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October 30, 2020
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  • - ERIC METAXAS: THIS
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  • - ERIC METAXAS: THISPROGRAM IS SPONSORED IN
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  • PROGRAM IS SPONSORED INPART BY CARSHIELD,
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  • PART BY CARSHIELD,GIVING THOUSANDS OF VEHICLE
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  • GIVING THOUSANDS OF VEHICLEOWNERS PEACE OF MIND.
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  • OWNERS PEACE OF MIND.[MUSIC]
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  • [MUSIC][SMOOCH]
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  • [SMOOCH][WHOOSH]
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  • [WHOOSH][DOOR SLAMMING]
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  • [DOOR SLAMMING][BING]
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  • [BING][REVVING, SCREECHING]
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  • [REVVING, SCREECHING][PLOP]
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  • [PLOP][WHOOSH]
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  • [WHOOSH][MUSIC]
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  • [MUSIC]- MALE: HEY.
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  • - MALE: HEY.[MUSIC]
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  • [MUSIC][BOINK]
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  • [BOINK][ENGINE REVVING]
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  • [ENGINE REVVING][BRAKES SQUEALING]
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  • [BRAKES SQUEALING][MUSIC]
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  • [MUSIC][CRASH]
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  • - ERIC: HEY THERE, FOLKS.
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  • - ERIC: HEY THERE, FOLKS.WELCOME TO
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  • WELCOME TO"THE ERIC METAXAS SHOW."
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  • "THE ERIC METAXAS SHOW."I'M ERIC METAXAS.
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  • I'M ERIC METAXAS.THIS IS THE SHOW.
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  • THIS IS THE SHOW.I TALK TO FUN PEOPLE,
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  • I TALK TO FUN PEOPLE,INTERESTING PEOPLE,
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  • AND TODAY-- VERY EXCITED.
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  • AND TODAY-- VERY EXCITED.I ACTUALLY HAVE IN MY HAND
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  • I ACTUALLY HAVE IN MY HANDA BOOK CALLED
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  • A BOOK CALLED"START WHERE YOU ARE."
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  • "START WHERE YOU ARE."AND THAT SHOULD BE EASY
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  • AND THAT SHOULD BE EASY'CAUSE YOU'RE ALREADY THERE.
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  • 'CAUSE YOU'RE ALREADY THERE."START WHERE YOU ARE:
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  • "START WHERE YOU ARE:HOW GOD MEETS YOU IN YOUR
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  • HOW GOD MEETS YOU IN YOURMESS, LOVES YOU THROUGH IT,
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  • MESS, LOVES YOU THROUGH IT,AND LEADS YOU OUT OF IT."
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  • AND LEADS YOU OUT OF IT."WHO'S THE AUTHOR?
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  • WHO'S THE AUTHOR?RASHAWN COPELAND.
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  • RASHAWN COPELAND.HE'S MY GUEST.
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  • HE'S MY GUEST.DID YOU KNOW THAT?
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  • WELCOME TO THE PROGRAM.
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  • - RASHAWN COPELAND: ERIC,
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  • - RASHAWN COPELAND: ERIC,THANKS FOR HAVING ME.
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  • THANKS FOR HAVING ME.I'M SO HUMBLED TO BE HERE
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  • I'M SO HUMBLED TO BE HEREAND LOOKING FORWARD TO OUR
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  • AND LOOKING FORWARD TO OURTIME TOGETHER,
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  • TIME TOGETHER,AND THANK YOU FOR
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  • - ERIC: WELL, LISTEN,
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  • - ERIC: WELL, LISTEN,THE MESSAGE OF YOUR BOOK--
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  • THE MESSAGE OF YOUR BOOK--THAT'S WHY I HAVE YOU ON
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  • THAT'S WHY I HAVE YOU ONTHE PROGRAM AS WELL.
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  • THE PROGRAM AS WELL.I JUST THINK IT'S IMPORTANT,
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  • I JUST THINK IT'S IMPORTANT,AND I THINK YOUR STORY
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  • AND I THINK YOUR STORYIS IMPORTANT,
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  • IS IMPORTANT,HOW YOU GOT THERE.
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  • HOW YOU GOT THERE.AND SO FOR PEOPLE WHO
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  • AND SO FOR PEOPLE WHODON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE,
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  • DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE,NOW YOU ARE A MINISTER OF
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  • NOW YOU ARE A MINISTER OFTHE GOSPEL.
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  • THE GOSPEL.YOU'RE DOING ALL KINDS OF
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  • YOU'RE DOING ALL KINDS OFSTUFF.
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  • STUFF.BUT I WANNA GET TO YOUR
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  • BUT I WANNA GET TO YOURSTORY OF HOW YOU GOT TO
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  • STORY OF HOW YOU GOT TOWHERE YOU ARE BECAUSE,
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  • WHERE YOU ARE BECAUSE,WHEN YOU SAY IN THE TITLE
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  • WHEN YOU SAY IN THE TITLEOF YOUR BOOK,
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  • OF YOUR BOOK,"START WHERE YOU ARE,"
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  • "START WHERE YOU ARE,"YOU KNOW,
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  • YOU KNOW,"IN YOUR MESS,"
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  • "IN YOUR MESS,"YOU DEFINITELY WERE IN A MESS.
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  • YOU DEFINITELY WERE IN A MESS.SO TELL US, YOU KNOW, YOUR
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  • SO TELL US, YOU KNOW, YOURLIFE STORY UP TO WHERE GOD
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  • LIFE STORY UP TO WHERE GODCOMES INTO IT.
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  • COMES INTO IT.LIKE, WHERE DID YOU GROW UP?
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  • LIKE, WHERE DID YOU GROW UP?WHAT WAS IT LIKE?
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  • WHAT WAS IT LIKE?TALK TO US ABOUT THAT.
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  • TALK TO US ABOUT THAT.- RASHAWN: GOOD DEAL.
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  • - RASHAWN: GOOD DEAL.SO, ERIC, I GREW UP IN A
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  • I WAS THE KID THAT ACTUALLY,
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  • I WAS THE KID THAT ACTUALLY,WAS--
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  • WAS--WELL, A KID THAT WAS
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  • WELL, A KID THAT WASLOVED, ONE FAMILY AND,
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  • LOVED, ONE FAMILY AND,OUR FAMILY WAS A
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  • OUR FAMILY WAS APRETTY GOOD FAMILY
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  • PRETTY GOOD FAMILYIN THE EYES OF THE WORLD,
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  • IN THE EYES OF THE WORLD,THE STANDARDS OF THE WORLD,
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  • THE STANDARDS OF THE WORLD,AND IT WAS JUST REALLY GOOD,
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  • AND IT WAS JUST REALLY GOOD,AND THERE WAS ONE THING
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  • AND THERE WAS ONE THINGTHAT OPENED UP MY EYES
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  • THAT OPENED UP MY EYESAS I GOT OLDER A BIT.
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  • AS I GOT OLDER A BIT.WELL, AT GRADE SCHOOL,
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  • WELL, AT GRADE SCHOOL,I HAD A TEACHER TELL ME TO
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  • I HAD A TEACHER TELL ME TONEVER PICK UP A PEN AND
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  • NEVER PICK UP A PEN ANDWRITE AGAIN, AND THAT,
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  • WRITE AGAIN, AND THAT,LIKE, CRUSHED ME.
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  • LIKE, CRUSHED ME.AND FROM THAT POINT,
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  • AND FROM THAT POINT,I WAS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT,
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  • I WAS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT,LIKE, WHAT IS THE WAY I
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  • LIKE, WHAT IS THE WAY ICAN SORT OF PROVE THIS
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  • CAN SORT OF PROVE THISTEACHER WRONG?
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  • TEACHER WRONG?SO I SOUGHT ACCEPTANCE THE
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  • SO I SOUGHT ACCEPTANCE THEREST OF MY LIFE,
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  • REST OF MY LIFE,TRYING TO RUN AFTER
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  • TRYING TO RUN AFTERACCEPTANCE, AND IT REALLY
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  • ACCEPTANCE, AND IT REALLYSTARTED ON MY HEART ON THE
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  • STARTED ON MY HEART ON THEFOOTBALL FIELD.
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  • FOOTBALL FIELD.AND AS I BEGAN TO PLAY
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  • AND AS I BEGAN TO PLAYFOOTBALL, I WAS REALLY
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  • FOOTBALL, I WAS REALLYGOOD AT IT, AND I WAS IN
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  • GOOD AT IT, AND I WAS INTHAT, YOU KNOW, CYCLE
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  • THAT, YOU KNOW, CYCLEAGAIN OF PROVING MYSELF TO
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  • AGAIN OF PROVING MYSELF TOTHE WORLD,
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  • THE WORLD,AND IT WAS WORKIN'.
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  • AND IT WAS WORKIN'.- ERIC: YOU EXCELLED AS
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  • - ERIC: YOU EXCELLED ASAN ATHLETE ON THE FOOTBALL
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  • - RASHAWN: YES, I BEGAN
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  • - RASHAWN: YES, I BEGANTO GET SCHOLARSHIPS,
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  • TO GET SCHOLARSHIPS,SEVERAL ACROSS THE COUNTRY.
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  • SEVERAL ACROSS THE COUNTRY.I WAS LOOKIN' AT THE
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  • I WAS LOOKIN' AT THEUNIVERSITY OF NEBRASKA,
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  • UNIVERSITY OF NEBRASKA,AND WEEKS AWAY FROM
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  • AND WEEKS AWAY FROMSIGNING THE LETTER OF INTENT,
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  • SIGNING THE LETTER OF INTENT,NATIONAL LETTER OF INTENT,
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  • NATIONAL LETTER OF INTENT,I FIND MYSELF OUT
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  • I FIND MYSELF OUTIN THE CAR, HANGIN' OUT
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  • IN THE CAR, HANGIN' OUTWITH THIS YOUNG LADY AFTER
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  • AND THIS WAS THAT DEFINING
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  • AND THIS WAS THAT DEFININGMOMENT.
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  • MOMENT.I GET A PHONE CALL--
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  • I GET A PHONE CALL--[BRRRNG, BRRRNG]
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  • [BRRRNG, BRRRNG]-- FROM THIS GUY THAT I
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  • -- FROM THIS GUY THAT IDIDN'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT,
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  • DIDN'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT,BUT IT WAS THE
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  • BUT IT WAS THEEX-BOYFRIEND OF THE GIRL
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  • EX-BOYFRIEND OF THE GIRLTHAT I WAS IN THE CAR WITH.
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  • THAT I WAS IN THE CAR WITH.AND, AT THIS POINT, ME
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  • AND, AT THIS POINT, MEBEIN' THE PRIDEFUL,
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  • BEIN' THE PRIDEFUL,EGOTISTICAL HIGH SCHOOL
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  • EGOTISTICAL HIGH SCHOOLFOOTBALL PLAYER, "FUTURE
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  • FOOTBALL PLAYER, "FUTURECOLLEGE FOOTBALL STAR" IN
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  • COLLEGE FOOTBALL STAR" INMY HEAD, I PRIDEFULLY TAKE
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  • MY HEAD, I PRIDEFULLY TAKEHER PHONE AS THE PHONE'S
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  • HER PHONE AS THE PHONE'SRINGIN'--
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  • RINGIN'--[BRRRNG]
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  • [BRRRNG]-- AND I ANSWER IT, AND
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  • -- AND I ANSWER IT, ANDOUT OF NOWHERE, YOU KNOW,
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  • OUT OF NOWHERE, YOU KNOW,THIS GUY COMES ON AND SAYS,
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  • THIS GUY COMES ON AND SAYS,"YO, WHY ARE YOU
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  • "YO, WHY ARE YOUWITH MY GIRL?
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  • WITH MY GIRL?WHY ARE YOU WITH MY GIRL?"
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  • WHY ARE YOU WITH MY GIRL?"COME TO FIND OUT, HE WAS
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  • COME TO FIND OUT, HE WASLOOKIN' AT HER MYSPACE,
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  • LOOKIN' AT HER MYSPACE,AND HE'S SEEN MY FACE,
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  • AND HE'S SEEN MY FACE,YOU KNOW, IN HER MYSPACE,
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  • YOU KNOW, IN HER MYSPACE,AND HE KNEW WHO I WAS.
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  • AND HE KNEW WHO I WAS.I DIDN'T KNOW WHO HE WAS.
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  • I DIDN'T KNOW WHO HE WAS.BUT THE UNWISE THING THAT
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  • BUT THE UNWISE THING THATI DID THAT NIGHT WAS LET
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  • I DID THAT NIGHT WAS LETTHIS GUY KNOW WHERE I WAS,
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  • THIS GUY KNOW WHERE I WAS,YOU KNOW?
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  • YOU KNOW?AND THAT WAS NOT WISE.
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  • AND THAT WAS NOT WISE.TEN MINUTES LATER, A VAN
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  • TEN MINUTES LATER, A VANPEELS IN, AND THIS WAS
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  • PEELS IN, AND THIS WASWHERE THE LORD HUMBLED ME.
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  • WHERE THE LORD HUMBLED ME.YOU KNOW, I NEEDED IT SO
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  • YOU KNOW, I NEEDED IT SOMUCH.
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  • MUCH.BUT HE-- A VAN PEELED IN.
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  • BUT HE-- A VAN PEELED IN.FIVE GUYS JUMP OUT OF THE
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  • FIVE GUYS JUMP OUT OF THECAR.
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  • CAR.I'M NOT TALKIN' ABOUT
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  • I'M NOT TALKIN' ABOUTBURGERS.
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  • BURGERS.FIVE GUYS JUMP OUT.
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  • FIVE GUYS JUMP OUT.THEY'RE WALKING TOWARDS US.
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  • THEY'RE WALKING TOWARDS US.I JUMP OUT OF THE CAR
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  • I JUMP OUT OF THE CARFEARFULLY, BUT, YET
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  • FEARFULLY, BUT, YETPRIDEFULLY TRYIN' TO
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  • PRIDEFULLY TRYIN' TODEFEND THE HONOR OF THIS
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  • DEFEND THE HONOR OF THISGIRL.
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  • GIRL.SHE'S SITTIN' DOWN, AND I
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  • SHE'S SITTIN' DOWN, AND ISAID, "JUST SIT HERE.
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  • SAID, "JUST SIT HERE.I'LL BE BACK."
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  • I'LL BE BACK."SO I'M FRANTIC.
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  • SO I'M FRANTIC.I'M WALKIN' OVER HERE
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  • I'M WALKIN' OVER HERETOWARDS THESE GUYS
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  • TOWARDS THESE GUYSFEARFULLY, AND MY HEART'S
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  • FEARFULLY, AND MY HEART'SBEATIN' OUT OF MY CHEST.
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  • BEATIN' OUT OF MY CHEST.MY MIND'S RACIN', AND, ALL
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  • MY MIND'S RACIN', AND, ALLOF A SUDDEN, THE GUY
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  • OF A SUDDEN, THE GUYREACHES FOR HIS WAISTBAND.
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  • REACHES FOR HIS WAISTBAND.HE GRABS A PISTOL.
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  • HE GRABS A PISTOL.HE WAVES IT IN THE AIR.
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  • HE WAVES IT IN THE AIR.I TURN, AND I RUN.
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  • I TURN, AND I RUN.HE STANDS OVER ME AFTER I
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  • HE STANDS OVER ME AFTER ISLIPPED AND FALL.
