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Better Together LIVE | Episode 23

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  • - Laurie: THIS CORONAVIRUS
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  • - Laurie: THIS CORONAVIRUSPANDEMIC CONTINUES TO LEAVE FEAR
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  • PANDEMIC CONTINUES TO LEAVE FEARAND CHAOS IN ITS WAKE WORLDWIDE.
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  • AND CHAOS IN ITS WAKE WORLDWIDE.WE'VE LOST OUR NORMAL AND ARE
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  • WE'VE LOST OUR NORMAL AND ARETRYING TO FIND A NEW PATH
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  • TRYING TO FIND A NEW PATHFORWARD.
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  • FORWARD.IN THIS SEASON, IT'S EASY TO
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  • IN THIS SEASON, IT'S EASY TOFORGET THAT GOD IS IN CONTROL.
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  • FORGET THAT GOD IS IN CONTROL.COME ON, WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT
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  • COME ON, WE NEED TO TALK ABOUTTHIS.
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  • - Karen: WELL, YOU GUYS KNOW,
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  • - Karen: WELL, YOU GUYS KNOW,I'VE SAID THIS BEFORE ON "BETTER
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  • I'VE SAID THIS BEFORE ON "BETTERTOGETHER" THAT I AM A SELF
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  • TOGETHER" THAT I AM A SELFPROCLAIMED RECOVERING CONTROL
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  • PROCLAIMED RECOVERING CONTROLFREAK.
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  • FREAK.SO, WHEN THIS VIRUS HIT AND THIS
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  • SO, WHEN THIS VIRUS HIT AND THISWHOLE SHELTER IN PLACE THING
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  • WHOLE SHELTER IN PLACE THINGSTARTED, MY TYPE A. ACHIEVER
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  • STARTED, MY TYPE A. ACHIEVERPERSONALITY AND TAKE CHARGE
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  • PERSONALITY AND TAKE CHARGEATTITUDE WAS LIKE FREAKING OUT.
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  • ATTITUDE WAS LIKE FREAKING OUT.SCHEDULES ARE BEING CANCELED, MY
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  • SCHEDULES ARE BEING CANCELED, MYROUTINES, MY RHYTHMS, ALL OF
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  • ROUTINES, MY RHYTHMS, ALL OFTHAT WAS BEING OBLITERATED AND
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  • THAT WAS BEING OBLITERATED ANDSHIFTED.
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  • SHIFTED.I GOT TO TELL YOU, GRIEF HIT ME
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  • I GOT TO TELL YOU, GRIEF HIT MELIKE A TIDAL WAVE.
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  • LIKE A TIDAL WAVE.GRIEF OF LIKE, WHAT AM I GONNA
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  • GRIEF OF LIKE, WHAT AM I GONNADO?
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  • DO?ALL THE THINGS THAT WE LOST.
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  • ALL THE THINGS THAT WE LOST.GRIEF OF WHAT WAS GOING ON IN
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  • GRIEF OF WHAT WAS GOING ON INTHE WORLD.
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  • THE WORLD.JUST SO MUCH STUFF.
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  • JUST SO MUCH STUFF.AND I REMEMBER THE FIRST WEEK
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  • AND I REMEMBER THE FIRST WEEKAFTER WE STARTED THE WHOLE
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  • AFTER WE STARTED THE WHOLESHELTER IN PLACE MY HUSBAND HAD
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  • SHELTER IN PLACE MY HUSBAND HADBEEN WORKING HOME FOR ABOUT A
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  • BEEN WORKING HOME FOR ABOUT AWEEK AND ALL OF A SUDDEN WE WERE
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  • WEEK AND ALL OF A SUDDEN WE WERETAKING A WALK AND ALL OF A
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  • TAKING A WALK AND ALL OF ASUDDEN HE STARTED GETTING ALL
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  • SUDDEN HE STARTED GETTING ALLTHESE DINGS ON HIS PHONE.
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  • THESE DINGS ON HIS PHONE.AND HIS COMPANY, HE WORKS IN
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  • AND HIS COMPANY, HE WORKS INCORPORATE AMERICA, HIS COMPANY
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  • CORPORATE AMERICA, HIS COMPANYWAS GOING THROUGH A ROUND OF
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  • WAS GOING THROUGH A ROUND OFLAYOFFS.
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  • LAYOFFS.AND I REMEMBER GOING JUST
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  • AND I REMEMBER GOING JUSTIMMEDIATELY FREAKING OUT AND
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  • IMMEDIATELY FREAKING OUT ANDWHAT CAN WE DO TO CONTROL THE
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  • WHAT CAN WE DO TO CONTROL THESITUATION?
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  • SITUATION?DO WE NEED TO START LOOKING FOR
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  • DO WE NEED TO START LOOKING FOROTHER JOBS?
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  • OTHER JOBS?DO YOU NEED TO START PUTTING
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  • DO YOU NEED TO START PUTTINGYOUR RESUME TOGETHER TO DO IT?
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  • YOUR RESUME TOGETHER TO DO IT?AND ALL OF A SUDDEN IT WAS LIKE
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  • AND ALL OF A SUDDEN IT WAS LIKEI WANTED TO TAKE CONTROL OF THIS
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  • I WANTED TO TAKE CONTROL OF THISSITUATION INSTEAD OF JUST HAVING
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  • SITUATION INSTEAD OF JUST HAVINGPEACE AND LETTING GOD HAVE IT.
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  • PEACE AND LETTING GOD HAVE IT.THANKFULLY HE STILL HAS HIS JOB,
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  • THANKFULLY HE STILL HAS HIS JOB,BUT SOME OF HIS FRIENDS, SOME OF
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  • BUT SOME OF HIS FRIENDS, SOME OFHIS CO-WORKERS LOST THEIR JOB
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  • HIS CO-WORKERS LOST THEIR JOBAND I THINK THAT WHEN WE START
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  • AND I THINK THAT WHEN WE STARTLOOKING AT THIS AND WE GO WHAT
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  • LOOKING AT THIS AND WE GO WHATIS MAKING US FEEL LIKE GOD ISN'T
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  • IS MAKING US FEEL LIKE GOD ISN'TIN CONTROL?
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  • IN CONTROL?WHAT IS MAKING US FEEL LIKE WE
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  • WHAT IS MAKING US FEEL LIKE WENEED TO HAVE MORE CONTROL?
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  • NEED TO HAVE MORE CONTROL?IT'S REALLY FEAR.
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  • IT'S REALLY FEAR.IT'S FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN AND
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  • IT'S FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN ANDFEARING THAT GOD DOESN'T HAVE
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  • FEARING THAT GOD DOESN'T HAVEIT.
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  • IT.AND FOR ME, LIKE I STARTED A
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  • AND FOR ME, LIKE I STARTED ABUSINESS, I'M A PHYSICAL
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  • BUSINESS, I'M A PHYSICALTHERAPIST AND ABOUT A MONTH
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  • THERAPIST AND ABOUT A MONTHBEFORE THIS HIT, I STARTED A
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  • BEFORE THIS HIT, I STARTED AHOME BASED PHYSICAL THERAPY
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  • HOME BASED PHYSICAL THERAPYPRACTICE WHERE PATIENTS COME TO
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  • PRACTICE WHERE PATIENTS COME TOME OR I GO TO THEM.
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  • ME OR I GO TO THEM.AND MY BUSINESS HAD JUST STARTED
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  • AND MY BUSINESS HAD JUST STARTEDTO GAIN TRACTION.
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  • TO GAIN TRACTION.AND NOW BECAUSE OF THIS, AS AN
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  • AND NOW BECAUSE OF THIS, AS ANABUNDANCE OF CAUTION, I COULD
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  • ABUNDANCE OF CAUTION, I COULDTECHNICALLY STILL STAY OPEN, BUT
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  • TECHNICALLY STILL STAY OPEN, BUTI'M A LITTLE IMMUNOCOMPROMISED,
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  • I'M A LITTLE IMMUNOCOMPROMISED,MY SON IS AS WELL.
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  • MY SON IS AS WELL.AND SO WE JUST DECIDED TO BE
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  • AND SO WE JUST DECIDED TO BESAFE AND JUST SHUT DOWN THE
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  • SAFE AND JUST SHUT DOWN THEBUSINESS.
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  • BUSINESS.AND SO NOW, I'M DOING THESE
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  • AND SO NOW, I'M DOING THESETELEHEALTH CALLS, WHICH AGAIN,
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  • TELEHEALTH CALLS, WHICH AGAIN,ISN'T THE SAME INCOME.
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  • ISN'T THE SAME INCOME.AND AGAIN, I FOUND MYSELF GOING,
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  • AND AGAIN, I FOUND MYSELF GOING,HOW CAN I CONTROL THIS
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  • HOW CAN I CONTROL THISSITUATION?
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  • SITUATION?WHAT CAN I DO?
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  • WHAT CAN I DO?AND I DON'T THINK THERE IS
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  • AND I DON'T THINK THERE ISANYTHING WRONG WITH HAVING A
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  • ANYTHING WRONG WITH HAVING APLAN AND SETTING GOALS AND BEING
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  • PLAN AND SETTING GOALS AND BEINGWISE IN THAT SITUATION, BUT
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  • WISE IN THAT SITUATION, BUTTHERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME
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  • THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH MEGOING, GOD, YOU DON'T HAVE
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  • GOING, GOD, YOU DON'T HAVECONTROL AND ME STEPPING INTO
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  • CONTROL AND ME STEPPING INTOTHIS FEAR OF WHAT MIGHT BE.
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  • THIS FEAR OF WHAT MIGHT BE.I REMEMBER SITTING AT MY DESK
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  • I REMEMBER SITTING AT MY DESKWITH MY PLANNER OPEN WITH THIS
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  • WITH MY PLANNER OPEN WITH THISPEN IN MY RIGHT HAND AND I'M
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  • PEN IN MY RIGHT HAND AND I'MLOOKING AT IT, I HAVE NOTHING ON
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  • LOOKING AT IT, I HAVE NOTHING ONTHE SCHEDULE, I HAVE NO
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  • THE SCHEDULE, I HAVE NOPATIENTS.
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  • PATIENTS.WE HAVE NO CHURCH ACTIVITIES,
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  • WE HAVE NO CHURCH ACTIVITIES,THE KIDS ACTIVITIES ARE ALL
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  • THE KIDS ACTIVITIES ARE ALLGONE, AND GOD, THE HOLY SPIRIT
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  • GONE, AND GOD, THE HOLY SPIRITPUT THIS VERSE IN MY HEAD.
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  • PUT THIS VERSE IN MY HEAD.I COULDN'T REMEMBER IT.
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  • I COULDN'T REMEMBER IT.IT WAS SOMETHING LIKE, FINDING
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  • IT WAS SOMETHING LIKE, FINDINGPEACE, NOT FEARING AND SOMETHING
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  • PEACE, NOT FEARING AND SOMETHINGABOUT A RIGHT HAND.
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  • ABOUT A RIGHT HAND.SO I LOOKED IT UP AND IT'S IN
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  • SO I LOOKED IT UP AND IT'S INISAIAH 41 VERSE 13 AND IT SAYS,
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  • ISAIAH 41 VERSE 13 AND IT SAYS,FOR I AM THE LORD YOUR GOD WHO
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  • FOR I AM THE LORD YOUR GOD WHOTAKES HOLD OF YOUR RIGHT HAND
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  • TAKES HOLD OF YOUR RIGHT HANDAND SAYS TO YOU, DO NOT FEAR.
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  • AND SAYS TO YOU, DO NOT FEAR.I WILL HELP YOU.
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  • I WILL HELP YOU.AND I REALIZED THAT MY FEAR OF
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  • AND I REALIZED THAT MY FEAR OFTHE UNKNOWN, THIS LOSING
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  • THE UNKNOWN, THIS LOSINGCONTROL, LED ME TO NOT TRUSTING
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  • CONTROL, LED ME TO NOT TRUSTINGTHAT GOD COMPLETELY HAD IT UNDER
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  • THAT GOD COMPLETELY HAD IT UNDERCONTROL.
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  • CONTROL.I STARTED DIGGING INTO THE WORD
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  • I STARTED DIGGING INTO THE WORDOF GOD A LITTLE BIT MORE TO HELP
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  • OF GOD A LITTLE BIT MORE TO HELPCOMBAT MY FEAR AND SOME OF THESE
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  • COMBAT MY FEAR AND SOME OF THESEVERSES I SOUGHT, PSALM 56:3.
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  • VERSES I SOUGHT, PSALM 56:3.WHEN I AM AFRAID I WILL TRUST IN
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  • WHEN I AM AFRAID I WILL TRUST INYOU.
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  • YOU.2 TIMOTHY 1:7.
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  • 2 TIMOTHY 1:7.GOD HAS NOT GIVEN US A SPIRIT OF
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  • GOD HAS NOT GIVEN US A SPIRIT OFFEAR BUT OF POWER, OF LOVE AND A
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  • FEAR BUT OF POWER, OF LOVE AND ASOUND MIND.
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  • SOUND MIND.AT THE NAME OF JESUS EVERY KNEE
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  • AT THE NAME OF JESUS EVERY KNEEON EARTH, IN HEAVEN AND HELL HAS
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  • ON EARTH, IN HEAVEN AND HELL HASTO BOW ACCORDING TO SCRIPTURE.
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  • TO BOW ACCORDING TO SCRIPTURE.THAT HELPS TO USHER IN PEACE AND
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  • THAT HELPS TO USHER IN PEACE ANDCOMBAT FEAR.
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  • COMBAT FEAR.WE HAVE POWER IN LOVE, WHEN WE
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  • WE HAVE POWER IN LOVE, WHEN WELOVE THE LORD AND WE LET HIM
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  • LOVE THE LORD AND WE LET HIMLOVE US, WHEN WE HAVE OUR
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  • LOVE US, WHEN WE HAVE OUREARTHLY PEOPLE THAT WE LOVE.
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  • EARTHLY PEOPLE THAT WE LOVE.OUR SIBLINGS, OUR SPOUSES, OUR
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  • OUR SIBLINGS, OUR SPOUSES, OURFAMILY, PERFECT LOVE CASTS OUT
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  • FAMILY, PERFECT LOVE CASTS OUTFEAR.
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  • FEAR.AND HE'S GIVEN US A SOUND MIND
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  • AND HE'S GIVEN US A SOUND MINDWHEN WE TAP INTO THAT PEACE THAT
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  • WHEN WE TAP INTO THAT PEACE THATWE TALKED ABOUT THE OTHER DAY.
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  • WE TALKED ABOUT THE OTHER DAY.SO I THINK THAT IF WE START TO
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  • SO I THINK THAT IF WE START TOGO, YOU KNOW WHAT, GOD, I'M
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  • GO, YOU KNOW WHAT, GOD, I'MGONNA SIT BACK, I'M GONNA LET
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  • GONNA SIT BACK, I'M GONNA LETYOU HAVE THIS, BECAUSE I KNOW
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  • YOU HAVE THIS, BECAUSE I KNOWYOU'LL NEVER LEAVE ME.
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  • YOU'LL NEVER LEAVE ME.I KNOW YOU'LL NEVER FORSAKE ME.
