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Episode 6

Big Daddy Weave: When the Light Comes

October 16, 2019

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Big Daddy Weave: When the Light Comes

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Jordan Fulton: I was just totally
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Jordan Fulton: I was just totally disc
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Jordan Fulton: I was just totally discon
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Jordan Fulton: I was just totally disconne
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Jordan Fulton: I was just totally disconnect
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Jordan Fulton: I was just totally disconnected
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from my wife.
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I was just emotionally dead.
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Troy Schielein: I was to the point where
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I just didn't wanna live anymore.
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I just didn't.
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Paul Lavelle: The things that had happened in combat,
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as human beings, we're never meant to do that.
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We weren't meant to kill each other like that.
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Mike Weaver: I felt like I had been somebody from the
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Bible, that there was a story about,
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like, what Jesus had done in my life,
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and that Jesus touched me, like, personally, you know?
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When the light comes, darkness runs away,
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and only what lives in the light can stay.
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When the light comes, nothin' left to hide,
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so come out of the darkness and turn on the light.
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I throw open the door.
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I fall to my knees.
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I lay down my pride.
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No secrets to keep.
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The light of your love is shining on me.
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The goodness of God is setting me free.
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When the light comes, darkness runs away,
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and only what lives in the light can stay.
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When the light comes, nothing left to hide,
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so come out of the darkness and turn on the light.
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Mike: ORW is Operation Restored Warrior,
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an incredible, incredible ministry to soldiers who
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have been wounded.
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Jay Weaver: Mike and I went out there as lifelong believers.
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The Lord just changed both of us in amazing ways.
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Like, I can't even fully unpack it still.
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Today I'm still goin' through the things the Lord
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did in those moments.
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Mike: Paul Lavelle and his guys have played such a huge
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part in the lives of the guys of Big Daddy Weave,
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especially when my brother was goin' through a really bad time.
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Man, Jesus sent them to go and get my brother
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and to invite us to go through a process of healing that,
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literally, I believe, saved his life.
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Jim Scherer: Hey, guys, hey, Mike and I were just talkin',
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and we have been talking with Paul Lavelle at Operation
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Restored Warrior, and they are having their tenth anniversary
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of ORW, coming up at the end of May,
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and they're havin' all these vets,
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all these guys who have gone through this,
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and they would love for you to play for it 'cause you've been
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through it, you two guys.
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It'd be really special. Would you be up for that?
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Jay: Heck, yeah. male: Yeah, I think so.
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male: That would be amazing.
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Brian Beihl: That would be great.
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Jim: Mike and Jay went through an experience that
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helped them so much that's basically designed for combat
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vets, but it meant so much to them that they're actually gonna
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go back and play ORW's tenth anniversary reunion,
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and that's great, but Mike would actually like the guys to go
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through something, like, that they went through
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which is pretty intense.
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Mike: It was just such a huge, huge moment
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in our lives, and then, hey, you know, even
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something cooler is that Paul said he would actually do some
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of that ministry time that Jay and I got to experience
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but with the whole group, man.
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How would that be?
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Jay: I highly encourage that, man, 'cause, dude, you know
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the dark place I was in, you know, walkin' through all kinds
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of dark days and the spirit of suicide on me.
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Went out there, man, and Jesus just put his finger on some
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spots I didn't even know existed inside of me.
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He just drew it out and made it disappear, man.
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It wasn't like there was a scar, man.
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He made it brand-new.
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Mike: Come on, dude. Jay: So I highly encourage--
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Mike: That's exactly what I was sharing with people
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when I came home, too, was it was like I felt
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like I had been somebody from the Bible that there
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was a story about, like what Jesus had done in my life.
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Like, I had been waiting in the line and that Jesus touched me,
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like, personally, you know?
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It's a game changer, dude, for real.
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Man, I would love if we can do this.
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Can we do this?
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Brian: Yeah, I'm in. Let's do it.
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Jay: You know I'm in.
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Jim: I'll speak for Jeremy. Yes, he'll do it.
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All right, I'm gon' let the man know.
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Mike: We're doin' it, we're doin' it.
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Brian: Man, hearing the guys, Mike and Jay,
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kind of talk about what it really meant for
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them was really cool.
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They went through this five-day journey of just getting kind of
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healed from those things, and it really had a significant impact
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on them, and, for me, I'm really excited to go through this and
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to just experience what this is really like.
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Jeremy Redmon: So I have a little calm in the
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storm right now.
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I have sent a couple of songs for some other guys to work
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on a little bit, and it gives me a couple days off,
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and Anna is really busy with the movie,
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and the nanny's helping her, and so I'm able to slip away for a
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few days to be with the guys, which is really awesome,
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and it's gonna be great.