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  • SLIPPED AND FALL.TWO GUNSHOTS,
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  • TWO GUNSHOTS,"BOOM, BOOM," AND I DIDN'T KNOW
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  • "BOOM, BOOM," AND I DIDN'T KNOWWHAT JUST HAPPENED.
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  • WHAT JUST HAPPENED.I JUST GOT SHOT.
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  • I JUST GOT SHOT.THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED.
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  • THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED.- ERIC: WAIT A MINUTE.
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  • - ERIC: WAIT A MINUTE.WAIT A MINUTE.
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  • WAIT A MINUTE.SO YOU RUN FROM HIM.
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  • SO YOU RUN FROM HIM.HE CHASES YOU.
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  • AND HE SHOOTS YOU WHILE
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  • AND HE SHOOTS YOU WHILEYOU'RE ON THE GROUND--
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  • - RASHAWN: YES, I
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  • - RASHAWN: YES, IREMEMBER IT LIKE IT WAS
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  • REMEMBER IT LIKE IT WASYESTERDAY.
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  • YESTERDAY.- ERIC: DID HE SUCCEED?
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  • - ERIC: DID HE SUCCEED?- RASHAWN: HE DID NOT.
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  • - RASHAWN: HE DID NOT.- ERIC: THAT WAS A JOKE.
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  • - ERIC: THAT WAS A JOKE.HE DID NOT SUCCEED.
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  • HE DID NOT SUCCEED.BUT I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU--
  • 00:05:17.028 --> 00:05:18.764
  • BUT I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU--WOW, YOU DID NOT
  • 00:05:18.764 --> 00:05:21.500
  • WOW, YOU DID NOTEXPECT THAT.
  • 00:05:21.500 --> 00:05:22.100
  • EXPECT THAT.I DIDN'T EXPECT THE STORY
  • 00:05:22.100 --> 00:05:23.235
  • I DIDN'T EXPECT THE STORYTO GO THERE JUST NOW.
  • 00:05:23.235 --> 00:05:23.835
  • TO GO THERE JUST NOW.THAT IS A STUNNING THING.
  • 00:05:23.835 --> 00:05:26.104
  • THAT IS A STUNNING THING.WHAT HAPPENED AT THAT
  • 00:05:26.104 --> 00:05:27.639
  • WHAT HAPPENED AT THATMOMENT?
  • 00:05:27.639 --> 00:05:28.707
  • MOMENT?YOU'VE JUST BEEN SHOT
  • 00:05:28.707 --> 00:05:29.908
  • YOU'VE JUST BEEN SHOTTWICE.
  • 00:05:29.908 --> 00:05:32.778
  • TWICE.- RASHAWN: IT WENT FROM
  • 00:05:32.778 --> 00:05:34.279
  • - RASHAWN: IT WENT FROMZERO TO 100, REAL QUICK.
  • 00:05:34.279 --> 00:05:35.614
  • ZERO TO 100, REAL QUICK.IT LITERALLY TURNED INTO A
  • 00:05:35.614 --> 00:05:37.582
  • I GOT UP, FAST AS I COULD.
  • 00:05:39.084 --> 00:05:40.485
  • I GOT UP, FAST AS I COULD.THEY WALKED AWAY AND--
  • 00:05:40.485 --> 00:05:42.120
  • THEY WALKED AWAY AND--WELL, THEY RAN AWAY.
  • 00:05:42.120 --> 00:05:43.188
  • WELL, THEY RAN AWAY.I RAN THE OPPOSITE WAY
  • 00:05:43.188 --> 00:05:44.222
  • I RAN THE OPPOSITE WAYTOWARDS THE CAR.
  • 00:05:44.222 --> 00:05:44.890
  • TOWARDS THE CAR.AS I'M DARTIN' IT TOWARDS
  • 00:05:44.890 --> 00:05:47.125
  • I DIVED AT THE LEFT SIDE OF
  • 00:05:48.760 --> 00:05:49.428
  • I DIVED AT THE LEFT SIDE OFTHE CAR.
  • 00:05:49.428 --> 00:05:50.996
  • THE CAR.I'M AT THE PASSENGER'S
  • 00:05:50.996 --> 00:05:51.930
  • I'M AT THE PASSENGER'SSIDE AT THIS POINT.
  • 00:05:51.930 --> 00:05:53.231
  • SIDE AT THIS POINT.I SEE THE DOOR IS OPEN ON
  • 00:05:53.231 --> 00:05:54.866
  • I SEE THE DOOR IS OPEN ONTHE PASSENGER'S SIDE OF
  • 00:05:54.866 --> 00:05:55.400
  • THE PASSENGER'S SIDE OFTHE DOOR.
  • 00:05:55.400 --> 00:05:56.101
  • THE DOOR.AS I LOOK IN, THE GIRL IS
  • 00:05:56.101 --> 00:05:57.169
  • AS I LOOK IN, THE GIRL ISGONE.
  • 00:05:57.169 --> 00:05:58.170
  • GONE.I HEAR THIS VAN PEEL OUT.
  • 00:05:58.170 --> 00:05:59.871
  • I HEAR THIS VAN PEEL OUT.SO NOW, IN MY MIND, I'M
  • 00:05:59.871 --> 00:06:01.239
  • SO NOW, IN MY MIND, I'MTHINKIN' THEY'RE GONNA
  • 00:06:01.239 --> 00:06:02.274
  • THINKIN' THEY'RE GONNACOME OVER AND FINISH ME
  • 00:06:02.274 --> 00:06:02.774
  • COME OVER AND FINISH MEOFF.
  • 00:06:02.774 --> 00:06:03.475
  • OFF.HE'S JUST GONNA PULL UP
  • 00:06:03.475 --> 00:06:04.376
  • HE'S JUST GONNA PULL UPAND FINISH ME OFF.
  • 00:06:04.376 --> 00:06:05.177
  • AND FINISH ME OFF.SO MY HEART'S BEATIN'.
  • 00:06:05.177 --> 00:06:05.977
  • SO MY HEART'S BEATIN'.I'M NERVOUS.
  • 00:06:05.977 --> 00:06:06.912
  • I'M NERVOUS.I'M SCARED OUT OF MY MIND.
  • 00:06:06.912 --> 00:06:07.979
  • I'M SCARED OUT OF MY MIND.I'M DREADING DEATH
  • 00:06:07.979 --> 00:06:09.448
  • I'M DREADING DEATHBECAUSE, ONE, I DIDN'T
  • 00:06:09.448 --> 00:06:10.482
  • BECAUSE, ONE, I DIDN'TKNOW I WAS SHOT.
  • 00:06:10.482 --> 00:06:11.550
  • KNOW I WAS SHOT.THE ADRENALINE WAS GOIN'
  • 00:06:11.550 --> 00:06:12.551
  • THE ADRENALINE WAS GOIN'SO MUCH, BUT I KNEW THIS
  • 00:06:12.551 --> 00:06:14.019
  • SO MUCH, BUT I KNEW THISWAS THE END.
  • 00:06:14.019 --> 00:06:15.020
  • WAS THE END.I'VE NEVER BEEN IN THIS
  • 00:06:15.020 --> 00:06:15.821
  • I'VE NEVER BEEN IN THISPLACE BEFORE.
  • 00:06:15.821 --> 00:06:17.756
  • PLACE BEFORE.BUT AS I'M LAYIN' ON THIS
  • 00:06:17.756 --> 00:06:19.257
  • BUT AS I'M LAYIN' ON THISCOLD CONCRETE, I BEGAN TO
  • 00:06:19.257 --> 00:06:20.592
  • COLD CONCRETE, I BEGAN TOFEEL THIS WARM BLOOD RUN
  • 00:06:20.592 --> 00:06:21.960
  • FEEL THIS WARM BLOOD RUNON MY BACK, AND, AT THAT
  • 00:06:21.960 --> 00:06:22.794
  • ON MY BACK, AND, AT THATMOMENT, I KNEW I WAS GONNA
  • 00:06:22.794 --> 00:06:24.629
  • MOMENT, I KNEW I WAS GONNADIE.
  • 00:06:24.629 --> 00:06:25.230
  • DIE.I WAS WEAVIN' IN AND OUT
  • 00:06:25.230 --> 00:06:26.431
  • I WAS WEAVIN' IN AND OUTOF CONSCIOUSNESS, AND I
  • 00:06:26.431 --> 00:06:27.666
  • OF CONSCIOUSNESS, AND IWAS JUST SCARED OUT OF MY
  • 00:06:27.666 --> 00:06:28.400
  • WAS JUST SCARED OUT OF MYMIND, AND AT THAT MOMENT,
  • 00:06:28.400 --> 00:06:29.367
  • MIND, AND AT THAT MOMENT,I WAS THINKIN' THIS:
  • 00:06:29.367 --> 00:06:32.003
  • I WAS THINKIN' THIS:"DID I EVER LIVE?"
  • 00:06:32.003 --> 00:06:33.405
  • "DID I EVER LIVE?"YOU KNOW, I'M ON THE VERGE
  • 00:06:33.405 --> 00:06:34.005
  • YOU KNOW, I'M ON THE VERGEOF DEATH RIGHT NOW, BUT
  • 00:06:34.005 --> 00:06:35.240
  • AND WHAT I CAME TO REALIZE
  • 00:06:36.575 --> 00:06:37.576
  • AND WHAT I CAME TO REALIZEIS THAT THERE'S ONLY ONE
  • 00:06:37.576 --> 00:06:39.444
  • IS THAT THERE'S ONLY ONEPERSON I CAN CALL UPON,
  • 00:06:39.444 --> 00:06:41.346
  • PERSON I CAN CALL UPON,AND I NEEDED TO CALL UPON
  • 00:06:41.346 --> 00:06:42.514
  • I KNEW OF GOD.
  • 00:06:43.748 --> 00:06:44.583
  • I KNEW OF GOD.I KNEW OF CHRIST.
  • 00:06:44.583 --> 00:06:45.750
  • THE BAPTIST, PENTECOSTAL
  • 00:06:46.918 --> 00:06:48.286
  • THE BAPTIST, PENTECOSTALPREACHER PREACH ABOUT
  • 00:06:48.286 --> 00:06:49.221
  • PREACHER PREACH ABOUTCHRIST, BUT THAT NIGHT,
  • 00:06:49.221 --> 00:06:51.857
  • CHRIST, BUT THAT NIGHT,HE BECAME REAL TO ME BECAUSE
  • 00:06:51.857 --> 00:06:52.824
  • HE BECAME REAL TO ME BECAUSEI NEEDED HIM AT THAT
  • 00:06:52.824 --> 00:06:54.059
  • I NEEDED HIM AT THATMOMENT, AND HE MET ME
  • 00:06:54.059 --> 00:06:55.227
  • MOMENT, AND HE MET METHERE.
  • 00:06:55.227 --> 00:06:57.062
  • THERE.AND THAT'S WHY I AM SO
  • 00:06:57.062 --> 00:06:57.596
  • AND THAT'S WHY I AM SOTHANKFUL.
  • 00:06:57.596 --> 00:06:58.663
  • THANKFUL.YOU KNOW, SOMETIME,
  • 00:06:58.663 --> 00:07:00.232
  • YOU KNOW, SOMETIME,IT TAKES US BEING BROKEN,
  • 00:07:00.232 --> 00:07:01.533
  • IT TAKES US BEING BROKEN,CRUSHED UNDER THE WEIGHT
  • 00:07:01.533 --> 00:07:02.901
  • IN ORDER TO FIGURE OUT OUR
  • 00:07:04.569 --> 00:07:05.804
  • IN ORDER TO FIGURE OUT OURNEED FOR HIM, AND THAT'S
  • 00:07:05.804 --> 00:07:06.271
  • NEED FOR HIM, AND THAT'SWHERE HE MET ME.
  • 00:07:06.271 --> 00:07:07.772
  • WHERE HE MET ME.- ERIC: WHAT YOU'RE
  • 00:07:07.772 --> 00:07:09.074
  • - ERIC: WHAT YOU'REDESCRIBING, I GUESS-- LET
  • 00:07:09.074 --> 00:07:10.175
  • DESCRIBING, I GUESS-- LETME ASK YOU: ARE YOU SAYING
  • 00:07:10.175 --> 00:07:11.209
  • ME ASK YOU: ARE YOU SAYINGTHAT YOU THOUGHT OF GOD AT
  • 00:07:11.209 --> 00:07:12.477
  • THAT YOU THOUGHT OF GOD ATTHAT TIME, AND SOMETHING
  • 00:07:12.477 --> 00:07:13.245
  • WHAT HAPPENED, LIKE, THAT
  • 00:07:14.613 --> 00:07:16.515
  • WHAT HAPPENED, LIKE, THATNIGHT WHILE YOU'RE AT THAT
  • 00:07:16.515 --> 00:07:18.750
  • NIGHT WHILE YOU'RE AT THATPOINT RIGHT THERE?
  • 00:07:18.750 --> 00:07:20.218
  • POINT RIGHT THERE?- RASHAWN: AT THAT POINT,
  • 00:07:20.218 --> 00:07:24.022
  • - RASHAWN: AT THAT POINT,AS I BEGAN TO CRY OUT, YOU
  • 00:07:24.022 --> 00:07:25.223
  • AS I BEGAN TO CRY OUT, YOUKNOW, PRAY THE BEST I
  • 00:07:25.223 --> 00:07:25.957
  • KNOW, PRAY THE BEST ICOULD, YOU KNOW, IT FELT
  • 00:07:25.957 --> 00:07:27.158
  • COULD, YOU KNOW, IT FELTLIKE AN ETERNITY.
  • 00:07:27.158 --> 00:07:28.693
  • A PICKUP TRUCK PEELS IN,
  • 00:07:30.795 --> 00:07:32.364
  • A PICKUP TRUCK PEELS IN,AND THE GUY JUMPS
  • 00:07:32.364 --> 00:07:33.632
  • AND THE GUY JUMPSOUT, WHICH I CALL HIM AN
  • 00:07:33.632 --> 00:07:34.566
  • OUT, WHICH I CALL HIM ANANGEL TO THIS DAY, AND HE
  • 00:07:34.566 --> 00:07:36.935
  • ANGEL TO THIS DAY, AND HEWALKS OVER, AND HE PICKS
  • 00:07:36.935 --> 00:07:37.903
  • WALKS OVER, AND HE PICKSME UP, AND HE THROWS ME IN
  • 00:07:37.903 --> 00:07:39.671
  • ME UP, AND HE THROWS ME INTHE TRUCK, AND HE PEELS
  • 00:07:39.671 --> 00:07:41.406
  • THE TRUCK, AND HE PEELSOUT, AND HE GETS ME TO THE
  • 00:07:41.406 --> 00:07:42.340
  • OUT, AND HE GETS ME TO THEHOSPITAL, AND I'LL NEVER
  • 00:07:42.340 --> 00:07:43.174
  • HOSPITAL, AND I'LL NEVERFORGET.
