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Episode 5

Big Daddy Weave: When the Light Comes

October 9, 2019

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Big Daddy Weave: When the Light Comes

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Susan Weaver: I just told everyone that I felt like God
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had left me, and it's a struggle,
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and I really--I just hated him.
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Anna Redmon: It's a little overwhelming.
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Jeremy Redmon: What do you need from me?
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Because I don't, I mean--
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Anna: If I happen to go into labor next week,
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it throws everything.
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Mike Weaver: Everybody was saying all these,
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like, nice things and they're like,
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"Dude, man, that's really good."
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And--but I felt like I was sensing this disappointment even
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from them, and it wasn't really there,
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they were just checking on me.
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But oh man, I just--oh, I just crumbled.
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When the light comes, darkness runs away.
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And only what lives in the light can stay.
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When the light comes, nothing left to hide.
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So, come out of the darkness and turn on the light.
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I throw open the door, I fall to my knees.
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I lay down my pride, no secrets to keep.
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The light of your love is shining on me.
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The goodness of God is setting me free.
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When the light comes, darkness runs away,
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and only what lives in the light can stay.
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When the light comes, nothing left to hide,
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so come out of the darkness and turn on the light.
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Kandice Weaver: Weight is something that Mike has
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struggled with his whole life.
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I will always tell him, "I wish you could see yourself through
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my eyes," because the way I see him is very differently than the
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way he sees himself.
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Mike: So, it's called Big Daddy Weave.
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And there's this funny and there's this fun
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element to that.
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But it's also this other thing, or at least in the past it has
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been this other thing.
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Early on as a kid, I learned that if you make the joke that
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you're scared everybody else is going to make,
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that sort of gives you the power in the situation in a way.
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Jay Weaver: For as long as we can both remember,
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our family has struggled with weight issues.
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And everybody always ask you when you're the fat guy,
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like, "Do you, like, hate your mama and that's what--you
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got mom issues?"
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No man, I just love hotdogs, you know what I mean?
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Like straight up.
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Susan: Put your legs on?
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Jay: Yes ma'am, please, good morning.
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Susan: I remember the time that Jay first
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came back on the road.
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I worried that he wouldn't go back to that part of his life.
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And we drove up, he did, he came out on the stage.
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Just to have all our friends there watching when he walked on
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the stage, that was like so cool.
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We started on the road without feet,
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without prosthetics for a couple of months.
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He was still needing my medical limited knowledge to take care
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of his ankles.
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I would still doctor them morning and night.
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I would change bandages.
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And he was finally able to start the prosthetic journey,
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which it's not just like, "Here's your set of legs," you
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put them on and you go.
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It's a lot of going back and forth of getting them right and
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to fit right.
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So, then I went from the worry of not taking care of his legs
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properly to being his physical therapist in a way.
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Everyone sees the physical part of this,
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but they don't see the emotional part of it and the mental
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part of it.
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Like there's the day that I had the big blow up in Bible study.
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I just told everyone that I felt like God had left
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me and it's a struggle.
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And I really--I just hated him.
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I hated the situation of not being enough,
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of feeling like everything was on me.
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I really just wanted to quit everything at that moment.
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But I just needed them to know that they were praying for
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everyone nightly, but they were missing me.
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And not to be selfish and say, "Look at me and--"
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But just to--I felt like they just wanted to put a
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Band-Aid on it and just pretend that it was okay.
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I think everyone--knowing everyone was aware helped.
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Mike: Where's your lunch, dude?
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Jay: Kim's making it on the bus,
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eggs and sausage.
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Mike: Dude, eggs and sausage, that's keto.
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Jay: Keto-friendly.
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Mike: And that's actually what I'm needing like right now.
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Kandice: For the first time ever,
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the whole tour has decided to do a diet,
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if you will, together.
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And we're all doing the keto diet.
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Jay: To say that we as the Weaver brothers have been
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through every diet that is around is probably a safe bet.
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Mike: How are you--how are you doing with it, dude?
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Are you staying--
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Jay: I'm making it. I'm alive and I'm here.
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And we've done well so far, the whole family's
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trying to do it with me.
