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December 3, 2019
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  • - AND SOMETHING JUST BROKE IN MY HEART AND I REALIZED...
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  • BECAUSE BEFORE I UNDERSTOOD IT WITH A CHILD'S MIND
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  • BUT NOW AS A TEENAGER I UNDERSTOOD
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  • THAT MY DAD WAS A SEXUAL PREDATOR...
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  • AND THAT I WAS HIS PREY.
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  • I DECIDED THAT I WANTED TO DIE.
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  • JENNIFER GREENBERG SHARES HOW GOD BROUGHT LIFE AND HOPE
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  • IN THE DARKEST OF SITUATIONS
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  • AND HOW SHE KNEW SHE WAS NOT FORSAKEN.
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  • Randy: I'M RANDY ROBISON.
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  • SHEILA WALSH IS WITH ME.
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  • WE ARE GLAD TO HAVE YOU
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  • WITH US TODAY.
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  • WE'RE TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING
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  • THAT IS TOUGH.
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  • BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?
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  • IT IS VERY NECESSARY.
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  • IT IS NECESSARY NOT JUST
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  • IN CULTURE BUT
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  • WITHIN THE CHURCH.
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  • WHO HAS BRAVELY COME FORWARD
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  • TO DISCUSS THIS SUBJECT,
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  • JENNIFER GREENBERG?
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  • Jennifer: THANK YOU.
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  • Randy: GLAD TO HAVE YOU.
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  • Sheila: WELCOME.
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  • Randy: YOU PUT THIS INTO
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  • A BOOK CALLED NOT FORSAKEN,
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  • WHICH GIVEN THE CONTEXT
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  • IS A BEAUTIFUL TITLE
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  • BUT WE'LL GET INTO THAT.
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  • I'VE GOT TO TELL YOU THOUGH,
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  • I STARTED READING THIS BOOK,
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  • I GOT ANGRY AS A CHRISTIAN,
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  • AS A FATHER OF DAUGHTERS,
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  • JUST AS A HUMAN BEING
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  • I GOT ANGRY.
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  • TELL PEOPLE A LITTLE BIT
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  • OF YOUR BACKGROUND
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  • SO WE CAN UNDERSTAND
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  • WHAT YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH.
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  • WELL, I GREW UP IN A FAMILY
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  • THAT WAS "CHRISTIAN."
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  • WE WENT TO CHURCH.
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  • WE PRAYED TOGETHER.
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  • BUT WE DIDN'T LIVE IN THE WAY
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  • A CHRISTIAN FAMILY SHOULD.
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  • SO THERE WAS
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  • A STRANGE DICHOTOMY FOR ME.
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  • ON THE ONE HAND I WOULD GO
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  • TO CHURCH ON SUNDAY AND
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  • I WOULD READ ABOUT GOD'S LOVE
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  • AND HOW HE'S A LOVING FATHER,
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  • AND HIS MERCY
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  • AND HIS COMPASSION
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  • AND FORGIVENESS.
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  • AND THEN I'D GO HOME
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  • AND MY FATHER, MY BIOLOGICAL
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  • FATHER WAS VIOLENT
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  • AND PERVERSE AND HE WAS
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  • UNFORGIVING AND UNMERCIFUL
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  • AND UNKIND.
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  • SO THERE WAS A STARK CONTRAST
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  • BETWEEN WHAT I WAS
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  • HEARING ABOUT AT CHURCH
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  • AND READING ABOUT IN THE BIBLE
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  • AND WHAT I WAS SEEING
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  • LIVED OUT IN MY FAMILY'S LIFE.
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  • SO IT WAS VERY CONFUSING.
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  • HOW YOUNG YOU WERE WHEN
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  • THINGS STARTED TO HAPPEN
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  • THAT WOULD NOT BE NORMAL
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  • Jennifer: MY EARLIEST
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  • MEMORIES OF ABUSE DATE BACK
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  • TO WHEN I WAS ABOUT
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  • TWO YEARS OLD.
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  • AT FIRST I HAD THESE MEMORIES
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  • AND I THOUGHT THAT
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  • CAN'T POSSIBLY BE REAL.
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  • I CAN'T POSSIBLY REMEMBER
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  • SOMETHING FROM THAT FAR BACK.
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  • BUT THEN I DESCRIBED
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  • THE SANDALS I WAS WEARING,
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  • THE PATTERN OF THE BLANKET
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  • ON THE BED.
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  • AND MY MOM SAID,
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  • "NO THIS IS REAL.
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  • THOSE ARE THE SHOES YOU WORE
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  • WHEN YOU WERE TWO YEARS OLD."
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  • THIS IS THE BLANKET
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  • IN OUR MASTER BEDROOM.
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  • SHE CORROBORATED MY MEMORIES.
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  • SO THAT TO ME WAS
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  • VERY SHOCKING.
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  • Randy: YOU WRITE THAT
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  • YOUR FATHER WOULD GO FROM
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  • READING APOLOGETICS
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  • INTO CHRISTIANITY
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  • TO PHYSICALLY HURTING YOU.
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  • Jennifer: YES.
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  • THERE WAS ONE WEEKEND,
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  • AND I WAS IN THE LIVING ROOM
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  • PLAYING WITH MY DOLLS AND
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  • I REMEMBER MY DAD TELLING ME
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  • TO BE QUIET BECAUSE HE WAS
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  • TRYING TO READ HIS BOOK.
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  • SO I WENT BACK TO PLAYING
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  • AND HE WENT BACK TO READING.
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  • AND I THOUGHT THAT I WAS
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  • BEING QUIET BUT YOU KNOW
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  • I WAS PROBABLY
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  • 10-11 YEARS OLD.
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  • BEFORE I KNEW IT, HE HAD
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  • GRABBED ME FROM BEHIND
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  • AND HE JERKED ME AROUND AND
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  • HE JUST STARTED HITTING ME.
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  • AND HE WOULDN'T STOP
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  • HITTING ME.
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  • I STARTED SCREAMING.
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  • I REMEMBER THINKING,
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  • IT'S GOING TO BE OKAY.
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  • HE IS JUST GOING TO SPANK ME
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  • A COUPLE OF TIMES
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  • AND THEN HE'LL BE DONE
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  • AND I'LL GO BACK TO PLAYING
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  • BUT HE JUST WOULDN'T STOP.
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  • FINALLY, MY MOM RAN IN
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  • AND SHE YELLED AT HIM
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  • AND SHE SAID,
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  • "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"
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  • AND HE DROPPED ME
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  • AND I FELL ON THE FLOOR
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  • AND I RAN INTO MY BEDROOM.
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  • I HUDDLED AGAINST MY CLOSET
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  • DOOR AND I REMEMBER JUST
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  • WAITING FOR SOMEONE
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  • TO COME AND CHECK ON ME.
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  • FOR SOMEONE TO COME AND
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  • PUT ICE ON THESE WELTS.
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  • I REMEMBER LOOKING AT MY ARM
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  • AND MATCHING MY FINGERS
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  • UP TO THE BRUISES AND
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  • THINKING, THIS IS HOW BIG
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  • MY DAD'S HANDS ARE.
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  • Sheila: BUT NO ONE CAME?
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  • Jennifer: NO ONE CAME.
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  • AND SO FOR ME, IT WAS KIND
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  • OF A DOUBLE BETRAYAL
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  • BECAUSE IN ADDITION TO HAVING
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  • MY DAD ATTACK ME SO VIOLENTLY
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  • NO ONE DID ANYTHING.
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  • Randy: I WOULD LIKE TO LET
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  • PEOPLE KNOW THAT IT STOPPED
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  • AT A FEW PHYSICAL THINGS
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  • BUT IT DIDN'T.
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  • WAS ALL MANNER OF ABUSE.
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  • THERE WAS PSYCHOLOGICAL ABUSE.
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  • THERE WAS SEXUAL ABUSE.
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  • I STILL REMEMBER BEING,
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  • PROBABLY AROUND THE SAME TIME
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  • AND THROUGH MY TEEN YEARS,
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  • I WOULD SIGN INTO MY COMPUTER
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  • TO WRITE A BOOK REPORT OR
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  • A HISTORY REPORT OR WHATEVER
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  • AND I WOULD FIND PORNOGRAPHY
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  • SAVED ON MY DESKTOP
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  • ON OUR COMPUTER.