  • 00:07:43.174 --> 00:07:45.443
  • FORGET.I NEVER SEEN THAT GUY
  • 00:07:45.443 --> 00:07:46.811
  • I NEVER SEEN THAT GUYAGAIN, TO THIS DAY, AND HE
  • 00:07:46.811 --> 00:07:48.046
  • AGAIN, TO THIS DAY, AND HESHOWED UP THAT NIGHT ON MY
  • 00:07:48.046 --> 00:07:51.850
  • SHOWED UP THAT NIGHT ON MYDEEPEST, DARKEST MOMENT,
  • 00:07:51.850 --> 00:07:52.417
  • DEEPEST, DARKEST MOMENT,AND GOD USED HIM TO GET ME
  • 00:07:52.417 --> 00:07:53.418
  • AND GOD USED HIM TO GET METO THE HOSPITAL.
  • 00:07:53.418 --> 00:07:53.985
  • TO THE HOSPITAL.- ERIC: AND WHAT DID THEY
  • 00:07:53.985 --> 00:07:55.053
  • - ERIC: AND WHAT DID THEYDETERMINE?
  • 00:07:55.053 --> 00:07:55.987
  • DETERMINE?YOU SAID YOU WERE IN PAIN.
  • 00:07:55.987 --> 00:07:57.222
  • AND WHAT DID THE DOCTORS
  • 00:07:59.291 --> 00:07:59.791
  • AND WHAT DID THE DOCTORSSAY THAT NIGHT?
  • 00:07:59.791 --> 00:08:00.358
  • SAY THAT NIGHT?LIKE, I'M JUST TRYIN' TO
  • 00:08:00.358 --> 00:08:01.760
  • LIKE, I'M JUST TRYIN' TOGET THIS STORY 'CAUSE THIS
  • 00:08:01.760 --> 00:08:02.260
  • GET THIS STORY 'CAUSE THISIS SO CRAZY.
  • 00:08:02.260 --> 00:08:04.229
  • IS SO CRAZY.- RASHAWN: YEAH, SO I WAS
  • 00:08:04.229 --> 00:08:05.463
  • - RASHAWN: YEAH, SO I WASSHOT BEHIND MY LEG, AND IT
  • 00:08:05.463 --> 00:08:08.867
  • SHOT BEHIND MY LEG, AND ITWAS TWO BULLETS, SO ONE
  • 00:08:08.867 --> 00:08:10.135
  • WAS TWO BULLETS, SO ONEWENT STRAIGHT THROUGH MY
  • 00:08:10.135 --> 00:08:11.369
  • WENT STRAIGHT THROUGH MYHAMSTRING.
  • 00:08:11.369 --> 00:08:13.838
  • HAMSTRING.THANK GOD THAT IT MISSED
  • 00:08:13.838 --> 00:08:15.240
  • THANK GOD THAT IT MISSEDTHAT BIG ARTERY, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:08:15.240 --> 00:08:16.741
  • THAT BIG ARTERY, YOU KNOW,IN THE LEG BUT ALSO WENT
  • 00:08:16.741 --> 00:08:18.076
  • IN THE LEG BUT ALSO WENTTHROUGH THE BACK OF THE
  • 00:08:18.076 --> 00:08:18.910
  • IT NICKED-- THE SECOND WAS
  • 00:08:20.445 --> 00:08:21.580
  • IT NICKED-- THE SECOND WASA FLESH WOUND.
  • 00:08:21.580 --> 00:08:22.180
  • A FLESH WOUND.IT WENT THROUGH THE BACK
  • 00:08:22.180 --> 00:08:23.148
  • IT WENT THROUGH THE BACKOF THE KNEE.
  • 00:08:23.148 --> 00:08:24.316
  • OF THE KNEE.AND I'M THANKFUL IT DIDN'T
  • 00:08:24.316 --> 00:08:25.317
  • AND I'M THANKFUL IT DIDN'THIT ANY BONES, NO ARTERIES.
  • 00:08:25.317 --> 00:08:26.384
  • HIT ANY BONES, NO ARTERIES.- ERIC: SO, OBVIOUSLY,
  • 00:08:26.384 --> 00:08:27.452
  • - ERIC: SO, OBVIOUSLY,WHEN SOMETHING LIKE THIS
  • 00:08:27.452 --> 00:08:28.186
  • WHEN SOMETHING LIKE THISHAPPENS, IT GETS US
  • 00:08:28.186 --> 00:08:29.054
  • HAPPENS, IT GETS USTHINKING ABOUT ULTIMATE
  • 00:08:29.054 --> 00:08:29.955
  • THINKING ABOUT ULTIMATETHINGS.
  • 00:08:29.955 --> 00:08:31.089
  • THINGS.IT GETS US THINKIN' ABOUT
  • 00:08:31.089 --> 00:08:31.990
  • IT GETS US THINKIN' ABOUTGOD IF WE HAVEN'T BEEN
  • 00:08:31.990 --> 00:08:32.857
  • GOD IF WE HAVEN'T BEENTHINKIN' ABOUT HIM BEFORE.
  • 00:08:32.857 --> 00:08:34.459
  • FROM HERE ON IN, LIKE,
  • 00:08:36.261 --> 00:08:38.263
  • FROM HERE ON IN, LIKE,DOES GOD COME IN TO YOUR
  • 00:08:38.263 --> 00:08:40.365
  • DOES GOD COME IN TO YOURLIFE?
  • 00:08:40.365 --> 00:08:40.865
  • LIFE?OR WHAT HAPPENS AFTER
  • 00:08:40.865 --> 00:08:42.200
  • OR WHAT HAPPENS AFTERTHIS?
  • 00:08:42.200 --> 00:08:43.234
  • THIS?- RASHAWN: AFTER THIS,
  • 00:08:43.234 --> 00:08:43.802
  • - RASHAWN: AFTER THIS,WHAT WAS AMAZIN', A NURSE
  • 00:08:43.802 --> 00:08:45.604
  • YOU KNOW, SPOKE.
  • 00:08:48.006 --> 00:08:48.506
  • YOU KNOW, SPOKE.YOU KNOW, IT WAS LIKE A
  • 00:08:48.506 --> 00:08:49.708
  • YOU KNOW, IT WAS LIKE ACHRISTIAN OR A CATHOLIC
  • 00:08:49.708 --> 00:08:51.109
  • CHRISTIAN OR A CATHOLICHOSPITAL.
  • 00:08:51.109 --> 00:08:51.910
  • HOSPITAL.BUT A NURSE SPOKE SOME
  • 00:08:51.910 --> 00:08:53.078
  • BUT A NURSE SPOKE SOMEENCOURAGING WORDS OVER ME
  • 00:08:53.078 --> 00:08:56.715
  • ENCOURAGING WORDS OVER MEAND GAVE ME A BIBLE,
  • 00:08:56.715 --> 00:08:57.716
  • AND GAVE ME A BIBLE,AND WHEN I HAD LEFT THERE,
  • 00:08:57.716 --> 00:08:58.750
  • AND WHEN I HAD LEFT THERE,YOU KNOW, I BEGAN TO, YOU
  • 00:08:58.750 --> 00:08:59.751
  • YOU KNOW, I BEGAN TO, YOUKNOW, GET IN THE WORD OF
  • 00:08:59.751 --> 00:09:00.852
  • KNOW, GET IN THE WORD OFGOD, GET INTO SCRIPTURE AS
  • 00:09:00.852 --> 00:09:02.754
  • GOD, GET INTO SCRIPTURE ASI'M REALIZING THAT, ONE,
  • 00:09:02.754 --> 00:09:03.755
  • I'M REALIZING THAT, ONE,MY DREAM, YOU KNOW, THE
  • 00:09:03.755 --> 00:09:06.658
  • MY DREAM, YOU KNOW, THEFOOTBALL TEAM THAT WAS
  • 00:09:06.658 --> 00:09:08.126
  • FOOTBALL TEAM THAT WASGONNA RECRUIT ME THAT I
  • 00:09:08.126 --> 00:09:10.028
  • GONNA RECRUIT ME THAT IWAS IN LOVE WITH, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:09:10.028 --> 00:09:10.595
  • WAS IN LOVE WITH, YOU KNOW,THEY SAID THEY CAN'T BRING
  • 00:09:10.595 --> 00:09:12.564
  • THEY SAID THEY CAN'T BRINGIN THIS POTENTIAL "GANG
  • 00:09:12.564 --> 00:09:13.398
  • IN THIS POTENTIAL "GANGMEMBER" ON THEIR TEAM, SO
  • 00:09:13.398 --> 00:09:15.000
  • MEMBER" ON THEIR TEAM, SOI WAS LOSIN' MY
  • 00:09:15.000 --> 00:09:16.635
  • I WAS LOSIN' MYSCHOLARSHIP, AND I BEGAN
  • 00:09:16.635 --> 00:09:18.269
  • SCHOLARSHIP, AND I BEGANLOSING FRIENDS, THE GUYS
  • 00:09:18.269 --> 00:09:19.404
  • LOSING FRIENDS, THE GUYSWHO WERE WITH ME.
  • 00:09:19.404 --> 00:09:20.338
  • WHO WERE WITH ME.- ERIC: SO YOUR FUTURE
  • 00:09:20.338 --> 00:09:23.575
  • - ERIC: SO YOUR FUTUREJUST EVAPORATES,
  • 00:09:23.575 --> 00:09:24.709
  • JUST EVAPORATES,AND NOW YOU'RE-- I MEAN,
  • 00:09:24.709 --> 00:09:26.945
  • AND NOW YOU'RE-- I MEAN,IT'S KIND OF STUNNING THAT
  • 00:09:26.945 --> 00:09:28.713
  • IT'S KIND OF STUNNING THATYOU GO FROM THIS PATH,
  • 00:09:28.713 --> 00:09:30.148
  • YOU GO FROM THIS PATH,AND THEN SUDDENLY THIS
  • 00:09:30.148 --> 00:09:31.983
  • AND THEN SUDDENLY THISHAPPENS, AND YOU WERE--
  • 00:09:31.983 --> 00:09:32.884
  • HAPPENS, AND YOU WERE--BUT, SO WERE YOU READING
  • 00:09:32.884 --> 00:09:35.387
  • BUT, SO WERE YOU READINGTHE BIBLE ON YOUR OWN,
  • 00:09:35.387 --> 00:09:36.254
  • THE BIBLE ON YOUR OWN,OR DID YOU GET AROUND
  • 00:09:36.254 --> 00:09:37.022
  • OR DID YOU GET AROUNDPEOPLE SUDDENLY THAT ARE
  • 00:09:37.022 --> 00:09:38.056
  • PEOPLE SUDDENLY THAT AREREADING THE BIBLE?
  • 00:09:38.056 --> 00:09:39.090
  • READING THE BIBLE?HOW DID THAT WORK OUT?
  • 00:09:39.090 --> 00:09:40.291
  • HOW DID THAT WORK OUT?- RASHAWN: I END UP
  • 00:09:40.291 --> 00:09:41.660
  • - RASHAWN: I END UPDRIFTING FROM GOD AS A,
  • 00:09:41.660 --> 00:09:42.727
  • DRIFTING FROM GOD AS A,QUOTE, UNQUOTE,
  • 00:09:42.727 --> 00:09:43.528
  • QUOTE, UNQUOTE,"PRODIGAL CHILD."
  • 00:09:43.528 --> 00:09:44.095
  • "PRODIGAL CHILD."I DON'T EVEN KNOW
  • 00:09:44.095 --> 00:09:45.130
  • I DON'T EVEN KNOWIF I WAS BORN AGAIN, BUT I
  • 00:09:45.130 --> 00:09:46.631
  • IF I WAS BORN AGAIN, BUT IEND UP DRIFTIN' AWAY
  • 00:09:46.631 --> 00:09:47.532
  • END UP DRIFTIN' AWAY'CAUSE THERE WAS NO
  • 00:09:47.532 --> 00:09:49.267
  • 'CAUSE THERE WAS NODISCIPLESHIP.
  • 00:09:49.267 --> 00:09:50.435
  • DISCIPLESHIP.I TRIED MY BEST TO GET
  • 00:09:50.435 --> 00:09:51.536
  • I TRIED MY BEST TO GETINTO HIS WORD, BUT THE
  • 00:09:51.536 --> 00:09:54.305
  • INTO HIS WORD, BUT THEMOMENT PEOPLE START--
  • 00:09:54.305 --> 00:09:55.540
  • MOMENT PEOPLE START--THE WRONG INFLUENCES CAME IN
  • 00:09:55.540 --> 00:09:57.776
  • THE WRONG INFLUENCES CAME INWAS THE MOMENT I BEGAN TO
  • 00:09:57.776 --> 00:09:58.710
  • WAS THE MOMENT I BEGAN TODRIFT AWAY, AND JUST LIKE
  • 00:09:58.710 --> 00:10:00.445
  • "BLESSED IS HE WHO DOES
  • 00:10:02.047 --> 00:10:03.715
  • "BLESSED IS HE WHO DOESNOT WALK IN STEP WITH THE
  • 00:10:03.715 --> 00:10:04.215
  • NOT WALK IN STEP WITH THEWICKED NOR TAKE THE WAY
  • 00:10:04.215 --> 00:10:06.551
  • WICKED NOR TAKE THE WAYTHAT SINNERS TAKE, NOR SIT
  • 00:10:06.551 --> 00:10:07.552
  • THAT SINNERS TAKE, NOR SITIN THE COMPANY OF MOCKERS.
  • 00:10:07.552 --> 00:10:08.620
  • IN THE COMPANY OF MOCKERS.BUT BLESSED IS HE WHO, YOU
  • 00:10:08.620 --> 00:10:10.155
  • BUT BLESSED IS HE WHO, YOUKNOW, DELIGHTS HIS SELF IN
  • 00:10:10.155 --> 00:10:11.923
  • KNOW, DELIGHTS HIS SELF INTHE LAW OF THE LORD,"
  • 00:10:11.923 --> 00:10:13.291
  • THE LAW OF THE LORD,"BUT I WAS ON THE LEFT SIDE
  • 00:10:13.291 --> 00:10:14.092
  • BUT I WAS ON THE LEFT SIDEOF THAT, YOU KNOW?
  • 00:10:14.092 --> 00:10:15.460
  • OF THAT, YOU KNOW?I WAS WITH THE MOCKERS.
  • 00:10:15.460 --> 00:10:16.294
  • I WAS WITH THE MOCKERS.I WAS WITH THE--
  • 00:10:16.294 --> 00:10:16.861
  • I WAS WITH THE--- ERIC: THIS IS NOW AFTER
  • 00:10:16.861 --> 00:10:17.595
  • - ERIC: THIS IS NOW AFTERHIGH SCHOOL?
  • 00:10:17.595 --> 00:10:18.897
  • HIGH SCHOOL?YOU GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL,
  • 00:10:18.897 --> 00:10:19.397
  • YOU GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL,OR IS THIS STILL HIGH
  • 00:10:19.397 --> 00:10:20.098
  • - RASHAWN: WELL, THIS IS
  • 00:10:21.566 --> 00:10:22.233
  • - RASHAWN: WELL, THIS ISAFTER NOW, WHEN I WAS IN
  • 00:10:22.233 --> 00:10:23.001
  • AFTER NOW, WHEN I WAS INJUNIOR COLLEGE.
  • 00:10:23.001 --> 00:10:24.102
  • JUNIOR COLLEGE.SO I END UP GETTIN'
  • 00:10:24.102 --> 00:10:24.703
  • SO I END UP GETTIN'ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY.
  • 00:10:24.703 --> 00:10:25.870
  • ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY.I'VE RECOVERED.