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Mike: When they first started saying it,
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I didn't know if I was in or not,
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dude, you know?
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I can remember literally as early as like in elementary
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school, you know, being on diets.
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You know, it would just--could gain weight so easily.
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And I felt like I was eating the same stuff that other people
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were eating and it--but still I'm the chunky kid, you know?
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Jay: Well, the only thing--honestly,
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the only thing that made me do it was the five band guys
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doing it together.
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Mike: Together, yeah.
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And it's even more that unity thing for everybody,
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you know what I mean?
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So, it's like we're the ones that really need it,
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but they're really supporting us in that, huh?
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I appreciate them, dude. That's good, dude.
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Jay: Me too. It's a constant battle.
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There's been great victory through seasons,
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you know, where you see weight loss.
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And then there's been times you just see it
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come right back to you.
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Mike: It's hard on the road to do this because everywhere
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somebody's got a pie that they--it's their grandma's
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favorite pie or whatever, you know?
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And we're trying to hang in there and do this.
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Susan: Here you go.
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Jay: Well, thank you. Thank you, thank you.
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Mike: That's what I'm talking about.
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Jay: Eggs and sausage and bacon.
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Mike: You get bacon and eggs and I get--I don't understand
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how--I need to--I need to talk to my wife now, right?
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Jay: That's what living right is for.
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[laughing]
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Mike: Dude, well, I'm in it if you're in it, dude.
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Jay: Yeah man, I'm in, let's do it.
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Mike: Keto away.
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Jay: Yes sir.
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Kandice: I am ready for the battle of Mike's health and his
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weight to be one that we're talking about victoriously,
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that it's a victorious announcement.
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Drew: So, I started working with Big Daddy
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Weave about five years ago.
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I do massages during the day, and then I take care of catering
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and make sure everything is out for people to follow their
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ketogenic habits.
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Slowly but surely, everybody's starting to feel a lot better
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and we're about to see some weight really come off.
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And I'm just blessed to be a part of it.
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I love these guys.
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I've known them all for 20 years.
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What's up, buddy?
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both: Drew. Drew: Hey man.
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Mike: Dude, the keto guru.
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Drew: How's it going?
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Mike: Man, dude, we're trying to keep it keto, man.
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Give us the prognosis here.
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I don't know, what do you think?
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Drew: That's very well done.
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Mike: It's happening, it's happening?
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Jay dawg, like, pulled some kung fu over here,
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and like breakfast came out of nowhere.
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Drew: Dude, where did that come from?
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Mike: So, it's sort of like manna from heaven.
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Drew: Where's mine?
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Jay: You just didn't pray quite long enough this
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morning, Drew--
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Mike: Exactly, dude. It was delivered by Emily.
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Jay: It was my wife, yeah.
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Drew: Nice.
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Are you guys cooking that up on the bus?
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Mike: Yeah.
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Drew: Dude, that's awesome.
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Jay: She is, not me.
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It wouldn't look this good if I cooked it.
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Drew: You went to the doctor, right?
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How is--how is your levels?
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What's going on with that?
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Jay: They're still--they're still high,
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but she said just give it time.
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Drew: Okay. Slow and steady wins the race.
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Mike: And that's the thing, bro.
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That's what we're appreciating about you,
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man, is that you're helping us like get in this and live in
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this, you know what I mean?
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Drew: I'm actually selfish ambition, this is how I eat.
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So, if I can get you guys to do it,
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then it's easier for me, so.
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[laughing]
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Mike: That's awesome.
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Jay: One thing I love about Drew is he is tenacious.
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Keeping on us, you know?
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And it's out of love, it's not out of,
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"You big fat thing, what's wrong with you?"
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You know what I mean?
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It's like, "Hey, you can do this, you got this."
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And he's--I mean, dude, he's working his tail off to make
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sure we got shakes, make sure we got all the things we need to
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have to be successful.
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Mike: What's in the shake, man?
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What's in the magic shake every night?
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Drew: There's macadamia and pecan nut butter that we're
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making with that blender.
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Peanut butter, protein powder, cacao,
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raw cacao, hemp hearts, chia seeds,
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pink Himalayan sea salt, and MCT oil.
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Mike: Nice, man.