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  • A COUPLE OF TIMES I WOULD
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  • CATCH HIM WATCHING ME
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  • FIND THIS.
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  • LOADED PORNOGRAPHY
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  • ONTO YOUR COMPUTER?
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  • I JUST DON'T EVEN
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  • HAVE WORDS FOR THAT.
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  • IN THE HOME ABOUT
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  • THIS IS NOT NORMAL,
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  • THIS IS NOT GOOD?
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  • WERE YOU EVER ABLE
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  • TO TALK TO YOUR MOM?
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  • Jennifer: I TRIED TO BUT
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  • I THINK ONE THING THAT
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  • YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND ABOUT,
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  • PARTICULARLY CHILD ABUSE,
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  • IS CHILDREN DON'T HAVE
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  • THE VOCABULARY.
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  • SO I'M NOT GOING TO --
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  • A CHILD IS NOT GOING TO COME
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  • TO YOU AND SAY, "I'M BEING
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  • SEXUALLY ABUSED."
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  • THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT SEX IS.
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  • THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT ABUSE IS.
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  • SO THE WAY I WOULD DESCRIBE
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  • MY DAD'S ISSUES IS,
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  • "WHY DOES MY DAD TREAT ME
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  • DIFFERENTLY?"
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  • OR "WHY DOES MY DAD
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  • HAVE ANGER ISSUES?"
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  • AND PART OF THAT I THINK,
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  • WAS ALSO A TACTIC
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  • THAT MY DAD USED.
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  • HE WOULD CALL
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  • HIS VIOLENCE "ANGER."
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  • SO WHEN I TRIED TO TELL
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  • MAYBE A PASTOR OR A FRIEND
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  • THAT MY DAD WAS VIOLENT,
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  • I WOULD SAY, "ANGER"
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  • AND SO THAT DIDN'T TRANSLATE
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  • TO THEM AND THEY DIDN'T
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  • UNDERSTAND.
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  • Sheila: ONE OF THE THINGS
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  • I FOUND FASCINATING, JENNIFER
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  • IN READING YOUR BOOK
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  • IS THAT EVEN WITH SUCH
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  • A DISTURBED HOME LIFE
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  • YOU HAVE THIS INCREDIBLE
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  • UNDERSTANDING OF
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  • THE FATHER LOVE OF GOD
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  • EVEN AT AN EARLY AGE.
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  • HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THAT?
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  • Jennifer: I REALLY JUST HAVE
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  • TO CREDIT IT TO GOD.
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  • I THINK THAT IT IS
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  • THE HOLY SPIRIT AT WORK
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  • IN MY HEART FROM A VERY,
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  • VERY YOUNG AGE.
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  • I DO NOT REMEMBER A DAY
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  • THAT I DID NOT LOVE JESUS,
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  • THAT I DID NOT BELIEVE
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  • THAT GOD WAS ACTIVE
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  • IN MY LIFE.
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  • SOME OF MY EARLIEST MEMORIES
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  • ARE OF PRAYING TO GOD,
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  • EVEN BEFORE I COULD READ
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  • THE BIBLE.
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  • AND TELLING GOD, "I'M NOT
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  • OLD ENOUGH TO STUDY YOUR WORD
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  • YET BUT I WANT TO HAVE
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  • A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU.
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  • SO WHEN I'M PLAYING WITH
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  • MY TOYS OR I'M TALKING
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  • TO MYSELF I'M GOING
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  • TO BE TALKING TO YOU."
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  • SO I JUST KIND OF GREW UP
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  • TALKING TO GOD.
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  • WE HAD THIS ONGOING
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  • CONVERSATION THROUGHOUT
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  • MY LIFE.
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  • AND REALLY, I FEEL THAT
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  • THAT PROTECTED ME
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  • THROUGH A LOT.
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  • I THINK GOD PROVIDENTIALLY
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  • PROVIDED FOR ME.
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  • HE WAS MY SHEPHERD THROUGH
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  • THE VALLEY OF
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  • THE SHADOW OF DEATH.
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  • INCIDENT, WE DON'T HAVE
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  • TO GO INTO DETAIL,
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  • BUT BASICALLY, A PASTOR
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  • DID NOT COME TO YOUR DEFENSE
  • 00:08:28.200 --> 00:08:31.030
  • SOME COMMENTS THAT
  • 00:08:32.190 --> 00:08:33.220
  • WERE HUGELY INAPPROPRIATE.
  • 00:08:33.220 --> 00:08:36.160
  • BETWEEN THAT AND THE JEKYLL
  • 00:08:36.260 --> 00:08:39.260
  • AND HYDE KIND OF THING
  • 00:08:39.260 --> 00:08:41.010
  • AT HOME, WHAT KEPT YOU
  • 00:08:41.010 --> 00:08:43.250
  • FROM JUST SPRINTING AWAY
  • 00:08:43.250 --> 00:08:45.290
  • FROM THE CHURCH AS FAST
  • 00:08:45.290 --> 00:08:47.240
  • AS POSSIBLE?
  • 00:08:47.240 --> 00:08:49.150
  • Jennifer: I THINK IN MY MIND
  • 00:08:49.150 --> 00:08:51.000
  • I DIFFERENTIATED BETWEEN
  • 00:08:51.000 --> 00:08:52.290
  • THE SIN OF INDIVIDUALS
  • 00:08:52.290 --> 00:08:55.020
  • AND THE CHURCH
  • 00:08:55.020 --> 00:08:57.060
  • AS AN INSTITUTION.
  • 00:08:57.060 --> 00:08:59.070
  • Randy: AT A YOUNG AGE?
  • 00:08:59.070 --> 00:09:01.070
  • THAT'S ACTUALLY QUITE AMAZING.
  • 00:09:01.070 --> 00:09:02.250
  • THE CHURCH OF GOD.
  • 00:09:05.020 --> 00:09:06.190
  • IN FACT, I THINK ON POSSIBLY
  • 00:09:07.020 --> 00:09:10.020
  • I REALIZED THESE PEOPLE
  • 00:09:11.240 --> 00:09:13.000
  • WERE WOLVES.
  • 00:09:13.000 --> 00:09:14.070
  • THEY ARE NOT OF GOD.
  • 00:09:14.070 --> 00:09:15.170
  • THEY ARE NOT OF
  • 00:09:15.170 --> 00:09:16.230
  • THE "TRUE CHURCH."
  • 00:09:16.230 --> 00:09:18.010
  • THAT'S ONE THING THAT
  • 00:09:18.010 --> 00:09:19.070
  • I THINK MY -- THE CHURCHES
  • 00:09:19.070 --> 00:09:20.140
  • THAT I WAS IN DID WELL.
  • 00:09:20.140 --> 00:09:22.030
  • WE DID, WE TALKED ABOUT
  • 00:09:22.030 --> 00:09:23.060
  • THE VISIBLE CHURCH,
  • 00:09:23.060 --> 00:09:24.170
  • THE PEOPLE YOU CAN SEE,
  • 00:09:24.170 --> 00:09:26.170
  • AND THEN THERE IS THE TRUE
  • 00:09:26.170 --> 00:09:27.280
  • CHURCH WHO ARE NOT HYPOCRITES.
  • 00:09:28.120 --> 00:09:31.120
  • THEY ARE GENUINE;
  • 00:09:31.120 --> 00:09:32.240
  • THEY HAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT
  • 00:09:32.240 --> 00:09:34.150
  • IN THEIR LIVES,
  • 00:09:34.150 --> 00:09:35.170
  • IN THEIR HEARTS.
  • 00:09:35.170 --> 00:09:36.190
  • SO I WAS ABLE TO, EVEN THOUGH
  • 00:09:36.190 --> 00:09:38.180
  • I PRAYED SO HARD THAT
  • 00:09:38.180 --> 00:09:40.210
  • MY DAD WOULD CHANGE
  • 00:09:40.210 --> 00:09:43.070
  • AND FOR A LONG TIME I DID,
  • 00:09:43.070 --> 00:09:44.140
  • I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS
  • 00:09:44.140 --> 00:09:46.060
  • A CHRISTIAN WHO JUST HAD
  • 00:09:46.060 --> 00:09:47.090
  • SOME SEVERE SIN PROBLEMS
  • 00:09:47.090 --> 00:09:49.230
  • BUT STILL I DIFFERENTIATED
  • 00:09:49.230 --> 00:09:52.080
  • HIS SIN FROM ANYTHING
  • 00:09:52.080 --> 00:09:55.010
  • RESEMBLING CHRIST.