  • 00:10:25.870 --> 00:10:27.605
  • I WENT THROUGH P.T.,
  • 00:10:29.274 --> 00:10:30.175
  • I WENT THROUGH P.T.,A PHYSICAL THERAPIST, AND I
  • 00:10:30.175 --> 00:10:31.609
  • A PHYSICAL THERAPIST, AND IGOT BACK ON MY FEET, AND I
  • 00:10:31.609 --> 00:10:32.877
  • GOT BACK ON MY FEET, AND IEND UP GETTING A
  • 00:10:32.877 --> 00:10:34.045
  • END UP GETTING ASCHOLARSHIP TO A
  • 00:10:34.045 --> 00:10:34.846
  • SCHOLARSHIP TO AJUNIOR COLLEGE,
  • 00:10:34.846 --> 00:10:35.680
  • BUT A LOT OF THE JUCO GUYS
  • 00:10:37.982 --> 00:10:39.451
  • BUT A LOT OF THE JUCO GUYSWERE THE INNER-CITY GUYS
  • 00:10:39.451 --> 00:10:40.685
  • WERE THE INNER-CITY GUYSWHO WERE THE WEED SMOKERS,
  • 00:10:40.685 --> 00:10:41.419
  • WHO WERE THE WEED SMOKERS,THE PILL POPPERS,
  • 00:10:41.419 --> 00:10:42.454
  • THE PILL POPPERS,THE GUYS WHO WAS
  • 00:10:42.454 --> 00:10:43.955
  • THE GUYS WHO WASSELLIN' DRUGS OR--
  • 00:10:43.955 --> 00:10:44.823
  • SELLIN' DRUGS OR--- ERIC: YOU GOT IN WITH
  • 00:10:44.823 --> 00:10:45.690
  • - ERIC: YOU GOT IN WITHA BAD CROWD AT THAT TIME?
  • 00:10:45.690 --> 00:10:47.225
  • A BAD CROWD AT THAT TIME?- RASHAWN: YEAH, "BOOM,"
  • 00:10:47.225 --> 00:10:49.394
  • - RASHAWN: YEAH, "BOOM,"AND THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED.
  • 00:10:49.394 --> 00:10:49.928
  • AND THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED.- ERIC: RASHAWN, WE'RE
  • 00:10:49.928 --> 00:10:51.696
  • - ERIC: RASHAWN, WE'REGONNA GO TO A BREAK HERE.
  • 00:10:51.696 --> 00:10:52.230
  • GONNA GO TO A BREAK HERE.FOLKS, I'M TALKIN' WITH
  • 00:10:52.230 --> 00:10:52.664
  • FOLKS, I'M TALKIN' WITHRASHAWN COPELAND.
  • 00:10:52.664 --> 00:10:53.298
  • RASHAWN COPELAND.THE BOOK IS
  • 00:10:53.298 --> 00:10:53.832
  • THE BOOK IS"START WHERE YOU ARE:
  • 00:10:53.832 --> 00:10:54.666
  • "START WHERE YOU ARE:HOW GOD MEETS YOU
  • 00:10:54.666 --> 00:10:55.934
  • HOW GOD MEETS YOUIN YOUR MESS,
  • 00:10:55.934 --> 00:10:57.202
  • IN YOUR MESS,LOVES YOU THROUGH IT,
  • 00:10:57.202 --> 00:10:58.203
  • LOVES YOU THROUGH IT,AND LEADS YOU OUT OF IT."
  • 00:10:58.203 --> 00:11:02.005
  • LOVES YOU THROUGH IT,AND LEADS YOU OUT OF IT."
  • 00:11:02.005 --> 00:11:03.510
  • AND LEADS YOU OUT OF IT."WE'LL BE RIGHT BACK.
  • 00:11:03.510 --> 00:11:04.244
  • WE'LL BE RIGHT BACK.[MUSIC]
  • 00:11:04.244 --> 00:11:04.811
  • [MUSIC]- ERIC: HEY, THERE,
  • 00:11:04.811 --> 00:11:05.278
  • - ERIC: HEY, THERE,FOLKS.
  • 00:11:05.278 --> 00:11:05.645
  • FOLKS.I'M TALKING TO
  • 00:11:05.645 --> 00:11:06.079
  • I'M TALKING TORASHAWN COPELAND.
  • 00:11:06.079 --> 00:11:06.613
  • RASHAWN COPELAND.THE BOOK IS
  • 00:11:06.613 --> 00:11:07.414
  • THE BOOK IS"START WHERE YOU ARE."
  • 00:11:07.414 --> 00:11:08.682
  • "START WHERE YOU ARE."RASHAWN, YOUR STORY IS CRAZY.
  • 00:11:08.682 --> 00:11:11.084
  • RASHAWN, YOUR STORY IS CRAZY.SO YOU'RE TELLING ME NOW,
  • 00:11:11.084 --> 00:11:12.385
  • SO YOU'RE TELLING ME NOW,OKAY, YOU GET SHOT.
  • 00:11:12.385 --> 00:11:13.887
  • OKAY, YOU GET SHOT.YOU GET THIS--
  • 00:11:13.887 --> 00:11:15.155
  • YOU GET THIS--SOUNDS MIRACULOUS--
  • 00:11:15.155 --> 00:11:15.689
  • SOUNDS MIRACULOUS--THING THAT SAVES
  • 00:11:15.689 --> 00:11:17.324
  • THING THAT SAVESYOU FROM DYING.
  • 00:11:17.324 --> 00:11:18.325
  • YOU FROM DYING.YOU KIND OF MEET GOD.
  • 00:11:18.325 --> 00:11:19.593
  • YOU KIND OF MEET GOD.SOMEBODY GIVES YOU A BIBLE
  • 00:11:19.593 --> 00:11:20.827
  • SOMEBODY GIVES YOU A BIBLEOR WHATEVER, BUT NOW YOUR
  • 00:11:20.827 --> 00:11:22.162
  • OR WHATEVER, BUT NOW YOURPLANS HAVE CHANGED.
  • 00:11:22.162 --> 00:11:23.130
  • PLANS HAVE CHANGED.YOU'RE NOT GOIN' TO ONE OF
  • 00:11:23.130 --> 00:11:23.897
  • YOU'RE NOT GOIN' TO ONE OFTHESE BIG SCHOOLS OR
  • 00:11:23.897 --> 00:11:25.766
  • THESE BIG SCHOOLS ORWHATEVER, AND NOW YOU FALL
  • 00:11:25.766 --> 00:11:27.567
  • WHATEVER, AND NOW YOU FALLIN WITH THE WRONG CROWD.
  • 00:11:27.567 --> 00:11:29.736
  • IN WITH THE WRONG CROWD.HOW LONG DOES THAT GO ON?
  • 00:11:29.736 --> 00:11:32.105
  • HOW LONG DOES THAT GO ON?AND, YOU KNOW, WHAT WERE
  • 00:11:32.105 --> 00:11:35.075
  • - RASHAWN: I WAS
  • 00:11:36.309 --> 00:11:37.177
  • - RASHAWN: I WASLITERALLY THE GUY TRYING
  • 00:11:37.177 --> 00:11:39.146
  • LITERALLY THE GUY TRYINGTO FIT IN BECAUSE I DIDN'T
  • 00:11:39.146 --> 00:11:40.413
  • TO FIT IN BECAUSE I DIDN'TKNOW WHAT IT REALLY LOOKED
  • 00:11:40.413 --> 00:11:41.281
  • KNOW WHAT IT REALLY LOOKEDLIKE TO STAND OUT.
  • 00:11:41.281 --> 00:11:42.215
  • LIKE TO STAND OUT.I WAS GETTIN' AROUND ALL
  • 00:11:42.215 --> 00:11:44.050
  • I WAS GETTIN' AROUND ALLTHE WRONG DUDES.
  • 00:11:44.050 --> 00:11:46.853
  • THE WRONG DUDES.WE'D GO CLUB AND STRIP
  • 00:11:46.853 --> 00:11:48.321
  • YOU KNOW, IN THIS SMALL
  • 00:11:49.623 --> 00:11:50.357
  • YOU KNOW, IN THIS SMALLTOWN, AND I WAS JUST
  • 00:11:50.357 --> 00:11:51.057
  • TOWN, AND I WAS JUSTTRYIN' TO FIND MY IDENTITY
  • 00:11:51.057 --> 00:11:53.293
  • TRYIN' TO FIND MY IDENTITYBECAUSE IT WAS ATTACHED TO
  • 00:11:53.293 --> 00:11:54.528
  • BECAUSE IT WAS ATTACHED TOFOOTBALL, IT WAS ATTACHED
  • 00:11:54.528 --> 00:11:58.231
  • FOOTBALL, IT WAS ATTACHEDTO WOMEN-- EVERYTHING,
  • 00:11:58.231 --> 00:11:59.032
  • TO WOMEN-- EVERYTHING,AND THAT WAS A WAY OF NUMBIN'
  • 00:11:59.032 --> 00:11:59.933
  • AND THAT WAS A WAY OF NUMBIN'THE PAIN FOR ME.
  • 00:11:59.933 --> 00:12:01.902
  • THE PAIN FOR ME.BUT HERE'S WHAT HAPPENED,
  • 00:12:01.902 --> 00:12:03.103
  • BUT HERE'S WHAT HAPPENED,ERIC.
  • 00:12:03.103 --> 00:12:04.137
  • ERIC.AS I BEGAN TO BECOME,
  • 00:12:04.137 --> 00:12:04.971
  • AS I BEGAN TO BECOME,YOU KNOW, SUCCESSFUL ON THE
  • 00:12:04.971 --> 00:12:07.040
  • YOU KNOW, SUCCESSFUL ON THEFIELD AT JUCO A BIT, I GOT
  • 00:12:07.040 --> 00:12:08.842
  • FIELD AT JUCO A BIT, I GOTA OPPORTUNITY TO GO TO
  • 00:12:08.842 --> 00:12:09.876
  • A OPPORTUNITY TO GO TOUNIVERSITY OF KANSAS AND
  • 00:12:09.876 --> 00:12:11.678
  • SORT OF, SCENE WHERE YOU
  • 00:12:13.180 --> 00:12:14.481
  • SORT OF, SCENE WHERE YOUHAVE MORE ATHLETES, MORE
  • 00:12:14.481 --> 00:12:16.016
  • HAVE MORE ATHLETES, MOREPRESTIGE, MORE WOMEN,
  • 00:12:16.016 --> 00:12:17.551
  • PRESTIGE, MORE WOMEN,MORE EVERYTHING.
  • 00:12:17.551 --> 00:12:18.752
  • MORE EVERYTHING.SO I WENT DOWN THAT RABBIT
  • 00:12:18.752 --> 00:12:21.188
  • SO I WENT DOWN THAT RABBITHOLE, JUST LIKE,
  • 00:12:21.188 --> 00:12:21.988
  • HOLE, JUST LIKE,"HERE, A LITTLE BIT BIGGER,
  • 00:12:21.988 --> 00:12:22.522
  • "HERE, A LITTLE BIT BIGGER,A LITTLE BIT BETTER,"
  • 00:12:22.522 --> 00:12:24.558
  • A LITTLE BIT BETTER,"SO LET ME GO HARDER,
  • 00:12:24.558 --> 00:12:25.592
  • SO LET ME GO HARDER,AND WHAT ENDS UP
  • 00:12:25.592 --> 00:12:29.596
  • AND WHAT ENDS UPHAPPENING IS I FIND
  • 00:12:29.596 --> 00:12:31.131
  • HAPPENING IS I FINDOUT THAT, LIKE, AFTER
  • 00:12:31.131 --> 00:12:32.399
  • OUT THAT, LIKE, AFTERALL THIS CLUBBIN', I FIND
  • 00:12:32.399 --> 00:12:34.201
  • ALL THIS CLUBBIN', I FINDOUT THAT I'M ABOUT TO HAVE
  • 00:12:34.201 --> 00:12:35.335
  • OUT THAT I'M ABOUT TO HAVEA BABY OUT OF WEDLOCK, YOU
  • 00:12:35.335 --> 00:12:35.969
  • A BABY OUT OF WEDLOCK, YOUKNOW, 'CAUSE I WAS
  • 00:12:35.969 --> 00:12:37.337
  • KNOW, 'CAUSE I WASSLEEPIN' AROUND, SO I HAD
  • 00:12:37.337 --> 00:12:38.972
  • SLEEPIN' AROUND, SO I HADA BABY WITH ONE OF MY
  • 00:12:38.972 --> 00:12:40.140
  • A BABY WITH ONE OF MYFRIENDS THAT I WAS IN
  • 00:12:40.140 --> 00:12:40.874
  • FRIENDS THAT I WAS INCOLLEGE WITH.
  • 00:12:40.874 --> 00:12:42.008
  • COLLEGE WITH.COME TO FIND OUT, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:12:42.008 --> 00:12:43.210
  • THERE'S REAL
  • 00:12:44.277 --> 00:12:45.078
  • THERE'S REALRESPONSIBILITIES THAT
  • 00:12:45.078 --> 00:12:47.614
  • RESPONSIBILITIES THATCOME, YOU KNOW, IN LIFE,
  • 00:12:47.614 --> 00:12:49.082
  • COME, YOU KNOW, IN LIFE,AND I STARTED TAKIN' LIFE
  • 00:12:49.082 --> 00:12:50.050
  • AND I STARTED TAKIN' LIFEA LITTLE BIT MORE SERIOUS,
  • 00:12:50.050 --> 00:12:50.584
  • A LITTLE BIT MORE SERIOUS,AND I WANTED TO BECOME A
  • 00:12:50.584 --> 00:12:51.551
  • AND I WANTED TO BECOME ABETTER MAN.
  • 00:12:51.551 --> 00:12:53.453
  • BETTER MAN.SO WE END UP MOVING, AND I
  • 00:12:53.453 --> 00:12:55.055
  • SO WE END UP MOVING, AND ITRANSFERRED TO A SMALLER
  • 00:12:55.055 --> 00:12:57.023
  • TRANSFERRED TO A SMALLERSCHOOL IN OKLAHOMA, WHICH
  • 00:12:57.023 --> 00:12:59.559
  • SCHOOL IN OKLAHOMA, WHICHWAS A DIVISION 2 SCHOOL,
  • 00:12:59.559 --> 00:13:01.528
  • WAS A DIVISION 2 SCHOOL,AND IT SLOWED DOWN A BIT,
  • 00:13:01.528 --> 00:13:03.263
  • AND IT SLOWED DOWN A BIT,AND AS I WAS AT THIS SCHOOL,
  • 00:13:03.263 --> 00:13:05.599
  • AND AS I WAS AT THIS SCHOOL,THE REALITY HIT THAT I'M
  • 00:13:05.599 --> 00:13:07.167
  • THE REALITY HIT THAT I'MNOT GONNA BE SOME NFL STAR
  • 00:13:07.167 --> 00:13:09.102
  • NOT GONNA BE SOME NFL STAROR GO INTO THE CFL.
  • 00:13:09.102 --> 00:13:10.971
  • OR GO INTO THE CFL.THESE BIG OPPORTUNITIES
  • 00:13:10.971 --> 00:13:12.739
  • THESE BIG OPPORTUNITIESAREN'T GOIN' TO HAPPEN FOR
  • 00:13:12.739 --> 00:13:13.640
  • AREN'T GOIN' TO HAPPEN FORME ANYMORE.