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Well, that has helped me tremendously in the show, man.
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It's like I really feel like after the last couple of weeks,
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like, "All right," like I start to really crave
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what that shake is, man.
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Drew: Praise the Lord.
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Super proud of you guys for sticking with it.
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And we're going to--we're going to get it.
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Mike: We are going to get it dude.
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Thanks, guru Drew.
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Drew: Yeah bro.
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Jay: Guru Drew. That's awesome.
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Mike: Jojo.
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Jojo: Hey, hey.
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Mike: The man of the hour, Mr. Jason Jordan.
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Jason Jordan: How are you man? Nice to meet you.
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Jojo: Yeah, glad you're here.
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Jason: Yeah dude, glad to be here.
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Mike: Bro, thank you for bailing us out, man.
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This is so cool. We're in crunch hour.
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Man, we had to learn--let Jerm go and work on stuff.
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And man, we're like, "What are we going to do?"
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Jason: I'm honored to be here.
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Mike: He's a killer guitar player,
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and I can't wait to see what's going to happen with this, man.
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That's a lot of songs in a little amount of time
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though, dude.
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Jojo: Jason seems like a cool dude.
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This is going to be interesting.
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I mean, it's unfortunate Jeremy's not here with us,
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but you know, when you can find a guy that's definitely about to
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knock out the stuff and seems like there's a cool guy that's
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going to--that's going to definitely help.
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Yeah, yeah, start us on that for me.
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So yeah, so one, two, three.
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Caught in a romance of desperate devotion.
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You're higher than mountains and deeper than oceans.
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With a brokenhearted voice, I'll sing like a sonnet.
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Won't be satisfied with less than what you want.
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Jeremy: I'm home now, and there's a lot more productive
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time to be able to work.
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It's so much easier working in my studio.
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It's night and day difference.
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But man, it is still very challenging.
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There's just so much to do.
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Anna: Kids are going to be home soon because baseball's
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over actually.
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Jeremy: Yeah, now--
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Anna: Can we actually have a conversation?
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Jeremy: Okay.
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Anna: This week is killing me.
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Jeremy: Anna's film is starting super quick,
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which means soon as the new baby gets here,
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new baby and Anna go on location with the nanny.
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And then it'll just be me and the big kids and me trying
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to make a record.
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This is exhausting.
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Anna: I had the fitting yesterday, wrapped today.
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I've got to finish making this suit and ship it out.
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I've got Michael Larry Smith stuff too.
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It's a little overwhelming.
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Jeremy: What do you need from me?
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Because I--
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Anna: I don't know.
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The thing is is I know you've got a lot on your plate and so
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do I, but if I happen to go into labor next week,
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it throws everything.
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So, are we going to have construction going on in the
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studio next week too?
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Jeremy: I mean, you've got your upstairs workspace.
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Anna: I know, but I can't--I can't move a rack up there.
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It's too difficult for me right now to get anything up and
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down the stairs.
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Jeremy: I mean, I'm here, but it's hard for me to be in there
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working and in here working.
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Anna: As long as you can just get the floor really getting
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clean and so--
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Jeremy: Well, I can mop it or do--I don't know,
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we'll figure it out.
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At least I'm--I should be home.
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Anna: Yeah.
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Jeremy: Minus these few days.
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So, we just wait until Sunday at least.
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What are you going to do if the doctor wants to induce?
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Anna: I don't know.
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Jeremy: Try what you did last time.
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Anna: Do the concoction of--
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Jeremy: What was it, almond butter?
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Anna: Castor oil and champagne.
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It's the most disgusting thing.
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Jeremy: I don't have to take it with you, right?
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Anna: Yeah. Jeremy: No.
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Anna: Of course you do.
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You're going to be on the toilet.
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Jeremy: Oh gosh, yeah.
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I'll be on the toilet, you be in the ER, right, right.
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Oh gross, no thanks.
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So I could rise, now I'm alive.
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Mike: Hey everybody, we're so excited to announce that our
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brand new record, "When the Light Comes," is available now.
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We're so excited to share these songs that were birthed out of
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this last season of life.
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For more info, go to bigdaddyweave.com or listen
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wherever you listen to music.