  • 00:09:55.010 --> 00:09:57.050
  • Sheila: AS YOU GREW UP,
  • 00:09:57.050 --> 00:09:58.130
  • JENNIFER, HOW DID YOU --
  • 00:09:58.130 --> 00:09:59.220
  • DID YOU LEAVE HOME
  • 00:09:59.220 --> 00:10:00.260
  • AT A CERTAIN AGE?
  • 00:10:00.260 --> 00:10:01.290
  • HOW DID YOU GET AWAY AND BEGIN
  • 00:10:01.290 --> 00:10:03.040
  • TO BUILD YOUR OWN LIFE?
  • 00:10:03.150 --> 00:10:06.150
  • Jennifer: FROM A YOUNG AGE
  • 00:10:06.150 --> 00:10:08.020
  • I KEPT THINKING, I NEED
  • 00:10:08.020 --> 00:10:09.150
  • TO JUST MAKE IT TO 18; RIGHT?
  • 00:10:09.150 --> 00:10:11.280
  • I NEED TO MAKE IT TO AN AGE
  • 00:10:11.280 --> 00:10:13.060
  • WHERE I CAN GO TO COLLEGE,
  • 00:10:13.060 --> 00:10:14.130
  • I CAN GET A JOB,
  • 00:10:14.130 --> 00:10:15.180
  • I CAN GET AN APARTMENT
  • 00:10:15.180 --> 00:10:16.260
  • AND GET OUT OF HERE.
  • 00:10:16.260 --> 00:10:19.190
  • WHEN I TURNED -- WHEN I WAS
  • 00:10:19.190 --> 00:10:21.220
  • ABOUT 15 I OVERHEARD MY DAD
  • 00:10:22.090 --> 00:10:25.090
  • TALKING TO MY MOM AND
  • 00:10:25.090 --> 00:10:27.090
  • HE WAS TELLING HER WHAT
  • 00:10:27.090 --> 00:10:29.130
  • A BEAUTIFUL FIGURE HE THOUGHT
  • 00:10:29.130 --> 00:10:31.010
  • I WAS DEVELOPING.
  • 00:10:31.100 --> 00:10:34.100
  • AND SOMETHING KIND OF JUST
  • 00:10:34.100 --> 00:10:35.240
  • BROKE IN MY HEART AND
  • 00:10:35.240 --> 00:10:37.150
  • I REALIZED, BECAUSE BEFORE
  • 00:10:37.270 --> 00:10:40.270
  • I UNDERSTOOD IT WITH
  • 00:10:40.270 --> 00:10:42.090
  • A CHILD'S MIND BUT NOW
  • 00:10:42.090 --> 00:10:44.080
  • AS A TEENAGER I UNDERSTOOD
  • 00:10:44.080 --> 00:10:45.190
  • THAT MY DAD WAS
  • 00:10:45.190 --> 00:10:46.290
  • A SEXUAL PREDATOR...
  • 00:10:46.290 --> 00:10:48.200
  • AND THAT I WAS HIS PREY.
  • 00:10:48.200 --> 00:10:51.130
  • I DECIDED THAT
  • 00:10:51.130 --> 00:10:53.000
  • I WANTED TO DIE.
  • 00:10:53.000 --> 00:10:55.080
  • I DECIDED THAT DEATH WOULD BE
  • 00:10:55.080 --> 00:10:56.260
  • PREFERABLE TO LIFE.
  • 00:10:56.260 --> 00:10:59.250
  • AND I MADE PREPARATIONS AND
  • 00:11:01.140 --> 00:11:04.140
  • I GOT READY AND I SAT DOWN
  • 00:11:04.140 --> 00:11:06.170
  • ON MY BED AND I WAS READY
  • 00:11:06.170 --> 00:11:07.230
  • TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE.
  • 00:11:07.230 --> 00:11:09.180
  • I TOLD GOD, I CAN'T LIVE
  • 00:11:09.180 --> 00:11:10.280
  • LIKE THIS ANY LONGER.
  • 00:11:11.280 --> 00:11:14.280
  • I TOLD GOD, I WANT YOU
  • 00:11:14.280 --> 00:11:16.060
  • TO TAKE ME TO BE WITH YOU
  • 00:11:16.060 --> 00:11:18.060
  • IN HEAVEN.
  • 00:11:18.060 --> 00:11:19.290
  • BUT I NEED A SIGN FROM YOU
  • 00:11:19.290 --> 00:11:21.200
  • THAT YOU'RE NOT GOING
  • 00:11:21.200 --> 00:11:22.260
  • TO ABANDON ME.
  • 00:11:22.260 --> 00:11:24.060
  • THAT YOU LOVE ME.
  • 00:11:24.060 --> 00:11:25.240
  • THAT YOU'RE GOING TO TAKE
  • 00:11:25.240 --> 00:11:26.290
  • CARE OF ME,
  • 00:11:26.290 --> 00:11:28.050
  • THAT YOU'VE GOT THIS.
  • 00:11:28.050 --> 00:11:30.290
  • SO OFTEN WHEN WE PRAY
  • 00:11:31.260 --> 00:11:34.260
  • WE HEAR SILENCE IN RESPONSE.
  • 00:11:34.260 --> 00:11:36.090
  • YOU CAN PRAY REALLY,
  • 00:11:36.090 --> 00:11:37.190
  • REALLY HARD AND SOMETIMES
  • 00:11:37.190 --> 00:11:38.270
  • ALL YOU'VE GOT IS THE BIBLE
  • 00:11:38.270 --> 00:11:40.250
  • AND YOU JUST HAVE TO
  • 00:11:40.250 --> 00:11:41.290
  • RELY ON THE BIBLE.
  • 00:11:42.110 --> 00:11:45.110
  • BUT THAT DAY SOMETHING
  • 00:11:45.110 --> 00:11:46.280
  • TRULY SPECIAL HAPPENED
  • 00:11:46.280 --> 00:11:49.020
  • AND ONE THING THAT I REALLY
  • 00:11:49.020 --> 00:11:50.280
  • WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO PEOPLE
  • 00:11:50.280 --> 00:11:52.140
  • WHO ARE IN THE AUDIENCE,
  • 00:11:52.140 --> 00:11:54.130
  • IF YOU STRUGGLE
  • 00:11:54.130 --> 00:11:55.200
  • WITH DEPRESSION,
  • 00:11:55.200 --> 00:11:56.260
  • IF YOU STRUGGLE WITH
  • 00:11:56.260 --> 00:11:58.040
  • SUICIDAL THOUGHTS,
  • 00:11:58.040 --> 00:11:59.100
  • IF YOU'RE AN ABUSE SURVIVOR,
  • 00:11:59.100 --> 00:12:00.170
  • THESE WORDS ARE FOR YOU TOO
  • 00:12:00.170 --> 00:12:01.290
  • BECAUSE THEY'RE STRAIGHT
  • 00:12:01.290 --> 00:12:03.030
  • AND WHEN I WAS IN DESPAIR,
  • 00:12:04.240 --> 00:12:06.270
  • READY TO DIE, I HEARD THE
  • 00:12:06.270 --> 00:12:09.120
  • VOICE OF GOD FILL MY HEART.
  • 00:12:09.120 --> 00:12:11.270
  • LEAVE YOU OR FORSAKE YOU."
  • 00:12:14.220 --> 00:12:17.220
  • Sheila: WHAT A PROMISE!
  • 00:12:17.220 --> 00:12:18.280
  • WHAT A PROMISE! YEAH!
  • 00:12:21.180 --> 00:12:24.180
  • Randy: WHAT DID THAT DO
  • 00:12:24.180 --> 00:12:25.270
  • FOR YOU IN THAT MOMENT?
  • 00:12:25.270 --> 00:12:27.160
  • Jennifer: I WENT FROM TEARS
  • 00:12:27.160 --> 00:12:28.260
  • OF SORROW AND DESPAIR
  • 00:12:28.260 --> 00:12:30.070
  • TO TEARS OF JOY AND RELIEF
  • 00:12:30.070 --> 00:12:32.120
  • BECAUSE I KNEW THAT I HAD
  • 00:12:32.120 --> 00:12:35.010
  • A DAD, I HAD A FATHER WHO
  • 00:12:35.010 --> 00:12:37.180
  • WAS GOOD AND HE WAS FAITHFUL
  • 00:12:38.080 --> 00:12:41.080
  • AND WHO LOVED ME AND
  • 00:12:41.080 --> 00:12:42.160
  • WHO WOULD NEVER ABANDON ME.