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  • I KNOW YOU'LL NEVER FORSAKE ME.AND I TRUST THAT EVEN THOUGH
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  • AND I TRUST THAT EVEN THOUGHRIGHT NOW WITH THIS WHOLE
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  • RIGHT NOW WITH THIS WHOLECOVID-19, THIS PANDEMIC, WITH
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  • COVID-19, THIS PANDEMIC, WITHEVERYTHING KIND OF BEING CHAOTIC
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  • EVERYTHING KIND OF BEING CHAOTICAND EVERY DAY WE ARE KIND OF
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  • AND EVERY DAY WE ARE KIND OFFEELING LIKE WHAT'S THE NEXT
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  • FEELING LIKE WHAT'S THE NEXTSHOE THAT'S GONNA DROP AND
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  • SHOE THAT'S GONNA DROP ANDTHERE'S THIS UNCERTAINTY THAT WE
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  • THERE'S THIS UNCERTAINTY THAT WECAN RELY ON THE LORD CUZ HE'S
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  • CAN RELY ON THE LORD CUZ HE'SGOT IT UNDER CONTROL.
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  • GOT IT UNDER CONTROL.- Laurie: YOU KNOW, THAT'S SO
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  • - Laurie: YOU KNOW, THAT'S SOTRUE.
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  • TRUE.I LOOK BACK AT EVERYTHING GOD
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  • I LOOK BACK AT EVERYTHING GODHAS, EVERY BIG STEP THAT WE'VE
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  • HAS, EVERY BIG STEP THAT WE'VEBEEN ASKED TO TAKE BY THE LORD,
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  • BEEN ASKED TO TAKE BY THE LORD,IT SEEMS LIKE YOU GET THE WORD
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  • IT SEEMS LIKE YOU GET THE WORDTO DO IT, THIS IS WHAT I WANT
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  • TO DO IT, THIS IS WHAT I WANTYOU TO DO, AND THEN IT'S LIKE
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  • YOU TO DO, AND THEN IT'S LIKEEVERY FAUCET YOU HAD RUNNING TO
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  • EVERY FAUCET YOU HAD RUNNING TOSUPPLY THIS BIG VENTURE JUST HAS
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  • SUPPLY THIS BIG VENTURE JUST HASBEEN SHUT OFF.
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  • BEEN SHUT OFF.WE'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE.
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  • WE'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS BEFORE.AND HAVE WALKED THIS SAME SPACE
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  • AND HAVE WALKED THIS SAME SPACEBEFORE SO WE'VE LOST JOBS, WE'VE
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  • BEFORE SO WE'VE LOST JOBS, WE'VELOST CONTROL, WE'VE LOST-- AND
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  • LOST CONTROL, WE'VE LOST-- ANDIT REMINDS ME OF GIDEON, GIDEON,
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  • IT REMINDS ME OF GIDEON, GIDEON,WHAT, 30.000 MEN?
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  • WHAT, 30.000 MEN?AND GOD WIDDLED THIS DOWN TO 300
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  • AND GOD WIDDLED THIS DOWN TO 300MEN.
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  • MEN.AND IT'S THAT SAME CONCEPT THAT
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  • AND IT'S THAT SAME CONCEPT THATIF WE WANT TO TAKE
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  • IF WE WANT TO TAKERESPONSIBILITY, IF WE WANT TO
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  • RESPONSIBILITY, IF WE WANT TOTAKE THE CREDIT OF DOING
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  • TAKE THE CREDIT OF DOINGSOMETHING GREAT FOR GOD, HE WILL
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  • SOMETHING GREAT FOR GOD, HE WILLDIMINISH OUR RESOURCES TO WHERE
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  • DIMINISH OUR RESOURCES TO WHEREHE GETS THE GLORY EVERY TIME.
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  • HE GETS THE GLORY EVERY TIME.AND IT'S JUST SO POWERFUL.
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  • AND IT'S JUST SO POWERFUL.WE DID A PRAISE PROGRAM LAST
  • 00:06:02.644 --> 00:06:03.579
  • WE DID A PRAISE PROGRAM LASTWEEK WITH LES AND LESLIE
  • 00:06:03.579 --> 00:06:05.914
  • WEEK WITH LES AND LESLIEPARROTT, KAREN, THAT TALKED
  • 00:06:05.914 --> 00:06:07.883
  • PARROTT, KAREN, THAT TALKEDABOUT PEOPLE THAT JUST WANTED TO
  • 00:06:07.883 --> 00:06:09.785
  • ABOUT PEOPLE THAT JUST WANTED TOCONTROL.
  • 00:06:09.785 --> 00:06:13.255
  • CONTROL.THIS IS SILLY TO SAY AND FUNNY
  • 00:06:13.255 --> 00:06:14.790
  • THIS IS SILLY TO SAY AND FUNNYTO SAY, BUT A LOT OF THOSE
  • 00:06:14.790 --> 00:06:16.191
  • TO SAY, BUT A LOT OF THOSEPEOPLE WENT OUT AND BOUGHT AS
  • 00:06:16.191 --> 00:06:17.960
  • PEOPLE WENT OUT AND BOUGHT ASMUCH TOILET PAPER AS THEY
  • 00:06:17.960 --> 00:06:20.095
  • MUCH TOILET PAPER AS THEYPOSSIBLY COULD BUY, BECAUSE THEY
  • 00:06:20.095 --> 00:06:21.563
  • POSSIBLY COULD BUY, BECAUSE THEYCOULD CONTROL THAT.
  • 00:06:21.563 --> 00:06:23.632
  • COULD CONTROL THAT.IT WAS LIKE THE BIGGEST THING
  • 00:06:23.632 --> 00:06:27.302
  • IT WAS LIKE THE BIGGEST THINGTHEY COULD CONTROL IN THEIR
  • 00:06:27.302 --> 00:06:29.304
  • THEY COULD CONTROL IN THEIRHOUSE WAS TO HAVE PLENTY OF
  • 00:06:29.304 --> 00:06:30.105
  • HOUSE WAS TO HAVE PLENTY OFTOILET PAPER AND THAT WAS JUST
  • 00:06:30.105 --> 00:06:31.440
  • TOILET PAPER AND THAT WAS JUSTABOUT IT.
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  • ABOUT IT.IT DOES SHOW, GOD WANTS TO SHOW
  • 00:06:33.842 --> 00:06:36.345
  • IT DOES SHOW, GOD WANTS TO SHOWHIS FAITHFULNESS AND HIS
  • 00:06:36.345 --> 00:06:39.481
  • HIS FAITHFULNESS AND HISGREATNESS IN OUR LIVES RIGHT NOW
  • 00:06:39.481 --> 00:06:42.851
  • GREATNESS IN OUR LIVES RIGHT NOWAND SO I THINK HE DOES ENJOY THE
  • 00:06:42.851 --> 00:06:47.356
  • AND SO I THINK HE DOES ENJOY THETIME WHERE WE CAN JUST LOOK TO
  • 00:06:47.356 --> 00:06:49.124
  • TIME WHERE WE CAN JUST LOOK TOHIM FOR EVERYTHING THAT WE NEED.
  • 00:06:49.124 --> 00:06:51.059
  • HIM FOR EVERYTHING THAT WE NEED.BECAUSE HE IS OUR EVERYTHING.
  • 00:06:51.059 --> 00:06:51.794
  • BECAUSE HE IS OUR EVERYTHING.HE WANTS TO SUPPLY EVERYTHING
  • 00:06:51.794 --> 00:06:53.562
  • HE WANTS TO SUPPLY EVERYTHINGFOR US.
  • 00:06:53.562 --> 00:06:55.063
  • FOR US.AND I JUST THINK THIS IS A GREAT
  • 00:06:55.063 --> 00:06:57.299
  • AND I JUST THINK THIS IS A GREATOPPORTUNITY FOR ALL OF US.
  • 00:06:57.299 --> 00:06:58.167
  • OPPORTUNITY FOR ALL OF US.- Lisa: I'M GONNA JUST JUMP IN
  • 00:06:58.167 --> 00:07:00.169
  • - Lisa: I'M GONNA JUST JUMP INHERE.
  • 00:07:00.169 --> 00:07:03.872
  • HERE.I LOVE THE ISSUE OF CONTROL.
  • 00:07:03.872 --> 00:07:04.940
  • I LOVE THE ISSUE OF CONTROL.MY VERY FIRST BOOK I WROTE WAS
  • 00:07:04.940 --> 00:07:07.409
  • MY VERY FIRST BOOK I WROTE WASOUT OF CONTROL AND LOVING IT.
  • 00:07:07.409 --> 00:07:09.311
  • OUT OF CONTROL AND LOVING IT.BECAUSE I WAS IN CONTROL AND
  • 00:07:09.311 --> 00:07:10.479
  • BECAUSE I WAS IN CONTROL ANDLOVING IT, THEN OUT OF CONTROL
  • 00:07:10.479 --> 00:07:12.848
  • LOVING IT, THEN OUT OF CONTROLAND HATING IT.
  • 00:07:12.848 --> 00:07:14.983
  • AND HATING IT.THEN MOVED TO A PLACE OF OUT OF
  • 00:07:14.983 --> 00:07:16.452
  • THEN MOVED TO A PLACE OF OUT OFCONTROL AND LOVING IT.
  • 00:07:16.452 --> 00:07:19.021
  • CONTROL AND LOVING IT.I REMEMBER IN THAT SEASON GOD
  • 00:07:19.021 --> 00:07:20.222
  • I REMEMBER IN THAT SEASON GODSAYING, LISA, YOU THINK YOU'RE
  • 00:07:20.222 --> 00:07:20.989
  • SAYING, LISA, YOU THINK YOU'REIN CONTROL?
  • 00:07:20.989 --> 00:07:24.426
  • IN CONTROL?YOU'RE IN CONTROL OF NOTHING.
  • 00:07:24.426 --> 00:07:26.495
  • YOU'RE IN CONTROL OF NOTHING.THIS IS AN ILLUSION IN YOUR
  • 00:07:26.495 --> 00:07:27.896
  • THIS IS AN ILLUSION IN YOURLIFE.
  • 00:07:27.896 --> 00:07:29.798
  • LIFE.ONE OF JOHN'S WORST MEMORY OF
  • 00:07:29.798 --> 00:07:32.301
  • ONE OF JOHN'S WORST MEMORY OFOUR MARRIAGE WAS, WE JUST HAD
  • 00:07:32.301 --> 00:07:33.469
  • OUR MARRIAGE WAS, WE JUST HADOUR FIRST CHILD.
  • 00:07:33.469 --> 00:07:34.470
  • OUR FIRST CHILD.I WAS THE ONLY ONE WORKING FULL
  • 00:07:34.470 --> 00:07:35.537
  • I WAS THE ONLY ONE WORKING FULLTIME.
  • 00:07:35.537 --> 00:07:38.240
  • TIME.JOHN WAS WORKING PART TIME.
  • 00:07:38.240 --> 00:07:39.875
  • JOHN WAS WORKING PART TIME.AND I WOULD RUN THESE GAUNTLETS
  • 00:07:39.875 --> 00:07:42.778
  • AND I WOULD RUN THESE GAUNTLETSIN MY BRAIN.
  • 00:07:42.778 --> 00:07:43.846
  • IN MY BRAIN.DO I HAVE THIS COVERED, THIS
  • 00:07:43.846 --> 00:07:44.680
  • DO I HAVE THIS COVERED, THISCOVERED, THIS COVERED, THIS
  • 00:07:44.680 --> 00:07:46.081
  • COVERED, THIS COVERED, THISCOVERED, OKAY, I CAN BE AT
  • 00:07:46.081 --> 00:07:46.915
  • COVERED, OKAY, I CAN BE ATPEACE.
  • 00:07:46.915 --> 00:07:49.485
  • PEACE.WELL, I REMEMBER THINKING, WAIT
  • 00:07:49.485 --> 00:07:51.587
  • WELL, I REMEMBER THINKING, WAITA MINUTE, IF MY HUSBAND DIES, I
  • 00:07:51.587 --> 00:07:53.155
  • A MINUTE, IF MY HUSBAND DIES, IDON'T HAVE ENOUGH LIFE INSURANCE
  • 00:07:53.155 --> 00:07:55.624
  • DON'T HAVE ENOUGH LIFE INSURANCEON HIM.
  • 00:07:55.624 --> 00:07:57.593
  • ON HIM.SO JOHN'S ASLEEP.
  • 00:07:57.593 --> 00:07:59.228
  • SO JOHN'S ASLEEP.AND I TURNED TO HIM AND I SAID,
  • 00:07:59.228 --> 00:08:00.429
  • AND I TURNED TO HIM AND I SAID,HEY, HEY, WE NEED TO GET MORE
  • 00:08:00.429 --> 00:08:01.763
  • HEY, HEY, WE NEED TO GET MORELIFE INSURANCE ON YOU.
  • 00:08:01.763 --> 00:08:02.798
  • LIFE INSURANCE ON YOU.HE SAID WAIT, WAIT.
  • 00:08:02.798 --> 00:08:04.833
  • HE SAID WAIT, WAIT.ARE YOU LAYING IN BED NEXT TO ME
  • 00:08:04.833 --> 00:08:06.535
  • ARE YOU LAYING IN BED NEXT TO METHINKING ABOUT ME DYING?
  • 00:08:06.535 --> 00:08:09.271
  • THINKING ABOUT ME DYING?I SAID YES, I AM.
  • 00:08:09.271 --> 00:08:11.206
  • I SAID YES, I AM.I'M THINKING ABOUT THAT WE DON'T
  • 00:08:11.206 --> 00:08:13.442
  • I'M THINKING ABOUT THAT WE DON'THAVE ENOUGH-- HE IS LIKE, I'M
  • 00:08:13.442 --> 00:08:15.277
  • HAVE ENOUGH-- HE IS LIKE, I'MNOT COMFORTABLE WITH YOU HAVING
  • 00:08:15.277 --> 00:08:18.013
  • NOT COMFORTABLE WITH YOU HAVINGTHAT THOUGHT AND I JUST-- I
  • 00:08:18.013 --> 00:08:22.651
  • THAT THOUGHT AND I JUST-- IWOULD HIT WALLS, AND THEN ONE
  • 00:08:22.651 --> 00:08:25.921
  • WOULD HIT WALLS, AND THEN ONEDAY GOD SAID, LISA, YOU BELIEVE
  • 00:08:25.921 --> 00:08:27.890
  • DAY GOD SAID, LISA, YOU BELIEVETHAT I AM GOOD FOR EVERYBODY.
  • 00:08:27.890 --> 00:08:32.694
  • THAT I AM GOOD FOR EVERYBODY.BUT NOT FOR YOU.
  • 00:08:32.694 --> 00:08:33.595
  • BUT NOT FOR YOU.YOU ARE RUNNING THESE GAUNTLETS
  • 00:08:33.595 --> 00:08:35.030
  • YOU ARE RUNNING THESE GAUNTLETSIN YOUR BRAIN WHERE YOU CAN
  • 00:08:35.030 --> 00:08:37.332
  • IN YOUR BRAIN WHERE YOU CANCONTROL THE OUTCOME BECAUSE YOU
  • 00:08:37.332 --> 00:08:41.403
  • CONTROL THE OUTCOME BECAUSE YOUTHINK THAT I WILL NOT BE THAT
  • 00:08:41.403 --> 00:08:43.005
  • THINK THAT I WILL NOT BE THATSOURCE.
  • 00:08:43.005 --> 00:08:44.973
  • SOURCE.A LOT OF TIMES PEOPLE DON'T
  • 00:08:44.973 --> 00:08:47.075
  • A LOT OF TIMES PEOPLE DON'TREALIZE THAT FEAR AND CONTROL
  • 00:08:47.075 --> 00:08:49.978
  • REALIZE THAT FEAR AND CONTROLHAS A ROOT.