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We're gonna have a couple days of goin' through
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a really cool ministry together.
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Man, I'm looking forward to seeing what the
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Lord does with this.
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Joe Shirk: The difference of seeing those guys after they've
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gone through their program was just incredible,
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so to have a small segment of that ourselves and get to
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squeeze that in personally, that's,
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like, I'm lookin' forward to that.
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I think it's gonna be awesome.
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Paul: Operation Restored Warrior, what is it?
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It's a Jesus-focused ministry that addresses the issues that
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our combat warriors are dealing with,
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and I felt like ORW came in to fill a void and to fill a gap,
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the things that had happened in combat.
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As human beings, we were never meant to do that.
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We weren't meant to kill each other like that.
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We've had an incredible percentage of men that have come
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through that got their hearts restored.
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Paul: Hey, Mike. How are ya, buddy?
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Brian: Pulling up and seeing these mountains and the guys
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comin' out to greet us, it's like, "Wow, we're here.
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We're doin' this.
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I'm walkin' in. I'm ready to go.
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Paul: My brother, a different mother, Jay dog.
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How are ya, pal?
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Jay: Doin' well. How 'bout you?
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Paul: How are you guys doin'? Good.
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Hey, guys, what's goin' on?
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male: How are ya? male: All right.
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Mike: So we show up, and we see Paul and his guys in this,
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just, picturesque, you know, backdrop.
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I'm just thinkin', "Dude, I hope the other guys are as blessed by
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this experience as Jay and I were."
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Jim: It's challenging when you come to something like this
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that was so meaningful to somebody you're close to,
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and they want you to experience just as much as they did,
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and maybe you do, maybe you don't.
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I don't really know if all of us will, or maybe we--
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Paul: Hey, it's so good to have you here.
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How was your trip?
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Jay: Good.
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Paul: Pretty good? What do you think of this place?
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male: This place is beautiful. Paul: Not bad.
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Jeremy: So I don't know what to expect from this time.
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I know that I don't always handle stress well.
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I know it affects me physically, it affects me emotionally,
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it affects my family, it affects the people around me,
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and so I think, man, I'm hopin' that,
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man, maybe that's somethin' that the Lord can deal with me in,
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in this process.
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Paul: Hey, you know, these guys have been through the
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program with us already, and I'm really lookin' forward to havin'
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you guys join us these next few days,
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so what I'd like to do is--these are my guys, part of the team.
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We'll do introductions inside, so if you'll follow
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us, we'll head in.
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Paul: So good to have ya.
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Joe: Man, gettin' to see these guys,
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I think it's gonna be really exciting what's gonna happen.
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They looked like some warriors, and they look like they've been
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through some things, and, yeah, I'm pretty excited about
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what's about to happen.
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Troy: My position is, in Operation Restored Warrior,
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I do all the processing, the phone calls,
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the gathering of the overview of the person's story,
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and once they arrive here, then I just become another member
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of the team as a facilitator.
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I retired as a first sergeant in the Marine Corps in November 30
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of 2010, and at that point in time,
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what little did I know was ahead of me was not to be a good
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transition at all for me after retiring and
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then to the civilian world.
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I was to the point where I just didn't wanna live anymore.
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I just didn't and--but, you know, what I know now is,
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to be the grace of God, I found Operation Restored Warrior,
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and I got in so--excuse me.
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And it changed my life.
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Jordan: For me, I was a 240 gunner.
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I don't think you can really prepare yourself for what you're
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gonna experience goin' through even though I felt
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like I was--I joined later.
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I was 28 when I joined.
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It can kind of take its toll on you,
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and so I think the way that you are taught to deal with it is
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just to suppress it, ignore it, push it down.
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Problem is you can only do that for so long till eventually
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starts workin' its way out in other areas,
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and so I was just totally disconnected from my wife.
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I was just emotionally dead.
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A guy that I served with in Afghanistan actually told me
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about ORW, and I was like, "Hey, man,
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can I go to this thing?"
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And he was like, "Yeah, absolutely."
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So he got me goin', so that was, I think,
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May or June of 2012 that I came through a Drop Zone, and
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he set me free in ways that I couldn't get out of myself.
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Didn't matter how much counseling,
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how much medication.
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That doesn't just make it go away,
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you know, but Jesus said to come,
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and he'll heal those places, and he did.
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Paul: Well, welcome.
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It's really good to have you guys here.
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I'd like to introduce our first facilitator as Jordan Fulton,
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and he's gonna be teaching on the heart of a warrior as well
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as an introduction into the spiritual warfare that we engage
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as warfare in the kingdom.