  • 00:12:42.160 --> 00:12:44.120
  • Sheila: YEAH, WOW!
  • 00:12:44.120 --> 00:12:46.140
  • Jennifer: I DECIDED TO LIVE
  • 00:12:46.140 --> 00:12:48.030
  • BECAUSE OF THAT.
  • 00:12:48.030 --> 00:12:50.220
  • Randy: AS YOU GOT BEYOND THAT,
  • 00:12:51.000 --> 00:12:54.000
  • I KNOW YOU WENT TO COLLEGE,
  • 00:12:54.000 --> 00:12:55.160
  • YOU EVENTUALLY MET A MAN
  • 00:12:55.160 --> 00:12:56.230
  • THAT YOU'RE NOW MARRIED TO.
  • 00:12:56.230 --> 00:12:58.000
  • Jennifer: YES!
  • 00:12:58.000 --> 00:12:59.060
  • JASON, MY HUSBAND.
  • 00:12:59.060 --> 00:13:00.190
  • Randy: AT SOME POINT IN THERE
  • 00:13:00.190 --> 00:13:01.230
  • YOU STARTED REALIZING,
  • 00:13:01.230 --> 00:13:02.270
  • YOU KNOW WHAT?
  • 00:13:02.270 --> 00:13:04.060
  • THAT WAS NOT THE WAY THINGS
  • 00:13:04.060 --> 00:13:05.100
  • ARE SUPPOSED TO BE AT HOME.
  • 00:13:05.100 --> 00:13:06.190
  • Jennifer: YES.
  • 00:13:06.190 --> 00:13:07.260
  • IT WAS ACTUALLY BEING MARRIED
  • 00:13:07.260 --> 00:13:09.020
  • TO JASON AND LIVING WITH
  • 00:13:09.020 --> 00:13:10.080
  • A GODLY MAN THAT HELPED ME
  • 00:13:10.080 --> 00:13:11.260
  • LOOK BACK AT MY CHILDHOOD
  • 00:13:11.260 --> 00:13:13.120
  • AND SEE THIS STARK CONTRAST.
  • 00:13:13.120 --> 00:13:16.100
  • BECAUSE HERE I HAD A HUSBAND
  • 00:13:16.100 --> 00:13:17.240
  • WHO WAS INTERESTED
  • 00:13:17.240 --> 00:13:19.240
  • IN MY HOBBIES, HE WANTED
  • 00:13:19.240 --> 00:13:21.100
  • TO KNOW MY IDEAS, HE WANTED
  • 00:13:21.100 --> 00:13:24.000
  • TO FURTHER MY CAREER.
  • 00:13:24.180 --> 00:13:27.180
  • HE CONSULTED ME BEFORE
  • 00:13:27.180 --> 00:13:28.270
  • HE MADE DECISIONS
  • 00:13:28.270 --> 00:13:31.010
  • FOR OUR FAMILY.
  • 00:13:31.010 --> 00:13:32.220
  • AND TO ME, THAT WAS LIKE WOW!
  • 00:13:32.220 --> 00:13:35.030
  • THIS IS NEW.
  • 00:13:35.030 --> 00:13:36.210
  • THIS IS GREAT!
  • 00:13:36.210 --> 00:13:37.270
  • LOVE IS AWESOME!
  • 00:13:37.270 --> 00:13:40.130
  • Sheila: WASN'T IT HARD FOR YOU
  • 00:13:40.130 --> 00:13:41.280
  • BECAUSE PART OF YOUR BOOK,
  • 00:13:41.280 --> 00:13:43.170
  • IT KIND OF AMAZES ME,
  • 00:13:43.170 --> 00:13:45.020
  • IT'S LIKE THIS SPECIAL
  • 00:13:45.020 --> 00:13:46.140
  • PROTECTION THAT
  • 00:13:46.140 --> 00:13:47.220
  • GOD HAS HAD OVER YOU
  • 00:13:47.220 --> 00:13:49.020
  • SINCE YOU WERE VERY LITTLE.
  • 00:13:49.020 --> 00:13:50.080
  • BECAUSE I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT
  • 00:13:50.080 --> 00:13:51.170
  • GETTING MARRIED
  • 00:13:51.170 --> 00:13:52.240
  • WOULD HAVE BEEN HARD.
  • 00:13:52.240 --> 00:13:54.000
  • IT WOULD HAVE BEEN HARD
  • 00:13:54.000 --> 00:13:55.060
  • TO TRUST A MAN THAT
  • 00:13:55.060 --> 00:13:56.140
  • HE WOULD TAKE CARE OF YOU.
  • 00:13:56.140 --> 00:13:57.260
  • Jennifer: YEAH.
  • 00:13:57.260 --> 00:13:59.040
  • AND I THINK THAT COMES BACK
  • 00:13:59.040 --> 00:14:00.150
  • TO A DIFFERENTIATION
  • 00:14:00.150 --> 00:14:01.190
  • I MADE IN MY MIND.
  • 00:14:01.190 --> 00:14:03.090
  • MY DAD'S SINS ARE HIS SINS.
  • 00:14:03.090 --> 00:14:05.160
  • IT'S NOT THE SINS
  • 00:14:05.160 --> 00:14:07.000
  • OF THE MALE GENDER.
  • 00:14:07.000 --> 00:14:09.210
  • IT IS NOT THE SINS
  • 00:14:09.210 --> 00:14:10.250
  • OF ALL FATHERS.
  • 00:14:10.250 --> 00:14:11.290
  • IT IS NOT THE SINS
  • 00:14:11.290 --> 00:14:13.080
  • OF ALL SPIRITUAL LEADERS.
  • 00:14:13.080 --> 00:14:14.220
  • THESE ARE HIS SINS.
  • 00:14:14.220 --> 00:14:16.060
  • THAT'S HIS SIN OVER HERE.
  • 00:14:16.060 --> 00:14:18.020
  • I HAVE MY SIN AND MY SINS
  • 00:14:18.020 --> 00:14:19.110
  • ARE MINE, HIS ARE OVER THERE.
  • 00:14:19.290 --> 00:14:22.290
  • AND SO THANKFULLY,
  • 00:14:22.290 --> 00:14:24.070
  • I THINK GOD... I DID.
  • 00:14:24.070 --> 00:14:25.270
  • I STILL TO THIS DAY HAVE
  • 00:14:25.270 --> 00:14:28.090
  • DIFFICULTY TRUSTING PEOPLE.
  • 00:14:28.090 --> 00:14:30.240
  • I HAVE DIFFICULTY LETTING
  • 00:14:30.240 --> 00:14:32.110
  • PEOPLE GET TOO CLOSE TO ME
  • 00:14:32.110 --> 00:14:33.260
  • BECAUSE I'M ALWAYS AFRAID
  • 00:14:33.260 --> 00:14:35.050
  • THAT THOSE RELATIONSHIPS
  • 00:14:35.050 --> 00:14:36.110
  • ARE GOING TO BE DAMAGED
  • 00:14:36.110 --> 00:14:38.100
  • OR I'LL GET TO KNOW SOMEONE
  • 00:14:38.100 --> 00:14:39.150
  • TOO WELL AND REALIZE THAT...
  • 00:14:39.150 --> 00:14:42.050
  • Randy: WHAT ABOUT
  • 00:14:42.050 --> 00:14:43.110
  • YOUR FATHER?
  • 00:14:43.110 --> 00:14:44.240
  • WITH HIM LITERALLY
  • 00:14:47.110 --> 00:14:49.130
  • OR EMOTIONALLY OR SPIRITUALLY
  • 00:14:49.130 --> 00:14:51.090
  • TO BE ABLE TO HAVE
  • 00:14:51.090 --> 00:14:53.210
  • Sheila: BECAUSE YOU USE
  • 00:14:55.080 --> 00:14:56.130
  • AN INTERESTING PHRASE
  • 00:14:56.130 --> 00:14:57.200
  • THAT RANDY AND I WERE TALKING
  • 00:14:57.200 --> 00:14:58.220
  • ABOUT EARLIER,
  • 00:14:58.220 --> 00:14:59.270
  • "BOUNDARY FORGIVENESS."