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God, you called me out, now I'm alive.
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Kandice: So, how do you think it's going with the keto diet?
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Mike: It just seems like I got so far to go again, you know?
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Back in 2008, a friend of mine had made this weight loss goal
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that he was going to lose 80 pounds in 2008.
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And I was like, "Dude, well, it's 2009 now and I'm going to
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one up you, you know?
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So, I'm going to lose 90 pounds in 2009."
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And man, it was an incredible year,
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but it was a year full of pressure to,
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'cause I, like, had said this thing and it needs to happen by
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the end of the year or else you fail, you know?
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And we got to the end of the year and I get on the scale,
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and I had lost 84 pounds, man.
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I mean, that is like losing a middle schooler off of
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your body, man.
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That is an accomplishment.
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But I couldn't see any of it 'cause all I saw is you missed
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it by six pounds.
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Not good enough, failure.
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Status quo of your life, big fella, you know?
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Kandice: He was working so, so hard.
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And when he didn't make that, that was--that was hard just
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seeing him--it was just painful.
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It was painful to watch the person that you love the most
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not reach this goal when they had done this incredible thing.
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All he saw was the failure.
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Mike: Food is like medicine, man,
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to me and it always--it always has been, you know?
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It's been like my drug.
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And then starting the keto and getting through like the first
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couple weeks of it, and man, nothing moved.
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And I guess I don't know if I'm doing something wrong or what,
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but I know I got to do something, man, you know?
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Kandice: As we begin this new keto diet,
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I just hope and pray that it's something that will really work
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for Mike, that it will be something that we can all do
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together to make our whole family healthier.
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I always told you I love you exactly the way you are.
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I fell in love with who you are.
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And you know my heart, that it's never about that.
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I just want you to be healthy, and I want that spark of
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confidence to come back, and that you excited to go outside
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and play with the kids to come back and not just be hurting.
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And so, I just want it for you.
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Mike: Even as Kandice says to me,
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"Look, I want you to be healthy for you,
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not because I'm over here thinking you need to be
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something more for me," it like--the trick that I play on
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myself is I turn that thing and I'm like,
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"Yeah, but I have to be more--I need to be more for you.
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I don't feel like enough for you so often, you know?"
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Kandice: But I think you often don't feel confident
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in yourself.
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And that shifts when there's better choices being made.
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And the devastation that you felt after in the 90 in '09
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thing and you didn't quite meet your goal,
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that was gut wrenching to watch.
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Mike: Everybody was saying all these like nice things and
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they're like, "Dude man, that's really good."
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And--but I felt like I was sensing this disappointment
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even from them.
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And it wasn't really there, they were just checking on me.
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But oh man, I just--oh, I just crumbled.
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Kandice: I think a lot of times if Mike starts something,
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if he's really been giving it his all and it doesn't seem to
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work, there's a greater sadness and disappointment with that
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that makes him want to just throw the towel and be like,
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"It's not even worth it.
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Let's just order pizza and call it a day."
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Mike: We have had such an awesome life,
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but I feel like this keeps being this thing that's always somehow
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in the way, you know what I mean?
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And it's in the way of me, you know what I mean?
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It's not in the way of you, because man,
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you always--you always love me even when I don't
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love me, you know?
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And that changes me, you know?
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Here we go again.
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Kandice: I'm in it with you, though.
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Mike: I know you are, I know you are.
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You're my biggest cheerleader
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and I don't know what I'd do without you.
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Kandice: Back at you, my love.
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Susan: So, like you know how we talked about like on the last
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run how we thought it'd be easier to eat keto at home?
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Like I think--
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Jay: We found out that wasn't exactly the truth.
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Susan: Yeah, so it's been a little easier on the road,
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but like we don't have a scale here on the road.
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Like maybe that's a good thing for both of us since like--
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Jay: I didn't lose any weight since yesterday.
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What's the matter with me?
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Susan: No, like 'cause like weigh in day,
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when we got home was like--it was like devastating.
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Jay: Yeah, 'cause it wasn't the progress we wanted to see.
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Susan: And that's the hardest thing for me is when you are
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devastated about something, if I feel like I have to be the
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ultimate fixer and I don't know how to fix that.
