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I'm Not Ok

Creflo Dollar

June 9, 2019

27:30

Your World with Creflo

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I'm Not Ok

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Creflo Dollar: We've discuss over several of our recent
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programs the epidemic of depression and suicide
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amongst our teenagers.
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It feels like it's out of control.
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So many of our youth are suffering from loneliness,
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stress, and suicidal thoughts, and our guest
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today is no different.
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Since she was 14 years old, her depression had become so great
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that she would cut herself and imagine herself dead.
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She also suffered from chronic illness that caused frequent
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fainting, and she was in constant fear of being helpless
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before the bullies at school.
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One night, our guest had an idea that she could change her
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situation and maybe also help thousands of others who felt
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the same way.
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She and her younger brother developed an app that gave a
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voice to teenagers who have been suffering in silence.
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Stay tuned, you're about to meet these kids and hear their story.
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I'm Creflo Dollar and this is "Your World."
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[audience applauding]
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Changing one life time after time.
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Oh, Lord, we do it all for you.
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Through the trials I see, I'll always believe
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a new life starts with you.
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Oh, change your world today.
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Change is going to come your way.
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Change and gain an understanding.
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His grace will transform you.
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[audience applauding]
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Creflo: Our guest today found herself unable to cope with
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a recent medical diagnosis and bullies at school,
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which sent this teenager spiraling into depression
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and thoughts of suicide.
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Now, though she still suffers with depression,
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she has found a way to fight back,
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a way that may also help thousands of others who face
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the possibility of suicide.
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Please help me welcome Hannah and her younger
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brother Charles to "Your World."
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[audience applauding]
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Creflo: How have you been?
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Hey Charles, how have you been?
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Well guys, thank you so much for joining my today.
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I'm excited about this program.
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Let's set the stage, this is your world.
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It's an opportunity for you guys to take us into your world,
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and by doing so we create a weapon and we fire this weapon
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into the atmosphere.
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And this broadcast is going to go out,
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lives are going to be changed because they
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hear your testimony.
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And they're going to be changed in all kinds of wonderful ways
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because of your willingness to come and to share with us what
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you're going to share with us.
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And so, thank you very much.
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Hannah, let's start with a couple questions to kind
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of set the stage.
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Tell us about how and what was going on with your depression,
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what that was all about, and some of the things that can kind
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of give us an understanding of what you
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were going through there.
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Hannah Lucas: Well, I'm a junior in high school.
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I'm doing this app, I'm speaking everywhere with my little
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brother, who's not so little anymore, but--
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Creflo: He really isn't.
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He came out here and I'm thinking,
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"This is your little brother?"
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Hannah: Yeah.
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Yeah, when I was a freshman in high school,
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I began fainting my second week of high school.
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It became this frequent thing.
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I didn't know what was going on.
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I was bullied, I was harassed, and I was even threatened by
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boys in our school who found out that I was
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this girl who fainted.
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Creflo: So, you would get bullied for fainting.
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Nobody--I mean, to me, that's kind of--that's crazy.
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Hannah: Yeah.
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Creflo: Well, I mean, I'm trying to figure out,
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I know this is a different generation,
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but it would seem to me that that would present some type of
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concern at least for the person that's fainting.
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And you got bullied for fainting and made fun of for fainting?
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Hannah: Yeah, I became "that girl" in my school.
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It was to the point where I would just be doing my work or
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walking down the hall and I'd hear guys talking about,
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"Yeah, there's this girl who always faints in my class.
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I think she's on drugs or something."
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And I'm like, "You don't even know me.
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Like you didn't even ask, 'Are you okay?'"
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Like, I could be--I am going through something serious,
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but what came across their mind was that I
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was just stoned all the time.
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And that really frustrated me.
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Even my teachers and counselors thought I was just stoned all
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the time and not a medical problem,
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even though my mom was constantly emailing them,
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so that was fun.
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But because of all the threats I was receiving from guys in my
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class, I just--it became a world where I just lived in fear.
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Creflo: What was the--what were the threats about?
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Hannah: Well, I'm a girl and I faint,
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so the threats were things like, "You better hope I don't find
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you passed out alone somewhere or else."
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And I'm like, "Oh great."
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Creflo: What?
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Mama didn't raise them right or something.
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You know, go ahead, wow.
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Hannah: It was terrible.
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But I told my counselors, I told the principal,
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my teachers, but my counselors and teachers just essentially
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said that, "Boys will be boys."
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And I'm like, "Well, that's terrifying for me."
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Fear was my life back then.
