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Better Together LIVE | Episode 199

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February 18, 2021
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Jesus heals the brokenhearted! When pain clouds our vision and hinders new relationships; He makes all things new. | TBN Prayer Line: 714-731-1000

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Better Together LIVE | Episode 199

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  • - LISA HARPER: OUR GOD HEALS
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  • - LISA HARPER: OUR GOD HEALSTHE BROKENHEARTED.
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  • THE BROKENHEARTED.WHEN PAIN CLOUDS OUR VISION AND
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  • WHEN PAIN CLOUDS OUR VISION ANDTRIES TO HINDER OUR
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  • TRIES TO HINDER OURRELATIONSHIPS, HIS LOVE GIVES
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  • RELATIONSHIPS, HIS LOVE GIVESUS HOPE AND COURAGE.
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  • US HOPE AND COURAGE.COME ON -- LET'S TALK ABOUT
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  • COME ON -- LET'S TALK ABOUTTHAT.
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  • ♪ [MUSIC] ♪
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  • ♪ [MUSIC] ♪♪ [MUSIC] ♪
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  • ♪ [MUSIC] ♪- SHEILA: I WONDER HOW MANY OF
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  • - SHEILA: I WONDER HOW MANY OFYOU FEEL AS IF YOU'VE HAD YOUR
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  • YOU FEEL AS IF YOU'VE HAD YOURHEART BROKEN.
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  • HEART BROKEN.YOU KNOW, WE CAME OUT OF A
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  • YOU KNOW, WE CAME OUT OF AREALLY DIFFICULT YEAR.
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  • REALLY DIFFICULT YEAR.2020 WAS JUST -- I DON'T WANNA
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  • 2020 WAS JUST -- I DON'T WANNAUSE THE WORD, BUT I'LL JUST USE
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  • USE THE WORD, BUT I'LL JUST USEIT -- UNPRECEDENTED.
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  • IT -- UNPRECEDENTED.THAT'S HOW WE ALL FELT.
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  • THAT'S HOW WE ALL FELT.AND I WONDER HOW MANY OF YOU,
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  • AND I WONDER HOW MANY OF YOU,EVEN AS YOU'RE WATCHING, RIGHT
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  • EVEN AS YOU'RE WATCHING, RIGHTNOW, IF YOU'RE REALLY, BRUTALLY
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  • NOW, IF YOU'RE REALLY, BRUTALLYHONEST, YOU WOULD SAY THAT "MY
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  • HONEST, YOU WOULD SAY THAT "MYHEART IS BROKEN; I DON'T KNOW
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  • HEART IS BROKEN; I DON'T KNOWWHAT TOMORROW IS GONNA BRING."
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  • WHAT TOMORROW IS GONNA BRING."YOU KNOW, WHEN I WAS REFLECTING
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  • YOU KNOW, WHEN I WAS REFLECTINGON THAT BEFORE WE CAME TO YOU,
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  • ON THAT BEFORE WE CAME TO YOU,TODAY, I WAS THINKING ABOUT
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  • TODAY, I WAS THINKING ABOUTWHAT HAPPENED FOUR YEARS AGO.
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  • WHAT HAPPENED FOUR YEARS AGO.IF YOU KNOW ANY OF MY STORY,
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  • IF YOU KNOW ANY OF MY STORY,MY FATHER DIED WHEN I
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  • MY FATHER DIED WHEN IWAS 5 YEARS OLD.
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  • WAS 5 YEARS OLD.AND SO, MY REAL CHAMPION FOR
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  • AND SO, MY REAL CHAMPION FORTHE REST OF MY LIFE WAS MY MOM.
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  • THE REST OF MY LIFE WAS MY MOM.I MEAN, MY MOM WAS JUST...
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  • I MEAN, MY MOM WAS JUST...I CAN REMEMBER THINKING, NO
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  • I CAN REMEMBER THINKING, NOMATTER WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY
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  • MATTER WHAT IS GOING ON IN MYLIFE, NO MATTER HOW HARD LIFE
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  • LIFE, NO MATTER HOW HARD LIFEIS, I KNOW ONE THING, FOR SURE:
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  • IS, I KNOW ONE THING, FOR SURE:MY MOM IS PRAYING FOR ME.
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  • MY MOM IS PRAYING FOR ME.I KNEW THAT.
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  • I KNEW THAT.SO, I'LL NEVER FORGET THE CALL
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  • SO, I'LL NEVER FORGET THE CALLTHAT CAME IN THE MIDDLE OF THE
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  • THAT CAME IN THE MIDDLE OF THENIGHT.
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  • NIGHT.AND YOU KNOW IT'S NEVER GOOD
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  • AND YOU KNOW IT'S NEVER GOODNEWS WHEN THE PHONE RINGS IN
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  • NEWS WHEN THE PHONE RINGS INTHE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
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  • THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.AND IT WAS MY SISTER FRANCES,
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  • AND IT WAS MY SISTER FRANCES,TO LET ME KNOW THAT MY MUM
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  • TO LET ME KNOW THAT MY MUMHAD TAKEN HER FIRST BREATH
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  • HAD TAKEN HER FIRST BREATHIN THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD.
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  • IN THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD.AND, HONESTLY, I WAS JUST A
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  • AND, HONESTLY, I WAS JUST ALITTLE NUMB AT FIRST.
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  • LITTLE NUMB AT FIRST.AND, I BOOKED A FLIGHT AND I
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  • AND, I BOOKED A FLIGHT AND IFLEW HOME TO SCOTLAND.
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  • FLEW HOME TO SCOTLAND.AND, WE DON'T HAVE VIEWINGS IN
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  • AND, WE DON'T HAVE VIEWINGS INSCOTLAND THE WAY THAT WE DO IN
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  • SCOTLAND THE WAY THAT WE DO INAMERICA.
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  • AMERICA.IT'S MORE LIKE, WHEN SOMEBODY
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  • IT'S MORE LIKE, WHEN SOMEBODYDIES, THEY'RE IMMEDIATELY JUST
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  • DIES, THEY'RE IMMEDIATELY JUSTDRESSED IN AN OUTFIT PROVIDED
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  • DRESSED IN AN OUTFIT PROVIDEDBY THE FAMILY AND THEY'RE--
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  • BY THE FAMILY AND THEY'RE--IT'S JUST A PINE BOX THAT'S
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  • IT'S JUST A PINE BOX THAT'SSEALED.
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  • SEALED.BUT I CALLED THE FUNERAL HOME.
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  • BUT I CALLED THE FUNERAL HOME.AND I SAID, "LISTEN, I KNOW
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  • AND I SAID, "LISTEN, I KNOWTHIS ISN'T NORMAL, BUT DO YOU
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  • THIS ISN'T NORMAL, BUT DO YOUTHINK I COULD SEE MY MOM, JUST
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  • THINK I COULD SEE MY MOM, JUSTONE LAST TIME?"
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  • ONE LAST TIME?"AND, THEY WERE REALLY GREAT.
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  • AND, THEY WERE REALLY GREAT.THEY SAID: "YEAH, SURE.
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  • THEY SAID: "YEAH, SURE.WE WILL PLACE HER IN A ROOM AND
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  • WE WILL PLACE HER IN A ROOM ANDWE'LL OPEN THE CASKET."
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  • WE'LL OPEN THE CASKET."AND I ASKED MY SISTER NOT TO
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  • AND I ASKED MY SISTER NOT TOCOME WITH ME.
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  • COME WITH ME.I WANTED TO GO BY MYSELF.
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  • I WANTED TO GO BY MYSELF.AND, I REMEMBER WALKING INTO
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  • AND, I REMEMBER WALKING INTOTHAT ROOM, AND...AND SHE WAS
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  • THAT ROOM, AND...AND SHE WASDRESSED IN THE PINK SUIT I'D
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  • DRESSED IN THE PINK SUIT I'DSENT HER FOR THE CHRISTMAS JUST
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  • SENT HER FOR THE CHRISTMAS JUSTBEFORE.
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  • BEFORE.AND...AND I KNELT DOWN.
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  • AND...AND I KNELT DOWN.AND I KNEW MY MOM WASN'T THERE.
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  • AND I KNEW MY MOM WASN'T THERE.I MEAN, I KNEW MY MOM WAS
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  • I MEAN, I KNEW MY MOM WASSAFELY HOME WITH JESUS.
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  • SAFELY HOME WITH JESUS.BUT I JUST-- I WANTED TO SAY,
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  • BUT I JUST-- I WANTED TO SAY,"WELL DONE, MOM."
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  • "WELL DONE, MOM."YOU KNOW: "YOU MADE IT.
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  • YOU KNOW: "YOU MADE IT.LIFE IS HARD AND YOU MADE IT
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  • LIFE IS HARD AND YOU MADE ITALL THE WAY HOME."
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  • ALL THE WAY HOME."AND I WAS THE ONE THAT SPOKE AT
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  • AND I WAS THE ONE THAT SPOKE ATHER FUNERAL AND HELD MY BROTHER
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  • HER FUNERAL AND HELD MY BROTHERAT THE GRAVE SITE.
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  • AT THE GRAVE SITE.HE'S 6-FOOT-2, BUT HE COULDN'T
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  • HE'S 6-FOOT-2, BUT HE COULDN'THOLD HIMSELF UP.
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  • HOLD HIMSELF UP.AND THEN, I CAME BACK TO
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  • AND THEN, I CAME BACK TODALLAS, AND I LITERALLY FELL
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  • DALLAS, AND I LITERALLY FELLAPART.
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  • APART.AND IT'S SO SURPRISED ME.
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  • AND IT'S SO SURPRISED ME.BECAUSE I THOUGHT: WHAT IS
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  • BECAUSE I THOUGHT: WHAT ISWRONG WITH ME?
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  • WRONG WITH ME?I MEAN, MY MOM WAS ABOUT TO
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  • I MEAN, MY MOM WAS ABOUT TOTURN 87.
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  • TURN 87.SHE WASN'T, LIKE, 34, LIKE MY
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  • SHE WASN'T, LIKE, 34, LIKE MYDAD WAS.
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  • DAD WAS.I KNEW THAT THIS WAS GONNA
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  • I KNEW THAT THIS WAS GONNAHAPPEN.
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  • HAPPEN.BUT, SUDDENLY, IT WAS JUST-- I
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  • BUT, SUDDENLY, IT WAS JUST-- IFELT AS IF SOMEONE HAD JUST...
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  • FELT AS IF SOMEONE HAD JUST...TAKEN MY LEGS AND STRENGTH AWAY
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  • TAKEN MY LEGS AND STRENGTH AWAYFROM ME.
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  • FROM ME.AND I FOUND MYSELF JUST, LIKE,
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  • AND I FOUND MYSELF JUST, LIKE,ON THE FLOOR, WEEPING AND
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  • ON THE FLOOR, WEEPING ANDFEELING SO VULNERABLE.
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  • FEELING SO VULNERABLE.AND...AND I WENT BACK TO THIS
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  • AND...AND I WENT BACK TO THISPASSAGE.
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  • PASSAGE.I MEAN, I'VE READ THIS SO MANY
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  • I MEAN, I'VE READ THIS SO MANYTIMES.
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  • TIMES.BUT I WENT BACK TO THIS PASSAGE
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  • BUT I WENT BACK TO THIS PASSAGEIN ISAIAH WHERE IT SAYS--
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  • IN ISAIAH WHERE IT SAYS--ISAIAH 49, AND IT SAYS THIS:
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  • ISAIAH 49, AND IT SAYS THIS:"NEVER CAN A MOTHER FORGET HER
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  • "NEVER CAN A MOTHER FORGET HERNURSING CHILD, CAN SHE FEEL NO
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  • NURSING CHILD, CAN SHE FEEL NOLOVE FOR THE CHILD SHE HAS
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  • LOVE FOR THE CHILD SHE HASBORNE, BUT EVEN IF THAT WERE
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  • BORNE, BUT EVEN IF THAT WEREPOSSIBLE, I WOULD NOT FORGET
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  • POSSIBLE, I WOULD NOT FORGETYOU.