  • 00:13:13.640 --> 00:13:15.709
  • ME ANYMORE.SO I LOOK AT MY DAD'S LIFE
  • 00:13:15.709 --> 00:13:17.878
  • SO I LOOK AT MY DAD'S LIFEAS A ARMY-- OR, WELL, HE
  • 00:13:17.878 --> 00:13:19.379
  • AS A ARMY-- OR, WELL, HEWAS ACTUALLY A COAST GUARD
  • 00:13:19.379 --> 00:13:20.580
  • WAS ACTUALLY A COAST GUARDPETTY OFFICER, AND I WAS
  • 00:13:20.580 --> 00:13:21.882
  • PETTY OFFICER, AND I WASLIKE, "MAYBE I CAN COMPETE
  • 00:13:21.882 --> 00:13:23.250
  • LIKE, "MAYBE I CAN COMPETEWITH MY DAD.
  • 00:13:23.250 --> 00:13:25.685
  • WITH MY DAD.MAYBE I CAN WIN HIS
  • 00:13:25.685 --> 00:13:26.586
  • MAYBE I CAN WIN HISAPPROVAL NOW AND BECOME A
  • 00:13:26.586 --> 00:13:28.521
  • APPROVAL NOW AND BECOME AARMY OFFICER.
  • 00:13:28.521 --> 00:13:29.923
  • ARMY OFFICER.SO LET ME PURSUE.
  • 00:13:29.923 --> 00:13:32.359
  • SO LET ME PURSUE.TAKE MY LITTLE 2.5 GPA,
  • 00:13:32.359 --> 00:13:34.694
  • TAKE MY LITTLE 2.5 GPA,TRY TO PURSUE ACADEMICS AS
  • 00:13:34.694 --> 00:13:36.296
  • TRY TO PURSUE ACADEMICS ASHARD AS I CAN, JOIN THE
  • 00:13:36.296 --> 00:13:38.298
  • HARD AS I CAN, JOIN THEROTC, AND PROVE TO MY DAD
  • 00:13:38.298 --> 00:13:40.066
  • ROTC, AND PROVE TO MY DADTHAT I CAN BE THIS MAN FOR
  • 00:13:40.066 --> 00:13:41.835
  • THAT I CAN BE THIS MAN FORHIM AND MAKE HIM HAPPY,
  • 00:13:41.835 --> 00:13:42.502
  • HIM AND MAKE HIM HAPPY,MAKE HIM PROUD 'CAUSE
  • 00:13:42.502 --> 00:13:43.803
  • MAKE HIM PROUD 'CAUSETHAT'S ALL I REALLY WANTED
  • 00:13:43.803 --> 00:13:45.872
  • THAT'S ALL I REALLY WANTEDTO DO,
  • 00:13:45.872 --> 00:13:48.441
  • TO DO,AND I END UP JOININ' THE ROTC,
  • 00:13:48.441 --> 00:13:49.576
  • AND I END UP JOININ' THE ROTC,BEGAN DOIN' REALLY GREAT
  • 00:13:49.576 --> 00:13:50.176
  • BEGAN DOIN' REALLY GREATAT THAT, AND I
  • 00:13:50.176 --> 00:13:51.478
  • AT THAT, AND ICOMMISSIONED INTO THE ARMY.
  • 00:13:51.478 --> 00:13:53.914
  • COMMISSIONED INTO THE ARMY.AND WHEN I WENT TO ARMY
  • 00:13:53.914 --> 00:13:55.148
  • AND WHEN I WENT TO ARMYMEDICAL SCHOOL, IT SORT OF
  • 00:13:55.148 --> 00:13:56.583
  • MEDICAL SCHOOL, IT SORT OFWENT BACK INTO THAT
  • 00:13:56.583 --> 00:13:58.251
  • WENT BACK INTO THATSPIRAL, AND I END UP,
  • 00:13:58.251 --> 00:14:00.186
  • SPIRAL, AND I END UP,YEAH, ACTIN' A FOOL,
  • 00:14:00.186 --> 00:14:01.154
  • YEAH, ACTIN' A FOOL,SLEEPIN' AROUND.
  • 00:14:01.154 --> 00:14:02.355
  • SLEEPIN' AROUND.I WASN'T MARRIED TO THE
  • 00:14:02.355 --> 00:14:03.390
  • I WASN'T MARRIED TO THEGIRL I WAS WITH THAT HAD MY
  • 00:14:03.390 --> 00:14:06.259
  • GIRL I WAS WITH THAT HAD MYSON, AND I WENT DOWN THIS,
  • 00:14:06.259 --> 00:14:07.394
  • SON, AND I WENT DOWN THIS,AGAIN, DARK RABBIT HOLE
  • 00:14:07.394 --> 00:14:08.962
  • AGAIN, DARK RABBIT HOLEWHICH LED TO REALLY A
  • 00:14:08.962 --> 00:14:09.829
  • WHICH LED TO REALLY ABROKEN MOMENT, BUT THE WAY
  • 00:14:09.829 --> 00:14:11.898
  • BROKEN MOMENT, BUT THE WAYI CAME TO CHRIST, ONCE AND
  • 00:14:11.898 --> 00:14:14.501
  • I CAME TO CHRIST, ONCE ANDFOR ALL, I WAS IN L.A.
  • 00:14:14.501 --> 00:14:16.803
  • FOR ALL, I WAS IN L.A.WHEN I WAS A HYPE MAN FOR
  • 00:14:16.803 --> 00:14:18.438
  • WHEN I WAS A HYPE MAN FORA GUY NAMED SOULJA BOY,
  • 00:14:18.438 --> 00:14:19.739
  • A GUY NAMED SOULJA BOY,SO I ALMOST WENT, LIKE,
  • 00:14:19.739 --> 00:14:20.840
  • SO I ALMOST WENT, LIKE,AWOL FROM THE MILITARY
  • 00:14:20.840 --> 00:14:21.942
  • AWOL FROM THE MILITARYJUST SO I CAN GO PURSUE THIS--
  • 00:14:21.942 --> 00:14:22.676
  • JUST SO I CAN GO PURSUE THIS--- ERIC: YOU WERE A WHAT?
  • 00:14:22.676 --> 00:14:24.945
  • - ERIC: YOU WERE A WHAT?YOU WERE A HOT--WHAT?
  • 00:14:24.945 --> 00:14:25.845
  • YOU WERE A HOT--WHAT?- RASHAWN: A HYPE MAN.
  • 00:14:25.845 --> 00:14:28.048
  • - RASHAWN: A HYPE MAN.- ERIC: WHAT IS THAT?
  • 00:14:28.048 --> 00:14:28.515
  • - ERIC: WHAT IS THAT?- RASHAWN: BASICALLY,
  • 00:14:28.515 --> 00:14:30.917
  • - RASHAWN: BASICALLY,IT'S EMCEE.
  • 00:14:30.917 --> 00:14:32.786
  • IT'S EMCEE.IT'S LIKE A GLORIFIED HOST
  • 00:14:32.786 --> 00:14:36.556
  • IT'S LIKE A GLORIFIED HOSTAT RAP SHOWS.
  • 00:14:36.556 --> 00:14:37.958
  • AT RAP SHOWS.- ERIC: OKAY, SO YOU WERE--
  • 00:14:37.958 --> 00:14:39.359
  • - ERIC: OKAY, SO YOU WERE--SOMEHOW, YOU GOT INTO THAT.
  • 00:14:39.359 --> 00:14:40.460
  • SOMEHOW, YOU GOT INTO THAT.- RASHAWN: EXACTLY.
  • 00:14:40.460 --> 00:14:41.027
  • - RASHAWN: EXACTLY.- ERIC: AND IN THE MIDDLE
  • 00:14:41.027 --> 00:14:41.828
  • - ERIC: AND IN THE MIDDLEOF THAT, SOMEHOW GOD
  • 00:14:41.828 --> 00:14:44.197
  • OF THAT, SOMEHOW GODTACKLED YOU.
  • 00:14:44.197 --> 00:14:45.231
  • TACKLED YOU.- RASHAWN: YES, IT WAS A
  • 00:14:45.231 --> 00:14:46.566
  • - RASHAWN: YES, IT WAS ACRAZY JOURNEY.
  • 00:14:46.566 --> 00:14:48.234
  • CRAZY JOURNEY.I WAS SO EVERYWHERE WITH
  • 00:14:48.234 --> 00:14:49.936
  • I WAS SO EVERYWHERE WITHMY IDENTITY 'CAUSE I WAS
  • 00:14:49.936 --> 00:14:51.604
  • MY IDENTITY 'CAUSE I WASWEARING THIS-- I WAS
  • 00:14:51.604 --> 00:14:53.073
  • WEARING THIS-- I WASWEARING PROUDLY THIS
  • 00:14:53.073 --> 00:14:54.841
  • WEARING PROUDLY THISAMERICAN U.S. ARMY UNIFORM,
  • 00:14:54.841 --> 00:14:56.676
  • AMERICAN U.S. ARMY UNIFORM,HAD, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:14:56.676 --> 00:14:59.079
  • HAD, YOU KNOW,MY LITTLE OFFICER RANK.
  • 00:14:59.079 --> 00:14:59.612
  • MY LITTLE OFFICER RANK.I WAS PROUD OF EVERYTHING.
  • 00:14:59.612 --> 00:15:02.415
  • I WAS PROUD OF EVERYTHING.I WAS MAKIN' MY DAD, YOU
  • 00:15:02.415 --> 00:15:03.383
  • I WAS MAKIN' MY DAD, YOUKNOW, HAPPY.
  • 00:15:03.383 --> 00:15:04.217
  • KNOW, HAPPY.THERE WAS THIS GLORIOUS
  • 00:15:04.217 --> 00:15:05.018
  • THERE WAS THIS GLORIOUSSIDE OF RASHAWN, AND THEN
  • 00:15:05.018 --> 00:15:05.518
  • SIDE OF RASHAWN, AND THENTHERE WAS THIS DARK SIDE
  • 00:15:05.518 --> 00:15:06.453
  • THERE WAS THIS DARK SIDETHAT I WAS HIDIN' IN THE
  • 00:15:06.453 --> 00:15:08.888
  • THAT I WAS HIDIN' IN THESHADOWS OF MY OWN LUST
  • 00:15:08.888 --> 00:15:11.291
  • SHADOWS OF MY OWN LUSTAND MY OWN, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:15:11.291 --> 00:15:11.825
  • AND MY OWN, YOU KNOW,DESIRES THAT WAS REALLY,
  • 00:15:11.825 --> 00:15:12.792
  • DESIRES THAT WAS REALLY,REALLY DARK, AND THEN THAT
  • 00:15:12.792 --> 00:15:15.795
  • REALLY DARK, AND THEN THATSIDE WON OVER.
  • 00:15:15.795 --> 00:15:16.296
  • SIDE WON OVER.YOU KNOW, I SEEN MY
  • 00:15:16.296 --> 00:15:17.831
  • YOU KNOW, I SEEN MYCOUSIN.
  • 00:15:17.831 --> 00:15:18.431
  • COUSIN.HE WAS OUT IN L.A.
  • 00:15:18.431 --> 00:15:19.566
  • HE WAS OUT IN L.A.HE WAS WORKIN' WITH PEOPLE
  • 00:15:19.566 --> 00:15:21.001
  • HE WAS WORKIN' WITH PEOPLELIKE ZAC EFRON.
  • 00:15:21.001 --> 00:15:22.202
  • LIKE ZAC EFRON.HE WAS THE ONLY BLACK GUY
  • 00:15:22.202 --> 00:15:23.069
  • HE WAS THE ONLY BLACK GUYIN THE MOVIE "AMERICAN PIE."
  • 00:15:23.069 --> 00:15:24.537
  • IN THE MOVIE "AMERICAN PIE."I WAS LIKE, "LET ME
  • 00:15:24.537 --> 00:15:25.271
  • I WAS LIKE, "LET MEGO OUT THERE AND PURSUE
  • 00:15:25.271 --> 00:15:26.873
  • GO OUT THERE AND PURSUETHAT DREAM THAT MY COUSIN
  • 00:15:26.873 --> 00:15:31.878
  • THAT DREAM THAT MY COUSINIS DOIN' 'CAUSE,
  • 00:15:31.878 --> 00:15:32.812
  • IS DOIN' 'CAUSE,YOU KNOW, COMPARISON AND
  • 00:15:32.812 --> 00:15:33.313
  • YOU KNOW, COMPARISON ANDENVY, YOU KNOW, REALLY
  • 00:15:33.313 --> 00:15:34.114
  • ENVY, YOU KNOW, REALLYDROVE ME THERE TO GO, SORT OF,
  • 00:15:34.114 --> 00:15:35.415
  • DROVE ME THERE TO GO, SORT OF,COMPETE, MAYBE EVEN A
  • 00:15:35.415 --> 00:15:36.349
  • COMPETE, MAYBE EVEN ALITTLE DISCONTENTMENT,
  • 00:15:36.349 --> 00:15:37.283
  • LITTLE DISCONTENTMENT,AND I GET OUT THERE WITH HIM.
  • 00:15:37.283 --> 00:15:39.219
  • AND I GET OUT THERE WITH HIM.AND, AT THAT POINT,
  • 00:15:39.219 --> 00:15:40.220
  • AND, AT THAT POINT,I'M LITERALLY JUST TRYING TO
  • 00:15:40.220 --> 00:15:41.855
  • I'M LITERALLY JUST TRYING TOCLIMB THE LADDER OF, YEAH,
  • 00:15:41.855 --> 00:15:46.960
  • CLIMB THE LADDER OF, YEAH,L.A./HOLLYWOOD FAME, THE
  • 00:15:46.960 --> 00:15:50.997
  • L.A./HOLLYWOOD FAME, THERIDE THAT ROCKET SHIP IN.
  • 00:15:50.997 --> 00:15:52.899
  • RIDE THAT ROCKET SHIP IN.AGAIN, IT WILL PLUMMET A
  • 00:15:52.899 --> 00:15:53.400
  • AGAIN, IT WILL PLUMMET ALITTLE BIT LATER, BUT,
  • 00:15:53.400 --> 00:15:53.933
  • LITTLE BIT LATER, BUT,YEAH, IT WAS JUST A TOUGH
  • 00:15:53.933 --> 00:15:54.434
  • YEAH, IT WAS JUST A TOUGHTIME FOR ME TRYING TO
  • 00:15:54.434 --> 00:15:55.301
  • TIME FOR ME TRYING TOFIGURE OUT MY IDENTITY
  • 00:15:55.301 --> 00:15:56.569
  • FIGURE OUT MY IDENTITY'CAUSE IT WAS EVERYWHERE.
  • 00:15:56.569 --> 00:15:57.904
  • 'CAUSE IT WAS EVERYWHERE.- ERIC: AND WHEN DID YOU
  • 00:15:57.904 --> 00:15:59.339
  • - ERIC: AND WHEN DID YOUBUMP INTO GOD FOR SURE?
  • 00:15:59.339 --> 00:16:00.907
  • BUMP INTO GOD FOR SURE?- RASHAWN: SO HERE'S THAT
  • 00:16:00.907 --> 00:16:03.176
  • - RASHAWN: SO HERE'S THATMOMENT WHERE I WAS AT MY
  • 00:16:03.176 --> 00:16:04.377
  • MOMENT WHERE I WAS AT MYDARK POINT.