  • 00:08:49.978 --> 00:08:54.850
  • HAS A ROOT.THAT ROOT IS UNBELIEF.
  • 00:08:54.850 --> 00:08:56.251
  • THAT ROOT IS UNBELIEF.AND UNBELIEF WILL COME IN AND
  • 00:08:56.251 --> 00:08:57.286
  • AND UNBELIEF WILL COME IN ANDBEGIN TO TURN EVERYTHING.
  • 00:08:57.286 --> 00:08:58.754
  • BEGIN TO TURN EVERYTHING.SO YOU ARE LAYING IN BED
  • 00:08:58.754 --> 00:09:00.822
  • SO YOU ARE LAYING IN BEDTHINKING OF YOUR HUSBAND DYING,
  • 00:09:00.822 --> 00:09:01.857
  • THINKING OF YOUR HUSBAND DYING,YOU'RE THINKING THAT YOU ARE THE
  • 00:09:01.857 --> 00:09:03.191
  • YOU'RE THINKING THAT YOU ARE THESOURCE OF EVERYTHING.
  • 00:09:03.191 --> 00:09:08.196
  • SOURCE OF EVERYTHING.AND IT WAS A MAJOR SHIFT IN MY
  • 00:09:08.196 --> 00:09:10.933
  • AND IT WAS A MAJOR SHIFT IN MYMARRIAGE WHEN I REALIZED THAT
  • 00:09:10.933 --> 00:09:15.337
  • MARRIAGE WHEN I REALIZED THATCONTROL WAS THE ILLUSION.
  • 00:09:15.337 --> 00:09:17.406
  • CONTROL WAS THE ILLUSION.AND I SAID, ALL RIGHT, GOD, I'M
  • 00:09:17.406 --> 00:09:19.575
  • AND I SAID, ALL RIGHT, GOD, I'MJUST GONNA SURRENDER EVERYTHING
  • 00:09:19.575 --> 00:09:20.342
  • JUST GONNA SURRENDER EVERYTHINGTO YOU, BECAUSE I'M TRYING TO
  • 00:09:20.342 --> 00:09:21.343
  • TO YOU, BECAUSE I'M TRYING TOCONTROL IT AND I CAN'T CONTROL
  • 00:09:21.343 --> 00:09:22.811
  • CONTROL IT AND I CAN'T CONTROLIT.
  • 00:09:22.811 --> 00:09:24.947
  • IT.KAREN WAS TALKING ABOUT FEAR.
  • 00:09:24.947 --> 00:09:27.683
  • KAREN WAS TALKING ABOUT FEAR.AND FEAR ALWAYS HAS CERTAIN
  • 00:09:27.683 --> 00:09:29.518
  • AND FEAR ALWAYS HAS CERTAINCONVERSATIONS AND CERTAIN
  • 00:09:29.518 --> 00:09:32.154
  • CONVERSATIONS AND CERTAINACCUSATIONS IN OUR LIFE.
  • 00:09:32.154 --> 00:09:34.222
  • ACCUSATIONS IN OUR LIFE.IT ALWAYS SAYS THINGS LIKE, WHAT
  • 00:09:34.222 --> 00:09:35.657
  • IT ALWAYS SAYS THINGS LIKE, WHATABOUT ME?
  • 00:09:35.657 --> 00:09:37.225
  • ABOUT ME?WHAT ABOUT MINE?
  • 00:09:37.225 --> 00:09:38.627
  • WHAT ABOUT MINE?WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN IF I
  • 00:09:38.627 --> 00:09:40.495
  • WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN IF ISURRENDER MY LIFE TO GOD?
  • 00:09:40.495 --> 00:09:42.998
  • SURRENDER MY LIFE TO GOD?CAN I ACTUALLY TRUST HIM?
  • 00:09:42.998 --> 00:09:45.000
  • CAN I ACTUALLY TRUST HIM?THE BIBLE SAYS YOU CAN CAST ALL
  • 00:09:45.000 --> 00:09:48.103
  • THE BIBLE SAYS YOU CAN CAST ALLYOUR CARES ON HIM.
  • 00:09:48.103 --> 00:09:50.872
  • YOUR CARES ON HIM.BECAUSE HE CARES FOR YOU.
  • 00:09:50.872 --> 00:09:51.573
  • BECAUSE HE CARES FOR YOU.SO THIS IS A SEASON FOR US TO
  • 00:09:51.573 --> 00:09:53.141
  • SO THIS IS A SEASON FOR US TOFIND OUT THE CARES WE'VE BEEN
  • 00:09:53.141 --> 00:09:54.309
  • FIND OUT THE CARES WE'VE BEENCARRYING.
  • 00:09:54.309 --> 00:09:55.711
  • CARRYING.AND CAST THEM ON HIM.
  • 00:09:55.711 --> 00:09:57.613
  • AND CAST THEM ON HIM.THE FUNNY THING IS, JOHN IS
  • 00:09:57.613 --> 00:09:59.214
  • THE FUNNY THING IS, JOHN ISLIVING HIS BEST LIFE NOW.
  • 00:09:59.214 --> 00:10:00.215
  • LIVING HIS BEST LIFE NOW.HE HAS LOVED IT.
  • 00:10:00.215 --> 00:10:02.484
  • HE HAS LOVED IT.WE HAVE COMPLETELY UNDIVIDED
  • 00:10:02.484 --> 00:10:04.553
  • WE HAVE COMPLETELY UNDIVIDEDATTENTION.
  • 00:10:04.553 --> 00:10:05.954
  • ATTENTION.WE HAVE NO CHILDREN AT HOME.
  • 00:10:05.954 --> 00:10:07.389
  • WE HAVE NO CHILDREN AT HOME.HE IS JUST LIKE, WOW! I HAVE MY
  • 00:10:07.389 --> 00:10:09.825
  • HE IS JUST LIKE, WOW! I HAVE MYWIFE.
  • 00:10:09.825 --> 00:10:11.026
  • WIFE.I'M GETTING COFFEE IN BED.
  • 00:10:11.026 --> 00:10:14.262
  • I'M GETTING COFFEE IN BED.I'M GETTING GINGER SHOTS, SO
  • 00:10:14.262 --> 00:10:17.432
  • I'M GETTING GINGER SHOTS, SOIT'S PRETTY FUNNY GOING FROM
  • 00:10:17.432 --> 00:10:18.934
  • IT'S PRETTY FUNNY GOING FROMTHINKING ABOUT THIS MAN DYING
  • 00:10:18.934 --> 00:10:19.968
  • THINKING ABOUT THIS MAN DYINGAND HAVING INSURANCE ON HIM TO
  • 00:10:19.968 --> 00:10:22.604
  • AND HAVING INSURANCE ON HIM TOACTUALLY DOING.
  • 00:10:22.604 --> 00:10:23.338
  • ACTUALLY DOING.- Havilah: LISA, THANKS FOR
  • 00:10:23.338 --> 00:10:24.806
  • - Havilah: LISA, THANKS FORREMINDING ME TO GET THAT LIFE
  • 00:10:24.806 --> 00:10:25.841
  • REMINDING ME TO GET THAT LIFEINSURANCE ON MY HUSBAND BOOSTED.
  • 00:10:25.841 --> 00:10:26.975
  • INSURANCE ON MY HUSBAND BOOSTED.THAT'S A GREAT REMINDER.
  • 00:10:26.975 --> 00:10:28.176
  • THAT'S A GREAT REMINDER.(LAUGHTER).
  • 00:10:28.176 --> 00:10:29.778
  • (LAUGHTER).THAT'S RIGHT.
  • 00:10:29.778 --> 00:10:31.413
  • THAT'S RIGHT.I GREW UP KNOWING THIS STORY.
  • 00:10:31.413 --> 00:10:32.781
  • I GREW UP KNOWING THIS STORY.MY MOM WAS MARRIED TO HER HIGH
  • 00:10:32.781 --> 00:10:35.717
  • MY MOM WAS MARRIED TO HER HIGHSCHOOL SWEETHEART.
  • 00:10:35.717 --> 00:10:38.120
  • SCHOOL SWEETHEART.AND MY MOM HAD MARRIED HIM AND
  • 00:10:38.120 --> 00:10:39.621
  • AND MY MOM HAD MARRIED HIM ANDHE WAS A CROP DUSTING PILOT.
  • 00:10:39.621 --> 00:10:40.555
  • HE WAS A CROP DUSTING PILOT.THOSE PLANES THAT FLY OVER AND
  • 00:10:40.555 --> 00:10:42.691
  • THOSE PLANES THAT FLY OVER ANDBASICALLY SPRAY FIELDS AND THEY
  • 00:10:42.691 --> 00:10:44.159
  • BASICALLY SPRAY FIELDS AND THEYHAVE TO GET VERY LOW AND THAT'S
  • 00:10:44.159 --> 00:10:45.460
  • HAVE TO GET VERY LOW AND THAT'SHOW THEY WOULD PROTECT THE
  • 00:10:45.460 --> 00:10:47.062
  • HOW THEY WOULD PROTECT THEFIELDS.
  • 00:10:47.062 --> 00:10:49.297
  • FIELDS.AND MY MOM SAID ONE NIGHT SHE
  • 00:10:49.297 --> 00:10:51.333
  • AND MY MOM SAID ONE NIGHT SHEHAD BEEN SPLIT UP FROM HER
  • 00:10:51.333 --> 00:10:52.701
  • HAD BEEN SPLIT UP FROM HERHUSBAND, BECAUSE MY MOM HAD
  • 00:10:52.701 --> 00:10:53.468
  • HUSBAND, BECAUSE MY MOM HADACTUALLY GOTTEN SAVED WATCHING
  • 00:10:53.468 --> 00:10:54.936
  • ACTUALLY GOTTEN SAVED WATCHINGBILLY GRAHAM ON THE TELEVISION,
  • 00:10:54.936 --> 00:10:56.104
  • BILLY GRAHAM ON THE TELEVISION,WHICH WHEN SHE GOT SAVED
  • 00:10:56.104 --> 00:10:57.439
  • WHICH WHEN SHE GOT SAVEDAFFECTED HER MARRIAGE.
  • 00:10:57.439 --> 00:10:58.607
  • AFFECTED HER MARRIAGE.BECAUSE HER HUSBAND DIDN'T WANT
  • 00:10:58.607 --> 00:11:00.108
  • BECAUSE HER HUSBAND DIDN'T WANTTO FOLLOW CHRIST.
  • 00:11:00.108 --> 00:11:01.677
  • TO FOLLOW CHRIST.SO THEY SEPARATED AND SHE GOT A
  • 00:11:01.677 --> 00:11:02.978
  • SO THEY SEPARATED AND SHE GOT AKNOCK ON THE DOOR ONE NIGHT AND
  • 00:11:02.978 --> 00:11:04.413
  • KNOCK ON THE DOOR ONE NIGHT ANDHER PARENTS WERE STANDING AT THE
  • 00:11:04.413 --> 00:11:05.847
  • HER PARENTS WERE STANDING AT THEDOOR AND THEY SAID, DENNIS, HER
  • 00:11:05.847 --> 00:11:08.316
  • DOOR AND THEY SAID, DENNIS, HERFIRST HUSBAND HAD BEEN KILLED IN
  • 00:11:08.316 --> 00:11:10.018
  • FIRST HUSBAND HAD BEEN KILLED INA CROP DUSTING ACCIDENT.
  • 00:11:10.018 --> 00:11:12.154
  • A CROP DUSTING ACCIDENT.SHE SAID SHE WILL NEVER FORGET.
  • 00:11:12.154 --> 00:11:13.855
  • SHE SAID SHE WILL NEVER FORGET.SHE WALKED FROM THE DOORWAY INTO
  • 00:11:13.855 --> 00:11:15.891
  • SHE WALKED FROM THE DOORWAY INTOHER BEDROOM AND SHE SAID, ON THE
  • 00:11:15.891 --> 00:11:19.127
  • HER BEDROOM AND SHE SAID, ON THEBED WAS THE SCRIPTURE ROMANS
  • 00:11:19.127 --> 00:11:20.662
  • BED WAS THE SCRIPTURE ROMANS8:28, FOR ALL THINGS WORK
  • 00:11:20.662 --> 00:11:22.364
  • 8:28, FOR ALL THINGS WORKTOGETHER FOR THOSE WHO LOVE GOD
  • 00:11:22.364 --> 00:11:23.131
  • TOGETHER FOR THOSE WHO LOVE GODAND ARE CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS
  • 00:11:23.131 --> 00:11:24.232
  • AND ARE CALLED ACCORDING TO HISPURPOSE.
  • 00:11:24.232 --> 00:11:25.667
  • PURPOSE.AND SHE SAID WHEN SHE SAW THAT
  • 00:11:25.667 --> 00:11:27.235
  • AND SHE SAID WHEN SHE SAW THATSHE KNEW IT WAS ALL GONNA BE
  • 00:11:27.235 --> 00:11:27.936
  • SHE KNEW IT WAS ALL GONNA BEOKAY.
  • 00:11:27.936 --> 00:11:29.905
  • OKAY.SHE SAID THE LORD JUST WALKED
  • 00:11:29.905 --> 00:11:31.139
  • SHE SAID THE LORD JUST WALKEDHER THROUGH THAT SEASON, SHE
  • 00:11:31.139 --> 00:11:32.407
  • HER THROUGH THAT SEASON, SHEFINALLY MET MY DAD WHO WAS
  • 00:11:32.407 --> 00:11:33.942
  • FINALLY MET MY DAD WHO WASCOMPLETELY OPPOSITE.
  • 00:11:33.942 --> 00:11:35.077
  • COMPLETELY OPPOSITE.HE IS A NEW YORK CONGRESSMAN'S
  • 00:11:35.077 --> 00:11:36.044
  • HE IS A NEW YORK CONGRESSMAN'SSON.
  • 00:11:36.044 --> 00:11:37.446
  • SON.SHE IS A FARMER GIRL FROM
  • 00:11:37.446 --> 00:11:38.146
  • SHE IS A FARMER GIRL FROMCALIFORNIA.
  • 00:11:38.146 --> 00:11:39.214
  • CALIFORNIA.AND THEY GOT MARRIED AND I'M THE
  • 00:11:39.214 --> 00:11:41.049
  • AND THEY GOT MARRIED AND I'M THEFRUIT OF THAT RELATIONSHIP.
  • 00:11:41.049 --> 00:11:42.718
  • FRUIT OF THAT RELATIONSHIP.BUT, I THINK MY MOM HAS KEPT
  • 00:11:42.718 --> 00:11:44.453
  • BUT, I THINK MY MOM HAS KEPTTHAT AS LIKE HER NARRATIVE.