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  • YOU.SEE, I HAVE WRITTEN YOUR NAME
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  • SEE, I HAVE WRITTEN YOUR NAMEON THE PALMS OF MY HANDS."
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  • ON THE PALMS OF MY HANDS."AND I WANTED TO KNOW, LIKE:
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  • AND I WANTED TO KNOW, LIKE:GOD, I MEAN, HOW BIG ARE YOUR
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  • GOD, I MEAN, HOW BIG ARE YOURHANDS IF YOU'VE WRITTEN ALL OUR
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  • HANDS IF YOU'VE WRITTEN ALL OURNAMES THERE?
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  • NAMES THERE?BUT I DID A WEE-BIT STUDY, AND
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  • BUT I DID A WEE-BIT STUDY, ANDI DISCOVERED IT'S CALLED--
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  • I DISCOVERED IT'S CALLED--THEY USED TO DO THAT.
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  • THEY USED TO DO THAT.IT WAS CALLED "ENSIGNS OF
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  • IT WAS CALLED "ENSIGNS OFJERUSALEM."
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  • JERUSALEM."AND WHAT THEY WOULD DO IS THESE
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  • AND WHAT THEY WOULD DO IS THESEGODLY MEN WOULD CUT OUT MAYBE
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  • GODLY MEN WOULD CUT OUT MAYBETHE TEMPLE IN JERUSALEM.
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  • THE TEMPLE IN JERUSALEM.AND THEN, THEY WOULD PUT IT
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  • AND THEN, THEY WOULD PUT ITONTO THEIR HAND.
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  • ONTO THEIR HAND.AND THEN, THEY WOULD GET
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  • AND THEN, THEY WOULD GETNEEDLES, AND THEY WOULD MARK
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  • NEEDLES, AND THEY WOULD MARKIT.
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  • IT.AND IT WOULD BECOME THIS
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  • AND IT WOULD BECOME THISPERMANENT SIGN OF WHAT WAS
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  • PERMANENT SIGN OF WHAT WASHOLDING THEM, WHAT THEIR EYES
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  • HOLDING THEM, WHAT THEIR EYESWERE CAST TOWARD.
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  • WERE CAST TOWARD.AND I BEGAN TO REALIZE, IN A
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  • AND I BEGAN TO REALIZE, IN AFRESH WAY, THAT MY NAME IS
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  • FRESH WAY, THAT MY NAME ISWRITTEN IN GOD'S PALM.
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  • WRITTEN IN GOD'S PALM.BUT NOT ONLY THAT, I THEN MOVED
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  • BUT NOT ONLY THAT, I THEN MOVEDOVER TO THE GOSPELS.
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  • OVER TO THE GOSPELS.AND I THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT JESUS
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  • AND I THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT JESUSDID SO THAT YOU AND I WILL
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  • DID SO THAT YOU AND I WILLNEVER, EVER BE ALONE.
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  • NEVER, EVER BE ALONE.AND THEN, HE CRIES OUT -- PSALM
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  • AND THEN, HE CRIES OUT -- PSALM22 -- "MY GOD, MY GOD, WHY HAVE
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  • 22 -- "MY GOD, MY GOD, WHY HAVEYOU FORSAKEN ME?"
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  • YOU FORSAKEN ME?"FOR THE ONLY MOMENT IN
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  • FOR THE ONLY MOMENT INETERNITY, JESUS HAD NO MOTHER
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  • ETERNITY, JESUS HAD NO MOTHERAND HE HAD NO FATHER; HE WAS
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  • AND HE HAD NO FATHER; HE WASTOTALLY ALONE.
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  • TOTALLY ALONE.AND HE DID THAT BECAUSE HE
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  • AND HE DID THAT BECAUSE HELOVES YOU AND ME.
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  • LOVES YOU AND ME.AND I JUST WANT TO SAY TO YOU,
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  • AND I JUST WANT TO SAY TO YOU,RIGHT NOW: IF YOUR HEART HAS
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  • RIGHT NOW: IF YOUR HEART HASBEEN BROKEN, BECAUSE OF WHAT
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  • BEEN BROKEN, BECAUSE OF WHATCHRIST DID FOR YOU, YOU WILL
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  • CHRIST DID FOR YOU, YOU WILLNEVER, EVER, EVER BE ALONE.
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  • NEVER, EVER, EVER BE ALONE.AND I JUST WANTED TO ASK YOU
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  • AND I JUST WANTED TO ASK YOUGIRLS -- 'CAUSE I LOVE AND
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  • GIRLS -- 'CAUSE I LOVE ANDADMIRE EACH ONE OF YOU -- WHAT
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  • ADMIRE EACH ONE OF YOU -- WHATHAS YOUR EXPERIENCE BEEN LIKE
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  • HAS YOUR EXPERIENCE BEEN LIKEOF WALKING THROUGH HEARTACHE,
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  • OF WALKING THROUGH HEARTACHE,BUT IN THE MIDST OF IT,
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  • BUT IN THE MIDST OF IT,ENCOUNTERING THE GOD WHO LOVES
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  • ENCOUNTERING THE GOD WHO LOVESUS?
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  • US?- NONA JONES: I'M SO OVERTAKEN
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  • - NONA JONES: I'M SO OVERTAKENBY WHAT YOU SAID, SHEILA.
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  • BY WHAT YOU SAID, SHEILA.AND I WAS...I WAS JUST THINKING
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  • AND I WAS...I WAS JUST THINKINGABOUT...UM...YOU KNOW, I HAVE
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  • ABOUT...UM...YOU KNOW, I HAVETWO SONS.
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  • TWO SONS.THEY'RE 8 YEARS OLD AND SOON TO
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  • THEY'RE 8 YEARS OLD AND SOON TOBE 11.
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  • BE 11.AND, I WAS TOLD BEFORE I HAD MY
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  • AND, I WAS TOLD BEFORE I HAD MYOLDEST THAT I WOULD NEVER BE
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  • OLDEST THAT I WOULD NEVER BEABLE TO HAVE CHILDREN.
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  • ABLE TO HAVE CHILDREN.MY HUSBAND AND I HAD BEEN
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  • MY HUSBAND AND I HAD BEENMARRIED FOR FIVE YEARS, AND, I
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  • MARRIED FOR FIVE YEARS, AND, IWAS DIAGNOSED WITH INFERTILITY.
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  • WAS DIAGNOSED WITH INFERTILITY.AND, THE DOCTOR GAVE ME THIS
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  • AND, THE DOCTOR GAVE ME THISMEDICINE, AND SHE SAID,
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  • MEDICINE, AND SHE SAID,"LISTEN, IF YOU TAKE THIS,
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  • "LISTEN, IF YOU TAKE THIS,HOPEFULLY, YOU'LL START
  • 00:05:59.382 --> 00:06:00.283
  • HOPEFULLY, YOU'LL STARTOVULATING, AND WE CAN TRY TO
  • 00:06:00.349 --> 00:06:01.617
  • OVULATING, AND WE CAN TRY TOSEE IF WE CAN GET YOU
  • 00:06:01.684 --> 00:06:02.785
  • SEE IF WE CAN GET YOUPREGNANT."
  • 00:06:02.852 --> 00:06:04.687
  • PREGNANT."BUT, RIGHT BEFORE I STARTED TO
  • 00:06:04.754 --> 00:06:05.521
  • BUT, RIGHT BEFORE I STARTED TOTAKE THE MEDICINE, I FOUND OUT
  • 00:06:05.588 --> 00:06:07.924
  • TAKE THE MEDICINE, I FOUND OUTI WAS ACTUALLY PREGNANT.
  • 00:06:07.990 --> 00:06:10.526
  • I WAS ACTUALLY PREGNANT.AND, MY HUSBAND AND I -- WE
  • 00:06:10.593 --> 00:06:11.961
  • AND, MY HUSBAND AND I -- WEWERE JUST OVER THE MOON.
  • 00:06:12.028 --> 00:06:13.629
  • WERE JUST OVER THE MOON.I MEAN, OVER THE MOON.
  • 00:06:13.696 --> 00:06:14.497
  • I MEAN, OVER THE MOON.WE DID ALL THE THINGS -- YOU
  • 00:06:14.564 --> 00:06:15.698
  • WE DID ALL THE THINGS -- YOUKNOW, PRAISING GOD.
  • 00:06:15.765 --> 00:06:17.400
  • KNOW, PRAISING GOD.WE ACTUALLY WENT -- LIKE, RIGHT
  • 00:06:17.467 --> 00:06:19.001
  • WE ACTUALLY WENT -- LIKE, RIGHTAFTER WE HEARD THE HEARTBEATS,
  • 00:06:19.068 --> 00:06:20.937
  • AFTER WE HEARD THE HEARTBEATS,I THINK LIKE A DAY LATER -- WE
  • 00:06:21.003 --> 00:06:21.971
  • I THINK LIKE A DAY LATER -- WEWENT AND BOUGHT A NEW CAR.
  • 00:06:22.038 --> 00:06:23.840
  • WENT AND BOUGHT A NEW CAR.LIKE, WE BOUGHT A BIG CAR,
  • 00:06:23.906 --> 00:06:25.541
  • LIKE, WE BOUGHT A BIG CAR,BECAUSE WE WERE GONNA HAVE
  • 00:06:25.608 --> 00:06:26.943
  • BECAUSE WE WERE GONNA HAVETWINS.
  • 00:06:27.009 --> 00:06:29.479
  • TWINS.IT TURNED OUT THERE WERE TWO
  • 00:06:29.545 --> 00:06:30.546
  • IT TURNED OUT THERE WERE TWOHEARTBEATS.
  • 00:06:30.613 --> 00:06:31.948
  • HEARTBEATS.BUT WE WENT BACK ABOUT A MONTH
  • 00:06:32.014 --> 00:06:33.549
  • BUT WE WENT BACK ABOUT A MONTHLATER TO DO THE ULTRASOUND AND
  • 00:06:33.616 --> 00:06:35.651
  • LATER TO DO THE ULTRASOUND ANDTO CHECK THE BABIES, AND THERE
  • 00:06:35.718 --> 00:06:37.086
  • TO CHECK THE BABIES, AND THEREWERE NO HEARTBEATS.
  • 00:06:37.153 --> 00:06:40.223
  • WERE NO HEARTBEATS.AND, I REMEMBER LEAVING THAT
  • 00:06:40.289 --> 00:06:41.824
  • AND, I REMEMBER LEAVING THATAPPOINTMENT FEELING NUMB --
  • 00:06:41.891 --> 00:06:45.661
  • APPOINTMENT FEELING NUMB --LIKE, JUST...COMPLETELY AND
  • 00:06:45.728 --> 00:06:46.896
  • LIKE, JUST...COMPLETELY ANDTOTALLY NUMB.
  • 00:06:46.963 --> 00:06:52.201
  • TOTALLY NUMB.BUT, YOU KNOW, WITH THE
  • 00:06:52.268 --> 00:06:52.735
  • BUT, YOU KNOW, WITH THEENCOURAGEMENT OF OUR COMMUNITY
  • 00:06:52.802 --> 00:06:54.103
  • ENCOURAGEMENT OF OUR COMMUNITYAND THE PASSAGE OF TIME, WE
  • 00:06:54.170 --> 00:06:54.937
  • AND THE PASSAGE OF TIME, WEWERE ABLE TO RECOVER THAT
  • 00:06:55.004 --> 00:06:55.505
  • WERE ABLE TO RECOVER THATHEARTACHE.