  • 00:16:04.377 --> 00:16:07.313
  • DARK POINT.SO I WAS IN THIS HOME IN
  • 00:16:07.313 --> 00:16:09.616
  • SO I WAS IN THIS HOME INL.A.
  • 00:16:09.616 --> 00:16:10.617
  • L.A.YOU KNOW, THINGS WERE
  • 00:16:10.617 --> 00:16:11.684
  • YOU KNOW, THINGS WEREGREAT ON THE OUTSIDE,
  • 00:16:11.684 --> 00:16:13.353
  • GREAT ON THE OUTSIDE,BUT DESPITE THE SUCCESS ON THE
  • 00:16:13.353 --> 00:16:14.154
  • BUT DESPITE THE SUCCESS ON THEOUTSIDE, I WAS MISERABLE.
  • 00:16:14.154 --> 00:16:16.956
  • OUTSIDE, I WAS MISERABLE.AND, ONE NIGHT, I WAS
  • 00:16:16.956 --> 00:16:18.658
  • AND, ONE NIGHT, I WASGONNA TAKE MY LIFE.
  • 00:16:18.658 --> 00:16:19.225
  • GONNA TAKE MY LIFE.SO I GO DOWN THE HALL.
  • 00:16:19.225 --> 00:16:21.161
  • SO I GO DOWN THE HALL.I OPEN UP THE LOCKER WHERE
  • 00:16:21.161 --> 00:16:22.896
  • I OPEN UP THE LOCKER WHERETHE PISTOL WAS, AND I WAS
  • 00:16:22.896 --> 00:16:24.030
  • THE PISTOL WAS, AND I WASLIKE, "I'M JUST DONE WITH IT."
  • 00:16:24.030 --> 00:16:24.798
  • LIKE, "I'M JUST DONE WITH IT."YOU KNOW, "THERE'S
  • 00:16:24.798 --> 00:16:25.899
  • YOU KNOW, "THERE'SNO HOPE BEYOND THIS."
  • 00:16:25.899 --> 00:16:26.533
  • NO HOPE BEYOND THIS."- ERIC: YOU WERE GONNA TAKE
  • 00:16:26.533 --> 00:16:28.735
  • - ERIC: YOU WERE GONNA TAKEYOUR LIFE?
  • 00:16:28.735 --> 00:16:29.602
  • YOUR LIFE?- RASHAWN: YEAH, YEAH.
  • 00:16:29.602 --> 00:16:30.470
  • - RASHAWN: YEAH, YEAH.- ERIC: SO YOU'RE TELLING
  • 00:16:30.470 --> 00:16:31.438
  • - ERIC: SO YOU'RE TELLINGME THAT ALL THIS STUFF
  • 00:16:31.438 --> 00:16:32.305
  • ME THAT ALL THIS STUFFGOES ON AND ON, AND YOU GO
  • 00:16:32.305 --> 00:16:32.872
  • GOES ON AND ON, AND YOU GOFROM HERE TO THERE, HERE
  • 00:16:32.872 --> 00:16:33.807
  • FROM HERE TO THERE, HERETO THERE, AND NOW YOU
  • 00:16:33.807 --> 00:16:34.407
  • TO THERE, AND NOW YOUCOME-- THINGS GET SO BAD--
  • 00:16:34.407 --> 00:16:35.375
  • COME-- THINGS GET SO BAD--- RASHAWN: YEAH.
  • 00:16:35.375 --> 00:16:36.643
  • - RASHAWN: YEAH.- ERIC: -- THAT YOU'RE
  • 00:16:36.643 --> 00:16:38.812
  • - ERIC: -- THAT YOU'REGONNA TAKE YOUR LIFE?
  • 00:16:38.812 --> 00:16:39.612
  • GONNA TAKE YOUR LIFE?HOW OLD WERE YOU AT THAT
  • 00:16:39.612 --> 00:16:41.481
  • HOW OLD WERE YOU AT THATTIME, RASHAWN?
  • 00:16:41.481 --> 00:16:42.415
  • TIME, RASHAWN?> RASHAWN: I WAS EXACTLY
  • 00:16:42.415 --> 00:16:44.317
  • > RASHAWN: I WAS EXACTLY25 YEARS OLD AT THAT TIME,
  • 00:16:44.317 --> 00:16:45.752
  • 25 YEARS OLD AT THAT TIME,SO IT WAS LESS THAN A
  • 00:16:45.752 --> 00:16:47.720
  • SO IT WAS LESS THAN ADECADE AGO AND--
  • 00:16:47.720 --> 00:16:48.321
  • DECADE AGO AND--- ERIC: AND WHY WERE
  • 00:16:48.321 --> 00:16:50.123
  • - ERIC: AND WHY WERETHINGS SO BAD THAT YOU
  • 00:16:50.123 --> 00:16:53.126
  • THINGS SO BAD THAT YOUWERE GOING TO KILL YOURSELF?
  • 00:16:53.126 --> 00:16:54.027
  • WERE GOING TO KILL YOURSELF?- RASHAWN: HERE'S THE
  • 00:16:54.027 --> 00:16:54.928
  • - RASHAWN: HERE'S THETHING, WHAT I'VE LEARNED
  • 00:16:54.928 --> 00:16:55.662
  • THING, WHAT I'VE LEARNEDMORE AND MORE.
  • 00:16:55.662 --> 00:16:57.030
  • MORE AND MORE.LIKE, SIN PROMISED ME
  • 00:16:57.030 --> 00:16:58.865
  • LIKE, SIN PROMISED MEFREEDOM, BUT IT DIDN'T--
  • 00:16:58.865 --> 00:17:00.400
  • FREEDOM, BUT IT DIDN'T--NEVER DELIVERED ON IT.
  • 00:17:00.400 --> 00:17:02.001
  • NEVER DELIVERED ON IT.IT PROMISED ME FUN,
  • 00:17:02.001 --> 00:17:03.570
  • IT PROMISED ME FUN,BUT IT WAS UTTERLY EMPTY.
  • 00:17:03.570 --> 00:17:04.404
  • BUT IT WAS UTTERLY EMPTY.IT PROMISED ME ALL THIS
  • 00:17:04.404 --> 00:17:05.305
  • IT PROMISED ME ALL THISSTUFF, BUT, LITERALLY,
  • 00:17:05.305 --> 00:17:06.573
  • STUFF, BUT, LITERALLY,IT KILLED MY PEACE.
  • 00:17:06.573 --> 00:17:08.541
  • IT KILLED MY PEACE.IT STOLE MY JOY, AND IT
  • 00:17:08.541 --> 00:17:10.977
  • IT STOLE MY JOY, AND ITSUFFOCATED MY SANITY.
  • 00:17:10.977 --> 00:17:12.479
  • SUFFOCATED MY SANITY.AND, AT THAT POINT,
  • 00:17:12.479 --> 00:17:13.279
  • AND, AT THAT POINT,I WAS LIKE, "WHY?
  • 00:17:13.279 --> 00:17:14.047
  • I WAS LIKE, "WHY?WHY AM I HERE?"
  • 00:17:14.047 --> 00:17:15.448
  • WHY AM I HERE?"LIKE IF THIS WASN'T A HOT
  • 00:17:15.448 --> 00:17:16.216
  • LIKE IF THIS WASN'T A HOTPURSUIT, I DID EVERYTHING
  • 00:17:16.216 --> 00:17:18.051
  • PURSUIT, I DID EVERYTHINGI COULD.
  • 00:17:18.051 --> 00:17:19.319
  • I COULD.SO I'M IN THE ROOM.
  • 00:17:19.319 --> 00:17:20.620
  • SO I'M IN THE ROOM.I FINALLY GET BACK TO THE
  • 00:17:20.620 --> 00:17:21.921
  • I FINALLY GET BACK TO THEROOM, WHICH IT FELT LIKE
  • 00:17:21.921 --> 00:17:22.922
  • ROOM, WHICH IT FELT LIKEAN ETERNITY, WALKIN' DOWN
  • 00:17:22.922 --> 00:17:23.523
  • AN ETERNITY, WALKIN' DOWNTHAT HALLWAY.
  • 00:17:23.523 --> 00:17:25.258
  • THAT HALLWAY.AND I GET ON MY KNEES, AND
  • 00:17:25.258 --> 00:17:27.660
  • AND I GET ON MY KNEES, ANDI'M SHAKIN',
  • 00:17:27.660 --> 00:17:28.595
  • I'M SHAKIN',AND I'M PUTTIN' THE GUN IN
  • 00:17:28.595 --> 00:17:29.362
  • AND I'M PUTTIN' THE GUN INMY MOUTH, THE PISTOL IN MY
  • 00:17:29.362 --> 00:17:30.363
  • MY MOUTH, THE PISTOL IN MYMOUTH, AND I'M TAKIN' IT
  • 00:17:30.363 --> 00:17:31.698
  • MOUTH, AND I'M TAKIN' ITOUT, AND I'M QUESTIONING.
  • 00:17:31.698 --> 00:17:32.966
  • OUT, AND I'M QUESTIONING.I'M PICKIN' IT BACK UP AND
  • 00:17:32.966 --> 00:17:34.134
  • I'M PICKIN' IT BACK UP ANDPUTTIN' IT INTO MY MOUTH,
  • 00:17:34.134 --> 00:17:34.901
  • PUTTIN' IT INTO MY MOUTH,AND I'M SHAKIN', AND I'M
  • 00:17:34.901 --> 00:17:36.836
  • AND I'M SHAKIN', AND I'MTAKIN' IT BACK OUT.
  • 00:17:36.836 --> 00:17:37.737
  • TAKIN' IT BACK OUT.AND I'M THINKIN' OF SO
  • 00:17:37.737 --> 00:17:38.505
  • AND I'M THINKIN' OF SOMANY DIFFERENT THINGS.
  • 00:17:38.505 --> 00:17:39.339
  • MANY DIFFERENT THINGS.THE FIRST THING I THOUGHT
  • 00:17:39.339 --> 00:17:40.840
  • THE FIRST THING I THOUGHTOF WHEN THE PISTOL WAS IN
  • 00:17:40.840 --> 00:17:42.175
  • OF WHEN THE PISTOL WAS INMY MOUTH, THE VERY FIRST
  • 00:17:42.175 --> 00:17:44.043
  • MY MOUTH, THE VERY FIRSTTHING I THOUGHT OF IS, ONE,
  • 00:17:44.043 --> 00:17:44.577
  • THING I THOUGHT OF IS, ONE,"IF I WERE TO TAKE MY
  • 00:17:44.577 --> 00:17:45.745
  • "IF I WERE TO TAKE MYLIFE RIGHT NOW AND DIE, IF
  • 00:17:45.745 --> 00:17:49.082
  • LIFE RIGHT NOW AND DIE, IFI WERE TO DIE, I'M GONNA
  • 00:17:49.082 --> 00:17:50.517
  • I WERE TO DIE, I'M GONNAHAVE TO MEET NOT ONLY THIS
  • 00:17:50.517 --> 00:17:51.751
  • HAVE TO MEET NOT ONLY THISOMNIPOTENT, OMNISCIENT,
  • 00:17:51.751 --> 00:17:52.719
  • OMNIPOTENT, OMNISCIENT,ALL-KNOWING, ALL-SEEING
  • 00:17:52.719 --> 00:17:55.188
  • ALL-KNOWING, ALL-SEEINGGOD, WHO IS SO LOVING,
  • 00:17:55.188 --> 00:17:56.289
  • GOD, WHO IS SO LOVING,BUT I'M GONNA HAVE TO MEET
  • 00:17:56.289 --> 00:17:57.223
  • BUT I'M GONNA HAVE TO MEETTHIS JUDGE, THE ONE WHO
  • 00:17:57.223 --> 00:17:58.725
  • THIS JUDGE, THE ONE WHOCREATED ME.
  • 00:17:58.725 --> 00:17:59.692
  • CREATED ME.I'M GONNA HAVE TO STAND
  • 00:17:59.692 --> 00:18:00.126
  • I'M GONNA HAVE TO STANDBEFORE HIM.
  • 00:18:00.126 --> 00:18:01.427
  • BEFORE HIM.BUT, NUMBER TWO, IF I WERE
  • 00:18:01.427 --> 00:18:02.962
  • BUT, NUMBER TWO, IF I WERETO TAKE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW
  • 00:18:02.962 --> 00:18:05.198
  • TO TAKE MY LIFE RIGHT NOWAND LIVE,
  • 00:18:05.198 --> 00:18:06.232
  • AND LIVE,I'M GOING TO HAVE TO GO
  • 00:18:06.232 --> 00:18:07.734
  • I'M GOING TO HAVE TO GOTHROUGH THAT SAME PAIN
  • 00:18:07.734 --> 00:18:08.935
  • THROUGH THAT SAME PAINTHAT I WENT THROUGH AS A
  • 00:18:08.935 --> 00:18:10.303
  • THAT I WENT THROUGH AS A17-YEAR-OLD BOY, SITTIN'
  • 00:18:10.303 --> 00:18:12.105
  • 17-YEAR-OLD BOY, SITTIN'OUT ON THAT PARKIN' LOT
  • 00:18:12.105 --> 00:18:13.473
  • OUT ON THAT PARKIN' LOTTHAT COLD NIGHT WITH THAT
  • 00:18:13.473 --> 00:18:15.341
  • THAT COLD NIGHT WITH THATWARM BLOOD GOIN' DOWN MY
  • 00:18:15.341 --> 00:18:15.942
  • WARM BLOOD GOIN' DOWN MYBACK, AND I DON'T WANNA GO
  • 00:18:15.942 --> 00:18:18.645
  • BACK, AND I DON'T WANNA GOTHROUGH THAT PAIN NO MORE.
  • 00:18:18.645 --> 00:18:19.579
  • THROUGH THAT PAIN NO MORE.I KNOW THE HAVOC THAT THE
  • 00:18:19.579 --> 00:18:22.348
  • I KNOW THE HAVOC THAT THEBULLET DOES TO A HUMAN BODY,
  • 00:18:22.348 --> 00:18:22.949
  • BULLET DOES TO A HUMAN BODY,I DON'T WANNA GO
  • 00:18:22.949 --> 00:18:26.486
  • I DON'T WANNA GOTHROUGH THAT AGAIN.
  • 00:18:26.486 --> 00:18:27.086
  • THROUGH THAT AGAIN.SO I'M LIKE, "GOD, SHOW UP."
  • 00:18:27.086 --> 00:18:27.687
  • SO I'M LIKE, "GOD, SHOW UP."LIKE, "MEET ME WHERE I AM."
  • 00:18:27.687 --> 00:18:28.922
  • LIKE, "MEET ME WHERE I AM."LIKE, THAT'S ESSENTIALLY
  • 00:18:28.922 --> 00:18:29.589
  • LIKE, THAT'S ESSENTIALLYWHAT I WAS SAYIN'.
  • 00:18:29.589 --> 00:18:30.723
  • WHAT I WAS SAYIN'."I NEED YOU.
  • 00:18:30.723 --> 00:18:32.225
  • "I NEED YOU.IF YOU'RE REAL, PLEASE
  • 00:18:32.225 --> 00:18:33.059
  • IF YOU'RE REAL, PLEASESHOW ME AND REVEAL
  • 00:18:33.059 --> 00:18:34.327
  • SHOW ME AND REVEALYOURSELF TO ME."
