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Lysa TerKeurst | The Pathway to Healing

Life Today with James Robison

November 25, 2020

27:29

The author of Forgiving What You Can’t Forget discusses how she found healing through forgiveness and counseling.

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Lysa TerKeurst | The Pathway to Healing

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- I HAD HADA CONVERSATION WITH ART
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WHERE I HAD TO SAY,"I CAN LOVE YOU,
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AND I WILL WORK ONFORGIVING YOU
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BUT I WILLNOT SHARE YOU."
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I REALLY THOUGHTOUR MARRIAGE WAS OVER
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BECAUSE OF CHOICES THATI FINALLY REALIZED
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I CAN'T WORK HARDER ON HIMTHAN HE'S WORKING ON HIM.
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AFTER LYSA TERKEURST ENDUREDDEVASTATING HEARTBREAK,
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SHE REALIZED THE PROCESSAND GOAL OF FORGIVENESS.
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♪
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Sheila: WELCOME TO LIFE TODAY .
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Sheila: WELCOME TO LIFE TODAY .I'M SHEILA WALSH.
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Sheila: WELCOME TO LIFE TODAY .I'M SHEILA WALSH.I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE JOINING US.
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I'M SHEILA WALSH.I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE JOINING US.ONE OF THE PERKS OF THE JOB,
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I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE JOINING US.ONE OF THE PERKS OF THE JOB,IF YOU LIKE, IS THAT SOMETIMES
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COPY OF A BOOK.
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COPY OF A BOOK.THIS BOOK JUST CAME OUT
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COPY OF A BOOK.THIS BOOK JUST CAME OUTAND YOU CAN GRAB A COPY TODAY.
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THIS BOOK JUST CAME OUTAND YOU CAN GRAB A COPY TODAY.BUT WHEN I READ THIS BOOK,
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AND YOU CAN GRAB A COPY TODAY.BUT WHEN I READ THIS BOOK,I MEAN PARTS OF IT
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BUT WHEN I READ THIS BOOK,I MEAN PARTS OF ITMADE ME SMILE BUT A LOT OF IT
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I MEAN PARTS OF ITMADE ME SMILE BUT A LOT OF ITBROUGHT ME TO TEARS.
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MADE ME SMILE BUT A LOT OF ITBROUGHT ME TO TEARS.AND A LOT OF IT I HAD TO SAY,
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BROUGHT ME TO TEARS.AND A LOT OF IT I HAD TO SAY,OKAY, I'M PUTTING THAT DOWN
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AND A LOT OF IT I HAD TO SAY,OKAY, I'M PUTTING THAT DOWNFOR A MINUTE BECAUSE
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OKAY, I'M PUTTING THAT DOWNFOR A MINUTE BECAUSEI NEED TO THINK ABOUT THIS.
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FOR A MINUTE BECAUSEI NEED TO THINK ABOUT THIS.IT'S THAT KIND OF BOOK.
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I NEED TO THINK ABOUT THIS.IT'S THAT KIND OF BOOK.SO PLEASE WELCOME MY GUEST
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IT'S THAT KIND OF BOOK.SO PLEASE WELCOME MY GUESTLYSA TERKEURST, FORGIVING
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SO PLEASE WELCOME MY GUESTLYSA TERKEURST, FORGIVINGWHAT YOU CAN'T FORGET .
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LYSA TERKEURST, FORGIVINGWHAT YOU CAN'T FORGET .Lysa: THANK YOU, SHEILA.
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WHAT YOU CAN'T FORGET .Lysa: THANK YOU, SHEILA.Sheila: HOW LONG DID IT
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Lysa: WELL, I SPENT ABOUT
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Lysa: WELL, I SPENT ABOUTSIX MONTHS RESISTANT
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SIX MONTHS RESISTANTTO WANTING TO FORGIVE SO
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TO WANTING TO FORGIVE SOTHAT WAS NOT VERY CONVENIENT
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A BOOK ON FORGIVENESS BUT
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A BOOK ON FORGIVENESS BUTREFUSING TO FORGIVE MYSELF
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A BOOK ON FORGIVENESS BUTREFUSING TO FORGIVE MYSELFAND TRYING TO WALK
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REFUSING TO FORGIVE MYSELFAND TRYING TO WALKTHROUGH THE PROCESS.
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AND TRYING TO WALKTHROUGH THE PROCESS.BUT FEELING LIKE SURELY
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THROUGH THE PROCESS.BUT FEELING LIKE SURELYTHERE IS AN EXCEPTION.
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BUT FEELING LIKE SURELYTHERE IS AN EXCEPTION.SURELY THERE IS A LOOPHOLE
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THERE IS AN EXCEPTION.SURELY THERE IS A LOOPHOLEIN THE BIBLE.
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SURELY THERE IS A LOOPHOLEIN THE BIBLE.GOD REALLY CAN'T HAVE
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IN THE BIBLE.GOD REALLY CAN'T HAVEGIVEN US THIS PRINCIPLE,
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GOD REALLY CAN'T HAVEGIVEN US THIS PRINCIPLE,THIS CORNERSTONE OF
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GIVEN US THIS PRINCIPLE,THIS CORNERSTONE OFOUR FAITH, OF FORGIVENESS.
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THIS CORNERSTONE OFOUR FAITH, OF FORGIVENESS.SURELY HE DIDN'T MEAN ALWAYS .
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OUR FAITH, OF FORGIVENESS.SURELY HE DIDN'T MEAN ALWAYS .SO I SPENT OVER 1.000 HOURS
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SURELY HE DIDN'T MEAN ALWAYS .SO I SPENT OVER 1.000 HOURSSTUDYING WHAT THE BIBLE
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SO I SPENT OVER 1.000 HOURSSTUDYING WHAT THE BIBLEACTUALLY DOES SAY
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STUDYING WHAT THE BIBLEACTUALLY DOES SAYAND DOES NOT SAY
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ACTUALLY DOES SAYAND DOES NOT SAYABOUT FORGIVENESS.
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AND DOES NOT SAYABOUT FORGIVENESS.AND FORGIVENESS IS
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ABOUT FORGIVENESS.AND FORGIVENESS ISA COMMAND BY GOD BUT
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AND FORGIVENESS ISA COMMAND BY GOD BUTIT IS NOT A CRUEL COMMAND.
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A COMMAND BY GOD BUTIT IS NOT A CRUEL COMMAND.IT IS ACTUALLY
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IT IS NOT A CRUEL COMMAND.IT IS ACTUALLYHIS DIVINE MERCY.
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IT IS ACTUALLYHIS DIVINE MERCY.BUT IT TOOK ME ABOUT
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HIS DIVINE MERCY.BUT IT TOOK ME ABOUTSIX MONTHS TO EVEN WARM UP
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BUT IT TOOK ME ABOUTSIX MONTHS TO EVEN WARM UPTO THAT IDEA BECAUSE
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SIX MONTHS TO EVEN WARM UPTO THAT IDEA BECAUSEI WAS SO HURT.
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TO THAT IDEA BECAUSEI WAS SO HURT.AND THEN IT TOOK ME ABOUT
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I WAS SO HURT.AND THEN IT TOOK ME ABOUTANOTHER EIGHT MONTHS
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AND THEN IT TOOK ME ABOUTANOTHER EIGHT MONTHSTO WRITE IT.
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ANOTHER EIGHT MONTHSTO WRITE IT.Sheila: I WONDERED
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TO WRITE IT.Sheila: I WONDEREDAT WHAT POINT IN YOUR JOURNEY
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Sheila: I WONDEREDAT WHAT POINT IN YOUR JOURNEYBECAUSE YOUR JOURNEY WASN'T,
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AT WHAT POINT IN YOUR JOURNEYBECAUSE YOUR JOURNEY WASN'T,AS YOU SAID ON
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BECAUSE YOUR JOURNEY WASN'T,AS YOU SAID ONTHE OTHER PROGRAM,
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AS YOU SAID ONTHE OTHER PROGRAM,A DEVASTATING SITUATION
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THE OTHER PROGRAM,A DEVASTATING SITUATIONOF REPENTANCE
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A DEVASTATING SITUATIONOF REPENTANCEAND A RESTORATION.
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OF REPENTANCEAND A RESTORATION.IT WAS A LONG PROCESS.
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AND A RESTORATION.IT WAS A LONG PROCESS.WHEN DID YOU ACTUALLY
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IT WAS A LONG PROCESS.WHEN DID YOU ACTUALLYDETERMINE TO PURSUE
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WHEN DID YOU ACTUALLYDETERMINE TO PURSUEFORGIVENESS?
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DETERMINE TO PURSUEFORGIVENESS?Lysa: WELL, I DID NOT DECIDE
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FORGIVENESS?Lysa: WELL, I DID NOT DECIDETO PURSUE FORGIVENESS.
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Lysa: WELL, I DID NOT DECIDETO PURSUE FORGIVENESS.I DECIDED I NEEDED HELP.
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TO PURSUE FORGIVENESS.I DECIDED I NEEDED HELP.AND SO I WENT TO MY COUNSELOR.
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I DECIDED I NEEDED HELP.AND SO I WENT TO MY COUNSELOR.THIS WAS AFTER, I THINK
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AND SO I WENT TO MY COUNSELOR.THIS WAS AFTER, I THINKIT WAS STILL VERY MUCH
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THIS WAS AFTER, I THINKIT WAS STILL VERY MUCHIN THE TRAUMA SEASON
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IT WAS STILL VERY MUCHIN THE TRAUMA SEASONOF MY MARRIAGE WHERE
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IN THE TRAUMA SEASONOF MY MARRIAGE WHEREI THOUGHT WE WERE ABOUT DONE
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OF MY MARRIAGE WHEREI THOUGHT WE WERE ABOUT DONEWITH HEALING FROM THE AFFAIR
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I THOUGHT WE WERE ABOUT DONEWITH HEALING FROM THE AFFAIRAND THE ADDICTIONS THAT
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WITH HEALING FROM THE AFFAIRAND THE ADDICTIONS THATMY HUSBAND HAD CHOSEN THAT
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AND THE ADDICTIONS THATMY HUSBAND HAD CHOSEN THATWERE SO OUT OF HIS CHARACTER.
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MY HUSBAND HAD CHOSEN THATWERE SO OUT OF HIS CHARACTER.IT WAS JUST SHOCKING
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WERE SO OUT OF HIS CHARACTER.IT WAS JUST SHOCKINGON EVERY LEVEL.
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IT WAS JUST SHOCKINGON EVERY LEVEL.I HAD HAD A CONVERSATION
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ON EVERY LEVEL.I HAD HAD A CONVERSATIONWITH ART WHERE I HAD TO SAY,
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I HAD HAD A CONVERSATIONWITH ART WHERE I HAD TO SAY,"I CAN LOVE YOU AND I WILL
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WITH ART WHERE I HAD TO SAY,"I CAN LOVE YOU AND I WILLWORK ON FORGIVING YOU
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"I CAN LOVE YOU AND I WILLWORK ON FORGIVING YOUBUT I WILL NOT SHARE YOU."