  • 00:06:55.571 --> 00:06:56.839
  • HEARTACHE.BUT THEN, FAST FORWARD ABOUT A
  • 00:06:56.906 --> 00:06:58.975
  • BUT THEN, FAST FORWARD ABOUT AYEAR LATER -- WE GOT PREGNANT
  • 00:06:59.041 --> 00:07:00.209
  • YEAR LATER -- WE GOT PREGNANTWITH OUR OLDEST SON.
  • 00:07:00.276 --> 00:07:01.110
  • WITH OUR OLDEST SON.AND HE WAS BORN AT 26 WEEKS --
  • 00:07:01.177 --> 00:07:02.912
  • AND HE WAS BORN AT 26 WEEKS --2 POUNDS, 9 OUNCES.
  • 00:07:02.979 --> 00:07:06.115
  • 2 POUNDS, 9 OUNCES.I DIDN'T GET TO HOLD HIM WHEN
  • 00:07:06.182 --> 00:07:06.849
  • I DIDN'T GET TO HOLD HIM WHENHE WAS BORN.
  • 00:07:06.916 --> 00:07:07.783
  • HE WAS BORN.HE WAS WHISKED OFF TO THE NICU.
  • 00:07:07.850 --> 00:07:09.385
  • HE WAS WHISKED OFF TO THE NICU.HE SPENT THREE MONTHS IN THE
  • 00:07:09.452 --> 00:07:11.020
  • HE SPENT THREE MONTHS IN THENICU.
  • 00:07:11.087 --> 00:07:13.422
  • NICU.WE WERE TOLD WE WERE GONNA LOSE
  • 00:07:13.489 --> 00:07:14.090
  • WE WERE TOLD WE WERE GONNA LOSEHIM THREE TIMES WHEN HE WAS IN
  • 00:07:14.156 --> 00:07:15.157
  • HIM THREE TIMES WHEN HE WAS INTHERE.
  • 00:07:15.224 --> 00:07:15.658
  • THERE.JUST EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER.
  • 00:07:15.725 --> 00:07:18.094
  • JUST EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER.BUT WE GOT THROUGH THAT, AND,
  • 00:07:18.160 --> 00:07:19.795
  • BUT WE GOT THROUGH THAT, AND,GOD -- THANK YOU, LORD -- GOT
  • 00:07:19.862 --> 00:07:20.530
  • GOD -- THANK YOU, LORD -- GOTUS THROUGH THAT.
  • 00:07:20.596 --> 00:07:21.631
  • US THROUGH THAT.HE WAS DISCHARGED, CLEAN BILL
  • 00:07:21.697 --> 00:07:22.832
  • HE WAS DISCHARGED, CLEAN BILLOF HEALTH, AND WE WERE SO
  • 00:07:22.899 --> 00:07:23.533
  • OF HEALTH, AND WE WERE SOGRATEFUL.
  • 00:07:23.599 --> 00:07:26.736
  • GRATEFUL.AND SHORTLY AFTER THAT, I FOUND
  • 00:07:26.802 --> 00:07:27.737
  • AND SHORTLY AFTER THAT, I FOUNDOUT I WAS PREGNANT, AGAIN.
  • 00:07:27.803 --> 00:07:28.671
  • OUT I WAS PREGNANT, AGAIN.AND, OF COURSE, I WAS LIKE,
  • 00:07:28.738 --> 00:07:30.339
  • AND, OF COURSE, I WAS LIKE,"THIS IS CRAZY!"
  • 00:07:30.406 --> 00:07:33.943
  • "THIS IS CRAZY!"BUT, YOU KNOW, WE WERE EXCITED
  • 00:07:34.010 --> 00:07:34.844
  • BUT, YOU KNOW, WE WERE EXCITEDABOUT IT.
  • 00:07:34.911 --> 00:07:35.344
  • ABOUT IT.AND, ABOUT FIVE MONTHS INTO THE
  • 00:07:35.411 --> 00:07:37.713
  • AND, ABOUT FIVE MONTHS INTO THEPREGNANCY, I WAS SHOWING, AND
  • 00:07:37.780 --> 00:07:39.081
  • PREGNANCY, I WAS SHOWING, ANDEVERYBODY KNEW I WAS PREGNANT.
  • 00:07:39.148 --> 00:07:40.016
  • EVERYBODY KNEW I WAS PREGNANT.THEY WERE SO EXCITED.
  • 00:07:40.082 --> 00:07:40.783
  • THEY WERE SO EXCITED.I ENDED UP GOING TO THE
  • 00:07:40.850 --> 00:07:42.752
  • I ENDED UP GOING TO THEHOSPITAL BECAUSE MY WATER FELT
  • 00:07:42.818 --> 00:07:46.455
  • HOSPITAL BECAUSE MY WATER FELTLIKE IT WAS BREAKING.
  • 00:07:46.522 --> 00:07:47.857
  • LIKE IT WAS BREAKING.AND WE GOT THERE, AND THE
  • 00:07:47.924 --> 00:07:49.158
  • AND WE GOT THERE, AND THEDOCTOR EXAMINED ME AND HE SAID:
  • 00:07:49.225 --> 00:07:52.328
  • DOCTOR EXAMINED ME AND HE SAID:"YEAH, YOUR WATER BROKE.
  • 00:07:52.395 --> 00:07:53.529
  • "YEAH, YOUR WATER BROKE.YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO DELIVER
  • 00:07:53.596 --> 00:07:54.931
  • YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO DELIVERTHIS BABY."
  • 00:07:54.997 --> 00:07:58.568
  • THIS BABY."AND, FIVE MONTHS PREGNANT --
  • 00:07:58.634 --> 00:07:59.468
  • AND, FIVE MONTHS PREGNANT --LIKE, THERE WAS NO WAY THAT OUR
  • 00:07:59.535 --> 00:08:00.469
  • LIKE, THERE WAS NO WAY THAT OURSON WAS GONNA MAKE IT.
  • 00:08:00.536 --> 00:08:06.275
  • SON WAS GONNA MAKE IT.AND I ASKED THE DOCTOR, I SAID,
  • 00:08:06.342 --> 00:08:06.943
  • AND I ASKED THE DOCTOR, I SAID,I SAID, "WELL, IS THERE ANY WAY
  • 00:08:07.009 --> 00:08:08.044
  • I SAID, "WELL, IS THERE ANY WAYTHAT MAYBE...MAYBE YOU CAN,
  • 00:08:08.110 --> 00:08:09.145
  • THAT MAYBE...MAYBE YOU CAN,LIKE, REVERSE ME, AND I CAN,
  • 00:08:09.211 --> 00:08:10.046
  • LIKE, REVERSE ME, AND I CAN,LIKE, JUST HAVE MY LEGS UP IN
  • 00:08:10.112 --> 00:08:11.247
  • LIKE, JUST HAVE MY LEGS UP INTHE AIR AND THE BABY CAN JUST
  • 00:08:11.314 --> 00:08:11.881
  • THE AIR AND THE BABY CAN JUSTSTAY INSIDE?"
  • 00:08:11.948 --> 00:08:12.548
  • STAY INSIDE?"AND, "IS THERE ANYTHING WE CAN
  • 00:08:12.615 --> 00:08:13.182
  • AND, "IS THERE ANYTHING WE CANDO?"
  • 00:08:13.249 --> 00:08:13.983
  • DO?"AND HE SAID, "THERE'S NOTHING
  • 00:08:14.050 --> 00:08:14.617
  • AND HE SAID, "THERE'S NOTHINGWE CAN DO."
  • 00:08:14.684 --> 00:08:16.152
  • WE CAN DO."AND SO, THAT NIGHT, I HAD TO
  • 00:08:16.218 --> 00:08:17.119
  • AND SO, THAT NIGHT, I HAD TODELIVER OUR BABY.
  • 00:08:17.186 --> 00:08:20.756
  • DELIVER OUR BABY.AND, HE TOOK HIS LAST BREATH IN
  • 00:08:20.823 --> 00:08:21.424
  • AND, HE TOOK HIS LAST BREATH INOUR ARMS.
  • 00:08:21.490 --> 00:08:25.161
  • OUR ARMS.AND, I...I KNOW THAT FOR THOSE
  • 00:08:25.227 --> 00:08:26.963
  • AND, I...I KNOW THAT FOR THOSEWATCHING THIS WHO HAVE
  • 00:08:27.029 --> 00:08:27.430
  • WATCHING THIS WHO HAVEEXPERIENCED THAT, YOU'LL
  • 00:08:27.496 --> 00:08:28.564
  • EXPERIENCED THAT, YOU'LLUNDERSTAND THE HEARTACHE OF
  • 00:08:28.631 --> 00:08:34.136
  • UNDERSTAND THE HEARTACHE OFLOSING A BABY IS NOT JUST THE
  • 00:08:34.203 --> 00:08:35.838
  • LOSING A BABY IS NOT JUST THEPHYSICAL EXPERIENCE; IT'S THE
  • 00:08:35.905 --> 00:08:37.173
  • PHYSICAL EXPERIENCE; IT'S THELOSS OF THE MEMORIES THAT
  • 00:08:37.239 --> 00:08:39.875
  • LOSS OF THE MEMORIES THATYOU'VE CREATED THE MOMENT YOU
  • 00:08:39.942 --> 00:08:40.776
  • YOU'VE CREATED THE MOMENT YOUFIND OUT YOU'RE PREGNANT.
  • 00:08:40.843 --> 00:08:41.344
  • FIND OUT YOU'RE PREGNANT.LIKE, WE HAD ALREADY -- IN MY
  • 00:08:41.410 --> 00:08:42.812
  • LIKE, WE HAD ALREADY -- IN MYMIND -- WE HAD ALREADY HAD THE
  • 00:08:42.878 --> 00:08:44.080
  • MIND -- WE HAD ALREADY HAD THEFIRST STEPS, WE ALREADY STARTED
  • 00:08:44.146 --> 00:08:46.048
  • FIRST STEPS, WE ALREADY STARTEDKINDERGARTEN.
  • 00:08:46.115 --> 00:08:46.849
  • KINDERGARTEN.YOU KNOW, WE ALREADY GRADUATED
  • 00:08:46.916 --> 00:08:48.884
  • YOU KNOW, WE ALREADY GRADUATEDFROM HIGH SCHOOL.
  • 00:08:48.951 --> 00:08:49.318
  • FROM HIGH SCHOOL.IT WAS THE LOSS OF ALL OF THAT.
  • 00:08:49.385 --> 00:08:51.153
  • IT WAS THE LOSS OF ALL OF THAT.AND, I HAD TO REALIZE -- AS I
  • 00:08:51.220 --> 00:08:53.322
  • AND, I HAD TO REALIZE -- AS IWAS LEAVING THE HOSPITAL, I
  • 00:08:53.389 --> 00:08:54.757
  • WAS LEAVING THE HOSPITAL, ILOOKED OVER, AND THERE WAS A
  • 00:08:54.824 --> 00:08:56.425
  • LOOKED OVER, AND THERE WAS AYOUNG LADY STANDING THERE, HUGE
  • 00:08:56.492 --> 00:08:57.493
  • YOUNG LADY STANDING THERE, HUGEBELLY, SMOKING A CIGARETTE --
  • 00:08:57.560 --> 00:09:01.030
  • BELLY, SMOKING A CIGARETTE --AND I HAD TO REALIZE IN THAT
  • 00:09:01.097 --> 00:09:02.231
  • AND I HAD TO REALIZE IN THATMOMENT, I SAID, "LORD, I DON'T
  • 00:09:02.298 --> 00:09:04.300
  • MOMENT, I SAID, "LORD, I DON'TKNOW WHAT YOU'RE GONNA DO WITH
  • 00:09:04.367 --> 00:09:05.901
  • KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GONNA DO WITHTHIS, BUT I NEED YOU TO HEAL MY
  • 00:09:05.968 --> 00:09:07.637
  • THIS, BUT I NEED YOU TO HEAL MYHEART."
