  • 00:26:06.190 --> 00:26:09.230
  • MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:26:09.260 --> 00:26:13.050
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE!
  • 00:26:13.080 --> 00:26:17.050
  • I KNOW MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:26:23.240 --> 00:26:26.160
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE
  • 00:26:26.190 --> 00:26:29.230
  • MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:26:29.260 --> 00:26:33.040
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE
  • 00:26:33.070 --> 00:26:36.140
  • MY FEAR DOESN'T STAND A CHANCE
  • 00:26:36.170 --> 00:26:39.250
  • WHEN I STAND IN YOUR LOVE!
  • 00:26:39.280 --> 00:26:46.010
  • I'M STANDING IN YOUR LOVE
  • 00:26:48.060 --> 00:26:51.270
  • - I, IN THIS MOMENT, MY HEART IS BROKEN
  • 00:27:02.150 --> 00:27:04.120
  • BUT I HAVE A CONFIDENCE.
  • 00:27:04.150 --> 00:27:06.120
  • Announcer: ANTHONY EVANS OPENS UP ABOUT THE RECENT LIFE-ALTERING EVENTS
  • 00:27:06.150 --> 00:27:09.210
  • IN HIS FAMILY -- TOMORROW!
  • 00:27:09.240 --> 00:27:12.190
  • LIFE TODAY IS MADE POSSIBLE BY THE SUPPORTERS OF LIFE OUTREACH INTERNATIONAL.
  • 00:27:12.220 --> 00:27:16.040
  • YOUR GIFT WILL BE USED EXCLUSIVELY FOR THE EXEMPT PURPOSES OF LIFE.
  • 00:27:16.070 --> 00:27:19.070
  • THE MINISTRY FEATURES SPECIFIC OUTREACHES
  • 00:27:19.100 --> 00:27:21.090
  • AS EXAMPLES OF THE PROGRAMS IT SUPPORTS AND CONDUCTS.
  • 00:27:21.120 --> 00:27:23.110
  • GIFTS ARE CONSIDERED TO BE WITHOUT RESTRICTION
  • 00:27:23.140 --> 00:27:25.130
  • AS TO USE UNLESS EXPLICITLY STIPULATED BY THE DONOR.
  • 00:27:25.160 --> 00:27:27.170
  • THE MINISTRY IS A MEMBER OF THE E.C.F.A.
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