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WORK ON FORGIVING YOUBUT I WILL NOT SHARE YOU."AND I REALLY THOUGHT
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BUT I WILL NOT SHARE YOU."AND I REALLY THOUGHTOUR MARRIAGE WAS OVER BECAUSE
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AND I REALLY THOUGHTOUR MARRIAGE WAS OVER BECAUSEOF CHOICES THAT I FINALLY
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OUR MARRIAGE WAS OVER BECAUSEOF CHOICES THAT I FINALLYREALIZED I CAN'T WORK
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OF CHOICES THAT I FINALLYREALIZED I CAN'T WORKHARDER ON HIM THAN
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REALIZED I CAN'T WORKHARDER ON HIM THANHE IS WORKING ON HIM.
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HARDER ON HIM THANHE IS WORKING ON HIM.SO I WENT TO MY COUNSELOR.
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HE IS WORKING ON HIM.SO I WENT TO MY COUNSELOR.I WAS DEVASTATED.
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SO I WENT TO MY COUNSELOR.I WAS DEVASTATED.I HADN'T TAKEN A SHOWER
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I WAS DEVASTATED.I HADN'T TAKEN A SHOWERIN SEVERAL DAYS.
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I HADN'T TAKEN A SHOWERIN SEVERAL DAYS.I COULDN'T REMEMBER
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IN SEVERAL DAYS.I COULDN'T REMEMBERWHEN THE LAST TIME IT WAS
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I COULDN'T REMEMBERWHEN THE LAST TIME IT WASTHAT I'D WASHED MY HAIR.
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WHEN THE LAST TIME IT WASTHAT I'D WASHED MY HAIR.SO IT WAS ONE OF
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THAT I'D WASHED MY HAIR.SO IT WAS ONE OFTHOSE SEASONS OF LIFE.
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SO IT WAS ONE OFTHOSE SEASONS OF LIFE.Sheila: IT'S JUST SO NOT YOU.
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THOSE SEASONS OF LIFE.Sheila: IT'S JUST SO NOT YOU.Lysa: IT'S SO NOT ME.
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Sheila: IT'S JUST SO NOT YOU.Lysa: IT'S SO NOT ME.I REMEMBER WALKING INTO
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Lysa: IT'S SO NOT ME.I REMEMBER WALKING INTOTHE COUNSELOR'S OFFICE
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I REMEMBER WALKING INTOTHE COUNSELOR'S OFFICEAND THINKING, I DON'T EVEN
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THE COUNSELOR'S OFFICEAND THINKING, I DON'T EVENKNOW WHEN THE LAST TIME
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AND THINKING, I DON'T EVENKNOW WHEN THE LAST TIMEWAS THAT I ACTUALLY
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KNOW WHEN THE LAST TIMEWAS THAT I ACTUALLYPUT DEODORANT ON
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WAS THAT I ACTUALLYPUT DEODORANT ONAND THAT'S NOT ACCEPTABLE.
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PUT DEODORANT ONAND THAT'S NOT ACCEPTABLE.SO I WENT INTO THE BATHROOM
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AND THAT'S NOT ACCEPTABLE.SO I WENT INTO THE BATHROOMAND FOUND SOME PEACH
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SO I WENT INTO THE BATHROOMAND FOUND SOME PEACHAIR FRESHENER UNDER THE SINK.
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AND FOUND SOME PEACHAIR FRESHENER UNDER THE SINK.I'M A RESOURCEFUL PERSON
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AIR FRESHENER UNDER THE SINK.I'M A RESOURCEFUL PERSONSO I WENT INTO THAT
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I'M A RESOURCEFUL PERSONSO I WENT INTO THATCOUNSELLING SESSION SMELLING
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SO I WENT INTO THATCOUNSELLING SESSION SMELLINGLIKE A FRESHLY BAKED
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COUNSELLING SESSION SMELLINGLIKE A FRESHLY BAKEDPEACH COBBLER.
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LIKE A FRESHLY BAKEDPEACH COBBLER.MY COUNSELOR LOOKED AT ME
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PEACH COBBLER.MY COUNSELOR LOOKED AT MEAND HE SAID, "LYSA,
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MY COUNSELOR LOOKED AT MEAND HE SAID, "LYSA,DO YOU WANT TO HEAL?"
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AND HE SAID, "LYSA,DO YOU WANT TO HEAL?"I SAID, "YES. I DO."
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DO YOU WANT TO HEAL?"I SAID, "YES. I DO."AND HE SAID, "THEN TODAY
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I SAID, "YES. I DO."AND HE SAID, "THEN TODAYIS A GREAT DAY TO START
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AND I REMEMBER LOOKING AT HIM
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AND I REMEMBER LOOKING AT HIMAND THINKING, ARE YOU CRAZY?
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AND THINKING, ARE YOU CRAZY?ARE YOU HIGH?
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ARE YOU HIGH?LIKE IF YOU SAID TODAY
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ON MY PERSONAL HYGIENE,
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ON MY PERSONAL HYGIENE,I WOULD SAY YES, YOU ARE
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ON MY PERSONAL HYGIENE,I WOULD SAY YES, YOU AREA GOOD COUNSELOR.
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I WOULD SAY YES, YOU AREA GOOD COUNSELOR.YOU'RE AN INTUITIVE COUNSELOR.
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A GOOD COUNSELOR.YOU'RE AN INTUITIVE COUNSELOR.YES, I NEED TO WORK ON THAT.
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YOU'RE AN INTUITIVE COUNSELOR.YES, I NEED TO WORK ON THAT.BUT FORGIVENESS?
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YES, I NEED TO WORK ON THAT.BUT FORGIVENESS?ABSOLUTELY NOT.
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BUT FORGIVENESS?ABSOLUTELY NOT.I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS STORY
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ABSOLUTELY NOT.I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS STORYIS GOING TO TURN OUT YET.
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I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS STORYIS GOING TO TURN OUT YET.I DON'T EVEN THINK
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IS GOING TO TURN OUT YET.I DON'T EVEN THINKTHAT HE IS SORRY.
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I DON'T EVEN THINKTHAT HE IS SORRY.I DON'T THINK THAT
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THAT HE IS SORRY.I DON'T THINK THATIT IS GOING TO BE POSSIBLE
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I DON'T THINK THATIT IS GOING TO BE POSSIBLEFOR US TO RECONCILE.
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IT IS GOING TO BE POSSIBLEFOR US TO RECONCILE.I'M NOT DONE HURTING.
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FOR US TO RECONCILE.I'M NOT DONE HURTING.AND ALSO, I'M NOT EVEN SURE
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I'M NOT DONE HURTING.AND ALSO, I'M NOT EVEN SURETHAT I WANT TO FORGIVE.
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AND ALSO, I'M NOT EVEN SURETHAT I WANT TO FORGIVE.IF I FORGIVE IS THAT
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THAT I WANT TO FORGIVE.IF I FORGIVE IS THATME SAYING THAT WHAT HAPPENED
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IF I FORGIVE IS THATME SAYING THAT WHAT HAPPENEDDIDN'T MATTER?
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ME SAYING THAT WHAT HAPPENEDDIDN'T MATTER?BECAUSE IT DOES MATTER.
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DIDN'T MATTER?BECAUSE IT DOES MATTER.OR IS THAT ME BETRAYING
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BECAUSE IT DOES MATTER.OR IS THAT ME BETRAYINGMYSELF AND SAYING I REALLY
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OR IS THAT ME BETRAYINGMYSELF AND SAYING I REALLYWASN'T HURT BY THIS?
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MYSELF AND SAYING I REALLYWASN'T HURT BY THIS?BECAUSE I WAS DEVASTATED
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WASN'T HURT BY THIS?BECAUSE I WAS DEVASTATEDBY THIS.
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BECAUSE I WAS DEVASTATEDBY THIS.AND SO IF I FORGIVE
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BY THIS.AND SO IF I FORGIVEDOESN'T THAT MEAN THAT
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AND SO IF I FORGIVEDOESN'T THAT MEAN THATAT THAT POINT I'M SAYING
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DOESN'T THAT MEAN THATAT THAT POINT I'M SAYINGIT IS OKAY?
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AT THAT POINT I'M SAYINGIT IS OKAY?IT WASN'T OKAY. SO NO!
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IT IS OKAY?IT WASN'T OKAY. SO NO!I REMEMBER LOOKING AT
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IT WASN'T OKAY. SO NO!I REMEMBER LOOKING ATMY COUNSELOR SAYING,
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I REMEMBER LOOKING ATMY COUNSELOR SAYING,ABSOLUTELY NOT.
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MY COUNSELOR SAYING,ABSOLUTELY NOT.I'M NOT GOING TO WORK
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ABSOLUTELY NOT.I'M NOT GOING TO WORKON FORGIVENESS.
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I'M NOT GOING TO WORKON FORGIVENESS.THAT'S WHEN HE LOOKED AT ME
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ON FORGIVENESS.THAT'S WHEN HE LOOKED AT MEAND SAID, "OKAY, LYSA,
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THAT'S WHEN HE LOOKED AT MEAND SAID, "OKAY, LYSA,LET'S START WITH THE PAIN.
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AND SAID, "OKAY, LYSA,LET'S START WITH THE PAIN.LET'S START WITH YOUR PAIN."
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LET'S START WITH THE PAIN.LET'S START WITH YOUR PAIN."HE HANDED ME THIS LITTLE STACK
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LET'S START WITH YOUR PAIN."HE HANDED ME THIS LITTLE STACKOF THREE BY FIVE CARDS,
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HE HANDED ME THIS LITTLE STACKOF THREE BY FIVE CARDS,IT ACTUALLY WASN'T LITTLE.
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OF THREE BY FIVE CARDS,IT ACTUALLY WASN'T LITTLE.IT WAS PRETTY TALL.
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IT ACTUALLY WASN'T LITTLE.IT WAS PRETTY TALL.HE SAID, "JUST START WRITING
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IT WAS PRETTY TALL.HE SAID, "JUST START WRITINGHOW YOU HURT AND JUST WRITE
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HE SAID, "JUST START WRITINGHOW YOU HURT AND JUST WRITEONE THING ON EACH CARD
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HOW YOU HURT AND JUST WRITEONE THING ON EACH CARDAND THEN LAY THE CARD
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ONE THING ON EACH CARDAND THEN LAY THE CARDDOWN ON THE FLOOR."
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AND THEN LAY THE CARDDOWN ON THE FLOOR."WELL, SHEILA, I HAD
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DOWN ON THE FLOOR."WELL, SHEILA, I HADSO MUCH HURT.
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WELL, SHEILA, I HADSO MUCH HURT.SO MUCH HURT AND SO FINALLY
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SO MUCH HURT.SO MUCH HURT AND SO FINALLYWHEN I'VE WRITTEN THE VERY
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SO MUCH HURT AND SO FINALLYWHEN I'VE WRITTEN THE VERYLAST THING DOWN, I COULDN'T
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WHEN I'VE WRITTEN THE VERYLAST THING DOWN, I COULDN'TTHINK OF ANOTHER THING,
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LAST THING DOWN, I COULDN'TTHINK OF ANOTHER THING,I LOOKED, THERE WERE
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THINK OF ANOTHER THING,I LOOKED, THERE WERECARDS ALL OVER THE FLOOR.