  • 00:09:07.703 --> 00:09:08.471
  • HEART."I COULD NOT IMAGINE HAVING LOST
  • 00:09:08.537 --> 00:09:12.308
  • I COULD NOT IMAGINE HAVING LOSTMY BABY AND SHE'S SITTING HERE
  • 00:09:12.375 --> 00:09:13.843
  • MY BABY AND SHE'S SITTING HERESMOKING A CIGARETTE, FULL
  • 00:09:13.909 --> 00:09:15.478
  • SMOKING A CIGARETTE, FULLPREGNANCY.
  • 00:09:15.544 --> 00:09:18.147
  • PREGNANCY.I THINK WHAT GOD HELPED ME TO
  • 00:09:18.214 --> 00:09:18.948
  • I THINK WHAT GOD HELPED ME TOUNDERSTAND THROUGH ALL OF THAT
  • 00:09:19.015 --> 00:09:21.450
  • UNDERSTAND THROUGH ALL OF THATPAIN, AND ALL OF THAT LOSS, AND
  • 00:09:21.517 --> 00:09:22.385
  • PAIN, AND ALL OF THAT LOSS, ANDALL OF THAT HEARTACHE IS JUST
  • 00:09:22.451 --> 00:09:24.220
  • ALL OF THAT HEARTACHE IS JUSTHOW POWERFUL HE IS.
  • 00:09:24.286 --> 00:09:26.222
  • HOW POWERFUL HE IS.BECAUSE THERE IS NO WAY THAT I
  • 00:09:26.288 --> 00:09:29.358
  • BECAUSE THERE IS NO WAY THAT ISHOULD BE ABLE TO SIT HERE,
  • 00:09:29.425 --> 00:09:31.360
  • SHOULD BE ABLE TO SIT HERE,TODAY, WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE,
  • 00:09:31.427 --> 00:09:32.995
  • TODAY, WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE,HAVING LOST THREE BABIES,
  • 00:09:33.062 --> 00:09:37.466
  • HAVING LOST THREE BABIES,HAVING THOUGHT I WAS GONNA LOSE
  • 00:09:37.533 --> 00:09:39.301
  • HAVING THOUGHT I WAS GONNA LOSEMY OLDEST SON THREE TIMES, BUT
  • 00:09:39.368 --> 00:09:40.703
  • MY OLDEST SON THREE TIMES, BUTI CAN.
  • 00:09:40.770 --> 00:09:42.872
  • I CAN.'CAUSE GOD IS A RESTORER OF OUR
  • 00:09:42.938 --> 00:09:44.040
  • 'CAUSE GOD IS A RESTORER OF OURPEACE.
  • 00:09:44.106 --> 00:09:45.141
  • PEACE.HE IS A RESTORER OF OUR JOY.
  • 00:09:45.207 --> 00:09:48.310
  • HE IS A RESTORER OF OUR JOY.AND, NO MATTER HOW DEEPLY
  • 00:09:48.377 --> 00:09:49.845
  • AND, NO MATTER HOW DEEPLYBROKEN WE FEEL WE ARE, WE CAN
  • 00:09:49.912 --> 00:09:52.148
  • BROKEN WE FEEL WE ARE, WE CANNEVER ESCAPE THE REACH OF GOD'S
  • 00:09:52.214 --> 00:09:53.549
  • NEVER ESCAPE THE REACH OF GOD'SGRACE.
  • 00:09:53.616 --> 00:09:55.985
  • GRACE.AND THAT'S MY ENCOURAGEMENT TO
  • 00:09:56.052 --> 00:09:56.619
  • AND THAT'S MY ENCOURAGEMENT TOALL OF YOU.
  • 00:09:56.686 --> 00:09:59.321
  • ALL OF YOU.- LISA HARPER: NONA, YOU...
  • 00:09:59.388 --> 00:10:01.757
  • - LISA HARPER: NONA, YOU...I THINK THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN
  • 00:10:01.824 --> 00:10:03.559
  • I THINK THE ONLY PERSON WHO CANSAY IT AS WELL AS YOU HAVE SAID
  • 00:10:03.626 --> 00:10:05.695
  • SAY IT AS WELL AS YOU HAVE SAIDIT IS C.S LEWIS.
  • 00:10:05.761 --> 00:10:06.829
  • IT IS C.S LEWIS.ONE OF MY FAVORITE QUOTES BY
  • 00:10:06.896 --> 00:10:08.497
  • ONE OF MY FAVORITE QUOTES BYC.S. LEWIS ABOUT HOW BROKENNESS
  • 00:10:08.564 --> 00:10:10.933
  • C.S. LEWIS ABOUT HOW BROKENNESSLEADS TO WHOLENESS IN THE
  • 00:10:11.000 --> 00:10:12.234
  • LEADS TO WHOLENESS IN THEECONOMY OF GOD, COMES FROM
  • 00:10:12.301 --> 00:10:13.102
  • ECONOMY OF GOD, COMES FROM"THE FOUR LOVES," AND
  • 00:10:13.169 --> 00:10:15.271
  • "THE FOUR LOVES," ANDSIR C.S. LEWIS WROTE: "TO LOVE
  • 00:10:15.337 --> 00:10:17.640
  • SIR C.S. LEWIS WROTE: "TO LOVEAT ALL IS TO BE VULNERABLE.
  • 00:10:17.707 --> 00:10:20.009
  • AT ALL IS TO BE VULNERABLE.LOVE ANYTHING AND YOUR HEART
  • 00:10:20.076 --> 00:10:21.510
  • LOVE ANYTHING AND YOUR HEARTWILL BE WRUNG OUT AND POSSIBLY
  • 00:10:21.577 --> 00:10:22.611
  • WILL BE WRUNG OUT AND POSSIBLYBROKEN.
  • 00:10:22.678 --> 00:10:24.046
  • BROKEN.IF YOU WANT TO MAKE SURE OF
  • 00:10:24.113 --> 00:10:25.381
  • IF YOU WANT TO MAKE SURE OFKEEPING IT INTACT, YOU MUST
  • 00:10:25.448 --> 00:10:26.916
  • KEEPING IT INTACT, YOU MUSTGIVE IT TO NO ONE, NOT EVEN AN
  • 00:10:26.982 --> 00:10:28.584
  • GIVE IT TO NO ONE, NOT EVEN ANANIMAL.
  • 00:10:28.651 --> 00:10:30.252
  • ANIMAL.WRAP IT CAREFULLY AROUND WITH
  • 00:10:30.319 --> 00:10:31.020
  • WRAP IT CAREFULLY AROUND WITHHOBBIES AND LITTLE LUXURIES;
  • 00:10:31.087 --> 00:10:32.421
  • HOBBIES AND LITTLE LUXURIES;AVOID ALL ENTANGLEMENTS.
  • 00:10:32.488 --> 00:10:34.056
  • AVOID ALL ENTANGLEMENTS.LOCK IT UP SAFE IN THE CASKET
  • 00:10:34.123 --> 00:10:37.126
  • LOCK IT UP SAFE IN THE CASKETOR COFFIN OF YOUR SELFISHNESS.
  • 00:10:37.193 --> 00:10:38.294
  • OR COFFIN OF YOUR SELFISHNESS.BUT IN THAT CASKET, SAFE, DARK,
  • 00:10:38.360 --> 00:10:39.895
  • BUT IN THAT CASKET, SAFE, DARK,MOTIONLESS, AIRLESS, IT WILL
  • 00:10:39.962 --> 00:10:42.465
  • MOTIONLESS, AIRLESS, IT WILLCHANGE.
  • 00:10:42.531 --> 00:10:45.367
  • CHANGE.IT WILL NOT BE BROKEN; IT WILL
  • 00:10:45.434 --> 00:10:46.769
  • IT WILL NOT BE BROKEN; IT WILLBECOME UNBREAKABLE,
  • 00:10:46.836 --> 00:10:48.637
  • BECOME UNBREAKABLE,IMPENETRABLE, IRREDEEMABLE.
  • 00:10:48.704 --> 00:10:51.574
  • IMPENETRABLE, IRREDEEMABLE.TO LOVE IS TO BE VULNERABLE."
  • 00:10:51.640 --> 00:10:56.545
  • TO LOVE IS TO BE VULNERABLE."(EMOTIONAL VOICE) I'VE...NEVER
  • 00:10:56.612 --> 00:10:57.179
  • (EMOTIONAL VOICE) I'VE...NEVERHAD THE PRIVILEGE OF BEING
  • 00:10:57.246 --> 00:10:58.681
  • HAD THE PRIVILEGE OF BEINGPREGNANT, BUT I LOST TWO BABIES
  • 00:10:58.748 --> 00:11:00.883
  • PREGNANT, BUT I LOST TWO BABIESIN THE ADOPTION PROCESS;
  • 00:11:00.950 --> 00:11:04.019
  • IN THE ADOPTION PROCESS;ONE -- FOUR DAYS BEFORE I WAS
  • 00:11:04.086 --> 00:11:05.721
  • ONE -- FOUR DAYS BEFORE I WASSUPPOSED TO BRING HER HOME.
  • 00:11:05.788 --> 00:11:06.589
  • SUPPOSED TO BRING HER HOME.SHEILA WALKED WITH ME THROUGH
  • 00:11:06.655 --> 00:11:07.823
  • SHEILA WALKED WITH ME THROUGHTHAT, STEP BY STEP.
  • 00:11:07.890 --> 00:11:11.594
  • THAT, STEP BY STEP.AND I REMEMBER THINKING: I'M
  • 00:11:11.660 --> 00:11:13.028
  • AND I REMEMBER THINKING: I'MNOT SURE I CAN PEEL MY HEART UP
  • 00:11:13.095 --> 00:11:16.098
  • NOT SURE I CAN PEEL MY HEART UPOFF THE PAVEMENT, AFTER THIS.
  • 00:11:16.165 --> 00:11:17.500
  • OFF THE PAVEMENT, AFTER THIS.AND I DIDN'T REALLY WANNA HOPE
  • 00:11:17.566 --> 00:11:18.467
  • AND I DIDN'T REALLY WANNA HOPEAGAIN, YOU KNOW.
  • 00:11:18.534 --> 00:11:20.936
  • AGAIN, YOU KNOW.I KINDA WANTED TO JUST PROTECT
  • 00:11:21.003 --> 00:11:23.572
  • I KINDA WANTED TO JUST PROTECTMY HEART.
  • 00:11:23.639 --> 00:11:25.307
  • MY HEART.AND IT WAS TWO WEEKS AFTER I
  • 00:11:25.374 --> 00:11:26.942
  • AND IT WAS TWO WEEKS AFTER ILOST THAT BABY AT THE ELEVENTH
  • 00:11:27.009 --> 00:11:30.179
  • LOST THAT BABY AT THE ELEVENTHHOUR THAT I GOT A PHONE CALL
  • 00:11:30.246 --> 00:11:30.746
  • HOUR THAT I GOT A PHONE CALLABOUT MISSY.
  • 00:11:30.813 --> 00:11:31.914
  • ABOUT MISSY.AND IT WAS A FRIEND.
  • 00:11:31.981 --> 00:11:34.550
  • AND IT WAS A FRIEND.AND, I HADN'T SEEN HER IN
  • 00:11:34.617 --> 00:11:35.651
  • AND, I HADN'T SEEN HER INYEARS.