  • 00:11:44.453 --> 00:11:46.321
  • THAT AS LIKE HER NARRATIVE.I JUST THINK FOR MANY OF US, AT
  • 00:11:46.321 --> 00:11:49.357
  • I JUST THINK FOR MANY OF US, ATLEAST IN MY WORLD AND I KNOW FOR
  • 00:11:49.357 --> 00:11:51.126
  • LEAST IN MY WORLD AND I KNOW FORMANY PEOPLE THAT ARE WITH US
  • 00:11:51.126 --> 00:11:52.527
  • MANY PEOPLE THAT ARE WITH USTODAY WATCHING THIS, YOU ARE
  • 00:11:52.527 --> 00:11:53.762
  • TODAY WATCHING THIS, YOU AREGETTING THESE KIND OF MOMENTS
  • 00:11:53.762 --> 00:11:54.529
  • GETTING THESE KIND OF MOMENTSWHERE THERE IS KNOCKING AT THE
  • 00:11:54.529 --> 00:11:57.099
  • WHERE THERE IS KNOCKING AT THEDOOR AND WE ARE GETTING EMAILS
  • 00:11:57.099 --> 00:11:58.600
  • DOOR AND WE ARE GETTING EMAILSABOUT A PAY CUT OR LOSING MAYBE
  • 00:11:58.600 --> 00:12:00.168
  • ABOUT A PAY CUT OR LOSING MAYBESOMEBODY'S SICK OR WHATEVER IT
  • 00:12:00.168 --> 00:12:01.670
  • SOMEBODY'S SICK OR WHATEVER ITIS IN OUR WORLD.
  • 00:12:01.670 --> 00:12:03.505
  • IS IN OUR WORLD.AND I REALLY BELIEVE THE
  • 00:12:03.505 --> 00:12:05.207
  • AND I REALLY BELIEVE THEHOLY SPIRIT IS WALKING US INTO
  • 00:12:05.207 --> 00:12:06.641
  • HOLY SPIRIT IS WALKING US INTOTHE ROOM AND WE ARE SEEING THAT
  • 00:12:06.641 --> 00:12:07.943
  • THE ROOM AND WE ARE SEEING THATSIGN THAT SAYS, SWEETHEART,
  • 00:12:07.943 --> 00:12:08.910
  • SIGN THAT SAYS, SWEETHEART,EVERYTHING'S GOING TO ACCORDING
  • 00:12:08.910 --> 00:12:11.313
  • EVERYTHING'S GOING TO ACCORDINGHIS PLAN.
  • 00:12:11.313 --> 00:12:12.013
  • HIS PLAN.YOU DO NOT HAVE TO WORRY.
  • 00:12:12.013 --> 00:12:13.582
  • YOU DO NOT HAVE TO WORRY.MY DAD USED TO SAY, THERE IS A
  • 00:12:13.582 --> 00:12:14.816
  • MY DAD USED TO SAY, THERE IS ASIGN IN HEAVEN THAT SAYS
  • 00:12:14.816 --> 00:12:16.451
  • SIGN IN HEAVEN THAT SAYSEVERYTHING'S GOING ACCORDING TO
  • 00:12:16.451 --> 00:12:17.185
  • EVERYTHING'S GOING ACCORDING TOAS PLANNED.
  • 00:12:17.185 --> 00:12:19.387
  • AS PLANNED.AND I JUST FEEL THAT IN MY OWN
  • 00:12:19.387 --> 00:12:21.823
  • AND I JUST FEEL THAT IN MY OWNHEART, LIKE, I DON'T THINK I'M
  • 00:12:21.823 --> 00:12:22.724
  • HEART, LIKE, I DON'T THINK I'MLIKE WAKING UP WITH THIS, GOD'S
  • 00:12:22.724 --> 00:12:23.458
  • LIKE WAKING UP WITH THIS, GOD'SIN CONTROL.
  • 00:12:23.458 --> 00:12:25.761
  • IN CONTROL.NO, IT'S THIS MOMENTS OF EVERY
  • 00:12:25.761 --> 00:12:28.530
  • NO, IT'S THIS MOMENTS OF EVERYDAY I HAVE TO CHALLENGE MY FEAR
  • 00:12:28.530 --> 00:12:31.133
  • DAY I HAVE TO CHALLENGE MY FEARAND SAY FEAR, I GET TWO
  • 00:12:31.133 --> 00:12:32.801
  • AND SAY FEAR, I GET TWONARRATIVES, A NARRATIVE OF FAITH
  • 00:12:32.801 --> 00:12:33.535
  • NARRATIVES, A NARRATIVE OF FAITHAND A NARRATIVE OF FEAR.
  • 00:12:33.535 --> 00:12:35.270
  • AND A NARRATIVE OF FEAR.AND THE ONLY CHOICE I HAVE IS TO
  • 00:12:35.270 --> 00:12:36.705
  • AND THE ONLY CHOICE I HAVE IS TOCHOOSE WHICH NARRATIVE I'M GOING
  • 00:12:36.705 --> 00:12:38.373
  • CHOOSE WHICH NARRATIVE I'M GOINGTO BELIEVE.
  • 00:12:38.373 --> 00:12:39.341
  • TO BELIEVE.I CAN'T SHUT THE FEAR DOWN,
  • 00:12:39.341 --> 00:12:40.642
  • I CAN'T SHUT THE FEAR DOWN,THERE IS A REAL FEAR.
  • 00:12:40.642 --> 00:12:41.510
  • THERE IS A REAL FEAR.SO I'M NOT GOING TO BE
  • 00:12:41.510 --> 00:12:42.377
  • SO I'M NOT GOING TO BEDELUSIONAL.
  • 00:12:42.377 --> 00:12:43.111
  • DELUSIONAL.LIKE, THERE'S NOTHING TO FEAR.
  • 00:12:43.111 --> 00:12:44.379
  • LIKE, THERE'S NOTHING TO FEAR.NO, NO, THERE ARE THINGS THAT
  • 00:12:44.379 --> 00:12:46.815
  • NO, NO, THERE ARE THINGS THATWILL AFFECT US AND TOUCH US, BUT
  • 00:12:46.815 --> 00:12:48.283
  • WILL AFFECT US AND TOUCH US, BUTTHE NARRATIVE OF FAITH IS WHAT I
  • 00:12:48.283 --> 00:12:49.851
  • THE NARRATIVE OF FAITH IS WHAT IHAVE TO BUY INTO.
  • 00:12:49.851 --> 00:12:52.320
  • HAVE TO BUY INTO.FOR ME, I THINK IT'S THAT RHEMA
  • 00:12:52.320 --> 00:12:53.221
  • FOR ME, I THINK IT'S THAT RHEMAWORD.
  • 00:12:53.221 --> 00:12:54.623
  • WORD.GOD IS IN CONTROL.
  • 00:12:54.623 --> 00:12:56.258
  • GOD IS IN CONTROL.IT'S THAT RHEMA WORD WE HOLD ON
  • 00:12:56.258 --> 00:12:58.226
  • IT'S THAT RHEMA WORD WE HOLD ONTO AND I JUST THINK IF WE DON'T
  • 00:12:58.226 --> 00:12:59.461
  • TO AND I JUST THINK IF WE DON'THAVE THAT, WE ARE TOSSED TO AND
  • 00:12:59.461 --> 00:13:00.428
  • HAVE THAT, WE ARE TOSSED TO ANDFRO BY WHAT EVERYBODY ELSE IS
  • 00:13:00.428 --> 00:13:03.098
  • FRO BY WHAT EVERYBODY ELSE ISSAYING, WHAT EVERYBODY ELSE IS
  • 00:13:03.098 --> 00:13:03.732
  • SAYING, WHAT EVERYBODY ELSE ISDOING.
  • 00:13:03.732 --> 00:13:04.866
  • DOING.BUT WHEN WE KNOW THAT WE KNOW,
  • 00:13:04.866 --> 00:13:07.903
  • BUT WHEN WE KNOW THAT WE KNOW,DAVID SAID WHEN HE WENT TO FIGHT
  • 00:13:07.903 --> 00:13:08.837
  • DAVID SAID WHEN HE WENT TO FIGHTGOLIATH, HE SAID THE GOD WHO DID
  • 00:13:08.837 --> 00:13:09.604
  • GOLIATH, HE SAID THE GOD WHO DIDIT BEFORE WILL DO IT AGAIN.
  • 00:13:09.604 --> 00:13:11.473
  • IT BEFORE WILL DO IT AGAIN.AND LAURIE, THAT'S WHAT WERE YOU
  • 00:13:11.473 --> 00:13:12.674
  • AND LAURIE, THAT'S WHAT WERE YOUTALKING ABOUT.
  • 00:13:12.674 --> 00:13:14.576
  • TALKING ABOUT.WE'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE.
  • 00:13:14.576 --> 00:13:15.277
  • WE'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE.WE'VE DONE THIS.
  • 00:13:15.277 --> 00:13:17.045
  • WE'VE DONE THIS.I WAS IN THE 2008 RECESSION.
  • 00:13:17.045 --> 00:13:18.513
  • I WAS IN THE 2008 RECESSION.I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE.
  • 00:13:18.513 --> 00:13:19.447
  • I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE.WE HAVE LOST A JOB.
  • 00:13:19.447 --> 00:13:20.682
  • WE HAVE LOST A JOB.WE LOST OUR HOME.
  • 00:13:20.682 --> 00:13:22.017
  • WE LOST OUR HOME.WE KNOW WHAT THAT LOOKS LIKE.
  • 00:13:22.017 --> 00:13:23.885
  • WE KNOW WHAT THAT LOOKS LIKE.THE GOD WHO DID IT BEFORE, WHO
  • 00:13:23.885 --> 00:13:25.153
  • THE GOD WHO DID IT BEFORE, WHOGOT US OUT BEFORE, HE WILL DO IT
  • 00:13:25.153 --> 00:13:27.088
  • GOT US OUT BEFORE, HE WILL DO ITAGAIN AND WE CAN BE CONFIDENCE
  • 00:13:27.088 --> 00:13:28.323
  • AGAIN AND WE CAN BE CONFIDENCEIN THAT.
  • 00:13:28.323 --> 00:13:29.991
  • IN THAT.I DON'T KNOW, JADA, IF THAT'S
  • 00:13:29.991 --> 00:13:30.692
  • I DON'T KNOW, JADA, IF THAT'SSOMETHING THAT RESONATES WITH
  • 00:13:30.692 --> 00:13:32.494
  • SOMETHING THAT RESONATES WITHYOU.
  • 00:13:32.494 --> 00:13:33.195
  • YOU.BUT THAT'S BEEN REAL IN OUR
  • 00:13:33.195 --> 00:13:34.496
  • BUT THAT'S BEEN REAL IN OURLIVES.
  • 00:13:34.496 --> 00:13:35.330
  • LIVES.- Jada: YES, HYPOTHETICALLY FOR
  • 00:13:35.330 --> 00:13:36.231
  • - Jada: YES, HYPOTHETICALLY FORPEOPLE WHO HAVE CONTROL ISSUES,
  • 00:13:36.231 --> 00:13:38.033
  • PEOPLE WHO HAVE CONTROL ISSUES,AND I TRY TO TAKE IN THESE
  • 00:13:38.033 --> 00:13:39.401
  • AND I TRY TO TAKE IN THESETRUTHS SO I CAN SHARE WISDOM
  • 00:13:39.401 --> 00:13:40.836
  • TRUTHS SO I CAN SHARE WISDOMWITH THEM BECAUSE I HAVE NO
  • 00:13:40.836 --> 00:13:42.604
  • WITH THEM BECAUSE I HAVE NOCONTROL ISSUES, BUT, NO, REALLY,
  • 00:13:42.604 --> 00:13:43.405
  • CONTROL ISSUES, BUT, NO, REALLY,(LAUGHTER).
  • 00:13:43.405 --> 00:13:47.843
  • (LAUGHTER).I GREW UP IN A HOUSE, MY MOTHER
  • 00:13:47.843 --> 00:13:51.446
  • I GREW UP IN A HOUSE, MY MOTHERWAS ONE OF THE SWEETEST, JUST
  • 00:13:51.446 --> 00:13:53.148
  • WAS ONE OF THE SWEETEST, JUSTLIKE TAKE YOUR WORD AT FACE
  • 00:13:53.148 --> 00:13:53.849
  • LIKE TAKE YOUR WORD AT FACEVALUE, NEVER ASKED ANY
  • 00:13:53.849 --> 00:13:54.549
  • VALUE, NEVER ASKED ANYQUESTIONS.
  • 00:13:54.549 --> 00:13:55.750
  • QUESTIONS.I'VE NEVER BEEN THAT PERSON.
  • 00:13:55.750 --> 00:13:56.852
  • I'VE NEVER BEEN THAT PERSON.I'M ALWAYS INQUISITIVE.
  • 00:13:56.852 --> 00:13:57.953
  • I'M ALWAYS INQUISITIVE.PROBABLY TO THE POINT OF
  • 00:13:57.953 --> 00:13:58.620
  • PROBABLY TO THE POINT OFANNOYANCE.
  • 00:13:58.620 --> 00:14:00.355
  • ANNOYANCE.AND I REMEMBER ASKING HER ONE
  • 00:14:00.355 --> 00:14:02.691
  • AND I REMEMBER ASKING HER ONEPARTICULAR THING ABOUT SOMETHING
  • 00:14:02.691 --> 00:14:03.859
  • PARTICULAR THING ABOUT SOMETHINGHOW MUCH MY FATHER MADE, INCOME
  • 00:14:03.859 --> 00:14:05.227
  • HOW MUCH MY FATHER MADE, INCOMEQUESTION.
  • 00:14:05.227 --> 00:14:06.161
  • QUESTION.SHE WAS LIKE, I DON'T KNOW, I
  • 00:14:06.161 --> 00:14:08.230
  • SHE WAS LIKE, I DON'T KNOW, ISAID WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T
  • 00:14:08.230 --> 00:14:09.497
  • SAID WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'TKNOW?
  • 00:14:09.497 --> 00:14:10.665
  • KNOW?SHE WAS LIKE, HE DEPOSITS THE
  • 00:14:10.665 --> 00:14:11.433
  • SHE WAS LIKE, HE DEPOSITS THECHECK IN THERE AND THERE'S MONEY
  • 00:14:11.433 --> 00:14:12.067
  • CHECK IN THERE AND THERE'S MONEYIN THERE.
  • 00:14:12.067 --> 00:14:12.968
  • IN THERE.I SAID, YOU DON'T KNOW EXACTLY
  • 00:14:12.968 --> 00:14:13.501
  • I SAID, YOU DON'T KNOW EXACTLYHOW MUCH HE MAKES?
  • 00:14:13.501 --> 00:14:16.638
  • HOW MUCH HE MAKES?ALL THESE THINGS.
  • 00:14:16.638 --> 00:14:18.106
  • ALL THESE THINGS.BECAUSE MY DAD WAS LIKE HE
  • 00:14:18.106 --> 00:14:19.307
  • BECAUSE MY DAD WAS LIKE HEHANDLED THE BUSINESS, HE TOOK
  • 00:14:19.307 --> 00:14:21.142
  • HANDLED THE BUSINESS, HE TOOKCARE OF THE HOUSE, HE COOKED.
  • 00:14:21.142 --> 00:14:22.344
  • CARE OF THE HOUSE, HE COOKED.HE WAS LIKE A FABULOUS FATHER,
  • 00:14:22.344 --> 00:14:23.945
  • HE WAS LIKE A FABULOUS FATHER,IS A FABULOUS FATHER.
  • 00:14:23.945 --> 00:14:25.380
  • IS A FABULOUS FATHER.MY MOM WAS JUST LIKE, I'M FINE.
  • 00:14:25.380 --> 00:14:26.615
  • MY MOM WAS JUST LIKE, I'M FINE.HE TAKES CARE OF THINGS.
  • 00:14:26.615 --> 00:14:27.682
  • HE TAKES CARE OF THINGS.IT IS FINE.