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Jay: So, obviously as a dude, when you hear your wife say
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things like, "I want to be a fixer for you," it's never the
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way you want things to be, you know?
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But praise God he is the God of a million and one
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chances, you know?
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And so, all I can say is today, I'm going to put my best
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fake foot forward.
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Susan: Before you lost your feet,
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the concern of you having a heart attack,
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like you know, you're going off on that lawnmower,
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I told you, you can't die 'cause I don't know all the bank stuff.
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So I don't--
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Jay: That's wrong.
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[laughing]
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Susan: I mean, like no, but I'm serious,
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like you hold us together, and so you got to take care
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of yourself so that we're all together and we can
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do this life.
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I am so thankful that on this tour run that it's the whole
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tour all doing it together, so it's not just me being a mother
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hen to Jay and the kids of, "Don't eat this,
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don't drink that."
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I'm glad for the partnership in all of it.
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Jay: I appreciate the fact that you guys are willing to go
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try to do this with me.
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You know, because it--sure you might not be overweight or the
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girls may not be, yeah, these fat creatures like their dad,
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you know what I mean?
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But at the same time, health is still health, you know?
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And what we want for them as parents is overall health.
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So anyway, I think I'm excited about the journey as a family.
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You know, just being able to go and do things 'cause
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nobody's--Dad's not tired and worn out,
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you know what I mean, 'cause of this.
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And you know, it just--I think in the long run,
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we're going to see the benefits far outweigh the sacrifice.
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Susan: And you've done amazing.
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Like I'm really proud of you.
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And I know that like all the crew,
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they're all proud of how you've been sticking with it.
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Jay: Yeah, I just let him finish what he started, you know?
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It's going to take him 'cause I'm going to go run out and find
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a--like a buffet of Snickers bars or something,
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you know what I mean?
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Susan: So, after Jay got out of the hospital and we were
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still going for a lot of treatments,
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Michael and I were trying to find a bus or an RV to take Jay
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to get him back on the road.
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Jay really wasn't seeing it, so we were trying to see
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it for him.
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So, now that we're on the road, watching him walk on stage and
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just battle through it and letting people watch him battle
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through it, to see him doing what he's been called to do,
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even though it's so hard, is amazing.
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I know there's days where he's wanted to give up.
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And there's days I wanted to give up,
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I'm like, "I didn't sign up for this hard work."
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But it's also rewarding to look back at what we've been through
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and be like, "We did it.
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We made it through life without any feet for a little bit."
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I see the work of your hands,
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galaxies spin in a heavenly dance.
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Oh God, all that you are is so overwhelming.
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And I hear the sound of your voice all at once,
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it's a gentle and thundering noise.
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Oh God, all that you are is so overwhelming.
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I delight myself in you, captivated by your beauty.
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I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by you.
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And God, I run into your arms, unashamed because of mercy.
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I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by you.
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Oh.
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Mike: We can just sing this through.
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Sing this to God.
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You are beautiful, you are beautiful.
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Oh God, there is no one more beautiful,
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you are beautiful.
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God, you are the most beautiful.
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And you are so wonderful.
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You are wonderful, you are wonderful.
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Oh God, there is no one more wonderful.
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You are wonderful.
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God, you are the most wonderful.
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You're glorious, Jesus.
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Sing you are glorious, you are glorious.
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Oh God, there is no one more glorious.
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You are glorious.
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God, you are the most glorious, glorious.
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You are glorious.
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I delight myself in you, in the glory of your presence.
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I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by you.
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God, I run into your arms, unashamed because of mercy.
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I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by you.
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I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by you, oh.
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I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by you
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and your great love.
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I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by you, Jesus.
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I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by you.
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[audience cheering]
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Mike: Hey everybody, we're so excited to be bringing
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The Alive Tour with Big Daddy Weave to a city near you.
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We would love for you to join us in a night of worship.
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Go to bigdaddyweave.com for more info.
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The God who called me out, now I'm alive.
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When the light comes, darkness runs away.
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And only what lives in the light can stay.
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When the light comes, nothing left to hide.
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So, come out of the darkness and turn on the light.
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