  • 00:11:35.718 --> 00:11:36.485
  • YEARS.AND SHE SAID, "I KNOW YOU'RE
  • 00:11:36.552 --> 00:11:37.353
  • AND SHE SAID, "I KNOW YOU'REDEVASTATED."
  • 00:11:37.419 --> 00:11:38.754
  • DEVASTATED."SHE HAD HEARD THROUGH ANOTHER
  • 00:11:38.821 --> 00:11:39.855
  • SHE HAD HEARD THROUGH ANOTHERFRIEND I HAD LOST THIS
  • 00:11:39.922 --> 00:11:41.991
  • FRIEND I HAD LOST THISLATE-TERM ADOPTION.
  • 00:11:42.057 --> 00:11:43.259
  • LATE-TERM ADOPTION.AND SHE SAID: "LISA, I DON'T
  • 00:11:43.325 --> 00:11:43.859
  • AND SHE SAID: "LISA, I DON'TEVEN KNOW IF YOU HAVE THE
  • 00:11:43.926 --> 00:11:44.660
  • EVEN KNOW IF YOU HAVE THEBANDWIDTH TO PRAY ABOUT THIS,
  • 00:11:44.727 --> 00:11:45.928
  • BANDWIDTH TO PRAY ABOUT THIS,BUT I JUST GOT HOME FROM HAITI,
  • 00:11:45.995 --> 00:11:47.363
  • BUT I JUST GOT HOME FROM HAITI,LAST NIGHT.
  • 00:11:47.429 --> 00:11:47.863
  • LAST NIGHT.AND WHILE I WAS IN THIS RURAL
  • 00:11:47.930 --> 00:11:49.865
  • AND WHILE I WAS IN THIS RURALVILLAGE, ONE OF THE YOUNG MOMS
  • 00:11:49.932 --> 00:11:51.033
  • VILLAGE, ONE OF THE YOUNG MOMSDIED OF AIDS.
  • 00:11:51.100 --> 00:11:52.434
  • DIED OF AIDS.AND SHE LEFT BEHIND A
  • 00:11:52.501 --> 00:11:53.836
  • AND SHE LEFT BEHIND A2-YEAR-OLD LITTLE GIRL WHO HAS
  • 00:11:53.903 --> 00:11:55.237
  • 2-YEAR-OLD LITTLE GIRL WHO HASHIV AND TUBERCULOSIS AND
  • 00:11:55.304 --> 00:11:57.239
  • HIV AND TUBERCULOSIS ANDCHOLERA.
  • 00:11:57.306 --> 00:11:59.041
  • CHOLERA.AND THE DOCTORS IN
  • 00:11:59.108 --> 00:11:59.809
  • AND THE DOCTORS INPORT-AU-PRINCE HAVE TOLD HER
  • 00:11:59.875 --> 00:12:01.043
  • PORT-AU-PRINCE HAVE TOLD HERSHE ONLY HAS TWO MONTHS TO
  • 00:12:01.110 --> 00:12:02.244
  • SHE ONLY HAS TWO MONTHS TOLIVE.
  • 00:12:02.311 --> 00:12:03.546
  • LIVE.AND WHILE WE WERE IN THE
  • 00:12:03.612 --> 00:12:05.114
  • AND WHILE WE WERE IN THEEMERGENCY ROOM WITH THAT BABY,
  • 00:12:05.181 --> 00:12:06.615
  • EMERGENCY ROOM WITH THAT BABY,GOD JUST SPOKE SO LOUDLY TO MY
  • 00:12:06.682 --> 00:12:07.917
  • GOD JUST SPOKE SO LOUDLY TO MYHEART, AND HE SAID, 'LISA
  • 00:12:07.983 --> 00:12:09.285
  • HEART, AND HE SAID, 'LISAHARPER'S SUPPOSED TO BE THIS
  • 00:12:09.351 --> 00:12:10.719
  • HARPER'S SUPPOSED TO BE THISLITTLE GIRL'S MOTHER.'"
  • 00:12:10.786 --> 00:12:14.824
  • LITTLE GIRL'S MOTHER.'"AND SHE SAID: "I'M SO SORRY.
  • 00:12:14.890 --> 00:12:15.825
  • AND SHE SAID: "I'M SO SORRY.I KNOW THIS IS NOT COMING AT A
  • 00:12:15.891 --> 00:12:16.926
  • I KNOW THIS IS NOT COMING AT AGOOD TIME, BUT WOULD YOU BE
  • 00:12:16.992 --> 00:12:17.760
  • GOOD TIME, BUT WOULD YOU BEWILLING TO PRAY ABOUT THAT?"
  • 00:12:17.827 --> 00:12:20.196
  • WILLING TO PRAY ABOUT THAT?"AND I SAID, "NO."
  • 00:12:20.262 --> 00:12:23.933
  • AND I SAID, "NO."I SAID: "I'VE BEEN PRAYING
  • 00:12:23.999 --> 00:12:24.500
  • I SAID: "I'VE BEEN PRAYINGABOUT THIS FOR 30 YEARS.
  • 00:12:24.567 --> 00:12:25.367
  • ABOUT THIS FOR 30 YEARS.SIGN ME UP."
  • 00:12:25.434 --> 00:12:27.269
  • SIGN ME UP."AND THEN, I GOT OFF THE PHONE
  • 00:12:27.336 --> 00:12:28.871
  • AND THEN, I GOT OFF THE PHONEWITH SHEILA AND SAID A WORD
  • 00:12:28.938 --> 00:12:29.471
  • WITH SHEILA AND SAID A WORDTHAT'S NOT IN THE BIBLE.
  • 00:12:29.538 --> 00:12:30.472
  • THAT'S NOT IN THE BIBLE.'CAUSE I THOUGHT: WHAT HAVE I
  • 00:12:30.539 --> 00:12:32.107
  • 'CAUSE I THOUGHT: WHAT HAVE IJUST COMMITTED TO?
  • 00:12:32.174 --> 00:12:32.908
  • JUST COMMITTED TO?[LAUGHTER]
  • 00:12:32.975 --> 00:12:35.144
  • [LAUGHTER]YOU KNOW, MY HEART IS JUST...
  • 00:12:35.211 --> 00:12:36.579
  • YOU KNOW, MY HEART IS JUST...YOU KNOW, EVISCERATED, AND I
  • 00:12:36.645 --> 00:12:38.547
  • YOU KNOW, EVISCERATED, AND IJUST COMMITTED TO PROBABLY WHAT
  • 00:12:38.614 --> 00:12:40.182
  • JUST COMMITTED TO PROBABLY WHATWILL BE MORE HEARTBREAK.
  • 00:12:40.249 --> 00:12:41.417
  • WILL BE MORE HEARTBREAK.BUT I DON'T THINK MY HEART
  • 00:12:41.483 --> 00:12:43.285
  • BUT I DON'T THINK MY HEARTWOULD HAVE BEEN PREPARED FOR
  • 00:12:43.352 --> 00:12:44.320
  • WOULD HAVE BEEN PREPARED FORMISSY, HAD IT NOT BEEN PLOWED
  • 00:12:44.386 --> 00:12:46.455
  • MISSY, HAD IT NOT BEEN PLOWEDBY OTHER LOSS.
  • 00:12:46.522 --> 00:12:49.959
  • BY OTHER LOSS.AND I'M NOT SAYING MY OTHER
  • 00:12:50.025 --> 00:12:51.093
  • AND I'M NOT SAYING MY OTHERLOSS WAS DIVINELY CAUSATIVE.
  • 00:12:51.160 --> 00:12:52.461
  • LOSS WAS DIVINELY CAUSATIVE.I DON'T AT ALL BELIEVE THAT GOD
  • 00:12:52.528 --> 00:12:53.729
  • I DON'T AT ALL BELIEVE THAT GODCAUSED THE EARLIER LOSSES.
  • 00:12:53.796 --> 00:12:56.665
  • CAUSED THE EARLIER LOSSES.BUT HE USED THEM.
  • 00:12:56.732 --> 00:12:58.934
  • BUT HE USED THEM.BECAUSE, SCRIPTURE TELLS US
  • 00:12:59.001 --> 00:13:00.436
  • BECAUSE, SCRIPTURE TELLS USWHAT THE ENEMY INTENDS FOR OUR
  • 00:13:00.502 --> 00:13:02.204
  • WHAT THE ENEMY INTENDS FOR OURHARM AND FOR EVIL, GOD WILL USE
  • 00:13:02.271 --> 00:13:03.906
  • HARM AND FOR EVIL, GOD WILL USEFOR OUR GOOD.
  • 00:13:03.973 --> 00:13:05.808
  • FOR OUR GOOD.AND SO, I THINK, AS LEWIS SAID
  • 00:13:05.875 --> 00:13:09.144
  • AND SO, I THINK, AS LEWIS SAID-- AS YOU'VE TESTIFIED, NONA --
  • 00:13:09.211 --> 00:13:10.779
  • -- AS YOU'VE TESTIFIED, NONA --TO ACTUALLY HAVE LOVE IS TO BE
  • 00:13:10.846 --> 00:13:13.315
  • TO ACTUALLY HAVE LOVE IS TO BEWILLING TO HAVE A HEART THAT'S
  • 00:13:13.382 --> 00:13:14.250
  • WILLING TO HAVE A HEART THAT'SBROKEN.
  • 00:13:14.316 --> 00:13:16.085
  • BROKEN.AND, SOMEHOW, IN THAT BREAKING,
  • 00:13:16.151 --> 00:13:18.854
  • AND, SOMEHOW, IN THAT BREAKING,WHEN THAT...WHEN THAT BREAKING
  • 00:13:18.921 --> 00:13:21.123
  • WHEN THAT...WHEN THAT BREAKINGIS SATURATED WITH THE GRACE OF
  • 00:13:21.190 --> 00:13:22.558
  • IS SATURATED WITH THE GRACE OFGOD, IT STRETCHES OUR HEARTS,
  • 00:13:22.625 --> 00:13:24.693
  • GOD, IT STRETCHES OUR HEARTS,AND WE GET TO LOVE MORE AND
  • 00:13:24.760 --> 00:13:27.263
  • AND WE GET TO LOVE MORE ANDACTUALLY EXPERIENCE MORE LOVE,
  • 00:13:27.329 --> 00:13:29.531
  • ACTUALLY EXPERIENCE MORE LOVE,AS WELL.
  • 00:13:29.598 --> 00:13:31.734
  • AS WELL.- LISA BEVERE: I AM...I'M SO
  • 00:13:31.800 --> 00:13:32.735
  • - LISA BEVERE: I AM...I'M SOMOVED BY YOUR STORIES.
  • 00:13:32.801 --> 00:13:34.470
  • MOVED BY YOUR STORIES.NONA, I HAD NO IDEA HOW MUCH
  • 00:13:34.536 --> 00:13:35.971
  • NONA, I HAD NO IDEA HOW MUCHLOSS YOU HAD GONE THROUGH,
  • 00:13:36.038 --> 00:13:36.672
  • LOSS YOU HAD GONE THROUGH,AND...WOW.
  • 00:13:36.739 --> 00:13:38.707
  • AND...WOW.[EXHALES]
  • 00:13:38.774 --> 00:13:39.842
  • [EXHALES]JUST THE WHOLE IDEA OF THE
  • 00:13:39.909 --> 00:13:40.376
  • JUST THE WHOLE IDEA OF THEDISAPPOINTMENT.
  • 00:13:40.442 --> 00:13:43.946
  • DISAPPOINTMENT.AND, I ALMOST HAVE A DIFFERENT
  • 00:13:44.013 --> 00:13:44.580
  • AND, I ALMOST HAVE A DIFFERENTANGLE ON THAT.