  • 00:14:27.682 --> 00:14:29.517
  • IT IS FINE.I REMEMBER AS A YOUNG CHILD
  • 00:14:29.517 --> 00:14:31.186
  • I REMEMBER AS A YOUNG CHILDMAKING A VOW IN MY HEAD.
  • 00:14:31.186 --> 00:14:33.121
  • MAKING A VOW IN MY HEAD.I WILL NOT BE THAT PERSON.
  • 00:14:33.121 --> 00:14:34.422
  • I WILL NOT BE THAT PERSON.WHEN I GET MARRIED, I NEED TO
  • 00:14:34.422 --> 00:14:35.757
  • WHEN I GET MARRIED, I NEED TOKNOW EVERYTHING HAPPENING AT ALL
  • 00:14:35.757 --> 00:14:37.926
  • KNOW EVERYTHING HAPPENING AT ALLTIMES.
  • 00:14:37.926 --> 00:14:39.794
  • TIMES.AND THAT IS PROBABLY, WAS THE
  • 00:14:39.794 --> 00:14:41.997
  • AND THAT IS PROBABLY, WAS THETHORN IN MY HUSBAND'S SIDE FOR
  • 00:14:41.997 --> 00:14:43.698
  • THORN IN MY HUSBAND'S SIDE FORABOUT TEN YEARS, THE FIRST TEN
  • 00:14:43.698 --> 00:14:45.800
  • ABOUT TEN YEARS, THE FIRST TENYEARS OF OUR MARRIAGE.
  • 00:14:45.800 --> 00:14:48.536
  • YEARS OF OUR MARRIAGE.BUT, I KNOW THAT MY CONTROL
  • 00:14:48.536 --> 00:14:51.139
  • BUT, I KNOW THAT MY CONTROLISSUES THEY STEM SOMEWHAT FROM
  • 00:14:51.139 --> 00:14:52.440
  • ISSUES THEY STEM SOMEWHAT FROMMY PERSONALITY, THE WAY I'M
  • 00:14:52.440 --> 00:14:53.909
  • MY PERSONALITY, THE WAY I'MWIRED, BUT ALSO, HOW I'VE CHOSEN
  • 00:14:53.909 --> 00:14:55.243
  • WIRED, BUT ALSO, HOW I'VE CHOSENTO NURTURE SOME OF THAT ANXIETY.
  • 00:14:55.243 --> 00:14:59.047
  • TO NURTURE SOME OF THAT ANXIETY.AND FOR ME, I CAN TELL THE
  • 00:14:59.047 --> 00:15:03.318
  • AND FOR ME, I CAN TELL THEDIFFERENCE WHEN I'M ALLOWING GOD
  • 00:15:03.318 --> 00:15:04.119
  • DIFFERENCE WHEN I'M ALLOWING GODTO BE IN CONTROL, WHEN I REALLY
  • 00:15:04.119 --> 00:15:05.387
  • TO BE IN CONTROL, WHEN I REALLYBELIEVE HE IS IN CONTROL BASED
  • 00:15:05.387 --> 00:15:06.821
  • BELIEVE HE IS IN CONTROL BASEDON THE KIND OF CONVERSATIONS I'M
  • 00:15:06.821 --> 00:15:07.923
  • ON THE KIND OF CONVERSATIONS I'MHAVING WITH GOD, THE KIND OF
  • 00:15:07.923 --> 00:15:08.790
  • HAVING WITH GOD, THE KIND OFQUESTIONS I'M ASKING GOD.
  • 00:15:08.790 --> 00:15:11.493
  • QUESTIONS I'M ASKING GOD.WITH MY HUSBAND, THE FIRST
  • 00:15:11.493 --> 00:15:12.861
  • WITH MY HUSBAND, THE FIRSTSEVERAL YEARS OF MARRIAGE, I
  • 00:15:12.861 --> 00:15:16.197
  • SEVERAL YEARS OF MARRIAGE, IWANTED THE KIND OF QUESTIONS I'M
  • 00:15:16.197 --> 00:15:18.466
  • WANTED THE KIND OF QUESTIONS I'MASKING GOD.
  • 00:15:18.466 --> 00:15:22.070
  • ASKING GOD.BECAUSE WITH MY HUSBAND, THE
  • 00:15:22.070 --> 00:15:23.905
  • BECAUSE WITH MY HUSBAND, THEFIRST SEVERAL YEARS OF MARRIAGE,
  • 00:15:23.905 --> 00:15:27.542
  • FIRST SEVERAL YEARS OF MARRIAGE,I WANTED TO KNOW EVERYTHING,
  • 00:15:27.542 --> 00:15:28.376
  • I WANTED TO KNOW EVERYTHING,TELL ME THIS.
  • 00:15:28.376 --> 00:15:31.646
  • TELL ME THIS.I NEED TO KNOW A., B. AND C.
  • 00:15:31.646 --> 00:15:32.380
  • I NEED TO KNOW A., B. AND C.I WANT THE RECEIPTS, SCAN IT IN.
  • 00:15:32.380 --> 00:15:33.148
  • I WANT THE RECEIPTS, SCAN IT IN.I NEED TO SEE EVERYTHING ALL THE
  • 00:15:33.148 --> 00:15:36.351
  • I NEED TO SEE EVERYTHING ALL THETIME.
  • 00:15:36.351 --> 00:15:37.519
  • TIME.AND COMMUNICATION IS DIFFERENT
  • 00:15:37.519 --> 00:15:38.019
  • AND COMMUNICATION IS DIFFERENTTHAN CONTROL.
  • 00:15:38.019 --> 00:15:43.258
  • THAN CONTROL.COMMUNICATION IS NOT THE SAME AS
  • 00:15:43.258 --> 00:15:45.260
  • COMMUNICATION IS NOT THE SAME ASCONTROL.
  • 00:15:45.260 --> 00:15:45.827
  • CONTROL.I JUST WAS NITPICKING
  • 00:15:45.827 --> 00:15:46.294
  • I JUST WAS NITPICKINGEVERYTHING.
  • 00:15:46.294 --> 00:15:47.762
  • EVERYTHING.I HAD A LOT OF FEAR, ANXIETY.
  • 00:15:47.762 --> 00:15:49.164
  • I HAD A LOT OF FEAR, ANXIETY.I WAS LIKE, WHAT IF HE'S
  • 00:15:49.164 --> 00:15:49.597
  • I WAS LIKE, WHAT IF HE'SUNFAITHFUL?
  • 00:15:49.597 --> 00:15:50.332
  • UNFAITHFUL?WHAT IF THERE'S SOMETHING GOING
  • 00:15:50.332 --> 00:15:51.132
  • WHAT IF THERE'S SOMETHING GOINGON I DON'T KNOW ABOUT?
  • 00:15:51.132 --> 00:15:51.866
  • ON I DON'T KNOW ABOUT?JUST FEAR THAT WAS DRIVING THIS
  • 00:15:51.866 --> 00:15:52.367
  • JUST FEAR THAT WAS DRIVING THISCONTROL.
  • 00:15:52.367 --> 00:15:53.134
  • CONTROL.AND I REMEMBER SOMEWHERE AROUND
  • 00:15:53.134 --> 00:15:53.969
  • AND I REMEMBER SOMEWHERE AROUNDTHE NINE OR TEN YEAR MARK IN OUR
  • 00:15:53.969 --> 00:15:54.703
  • THE NINE OR TEN YEAR MARK IN OURMARRIAGE, WE ARE AT 19 NOW SO
  • 00:15:54.703 --> 00:15:55.470
  • MARRIAGE, WE ARE AT 19 NOW SOSOMEWHERE AT THE HALF WAY POINT,
  • 00:15:55.470 --> 00:15:56.104
  • SOMEWHERE AT THE HALF WAY POINT,SOMETHING HAPPENED IN OUR
  • 00:15:56.104 --> 00:15:56.438
  • SOMETHING HAPPENED IN OURFAMILY.
  • 00:15:56.438 --> 00:15:57.072
  • FAMILY.WE WERE HAVING OUR FAMILY
  • 00:15:57.072 --> 00:15:57.806
  • WE WERE HAVING OUR FAMILYCONVERSATION IN DECEMBER, WE GO
  • 00:15:57.806 --> 00:15:58.373
  • CONVERSATION IN DECEMBER, WE GOTO ALL THESE THINGS.
  • 00:15:58.373 --> 00:15:59.107
  • TO ALL THESE THINGS.AND HE LAYS OUT THIS STUFF, SOME
  • 00:15:59.107 --> 00:15:59.808
  • AND HE LAYS OUT THIS STUFF, SOMETHINGS, SOME INVESTMENTS, SOME
  • 00:15:59.808 --> 00:16:00.475
  • THINGS, SOME INVESTMENTS, SOMELIFE INSURANCE, SOME THINGS
  • 00:16:00.475 --> 00:16:01.109
  • LIFE INSURANCE, SOME THINGSHAPPENING WITH OUR HOME.
  • 00:16:01.109 --> 00:16:01.743
  • HAPPENING WITH OUR HOME.JUST VARIOUS THINGS HE WAS
  • 00:16:01.743 --> 00:16:02.143
  • JUST VARIOUS THINGS HE WASWORKING ON.
  • 00:16:02.143 --> 00:16:02.811
  • WORKING ON.AND I WAS SHARING WHAT I WAS
  • 00:16:02.811 --> 00:16:03.478
  • AND I WAS SHARING WHAT I WASWORKING ON, AND I REMEMBER
  • 00:16:03.478 --> 00:16:04.579
  • WORKING ON, AND I REMEMBERLOOKING AT ALL THIS INFORMATION
  • 00:16:04.579 --> 00:16:06.081
  • LOOKING AT ALL THIS INFORMATIONTHAT HE LAID OUT AND SAYING, I
  • 00:16:06.081 --> 00:16:07.916
  • THAT HE LAID OUT AND SAYING, IREALLY DID NOT KNOW SOME OF
  • 00:16:07.916 --> 00:16:09.351
  • REALLY DID NOT KNOW SOME OFTHESE THINGS WERE HAPPENING.
  • 00:16:09.351 --> 00:16:11.086
  • THESE THINGS WERE HAPPENING.I DID NOT DOUBT HE WAS TAKING
  • 00:16:11.086 --> 00:16:12.087
  • I DID NOT DOUBT HE WAS TAKINGCARE OF OUR FAMILY.
  • 00:16:12.087 --> 00:16:13.922
  • CARE OF OUR FAMILY.IT WAS A MOMENT WHERE GOD SAID,
  • 00:16:13.922 --> 00:16:15.957
  • IT WAS A MOMENT WHERE GOD SAID,DO YOU SEE THAT YOU DON'T HAVE
  • 00:16:15.957 --> 00:16:17.058
  • DO YOU SEE THAT YOU DON'T HAVETO KNOW EVERYTHING FOR
  • 00:16:17.058 --> 00:16:18.326
  • TO KNOW EVERYTHING FOREVERYTHING TO BE OKAY?
  • 00:16:18.326 --> 00:16:20.095
  • EVERYTHING TO BE OKAY?AND IT WAS A MOMENT WHERE I
  • 00:16:20.095 --> 00:16:21.796
  • AND IT WAS A MOMENT WHERE IREALLY STARTED TO REALIZE THAT
  • 00:16:21.796 --> 00:16:23.865
  • REALLY STARTED TO REALIZE THATCONTROL, I CAN SAY GOD IS IN
  • 00:16:23.865 --> 00:16:24.833
  • CONTROL, I CAN SAY GOD IS INCONTROL ALL DAY LONG, BUT I KNOW
  • 00:16:24.833 --> 00:16:26.835
  • CONTROL ALL DAY LONG, BUT I KNOWWHEN I BELIEVE IT BASED ON MY
  • 00:16:26.835 --> 00:16:28.937
  • WHEN I BELIEVE IT BASED ON MYOWN BEHAVIOR BECAUSE I'M NOT
  • 00:16:28.937 --> 00:16:30.505
  • OWN BEHAVIOR BECAUSE I'M NOTASKING GOD FOR EXPLANATION.
  • 00:16:30.505 --> 00:16:32.073
  • ASKING GOD FOR EXPLANATION.I'M NOT ASKING GOD FOR TIMELINES
  • 00:16:32.073 --> 00:16:34.642
  • I'M NOT ASKING GOD FOR TIMELINESAND NEXT STEPS.
  • 00:16:34.642 --> 00:16:35.910
  • AND NEXT STEPS.I'M JUST ASKING GOD FOR WHAT HE
  • 00:16:35.910 --> 00:16:36.978
  • I'M JUST ASKING GOD FOR WHAT HEWANTS TO TELL ME.
  • 00:16:36.978 --> 00:16:38.580
  • WANTS TO TELL ME.I'M TRUSTING GOD FOR WHERE I AM.
  • 00:16:38.580 --> 00:16:40.448
  • I'M TRUSTING GOD FOR WHERE I AM.I GO DAYS AT A TIME WITHOUT EVEN
  • 00:16:40.448 --> 00:16:41.149
  • I GO DAYS AT A TIME WITHOUT EVENASKING GOD A QUESTION.
  • 00:16:41.149 --> 00:16:43.284
  • ASKING GOD A QUESTION.JUST CONVERSATION.
  • 00:16:43.284 --> 00:16:44.419
  • JUST CONVERSATION.JUST THANKFUL.
  • 00:16:44.419 --> 00:16:48.590
  • JUST THANKFUL.ONE WAVERING CONFERENCE.
  • 00:16:48.590 --> 00:16:50.091
  • ONE WAVERING CONFERENCE.ONE OF THE WAYS IF YOU ARE
  • 00:16:50.091 --> 00:16:50.892
  • ONE OF THE WAYS IF YOU AREWONDERING HOW DO I GET PAST THE
  • 00:16:50.892 --> 00:16:51.893
  • WONDERING HOW DO I GET PAST THECLICHE OR THE CATCHPHRASE GOD IS
  • 00:16:51.893 --> 00:16:53.528
  • CLICHE OR THE CATCHPHRASE GOD ISIN CONTROL?
  • 00:16:53.528 --> 00:16:55.563
  • IN CONTROL?ASK YOURSELF WHAT QUESTIONS ARE
  • 00:16:55.563 --> 00:16:57.098
  • ASK YOURSELF WHAT QUESTIONS AREYOU ASKING GOD?
  • 00:16:57.098 --> 00:16:58.433
  • YOU ASKING GOD?THE PEOPLE YOU BELIEVE ARE
  • 00:16:58.433 --> 00:17:00.201
  • THE PEOPLE YOU BELIEVE AREREALLY IN CONTROL AND YOU TRUST
  • 00:17:00.201 --> 00:17:01.369
  • REALLY IN CONTROL AND YOU TRUSTWHAT THEY DO, YOU DON'T QUESTION
  • 00:17:01.369 --> 00:17:02.604
  • WHAT THEY DO, YOU DON'T QUESTIONTHEIR ABILITIES.
  • 00:17:02.604 --> 00:17:03.738
  • THEIR ABILITIES.YOU MIGHT WANT TO COMMUNICATE
  • 00:17:03.738 --> 00:17:04.906
  • YOU MIGHT WANT TO COMMUNICATEWITH GOD, PRAY, PRAY, PRAY ALL
  • 00:17:04.906 --> 00:17:05.640
  • WITH GOD, PRAY, PRAY, PRAY ALLDAY, BUT COMMUNICATION IS NOT
  • 00:17:05.640 --> 00:17:06.775
  • DAY, BUT COMMUNICATION IS NOTTHE SAME AS CONTROL.