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Jordan?
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Mike: When Jay and I came, we came to an event called Drop
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Zone, which takes five days to go through.
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Since then, Paul and the guys have made an even more
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intensive two-day program.
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That's what we're going through right now.
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This is just chock-full of information,
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and we're just going from session to session to session.
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Jordan: If you have a broken heart,
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if there's fractures, if there's little breaks,
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if there's big breaks--
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Jay: When we went to Operation Restored Warrior,
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I went with some pretty deep wounds that I was unaware of.
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We got there, man, and, like, dude,
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Jesus literally just--it's like he poked his finger in it,
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and I was, like, "Man, that hurt."
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You know, he's like, "Yup."
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It's 'cause it's still a open wound.
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We need to do somethin' about this, you know?
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male: Most men are afraid, and many are ashamed.
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We hide behind a fake self and then pose for the world to see,
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and if somebody starts to see right through it, what do we do?
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Develop another one to cover that up.
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Next thing you know, you don't know who you are.
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The true identity of each and every one of you is this:
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You men are the son of God, you're a brother to Jesus,
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and you're a dwelling place for the Holy Spirit.
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So we're gonna do an exercise, and I'm gonna give you guys
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about an hour to go out, and you guys are gonna take a covenant
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of silence, and you're gonna answer these questions.
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First one is "Jesus, do you love me?"
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Number two is "Jesus, how have I been posing?"
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And, thirdly, "Jesus, show me what I have
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misinterpreted in my life."
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Mike: I think one of the ways that I put on this false self is
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through self-deprecating humor, and if I will make a joke about
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the way that I look or about somethin' that I'm uncomfortable
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with about myself, if I beat somebody else to the punch,
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then that really kind of--you know,
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it protects me from them getting there and actually touching
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a place that is a place that I care about very much,
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you know, and have walked in a great deal
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of pain over in my life.
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Jeremy: I hide how stressed I am, I think,
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most of the time, but I think, for me, it's just being
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able to--learning to be more open and not
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letting my identity be someone that is quiet and
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who doesn't necessarily speak up.
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Joe: The voices that I would hear is "No one else struggles
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in this way.
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You don't wanna admit that 'cause you'll be ostracized,
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you know, 'You're the only guy that has any of these issues.'"
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So it's like--and that's a lie, so,
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really, to operate more in honesty and transparency,
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that's really where the ministry is at and be
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in that journey together.
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Brian: It's kind of a cool moment when things,
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kind of, get revealed to you, and you really listen.
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You know that it's the Lord and telling me where I've kind of
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put myself in a position where--been standoffish
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as far as, like, "I'm good.
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I'm fine"--realizing like, "Mm, maybe I shouldn't do that."
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Jim: So going into this time was just seeking that space out
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of like, "What do you want me to take away from this,
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Lord, to maybe reveal something to me?"
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And then I hear birds, and I thought,
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for me, at least, the Scripture came to mind that said,
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"These sparrows are two cents for two.
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You're worth a lot more than that."
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That was the message that I took away.
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Jay: And, for me, it's just the age-old "I'm fine"--just
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a matter of just really just bein' real.
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Lord's just sayin', "Hey, your realness can also be what allows
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other people to be real, as well, and come vulnerable."
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Doesn't come natural to me, but I can tell ya this:
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with Jesus's help, we're gon' work on it.
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Paul: The reality is a pose is not the truest thing about you.
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What's the underlying piece of that,
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that forces us into these poses?
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And the underlying piece is the wound,
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and it may be multiple wounds.
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Joe: I think the idea is, you know,
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to be more honest and transparent about the scary
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parts of it and not just look like nothin' can affect you,
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nothing could get you that far gone or that deep
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or hurt you that deep.
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Paul: Here's the thing: Our freedom is so important to him
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because there are so many others that are
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depending on us, right?
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If we get set free, there's a ripple effect.
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Brian: But we really get to see,
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like, what they do for veterans and for others that come through
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the program as far as just the people that get delivered
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from crazy things that they've been going through.
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Paul: Remember, there's a message that comes
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with every wound.
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What's the message that you have lived under most of your life?
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I want you just to take about 10 or 15 minutes.
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I want you to sit down, and I want you to be as honest as you
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possibly can, and we're gonna break off into groups,
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one on one, and we're gonna pray over those wounds,
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and we're gonna invite Jesus to come in to heal 'em.
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Mike: One of the most important parts of the entire
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experience is going with one of the counselors who's there,
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and they have received training on how to walk with people back
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through areas of their life where we have been wounded
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and then make agreements with lies that the enemy wants
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to tell us about those wounds.