  • 00:13:44.647 --> 00:13:46.548
  • ANGLE ON THAT.I ACTUALLY IMPRISONED MY HEART.
  • 00:13:46.615 --> 00:13:49.852
  • I ACTUALLY IMPRISONED MY HEART.YOU KNOW, THE BIBLE TELLS US TO
  • 00:13:49.919 --> 00:13:51.020
  • YOU KNOW, THE BIBLE TELLS US TOGUARD OUR HEART.
  • 00:13:51.086 --> 00:13:53.656
  • GUARD OUR HEART.BUT I GREW UP WITH SO MUCH PAIN
  • 00:13:53.722 --> 00:13:54.390
  • BUT I GREW UP WITH SO MUCH PAINAND SO MUCH DYSFUNCTION THAT I
  • 00:13:54.456 --> 00:13:56.191
  • AND SO MUCH DYSFUNCTION THAT IDIDN'T GUARD IT; I PUT IT IN A
  • 00:13:56.258 --> 00:13:57.760
  • DIDN'T GUARD IT; I PUT IT IN ALOCKDOWN.
  • 00:13:57.826 --> 00:14:00.229
  • LOCKDOWN.AND, WHEN I GOT MARRIED, I
  • 00:14:00.296 --> 00:14:02.398
  • AND, WHEN I GOT MARRIED, IDIDN'T KNOW HOW TO GIVE MY
  • 00:14:02.464 --> 00:14:03.599
  • DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO GIVE MYHUSBAND MY HEART.
  • 00:14:03.666 --> 00:14:06.502
  • HUSBAND MY HEART.BECAUSE I THOUGHT: ALL MEN
  • 00:14:06.568 --> 00:14:07.069
  • BECAUSE I THOUGHT: ALL MENLEAVE.
  • 00:14:07.136 --> 00:14:08.771
  • LEAVE.PEOPLE WILL MISTREAT YOUR
  • 00:14:08.837 --> 00:14:09.338
  • PEOPLE WILL MISTREAT YOURHEART.
  • 00:14:09.405 --> 00:14:11.507
  • HEART.THEY'LL ABUSE YOUR HEART.
  • 00:14:11.573 --> 00:14:12.074
  • THEY'LL ABUSE YOUR HEART.THEY'LL BETRAY YOUR HEART.
  • 00:14:12.141 --> 00:14:13.409
  • THEY'LL BETRAY YOUR HEART.AND I REMEMBER JOHN COMING TO
  • 00:14:13.475 --> 00:14:15.444
  • AND I REMEMBER JOHN COMING TOME -- I THINK WE'D BEEN MARRIED
  • 00:14:15.511 --> 00:14:16.345
  • ME -- I THINK WE'D BEEN MARRIEDABOUT EIGHT YEARS.
  • 00:14:16.412 --> 00:14:17.446
  • ABOUT EIGHT YEARS.AND HE SAID, "I DON'T KNOW HOW
  • 00:14:17.513 --> 00:14:19.248
  • AND HE SAID, "I DON'T KNOW HOWOLD WE HAVE TO BE, I DON'T KNOW
  • 00:14:19.315 --> 00:14:21.750
  • OLD WE HAVE TO BE, I DON'T KNOWHOW LONG IT'S GOING TO TAKE FOR
  • 00:14:21.817 --> 00:14:26.221
  • HOW LONG IT'S GOING TO TAKE FORYOU TO BELIEVE THAT I'M NOT
  • 00:14:26.288 --> 00:14:27.489
  • YOU TO BELIEVE THAT I'M NOTYOUR FATHER, THAT I'M NOT GONNA
  • 00:14:27.556 --> 00:14:28.924
  • YOUR FATHER, THAT I'M NOT GONNALEAVE YOU, THAT I'M NOT GONNA
  • 00:14:28.991 --> 00:14:29.959
  • LEAVE YOU, THAT I'M NOT GONNAABANDON YOU, THAT I'M NOT GOING
  • 00:14:30.025 --> 00:14:31.560
  • ABANDON YOU, THAT I'M NOT GOINGTO BETRAY YOU."
  • 00:14:31.627 --> 00:14:33.896
  • TO BETRAY YOU."AND, HE SAID, "IF WE HAVE TO
  • 00:14:33.963 --> 00:14:36.565
  • AND, HE SAID, "IF WE HAVE TOWAIT TILL WE'RE 70, YOU JUST
  • 00:14:36.632 --> 00:14:37.900
  • WAIT TILL WE'RE 70, YOU JUSTLOOK AT ME AND SAY, 'WOW!
  • 00:14:37.967 --> 00:14:38.434
  • LOOK AT ME AND SAY, 'WOW!YOU'RE STILL HERE!'"
  • 00:14:38.500 --> 00:14:40.836
  • YOU'RE STILL HERE!'"HE SAID, "I'M OKAY WITH THAT,
  • 00:14:40.903 --> 00:14:41.937
  • HE SAID, "I'M OKAY WITH THAT,LISA, BUT WE'RE GOING TO MISS A
  • 00:14:42.004 --> 00:14:43.872
  • LISA, BUT WE'RE GOING TO MISS ALOT OF FUN AND A LOT OF LOVE,
  • 00:14:43.939 --> 00:14:45.908
  • LOT OF FUN AND A LOT OF LOVE,IN THE PROCESS."
  • 00:14:45.975 --> 00:14:48.644
  • IN THE PROCESS."AND MAYBE YOU EXPERIENCED SOME
  • 00:14:48.711 --> 00:14:50.012
  • AND MAYBE YOU EXPERIENCED SOMEPAIN AND YOU DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO
  • 00:14:50.079 --> 00:14:52.314
  • PAIN AND YOU DIDN'T KNOW HOW TOGUARD YOUR HEART, YOU DIDN'T
  • 00:14:52.381 --> 00:14:53.849
  • GUARD YOUR HEART, YOU DIDN'TKNOW HOW TO HAVE THAT PAIN WORK
  • 00:14:53.916 --> 00:14:55.851
  • KNOW HOW TO HAVE THAT PAIN WORKSOFTNESS INTO YOUR LIFE.
  • 00:14:55.918 --> 00:14:58.520
  • SOFTNESS INTO YOUR LIFE.MAYBE YOU WERE LIKE ME AND YOU
  • 00:14:58.587 --> 00:15:00.022
  • MAYBE YOU WERE LIKE ME AND YOUSAID, 'I'M NOT GONNA LET THAT
  • 00:15:00.089 --> 00:15:00.656
  • SAID, 'I'M NOT GONNA LET THATEVER HAPPEN AGAIN,' AND YOU
  • 00:15:00.723 --> 00:15:03.425
  • EVER HAPPEN AGAIN,' AND YOULOCK AWAY YOUR HEART.
  • 00:15:03.492 --> 00:15:05.694
  • LOCK AWAY YOUR HEART.I'M GONNA TELL YOU SOMETHING:
  • 00:15:05.761 --> 00:15:06.495
  • I'M GONNA TELL YOU SOMETHING:THAT IS NOT GOING TO BE HEALTHY
  • 00:15:06.562 --> 00:15:10.566
  • THAT IS NOT GOING TO BE HEALTHYLONG.
  • 00:15:10.632 --> 00:15:11.333
  • LONG.IT'S THAT WHOLE IMAGERY OF
  • 00:15:11.400 --> 00:15:12.368
  • IT'S THAT WHOLE IMAGERY OFPUTTING IT IN A COFFIN AND
  • 00:15:12.434 --> 00:15:13.335
  • PUTTING IT IN A COFFIN ANDHAVING IT CHANGE TO SOMETHING
  • 00:15:13.402 --> 00:15:15.137
  • HAVING IT CHANGE TO SOMETHINGVERY, VERY DIFFERENT.
  • 00:15:15.204 --> 00:15:18.607
  • VERY, VERY DIFFERENT.AND I GET IT THAT PEOPLE MAY
  • 00:15:18.674 --> 00:15:20.275
  • AND I GET IT THAT PEOPLE MAYHAVE BETRAYED YOU OR WOUNDED
  • 00:15:20.342 --> 00:15:22.544
  • HAVE BETRAYED YOU OR WOUNDEDYOU.
  • 00:15:22.611 --> 00:15:23.112
  • YOU.BUT I AM HERE TO TELL YOU THAT
  • 00:15:23.178 --> 00:15:24.546
  • BUT I AM HERE TO TELL YOU THATYOU CAN GIVE GOD YOUR BROKEN
  • 00:15:24.613 --> 00:15:25.180
  • YOU CAN GIVE GOD YOUR BROKENHEART.
  • 00:15:25.247 --> 00:15:26.682
  • HEART.IT IS SO MUCH BETTER IN HIS
  • 00:15:26.749 --> 00:15:28.250
  • IT IS SO MUCH BETTER IN HISCARE THAN IT IS IN YOUR
  • 00:15:28.317 --> 00:15:29.952
  • CARE THAN IT IS IN YOURLOCKDOWN.
  • 00:15:30.019 --> 00:15:32.588
  • LOCKDOWN.BECAUSE WHEN YOU DO A HEART
  • 00:15:32.654 --> 00:15:34.289
  • BECAUSE WHEN YOU DO A HEARTLOCKDOWN, YOU END UP PUSHING
  • 00:15:34.356 --> 00:15:35.624
  • LOCKDOWN, YOU END UP PUSHINGAWAY THE VERY PEOPLE THAT GOD
  • 00:15:35.691 --> 00:15:36.859
  • AWAY THE VERY PEOPLE THAT GODIS BRINGING INTO YOUR LIFE FOR
  • 00:15:36.925 --> 00:15:39.428
  • IS BRINGING INTO YOUR LIFE FORHEALING AND FOR STRENGTH.
  • 00:15:39.495 --> 00:15:43.365
  • HEALING AND FOR STRENGTH.AND I JUST-- I'M JUST SO IN
  • 00:15:43.432 --> 00:15:43.966
  • AND I JUST-- I'M JUST SO INAWE.
  • 00:15:44.033 --> 00:15:45.000
  • AWE.I KNOW EVERY HARD SEASON IN MY
  • 00:15:45.067 --> 00:15:47.336
  • I KNOW EVERY HARD SEASON IN MYLIFE--
  • 00:15:47.403 --> 00:15:48.170
  • LIFE--I KNOW WHEN I LOST -- SHEILA,
  • 00:15:48.237 --> 00:15:49.004
  • I KNOW WHEN I LOST -- SHEILA,VERY MUCH LIKE YOU -- WHEN I
  • 00:15:49.071 --> 00:15:49.872
  • VERY MUCH LIKE YOU -- WHEN ILOST MY MOTHER, SOMETHING
  • 00:15:49.938 --> 00:15:51.807
  • LOST MY MOTHER, SOMETHINGINSIDE OF ME OPENED UP.
  • 00:15:51.874 --> 00:15:55.411
  • INSIDE OF ME OPENED UP.IT WAS LIKE A WAIL.
  • 00:15:55.477 --> 00:15:57.479
  • IT WAS LIKE A WAIL.IT WAS LIKE A PORTAL OF PAIN
  • 00:15:57.546 --> 00:15:58.580
  • IT WAS LIKE A PORTAL OF PAINTHAT I HAD NEVER EXPERIENCED
  • 00:15:58.647 --> 00:16:02.317
  • THAT I HAD NEVER EXPERIENCEDBEFORE.
  • 00:16:02.384 --> 00:16:03.052
  • BEFORE.AND I FELT LIKE GOD SAID: BE
  • 00:16:03.118 --> 00:16:04.620
  • AND I FELT LIKE GOD SAID: BEVERY WISE HOW YOU TEND IT.