  • 00:17:06.775 --> 00:17:08.877
  • THE SAME AS CONTROL.SO FOR ME, THAT IS ONE OF MY
  • 00:17:08.877 --> 00:17:11.980
  • SO FOR ME, THAT IS ONE OF MYBENCHMARKS, JADA, WHAT KIND OF
  • 00:17:11.980 --> 00:17:13.314
  • BENCHMARKS, JADA, WHAT KIND OFQUESTIONS ARE YOU ASKING?
  • 00:17:13.314 --> 00:17:14.783
  • QUESTIONS ARE YOU ASKING?IS IT EXPLANATION?
  • 00:17:14.783 --> 00:17:16.317
  • IS IT EXPLANATION?IS IT DEMANDEDNESS?
  • 00:17:16.317 --> 00:17:17.552
  • IS IT DEMANDEDNESS?OR IS THIS CONVERSATION BECAUSE
  • 00:17:17.552 --> 00:17:21.489
  • OR IS THIS CONVERSATION BECAUSEYOU TRUST GOD REALLY HAS IT?
  • 00:17:21.489 --> 00:17:22.857
  • YOU TRUST GOD REALLY HAS IT?- Karen: I LOVE THAT, JADA, I
  • 00:17:22.857 --> 00:17:23.558
  • - Karen: I LOVE THAT, JADA, ILOVE WHAT YOU SAID ABOUT THE
  • 00:17:23.558 --> 00:17:24.125
  • LOVE WHAT YOU SAID ABOUT THENEVERS.
  • 00:17:24.125 --> 00:17:26.528
  • NEVERS.I REMEMBER SAYING EARLY ON IN MY
  • 00:17:26.528 --> 00:17:28.063
  • I REMEMBER SAYING EARLY ON IN MYMARRIAGE, I WILL NEVER BE A STAY
  • 00:17:28.063 --> 00:17:29.898
  • MARRIAGE, I WILL NEVER BE A STAYAT HOME MOM.
  • 00:17:29.898 --> 00:17:33.368
  • AT HOME MOM.GOD WAS LIKE, YUP, THAT'S
  • 00:17:33.368 --> 00:17:34.903
  • GOD WAS LIKE, YUP, THAT'SEXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE GONNA DO.
  • 00:17:34.903 --> 00:17:35.904
  • EXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE GONNA DO.THAT IS PRIMARILY WHAT I DO NOW.
  • 00:17:35.904 --> 00:17:39.307
  • THAT IS PRIMARILY WHAT I DO NOW.I SAID I WILL NEVER BE A HOME
  • 00:17:39.307 --> 00:17:41.709
  • I SAID I WILL NEVER BE A HOMESCHOOL MOM AND I'VE BEEN DOING
  • 00:17:41.709 --> 00:17:42.811
  • SCHOOL MOM AND I'VE BEEN DOINGTHAT FOR THE LAST SEVEN YEARS
  • 00:17:42.811 --> 00:17:44.012
  • THAT FOR THE LAST SEVEN YEARSBEFORE ALL OF THIS CRISIS,
  • 00:17:44.012 --> 00:17:45.847
  • BEFORE ALL OF THIS CRISIS,SCHOOLING, WE HAVE BEEN DOING
  • 00:17:45.847 --> 00:17:46.881
  • SCHOOLING, WE HAVE BEEN DOINGTHIS THE LAST SEVEN YEARS.
  • 00:17:46.881 --> 00:17:48.016
  • THIS THE LAST SEVEN YEARS.I HAVE FRIENDS THAT CALL ME JUST
  • 00:17:48.016 --> 00:17:49.184
  • I HAVE FRIENDS THAT CALL ME JUSTTO MAKE SURE MY KIDS ARE STILL
  • 00:17:49.184 --> 00:17:50.318
  • TO MAKE SURE MY KIDS ARE STILLDOING OKAY BECAUSE I'M THE LAST
  • 00:17:50.318 --> 00:17:51.119
  • DOING OKAY BECAUSE I'M THE LASTPERSON ON THE PLANET THAT NEEDS
  • 00:17:51.119 --> 00:17:52.687
  • PERSON ON THE PLANET THAT NEEDSTO BE ONLY SCHOOLING.
  • 00:17:52.687 --> 00:17:55.123
  • TO BE ONLY SCHOOLING.I THINK WE MAKE ALL THESE INNER
  • 00:17:55.123 --> 00:17:55.890
  • I THINK WE MAKE ALL THESE INNERVOWS ALMOST TO TRY TO KEEP SOME
  • 00:17:55.890 --> 00:17:56.991
  • VOWS ALMOST TO TRY TO KEEP SOMEOF THAT CONTROL.
  • 00:17:56.991 --> 00:17:58.860
  • OF THAT CONTROL.WE SAY WE'LL NEVER DO THIS,
  • 00:17:58.860 --> 00:18:00.495
  • WE SAY WE'LL NEVER DO THIS,WE'LL NEVER DO THAT.
  • 00:18:00.495 --> 00:18:02.030
  • WE'LL NEVER DO THAT.ALL IT IS IS A MISTRUST IN
  • 00:18:02.030 --> 00:18:04.632
  • ALL IT IS IS A MISTRUST INKNOWING GOD WILL DO WHAT HE SAYS
  • 00:18:04.632 --> 00:18:06.434
  • KNOWING GOD WILL DO WHAT HE SAYSHE WILL DO.
  • 00:18:06.434 --> 00:18:08.203
  • HE WILL DO.IT COMES DOWN TO THE FEAR THAT
  • 00:18:08.203 --> 00:18:10.338
  • IT COMES DOWN TO THE FEAR THATWE WERE TALKING ABOUT EARLIER
  • 00:18:10.338 --> 00:18:11.539
  • WE WERE TALKING ABOUT EARLIERAND THAT LACK OF TRUST.
  • 00:18:11.539 --> 00:18:12.574
  • AND THAT LACK OF TRUST.I REMEMBER TWO YEARS AGO I WENT
  • 00:18:12.574 --> 00:18:13.741
  • I REMEMBER TWO YEARS AGO I WENTTHROUGH A PERJURY CRISIS THAT
  • 00:18:13.741 --> 00:18:14.909
  • THROUGH A PERJURY CRISIS THATREALLY CAUSED ME TO HAVE TO GO
  • 00:18:14.909 --> 00:18:16.411
  • REALLY CAUSED ME TO HAVE TO GOTHROUGH THIS TIME OF LIKE, GOD,
  • 00:18:16.411 --> 00:18:17.912
  • THROUGH THIS TIME OF LIKE, GOD,DO I REALLY TRUST YOU LIKE I SAY
  • 00:18:17.912 --> 00:18:19.314
  • DO I REALLY TRUST YOU LIKE I SAYTHAT I DO?
  • 00:18:19.314 --> 00:18:20.482
  • THAT I DO?THAT I'VE BEEN SAYING AS A
  • 00:18:20.482 --> 00:18:23.685
  • THAT I'VE BEEN SAYING AS ABELIEVER FOR OVER 35 YEARS?
  • 00:18:23.685 --> 00:18:26.454
  • BELIEVER FOR OVER 35 YEARS?I TRUST YOU, I GOT THIS.
  • 00:18:26.454 --> 00:18:28.723
  • I TRUST YOU, I GOT THIS.IN TIME OF CRISIS I THINK THAT
  • 00:18:28.723 --> 00:18:30.425
  • IN TIME OF CRISIS I THINK THATGETS TESTED.
  • 00:18:30.425 --> 00:18:31.392
  • GETS TESTED.TWO YEARS AGO I WAS IN THE LAST
  • 00:18:31.392 --> 00:18:32.527
  • TWO YEARS AGO I WAS IN THE LASTTRIMESTER OF MY PREGNANCY AND I
  • 00:18:32.527 --> 00:18:33.995
  • TRIMESTER OF MY PREGNANCY AND IWAS DIAGNOSED WITH THIS REALLY
  • 00:18:33.995 --> 00:18:36.064
  • WAS DIAGNOSED WITH THIS REALLYRARE CONDITION THAT LEFT ME
  • 00:18:36.064 --> 00:18:38.233
  • RARE CONDITION THAT LEFT MEUNABLE TO WALK.
  • 00:18:38.233 --> 00:18:39.901
  • UNABLE TO WALK.I HAD EXCRUCIATING PAIN IN MY
  • 00:18:39.901 --> 00:18:40.902
  • I HAD EXCRUCIATING PAIN IN MYHIP.
  • 00:18:40.902 --> 00:18:42.937
  • HIP.EVERY MOTION WAS JUST
  • 00:18:42.937 --> 00:18:44.405
  • EVERY MOTION WAS JUSTEXCRUCIATING, SITTING, STANDING.
  • 00:18:44.405 --> 00:18:46.074
  • EXCRUCIATING, SITTING, STANDING.IF I HAD TO GO ANYWHERE IN THE
  • 00:18:46.074 --> 00:18:47.242
  • IF I HAD TO GO ANYWHERE IN THEHOUSE, I HAD TO USE CRUTCHES OR
  • 00:18:47.242 --> 00:18:48.276
  • HOUSE, I HAD TO USE CRUTCHES ORA WHEELCHAIR.
  • 00:18:48.276 --> 00:18:49.677
  • A WHEELCHAIR.I DIDN'T GET TO LEAVE THE HOUSE.
  • 00:18:49.677 --> 00:18:51.312
  • I DIDN'T GET TO LEAVE THE HOUSE.I DIDN'T DRIVE ANYWHERE.
  • 00:18:51.312 --> 00:18:53.314
  • I DIDN'T DRIVE ANYWHERE.I LITERALLY COULD NOT WALK.
  • 00:18:53.314 --> 00:18:55.617
  • I LITERALLY COULD NOT WALK.AND THE PROGNOSIS THEY GAVE ME
  • 00:18:55.617 --> 00:18:56.885
  • AND THE PROGNOSIS THEY GAVE MEBECAUSE THIS WAS SO RARE WAS,
  • 00:18:56.885 --> 00:18:59.587
  • BECAUSE THIS WAS SO RARE WAS,YOU MAYBE ABLE TO WALK SIX TO
  • 00:18:59.587 --> 00:19:01.389
  • YOU MAYBE ABLE TO WALK SIX TONINE MONTHS AFTER YOU DELIVER
  • 00:19:01.389 --> 00:19:02.457
  • NINE MONTHS AFTER YOU DELIVERYOUR BABY, BUT WE CANNOT
  • 00:19:02.457 --> 00:19:03.391
  • YOUR BABY, BUT WE CANNOTGUARANTEE THAT.
  • 00:19:03.391 --> 00:19:04.893
  • GUARANTEE THAT.WE DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT'S GONNA
  • 00:19:04.893 --> 00:19:05.860
  • WE DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT'S GONNALOOK LIKE.
  • 00:19:05.860 --> 00:19:08.630
  • LOOK LIKE.AND I REMEMBER GOING, GOD, WHAT
  • 00:19:08.630 --> 00:19:09.631
  • AND I REMEMBER GOING, GOD, WHATARE YOU DOING?
  • 00:19:09.631 --> 00:19:11.199
  • ARE YOU DOING?I HAVE BEEN FAITHFUL TO YOU.
  • 00:19:11.199 --> 00:19:13.301
  • I HAVE BEEN FAITHFUL TO YOU.I HAVE LOVED YOU.
  • 00:19:13.301 --> 00:19:15.036
  • I HAVE LOVED YOU.I HAVE SERVED YOU EVERY DAY OF
  • 00:19:15.036 --> 00:19:15.870
  • I HAVE SERVED YOU EVERY DAY OFMY LIFE SINCE I COMMITTED MY
  • 00:19:15.870 --> 00:19:17.238
  • MY LIFE SINCE I COMMITTED MYLIFE TO YOU.
  • 00:19:17.238 --> 00:19:20.241
  • LIFE TO YOU.WHY WOULD YOU LET THIS HAPPEN?
  • 00:19:20.241 --> 00:19:21.009
  • WHY WOULD YOU LET THIS HAPPEN?AND I WENT THROUGH THIS MASSIVE
  • 00:19:21.009 --> 00:19:21.976
  • AND I WENT THROUGH THIS MASSIVECRISIS OF FAITH.
  • 00:19:21.976 --> 00:19:22.944
  • CRISIS OF FAITH.A LOT OF ANGER.
  • 00:19:22.944 --> 00:19:24.245
  • A LOT OF ANGER.A LOT OF BITTERNESS, A LOT OF
  • 00:19:24.245 --> 00:19:25.313
  • A LOT OF BITTERNESS, A LOT OFDISILLUSIONMENT.
  • 00:19:25.313 --> 00:19:26.781
  • DISILLUSIONMENT.KIND OF LIKE WHAT PEOPLE ARE
  • 00:19:26.781 --> 00:19:27.549
  • KIND OF LIKE WHAT PEOPLE AREGOING THROUGH NOW.
  • 00:19:27.549 --> 00:19:28.950
  • GOING THROUGH NOW.QUESTIONING THE GOODNESS OF GOD.
  • 00:19:28.950 --> 00:19:31.319
  • QUESTIONING THE GOODNESS OF GOD.BUT I HAD TO GET TO THIS PLACE.
  • 00:19:31.319 --> 00:19:32.820
  • BUT I HAD TO GET TO THIS PLACE.I REMEMBER A FRIENDS TELLING ME
  • 00:19:32.820 --> 00:19:34.022
  • I REMEMBER A FRIENDS TELLING MEABOUT ROMANS 8:28 WHICH YOU WERE
  • 00:19:34.022 --> 00:19:34.789
  • ABOUT ROMANS 8:28 WHICH YOU WERETALKING ABOUT HAVILAH ABOUT HOW
  • 00:19:34.789 --> 00:19:36.524
  • TALKING ABOUT HAVILAH ABOUT HOWALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR
  • 00:19:36.524 --> 00:19:37.825
  • ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FORGOOD FOR THOSE THAT LOVE GOD.
  • 00:19:37.825 --> 00:19:39.127
  • GOOD FOR THOSE THAT LOVE GOD.SO IF I REALLY BELIEVE THAT
  • 00:19:39.127 --> 00:19:40.828
  • SO IF I REALLY BELIEVE THATVERSE AND I KNOW THAT SOMEHOW,
  • 00:19:40.828 --> 00:19:42.564
  • VERSE AND I KNOW THAT SOMEHOW,SOME WAY HE WILL WORK ALL OF
  • 00:19:42.564 --> 00:19:44.098
  • SOME WAY HE WILL WORK ALL OFTHIS OUT FOR HIS GOOD FOR OUR
  • 00:19:44.098 --> 00:19:47.435
  • THIS OUT FOR HIS GOOD FOR OURGOOD AND FOR HIS GLORY, THEN I
  • 00:19:47.435 --> 00:19:49.137
  • GOOD AND FOR HIS GLORY, THEN IHAVE TO TRUST HE HAS IT.
  • 00:19:49.137 --> 00:19:51.272
  • HAVE TO TRUST HE HAS IT.SO I HAD TO GIVE UP CONTROL,
  • 00:19:51.272 --> 00:19:53.007
  • SO I HAD TO GIVE UP CONTROL,BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE A CHOICE.