  • 00:18:34.327 --> 00:18:35.762
  • YOURSELF TO ME."AND THEN, OUT OF NOWHERE,
  • 00:18:35.762 --> 00:18:37.463
  • AND THEN, OUT OF NOWHERE,BROTHER, MY PHONE LIGHTS
  • 00:18:37.463 --> 00:18:39.032
  • BROTHER, MY PHONE LIGHTSUP OUT OF NOWHERE, AND THE
  • 00:18:39.032 --> 00:18:40.800
  • UP OUT OF NOWHERE, AND THEONLY CHRISTIAN GIRL I WAS
  • 00:18:40.800 --> 00:18:42.202
  • ONLY CHRISTIAN GIRL I WASFOLLOWING THAT WENT TO
  • 00:18:42.202 --> 00:18:43.970
  • FOLLOWING THAT WENT TOBAYLOR UNIVERSITY HAD
  • 00:18:43.970 --> 00:18:44.637
  • BAYLOR UNIVERSITY HADJUST, YOU KNOW, WROTE ME A
  • 00:18:44.637 --> 00:18:46.039
  • JUST, YOU KNOW, WROTE ME AMESSAGE.
  • 00:18:46.039 --> 00:18:48.107
  • MESSAGE.WELL, SHE SENT A POST, AND
  • 00:18:48.107 --> 00:18:50.043
  • WELL, SHE SENT A POST, ANDIT SAID THIS AS I OPEN IT
  • 00:18:50.043 --> 00:18:52.178
  • IT SAID THIS AS I OPEN ITUP: "OH, HOW WIDE, HOW
  • 00:18:52.178 --> 00:18:54.480
  • UP: "OH, HOW WIDE, HOWDEEP, HOW VAST THE LOVE OF
  • 00:18:54.480 --> 00:18:56.316
  • DEEP, HOW VAST THE LOVE OFGOD IS, AND NOTHING IN ALL
  • 00:18:56.316 --> 00:18:58.351
  • GOD IS, AND NOTHING IN ALLCREATION CAN SEPARATE US
  • 00:18:58.351 --> 00:18:59.586
  • CREATION CAN SEPARATE USFROM THIS LOVE THAT'S
  • 00:18:59.586 --> 00:19:00.887
  • FROM THIS LOVE THAT'SFOUND IN CHRIST JESUS."
  • 00:19:00.887 --> 00:19:02.155
  • FOUND IN CHRIST JESUS."AND AS I WAS READING IT,
  • 00:19:02.155 --> 00:19:03.223
  • AND AS I WAS READING IT,ERIC, AND READING IT,
  • 00:19:03.223 --> 00:19:04.924
  • ERIC, AND READING IT,I BEGAN WEEPIN' AND WEEPIN'.
  • 00:19:04.924 --> 00:19:06.092
  • I BEGAN WEEPIN' AND WEEPIN'.FOR THE FIRST TIME,
  • 00:19:06.092 --> 00:19:07.460
  • FOR THE FIRST TIME,I UNLOAD MY HEAVY SOUL TO
  • 00:19:07.460 --> 00:19:09.562
  • I UNLOAD MY HEAVY SOUL TOTHE GOD WHO KNEW ME AND
  • 00:19:09.562 --> 00:19:12.131
  • THE GOD WHO KNEW ME ANDKNOWS ME, AND HE MET ME
  • 00:19:12.131 --> 00:19:13.399
  • KNOWS ME, AND HE MET METHERE, BRO, AND I FELT HIS
  • 00:19:13.399 --> 00:19:15.001
  • THERE, BRO, AND I FELT HISPRESENCE, AND THERE WAS SO
  • 00:19:15.001 --> 00:19:16.369
  • PRESENCE, AND THERE WAS SOMUCH MORE THAN HAPPENED
  • 00:19:16.369 --> 00:19:17.537
  • MUCH MORE THAN HAPPENEDTHAT SAME NIGHT, AFTER
  • 00:19:17.537 --> 00:19:18.605
  • THAT SAME NIGHT, AFTERTHAT, WHERE I WAS JUST,
  • 00:19:18.605 --> 00:19:19.939
  • THAT, WHERE I WAS JUST,YOU KNOW, LITERALLY
  • 00:19:19.939 --> 00:19:21.374
  • YOU KNOW, LITERALLYUNLOADIN' MYSELF TO GOD
  • 00:19:21.374 --> 00:19:22.909
  • UNLOADIN' MYSELF TO GODAND HIM FILLIN' ME BACK UP.
  • 00:19:22.909 --> 00:19:24.978
  • AND HIM FILLIN' ME BACK UP.BUT IT WAS JUST AMAZIN'.
  • 00:19:24.978 --> 00:19:27.447
  • BUT IT WAS JUST AMAZIN'.I'VE GENUINELY, LIKE,
  • 00:19:27.447 --> 00:19:29.115
  • I'VE GENUINELY, LIKE,REPENTED OF ALL MY SIN AND
  • 00:19:29.115 --> 00:19:31.284
  • REPENTED OF ALL MY SIN ANDMY BROKENNESS, AND I MET HIM.
  • 00:19:31.284 --> 00:19:33.186
  • MY BROKENNESS, AND I MET HIM.YEAH, I CRIED OUT TO HIM
  • 00:19:33.186 --> 00:19:34.721
  • YEAH, I CRIED OUT TO HIMLIKE I NEVER HAVE BEFORE.
  • 00:19:34.721 --> 00:19:35.955
  • LIKE I NEVER HAVE BEFORE.- ERIC: WE'LL NEVER
  • 00:19:35.955 --> 00:19:37.223
  • - ERIC: WE'LL NEVERUNDERSTAND UNTIL WE GET TO
  • 00:19:37.223 --> 00:19:39.792
  • UNDERSTAND UNTIL WE GET TOGLORY TO ASK GOD, LIKE,
  • 00:19:39.792 --> 00:19:40.493
  • GLORY TO ASK GOD, LIKE,"WHY YOU WOULD ALLOW ME TO
  • 00:19:40.493 --> 00:19:41.961
  • "WHY YOU WOULD ALLOW ME TOGET THAT LOW THAT I HAVE A
  • 00:19:41.961 --> 00:19:42.996
  • GET THAT LOW THAT I HAVE AGUN IN MY MOUTH--"
  • 00:19:42.996 --> 00:19:47.200
  • GUN IN MY MOUTH--"AND THEN GET A MESSAGE ON YOUR
  • 00:19:47.200 --> 00:19:50.403
  • AND THEN GET A MESSAGE ON YOURPHONE THAT IS YOUR ANSWER,
  • 00:19:50.403 --> 00:19:51.938
  • PHONE THAT IS YOUR ANSWER,AND FOR SOME REASON, AT
  • 00:19:51.938 --> 00:19:53.840
  • AND FOR SOME REASON, ATTHAT MOMENT, THAT ANSWER,
  • 00:19:53.840 --> 00:19:55.908
  • THAT MOMENT, THAT ANSWER,YOU LET IT IN, AND IT
  • 00:19:55.908 --> 00:19:59.145
  • YOU LET IT IN, AND ITCHANGED YOU THAT NIGHT.
  • 00:19:59.145 --> 00:20:00.013
  • CHANGED YOU THAT NIGHT.YOU KNOW, IT WENT ALL THE
  • 00:20:00.013 --> 00:20:00.647
  • YOU KNOW, IT WENT ALL THEWAY IN.
  • 00:20:00.647 --> 00:20:01.914
  • WAY IN.I GUESS, IF YOU HADN'T
  • 00:20:01.914 --> 00:20:03.216
  • I GUESS, IF YOU HADN'TBEEN SO LOW, YOU MIGHT'VE
  • 00:20:03.216 --> 00:20:04.484
  • BEEN SO LOW, YOU MIGHT'VEBATTED IT AWAY, BUT YOU
  • 00:20:04.484 --> 00:20:05.918
  • BATTED IT AWAY, BUT YOUWERE SO LOW, LIFE AND
  • 00:20:05.918 --> 00:20:07.654
  • WERE SO LOW, LIFE ANDDEATH, AND THAT YOU LET IT
  • 00:20:07.654 --> 00:20:09.255
  • DEATH, AND THAT YOU LET ITIN, AND THAT'S LIKE--
  • 00:20:09.255 --> 00:20:10.590
  • IN, AND THAT'S LIKE--WHAT?
  • 00:20:10.590 --> 00:20:12.592
  • WHAT?EIGHT YEARS AGO,
  • 00:20:12.592 --> 00:20:13.159
  • EIGHT YEARS AGO,AND YOUR LIFE COULD NOT BE
  • 00:20:13.159 --> 00:20:13.960
  • AND YOUR LIFE COULD NOT BEMORE DIFFERENT.
  • 00:20:13.960 --> 00:20:14.894
  • MORE DIFFERENT.YOU'VE BEEN-- I MEAN, JUST
  • 00:20:14.894 --> 00:20:16.663
  • YOU'VE BEEN-- I MEAN, JUSTFOR MY AUDIENCE, TELL MY
  • 00:20:16.663 --> 00:20:18.197
  • FOR MY AUDIENCE, TELL MYAUDIENCE WHAT HAS HAPPENED
  • 00:20:18.197 --> 00:20:20.033
  • AUDIENCE WHAT HAS HAPPENEDSINCE THEN.
  • 00:20:20.033 --> 00:20:21.901
  • SINCE THEN.- RASHAWN: YOU KNOW,
  • 00:20:21.901 --> 00:20:22.402
  • - RASHAWN: YOU KNOW,GOIN' THROUGH THAT DARK
  • 00:20:22.402 --> 00:20:23.236
  • GOIN' THROUGH THAT DARKBOUT OF DEPRESSION,
  • 00:20:23.236 --> 00:20:24.070
  • BOUT OF DEPRESSION,I BEGAN WRESTLIN' WITH GOD
  • 00:20:24.070 --> 00:20:24.771
  • I BEGAN WRESTLIN' WITH GODLIKE JACOB, AND HE
  • 00:20:24.771 --> 00:20:26.906
  • LIKE JACOB, AND HEREVEALED HIMSELF TO ME
  • 00:20:26.906 --> 00:20:27.907
  • REVEALED HIMSELF TO MEEVEN IN A CLEARER WAY.
  • 00:20:27.907 --> 00:20:29.309
  • EVEN IN A CLEARER WAY.THAT MORNING, THE NEXT
  • 00:20:29.309 --> 00:20:29.809
  • THAT MORNING, THE NEXTMORNING I WOKE UP, I HAD
  • 00:20:29.809 --> 00:20:31.311
  • MORNING I WOKE UP, I HADTHIS PROMPTING TO LOOK
  • 00:20:31.311 --> 00:20:32.645
  • THIS PROMPTING TO LOOKUNDERNEATH MY BED.
  • 00:20:32.645 --> 00:20:34.113
  • UNDERNEATH MY BED.LIKE, THERE WAS SOMETHIN',
  • 00:20:34.113 --> 00:20:35.648
  • LIKE, THERE WAS SOMETHIN',YOU KNOW, THAT JUST DROVE
  • 00:20:35.648 --> 00:20:36.849
  • YOU KNOW, THAT JUST DROVEME TO LOOK UNDERNEATH MY
  • 00:20:36.849 --> 00:20:38.084
  • ME TO LOOK UNDERNEATH MYBED, AND AS I LOOK
  • 00:20:38.084 --> 00:20:39.185
  • BED, AND AS I LOOKUNDERNEATH MY BED AND I
  • 00:20:39.185 --> 00:20:40.653
  • UNDERNEATH MY BED AND IPULL OUT A SUITCASE I'VE
  • 00:20:40.653 --> 00:20:42.221
  • PULL OUT A SUITCASE I'VENEVER SEEN BEFORE IN THE
  • 00:20:42.221 --> 00:20:42.989
  • NEVER SEEN BEFORE IN THEHOUSE-- I'VE NEVER SEEN
  • 00:20:42.989 --> 00:20:44.624
  • HOUSE-- I'VE NEVER SEENTHIS SUITCASE BEFORE.
  • 00:20:44.624 --> 00:20:46.259
  • THIS SUITCASE BEFORE.AS I CRACK IT OPEN AND IT
  • 00:20:46.259 --> 00:20:47.727
  • AS I CRACK IT OPEN AND ITGOES OPEN-- IT JUST OPENS
  • 00:20:47.727 --> 00:20:49.429
  • GOES OPEN-- IT JUST OPENSUP-- AND ON THE TOP OF IT,
  • 00:20:49.429 --> 00:20:51.064
  • UP-- AND ON THE TOP OF IT,IT WAS DIRTY CLOTHES, BUT
  • 00:20:51.064 --> 00:20:52.999
  • IT WAS DIRTY CLOTHES, BUTIT WAS THIS TREASURE THAT
  • 00:20:52.999 --> 00:20:53.966
  • IT WAS THIS TREASURE THATI'LL NEVER FORGET, BUT IT
  • 00:20:53.966 --> 00:20:54.901
  • I'LL NEVER FORGET, BUT ITWAS A BOOK.
  • 00:20:54.901 --> 00:20:56.969
  • WAS A BOOK.GUESS WHAT BOOK IT WAS?
  • 00:20:56.969 --> 00:20:58.304
  • GUESS WHAT BOOK IT WAS?THE BIBLE, THE B-I-B-L-E.
  • 00:20:58.304 --> 00:21:02.375
  • THE BIBLE, THE B-I-B-L-E.THAT'S THE BOOK.
  • 00:21:02.375 --> 00:21:03.776
  • THAT'S THE BOOK.- ERIC: THE BIBLE--
  • 00:21:03.776 --> 00:21:04.477
  • - ERIC: THE BIBLE--- RASHAWN: YES, YES.
  • 00:21:04.477 --> 00:21:05.244
  • - RASHAWN: YES, YES.- ERIC: -- UNDER THE BED
  • 00:21:05.244 --> 00:21:06.012
  • - ERIC: -- UNDER THE BEDIN A SUITCASE YOU DIDN'T
  • 00:21:06.012 --> 00:21:07.347
  • IN A SUITCASE YOU DIDN'TKNOW WAS THERE?
  • 00:21:07.347 --> 00:21:08.348
  • KNOW WAS THERE?- RASHAWN: EXACTLY, AND
  • 00:21:08.348 --> 00:21:11.918
  • - RASHAWN: EXACTLY, ANDWHEN I CRACK IT OPEN, ERIC,
  • 00:21:11.918 --> 00:21:13.019
  • WHEN I CRACK IT OPEN, ERIC,I GO OVER TO THE RED LETTERS.
  • 00:21:13.019 --> 00:21:13.786
  • I GO OVER TO THE RED LETTERS.THAT WAS THE FIRST THING
  • 00:21:13.786 --> 00:21:15.521
  • THAT WAS THE FIRST THINGTHAT STUCK OUT, RIGHT?
  • 00:21:15.521 --> 00:21:16.155
  • THAT STUCK OUT, RIGHT?AND AS I GO OVER TO THE
  • 00:21:16.155 --> 00:21:17.357
  • AND AS I GO OVER TO THERED LETTERS, I READ THESE
  • 00:21:17.357 --> 00:21:18.591
  • RED LETTERS, I READ THESEWORDS, AND IT HIT ME
  • 00:21:18.591 --> 00:21:20.226
  • WORDS, AND IT HIT MEHEAD-ON LIKE A SEMITRUCK.