  • 00:14:59.270 --> 00:15:01.050
  • EXPLAIN THE DIFFERENCE
  • 00:15:01.050 --> 00:15:02.070
  • BETWEEN THAT AND THE
  • 00:15:02.070 --> 00:15:03.090
  • OTHER KIND OF FORGIVENESS.
  • 00:15:03.090 --> 00:15:04.130
  • Jennifer: BOUNDARY FORGIVENESS
  • 00:15:04.130 --> 00:15:05.260
  • IS WHEN WE'RE DEALING WITH
  • 00:15:05.260 --> 00:15:07.020
  • SOMEONE WHO IS UNREPENTANT.
  • 00:15:07.020 --> 00:15:08.200
  • SOMEONE WHO IS LIVING
  • 00:15:08.200 --> 00:15:09.280
  • IN THEIR SIN, MAYBE THEY SAY
  • 00:15:09.280 --> 00:15:11.070
  • THEY'RE SORRY BUT
  • 00:15:11.070 --> 00:15:12.180
  • THEY'RE NOT ACTING
  • 00:15:12.180 --> 00:15:13.220
  • LIKE THEY'RE SORRY.
  • 00:15:13.220 --> 00:15:15.090
  • YOU DON'T SEE THE CHANGE
  • 00:15:15.090 --> 00:15:16.200
  • NOT OVER THE LONG-TERM.
  • 00:15:17.260 --> 00:15:19.000
  • THEY MIGHT BEHAVE "NICE"
  • 00:15:19.000 --> 00:15:20.140
  • FOR A WEEK OR SO BUT
  • 00:15:20.140 --> 00:15:22.060
  • THEN THEY FALL BACK.
  • 00:15:22.060 --> 00:15:24.190
  • IS GOING TO BE...
  • 00:15:26.020 --> 00:15:28.060
  • WELL, HAVING BOUNDARIES.
  • 00:15:28.060 --> 00:15:29.220
  • SAYING I WILL MEET WITH YOU
  • 00:15:29.220 --> 00:15:31.160
  • IN THIS CONTEXT BUT
  • 00:15:31.160 --> 00:15:33.130
  • IT IS GOING TO BE WITH
  • 00:15:33.130 --> 00:15:34.190
  • MY HUSBAND OR MAYBE YOU CAN'T
  • 00:15:34.190 --> 00:15:35.230
  • BE AROUND MY KIDS ALONE.
  • 00:15:36.070 --> 00:15:39.070
  • SO YOU'RE VERY CAREFUL ABOUT
  • 00:15:39.070 --> 00:15:40.140
  • THE SITUATION WHERE
  • 00:15:40.140 --> 00:15:41.230
  • YOU MEET THAT PERSON.
  • 00:15:41.230 --> 00:15:43.000
  • OR IT COULD JUST BE
  • 00:15:43.000 --> 00:15:44.140
  • I'M SORRY, EVERY TIME
  • 00:15:44.140 --> 00:15:46.050
  • I'M AROUND YOU, I FEEL
  • 00:15:46.050 --> 00:15:47.160
  • LIKE GOING TO HAVE
  • 00:15:47.160 --> 00:15:48.190
  • A PANIC ATTACK; I'M DEPRESSED
  • 00:15:48.190 --> 00:15:50.010
  • FOR A WEEK AFTER.
  • 00:15:50.010 --> 00:15:51.140
  • I'M AT A PLACE RIGHT NOW
  • 00:15:51.140 --> 00:15:52.230
  • IN MY LIFE WHERE I HAVE
  • 00:15:52.230 --> 00:15:54.260
  • THREE LITTLE GIRLS.
  • 00:15:54.260 --> 00:15:56.140
  • SO I NEED THAT INNER PEACE.
  • 00:15:56.140 --> 00:15:58.060
  • I NEED TO BE A HAPPY AND
  • 00:15:58.060 --> 00:16:00.040
  • SUPPORTIVE MOTHER FOR THEM.
  • 00:16:00.040 --> 00:16:02.010
  • I NEED TO BE AN EMOTIONALLY
  • 00:16:02.120 --> 00:16:05.120
  • CALM AND EMOTIONALLY PRESENT
  • 00:16:05.120 --> 00:16:07.060
  • WIFE FOR MY HUSBAND.
  • 00:16:07.060 --> 00:16:09.080
  • SO I GOT TO A PLACE WHERE
  • 00:16:09.080 --> 00:16:11.000
  • IT WASN'T HEALTHY FOR ME
  • 00:16:11.000 --> 00:16:13.060
  • TO BE AROUND MY ABUSER.
  • 00:16:14.130 --> 00:16:17.130
  • SO I HAD TO TELL HIM,
  • 00:16:17.130 --> 00:16:18.290
  • "NO CONTACT."
  • 00:16:18.290 --> 00:16:21.100
  • AND JASON WAS ACTUALLY
  • 00:16:21.100 --> 00:16:22.130
  • HELPFUL IN THAT.
  • 00:16:22.130 --> 00:16:23.200
  • HE SAID, "YOU CANNOT
  • 00:16:23.200 --> 00:16:24.220
  • CALL HER.
  • 00:16:24.220 --> 00:16:26.000
  • YOU CANNOT SEND HER CARDS."
  • 00:16:26.000 --> 00:16:27.060
  • HE WOULD SEND ME THESE
  • 00:16:27.060 --> 00:16:28.100
  • CREEPY BIRTHDAY CARDS WITH
  • 00:16:28.100 --> 00:16:29.160
  • NO RETURN ADDRESS AND JUST
  • 00:16:29.160 --> 00:16:31.130
  • A BIBLE VERSE OR SOMETHING
  • 00:16:31.130 --> 00:16:33.030
  • INSIDE ABOUT HOW I NEED
  • 00:16:33.030 --> 00:16:34.070
  • TO FORGIVE HIM.
  • 00:16:34.070 --> 00:16:36.130
  • OF COURSE, THAT JUST REOPENS
  • 00:16:36.130 --> 00:16:38.060
  • BECAUSE IN OUR HOME,
  • 00:16:38.060 --> 00:16:39.220
  • WHEN I WAS A CHILD,
  • 00:16:39.220 --> 00:16:40.290
  • FORGIVENESS WAS BASICALLY
  • 00:16:40.290 --> 00:16:42.090
  • A CODE WORD FOR
  • 00:16:42.090 --> 00:16:43.150
  • DON'T SAY ANYTHING.
  • 00:16:43.150 --> 00:16:45.060
  • DON'T TELL. FORGET.
  • 00:16:45.060 --> 00:16:47.170
  • PRETEND YOU'RE OKAY.
  • 00:16:47.170 --> 00:16:49.230
  • WHICH IS NOT BIBLICAL.
  • 00:16:49.230 --> 00:16:51.160
  • NOT AT ALL.
  • 00:16:51.160 --> 00:16:52.240
  • Randy: HOW WOULD YOU DEFINE
  • 00:16:52.240 --> 00:16:53.290
  • FORGIVENESS?
  • 00:16:53.290 --> 00:16:55.070
  • Jennifer: LIKE WE SAID.
  • 00:16:55.070 --> 00:16:56.140
  • THERE ARE TWO DIFFERENT KINDS
  • 00:16:56.140 --> 00:16:57.220
  • OF FORGIVENESS.
  • 00:16:57.220 --> 00:16:58.290
  • THERE IS THE BOUNDARY
  • 00:16:58.290 --> 00:17:00.080
  • AND THERE IS
  • 00:17:00.080 --> 00:17:01.130
  • THE RECONCILIATORY.
  • 00:17:01.130 --> 00:17:02.170
  • OCCASIONALLY, YOU ARE BLESSED.
  • 00:17:02.170 --> 00:17:03.210
  • YOU MAY HAVE SOMEONE
  • 00:17:03.210 --> 00:17:04.230
  • IN YOUR LIFE WHO IS TRULY
  • 00:17:04.230 --> 00:17:06.000
  • REPENTANT AND YOU SEE
  • 00:17:06.000 --> 00:17:07.060
  • THE FRUIT OF THE SPIRIT
  • 00:17:07.060 --> 00:17:08.110
  • IN THEIR LIFE AND YOU'RE
  • 00:17:08.110 --> 00:17:10.000
  • ABLE TO WORK WITH THEM.