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I LOOKED, THERE WERECARDS ALL OVER THE FLOOR.AND I LOOKED OVER
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CARDS ALL OVER THE FLOOR.AND I LOOKED OVERAT MY COUNSELOR.
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AND I LOOKED OVERAT MY COUNSELOR.AND HE DID THE BEST THING
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AT MY COUNSELOR.AND HE DID THE BEST THINGTHAT SOMEONE CAN DO WHEN
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AND HE DID THE BEST THINGTHAT SOMEONE CAN DO WHENSOMEONE IS HURTING BECAUSE
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THAT SOMEONE CAN DO WHENSOMEONE IS HURTING BECAUSEOF THEIR LIFE BEING SHATTERED
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SOMEONE IS HURTING BECAUSEOF THEIR LIFE BEING SHATTEREDLIKE MINE WAS.
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OF THEIR LIFE BEING SHATTEREDLIKE MINE WAS.AND HE SIMPLY LOOKED BACK
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LIKE MINE WAS.AND HE SIMPLY LOOKED BACKAT ME WITH TEARS IN HIS EYES
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AND HE SIMPLY LOOKED BACKAT ME WITH TEARS IN HIS EYESAND HE SAID, "I BELIEVE YOU."
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AT ME WITH TEARS IN HIS EYESAND HE SAID, "I BELIEVE YOU."AND IT WAS SUCH A GIFT
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AND HE SAID, "I BELIEVE YOU."AND IT WAS SUCH A GIFTTO MY HEART.
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AND IT WAS SUCH A GIFTTO MY HEART.HE SAID, "LYSA, WHAT HAS
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TO MY HEART.HE SAID, "LYSA, WHAT HASHAPPENED TO YOU WAS WRONG
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HE SAID, "LYSA, WHAT HASHAPPENED TO YOU WAS WRONGAND IT WAS HURTFUL."
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HAPPENED TO YOU WAS WRONGAND IT WAS HURTFUL."AND I GUESS I JUST WANT
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AND IT WAS HURTFUL."AND I GUESS I JUST WANTTO SAY TODAY TO ANYONE
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AND I GUESS I JUST WANTTO SAY TODAY TO ANYONEWHO MIGHT BE REALLY TRACKING
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TO SAY TODAY TO ANYONEWHO MIGHT BE REALLY TRACKINGWITH MY STORY, MAYBE
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WHO MIGHT BE REALLY TRACKINGWITH MY STORY, MAYBEYOUR STORY ISN'T LIKE MINE.
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WITH MY STORY, MAYBEYOUR STORY ISN'T LIKE MINE.MAYBE IT IS JUST THAT
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YOUR STORY ISN'T LIKE MINE.MAYBE IT IS JUST THATYOU'VE BEEN HURT TOO.
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MAYBE IT IS JUST THATYOU'VE BEEN HURT TOO.YOU DESERVE TO STOP SUFFERING
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YOU'VE BEEN HURT TOO.YOU DESERVE TO STOP SUFFERINGBECAUSE OF WHAT OTHER PEOPLE
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YOU DESERVE TO STOP SUFFERINGBECAUSE OF WHAT OTHER PEOPLEHAVE DONE TO YOU.
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BECAUSE OF WHAT OTHER PEOPLEHAVE DONE TO YOU.AND IF NO ONE ELSE
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HAVE DONE TO YOU.AND IF NO ONE ELSEIN THIS WORLD HAS DARED
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AND IF NO ONE ELSEIN THIS WORLD HAS DAREDTO BEAR WITNESS TO YOUR PAIN,
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IN THIS WORLD HAS DAREDTO BEAR WITNESS TO YOUR PAIN,I WILL.
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TO BEAR WITNESS TO YOUR PAIN,I WILL.WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU
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I WILL.WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUWAS WRONG.
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WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUWAS WRONG.AND I'M SO SORRY.
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WAS WRONG.AND I'M SO SORRY.I'M SO SORRY FOR HOW
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AND I'M SO SORRY.I'M SO SORRY FOR HOWTHEY HURT YOU.
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I'M SO SORRY FOR HOWTHEY HURT YOU.I'M SO SORRY THEY DIDN'T
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THEY HURT YOU.I'M SO SORRY THEY DIDN'TLOVE YOU THE WAY
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I'M SO SORRY THEY DIDN'TLOVE YOU THE WAYYOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN LOVED.
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LOVE YOU THE WAYYOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN LOVED.I JUST WANT TO SAY TO YOU
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YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN LOVED.I JUST WANT TO SAY TO YOUFORGIVENESS IS NOT
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I JUST WANT TO SAY TO YOUFORGIVENESS IS NOTANOTHER HARD THING
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FORGIVENESS IS THE PATHWAY
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FORGIVENESS IS THE PATHWAYTO HEALING AND I WANT
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TO HEALING AND I WANTTO SHOW YOU IT IS POSSIBLE.
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Sheila: ONE OF THE THINGS
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Sheila: ONE OF THE THINGSTHAT MOST RESONATED WITH ME
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THAT MOST RESONATED WITH MEAS AN EMOTION, YOU SAID
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IT IS HYSTERICAL,
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IT IS HYSTERICAL,IT IS HISTORICAL.
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IT IS HYSTERICAL,IT IS HISTORICAL.I JUST PUT THE BOOK DOWN
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IT IS HISTORICAL.I JUST PUT THE BOOK DOWNAT THAT POINT BECAUSE
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I JUST PUT THE BOOK DOWNAT THAT POINT BECAUSEI THOUGHT OF THE NUMBER
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AT THAT POINT BECAUSEI THOUGHT OF THE NUMBEROF TIMES I'VE REACTED
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I THOUGHT OF THE NUMBEROF TIMES I'VE REACTEDTO SOMETHING BARRY, MY HUSBAND
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OF TIMES I'VE REACTEDTO SOMETHING BARRY, MY HUSBANDHAS DONE OUT OF ALL PROPORTION
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TO SOMETHING BARRY, MY HUSBANDHAS DONE OUT OF ALL PROPORTIONTO ACTUALLY WHAT HE'S DONE.
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HAS DONE OUT OF ALL PROPORTIONTO ACTUALLY WHAT HE'S DONE.AND IT MAKES ME REALIZE --
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TO ACTUALLY WHAT HE'S DONE.AND IT MAKES ME REALIZE --AT WHAT POINT IN YOUR JOURNEY
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AND IT MAKES ME REALIZE --AT WHAT POINT IN YOUR JOURNEYDID YOU GET THAT,
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AT WHAT POINT IN YOUR JOURNEYDID YOU GET THAT,THAT THIS IS NOT JUST
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DID YOU GET THAT,THAT THIS IS NOT JUSTALL ABOUT ART?
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THAT THIS IS NOT JUSTALL ABOUT ART?Lysa: I THINK IT WAS,
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ALL ABOUT ART?Lysa: I THINK IT WAS,JUST LIKE YOU DESCRIBED,
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Lysa: I THINK IT WAS,JUST LIKE YOU DESCRIBED,WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENS AND
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JUST LIKE YOU DESCRIBED,WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENS ANDYOU HAVE AN OUT-OF-PROPORTION
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WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENS ANDYOU HAVE AN OUT-OF-PROPORTIONREACTION.
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YOU HAVE AN OUT-OF-PROPORTIONREACTION.I'M NOT USUALLY A PERSON
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REACTION.I'M NOT USUALLY A PERSONTHAT GETS SO EMOTIONALLY
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I'M NOT USUALLY A PERSONTHAT GETS SO EMOTIONALLYCHARGED THAT I LOSE IT.
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THAT GETS SO EMOTIONALLYCHARGED THAT I LOSE IT.THAT'S JUST NOT USUALLY
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CHARGED THAT I LOSE IT.THAT'S JUST NOT USUALLYWHAT HAPPENS TO ME.
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THAT'S JUST NOT USUALLYWHAT HAPPENS TO ME.BUT IT KEPT HAPPENING TO ME.
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WHAT HAPPENS TO ME.BUT IT KEPT HAPPENING TO ME.I KEPT GETTING TRIGGERED
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BUT IT KEPT HAPPENING TO ME.I KEPT GETTING TRIGGEREDIN MY PAIN AND WHAT I STARTED
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I KEPT GETTING TRIGGEREDIN MY PAIN AND WHAT I STARTEDTO REALIZE IS TRIGGERS
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IN MY PAIN AND WHAT I STARTEDTO REALIZE IS TRIGGERSARE VERY INCONVENIENT.
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TO REALIZE IS TRIGGERSARE VERY INCONVENIENT.IT IS NOT LIKE I CAN
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ARE VERY INCONVENIENT.IT IS NOT LIKE I CANSCHEDULE THEM ON MY CALENDAR.
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IT IS NOT LIKE I CANSCHEDULE THEM ON MY CALENDAR.LIKE ON TUESDAY EVENING
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SCHEDULE THEM ON MY CALENDAR.LIKE ON TUESDAY EVENINGI'LL BE SITTING IN THE BATHTUB
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LIKE ON TUESDAY EVENINGI'LL BE SITTING IN THE BATHTUBAND I'LL HAVE MY OWN
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I'LL BE SITTING IN THE BATHTUBAND I'LL HAVE MY OWNCOMMUNION SET UP.
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AND I'LL HAVE MY OWNCOMMUNION SET UP.IT'S LIKE NOBODY CAN SEE ME
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COMMUNION SET UP.IT'S LIKE NOBODY CAN SEE MESO YES, IN THAT MOMENT
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IT'S LIKE NOBODY CAN SEE MESO YES, IN THAT MOMENTI'LL GET TRIGGERED IN MY PAIN
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SO YES, IN THAT MOMENTI'LL GET TRIGGERED IN MY PAINAND BE BY MYSELF
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I'LL GET TRIGGERED IN MY PAINAND BE BY MYSELFAND DEAL WITH IT.
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AND BE BY MYSELFAND DEAL WITH IT.THAT'S NOT HOW IT HAPPENS.
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AND DEAL WITH IT.THAT'S NOT HOW IT HAPPENS.TRIGGERS HAPPEN WHEN
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THAT'S NOT HOW IT HAPPENS.TRIGGERS HAPPEN WHENI'M STANDING IN THE GROCERY
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TRIGGERS HAPPEN WHENI'M STANDING IN THE GROCERYSTORE LINE AND MY PHONE
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I'M STANDING IN THE GROCERYSTORE LINE AND MY PHONESENDS ME ONE OF THOSE
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STORE LINE AND MY PHONESENDS ME ONE OF THOSEMEMORY MOVIES FROM
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SENDS ME ONE OF THOSEMEMORY MOVIES FROM"HERE'S WHAT HAPPENED
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MEMORY MOVIES FROM"HERE'S WHAT HAPPENEDFOUR YEARS AGO ON THIS DAY."