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And it wasn't really a life to live, you know?
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I was just waking up, going through day to day motions.
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Okay, get up, go to school, try to stay awake.
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Creflo: And at this time, you had no idea medically what
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was going on with you, right?
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Hannah: No, I bounced from doctor
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to doctor, ologist to ologist basically.
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Went to the neurologist, rheumatologist,
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cardiologist several times.
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Each doctor had their own diagnosis of what was going on,
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and it didn't really match up with what
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the doctor before had said.
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Creflo: I mean, I think we can all understand,
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you know, the thoughts that weighed heavily upon your heart
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and, you know, what's going on.
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I don't know what's going on, the fear of the unknown.
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"Am I going to one day die and not come back?"
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And you know, that's rough, that's tough.
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So, does that explain maybe why you got into cutting yourself?
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What led to that?
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Hannah: Well, I went to school,
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I just heard people talking at lunch asking if they wanted to
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hang out, just walking around the mall together and just going
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to the movies and doing normal teenage things.
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But when I got home, I had to sleep.
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I had to take all the medicine, I had to go to all these
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different doctors.
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I didn't really have a normal teenage life.
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So, I tried to escape my reality.
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Before, I was a gymnast, I was used to be this strong girl who
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could handle almost everything.
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And then going from that mindset, that mental
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toughness to going to be the sick kid whose brother has
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to sacrifice his weekends and his after-school time to help
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me walk up the stairs and to basically be the second child.
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Like everything was about me, and my brother really sacrificed
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a lot for me during that time.
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Creflo: Wow. Charlie?
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Charles Lucas: Yep.
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Creflo: Okay, when you saw your sister going through all of
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this, did you really understand what was happening when you saw
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her going through all this?
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Charles: Not really.
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I just--when I saw Hannah going through all this,
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all I knew was that something was wrong.
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She wasn't happy, she--every day after she came home,
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she just looked like she was beat by a bat at school and like
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hit by 40 buses in a row.
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Yeah, you looked rough.
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I just knew that something was wrong.
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I didn't know what was wrong, I just felt helpless this entire
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time because I couldn't catch her when she passed out.
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I couldn't drive her to the doctor.
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I couldn't get her medication.
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I didn't even know what was wrong with her.
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And basically all I could do was,
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like Hannah said, sacrifice my time,
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become the second and forgotten child.
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Creflo: You know, but to be able to do that,
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I mean, you guys are obviously close.
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You can see that when you walked out here.
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It's really a powerful statement for you as a brother to,
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first of all, to even recognize that there's something going on
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with your sisters.
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Most brothers wouldn't.
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But at the same time, for you to be willing to give of whatever
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you could give of to help your sister out.
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She mentions and she talks about her depression and what she went
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through, and really you can--I don't think anybody in our
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audience or on television has any problems understanding why
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emotionally you felt like that 'cause,
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you know, I don't know what's going on with me and I'm going
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to try to find out, nobody's telling me anything.
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Did you, Charlie, experience some of the fear and a little
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anxiety as well as you saw her going through this?
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Charles: Every time Hannah passed out,
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there was just this deep fear inside of me,
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"What happens if she doesn't wake up?"
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And every time that she went to school,
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"What happens if she passes out in the bathroom again and hits
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her head and gets a concussion, or she just doesn't wake up?"
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Or something's actually wrong with her brain,
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just would completely destroy me because Hannah wouldn't be able
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to be Hannah anymore, and--
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Hannah: Oh, you care.
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Charles: Don't tell anyone.
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[audience laughing]
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Creflo: You know, and I think one of the things that you both
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make it very clear is the fact that of course
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he cares, you know?
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When did you find out in the process of all of this exactly
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what was going on and what was it that was happening with you?
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What did they discover?
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Hannah: Well, I was at volleyball practice
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one night, and I passed out.
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I woke up, they sat me up, and then I passed right out.
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We ended up going to the emergency room.
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Luckily the nurse, she told me that,
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"Hey, it's going to be fine."
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And she told me, "Actually, I think you might have POTS.
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You want to go--you might want to go research that."
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Creflo: The nurse suggested that?
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Hannah: Yes, the nurse suggested that.
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I'm like, "Wow."
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For those of you who don't know, it's POTS,
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it stands for Postural Orthostatic
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Tachycardia Syndrome.
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And basically, that just means my autonomic nervous system
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doesn't quite communicate with the rest of my body properly.
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So, for example, if I stand up too fast,
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the blood will drain from my head and from the top body parts
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and pool in my legs 'cause my veins don't get the signals to
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constrict to pump blood back up to my head.