  • 00:17:10.000 --> 00:17:11.280
  • IT'S NOT GOING TO BE
  • 00:17:11.280 --> 00:17:13.030
  • AN OVERNIGHT THING.
  • 00:17:13.030 --> 00:17:14.110
  • IT'S NOT GOING TO BE LIKE...
  • 00:17:14.110 --> 00:17:15.140
  • YOUR EMOTIONS ARE NOT LIKE
  • 00:17:15.140 --> 00:17:16.190
  • LIGHT SWITCHES IN YOUR HEAD
  • 00:17:16.190 --> 00:17:17.240
  • THAT YOU CAN JUST
  • 00:17:17.240 --> 00:17:18.260
  • TO PROCESS YOUR GRIEF.
  • 00:17:20.040 --> 00:17:21.120
  • YOU HAVE TO PROCESS
  • 00:17:21.120 --> 00:17:22.150
  • YOUR ANGER.
  • 00:17:22.150 --> 00:17:23.220
  • AND THAT'S ANOTHER THING,
  • 00:17:23.220 --> 00:17:24.250
  • BEING ANGRY WHEN SOMEONE
  • 00:17:24.250 --> 00:17:26.010
  • THAT'S ACTUALLY GOOD.
  • 00:17:27.180 --> 00:17:28.260
  • Sheila: THAT'S APPROPRIATE.
  • 00:17:28.260 --> 00:17:30.050
  • Jennifer: GOD IS ANGRY WITH
  • 00:17:30.050 --> 00:17:31.100
  • THE WICKED EVERY DAY
  • 00:17:31.100 --> 00:17:32.140
  • THE BIBLE TELLS US.
  • 00:17:32.140 --> 00:17:34.060
  • SO ON THE ONE HAND WE DON'T
  • 00:17:34.060 --> 00:17:35.140
  • WANT TO WALLOW IN OUR ANGER
  • 00:17:35.140 --> 00:17:37.220
  • AND BE TRAPPED AND DROWN IN IT
  • 00:17:37.220 --> 00:17:39.120
  • FOREVER BECAUSE IT CAN,
  • 00:17:39.120 --> 00:17:40.160
  • IT CAN BECOME CAUSTIC,
  • 00:17:40.160 --> 00:17:41.280
  • IT CAN DAMAGE YOU EMOTIONALLY
  • 00:17:41.280 --> 00:17:43.180
  • AND SPIRITUALLY, AND JUST
  • 00:17:43.180 --> 00:17:44.200
  • KEEP YOU FROM BEING
  • 00:17:44.200 --> 00:17:45.210
  • A HAPPY PERSON.
  • 00:17:45.210 --> 00:17:47.070
  • BUT AT THE SAME TIME YOU NEED
  • 00:17:47.070 --> 00:17:48.110
  • TO PROCESS THAT ANGER
  • 00:17:48.110 --> 00:17:49.200
  • AND YOU NEED TO EXPRESS IT
  • 00:17:49.200 --> 00:17:50.240
  • IN HEALTHY WAYS.
  • 00:17:50.240 --> 00:17:52.100
  • ONCE YOU PROCESS IT,
  • 00:17:52.100 --> 00:17:53.200
  • ONCE YOU GO THROUGH THAT
  • 00:17:53.200 --> 00:17:55.100
  • PHASE OF GRIEF, YOU CAN COME
  • 00:17:55.100 --> 00:17:58.080
  • TO A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN SAY,
  • 00:17:58.080 --> 00:18:00.100
  • "YOU KNOW WHAT GOD?
  • 00:18:00.100 --> 00:18:01.260
  • WHETHER THIS PERSON
  • 00:18:01.260 --> 00:18:03.050
  • IS REPENTANT OR NOT,
  • 00:18:03.050 --> 00:18:04.150
  • YOU'RE IN CONTROL.
  • 00:18:04.150 --> 00:18:05.270
  • YOU'VE GOT THIS."
  • 00:18:05.270 --> 00:18:08.010
  • I HAD TO COME TO A PLACE
  • 00:18:08.010 --> 00:18:09.090
  • WHERE I TOLD JESUS YOU TOOK
  • 00:18:09.090 --> 00:18:11.170
  • MY SINS TO THE CROSS
  • 00:18:11.170 --> 00:18:13.270
  • SO I TRUST YOU TO CARRY
  • 00:18:13.270 --> 00:18:16.060
  • MY ANGER NOW BECAUSE
  • 00:18:16.060 --> 00:18:18.030
  • I'M EXHAUSTED.
  • 00:18:19.200 --> 00:18:20.260
  • I'M TIRED.
  • 00:18:20.260 --> 00:18:22.020
  • I NEED TO BE HAPPY.
  • 00:18:22.020 --> 00:18:23.100
  • I NEED TO BE FREE.
  • 00:18:23.100 --> 00:18:25.200
  • I TRUSTED GOD TO BE ANGRY
  • 00:18:26.290 --> 00:18:28.280
  • FOR ME.
  • 00:18:28.280 --> 00:18:30.020
  • BUT AGAIN, IT WAS A LONG ROAD.
  • 00:18:30.020 --> 00:18:32.110
  • THAT PEOPLE UNDERSTAND
  • 00:18:34.010 --> 00:18:35.050
  • THAT IT IS A PROCESS.
  • 00:18:35.050 --> 00:18:36.180
  • IT'S NOT SOME MAGICAL
  • 00:18:36.180 --> 00:18:38.020
  • SNAP YOUR FINGERS OVERNIGHT
  • 00:18:38.020 --> 00:18:39.090
  • IS SUDDENLY RIGHT.
  • 00:18:41.250 --> 00:18:43.000
  • IT TAKES A WHILE.
  • 00:18:43.000 --> 00:18:44.100
  • Jennifer: AND TRUST IS
  • 00:18:44.100 --> 00:18:45.200
  • SO DIFFICULT TO REBUILD.
  • 00:18:45.200 --> 00:18:47.130
  • Sheila: YOU ALSO TALK
  • 00:18:47.130 --> 00:18:48.150
  • IN YOUR BOOK ABOUT THE FACT
  • 00:18:48.150 --> 00:18:49.170
  • THAT JESUS HIMSELF
  • 00:18:49.170 --> 00:18:50.290
  • WENT THROUGH ABUSE.
  • 00:18:50.290 --> 00:18:52.220
  • AND SO THERE'S A GREAT
  • 00:18:52.220 --> 00:18:54.040
  • COMPASSION AND EMPATHY THERE.
  • 00:18:54.040 --> 00:18:56.200
  • AND ONE OF THE THINGS
  • 00:18:56.200 --> 00:18:57.230
  • THAT AS YOU PROBABLY KNOW
  • 00:18:57.230 --> 00:18:58.290
  • IS VERY, VERY IMPORTANT TO US
  • 00:18:58.290 --> 00:19:00.090
  • HERE AT LIFE IS TO HAVE
  • 00:19:00.090 --> 00:19:01.230
  • THE EYES OF CHRIST FOR
  • 00:19:01.230 --> 00:19:03.090
  • THOSE WHO ARE STRUGGLING
  • 00:19:03.090 --> 00:19:04.210
  • AND THOSE WHO ARE SUFFERING.
  • 00:19:04.210 --> 00:19:06.280
  • BOTH RANDY AND I HAVE BEEN
  • 00:19:06.280 --> 00:19:08.020
  • TO ANGOLA AND SEEN SOME
  • 00:19:08.020 --> 00:19:10.060
  • CHILDREN AND SOME MOMS
  • 00:19:10.060 --> 00:19:12.030
  • WHO ARE DESPERATELY
  • 00:19:12.030 --> 00:19:13.080
  • CRYING OUT FOR HELP.
  • 00:19:13.080 --> 00:19:14.120
  • AND THE GREAT NEWS IS THAT
  • 00:19:14.120 --> 00:19:15.140
  • YOU AND I CAN DO
  • 00:19:15.140 --> 00:19:16.190
  • Randy: SHEILA, I LOOK AT THAT
  • 00:19:18.100 --> 00:19:19.190
  • SOMETIMES AND I THINK,
  • 00:19:19.190 --> 00:19:21.020
  • I DON'T KNOW HOW
  • 00:19:21.020 --> 00:19:22.080
  • THESE WOMEN BEAR IT!