  • 00:16:04.686 --> 00:16:06.188
  • VERY WISE HOW YOU TEND IT.SO, I SAT IN MY BEDROOM AND
  • 00:16:06.255 --> 00:16:08.957
  • SO, I SAT IN MY BEDROOM ANDI READ JOHN ORTBERG'S BOOK
  • 00:16:09.024 --> 00:16:10.459
  • I READ JOHN ORTBERG'S BOOK"SOUL KEEPING."
  • 00:16:10.526 --> 00:16:12.327
  • "SOUL KEEPING."AND I JUST DOVE INTO EVERYTHING
  • 00:16:12.394 --> 00:16:15.431
  • AND I JUST DOVE INTO EVERYTHINGTHAT I COULD LEARN FROM THIS
  • 00:16:15.497 --> 00:16:18.500
  • THAT I COULD LEARN FROM THISPAIN SO THAT IT WOULD TURN INTO
  • 00:16:18.567 --> 00:16:19.468
  • PAIN SO THAT IT WOULD TURN INTOEMPATHY FOR OTHER PEOPLE IN
  • 00:16:19.535 --> 00:16:20.569
  • EMPATHY FOR OTHER PEOPLE INTHAT SEASON.
  • 00:16:20.636 --> 00:16:23.872
  • THAT SEASON.AND, NONA, I JUST-- I CAN'T
  • 00:16:23.939 --> 00:16:24.940
  • AND, NONA, I JUST-- I CAN'TWAIT TO MEET YOU, ONE DAY.
  • 00:16:25.007 --> 00:16:26.241
  • WAIT TO MEET YOU, ONE DAY.I JUST AM GONNA GRAB YOU AND
  • 00:16:26.308 --> 00:16:28.343
  • I JUST AM GONNA GRAB YOU ANDHUG YOU, WHEN IT'S COVID-CLEAR,
  • 00:16:28.410 --> 00:16:29.845
  • HUG YOU, WHEN IT'S COVID-CLEAR,BECAUSE...I LOVE YOUR STORIES.
  • 00:16:29.912 --> 00:16:31.613
  • BECAUSE...I LOVE YOUR STORIES.AND, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR
  • 00:16:31.680 --> 00:16:34.483
  • AND, THANK YOU SO MUCH FORSHARING THAT FOR THE PEOPLE
  • 00:16:34.550 --> 00:16:35.350
  • SHARING THAT FOR THE PEOPLETHAT HAVE HAD THAT KIND OF
  • 00:16:35.417 --> 00:16:35.918
  • THAT HAVE HAD THAT KIND OFLOSS.
  • 00:16:35.984 --> 00:16:37.252
  • LOSS.- NONA: AMEN, AMEN.
  • 00:16:37.319 --> 00:16:38.554
  • - NONA: AMEN, AMEN.- MO: ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:16:38.620 --> 00:16:43.492
  • - MO: ABSOLUTELY.I THINK WHEN I...(EXHALES)
  • 00:16:43.559 --> 00:16:44.593
  • I THINK WHEN I...(EXHALES)THINK OF HEARTBREAK, MINE,
  • 00:16:44.660 --> 00:16:45.561
  • THINK OF HEARTBREAK, MINE,WHAT'S COMING TO MY MIND, TAKES
  • 00:16:45.627 --> 00:16:46.862
  • WHAT'S COMING TO MY MIND, TAKESA LITTLE BIT DIFFERENT FORM, IN
  • 00:16:46.929 --> 00:16:48.897
  • A LITTLE BIT DIFFERENT FORM, INTHAT I WAS ONE WHOSE HEART WAS
  • 00:16:48.964 --> 00:16:52.134
  • THAT I WAS ONE WHOSE HEART WASBROKEN.
  • 00:16:52.201 --> 00:16:55.104
  • BROKEN.AND, I JUST BEGAN TO GIVE EVERY
  • 00:16:55.170 --> 00:16:57.206
  • AND, I JUST BEGAN TO GIVE EVERYPIECE TO EVERY INDIVIDUAL I
  • 00:16:57.272 --> 00:16:58.540
  • PIECE TO EVERY INDIVIDUAL IMET.
  • 00:16:58.607 --> 00:17:02.044
  • MET.AND THAT WAS MY HEART AND MY
  • 00:17:02.111 --> 00:17:03.345
  • AND THAT WAS MY HEART AND MYBODY, THROUGH, YOU KNOW, A
  • 00:17:03.412 --> 00:17:05.247
  • BODY, THROUGH, YOU KNOW, ASEASON OF GRIEF AND SUFFERING
  • 00:17:05.314 --> 00:17:07.850
  • SEASON OF GRIEF AND SUFFERINGTHAT, YOU KNOW, MANIFESTED
  • 00:17:07.916 --> 00:17:11.286
  • THAT, YOU KNOW, MANIFESTEDPROMISCUITY AND A LONGING FOR
  • 00:17:11.353 --> 00:17:12.654
  • PROMISCUITY AND A LONGING FORSOMEONE TO HANDLE MY HEART
  • 00:17:12.721 --> 00:17:13.422
  • SOMEONE TO HANDLE MY HEARTWELL.
  • 00:17:13.489 --> 00:17:16.191
  • WELL.I JUST GAVE PIECE AFTER PIECE
  • 00:17:16.258 --> 00:17:19.061
  • I JUST GAVE PIECE AFTER PIECEAFTER PIECE OF MYSELF AWAY.
  • 00:17:19.128 --> 00:17:21.430
  • AFTER PIECE OF MYSELF AWAY.AND WHAT WAS INTERESTING IS
  • 00:17:21.497 --> 00:17:22.030
  • AND WHAT WAS INTERESTING ISTHAT EVERY PERSON WHO I HANDED
  • 00:17:22.097 --> 00:17:23.465
  • THAT EVERY PERSON WHO I HANDEDA PIECE TO HANDLED MY HEART
  • 00:17:23.532 --> 00:17:24.833
  • A PIECE TO HANDLED MY HEARTDIFFERENTLY.
  • 00:17:24.900 --> 00:17:28.103
  • DIFFERENTLY.AND, SOME WERE ABUSIVE, SOME
  • 00:17:28.170 --> 00:17:29.571
  • AND, SOME WERE ABUSIVE, SOMEWERE FLIPPANT AND TOSSED IT
  • 00:17:29.638 --> 00:17:33.008
  • WERE FLIPPANT AND TOSSED ITOUT.
  • 00:17:33.075 --> 00:17:34.576
  • OUT.SOME WERE CONTROLLING OF IT.
  • 00:17:34.643 --> 00:17:39.414
  • SOME WERE CONTROLLING OF IT.EVERY PIECE WAS STEWARDED IN A
  • 00:17:39.481 --> 00:17:40.916
  • EVERY PIECE WAS STEWARDED IN ADIFFERENT WAY.
  • 00:17:40.983 --> 00:17:42.451
  • DIFFERENT WAY.AND I LEARNED AND REALIZED,
  • 00:17:42.518 --> 00:17:43.952
  • AND I LEARNED AND REALIZED,WHEN I CAME TO KNOW CHRIST, HE
  • 00:17:44.019 --> 00:17:46.288
  • WHEN I CAME TO KNOW CHRIST, HEWAS SO KIND TO WALK ME THROUGH
  • 00:17:46.355 --> 00:17:49.725
  • WAS SO KIND TO WALK ME THROUGHTHE REALIZATION THAT, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:17:49.791 --> 00:17:50.926
  • THE REALIZATION THAT, YOU KNOW,EVERY INTIMATE ENCOUNTER THAT I
  • 00:17:50.993 --> 00:17:52.928
  • EVERY INTIMATE ENCOUNTER THAT IHAD BEEN INVOLVED WITH IN MY
  • 00:17:52.995 --> 00:17:55.330
  • HAD BEEN INVOLVED WITH IN MYLIFE, OR EVERY PERSON THAT I
  • 00:17:55.397 --> 00:17:57.332
  • LIFE, OR EVERY PERSON THAT IHAD HANDED A PIECE OF MY HEART
  • 00:17:57.399 --> 00:17:58.433
  • HAD HANDED A PIECE OF MY HEARTTO AND THEY HAD HANDLED IT AS
  • 00:17:58.500 --> 00:17:59.968
  • TO AND THEY HAD HANDLED IT ASTHEY SAW FIT -- IT WAS
  • 00:18:00.035 --> 00:18:01.737
  • THEY SAW FIT -- IT WASFORMATIVE TO MY UNDERSTANDING
  • 00:18:01.803 --> 00:18:04.339
  • FORMATIVE TO MY UNDERSTANDINGOF WHO GOD WAS AND HOW HE WAS
  • 00:18:04.406 --> 00:18:06.808
  • OF WHO GOD WAS AND HOW HE WASGOING TO HANDLE MY HEART.
  • 00:18:06.875 --> 00:18:10.012
  • GOING TO HANDLE MY HEART.AND SO, I WAS IN A SEASON, AS A
  • 00:18:10.078 --> 00:18:12.047
  • AND SO, I WAS IN A SEASON, AS AYOUNG ADULT, REALIZING, GIVEN
  • 00:18:12.114 --> 00:18:13.715
  • YOUNG ADULT, REALIZING, GIVENTHE CIRCUMSTANCE OR THE
  • 00:18:13.782 --> 00:18:16.818
  • THE CIRCUMSTANCE OR THESITUATION, I HAVE A DIFFERENT
  • 00:18:16.885 --> 00:18:18.253
  • SITUATION, I HAVE A DIFFERENTFEAR OR MISCONCEPTION OF HOW
  • 00:18:18.320 --> 00:18:21.156
  • FEAR OR MISCONCEPTION OF HOWGOD IS GOING TO HANDLE ME.
  • 00:18:21.223 --> 00:18:23.492
  • GOD IS GOING TO HANDLE ME.HE'S EITHER GOING TO FORCE
  • 00:18:23.559 --> 00:18:25.494
  • HE'S EITHER GOING TO FORCEHIMSELF UPON ME.
  • 00:18:25.561 --> 00:18:26.261
  • HIMSELF UPON ME.OR, HE'S GOING TO ABANDON ME
  • 00:18:26.328 --> 00:18:28.497
  • OR, HE'S GOING TO ABANDON MEWHEN, YOU KNOW, THE TRUTH OF
  • 00:18:28.564 --> 00:18:30.499
  • WHEN, YOU KNOW, THE TRUTH OFDEPTHS OF MYSELF COME OUT.
  • 00:18:30.566 --> 00:18:33.035
  • DEPTHS OF MYSELF COME OUT.OR, I NEED TO PERFORM TO EARN
  • 00:18:33.101 --> 00:18:34.870
  • OR, I NEED TO PERFORM TO EARNHIS LOVE.
  • 00:18:34.937 --> 00:18:36.705
  • HIS LOVE.EVERY INTIMATE RELATIONSHIP
  • 00:18:36.772 --> 00:18:38.340
  • EVERY INTIMATE RELATIONSHIPTHAT I HAD BEEN A PART OF HAD
  • 00:18:38.407 --> 00:18:40.108
  • THAT I HAD BEEN A PART OF HADFORMED, TO SOME LAYER OR
  • 00:18:40.175 --> 00:18:42.778
  • FORMED, TO SOME LAYER ORDEGREE, MY UNDERSTANDING OF HOW
  • 00:18:42.844 --> 00:18:44.313
  • DEGREE, MY UNDERSTANDING OF HOWINTIMATE LOVE WITH GOD WAS
  • 00:18:44.379 --> 00:18:46.248
  • INTIMATE LOVE WITH GOD WASGOING TO PLAY OUT.