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Jeremy: Because of the season that I've been in,
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dealing with stress has been a really big topic for me.
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Being able to step aside with Paul,
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he struggles with the same thing.
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Being able to hear him and the way that the Lord has worked
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with him--and especially in that environment, it's so beautiful.
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You just feel the peace of the Lord while you're there,
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and that was a really welcome thing in that moment.
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Joe: I feel like it was very hand-selected by the Lord
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to put me with someone with some similarities.
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That was really cool.
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So within the first five minutes or so,
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I was smilin' a good bit just because, like,
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"Are you kiddin' me?
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You know, this is pretty much perfect."
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Brian: Been going out and really,
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kind of, havin' the time to really just,
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kind of, walk through some of the hurts and different things
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that we've gone through, going through our infertility journey.
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I don't wanna hold onto that anymore.
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Like, I wanna let go of that.
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I wanna be able to experience joy,
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and it's really cool to just walk with him and for him to
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just, kind of, pray with me in those moments.
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Jim: When I was 15, my 21-year-old brother was hit and
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killed by a drunk driver, and that still leaves some scars,
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and it did on my family, and we were able to pray
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through some of that.
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Troy was my facilitator in this, and what a huge heart.
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This is a nine-times deployed marine who's tough as nails but
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tender as anything you could ever imagine.
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Jay: It felt like he was readin' my mail, you know what I mean?
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Like, it's like, "Who told?"
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You know what I mean?
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Like, "Somebody tattled," you know,
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I mean, but he literally--he began just to speak over me and
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uncover layers like you were peelin' an onion.
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I mean, it was amazing.
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It was remarkable just to see how Jesus did it.
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I am redeemed.
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Mike: Hey, I'm Mike Weaver of Big Daddy Weave,
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and I've written a book, titled "I Am Redeemed: Learning to Live
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in Grace," in which I share how God redeemed the defeats
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in my life into victory.
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My prayer is that this book will inspire you to live freely in
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God's grace and love.
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"I Am Redeemed" is available wherever books are sold,
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or visit iamredeemedbook.com.
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I wanna personally invite you to get your copy today.
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Paul: So, guys, I'm kind of followin' up with
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what we did yesterday.
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The team and I would like to know how was that session.
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Did you see that there was somethin' new there?
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Was there somethin' that was a revelation for ya?
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I'd just like to, kind of, go around and see
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what you guys thought.
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B.B., how was the time for you?
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Brian: Oh, man, it was great just getting to really just,
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kind of, let go of some things that,
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you know, you just kind of hold onto over the years and just--
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Brian: Bein' up here in Colorado and being with the guys
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and, really, kind of, walk through some of the hurts and
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the pains that I'm going through let that kind of come out and
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not hide behind that, and that's really getting to see the Lord
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work in some pretty incredible ways.
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Brian: Like, Jesus is takin' this away,
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you know, and that it's not mine to hold onto anymore
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'cause he's takin' it.
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Yeah, he's doin' away with it.
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Paul: Listen, I stand under the authority,
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"I can break this."
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When you start to do that, then those voices and those familiar
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thoughts that keep comin', they start to get less and less.
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Jim, how was it for you?
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Jim: That was great.
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I mean, Troy and I sat together, and we--I think it was like
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looking into a new season.
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Like, we're really excited.
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Jim: All of these vets and these people that are here,
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they are full-forward.
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Everything they've got is right on the surface.
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It's such a great way to live.
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I hope that we'll take away that same transparency,
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that same drive to do exactly like they're doing.
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Jim: It is exciting.
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I mean, when you look at what the future holds,
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it's--I left very encouraged and very excited.
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Paul: Awesome, awesome. Joe?
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Joe: Yeah, bud.
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Paul: How was it for you, buddy?
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Joe: We had a great time.
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I got to spend time with Jordan, and I think it was very
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tailored, and I think the Lord was really in that.
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Holy Spirit was really linkin' us up.
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Joe: To be around that table with all those guys,
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that whole Gideon's army kind of thing,
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I felt like that's what that's like.
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You can keep choppin' it down to where you've got your select
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guys, and I felt like that's what ORW really deals
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with is the select guys.
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Joe: Tailored.
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I felt like it was very specific.
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Mike: It's cool how the Lord puts people
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together too, you know?
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'Cause you see that again and again at Drop Zone.
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You know, it's like you're finishing each other's sentences
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or whatever because the Lord has really,
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you know, brought this together.
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Paul: So, Jeremy, how was it for you?
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Jeremy: Yeah, well, we were paired up, which was awesome.