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Creflo: Wow. You know what?
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And once you discovered this and they were able to provide
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a treatment for it, tell us how relieved you were to at least
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find out what you were dealing with.
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Hannah: It was bittersweet because it's just a ton of
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different symptoms pooled together as one,
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and they call it a syndrome.
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They don't have as much research on it as much as they do other
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diseases or syndromes or conditions or such.
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But luckily, there was a POTS specialist in Atlanta that I
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started to go see.
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But luckily, they did find a medication to put me on,
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so I'm really happy about that.
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Creflo: That's good, that's good.
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[applauding]
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Creflo: Listen, we're going to come right back,
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going to take a little break.
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And we're going to find out what Charlie did and how they both
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came together with Hannah to come up with something that
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would not only help them as a family,
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but also has the potential of helping thousands of kids and
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folks who are dealing with similar situations.
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We'll be right back.
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Creflo: Welcome back.
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You know, emotions are feelings on the inside that are caused by
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pain and pleasure, and they're designed to move you in
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a certain direction.
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Tell us about some of the deep emotional,
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and I don't hesitate when I use this word,
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trauma that you had to experience before we can see how
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your emotions moved you into an idea.
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Let's talk about that.
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Hannah: When I was being bullied really badly at school,
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it got to the point where I was just absolutely terrified
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of being alone.
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Creflo: So, the terror was mostly from the threats rather
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than being from if you were to fall out?
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It was like if I do fall out, will they carry out the threats
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they made to me?
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Hannah: Yeah, yeah.
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I mean, I went into engineering and I felt like I was prey,
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being stalked.
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I mean, I walked into class, I tried to act like nothing was
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wrong, even though everything was.
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Their eyes would just follow me.
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And that one time, I actually did pass out in
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my engineering class.
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I was so, so terrified.
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But luckily it was with a full classroom and the sub
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was right next to me, so she got everybody out of the class.
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So, that was by far one of the scariest times ever.
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Creflo: Now, let's talk about the development of this app.
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How did you and Charlie get together and come
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up with this idea?
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And you know, explain to us how the app helped you guys more and
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what it has the potential to do where others are concerned.
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Hannah: Throughout the entire timeline of all this,
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I struggled really badly with bulimia nervosa.
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And I was also self-harming a lot.
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And one night, it just--it got so bad and I think I--I think
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that day I had passed out and my mom had to come
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pick me up from school again.
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And she just looked so, so disappointed that she
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had to come get me.
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And I never wanted to hurt my mom.
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Like, I think that was the biggest thing.
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And just seeing the pain in her eyes and especially my
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brother's--the look on my brother's face when he got home
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and he had to essentially carry me upstairs to my room,
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I just had this idea, "If I'm gone,
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I'm taking all of their pain with me.
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I'm taking all of the problems that they're
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going through with me."
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So, I snuck downstairs and went in my father's medicine cabinet.
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And that night, my mom, she walked into my room that night
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and saved my life.
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And she just held me that night.
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And as she held me, I wished for nothing more than an app where I
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could just whip out my phone, tap a button,
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and instantly alert my friends and even my family members that
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I'm not okay so that they know exactly where to come find me.
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Creflo: That's a really powerful revelation to use
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technology to get some help.
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I don't think you guys understand the lives that you're
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going to be responsible for saving because you sit there,
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it was just by the grace of God that your
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mom came in the room, right?
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Hannah: Oh, it really was.
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Creflo: And had it not been God's grace coming in the room,
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you wouldn't be here talking to me right now.
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Hannah: Yeah.
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Creflo: Well, there are lots of people who
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don't know what to do.
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If they could reach out to somebody,
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I don't know, but to be able to just punch a button and
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to engage in an app and just let somebody know,
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"I need help right now," wow.
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Charlie, how does the app work?
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Charles: So, the Not Okay App,
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it's essentially a digital panic button that when you press it,
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it sends a text message to your pre-selected up
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to five closest contacts.
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These can be your friends, your family,
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your therapist, anyone that you trust to help
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you when you're not okay.
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And then when you press that button,
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it sends a text message to them, the text message says,
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"Hey, I'm not okay.
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Can you call me, text me, or come check up on me?"
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with their current GPS location and directions.
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[audience applauding]
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Creflo: Thank you.
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[audience applauding]
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Creflo: Such a simple idea to be able to use it to help
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so many people.
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Now, how did you learn about coding?
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Charles: Ooh, ever since I was like seven,
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I've been learning how to program and how to
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make apps and stuff.