  • 00:19:22.080 --> 00:19:23.090
  • Sheila: I KNOW BECAUSE
  • 00:19:23.090 --> 00:19:24.150
  • THEY ARE JUST --
  • 00:19:24.150 --> 00:19:25.170
  • THE REALITY IS THEY ARE
  • 00:19:25.170 --> 00:19:26.180
  • MOMS LIKE YOU AND ME.
  • 00:19:26.180 --> 00:19:28.010
  • SO OFTEN, WE THINK, WELL,
  • 00:19:28.010 --> 00:19:29.120
  • THEY'VE GONE THROUGH THAT
  • 00:19:29.120 --> 00:19:30.160
  • BEFORE SO IT'S DIFFERENT.
  • 00:19:30.160 --> 00:19:32.210
  • IT IS NOT DIFFERENT!
  • 00:19:32.210 --> 00:19:34.010
  • THERE IS NEVER A TIME
  • 00:19:34.010 --> 00:19:35.160
  • WHEN A MOTHER GETS USED TO
  • 00:19:35.160 --> 00:19:37.000
  • BURYING A CHILD.
  • 00:19:37.000 --> 00:19:38.280
  • THERE IS SUCH AN URGENT NEED.
  • 00:19:38.280 --> 00:19:41.130
  • NOT FOR A NEW IPHONE --
  • 00:19:41.130 --> 00:19:43.290
  • FOR A SIMPLE BOWL OF FOOD.
  • 00:19:43.290 --> 00:19:46.090
  • THAT'S ALL THEY'RE
  • 00:19:46.090 --> 00:19:47.150
  • ASKING FOR.
  • 00:19:47.150 --> 00:19:48.220
  • WE'VE HEARD THEIR CRIES
  • 00:19:48.220 --> 00:19:50.020
  • AND WE WANT TO RESPOND.
  • 00:19:50.020 --> 00:19:51.150
  • AND WE WANT YOU TO HELP.
  • 00:19:51.150 --> 00:19:52.290
  • RANDY, IT IS VERY DOABLE.
  • 00:19:52.290 --> 00:19:55.010
  • IT IS NOT LIKE IT TAKES
  • 00:19:55.010 --> 00:19:56.030
  • A TON OF MONEY.
  • 00:19:56.030 --> 00:19:57.050
  • IF WE ALL DO SOMETHING
  • 00:19:57.050 --> 00:19:58.130
  • WE CAN CHANGE THIS.
  • 00:19:58.130 --> 00:19:59.180
  • Randy: THAT'S THE KEY.
  • 00:19:59.180 --> 00:20:01.030
  • JUST TO GIVE YOU AN IDEA,
  • 00:20:01.030 --> 00:20:02.220
  • $30 WILL FEED THREE CHILDREN
  • 00:20:04.020 --> 00:20:07.020
  • FOR THREE MONTHS.
  • 00:20:07.020 --> 00:20:08.210
  • NOW YOU'RE GOING THAT
  • 00:20:08.210 --> 00:20:09.270
  • DOESN'T WORK OUT.
  • 00:20:09.270 --> 00:20:11.050
  • WELL, NOT IN OUR COUNTRY,
  • 00:20:11.050 --> 00:20:12.240
  • IT DOESN'T WORK OUT BUT
  • 00:20:12.240 --> 00:20:14.050
  • IT WORKS BECAUSE WE HAVE
  • 00:20:14.050 --> 00:20:15.200
  • A PROCESS IN PLACE TO BRING
  • 00:20:15.200 --> 00:20:17.270
  • THE FOOD INTO THESE COUNTRIES,
  • 00:20:17.270 --> 00:20:19.160
  • PROCESS IT SO THAT
  • 00:20:19.160 --> 00:20:20.210
  • IT HAS THE RIGHT KIND OF
  • 00:20:20.210 --> 00:20:21.240
  • NUTRITION, AND THEN TAKE IT
  • 00:20:21.240 --> 00:20:23.090
  • TO THESE VILLAGES.
  • 00:20:23.090 --> 00:20:25.140
  • AND THE VILLAGES CHANGE
  • 00:20:25.140 --> 00:20:27.000
  • ACCORDING TO THE NEED;
  • 00:20:27.000 --> 00:20:28.070
  • IT'S NOT THE SAME CHILDREN
  • 00:20:28.070 --> 00:20:29.150
  • EVERY SINGLE MONTH
  • 00:20:29.150 --> 00:20:30.210
  • FOR YEARS AND YEARS ON END.
  • 00:20:30.210 --> 00:20:32.150
  • IT IS A DEVELOPMENTAL PROCESS.
  • 00:20:32.150 --> 00:20:33.180
  • $50 WILL TAKE CARE
  • 00:20:33.180 --> 00:20:34.210
  • OF FIVE CHILDREN;
  • 00:20:34.210 --> 00:20:35.240
  • $100, 10 CHILDREN;
  • 00:20:35.240 --> 00:20:37.020
  • $1.000 -- 100 CHILDREN!
  • 00:20:37.020 --> 00:20:39.260
  • WHATEVER YOU CAN DO,
  • 00:20:39.260 --> 00:20:41.090
  • GO TO THE PHONE, GO ONLINE
  • 00:20:41.090 --> 00:20:43.150
  • BECAUSE TOGETHER WE CAN
  • 00:20:43.150 --> 00:20:45.140
  • GIVE LIFE TO THESE CHILDREN.
  • 00:20:45.140 --> 00:20:48.050
  • I HOPE YOU'LL DO IT TODAY.
  • 00:20:48.050 --> 00:20:49.140
  • MISSION FEEDING BEGAN WITH A PROMISE
  • 00:20:53.150 --> 00:20:55.190
  • TO BE THERE IN TIMES OF CRISIS
  • 00:20:55.220 --> 00:20:57.220
  • FOR THOUSANDS OF HURTING AND HUNGRY CHILDREN
  • 00:20:57.250 --> 00:20:59.220
  • IN THEIR TIME OF NEED.
  • 00:20:59.250 --> 00:21:01.240
  • NOW MORE THAN EVER WE NEED YOUR HELP TO SAVE LIVES
  • 00:21:01.270 --> 00:21:04.230
  • BY FEEDING AND CARING FOR CHILDREN
  • 00:21:04.260 --> 00:21:06.230
  • ACROSS THE CONTINENT OF AFRICA.
  • 00:21:06.260 --> 00:21:08.230
  • WITH FOOD RESERVES GONE
  • 00:21:08.260 --> 00:21:10.230
  • AND MANY AREAS EXPERIENCING SEVERE FAMINE,
  • 00:21:10.260 --> 00:21:12.240
  • WE URGENTLY NEED TO REPLENISH OUR SUPPLIES
  • 00:21:12.270 --> 00:21:15.120
  • TO REACH THE 400.000 CHILDREN WHO ARE COUNTING ON US.
  • 00:21:15.150 --> 00:21:19.100
  • YOUR GIFT OF LOVE CAN BE THE MIRACLE ANSWER
  • 00:21:19.130 --> 00:21:21.170
  • TO A DESPERATE MOTHER'S PRAYER.
  • 00:21:21.200 --> 00:21:24.020
  • CALL NOW WITH YOUR LIFESAVING GIFT
  • 00:21:24.050 --> 00:21:26.020
  • OF $30, $50 OR $100
  • 00:21:26.050 --> 00:21:28.110
  • THAT WILL HELP FEED AND CARE FOR THREE, FIVE OR TEN CHILDREN
  • 00:21:28.140 --> 00:21:31.230
  • FOR THREE FULL MONTHS.
  • 00:21:31.260 --> 00:21:34.010
  • WITH YOUR GIFT, WE'LL SEND YOU
  • 00:21:34.040 --> 00:21:36.010
  • THE "ALTARED" WORSHIP CD BY ANTHONY EVANS.
  • 00:21:36.040 --> 00:21:38.050
  • THIS POWERFUL FULL-LENGTH ALBUM
  • 00:21:38.080 --> 00:21:40.050
  • INCLUDES UNIQUE VERSIONS
  • 00:21:40.080 --> 00:21:42.050
  • OF SOME OF TODAY'S MOST CHERISHED WORSHIP SONGS
  • 00:21:42.080 --> 00:21:44.070
  • THAT ARE SURE TO UPLIFT AND INSPIRE YOU.