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"HERE'S WHAT HAPPENEDFOUR YEARS AGO ON THIS DAY."THOSE KIND OF MEMORIES
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FOUR YEARS AGO ON THIS DAY."THOSE KIND OF MEMORIESARE PRECIOUS UNTIL THEY CAUSE
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THOSE KIND OF MEMORIESARE PRECIOUS UNTIL THEY CAUSESO MUCH GRIEF AND THEY'RE
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ARE PRECIOUS UNTIL THEY CAUSESO MUCH GRIEF AND THEY'REREMINDERS OF SO MUCH LOSS
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SO MUCH GRIEF AND THEY'REREMINDERS OF SO MUCH LOSSTHAT THEY TRIGGER YOU.
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REMINDERS OF SO MUCH LOSSTHAT THEY TRIGGER YOU.AND I REMEMBER ONE TIME
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THAT THEY TRIGGER YOU.AND I REMEMBER ONE TIMEI WAS AT THE GROCERY STORE
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AND I REMEMBER ONE TIMEI WAS AT THE GROCERY STOREAND I GOT SO TRIGGERED
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I WAS AT THE GROCERY STOREAND I GOT SO TRIGGEREDBY SOMETHING THAT NO ONE ELSE
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AND I GOT SO TRIGGEREDBY SOMETHING THAT NO ONE ELSEIN THE WORLD WOULD HAVE
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BY SOMETHING THAT NO ONE ELSEIN THE WORLD WOULD HAVEEVER KNOWN WOULD HAVE
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IN THE WORLD WOULD HAVEEVER KNOWN WOULD HAVECAUSED AN INTERNAL
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EVER KNOWN WOULD HAVECAUSED AN INTERNALEMOTIONAL MELT DOWN IN ME.
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CAUSED AN INTERNALEMOTIONAL MELT DOWN IN ME.AND I LITERALLY JUST LAID
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EMOTIONAL MELT DOWN IN ME.AND I LITERALLY JUST LAIDACROSS THE BANANAS LIKE
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AND I LITERALLY JUST LAIDACROSS THE BANANAS LIKEIN THE MIDDLE OF THE PRODUCE
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ACROSS THE BANANAS LIKEIN THE MIDDLE OF THE PRODUCEAISLE AND I WAS WEEPING.
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IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PRODUCEAISLE AND I WAS WEEPING.YOU KNOW, THEY DO NOT PAY
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AISLE AND I WAS WEEPING.YOU KNOW, THEY DO NOT PAYTHE PRODUCE GUY ENOUGH MONEY
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YOU KNOW, THEY DO NOT PAYTHE PRODUCE GUY ENOUGH MONEYTO DEAL WITH SOMEBODY
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THE PRODUCE GUY ENOUGH MONEYTO DEAL WITH SOMEBODYLIKE THIS.
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TO DEAL WITH SOMEBODYLIKE THIS.AND HE CAME UP AND SAID,
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LIKE THIS.AND HE CAME UP AND SAID,"CAN I HELP YOU?"
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AND HE CAME UP AND SAID,"CAN I HELP YOU?"I REMEMBER STANDING IN
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"CAN I HELP YOU?"I REMEMBER STANDING INTHE GROCERY STORE, AND
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I REMEMBER STANDING INTHE GROCERY STORE, ANDI'M SURE HE IS LIKE, WOMAN,
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THE GROCERY STORE, ANDI'M SURE HE IS LIKE, WOMAN,YOU ARE BRUISING OUR BANANAS.
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I'M SURE HE IS LIKE, WOMAN,YOU ARE BRUISING OUR BANANAS.Sheila: YOU WILL ONLY EAT
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YOU ARE BRUISING OUR BANANAS.Sheila: YOU WILL ONLY EATA BANANA THAT IS NOT BRUISED.
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Sheila: YOU WILL ONLY EATA BANANA THAT IS NOT BRUISED.I REMEMBER THAT ABOUT YOU.
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A BANANA THAT IS NOT BRUISED.I REMEMBER THAT ABOUT YOU.Lysa: I WAS A WALKING
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I REMEMBER THAT ABOUT YOU.Lysa: I WAS A WALKINGCONTRADICTION IN EVERY ASPECT.
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Lysa: I WAS A WALKINGCONTRADICTION IN EVERY ASPECT.BUT I REMEMBER HIM SAYING,
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CONTRADICTION IN EVERY ASPECT.BUT I REMEMBER HIM SAYING,"CAN I HELP YOU?"
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BUT I REMEMBER HIM SAYING,"CAN I HELP YOU?"AND I JUST LOOKED BACK AT HIM
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"CAN I HELP YOU?"AND I JUST LOOKED BACK AT HIMAND SAID, "I WISH YOU COULD."
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AND I JUST LOOKED BACK AT HIMAND SAID, "I WISH YOU COULD."AND I HAD TO LEAVE MY CART,
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AND SAID, "I WISH YOU COULD."AND I HAD TO LEAVE MY CART,LEAVE THE GROCERY STORE.
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AND I HAD TO LEAVE MY CART,LEAVE THE GROCERY STORE.AND SO YES, I LIKE THAT
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LEAVE THE GROCERY STORE.AND SO YES, I LIKE THATMY COUNSELOR EQUIPPED ME
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AND SO YES, I LIKE THATMY COUNSELOR EQUIPPED MEWITH THAT SAYING,
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MY COUNSELOR EQUIPPED MEWITH THAT SAYING,WHEN IT IS HYSTERICAL,
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WITH THAT SAYING,WHEN IT IS HYSTERICAL,NOT LIKE HYSTERICAL,
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WHEN IT IS HYSTERICAL,NOT LIKE HYSTERICAL,LIKE HA-HA FUNNY,
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NOT LIKE HYSTERICAL,LIKE HA-HA FUNNY,BUT HYSTERICAL AS IN
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LIKE HA-HA FUNNY,BUT HYSTERICAL AS INA FLOOD OF EMOTIONS
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BUT HYSTERICAL AS INA FLOOD OF EMOTIONSTHAT YOU JUST CAN'T REIN IN,
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A FLOOD OF EMOTIONSTHAT YOU JUST CAN'T REIN IN,WHEN IT IS HYSTERICAL
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THAT YOU JUST CAN'T REIN IN,WHEN IT IS HYSTERICALIT IS HISTORICAL.
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FROM THE PAST WILL TRAVEL
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FROM THE PAST WILL TRAVELAND FIND THE PRESENT HURTS
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AND FIND THE PRESENT HURTSOF TODAY, AND IT WILL
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WHATEVER THAT STORY IS
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WHATEVER THAT STORY ISTHAT WE'RE TELLING OURSELF.
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WHATEVER THAT STORY ISTHAT WE'RE TELLING OURSELF.AND WE ALL HAVE A STORY
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THAT WE'RE TELLING OURSELF.AND WE ALL HAVE A STORYTHAT WE'RE LIVING AND THEN
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AND WE ALL HAVE A STORYTHAT WE'RE LIVING AND THENWE ALL HAVE A STORY THAT
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THAT WE'RE LIVING AND THENWE ALL HAVE A STORY THATWE'RE TELLING OURSELVES.
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WE ALL HAVE A STORY THATWE'RE TELLING OURSELVES.WE'VE JUST GOT TO MAKE SURE
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WE'RE TELLING OURSELVES.WE'VE JUST GOT TO MAKE SURETHAT THE STORY THAT
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WE'VE JUST GOT TO MAKE SURETHAT THE STORY THATWE'RE TELLING OURSELVES
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THAT THE STORY THATWE'RE TELLING OURSELVESACTUALLY LINES UP WITH TRUTH
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WE'RE TELLING OURSELVESACTUALLY LINES UP WITH TRUTHBECAUSE MOST OF THE TIME
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ACTUALLY LINES UP WITH TRUTHBECAUSE MOST OF THE TIMEIT DOESN'T.
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BECAUSE MOST OF THE TIMEIT DOESN'T.Sheila: YOU TALK ABOUT
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IT DOESN'T.Sheila: YOU TALK ABOUTA FATHER THAT WAS VERY ABSENT
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Sheila: YOU TALK ABOUTA FATHER THAT WAS VERY ABSENTWHEN YOU WERE GROWING UP.
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A FATHER THAT WAS VERY ABSENTWHEN YOU WERE GROWING UP.YOU TALK ABOUT ABUSE
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WHEN YOU WERE GROWING UP.YOU TALK ABOUT ABUSEFROM A NEIGHBOR.
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YOU TALK ABOUT ABUSEFROM A NEIGHBOR.AND IT WAS INTERESTING BECAUSE
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FROM A NEIGHBOR.AND IT WAS INTERESTING BECAUSETHROUGH THIS WHOLE BOOK AND
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AND IT WAS INTERESTING BECAUSETHROUGH THIS WHOLE BOOK ANDTHIS JOURNEY YOU TALK ABOUT
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THROUGH THIS WHOLE BOOK ANDTHIS JOURNEY YOU TALK ABOUTSTILL AT YOUR AGE AND...
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THIS JOURNEY YOU TALK ABOUTSTILL AT YOUR AGE AND...EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOUR BOOKS
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STILL AT YOUR AGE AND...EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOUR BOOKSIS A NEW YORK TIMES
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EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOUR BOOKSIS A NEW YORK TIMESBESTSELLER.
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IS A NEW YORK TIMESBESTSELLER.YOU HAVE THIS PHENOMENAL GIFT
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BUT YOU MADE SOME COMMENT
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BUT YOU MADE SOME COMMENTIN THERE THAT SOMETIMES
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IN THERE THAT SOMETIMESYOU STILL QUESTION
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YOU STILL QUESTIONWHETHER YOU'RE WORTH LOVING.
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IN THE MIDST OF THIS PROCESS,
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IN THE MIDST OF THIS PROCESS,HAS THE DETERMINATION
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Lysa: YOU KNOW, I THINK
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Lysa: YOU KNOW, I THINKWHAT ALL THIS THAT
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Lysa: YOU KNOW, I THINKWHAT ALL THIS THATI'VE LEARNED WITH FORGIVENESS
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WHAT ALL THIS THATI'VE LEARNED WITH FORGIVENESSHAS DONE FOR ME,
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I'VE LEARNED WITH FORGIVENESSHAS DONE FOR ME,IT HAS EMPOWERED ME
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HAS DONE FOR ME,IT HAS EMPOWERED METO UNDERSTAND I DON'T HAVE
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IT HAS EMPOWERED METO UNDERSTAND I DON'T HAVETO LIVE AS A VICTIM
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TO UNDERSTAND I DON'T HAVETO LIVE AS A VICTIMTO ALL OF THE ABUSE
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TO LIVE AS A VICTIMTO ALL OF THE ABUSEAND HEARTBREAK
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TO ALL OF THE ABUSEAND HEARTBREAKAND CIRCUMSTANCES
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AND HEARTBREAKAND CIRCUMSTANCESTHAT I DIDN'T CHOOSE.