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Creflo: Since you was seven? Charles: Yeah.
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Creflo: Man, I don't even know how to--I don't even
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know how to get my phone to do nothing.
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Seven?
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Charles: Yeah, I was teaching myself at seven.
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Hannah: Yeah, his nickname is Tech Support,
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guys, for a good reason.
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Charles: I don't really have a life.
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Hannah: You still don't.
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Charles: I still don't, I agree with that.
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But so I've been teaching myself on Khan Academy,
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online stuff like that.
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I only took like three classes, like physical classes.
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Basically, Hannah told me about her idea for the app,
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the first thing that I said was, "Let's go."
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Because as I mentioned earlier, I've been helpless
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this entire time.
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I couldn't do anything for her.
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And this was sort of the only thing I could actually do to
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help her because intentionally this app was only for her so
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that when she passed out, we can find her and we could know
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that she's not okay.
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Creflo: That does something to me.
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'Cause I mean, you know, whether you guys realize it or not,
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this is the love of God because of the love and concern that you
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had for your sister.
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Who would ever thought that this is something that can be
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available to the whole world?
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This is something--this is something I'm interested in.
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This is something that, you know,
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the people that I counsel, I'm thinking like,
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"You need to get this app."
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This is something that, you know,
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guys who are hooked on drugs and,
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you know, they try to call their sponsor because they're in a
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place and they're getting ready to use,
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and this app can help them to say,
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"Look, I'm at a bar right now.
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And you know, I need a--I'm going to take a drink."
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So, has the app helped to ease some of the anxiety?
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And if so, how?
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Hannah: I was tired of being that sick kid.
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I wanted an option to where I can get a little
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bit of that freedom back.
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So, that's why we created an app.
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When I was actually doing the research for the marketing and
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our target market, I realized this goes so much deeper
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than I initially thought.
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And I didn't believe in mental illness,
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which sounds so stupid for me to say knowing what I know.
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And when my brother and I actually launched the app,
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we started getting requests to do interviews and to speak and
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to share our story.
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And the more I shared my story, the more I felt like this burden
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being lifted off my chest, the more I felt unashamed and
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unapologetic for what I went through because,
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yeah, I went through it, but I went through it,
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I didn't just stay stuck.
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Creflo: You better come on now.
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[audience applauding]
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Creflo: Yeah, you better come on, I'm going to
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tear something up now.
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Oh my goodness.
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That is exactly right, though.
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A lot of times, people just don't understand that what you
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may be facing today is only dress rehearsal for what you
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might be called to for tomorrow.
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And I can see that just loud and clear.
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And I also want to believe with you for a total and complete
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supernatural healing of your physical body.
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I think now that you've gone through that and you see that
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there's a greater calling, a greater outreach that,
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well, God go ahead and heal her completely.
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Go ahead and deliver and set her free completely of it.
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And I mean, and for Charlie there,
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you know, teach hisself that on the internet,
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and I am really embarrassed with the fact that I can't--I just
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pray that y'all have like 50 million people that would become
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a part of this because it's like a sermon that you're preaching
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that can change the world.
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And I believe you're world changers because of your concern
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and love for one another that's produced something that's going
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to change the world.
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And I congratulate you, I congratulate you both.
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You know, so you know, Charlie coming up here,
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"Well, I don't really have a social life.
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I don't have friends, da da da."
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Well, you will after this broadcast.
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You just going to have to figure out what their
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motives are, you know?
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And then you--and then you might have some little girl watching
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the broadcast, talking about "Well,
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you know Charlie kind of--kind of fine.
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I like that."
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[applauding]
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Creflo: And congratulations to your mother, your parents.
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Is she here? Excellent job.
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I mean, you should be, and I know you are,
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just so proud of them.
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And I just met y'all, I'm so
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proud of y'all, I don't know what I'm gonna do.
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Praise the Lord, give them a big hand.
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Don't you appreciate our guests today?
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Awesome.
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[applauding]
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Creflo: You know, the roots of depression run so much deeper
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than many people realize.
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Too many of our youths succumb to suicidal thoughts before
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anyone even realizes there's anything wrong.
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Our guests today did something to deal with this issue head on,
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and they overcame.
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Today, I encourage you to get involved by helping our
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teenagers that God is the answer,
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letting them know that his grace is sufficient.
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And listen, that God has healing on every level already set aside
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for all of us, and he's just waiting for us to accept it.
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Listen, if there's something going on in your world and you
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need help, or if you know someone,
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a family member, a friend, someone who needs help,
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