  • 00:21:44.100 --> 00:21:47.020
  • WITH YOUR GIFT OF $100 OR MORE PLEASE REQUEST
  • 00:21:47.050 --> 00:21:49.040
  • THE "FILLED WITH FAITH" AND "...JOY TRAVEL MUG SET.
  • 00:21:49.070 --> 00:21:52.270
  • THESE 12-OUNCE MUGS ARE CRAFTED WITH LARGE HANDLES,
  • 00:21:53.000 --> 00:21:55.090
  • DOUBLE-LAYERED INSULATION
  • 00:21:55.120 --> 00:21:57.090
  • AND VACUUM SEALED LIDS TO PREVENT SPILLS.
  • 00:21:57.120 --> 00:21:59.150
  • EACH MUG INCLUDES A MESSAGE TO REMIND YOU
  • 00:21:59.180 --> 00:22:01.170
  • OF GOD'S BLESSINGS AND FAITHFULNESS.
  • 00:22:01.200 --> 00:22:04.050
  • FINALLY, WITH YOUR GIFT OF $1.000 OR MORE
  • 00:22:04.080 --> 00:22:06.180
  • TO HELP FEED AND CARE FOR 100 CHILDREN,
  • 00:22:06.210 --> 00:22:08.260
  • BE SURE TO REQUEST OUR COMMEMORATIVE BRONZE SCULPTURE,
  • 00:22:08.290 --> 00:22:11.120
  • "SAFE IN THE SHEPHERD'S ARMS."
  • 00:22:11.150 --> 00:22:14.150
  • PLEASE CALL, WRITE, OR MAKE YOUR GIFT ONLINE TODAY.
  • 00:22:14.180 --> 00:22:19.180
  • Sheila: THANK YOU SO MUCH.
  • 00:22:21.180 --> 00:22:24.180
  • IF THE PHONE'S BUSY,
  • 00:22:24.180 --> 00:22:25.210
  • KEEP TRYING.
  • 00:22:25.210 --> 00:22:26.230
  • WE'RE GOING TO CHANGE
  • 00:22:26.230 --> 00:22:27.230
  • THE WORLD IN JESUS' NAME.
  • 00:22:27.230 --> 00:22:28.270
  • I WANT TO THANK YOU
  • 00:22:28.270 --> 00:22:29.290
  • SO MUCH, JENNIFER.
  • 00:22:29.290 --> 00:22:31.060
  • YOUR BOOK IS CALLED
  • 00:22:31.060 --> 00:22:32.140
  • NOT FORSAKEN .
  • 00:22:32.140 --> 00:22:34.070
  • WHAT A MESSAGE TO ANYONE
  • 00:22:34.070 --> 00:22:35.090
  • WHO HAS EVER STRUGGLED
  • 00:22:35.090 --> 00:22:36.160
  • WITH ANY KIND OF ABUSE.
  • 00:22:36.160 --> 00:22:38.100
  • SO THANK YOU FOR BEING
  • 00:22:38.100 --> 00:22:39.140
  • OUR GUEST.
  • 00:22:39.140 --> 00:22:40.230
  • WE PRAY GOD'S BLESSING ON
  • 00:22:40.230 --> 00:22:42.050
  • THIS BOOK AND ON YOUR STORY.
  • 00:22:42.050 --> 00:22:44.030
  • Jennifer: THANK YOU SO MUCH
  • 00:22:44.030 --> 00:22:45.050
  • FOR HAVING ME.
  • 00:22:45.050 --> 00:22:46.090
  • Sheila: WE'VE LOVED IT!
  • 00:22:46.090 --> 00:22:47.110
  • Randy: WOULD Y'ALL THANK
  • 00:22:47.110 --> 00:22:48.170
  • JENNIFER FOR BEING HERE?
  • 00:22:48.170 --> 00:22:49.280
  • AND THANK YOU FOR WATCHING.
  • 00:22:49.280 --> 00:22:51.130
  • APPRECIATE YOU WATCHING
  • 00:22:51.130 --> 00:22:52.180
  • LIFE TODAY .
  • 00:22:52.180 --> 00:22:53.230
  • 00:23:10.140 --> 00:23:17.220
  • 00:23:23.120 --> 00:23:29.150
  • BY HIS STRIPES WE ARE HEALED
  • 00:23:34.070 --> 00:23:40.080
  • BY HIS NAIL-PIERCED HANDS WE'RE FREE
  • 00:23:40.110 --> 00:23:46.200
  • BY HIS BLOOD WE'RE WASHED CLEAN
  • 00:23:46.230 --> 00:23:52.290
  • NOW WE HAVE THE VICTORY
  • 00:23:53.020 --> 00:23:57.230
  • THE POWER OF SIN IS BROKEN
  • 00:24:00.160 --> 00:24:03.190
  • JESUS OVERCAME IT ALL
  • 00:24:03.220 --> 00:24:10.070
  • HE HAS WON OUR FREEDOM
  • 00:24:13.060 --> 00:24:16.100
  • JESUS HAS WON IT ALL
  • 00:24:16.130 --> 00:24:20.270
  • HALLELUJAH! YOU HAVE WON THE VICTORY
  • 00:24:26.220 --> 00:24:38.090
  • HALLELUJAH! YOU HAVE WON IT ALL FOR ME
  • 00:24:39.100 --> 00:24:49.090
  • DEATH COULD NOT HOLD YOU DOWN
  • 00:24:49.120 --> 00:24:55.180
  • YOU ARE THE RISEN KING
  • 00:24:55.210 --> 00:25:02.000
  • SEATED IN MAJESTY
  • 00:25:02.030 --> 00:25:07.070
  • YOU ARE THE RISEN KING
  • 00:25:08.130 --> 00:25:14.030
  • OUR GOD IS RISEN HE IS ALIVE
  • 00:25:15.090 --> 00:25:21.120
  • HE WON THE VICTORY HE REIGNS ON HIGH
  • 00:25:21.150 --> 00:25:27.200
  • OUR GOD IS RISEN HE IS ALIVE
  • 00:25:27.230 --> 00:25:34.000
  • HE WON THE VICTORY HE REIGNS ON HIGH
  • 00:25:34.030 --> 00:25:40.100
  • OUR GOD IS RISEN HE IS ALIVE
  • 00:25:40.130 --> 00:25:46.200
  • HE WON THE VICTORY HE REIGNS ON HIGH
  • 00:25:46.230 --> 00:25:52.290
  • OUR GOD IS RISEN HE IS ALIVE
  • 00:25:53.020 --> 00:25:59.090
  • HE WON THE VICTORY HE REIGNS ON HIGH
  • 00:25:59.120 --> 00:26:07.220
  • HALLELUJAH! YOU HAVE WON THE VICTORY
  • 00:26:07.250 --> 00:26:16.270
  • HALLELUJAH! YOU HAVE WON IT ALL FOR ME
  • 00:26:20.120 --> 00:26:30.130
  • DEATH COULD NOT HOLD YOU DOWN
  • 00:26:30.160 --> 00:26:36.270
  • YOU ARE THE RISEN KING
  • 00:26:37.000 --> 00:26:43.010
  • SEATED IN MAJESTY
  • 00:26:43.040 --> 00:26:47.170
  • YOU ARE THE RISEN KING
  • 00:26:49.160 --> 00:26:55.250
  • Sheila: YOU ARE FULLY, COMPLETELY, TOTALLY
  • 00:27:02.150 --> 00:27:05.210
  • SEEN AND LOVED BY GOD AND HE IS LISTENING.
  • 00:27:05.240 --> 00:27:10.240
  • TOMORROW!
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  • LIFE TODAY IS MADE POSSIBLE BY THE SUPPORTERS OF LIFE OUTREACH INTERNATIONAL.
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  • YOUR GIFT WILL BE USED EXCLUSIVELY FOR THE EXEMPT PURPOSES OF LIFE.
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  • THE MINISTRY FEATURES SPECIFIC OUTREACHES
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  • AS EXAMPLES OF THE PROGRAMS IT SUPPORTS AND CONDUCTS.
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  • GIFTS ARE CONSIDERED TO BE WITHOUT RESTRICTION
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  • AS TO USE UNLESS EXPLICITLY STIPULATED BY THE DONOR.
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  • THE MINISTRY IS A MEMBER OF THE E.C.F.A.
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