  • 00:21:20.226 --> 00:21:22.428
  • HEAD-ON LIKE A SEMITRUCK.IT SAID THIS: "HE THAT
  • 00:21:22.428 --> 00:21:23.663
  • IT SAID THIS: "HE THATWANTS TO KEEP HIS LIFE
  • 00:21:23.663 --> 00:21:24.831
  • WANTS TO KEEP HIS LIFEMUST LOSE IT, BUT HE THAT
  • 00:21:24.831 --> 00:21:27.166
  • MUST LOSE IT, BUT HE THATLOSES HIS LIFE FOR MY
  • 00:21:27.166 --> 00:21:29.969
  • LOSES HIS LIFE FOR MYNAME'S SAKE SHALL GAIN IT."
  • 00:21:29.969 --> 00:21:30.403
  • NAME'S SAKE SHALL GAIN IT."AND THEN IT WENT OFF
  • 00:21:30.403 --> 00:21:31.404
  • AND THEN IT WENT OFFTO SAY THIS, AND I WAS LIKE--
  • 00:21:31.404 --> 00:21:32.038
  • TO SAY THIS, AND I WAS LIKE--[GASPS]
  • 00:21:32.038 --> 00:21:33.272
  • [GASPS]IT STOPPED ME RIGHT IN MY
  • 00:21:33.272 --> 00:21:34.574
  • IT STOPPED ME RIGHT IN MYTRACKS, BUT IT SAID, "WHAT
  • 00:21:34.574 --> 00:21:36.275
  • TRACKS, BUT IT SAID, "WHATDOES IT PROFIT A MAN TO
  • 00:21:36.275 --> 00:21:37.777
  • DOES IT PROFIT A MAN TOGAIN THE WHOLE WORLD, BUT,
  • 00:21:37.777 --> 00:21:41.581
  • GAIN THE WHOLE WORLD, BUT,YET LOSE HIS SOUL?"
  • 00:21:41.581 --> 00:21:42.148
  • YET LOSE HIS SOUL?"IT NEVER STUCK OUT TO ME,
  • 00:21:42.148 --> 00:21:44.150
  • IT NEVER STUCK OUT TO ME,YOU KNOW, MY FRAILTY, MY
  • 00:21:44.150 --> 00:21:45.885
  • YOU KNOW, MY FRAILTY, MYBROKENNESS, MY NEED FOR
  • 00:21:45.885 --> 00:21:47.787
  • BROKENNESS, MY NEED FORGOD, AS MUCH AS IT DID IN
  • 00:21:47.787 --> 00:21:48.621
  • GOD, AS MUCH AS IT DID INTHAT MOMENT, AND I
  • 00:21:48.621 --> 00:21:50.790
  • THAT MOMENT, AND ILITERALLY LEFT EVERYTHING,
  • 00:21:50.790 --> 00:21:52.024
  • LITERALLY LEFT EVERYTHING,ERIC, AND I JUMPED ON THE
  • 00:21:52.024 --> 00:21:53.760
  • ERIC, AND I JUMPED ON THEGREYHOUND BUS, STOLE THAT
  • 00:21:53.760 --> 00:21:54.994
  • GREYHOUND BUS, STOLE THATBIBLE-- MATTER OF FACT,
  • 00:21:54.994 --> 00:21:57.997
  • BIBLE-- MATTER OF FACT,THE BIBLE'S THE NUMBER
  • 00:21:57.997 --> 00:21:58.731
  • THE BIBLE'S THE NUMBERONE STOLEN BOOK IN THE
  • 00:21:58.731 --> 00:21:59.465
  • ONE STOLEN BOOK IN THEWORLD.
  • 00:21:59.465 --> 00:22:00.933
  • WORLD.I DON'T KNOW WHOSE BIBLE
  • 00:22:00.933 --> 00:22:01.534
  • I DON'T KNOW WHOSE BIBLEIT WAS, BUT I TOOK IT THAT
  • 00:22:01.534 --> 00:22:02.568
  • IT WAS, BUT I TOOK IT THATDAY AS I LEFT THERE, AND I
  • 00:22:02.568 --> 00:22:03.269
  • DAY AS I LEFT THERE, AND ILITERALLY FELL IN LOVE
  • 00:22:03.269 --> 00:22:04.404
  • LITERALLY FELL IN LOVEWITH THE WORD OF GOD--
  • 00:22:04.404 --> 00:22:05.571
  • WITH THE WORD OF GOD--READ IT, READ IT, READ IT
  • 00:22:05.571 --> 00:22:06.472
  • READ IT, READ IT, READ ITUNTIL IT READ ME, AND IT
  • 00:22:06.472 --> 00:22:07.974
  • UNTIL IT READ ME, AND ITCHANGED EVERYTHING, BRO.
  • 00:22:07.974 --> 00:22:09.642
  • CHANGED EVERYTHING, BRO.AND I GOT ON THE BUS-- WAS
  • 00:22:09.642 --> 00:22:11.010
  • AND I GOT ON THE BUS-- WASTHE PRODIGAL CHILD HEADED
  • 00:22:11.010 --> 00:22:12.345
  • THE PRODIGAL CHILD HEADEDBACK TO OKLAHOMA,
  • 00:22:12.345 --> 00:22:13.346
  • BACK TO OKLAHOMA,AND NOW I'M RIGHT BACK
  • 00:22:13.346 --> 00:22:14.714
  • AND NOW I'M RIGHT BACKHERE IN THE BIBLE BELT--
  • 00:22:14.714 --> 00:22:16.115
  • HERE IN THE BIBLE BELT--NEVER LOOKED BACK AND
  • 00:22:16.115 --> 00:22:17.750
  • NEVER LOOKED BACK ANDNEVER TURNED-- I WILL NOT
  • 00:22:17.750 --> 00:22:19.318
  • NEVER TURNED-- I WILL NOTTURN BACK, BUT HE MET ME
  • 00:22:19.318 --> 00:22:20.853
  • TURN BACK, BUT HE MET MEWHERE I WAS, AND HE'S
  • 00:22:20.853 --> 00:22:22.255
  • WHERE I WAS, AND HE'STAKING ME WHERE I NEED TO
  • 00:22:22.255 --> 00:22:23.423
  • TAKING ME WHERE I NEED TOBE, BRO.
  • 00:22:23.423 --> 00:22:23.956
  • BE, BRO.- ERIC: TODAY YOU ARE A
  • 00:22:23.956 --> 00:22:26.325
  • - ERIC: TODAY YOU ARE AFATHER AND A HUSBAND AND A
  • 00:22:26.325 --> 00:22:28.528
  • FATHER AND A HUSBAND AND AMINISTER.
  • 00:22:28.528 --> 00:22:32.298
  • MINISTER.WHAT DID YOU DO WHEN YOU
  • 00:22:32.298 --> 00:22:33.466
  • WHAT DID YOU DO WHEN YOUCAME BACK TO OKLAHOMA CITY,
  • 00:22:33.466 --> 00:22:35.968
  • CAME BACK TO OKLAHOMA CITY,YOU KNOW, THESE
  • 00:22:35.968 --> 00:22:36.369
  • YOU KNOW, THESEYEARS AGO NOW?
  • 00:22:36.369 --> 00:22:36.836
  • YEARS AGO NOW?WHAT DID YOU DO?
  • 00:22:36.836 --> 00:22:38.237
  • WHAT DID YOU DO?HOW DID YOU-- DID YOU GET
  • 00:22:38.237 --> 00:22:38.805
  • HOW DID YOU-- DID YOU GETINVOLVED IN MINISTRY RIGHT
  • 00:22:38.805 --> 00:22:39.572
  • INVOLVED IN MINISTRY RIGHTAWAY?
  • 00:22:39.572 --> 00:22:40.606
  • AWAY?HOW DID YOU-- WHAT HAPPENS
  • 00:22:40.606 --> 00:22:42.542
  • - RASHAWN: GOD LAUNCHED
  • 00:22:43.776 --> 00:22:44.777
  • - RASHAWN: GOD LAUNCHEDMY MINISTRY IN A COUNTY
  • 00:22:44.777 --> 00:22:45.812
  • MY MINISTRY IN A COUNTYJAIL WHERE I WILL
  • 00:22:45.812 --> 00:22:47.346
  • JAIL WHERE I WILLLITERALLY GO AND SHARE THE
  • 00:22:47.346 --> 00:22:48.548
  • LITERALLY GO AND SHARE THEGOSPEL, BUT IT TOOK MUCH
  • 00:22:48.548 --> 00:22:49.515
  • GOSPEL, BUT IT TOOK MUCHTIME BEFORE I WAS ABLE TO
  • 00:22:49.515 --> 00:22:50.683
  • TIME BEFORE I WAS ABLE TODO THAT.
  • 00:22:50.683 --> 00:22:52.251
  • DO THAT.I HAD TO GET PLANTED IN A
  • 00:22:52.251 --> 00:22:53.286
  • GET DISCIPLED, AND THEN,
  • 00:22:54.487 --> 00:22:55.755
  • GET DISCIPLED, AND THEN,FROM THAT POINT IS WHERE
  • 00:22:55.755 --> 00:22:57.390
  • FROM THAT POINT IS WHEREMY LAUNCHIN' PAD WAS IN A
  • 00:22:57.390 --> 00:22:58.791
  • MY LAUNCHIN' PAD WAS IN AOKLAHOMA COUNTY JAIL, BUT,
  • 00:22:58.791 --> 00:22:59.659
  • OKLAHOMA COUNTY JAIL, BUT,YEAH, AND THEN GOD BLESSED
  • 00:22:59.659 --> 00:23:02.462
  • YEAH, AND THEN GOD BLESSEDME WITH A BEAUTIFUL BRIDE,
  • 00:23:02.462 --> 00:23:04.096
  • ME WITH A BEAUTIFUL BRIDE,WHO I LOVE SO MUCH, AND,
  • 00:23:04.096 --> 00:23:05.932
  • WHO I LOVE SO MUCH, AND,WOO, SHE IS MY HELPER
  • 00:23:05.932 --> 00:23:07.233
  • WOO, SHE IS MY HELPEROUTSIDE THE HOLY SPIRIT,
  • 00:23:07.233 --> 00:23:08.534
  • OUTSIDE THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND I GOT THESE BEAUTIFUL,
  • 00:23:08.534 --> 00:23:11.270
  • AND I GOT THESE BEAUTIFUL,YOUNG BOYS THAT ARE
  • 00:23:11.270 --> 00:23:12.305
  • YOUNG BOYS THAT AREPOPPIN' OUT LIKE HOTCAKES
  • 00:23:12.305 --> 00:23:14.240
  • POPPIN' OUT LIKE HOTCAKESSINCE I GOT MARRIED,
  • 00:23:14.240 --> 00:23:14.740
  • SINCE I GOT MARRIED,AND JUST BEEN A
  • 00:23:14.740 --> 00:23:15.341
  • AND JUST BEEN APHENOMENAL, PHENOMENAL
  • 00:23:15.341 --> 00:23:15.875
  • PHENOMENAL, PHENOMENALJOURNEY BY THE GRACE OF
  • 00:23:15.875 --> 00:23:16.642
  • JOURNEY BY THE GRACE OFGOD, BRO.
  • 00:23:16.642 --> 00:23:17.643
  • GOD, BRO.[LAUGHTER]
  • 00:23:17.643 --> 00:23:21.180
  • [LAUGHTER]- ERIC: THAT'S SO GREAT.
  • 00:23:21.180 --> 00:23:21.647
  • - ERIC: THAT'S SO GREAT.WE'RE OUT OF TIME, BUT
  • 00:23:21.647 --> 00:23:23.716
  • WE'RE OUT OF TIME, BUTRASHAWN COPELAND,
  • 00:23:23.716 --> 00:23:25.184
  • RASHAWN COPELAND,WONDERFUL TO HEAR YOUR
  • 00:23:25.184 --> 00:23:26.352
  • WONDERFUL TO HEAR YOURSTORY, TO GET TO KNOW YOU
  • 00:23:26.352 --> 00:23:29.222
  • STORY, TO GET TO KNOW YOUA LITTLE BIT.
  • 00:23:29.222 --> 00:23:29.755
  • A LITTLE BIT.LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, THIS
  • 00:23:29.755 --> 00:23:30.323
  • LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, THISBOOK IS CALLED
  • 00:23:30.323 --> 00:23:30.823
  • BOOK IS CALLED"START WHERE YOU ARE:
  • 00:23:30.823 --> 00:23:31.858
  • "START WHERE YOU ARE:HOW GOD MEETS YOU IN YOUR MESS,
  • 00:23:31.858 --> 00:23:32.792
  • HOW GOD MEETS YOU IN YOUR MESS,LOVES YOU THROUGH IT,
  • 00:23:32.792 --> 00:23:34.927
  • LOVES YOU THROUGH IT,AND LEADS YOU OUT OF IT."
  • 00:23:34.927 --> 00:23:36.162
  • AND LEADS YOU OUT OF IT."RASHAWN, CONGRATULATIONS
  • 00:23:36.162 --> 00:23:37.096
  • RASHAWN, CONGRATULATIONSON THIS BOOK, AND GOD
  • 00:23:37.096 --> 00:23:38.397
  • ON THIS BOOK, AND GODBLESS YOU, MY BROTHER.
  • 00:23:38.397 --> 00:23:38.931
  • BLESS YOU, MY BROTHER.TO BE CONTINUED.
  • 00:23:38.931 --> 00:23:40.533
  • TO BE CONTINUED.- RASHAWN: GOD BLESS YOU,
  • 00:23:40.533 --> 00:23:41.033
  • - RASHAWN: GOD BLESS YOU,ERIC.
  • 00:23:41.033 --> 00:23:41.968
  • ERIC.THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR
  • 00:23:41.968 --> 00:23:44.437
  • [POPPING SOUND]
  • 00:23:47.907 --> 00:23:48.508
  • [POPPING SOUND]♪ WE GONNA TAKE IT ♪
  • 00:23:48.508 --> 00:23:49.509
  • ♪ WE GONNA TAKE IT ♪♪ GONNA TAKE IT ♪
  • 00:23:49.509 --> 00:23:50.476
  • ♪ GONNA TAKE IT ♪♪ GONNA TAKE IT ♪
  • 00:23:50.476 --> 00:23:55.081
  • ♪ GONNA TAKE IT ♪♪ GONNA TAKE IT TO THE TOP ♪
  • 00:23:55.081 --> 00:24:01.053
  • ♪ GONNA TAKE IT TO THE TOP ♪♪ I'M GONNA ♪
  • 00:24:01.053 --> 00:24:02.255
  • ♪ I'M GONNA ♪♪ TAKE IT TO THE TOP ♪
  • 00:24:02.255 --> 00:24:07.994
  • ♪ TAKE IT TO THE TOP ♪♪ I'M GONNA ♪
  • 00:24:07.994 --> 00:24:09.595
  • ♪ I'M GONNA ♪♪ TAKE IT TO THE TOP ♪
  • 00:24:09.595 --> 00:24:12.331
  • ♪ TAKE IT TO THE TOP ♪♪ I'M GONNA ♪
  • 00:24:12.331 --> 00:24:14.999