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AND CIRCUMSTANCESTHAT I DIDN'T CHOOSE.AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT
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THAT I DIDN'T CHOOSE.AND I THINK THAT'S WHATHAS BEEN SO FREEING FOR ME
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AND I THINK THAT'S WHATHAS BEEN SO FREEING FOR MEIS BECAUSE FOR SO LONG
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HAS BEEN SO FREEING FOR MEIS BECAUSE FOR SO LONGI FELT LIKE IF OTHER PEOPLE
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IS BECAUSE FOR SO LONGI FELT LIKE IF OTHER PEOPLEDIDN'T MAKE DIFFERENT CHOICES
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I FELT LIKE IF OTHER PEOPLEDIDN'T MAKE DIFFERENT CHOICESI WOULD NEVER
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DIDN'T MAKE DIFFERENT CHOICESI WOULD NEVERBE ABLE TO HEAL.
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I WOULD NEVERBE ABLE TO HEAL.I'M REALIZING I CAN UNHITCH
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BE ABLE TO HEAL.I'M REALIZING I CAN UNHITCHMY ABILITY TO HEAL
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I'M REALIZING I CAN UNHITCHMY ABILITY TO HEALFROM THEIR CHOICES AND LET
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MY ABILITY TO HEALFROM THEIR CHOICES AND LETTHEIR CHOICES BE THEIR OWN.
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FROM THEIR CHOICES AND LETTHEIR CHOICES BE THEIR OWN.BUT I CAN BE EMPOWERED
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THEIR CHOICES BE THEIR OWN.BUT I CAN BE EMPOWEREDTO FORGIVE.
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BUT I CAN BE EMPOWEREDTO FORGIVE.AND THAT DAY IN THAT
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TO FORGIVE.AND THAT DAY IN THATCOUNSELOR'S OFFICER AFTER
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AND THAT DAY IN THATCOUNSELOR'S OFFICER AFTERI LAID OUT ALL OF THOSE CARDS
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COUNSELOR'S OFFICER AFTERI LAID OUT ALL OF THOSE CARDSMY COUNSELOR SAID, "NOW THAT
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I LAID OUT ALL OF THOSE CARDSMY COUNSELOR SAID, "NOW THATYOU'VE GOTTEN ALL OF THIS
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MY COUNSELOR SAID, "NOW THATYOU'VE GOTTEN ALL OF THISPAIN OUT AND YOU CAN SEE IT,
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YOU'VE GOTTEN ALL OF THISPAIN OUT AND YOU CAN SEE IT,THIS IS HOW YOU FORGIVE, LYSA.
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PAIN OUT AND YOU CAN SEE IT,THIS IS HOW YOU FORGIVE, LYSA.YOU JUST GO CARD BY CARD
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THIS IS HOW YOU FORGIVE, LYSA.YOU JUST GO CARD BY CARDBY CARD AND JUST INDIVIDUALLY
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YOU JUST GO CARD BY CARDBY CARD AND JUST INDIVIDUALLYHAVE A MARKED MOMENT WHERE
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BY CARD AND JUST INDIVIDUALLYHAVE A MARKED MOMENT WHEREYOU SAY, 'I NOW FORGIVE
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HAVE A MARKED MOMENT WHEREYOU SAY, 'I NOW FORGIVETHIS PERSON FOR THIS HURT.'"
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YOU SAY, 'I NOW FORGIVETHIS PERSON FOR THIS HURT.'"AND ALL THOSE CARDS THAT DAY
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THIS PERSON FOR THIS HURT.'"AND ALL THOSE CARDS THAT DAYWERE AFFILIATED
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AND ALL THOSE CARDS THAT DAYWERE AFFILIATEDAND ASSOCIATED WITH THE HURT
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WERE AFFILIATEDAND ASSOCIATED WITH THE HURTTHAT I HAD GONE THROUGH
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AND ASSOCIATED WITH THE HURTTHAT I HAD GONE THROUGHWITH MY MARRIAGE.
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THAT I HAD GONE THROUGHWITH MY MARRIAGE.BUT I COULD ALSO SEE,
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WITH MY MARRIAGE.BUT I COULD ALSO SEE,SOMETIMES I WOULD GET TO
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BUT I COULD ALSO SEE,SOMETIMES I WOULD GET TOA CARD AND I COULD SEE,
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SOMETIMES I WOULD GET TOA CARD AND I COULD SEE,OH THIS ISN'T JUST ABOUT ART.
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A CARD AND I COULD SEE,OH THIS ISN'T JUST ABOUT ART.THIS IS ABOUT ART.
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OH THIS ISN'T JUST ABOUT ART.THIS IS ABOUT ART.THIS IS ABOUT MY DAD.
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THIS IS ABOUT ART.THIS IS ABOUT MY DAD.THIS IS ABOUT MY GRANDFATHER.
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THIS IS ABOUT MY DAD.THIS IS ABOUT MY GRANDFATHER.THIS IS ABOUT THE BOY
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THIS IS ABOUT MY GRANDFATHER.THIS IS ABOUT THE BOYIN HIGH SCHOOL THAT SAID
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THIS IS ABOUT THE BOYIN HIGH SCHOOL THAT SAIDSOMETHING THAT I HAVE
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IN HIGH SCHOOL THAT SAIDSOMETHING THAT I HAVEREMEMBERED TO THIS DAY
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SOMETHING THAT I HAVEREMEMBERED TO THIS DAYTHAT HURT ME SO DEEPLY;
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REMEMBERED TO THIS DAYTHAT HURT ME SO DEEPLY;THAT TAINTED THE WAY THAT
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THAT HURT ME SO DEEPLY;THAT TAINTED THE WAY THATI EVEN TALK TO MYSELF
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THAT TAINTED THE WAY THATI EVEN TALK TO MYSELFIN MY OWN HEAD.
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I EVEN TALK TO MYSELFIN MY OWN HEAD.SO IT WAS SO FREEING.
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IN MY OWN HEAD.SO IT WAS SO FREEING.BUT FORGIVENESS, I THINK
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SO IT WAS SO FREEING.BUT FORGIVENESS, I THINKWHAT I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND
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BUT FORGIVENESS, I THINKWHAT I DIDN'T UNDERSTANDFOR SO LONG IS I THOUGHT
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WHAT I DIDN'T UNDERSTANDFOR SO LONG IS I THOUGHTFORGIVENESS ADDED
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FOR SO LONG IS I THOUGHTFORGIVENESS ADDEDTO MY SUFFERING.
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FORGIVENESS ADDEDTO MY SUFFERING.BUT IN REALITY IT IS
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TO MY SUFFERING.BUT IN REALITY IT ISTHE ONLY WAY, FORGIVENESS
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BUT IN REALITY IT ISTHE ONLY WAY, FORGIVENESSIS THE ONLY WAY WE CAN SEVER
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THE ONLY WAY, FORGIVENESSIS THE ONLY WAY WE CAN SEVERTHE SOURCE OF SUFFERING
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IS THE ONLY WAY WE CAN SEVERTHE SOURCE OF SUFFERINGSO WE CAN START HEALING.
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BY CARD AND SAID I FORGIVE
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BY CARD AND SAID I FORGIVETHIS PERSON FOR THIS.
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THIS PERSON FOR THIS.BUT MY COUNSELOR EQUIPPED ME
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BUT MY COUNSELOR EQUIPPED MEWITH THIS ADDED STATEMENT.
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MY FEELINGS WILL NOT
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MY FEELINGS WILL NOTYET ALLOW FOR, THE BLOOD
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MY FEELINGS WILL NOTYET ALLOW FOR, THE BLOODOF JESUS WILL SURELY COVER."
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YET ALLOW FOR, THE BLOODOF JESUS WILL SURELY COVER."Sheila: OH! I LOVE THAT. WOW!
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OF JESUS WILL SURELY COVER."Sheila: OH! I LOVE THAT. WOW!Lysa: AND THE REASON THAT'S
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Sheila: OH! I LOVE THAT. WOW!Lysa: AND THE REASON THAT'SSO IMPORTANT IS BECAUSE
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Lysa: AND THE REASON THAT'SSO IMPORTANT IS BECAUSEI WANTED TO FORGIVE BUT
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SO IMPORTANT IS BECAUSEI WANTED TO FORGIVE BUTI DIDN'T WANT TO FEEL FAKE.
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I WANTED TO FORGIVE BUTI DIDN'T WANT TO FEEL FAKE.I WOULD COME UPON SOME THINGS,
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I DIDN'T WANT TO FEEL FAKE.I WOULD COME UPON SOME THINGS,A LOT OF THINGS
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I WOULD COME UPON SOME THINGS,A LOT OF THINGSAND MY FEELINGS WERE NOT YET
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A LOT OF THINGSAND MY FEELINGS WERE NOT YETSIGNING ON TO THIS PROCESS.
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AND MY FEELINGS WERE NOT YETSIGNING ON TO THIS PROCESS.AND I DIDN'T WANT TO JUST SAY
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SIGNING ON TO THIS PROCESS.AND I DIDN'T WANT TO JUST SAYI'M DOING THIS BECAUSE
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AND I DIDN'T WANT TO JUST SAYI'M DOING THIS BECAUSEI'M CHECKING OFF THIS
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I'M DOING THIS BECAUSEI'M CHECKING OFF THISGOOD CHRISTIAN CHECKLIST
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I'M CHECKING OFF THISGOOD CHRISTIAN CHECKLISTOF THINGS LIKE BE NICE,
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GOOD CHRISTIAN CHECKLISTOF THINGS LIKE BE NICE,FORGIVE, DON'T CUSS,
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OF THINGS LIKE BE NICE,FORGIVE, DON'T CUSS,PLAY CHRISTIAN MUSIC.
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FORGIVE, DON'T CUSS,PLAY CHRISTIAN MUSIC.Sheila: MY TOP FOUR!
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PLAY CHRISTIAN MUSIC.Sheila: MY TOP FOUR!Lysa: RIGHT?
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Sheila: MY TOP FOUR!Lysa: RIGHT?SO I DIDN'T WANT TO FEEL
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Lysa: RIGHT?SO I DIDN'T WANT TO FEELLIKE I WAS FAKING IT,
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SO I DIDN'T WANT TO FEELLIKE I WAS FAKING IT,ESPECIALLY NOT
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LIKE I WAS FAKING IT,ESPECIALLY NOTIN FRONT OF GOD.
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ESPECIALLY NOTIN FRONT OF GOD.BUT I REALIZED THAT'S
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IN FRONT OF GOD.BUT I REALIZED THAT'STHE BEAUTY OF WHAT
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BUT I REALIZED THAT'STHE BEAUTY OF WHATJESUS DID FOR US.
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THE BEAUTY OF WHATJESUS DID FOR US.WE CAN MAKE THE DECISION
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JESUS DID FOR US.WE CAN MAKE THE DECISIONTO FORGIVE BECAUSE OF
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WE CAN MAKE THE DECISIONTO FORGIVE BECAUSE OFWHAT HE DID.