  • 00:19:53.007 --> 00:19:54.442
  • BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE A CHOICE.LITERALLY, EVERY AMOUNT OF
  • 00:19:54.442 --> 00:19:55.643
  • LITERALLY, EVERY AMOUNT OFPHYSICAL CONTROL WAS TAKEN AWAY
  • 00:19:55.643 --> 00:19:57.645
  • PHYSICAL CONTROL WAS TAKEN AWAYFROM ME WHEN YOU CANNOT WALK.
  • 00:19:57.645 --> 00:20:00.181
  • FROM ME WHEN YOU CANNOT WALK.I HAD TO GIVE UP CONTROL AND BE
  • 00:20:00.181 --> 00:20:01.749
  • I HAD TO GIVE UP CONTROL AND BEIN A PLACE WHERE FOR THE FIRST
  • 00:20:01.749 --> 00:20:03.651
  • IN A PLACE WHERE FOR THE FIRSTTIME IN MY LIFE, COMPLETELY AND
  • 00:20:03.651 --> 00:20:06.387
  • TIME IN MY LIFE, COMPLETELY ANDBLINDLY TRUST THE HAND OF THE
  • 00:20:06.387 --> 00:20:08.223
  • BLINDLY TRUST THE HAND OF THEFATHER AND KNOW THAT HIS
  • 00:20:08.223 --> 00:20:09.657
  • FATHER AND KNOW THAT HISPROMISES ARE GOOD.
  • 00:20:09.657 --> 00:20:10.692
  • PROMISES ARE GOOD.THEY ARE YES AND AMEN.
  • 00:20:10.692 --> 00:20:12.193
  • THEY ARE YES AND AMEN.KNOW THAT IF I GOT INTO HIS
  • 00:20:12.193 --> 00:20:13.394
  • KNOW THAT IF I GOT INTO HISPRESENCE THERE WOULD BE JOY.
  • 00:20:13.394 --> 00:20:14.996
  • PRESENCE THERE WOULD BE JOY.KNOW THAT I WOULD SEE HIS POWER
  • 00:20:14.996 --> 00:20:17.065
  • KNOW THAT I WOULD SEE HIS POWERIN THE MIDST OF THIS CHAOS.
  • 00:20:17.065 --> 00:20:18.399
  • IN THE MIDST OF THIS CHAOS.AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT WE NEED
  • 00:20:18.399 --> 00:20:19.400
  • AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT WE NEEDTO FOCUS ON IS SEEING HIS A
  • 00:20:19.400 --> 00:20:21.836
  • TO FOCUS ON IS SEEING HIS APOWER THROUGH THE WORD OF GOD,
  • 00:20:21.836 --> 00:20:23.137
  • POWER THROUGH THE WORD OF GOD,THROUGH GETTING INTO HIS
  • 00:20:23.137 --> 00:20:24.672
  • THROUGH GETTING INTO HISPRESENCE, THROUGH BEING AROUND
  • 00:20:24.672 --> 00:20:26.040
  • PRESENCE, THROUGH BEING AROUNDPEOPLE AND SURROUNDING OURSELVES
  • 00:20:26.040 --> 00:20:27.075
  • PEOPLE AND SURROUNDING OURSELVESEVEN IF IT IS BY NOW TEXT OR
  • 00:20:27.075 --> 00:20:29.210
  • EVEN IF IT IS BY NOW TEXT ORVIDEO MESSAGE THAT WILL
  • 00:20:29.210 --> 00:20:31.145
  • VIDEO MESSAGE THAT WILLENCOURAGE US AND UPLIFT US.
  • 00:20:31.145 --> 00:20:33.147
  • ENCOURAGE US AND UPLIFT US.SO WE CAN SEE THE POWER OF GOD
  • 00:20:33.147 --> 00:20:34.482
  • SO WE CAN SEE THE POWER OF GODAND SEE IT WORK OUR LIVES
  • 00:20:34.482 --> 00:20:35.717
  • AND SEE IT WORK OUR LIVESTHROUGH ALL THAT AND WE ARE ABLE
  • 00:20:35.717 --> 00:20:36.884
  • THROUGH ALL THAT AND WE ARE ABLETO GIVE UP THAT CONTROL AND BE
  • 00:20:36.884 --> 00:20:41.122
  • TO GIVE UP THAT CONTROL AND BEABLE TO TRUST GOD WITH IT.
  • 00:20:41.122 --> 00:20:43.157
  • ABLE TO TRUST GOD WITH IT.- Laurie: YOU KNOW, TALKING
  • 00:20:43.157 --> 00:20:44.692
  • - Laurie: YOU KNOW, TALKINGABOUT BEING THROUGH THIS BEFORE,
  • 00:20:44.692 --> 00:20:46.494
  • ABOUT BEING THROUGH THIS BEFORE,I REMEMBER A PROPHETIC WORD THAT
  • 00:20:46.494 --> 00:20:47.862
  • I REMEMBER A PROPHETIC WORD THATHAD COME TO MATT AND I 30 SOME
  • 00:20:47.862 --> 00:20:50.031
  • HAD COME TO MATT AND I 30 SOMEYEARS AGO.
  • 00:20:50.031 --> 00:20:51.132
  • YEARS AGO.IT SAYS THE HARDER IT LOOKS, THE
  • 00:20:51.132 --> 00:20:53.568
  • IT SAYS THE HARDER IT LOOKS, THEEASIER IT'S GONNA GET.
  • 00:20:53.568 --> 00:20:56.971
  • EASIER IT'S GONNA GET.AND IT'S LIKE TBN WAS DOING ONE
  • 00:20:56.971 --> 00:21:00.108
  • AND IT'S LIKE TBN WAS DOING ONEOF ITS BIGGEST THINGS JUST
  • 00:21:00.108 --> 00:21:02.176
  • OF ITS BIGGEST THINGS JUSTBEFORE THIS HAPPENED.
  • 00:21:02.176 --> 00:21:04.245
  • BEFORE THIS HAPPENED.SO, DOES GOD GO BACK ON HIS
  • 00:21:04.245 --> 00:21:04.879
  • SO, DOES GOD GO BACK ON HISWORD?
  • 00:21:04.879 --> 00:21:06.114
  • WORD?NO, HE WANTS YOU TO GO AHEAD AND
  • 00:21:06.114 --> 00:21:07.081
  • NO, HE WANTS YOU TO GO AHEAD ANDDO IT.
  • 00:21:07.081 --> 00:21:08.650
  • DO IT.BUT HE TURNS OFF SO MANY THINGS
  • 00:21:08.650 --> 00:21:10.718
  • BUT HE TURNS OFF SO MANY THINGSAND MATT AND I WILL ALWAYS LOOK
  • 00:21:10.718 --> 00:21:11.953
  • AND MATT AND I WILL ALWAYS LOOKAT EACH OTHER AND SAY, YOU KNOW
  • 00:21:11.953 --> 00:21:13.021
  • AT EACH OTHER AND SAY, YOU KNOWWHAT?
  • 00:21:13.021 --> 00:21:13.755
  • WHAT?THE HARDER IT LOOKS THE EASIER
  • 00:21:13.755 --> 00:21:14.956
  • THE HARDER IT LOOKS THE EASIERIT GETS, AND IT DOES.
  • 00:21:14.956 --> 00:21:16.991
  • IT GETS, AND IT DOES.THE FAITHFULNESS OF GOD DOES NOT
  • 00:21:16.991 --> 00:21:18.926
  • THE FAITHFULNESS OF GOD DOES NOTSTOP.
  • 00:21:18.926 --> 00:21:20.762
  • STOP.MAX LUCADO SAID SOMETHING THE
  • 00:21:20.762 --> 00:21:22.897
  • MAX LUCADO SAID SOMETHING THEOTHER NIGHT ABOUT GEORGE
  • 00:21:22.897 --> 00:21:24.532
  • OTHER NIGHT ABOUT GEORGEFREDERICK HANDEL AND HIS
  • 00:21:24.532 --> 00:21:26.501
  • FREDERICK HANDEL AND HISORATORIO.
  • 00:21:26.501 --> 00:21:29.070
  • ORATORIO.THE MESSIAH, HE SAID WHAT IF HIS
  • 00:21:29.070 --> 00:21:31.205
  • THE MESSIAH, HE SAID WHAT IF HISWIFE WOULD HAVE SEEN ALL THOSE
  • 00:21:31.205 --> 00:21:33.708
  • WIFE WOULD HAVE SEEN ALL THOSEHUNDREDS OF SHEETS OF MUSIC AND
  • 00:21:33.708 --> 00:21:35.710
  • HUNDREDS OF SHEETS OF MUSIC ANDSHE JUST PICKED OUT ONE THAT HAD
  • 00:21:35.710 --> 00:21:39.013
  • SHE JUST PICKED OUT ONE THAT HADTHIS MINOR NOTE ON IT OR A B.
  • 00:21:39.013 --> 00:21:41.282
  • THIS MINOR NOTE ON IT OR A B.FLAT ON IT AND TOOK IT AND SAID
  • 00:21:41.282 --> 00:21:43.117
  • FLAT ON IT AND TOOK IT AND SAIDTHIS DOES NOT SOUND GOOD.
  • 00:21:43.117 --> 00:21:45.987
  • THIS DOES NOT SOUND GOOD.HE SAID THAT'S LIKE US GOING TO
  • 00:21:45.987 --> 00:21:47.822
  • HE SAID THAT'S LIKE US GOING TOGOD WITH JUST THIS ONE PAGE OF
  • 00:21:47.822 --> 00:21:49.357
  • GOD WITH JUST THIS ONE PAGE OFOUR LIFE AND GOING, WHAT IS
  • 00:21:49.357 --> 00:21:50.758
  • OUR LIFE AND GOING, WHAT ISTHIS?
  • 00:21:50.758 --> 00:21:51.959
  • THIS?THAT DOESN'T SOUND GOOD.
  • 00:21:51.959 --> 00:21:53.728
  • THAT DOESN'T SOUND GOOD.AND HE LOOKS AT YOU AND SAYS,
  • 00:21:53.728 --> 00:21:55.930
  • AND HE LOOKS AT YOU AND SAYS,YOU DON'T KNOW THE FULL STORY.
  • 00:21:55.930 --> 00:21:57.198
  • YOU DON'T KNOW THE FULL STORY.YOU DON'T SEE THAT I'M GOING TO
  • 00:21:57.198 --> 00:21:58.766
  • YOU DON'T SEE THAT I'M GOING TOTAKE ALL OF THIS AND I'M GOING
  • 00:21:58.766 --> 00:21:59.901
  • TAKE ALL OF THIS AND I'M GOINGTO MAKE IT INTO A BEAUTIFUL
  • 00:21:59.901 --> 00:22:02.236
  • TO MAKE IT INTO A BEAUTIFULSYMPHONY OF LOVE AND BEAUTY IN
  • 00:22:02.236 --> 00:22:05.440
  • SYMPHONY OF LOVE AND BEAUTY INYOUR LIFE.
  • 00:22:05.440 --> 00:22:06.507
  • YOUR LIFE.AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT GOD
  • 00:22:06.507 --> 00:22:07.875
  • AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT GODWANTS TO DO IN THE MIDDLE OF ALL
  • 00:22:07.875 --> 00:22:10.978
  • WANTS TO DO IN THE MIDDLE OF ALLOF THIS.
  • 00:22:10.978 --> 00:22:13.381
  • OF THIS.- Lisa: I THINK THIS IS AN
  • 00:22:13.381 --> 00:22:15.083
  • - Lisa: I THINK THIS IS ANINCREDIBLE OPPORTUNITY AGAIN FOR
  • 00:22:15.083 --> 00:22:17.819
  • INCREDIBLE OPPORTUNITY AGAIN FORUS TO ENGAGE OURSELVES ON EVERY
  • 00:22:17.819 --> 00:22:20.588
  • US TO ENGAGE OURSELVES ON EVERYSINGLE LEVEL.
  • 00:22:20.588 --> 00:22:22.223
  • SINGLE LEVEL.SO IF I'M OUT OF CONTROL, I
  • 00:22:22.223 --> 00:22:23.624
  • SO IF I'M OUT OF CONTROL, IMIGHT AS WELL ACT LIKE I'M OUT
  • 00:22:23.624 --> 00:22:25.326
  • MIGHT AS WELL ACT LIKE I'M OUTOF CONTROL AND JUST COMPLETELY
  • 00:22:25.326 --> 00:22:27.095
  • OF CONTROL AND JUST COMPLETELYSURRENDER AND SAY, YOU KNOW
  • 00:22:27.095 --> 00:22:28.162
  • SURRENDER AND SAY, YOU KNOWWHAT, GOD, I HAVE NONE OF THIS
  • 00:22:28.162 --> 00:22:29.831
  • WHAT, GOD, I HAVE NONE OF THISANYMORE IN MY HANDS, I'M JUST
  • 00:22:29.831 --> 00:22:32.200
  • ANYMORE IN MY HANDS, I'M JUSTGONNA SURRENDER IT TO YOU.
  • 00:22:32.200 --> 00:22:33.735
  • GONNA SURRENDER IT TO YOU.AND ONE OF THE BEST WAYS FOR ME
  • 00:22:33.735 --> 00:22:35.136
  • AND ONE OF THE BEST WAYS FOR METO DEAL WITH LONELINESS, TO DEAL
  • 00:22:35.136 --> 00:22:39.006
  • TO DEAL WITH LONELINESS, TO DEALWITH ISOLATION, TO DEAL WITH
  • 00:22:39.006 --> 00:22:41.309
  • WITH ISOLATION, TO DEAL WITHCONTROL ISSUES IS TO FIND MYSELF
  • 00:22:41.309 --> 00:22:43.611
  • CONTROL ISSUES IS TO FIND MYSELFIN WORSHIP.
  • 00:22:43.611 --> 00:22:46.347
  • IN WORSHIP.IF I CAN GET ALONE, IF I CAN
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  • IF I CAN GET ALONE, IF I CANLOCK THE DOORS AND NOBODY SEES
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  • LOCK THE DOORS AND NOBODY SEESME AND JUST IMMERSE MYSELF IN
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  • ME AND JUST IMMERSE MYSELF INFULLY PRAISING GOD, HE INHABITS
  • 00:22:51.886 --> 00:22:54.522
  • FULLY PRAISING GOD, HE INHABITSTHAT.
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  • THAT.AND AS HE INHABITS THAT, I FIND
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  • AND AS HE INHABITS THAT, I FINDMYSELF EMPOWERED.
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  • MYSELF EMPOWERED.I FIND MYSELF EMBRACED.
  • 00:23:01.262 --> 00:23:03.731
  • I FIND MYSELF EMBRACED.I FIND MYSELF IN A POSITION OF
  • 00:23:03.731 --> 00:23:05.333
  • I FIND MYSELF IN A POSITION OFFULFILLMENT.
  • 00:23:05.333 --> 00:23:07.368
  • FULFILLMENT.I ENCOURAGE PEOPLE TO DO
  • 00:23:07.368 --> 00:23:09.937
  • I ENCOURAGE PEOPLE TO DOSOMETHING COUNTERPRODUCTIVE AS
  • 00:23:09.937 --> 00:23:12.173
  • SOMETHING COUNTERPRODUCTIVE ASFAR AS WHAT THE WORLD WOULD SAY.
  • 00:23:12.173 --> 00:23:12.940
  • FAR AS WHAT THE WORLD WOULD SAY.GET ALONE WITH GOD AND WORSHIP
  • 00:23:12.940 --> 00:23:16.144
  • GET ALONE WITH GOD AND WORSHIPHIM.