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Jeremy: You know, this time, when we were there,
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it was just the band, but when Mike and Jay went,
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they were with these other soldiers,
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and that's typically what they have there,
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these vets and these military guys who have seen so much,
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and they're just struggling, and,
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man, the work that they're doing is just unbelievable,
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seeing people set free.
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Jeremy: Because we just connected on a different level
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too of like, "Oh, wait, this is kind of fresh for both
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of us, you know, and--
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Paul: I mean, not only do we give,
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we also get, which is a great part of what we,
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yeah, we get the pleasure of doing.
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How was it for you, Jay dog?
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Jay: It was awesome.
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Jay: What a great opportunity it's been.
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They've given so much to us, yeah,
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my family, my brother, and myself, and now our band guys.
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Yeah, they're all with us, man, and so it's a real honor for us
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to get to come be with 'em on their tenth anniversary,
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you know, celebrate with 'em and maybe get to give back
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some instead of just takin'.
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[all laughing]
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Paul: Mike?
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Mike: You know, since Jay and I had been with you guys before--
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Mike: The first time Jay and I went through ORW,
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it was just a life-changing experience.
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For us to come and get a second chance at it has been
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incredible, but mainly my mind has been thinking,
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"I wonder what the guys are thinking?
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I wonder what the guys are experiencing?"
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And so, to hear the guys begin to share,
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man, that, just, that meant so much to me in that moment.
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male: And the restoration and the joy that you received.
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Mike: Yes, walking in the freedom of God, that's right.
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Paul: That's really good, Mike.
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So, gentlemen, we're just gonna, kind of,
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wind this up, and we can't wait for you to play the concert for
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the ORW alumni tonight.
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Thank you very much, guys.
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Mike: As awesome as it's been up here in the mountains and
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getting ministered to, man, we're really excited to get to
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give a gift back to ORW and say thank you by leading in a time
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of, you know, songs and worship in their tenth anniversary.
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Jeremy: I know this concert tonight is a culmination of,
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man, a lot of work that these guys have put into investing in
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people and investing in men, especially,
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and I think this would be a great celebration tonight.
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Mike: We've been talkin' about wounds in the last couple
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of days with some of our ORW brothers,
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but I was carrying around a wound inside,
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and he just began to fill up my heart and replace things that I
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hated about myself with things that he liked about me,
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so this song is who he says we are because
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of what he's done, amen.
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It seems like all I could see was the struggle,
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haunted by ghosts that lived in my past,
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bound up in shackles of all my failures,
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wonderin' how long is this gonna last.
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Then you look at this prisoner and say to me,
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"Son, stop fighting a fight that's already been won."
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And I am redeemed.
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You set me free, so I'll shake off these heavy chains,
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wipe away every stain.
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Now I'm not who I used to be 'cause I am redeemed.
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Oh, I'm redeemed.
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All my life I have been called unworthy,
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named by the voice of my shame and regret,
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but when I hear you whisper, "Child lift up your head,"
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I remember, oh, God, you're not done with me yet,
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and I am redeemed.
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You set me free, so I'll shake off these heavy chains,
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wipe away every stain.
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Now I'm not who I used to be because I don't have to be the
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old man inside of me 'cause his day is long dead and gone
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because I've got a new name, a new life,
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I'm not the same, and a hope that will carry me home,
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and I am redeemed.
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You set me free, so I'll shake off these--
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and wipe away--
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Well, I'm not who I used to be 'cause I am redeemed.
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You set me free, so I'll shake off these heavy chains,
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wipe away every stain.
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Now I'm not who I used to be.
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Oh, God, I'm not who I used to be.
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Jesus, I'm not who I used to be 'cause I am redeemed.
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Thank you, Jesus.
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Thank God, redeemed.
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[audience cheering]
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Mike: Thank you, Jesus.
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Mike: Being part of the tenth anniversary was just
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absolutely--I was just flooded with emotion.
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Joe: That was really a perfect ending to a perfect few days.
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Our lives have been changed forever,
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and we loved being a part of helping others
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get to that point of change.
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So I could rise.
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Now I'm alive.
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Mike: Hey, everybody, we're so excited to announce that our
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brand-new record, "When the Light Comes," is available now.
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We're so excited to share these songs that were birthed out of
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this last season of life.
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For more info, go to bigdaddyweave.com,
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or listen wherever you listen to music.
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God you called me out, now I'm alive.
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When the light comes, darkness runs away,
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and only what lives in the light can stay.
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When the light comes, nothin' left to hide,
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so come out of the darkness and turn on the light.
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CC by Aberdeen Captioning 1-800-688-6621 www.abercap.com
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