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TO FORGIVE BECAUSE OFWHAT HE DID.AND WHATEVER MY FEELINGS
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WHAT HE DID.AND WHATEVER MY FEELINGSWILL NOT YET ALLOW FOR
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AND WHATEVER MY FEELINGSWILL NOT YET ALLOW FORTHE BLOOD OF JESUS
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WILL NOT YET ALLOW FORTHE BLOOD OF JESUSWILL SURELY COVER IT.
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THE BLOOD OF JESUSWILL SURELY COVER IT.SO THAT IS HOW I MADE
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WILL SURELY COVER IT.SO THAT IS HOW I MADETHE DECISION TO FORGIVE.
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SO THAT IS HOW I MADETHE DECISION TO FORGIVE.BUT ALSO, SHEILA,
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THE DECISION TO FORGIVE.BUT ALSO, SHEILA,HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN
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BUT ALSO, SHEILA,HAVE YOU EVER BEEN INA SITUATION WHERE, OKAY
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HAVE YOU EVER BEEN INA SITUATION WHERE, OKAYYOU'VE MADE THE DECISION
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A SITUATION WHERE, OKAYYOU'VE MADE THE DECISIONTO FORGIVE.
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YOU'VE MADE THE DECISIONTO FORGIVE.NO ONE CAN TAKE
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TO FORGIVE.NO ONE CAN TAKETHAT AWAY FROM YOU.
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NO ONE CAN TAKETHAT AWAY FROM YOU.YOU'VE BEEN OBEDIENT TO GOD.
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THAT AWAY FROM YOU.YOU'VE BEEN OBEDIENT TO GOD.BUT THEN THAT PERSON SAYS
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YOU'VE BEEN OBEDIENT TO GOD.BUT THEN THAT PERSON SAYSSOMETHING OR DOES SOMETHING
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BUT THEN THAT PERSON SAYSSOMETHING OR DOES SOMETHINGAND EVEN THOUGH YOU'VE
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SOMETHING OR DOES SOMETHINGAND EVEN THOUGH YOU'VEFORGIVEN THEM YOU'RE LIKE,
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AND EVEN THOUGH YOU'VEFORGIVEN THEM YOU'RE LIKE,OH NO YOU DIDN'T!
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FORGIVEN THEM YOU'RE LIKE,OH NO YOU DIDN'T!AND ALL THOSE FEELINGS,
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OH NO YOU DIDN'T!AND ALL THOSE FEELINGS,THE ANXIETY, AND FRUSTRATION,
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AND ALL THOSE FEELINGS,THE ANXIETY, AND FRUSTRATION,ANGER, THEY JUST
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THE ANXIETY, AND FRUSTRATION,ANGER, THEY JUSTFLOOD BACK ON TOP OF YOU.
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ANGER, THEY JUSTFLOOD BACK ON TOP OF YOU.SO ALSO WE HAVE TO REMEMBER
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FLOOD BACK ON TOP OF YOU.SO ALSO WE HAVE TO REMEMBERWE MAKE THE DECISION TO
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SO ALSO WE HAVE TO REMEMBERWE MAKE THE DECISION TOFORGIVE BUT WE ALSO HAVE
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WE MAKE THE DECISION TOFORGIVE BUT WE ALSO HAVETO WALK THROUGH
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FORGIVE BUT WE ALSO HAVETO WALK THROUGHTHE PROCESS OF FORGIVENESS.
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TO WALK THROUGHTHE PROCESS OF FORGIVENESS.Sheila: I THINK THAT'S HUGE!
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THE PROCESS OF FORGIVENESS.Sheila: I THINK THAT'S HUGE!Lysa: IT'S REALLY HUGE.
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Sheila: I THINK THAT'S HUGE!Lysa: IT'S REALLY HUGE.AND IT HELPED ME SO MUCH.
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Lysa: IT'S REALLY HUGE.AND IT HELPED ME SO MUCH.JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE THOSE
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AND IT HELPED ME SO MUCH.JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE THOSEFEELINGS THAT COME BACK,
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JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE THOSEFEELINGS THAT COME BACK,THAT DOESN'T MAKE YOU
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FEELINGS THAT COME BACK,THAT DOESN'T MAKE YOUA FORGIVENESS FAILURE.
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THAT DOESN'T MAKE YOUA FORGIVENESS FAILURE.IT MEANS YOU FORGAVE FOR
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A FORGIVENESS FAILURE.IT MEANS YOU FORGAVE FORTHE FACT OF WHAT HAPPENED;
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IT MEANS YOU FORGAVE FORTHE FACT OF WHAT HAPPENED;THAT WAS A DECISION AND
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THE FACT OF WHAT HAPPENED;THAT WAS A DECISION ANDTHAT WAS YOUR OBEDIENCE
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THAT WAS A DECISION ANDTHAT WAS YOUR OBEDIENCETO GOD.
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THAT WAS YOUR OBEDIENCETO GOD.BUT NOW YOU HAVE TO WALK
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TO GOD.BUT NOW YOU HAVE TO WALKTHROUGH THE PROCESS
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BUT NOW YOU HAVE TO WALKTHROUGH THE PROCESSOF FORGIVING FOR THE IMPACT,
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THROUGH THE PROCESSOF FORGIVING FOR THE IMPACT,THE EMOTIONAL COST THAT
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OF FORGIVING FOR THE IMPACT,THE EMOTIONAL COST THATTHAT HAD ON YOU WAS GREAT,
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THE EMOTIONAL COST THATTHAT HAD ON YOU WAS GREAT,AND THE PROCESS OF FORGIVENESS
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THAT HAD ON YOU WAS GREAT,AND THE PROCESS OF FORGIVENESSCAN TAKE A LONG TIME.
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AND THE PROCESS OF FORGIVENESSCAN TAKE A LONG TIME.BUT WHEN YOU GET TRIGGERED,
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CAN TAKE A LONG TIME.BUT WHEN YOU GET TRIGGERED,YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE HIJACKED
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BUT WHEN YOU GET TRIGGERED,YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE HIJACKEDBY THAT TRIGGER.
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YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE HIJACKEDBY THAT TRIGGER.YOU CAN HAVE ANOTHER
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BY THAT TRIGGER.YOU CAN HAVE ANOTHERMARKED MOMENT AND YOU CAN SAY,
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YOU CAN HAVE ANOTHERMARKED MOMENT AND YOU CAN SAY,OKAY, I NOW FORGIVE
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MARKED MOMENT AND YOU CAN SAY,OKAY, I NOW FORGIVETHIS PERSON FOR THE IMPACT
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OKAY, I NOW FORGIVETHIS PERSON FOR THE IMPACTTHAT THEY'VE HAD ON ME
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THIS PERSON FOR THE IMPACTTHAT THEY'VE HAD ON MEAND WHATEVER MY FEELINGS
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THAT THEY'VE HAD ON MEAND WHATEVER MY FEELINGSWILL NOT YET ALLOW FOR
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AND WHATEVER MY FEELINGSWILL NOT YET ALLOW FORTHE BLOOD OF JESUS
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WILL NOT YET ALLOW FORTHE BLOOD OF JESUSWILL SURELY COVER IT.
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THAT I FOUND VERY HEALING
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THAT I FOUND VERY HEALINGABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS
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ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGSYOU WROTE WAS WHEN I,
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YOU WROTE WAS WHEN I,AS YOUR FRIEND FIRST HEARD,
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TO FLY THERE AND I'M GOING
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TO FLY THERE AND I'M GOINGTO HURT HIM AND THEN ASK
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TO FLY THERE AND I'M GOINGTO HURT HIM AND THEN ASKJESUS TO FORGIVE ME.
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TO HURT HIM AND THEN ASKJESUS TO FORGIVE ME.[Laughing]
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JESUS TO FORGIVE ME.[Laughing]BUT YOU TALK ABOUT
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[Laughing]BUT YOU TALK ABOUTYOU REALIZING THAT YOU BOTH
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BUT YOU TALK ABOUTYOU REALIZING THAT YOU BOTHHAD THINGS THAT YOU NEEDED
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YOU REALIZING THAT YOU BOTHHAD THINGS THAT YOU NEEDEDFORGIVENESS FOR.
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HAD THINGS THAT YOU NEEDEDFORGIVENESS FOR.THAT'S -- THAT'S MOVING
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FORGIVENESS FOR.THAT'S -- THAT'S MOVINGWAY FURTHER DOWN THE LINE.
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THAT'S -- THAT'S MOVINGWAY FURTHER DOWN THE LINE.BECAUSE WHEN SOMEBODY
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WAY FURTHER DOWN THE LINE.BECAUSE WHEN SOMEBODYHAS OBVIOUSLY DECIMATED
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BECAUSE WHEN SOMEBODYHAS OBVIOUSLY DECIMATEDYOUR LIFE THEN THEY ARE
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HAS OBVIOUSLY DECIMATEDYOUR LIFE THEN THEY ARETHE BAD GUY.
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YOUR LIFE THEN THEY ARETHE BAD GUY.BUT YOU SAW THINGS
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THE BAD GUY.BUT YOU SAW THINGSIN A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE.
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BUT YOU SAW THINGSIN A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE.Lysa: WELL, I COULDN'T
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IN A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE.Lysa: WELL, I COULDN'TAT FIRST.
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Lysa: WELL, I COULDN'TAT FIRST.AND I THINK IN COUNSELING
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AT FIRST.AND I THINK IN COUNSELINGWHENEVER ART WOULD SAY
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AND I THINK IN COUNSELINGWHENEVER ART WOULD SAYSOMETHING LIKE, "WELL,
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WHENEVER ART WOULD SAYSOMETHING LIKE, "WELL,YOU KNOW, LYSA, YOU NEED
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SOMETHING LIKE, "WELL,YOU KNOW, LYSA, YOU NEEDTO WORK ON THINGS TOO"
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YOU KNOW, LYSA, YOU NEEDTO WORK ON THINGS TOO"I WAS SO RESISTANT TO IT
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IF I SAID, "YES, I HAVE THINGS
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IF I SAID, "YES, I HAVE THINGSTO WORK ON TOO" THAT
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TO WORK ON TOO" THATI WAS SAYING THAT BECAUSE
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I WAS SAYING THAT BECAUSEI HAD THINGS TO WORK ON THAT
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LIKE IT WAS OKAY
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LIKE IT WAS OKAYTO HAVE AN AFFAIR.
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LIKE IT WAS OKAYTO HAVE AN AFFAIR.AFFAIRS ARE NEVER OKAY.
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TO HAVE AN AFFAIR.AFFAIRS ARE NEVER OKAY.SO WHAT I DID WOULD HAVE
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AFFAIRS ARE NEVER OKAY.SO WHAT I DID WOULD HAVEBEEN A GOOD CALL FOR
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SO WHAT I DID WOULD HAVEBEEN A GOOD CALL FORCOUNSELING HELP BUT IT DID
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BEEN A GOOD CALL FORCOUNSELING HELP BUT IT DIDNOT JUSTIFY THE AFFAIR.