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  • HIM.- Jada: AND I THINK, LISA, YOU
  • 00:23:17.445 --> 00:23:19.447
  • - Jada: AND I THINK, LISA, YOUBROUGHT UP A GOOD POINT ABOUT
  • 00:23:19.447 --> 00:23:20.148
  • BROUGHT UP A GOOD POINT ABOUTTHE ROOT OF CONTROL.
  • 00:23:20.148 --> 00:23:22.083
  • THE ROOT OF CONTROL.I THINK THAT'S ANOTHER GOOD
  • 00:23:22.083 --> 00:23:23.918
  • I THINK THAT'S ANOTHER GOODENCOURAGEMENT FOR PEOPLE.
  • 00:23:23.918 --> 00:23:24.852
  • ENCOURAGEMENT FOR PEOPLE.IF YOU FIND YOURSELF STRUGGLING
  • 00:23:24.852 --> 00:23:25.620
  • IF YOU FIND YOURSELF STRUGGLINGWITH THAT, ASK GOD TO REVEAL TO
  • 00:23:25.620 --> 00:23:27.855
  • WITH THAT, ASK GOD TO REVEAL TOYOU WHERE THAT'S COMING FROM.
  • 00:23:27.855 --> 00:23:28.823
  • YOU WHERE THAT'S COMING FROM.CONTROL IS USUALLY SOMETHING WE
  • 00:23:28.823 --> 00:23:30.858
  • CONTROL IS USUALLY SOMETHING WETHINK IS A FIX TO SOME FEAR,
  • 00:23:30.858 --> 00:23:34.128
  • THINK IS A FIX TO SOME FEAR,SOME DOUBT, SOME INSECURITY.
  • 00:23:34.128 --> 00:23:36.798
  • SOME DOUBT, SOME INSECURITY.DON'T TRY TO BE LESS
  • 00:23:36.798 --> 00:23:37.965
  • DON'T TRY TO BE LESSCONTROLLING.
  • 00:23:37.965 --> 00:23:40.268
  • CONTROLLING.LET GOD SHOW YOU THE ROOT OF THE
  • 00:23:40.268 --> 00:23:42.236
  • LET GOD SHOW YOU THE ROOT OF THETHING AND THAT WILL BE SO MUCH
  • 00:23:42.236 --> 00:23:42.970
  • THING AND THAT WILL BE SO MUCHMORE HEALING.
  • 00:23:42.970 --> 00:23:43.504
  • MORE HEALING.GOD CAN DO IT.
  • 00:23:43.504 --> 00:23:44.439
  • GOD CAN DO IT.HE CAN DO IT.
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  • HE CAN DO IT.- Havilah: I LOVE WHAT YOU
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  • - Havilah: I LOVE WHAT YOUSAID, LISA, ABOUT WORSHIP.
  • 00:23:48.342 --> 00:23:49.444
  • SAID, LISA, ABOUT WORSHIP.I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THAT
  • 00:23:49.444 --> 00:23:50.244
  • I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THATPHRASE THAT SAYS, THIS IS HOW I
  • 00:23:50.244 --> 00:23:52.213
  • PHRASE THAT SAYS, THIS IS HOW IFIGHT MY BATTLES.
  • 00:23:52.213 --> 00:23:54.882
  • FIGHT MY BATTLES.IT'S THROUGH PRAISE.
  • 00:23:54.882 --> 00:23:55.950
  • IT'S THROUGH PRAISE.THERE IS SO MUCH PROFOUND
  • 00:23:55.950 --> 00:23:57.685
  • THERE IS SO MUCH PROFOUNDREALITY TO THAT.
  • 00:23:57.685 --> 00:24:00.288
  • REALITY TO THAT.WHEREVER YOU ARE TODAY AND AS
  • 00:24:00.288 --> 00:24:01.923
  • WHEREVER YOU ARE TODAY AND ASYOU ARE WATCHING THIS YOU MIGHT
  • 00:24:01.923 --> 00:24:04.392
  • YOU ARE WATCHING THIS YOU MIGHTFEEL ALONE, YOU MIGHT FEEL
  • 00:24:04.392 --> 00:24:04.892
  • FEEL ALONE, YOU MIGHT FEELABANDONED.
  • 00:24:04.892 --> 00:24:06.060
  • ABANDONED.YOU MIGHT FEEL SICK, I DON'T
  • 00:24:06.060 --> 00:24:06.894
  • YOU MIGHT FEEL SICK, I DON'TKNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING IN YOUR
  • 00:24:06.894 --> 00:24:07.862
  • KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING IN YOURWORLD, ONE THING I DO KNOW IS
  • 00:24:07.862 --> 00:24:08.896
  • WORLD, ONE THING I DO KNOW ISTHAT THERE IS POWER IN PRAISE.
  • 00:24:08.896 --> 00:24:11.632
  • THAT THERE IS POWER IN PRAISE.AND SO, WE JUST WANT TO BELIEVE
  • 00:24:11.632 --> 00:24:13.534
  • AND SO, WE JUST WANT TO BELIEVEWITH YOU THAT GOD WILL COME AND
  • 00:24:13.534 --> 00:24:15.102
  • WITH YOU THAT GOD WILL COME ANDINTERRUPT WHEREVER YOU ARE THE
  • 00:24:15.102 --> 00:24:16.504
  • INTERRUPT WHEREVER YOU ARE THEFEAR, THE ANXIETY, THE
  • 00:24:16.504 --> 00:24:19.106
  • FEAR, THE ANXIETY, THELONELINESS, THE DEPRESSION,
  • 00:24:19.106 --> 00:24:20.107
  • LONELINESS, THE DEPRESSION,WHATEVER YOU MIGHT BE FACING
  • 00:24:20.107 --> 00:24:21.375
  • WHATEVER YOU MIGHT BE FACINGTODAY, WE WANT TO BELIEVE WITH
  • 00:24:21.375 --> 00:24:22.577
  • TODAY, WE WANT TO BELIEVE WITHYOU THAT THERE IS POWER IN
  • 00:24:22.577 --> 00:24:23.578
  • YOU THAT THERE IS POWER INPRAISE.
  • 00:24:23.578 --> 00:24:26.481
  • PRAISE.AND SO, WE JUST ASK FOR EVERY
  • 00:24:26.481 --> 00:24:27.615
  • AND SO, WE JUST ASK FOR EVERYWOMAN AND MAN WATCHING THIS AT
  • 00:24:27.615 --> 00:24:29.050
  • WOMAN AND MAN WATCHING THIS ATTHIS MOMENT, THEY ARE SAYING I'M
  • 00:24:29.050 --> 00:24:30.284
  • THIS MOMENT, THEY ARE SAYING I'MFEELING HOPE, I'M FEELING I
  • 00:24:30.284 --> 00:24:31.686
  • FEELING HOPE, I'M FEELING IMIGHT HAVE SOME CLARITY.
  • 00:24:31.686 --> 00:24:33.421
  • MIGHT HAVE SOME CLARITY.WHAT DO I DO?
  • 00:24:33.421 --> 00:24:35.022
  • WHAT DO I DO?I ASK THAT YOUR HOLY SPIRIT GO
  • 00:24:35.022 --> 00:24:36.991
  • I ASK THAT YOUR HOLY SPIRIT GORIGHT INTO THEIR ENVIRONMENT,
  • 00:24:36.991 --> 00:24:39.227
  • RIGHT INTO THEIR ENVIRONMENT,JUST LIKE YOU DID WITH MY MOM
  • 00:24:39.227 --> 00:24:40.495
  • JUST LIKE YOU DID WITH MY MOMMANY, MANY YEARS AGO WHEN SHE
  • 00:24:40.495 --> 00:24:42.697
  • MANY, MANY YEARS AGO WHEN SHESAW BILLY GRAHAM ON TV, WHOEVER
  • 00:24:42.697 --> 00:24:44.632
  • SAW BILLY GRAHAM ON TV, WHOEVERIS WATCHING THIS RIGHT NOW THAT
  • 00:24:44.632 --> 00:24:45.967
  • IS WATCHING THIS RIGHT NOW THATTHEY WOULD SURRENDER THEIR LIFE
  • 00:24:45.967 --> 00:24:46.767
  • THEY WOULD SURRENDER THEIR LIFETO YOU.
  • 00:24:46.767 --> 00:24:48.636
  • TO YOU.YOU ARE THE AUTHOR AND FINISHER
  • 00:24:48.636 --> 00:24:49.837
  • YOU ARE THE AUTHOR AND FINISHEROF EVERYTHING THAT'S IN OUR
  • 00:24:49.837 --> 00:24:50.671
  • OF EVERYTHING THAT'S IN OURLIVES.
  • 00:24:50.671 --> 00:24:51.839
  • LIVES.YOU ARE THE ONLY TRUSTWORTHY
  • 00:24:51.839 --> 00:24:53.875
  • YOU ARE THE ONLY TRUSTWORTHYTHING IN OUR WORLD.
  • 00:24:53.875 --> 00:24:55.376
  • THING IN OUR WORLD.WE ASK GOD AS THEY SURRENDER TO
  • 00:24:55.376 --> 00:24:56.143
  • WE ASK GOD AS THEY SURRENDER TOYOU THEY FIND POWER AND PRAISE
  • 00:24:56.143 --> 00:24:57.945
  • YOU THEY FIND POWER AND PRAISETHEY WOULD FINE THE PRAISE OF
  • 00:24:57.945 --> 00:25:01.082
  • THEY WOULD FINE THE PRAISE OFGOD WOULD BE ON THEIR LIPS AND
  • 00:25:01.082 --> 00:25:03.918
  • GOD WOULD BE ON THEIR LIPS ANDEXPERIENCE A DIVINE AND PROFOUND
  • 00:25:03.918 --> 00:25:05.987
  • EXPERIENCE A DIVINE AND PROFOUNDPRESENCE, A MANIFEST OF PRESENCE
  • 00:25:05.987 --> 00:25:07.021
  • PRESENCE, A MANIFEST OF PRESENCEWHEREVER THEY ARE.
  • 00:25:07.021 --> 00:25:09.957
  • WHEREVER THEY ARE.WE KNOW THEY ARE NOT ALONE.
  • 00:25:09.957 --> 00:25:11.325
  • WE KNOW THEY ARE NOT ALONE.IT MAY FEEL THEY ARE ALONE.
  • 00:25:11.325 --> 00:25:12.827
  • IT MAY FEEL THEY ARE ALONE.THEY MAY BE SITTING IN AN EMPTY
  • 00:25:12.827 --> 00:25:14.829
  • THEY MAY BE SITTING IN AN EMPTYROOM BUT THEY ARE NOT ALONE.
  • 00:25:14.829 --> 00:25:16.464
  • ROOM BUT THEY ARE NOT ALONE.YOUR PRESENCE IS WITH THEM.
  • 00:25:16.464 --> 00:25:18.065
  • YOUR PRESENCE IS WITH THEM.YOUR PROTECTION IS WITH THEM.
  • 00:25:18.065 --> 00:25:19.700
  • YOUR PROTECTION IS WITH THEM.THE HOLY SPIRIT IS GUIDING THEM
  • 00:25:19.700 --> 00:25:21.235
  • THE HOLY SPIRIT IS GUIDING THEMAND LOVING THEM AND NURTURING
  • 00:25:21.235 --> 00:25:22.970
  • AND LOVING THEM AND NURTURINGTHEM AND COMFORTING THEM.
  • 00:25:22.970 --> 00:25:24.972
  • THEM AND COMFORTING THEM.LORD, WE THANK YOU FOR EVERY
  • 00:25:24.972 --> 00:25:25.540
  • LORD, WE THANK YOU FOR EVERYPERSON WITH US TODAY.
  • 00:25:25.540 --> 00:25:27.041
  • PERSON WITH US TODAY.I THANK YOU WE WILL HEAR BACK
  • 00:25:27.041 --> 00:25:27.742
  • I THANK YOU WE WILL HEAR BACKFROM THIS VERY MOMENT
  • 00:25:27.742 --> 00:25:31.112
  • FROM THIS VERY MOMENTTESTIMONIES OF THE REALITIES OF
  • 00:25:31.112 --> 00:25:33.180
  • TESTIMONIES OF THE REALITIES OFWHAT YOU'VE DONE IN AND THROUGH
  • 00:25:33.180 --> 00:25:34.048
  • WHAT YOU'VE DONE IN AND THROUGHTHEM BECAUSE THEY HEARD THIS
  • 00:25:34.048 --> 00:25:35.283
  • THEM BECAUSE THEY HEARD THISCONVERSATION.
  • 00:25:35.283 --> 00:25:36.884
  • CONVERSATION.WE LOVE YOU.
  • 00:25:36.884 --> 00:25:38.286
  • WE LOVE YOU.WE THANK YOU FOR YOUR GRACE.
  • 00:25:38.286 --> 00:25:39.687
  • WE THANK YOU FOR YOUR GRACE.WE BLESS EVERY WOMAN IN JESUS'
  • 00:25:39.687 --> 00:25:43.524
  • WE BLESS EVERY WOMAN IN JESUS'NAME.
  • 00:25:43.524 --> 00:25:44.825
  • NAME.- Laurie: AMEN.
  • 00:25:44.825 --> 00:25:45.593
  • - Laurie: AMEN.OUR "BETTER TOGETHER" COMMUNITY
  • 00:25:45.593 --> 00:25:46.794
  • OUR "BETTER TOGETHER" COMMUNITYIS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU,
  • 00:25:46.794 --> 00:25:48.162
  • IS ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU,ESPECIALLY DURING THIS CRISIS.
  • 00:25:48.162 --> 00:25:49.063
  • ESPECIALLY DURING THIS CRISIS.YOU CAN CONNECT WITH US ON
  • 00:25:49.063 --> 00:25:49.730
  • YOU CAN CONNECT WITH US ONSOCIAL MEDIA.
  • 00:25:49.730 --> 00:25:51.198
  • SOCIAL MEDIA.LET US KNOW HOW WE CAN PRAY
  • 00:25:51.198 --> 00:25:52.099
  • LET US KNOW HOW WE CAN PRAYFOUR.
  • 00:25:52.099 --> 00:25:53.367
  • FOUR.THANK YOU FOR JOINING US TODAY.
  • 00:25:53.367 --> 00:25:55.403
  • THANK YOU FOR JOINING US TODAY.WAITING FOR AN ANSWER FROM GOD
  • 00:25:55.403 --> 00:25:57.004
  • WAITING FOR AN ANSWER FROM GODIS SOMETIMES THE HARDEST THING
  • 00:25:57.004 --> 00:25:58.706
  • IS SOMETIMES THE HARDEST THINGTO DO.
  • 00:25:58.706 --> 00:26:00.641
  • TO DO.HOW CAN WE PLAN AND FOCUS NOT ON
  • 00:26:00.641 --> 00:26:03.311
  • HOW CAN WE PLAN AND FOCUS NOT ONOUR PROBLEMS BUT ON HIM?
  • 00:26:03.311 --> 00:26:04.178
  • OUR PROBLEMS BUT ON HIM?WE WILL TALK ABOUT IT TOMORROW.
  • 00:26:04.178 --> 00:26:05.580
  • WE WILL TALK ABOUT IT TOMORROW.WE'LL SEE YOU THEN.
  • 00:26:05.580 --> 00:26:09.010