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COUNSELING HELP BUT IT DIDNOT JUSTIFY THE AFFAIR.AND THEN I REMEMBER IN
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NOT JUSTIFY THE AFFAIR.AND THEN I REMEMBER INONE PARTICULAR COUNSELING
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AND THEN I REMEMBER INONE PARTICULAR COUNSELINGSESSION, I DID A LOT
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ONE PARTICULAR COUNSELINGSESSION, I DID A LOTOF COUNSELLING ON MY OWN,
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SESSION, I DID A LOTOF COUNSELLING ON MY OWN,BUT EVERY NOW AND THEN
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OF COUNSELLING ON MY OWN,BUT EVERY NOW AND THENWE WOULD HAVE
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BUT EVERY NOW AND THENWE WOULD HAVECOUNSELING TOGETHER.
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WE WOULD HAVECOUNSELING TOGETHER.MANY TIMES THOSE
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COUNSELING TOGETHER.MANY TIMES THOSEDID NOT GO WELL.
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MANY TIMES THOSEDID NOT GO WELL.BUT ON THIS ONE TIME,
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DID NOT GO WELL.BUT ON THIS ONE TIME,THE COUNSELOR LOOKED AT ART
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BUT ON THIS ONE TIME,THE COUNSELOR LOOKED AT ARTAND SAID, "YOU NEED
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THE COUNSELOR LOOKED AT ARTAND SAID, "YOU NEEDTO FREE HER TO WORK ON
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AND SAID, "YOU NEEDTO FREE HER TO WORK ONWHAT SHE NEEDS TO WORK ON
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TO FREE HER TO WORK ONWHAT SHE NEEDS TO WORK ONBY OWNING THAT THERE WAS
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WHAT SHE NEEDS TO WORK ONBY OWNING THAT THERE WASNO EXCUSE FOR THE AFFAIR."
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BY OWNING THAT THERE WASNO EXCUSE FOR THE AFFAIR."AND HE DID THAT.
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NO EXCUSE FOR THE AFFAIR."AND HE DID THAT.THAT WAS A VERY COURAGEOUS
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AND HE DID THAT.THAT WAS A VERY COURAGEOUSTHING FOR ART TO DO
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THAT WAS A VERY COURAGEOUSTHING FOR ART TO DOAND HE OWNED IT.
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THING FOR ART TO DOAND HE OWNED IT.AND SLOWLY, I STARTED
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AND HE OWNED IT.AND SLOWLY, I STARTEDTO BE ABLE TO FEEL LIKE
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AND SLOWLY, I STARTEDTO BE ABLE TO FEEL LIKEOKAY, I CAN WORK ON
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TO BE ABLE TO FEEL LIKEOKAY, I CAN WORK ONSOME OF MY STUFF TOO.
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OKAY, I CAN WORK ONSOME OF MY STUFF TOO.AND WHAT I STARTED TO REALIZE
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SOME OF MY STUFF TOO.AND WHAT I STARTED TO REALIZEIS IF I FOREVER SAW MYSELF
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AND WHAT I STARTED TO REALIZEIS IF I FOREVER SAW MYSELFAS THE SAINT
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IS IF I FOREVER SAW MYSELFAS THE SAINTAND ART AS THE SINNER,
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AS THE SAINTAND ART AS THE SINNER,I WOULDN'T BE ABLE
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AND ART AS THE SINNER,I WOULDN'T BE ABLETO FORGIVE HIM.
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I WOULDN'T BE ABLETO FORGIVE HIM.BUT WHEN I STARTED
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TO FORGIVE HIM.BUT WHEN I STARTEDTO RECOGNIZE, JESUS ONLY
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BUT WHEN I STARTEDTO RECOGNIZE, JESUS ONLYCALLS US BOTH TO BE SERVANTS.
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TO RECOGNIZE, JESUS ONLYCALLS US BOTH TO BE SERVANTS.AND IN THE LORD'S PRAYER
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CALLS US BOTH TO BE SERVANTS.AND IN THE LORD'S PRAYERIN MATTHEW CHAPTER SIX,
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AND IN THE LORD'S PRAYERIN MATTHEW CHAPTER SIX,ISN'T IT INTERESTING
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IN MATTHEW CHAPTER SIX,ISN'T IT INTERESTINGHOW CONFESSION COMES
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ISN'T IT INTERESTINGHOW CONFESSION COMESBEFORE FORGIVENESS?
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THE SINS I HAVE DONE
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THE SINS I HAVE DONEAS I FORGIVE OTHERS FOR THE
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THE SINS I HAVE DONEAS I FORGIVE OTHERS FOR THEDEBTS THAT THEY'VE CREATED,
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CONFESSION WITH GOD.
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CONFESSION WITH GOD.IF I THINK I NEED FORGIVENESS
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CONFESSION WITH GOD.IF I THINK I NEED FORGIVENESSAND I KNOW I NEED FORGIVENESS,
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IF I THINK I NEED FORGIVENESSAND I KNOW I NEED FORGIVENESS,THAT'S HOW HIS FORGIVENESS
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AND I KNOW I NEED FORGIVENESS,THAT'S HOW HIS FORGIVENESSFLOWS TO ME.
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THAT'S HOW HIS FORGIVENESSFLOWS TO ME.AND THEN FORGIVENESS IS
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FLOWS TO ME.AND THEN FORGIVENESS ISHOW IT CAN FLOW THROUGH ME.
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AND THEN FORGIVENESS ISHOW IT CAN FLOW THROUGH ME.CONFESSION IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
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HOW IT CAN FLOW THROUGH ME.CONFESSION IS SO BEAUTIFUL.IT QUIETS THE CHAOS
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CONFESSION IS SO BEAUTIFUL.IT QUIETS THE CHAOSINSIDE OF ME
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IT QUIETS THE CHAOSINSIDE OF MEAND FORGIVENESS QUIETS
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INSIDE OF MEAND FORGIVENESS QUIETSTHE CHAOS BETWEEN US.
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AND FORGIVENESS QUIETSTHE CHAOS BETWEEN US.Sheila: AS YOU CAN SEE,
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THE CHAOS BETWEEN US.Sheila: AS YOU CAN SEE,YOU'RE GOING TO WANT
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Sheila: AS YOU CAN SEE,YOU'RE GOING TO WANTTO GET A HOLD OF THIS BOOK
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YOU'RE GOING TO WANTTO GET A HOLD OF THIS BOOKAND I WILL BE GLAD
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TO GET A HOLD OF THIS BOOKAND I WILL BE GLADTO SEND IT TO YOU.
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AND I WILL BE GLADTO SEND IT TO YOU.BUT I WOULD LOVE IF YOU
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TO SEND IT TO YOU.BUT I WOULD LOVE IF YOUWOULD HELP US DO SOMETHING.
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BUT I WOULD LOVE IF YOUWOULD HELP US DO SOMETHING.AS YOU KNOW HERE AT
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WOULD HELP US DO SOMETHING.AS YOU KNOW HERE ATLIFE TODAY WE'RE VERY
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AS YOU KNOW HERE ATLIFE TODAY WE'RE VERYCOMMITTED TO TAKING CARE OF
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LIFE TODAY WE'RE VERYCOMMITTED TO TAKING CARE OFSOME OF THE VERY REAL NEEDS
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COMMITTED TO TAKING CARE OFSOME OF THE VERY REAL NEEDSAROUND THE WORLD.
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SOME OF THE VERY REAL NEEDSAROUND THE WORLD.EVEN AS I SIT HERE
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MOTHERS SITTING WITH
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THEIR CHILDREN TAKING
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THEIR LAST BREATH BECAUSE
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THEY DON'T HAVE ENOUGH FOOD.
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ONE OF THE THINGS THAT
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SURPRISED ME THAT I DID NOT
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ANTICIPATE WAS THE SILENCE
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OF THE BROKEN.
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YOU EXPECT THAT THE CHILD
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IS IN PAIN OR THE CHILD
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IS SUFFERING THEN
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THERE WOULD BE NOISE.
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BUT SO MANY OF THESE
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LITTLE ONES WHO ARE LAYING
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IN THESE BEDS
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IN THE MALNUTRITION CLINIC,
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THERE WAS NO NOISE AT ALL.
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IF ANYTHING, IT WAS
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THE MOTHERS WHO ARE CRYING.
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AND THE CHILDREN ARE JUST
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SIMPLY USING ALL THE ENERGY
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THEY HAD JUST TO TAKE
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ONE MORE BREATH.
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AND IT WAS JUST HORRIFYING
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TO ME.
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AND THEN THE NEXT DAY
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GOING TO A VILLAGE WHERE
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WE ALREADY HAVE SET UP
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MISSION FEEDING AND LOOKING
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AT THE CHILDREN THE WAY
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YOU WOULD LOOK AT CHILDREN
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PLAYING AT SCHOOL.
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HAPPY, THEIR BRIGHT FACES,
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JUST INTERACTING
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WITH ONE ANOTHER.
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AND ALL BECAUSE OF
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MISSION FEEDING.
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WE HAVE SOME AMAZING PARTNERS
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ON THE GROUND WHO ARE
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WAITING RIGHT NOW BECAUSE
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THE COMMITMENT THAT WE HAVE
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MADE TO THEM IS THAT WE WILL
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PROVIDE ENOUGH FOOD FOR
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350.000 CHILDREN THIS YEAR.
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THAT SOUNDS LIKE A LOT BUT
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IT IS SO DOABLE BECAUSE
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$30 WILL FEED THREE CHILDREN
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FOR THREE MONTHS.
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I MEAN YOU COULDN'T GET
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ONE MEAL FOR THREE CHILDREN
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FOR $30 NOW BUT IN AFRICA,
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THAT'S HOW FAR IT GOES.
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$50 FEEDS FIVE CHILDREN.
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$100 FEEDS TEN CHILDREN.
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SO PLEASE, WILL YOU CALL NOW?
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WILL YOU GIVE THE VERY BEST
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GIFT YOU CAN AND LET'S GET
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THE HELP OUT TO THOSE CHILDREN
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NOW IN JESUS' NAME?
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THANK YOU!
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TODAY ON TOP OF THE DAILYFIGHT FOR LIFE AND FOOD,
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FAMILIES AND CHILDRENACROSS AFRICA ARE NOW FORCED
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TO DEAL WITH THE CHALLENGESOF A GLOBAL HEALTH CRISIS.
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BECAUSE OF COVID-19,
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FOOD SCARCITY HASINCREASED DRASTICALLY
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AND THE FEAR OF DYINGFROM LACK OF FOOD
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IS FAR GREATERTHAN THE VIRUS ITSELF.
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EVEN IN THESEUNPRECEDENTED TIMES,
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MISSION FEEDINGWON'T STOP.
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WITH YOUR HELP,MISSION FEEDINGWILL CONTINUE TO BE
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A DAILY SOURCE OF FOOD,ENCOURAGEMENT, AND HEALTH
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FOR THE 350.000 CHILDRENCOUNTING ON US.
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CALL NOW WITH YOURLIFESAVING GIFT
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OF $30, $50,OR $100
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THAT WILL HELPFEED AND CARE
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FOR THREE, FIVEOR TEN CHILDREN
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FOR THREEFULL MONTHS.
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WITH YOUR GIFTWE'LL SEND YOU
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40 DAYSOF HEALING PROMISES.
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THIS BEAUTIFULHARDCOVER DEVOTIONAL
00:21:09.558 --> 00:21:11.460
WILL ENCOURAGE YOUIN YOUR FAITH
00:21:11.560 --> 00:21:13.462
AS YOU DIVE DEEP INTOTHE HEALING PROMISES
00:21:13.562 --> 00:21:15.464
THAT ARE YOURSIN JESUS' NAME.
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WITH YOUR GIFTOF $100 OR MORE
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PLEASE REQUEST THE"BLESSINGS FOR YOUR HOME"
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BOWLS ANDTEA TOWEL SET.
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THIS SET OF BOWLSAND TWO BEAUTIFULLY DESIGNEDTEA TOWELS
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WILL MAKE A WONDERFULADDITION TO YOUR HOME
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AND SERVEAS A REMINDER OF YOUR HELPIN BLESSING OTHERS
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AS A FRIENDOF LIFE .
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FINALLY, WITH YOUR GIFTOF $1.000 OR MORE
00:21:34.483 --> 00:21:36.852
TO HELP FEED AND CAREFOR 100 CHILDREN
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BE SURE TO REQUESTOUR COMMEMORATIVEBRONZE SCULPTURE,
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"A MOTHER'SSTRENGTH."
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PLEASE CALL, WRITE, OR MAKEYOUR GIFT ONLINE TODAY.
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Sheila: THANK YOU SO SO MUCH.
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Sheila: THANK YOU SO SO MUCH.IF THE LINES ARE BUSY,
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Sheila: THANK YOU SO SO MUCH.IF THE LINES ARE BUSY,KEEP CALLING.
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IF THE LINES ARE BUSY,KEEP CALLING.LET'S DO THIS.
00:21:58.774 --> 00:21:59.808
KEEP CALLING.LET'S DO THIS.AND REMEMBER, FOR ANY GIFT
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LET'S DO THIS.AND REMEMBER, FOR ANY GIFTAT ALL WE WILL SEND YOU
00:22:00.876 --> 00:22:01.943
AND REMEMBER, FOR ANY GIFTAT ALL WE WILL SEND YOULYSA'S BOOK, FORGIVING
00:22:01.943 --> 00:22:04.413
AT ALL WE WILL SEND YOULYSA'S BOOK, FORGIVINGWHAT YOU CAN'T FORGET .
00:22:04.413 --> 00:22:05.714
LYSA'S BOOK, FORGIVINGWHAT YOU CAN'T FORGET .THIS BOOK WEIGHS A LOT
00:22:05.714 --> 00:22:07.048
WHAT YOU CAN'T FORGET .THIS BOOK WEIGHS A LOTBECAUSE IT COST YOU A LOT
00:22:07.048 --> 00:22:08.283
THIS BOOK WEIGHS A LOTBECAUSE IT COST YOU A LOTBUT I JUST WANT TO THANK YOU
00:22:08.283 --> 00:22:09.384
BECAUSE IT COST YOU A LOTBUT I JUST WANT TO THANK YOUFOR THE WAY THAT YOU'RE GOING
00:22:09.384 --> 00:22:10.552
BUT I JUST WANT TO THANK YOUFOR THE WAY THAT YOU'RE GOINGTO HELP SO MANY OF US
00:22:10.552 --> 00:22:11.620
FOR THE WAY THAT YOU'RE GOINGTO HELP SO MANY OF USMOVE FORWARD IN OUR JOURNEY
00:22:11.620 --> 00:22:12.721
TO HELP SO MANY OF USMOVE FORWARD IN OUR JOURNEYTO HEALING.
00:22:12.721 --> 00:22:14.022
MOVE FORWARD IN OUR JOURNEYTO HEALING.Lysa: THANK YOU, SHEILA.
00:22:14.022 --> 00:22:15.023
TO HEALING.Lysa: THANK YOU, SHEILA.Sheila: SO THANKS
00:22:15.023 --> 00:22:16.057
Lysa: THANK YOU, SHEILA.Sheila: SO THANKSFOR BEING WITH US.
00:22:16.057 --> 00:22:17.125
Sheila: SO THANKSFOR BEING WITH US.YOU MIGHT WANT TO GET
00:22:17.125 --> 00:22:18.126
FOR BEING WITH US.YOU MIGHT WANT TO GETTWO COPIES, GET ONE
00:22:18.126 --> 00:22:19.161
YOU MIGHT WANT TO GETTWO COPIES, GET ONEFOR A FRIEND.
00:22:19.161 --> 00:22:20.228
TWO COPIES, GET ONEFOR A FRIEND.IF YOU KNOW SOMEBODY WHO IS
00:22:20.228 --> 00:22:21.396
FOR A FRIEND.IF YOU KNOW SOMEBODY WHO ISHURTING AND CAN'T FORGIVE,
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IF YOU KNOW SOMEBODY WHO ISHURTING AND CAN'T FORGIVE,THIS WILL BE AN IDEAL GIFT.
00:22:22.397 --> 00:22:23.432
HURTING AND CAN'T FORGIVE,THIS WILL BE AN IDEAL GIFT.SO UNTIL NEXT TIME,
00:22:23.432 --> 00:22:24.633
THIS WILL BE AN IDEAL GIFT.SO UNTIL NEXT TIME,I'M SHEILA WALSH SAYING
00:22:24.633 --> 00:22:27.402
♪ EVERYTHING ELSECAN WAIT ♪
00:22:48.824 --> 00:22:55.130
♪ I'VE COMETO SEEK YOUR FACE ♪
00:22:55.230 --> 00:23:01.369
♪ SO EVERYTHING ELSECAN WAIT ♪
00:23:01.470 --> 00:23:04.406
♪ I'M HEREFOR YOU ♪
00:23:04.506 --> 00:23:08.877
♪ I WANT TO ♪
00:23:08.977 --> 00:23:12.214
♪ JUST BEHERE AT YOUR FEET ♪
00:23:12.314 --> 00:23:18.954
♪ JUST BE HEREON MY KNEES ♪
00:23:19.054 --> 00:23:26.561
♪ HERE INYOUR PRESENCE ♪
00:23:26.661 --> 00:23:29.764
♪ I AM COMPLETE ♪
00:23:29.865 --> 00:23:32.701
♪ JESUS, YOU'RE ALLTHAT I NEED ♪
00:23:32.801 --> 00:23:38.106
♪ EVERYTHING ELSECAN WAIT ♪
00:23:51.786 --> 00:23:58.460
♪ I'VE COMETO SEEK YOUR FACE ♪
00:23:58.560 --> 00:24:05.066
♪ SO EVERYTHING ELSECAN WAIT ♪
00:24:05.166 --> 00:24:08.403
♪ I'M HEREFOR YOU ♪
00:24:08.503 --> 00:24:13.074
♪ I WANT TO ♪
00:24:13.174 --> 00:24:16.511
♪ JUST BEHERE AT YOUR FEET ♪
00:24:16.611 --> 00:24:23.385
♪ JUST BE HEREON MY KNEES ♪
00:24:23.485 --> 00:24:31.159
♪ HERE INYOUR PRESENCE ♪
00:24:31.259 --> 00:24:34.329
♪ I AM COMPLETE ♪
00:24:34.429 --> 00:24:37.265
♪ JESUS, YOU'RE ALLTHAT I NEED ♪
00:24:37.365 --> 00:24:42.304
♪ THERE'S NOTHINGI WANT MORE ♪
00:24:46.741 --> 00:24:53.315
♪ 'CAUSE NOTHINGMATTERS MORE ♪
00:24:53.415 --> 00:24:59.988
♪ THERE'S NOTHINGI WANT MORE, GOD ♪
00:25:00.088 --> 00:25:04.359
♪ 'CAUSE NOTHINGMATTERS MORE, NO ♪
00:25:06.795 --> 00:25:13.335
♪ THERE'S NOTHINGI WANT MORE, NO ♪
00:25:13.435 --> 00:25:20.075
♪ 'CAUSE NOTHINGMATTERS MORE ♪
00:25:20.175 --> 00:25:23.244
♪ THAN YOU,THAN YOU, GOD ♪
00:25:23.345 --> 00:25:26.681
♪ THERE'S NOTHINGI WANT MORE, NO ♪
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♪ 'CAUSE NOTHINGMATTERS MORE ♪
00:25:33.388 --> 00:25:37.859
♪ I'LL JUST BEHERE AT YOUR FEET ♪
00:25:37.959 --> 00:25:43.965
♪ JUST BEHERE ON MY KNEES ♪
00:25:44.065 --> 00:25:51.473
♪ HERE INYOUR PRESENCE ♪
00:25:51.573 --> 00:25:54.509
♪ I AM COMPLETE ♪
00:25:54.609 --> 00:25:57.345
♪ JESUS, YOU'RE ALLTHAT I NEED, OH ♪
00:25:57.445 --> 00:26:04.019
♪ I'LL JUST BEHERE AT YOUR FEET ♪
00:26:04.119 --> 00:26:09.591
♪ OH I'LL JUST BEHERE ON MY KNEES ♪
00:26:09.691 --> 00:26:18.099
♪ HERE INYOUR PRESENCE ♪
00:26:18.199 --> 00:26:21.102
♪ I AM COMPLETE ♪
00:26:21.202 --> 00:26:23.838
♪ JESUS, YOU'RE ALLTHAT I NEED ♪
00:26:23.938 --> 00:26:27.776
♪ JESUS, YOU'RE ALLTHAT I NEED ♪
00:26:31.012 --> 00:26:36.084
♪ OH JESUS,YOU'RE ALL THAT I NEED ♪
00:26:36.184 --> 00:26:44.125
- IT IS AT THE PLACEOF SURRENDER
00:27:02.343 --> 00:27:05.313
THAT PURPOSEIS FOUND.
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SAM COLLIER TELLS HIS STORYOF ABANDONMENT AND RESCUE.
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NEXT WEEK!
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LIFE TODAY IS MADEPOSSIBLE BY THE SUPPORTERS OFLIFE OUTREACH INTERNATIONAL.
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YOUR GIFT WILL BE USEDEXCLUSIVELY FOR THE EXEMPTPURPOSES OF LIFE.
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THE MINISTRY FEATURESSPECIFIC OUTREACHES
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AS EXAMPLES OF THE PROGRAMSIT SUPPORTS AND CONDUCTS.
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GIFTS ARE CONSIDEREDTO BE WITHOUT RESTRICTION
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AS TO USE UNLESS EXPLICITLYSTIPULATED BY THE DONOR.
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THE MINISTRY IS A MEMBEROF THE E.C.F.A.
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