  • 00:18:46.315 --> 00:18:47.649
  • GOING TO PLAY OUT.AND IT WAS...IT WAS VERY
  • 00:18:47.716 --> 00:18:48.817
  • AND IT WAS...IT WAS VERYCONFUSING.
  • 00:18:48.884 --> 00:18:53.121
  • CONFUSING.BUT GOD INVITED ME, EVEN IN MY
  • 00:18:53.188 --> 00:18:55.824
  • BUT GOD INVITED ME, EVEN IN MYMOST BROKEN, STRUNG-OUT STATE,
  • 00:18:55.891 --> 00:18:58.493
  • MOST BROKEN, STRUNG-OUT STATE,INTO A SEASON OF, REALLY, AN
  • 00:18:58.560 --> 00:19:00.229
  • INTO A SEASON OF, REALLY, ANINTIMACY FAST -- A TIME ALONE
  • 00:19:00.295 --> 00:19:02.631
  • INTIMACY FAST -- A TIME ALONEWITH HIM TO KIND OF PUT ON THE
  • 00:19:02.698 --> 00:19:07.002
  • WITH HIM TO KIND OF PUT ON THEBLINDERS AND ALLOW HIM TO RENEW
  • 00:19:07.069 --> 00:19:08.537
  • BLINDERS AND ALLOW HIM TO RENEWMY MIND AND RESTORE MY HEART.
  • 00:19:08.604 --> 00:19:12.641
  • MY MIND AND RESTORE MY HEART.AND THAT WAS, HONESTLY, A
  • 00:19:12.708 --> 00:19:14.977
  • AND THAT WAS, HONESTLY, ALITTLE SCARY.
  • 00:19:15.043 --> 00:19:17.846
  • LITTLE SCARY.BECAUSE...IT FELT VULNERABLE
  • 00:19:17.913 --> 00:19:20.849
  • BECAUSE...IT FELT VULNERABLEAND IT WAS ALREADY CONFUSING.
  • 00:19:20.916 --> 00:19:23.418
  • AND IT WAS ALREADY CONFUSING.BUT I REALIZED IT WAS ACTUALLY
  • 00:19:23.485 --> 00:19:26.722
  • BUT I REALIZED IT WAS ACTUALLYSAYING YES AND STEPPING INTO
  • 00:19:26.788 --> 00:19:29.391
  • SAYING YES AND STEPPING INTOTHAT INTIMATE, UNSEEN PLACE
  • 00:19:29.458 --> 00:19:32.327
  • THAT INTIMATE, UNSEEN PLACEWITH HIM, AND ALLOWING HIM TO
  • 00:19:32.394 --> 00:19:34.429
  • WITH HIM, AND ALLOWING HIM TOBEGIN TO PEEL BACK, LAYER BY
  • 00:19:34.496 --> 00:19:37.232
  • BEGIN TO PEEL BACK, LAYER BYLAYER, AND HEAL, PIECE BY
  • 00:19:37.299 --> 00:19:40.002
  • LAYER, AND HEAL, PIECE BYPIECE, AND TEACH ME TRUTH, YOU
  • 00:19:40.068 --> 00:19:43.872
  • PIECE, AND TEACH ME TRUTH, YOUKNOW, SECTION BY SECTION THAT
  • 00:19:43.939 --> 00:19:48.243
  • KNOW, SECTION BY SECTION THATHE SLOWLY BEGAN TO RESTORE AND
  • 00:19:48.310 --> 00:19:51.046
  • HE SLOWLY BEGAN TO RESTORE ANDREBUILD MY HEART.
  • 00:19:51.113 --> 00:19:54.149
  • REBUILD MY HEART.AND THAT REQUIRED ME, IN SOME
  • 00:19:54.216 --> 00:19:54.783
  • AND THAT REQUIRED ME, IN SOMEINSTANCES, TO EXTEND
  • 00:19:54.850 --> 00:19:56.051
  • INSTANCES, TO EXTENDFORGIVENESS.
  • 00:19:56.118 --> 00:19:57.653
  • FORGIVENESS.BUT I DIDN'T REALLY WANT TO
  • 00:19:57.719 --> 00:19:59.121
  • BUT I DIDN'T REALLY WANT TOEXTEND TO SEEK FORGIVENESS FROM
  • 00:19:59.187 --> 00:20:02.057
  • EXTEND TO SEEK FORGIVENESS FROMOTHERS, WHERE I HAD SINNED
  • 00:20:02.124 --> 00:20:03.191
  • OTHERS, WHERE I HAD SINNEDAGAINST THEM, TO, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:20:03.258 --> 00:20:04.993
  • AGAINST THEM, TO, YOU KNOW,FACE WHAT I PERCEIVED AS TRUTH
  • 00:20:05.060 --> 00:20:07.062
  • FACE WHAT I PERCEIVED AS TRUTHAND REALIZE THAT IT WAS A LIE
  • 00:20:07.129 --> 00:20:08.597
  • AND REALIZE THAT IT WAS A LIETO REPENT BEFORE MY FATHER FOR
  • 00:20:08.664 --> 00:20:11.633
  • TO REPENT BEFORE MY FATHER FORTHE WAYS THAT I HAD EVEN
  • 00:20:11.700 --> 00:20:12.768
  • THE WAYS THAT I HAD EVENCARRIED MYSELF.
  • 00:20:12.834 --> 00:20:14.069
  • CARRIED MYSELF.IT WAS HARD WORK.
  • 00:20:14.136 --> 00:20:15.871
  • IT WAS HARD WORK.IT WAS REALLY A HARD PLACE.
  • 00:20:15.937 --> 00:20:19.041
  • IT WAS REALLY A HARD PLACE.BUT WHAT IS HARD IS OFTEN HOLY.
  • 00:20:19.107 --> 00:20:21.643
  • BUT WHAT IS HARD IS OFTEN HOLY.AND IT WAS IN THAT VERY SPACE
  • 00:20:21.710 --> 00:20:23.845
  • AND IT WAS IN THAT VERY SPACEOF ALLOWING THIS HARD AND HOLY
  • 00:20:23.912 --> 00:20:25.947
  • OF ALLOWING THIS HARD AND HOLYHEART WORK TO TAKE PLACE THAT
  • 00:20:26.014 --> 00:20:29.451
  • HEART WORK TO TAKE PLACE THATI, THEN, MET MY NOW-HUSBAND.
  • 00:20:29.518 --> 00:20:32.421
  • I, THEN, MET MY NOW-HUSBAND.AND GOD'S LOVE JUST
  • 00:20:32.487 --> 00:20:34.089
  • AND GOD'S LOVE JUSTSO...EMANATED THROUGH HIM.
  • 00:20:34.156 --> 00:20:37.426
  • SO...EMANATED THROUGH HIM.BECAUSE, HE LOOKED AT MY PAST
  • 00:20:37.492 --> 00:20:39.361
  • BECAUSE, HE LOOKED AT MY PASTAND HE TOOK A KNEE FOR MY
  • 00:20:39.428 --> 00:20:41.496
  • AND HE TOOK A KNEE FOR MYFUTURE.
  • 00:20:41.563 --> 00:20:42.864
  • FUTURE.AND THAT'S WHO CHRIST IS.
  • 00:20:42.931 --> 00:20:46.134
  • AND THAT'S WHO CHRIST IS.AND THAT'S HOW HE RESTORES OUR
  • 00:20:46.201 --> 00:20:48.537
  • AND THAT'S HOW HE RESTORES OURHEART, OR HEALS, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:20:48.603 --> 00:20:50.639
  • HEART, OR HEALS, YOU KNOW,THOSE BROKEN PIECES IS HE TAKES
  • 00:20:50.706 --> 00:20:52.974
  • THOSE BROKEN PIECES IS HE TAKESA LOOK AT OUR PAST AND HE
  • 00:20:53.041 --> 00:20:54.509
  • A LOOK AT OUR PAST AND HEPROPOSES COVENANT WITH US, INTO
  • 00:20:54.576 --> 00:20:57.279
  • PROPOSES COVENANT WITH US, INTOTHE FUTURE.
  • 00:20:57.346 --> 00:20:58.947
  • THE FUTURE.AND THAT TYPE OF LOVE WAS
  • 00:20:59.014 --> 00:21:01.483
  • AND THAT TYPE OF LOVE WASOVERWHELMING TO ME AND STILL
  • 00:21:01.550 --> 00:21:04.052
  • OVERWHELMING TO ME AND STILLWAS A PROCESS IN LEARNING, YOU
  • 00:21:04.119 --> 00:21:05.587
  • WAS A PROCESS IN LEARNING, YOUKNOW, HOW TO CONTINUE FORTH IN
  • 00:21:05.654 --> 00:21:09.224
  • KNOW, HOW TO CONTINUE FORTH INHEALING, BUT WAS THIS BEAUTIFUL
  • 00:21:09.291 --> 00:21:11.893
  • HEALING, BUT WAS THIS BEAUTIFULPICTURE OF ALLOWING HIM, LAYER
  • 00:21:11.960 --> 00:21:15.230
  • PICTURE OF ALLOWING HIM, LAYERBY LAYER, PIECE BY PIECE, TO
  • 00:21:15.297 --> 00:21:16.698
  • BY LAYER, PIECE BY PIECE, TOBRING EVERYTHING BACK AND MAKE
  • 00:21:16.765 --> 00:21:20.068
  • BRING EVERYTHING BACK AND MAKEIT WHOLE AGAIN, TO TRULY BE THE
  • 00:21:20.135 --> 00:21:22.571
  • IT WHOLE AGAIN, TO TRULY BE THEGOD OF MY SALVATION.
  • 00:21:22.637 --> 00:21:25.607
  • GOD OF MY SALVATION.SALVATION MEANS HEALING,
  • 00:21:25.674 --> 00:21:27.409
  • SALVATION MEANS HEALING,WHOLENESS, TO TRULY BE THE ONE
  • 00:21:27.476 --> 00:21:30.412
  • WHOLENESS, TO TRULY BE THE ONEWHO BRINGS KINGDOM COME AND
  • 00:21:30.479 --> 00:21:31.713
  • WHO BRINGS KINGDOM COME ANDHEALING AND IN WHOLENESS, HERE
  • 00:21:31.780 --> 00:21:33.815
  • HEALING AND IN WHOLENESS, HEREON EARTH, AS IT IS IN HEAVEN,
  • 00:21:33.882 --> 00:21:35.150
  • ON EARTH, AS IT IS IN HEAVEN,HERE IN OUR HEARTS, AS IT WILL
  • 00:21:35.217 --> 00:21:37.085
  • HERE IN OUR HEARTS, AS IT WILLBE, FOREVERMORE, WHEN WE ARE
  • 00:21:37.152 --> 00:21:38.120
  • BE, FOREVERMORE, WHEN WE AREWITH HIM.
  • 00:21:38.186 --> 00:21:39.688
  • WITH HIM.AND THAT WAS REALLY HARD AND
  • 00:21:39.755 --> 00:21:41.623
  • AND THAT WAS REALLY HARD ANDREALLY MESSY AND REALLY
  • 00:21:41.690 --> 00:21:43.191
  • REALLY MESSY AND REALLYUNCOMFORTABLE AND REALLY HOLY.
  • 00:21:43.258 --> 00:21:44.292
  • UNCOMFORTABLE AND REALLY HOLY.AND IT WAS JUST ONE WAY THAT HE
  • 00:21:44.359 --> 00:21:47.729
  • AND IT WAS JUST ONE WAY THAT HEACTIVELY WALKED ME THROUGH,
  • 00:21:47.796 --> 00:21:49.498
  • ACTIVELY WALKED ME THROUGH,UM...I WOULD CALL IT, LIKE,
  • 00:21:49.564 --> 00:21:50.932
  • UM...I WOULD CALL IT, LIKE,HEART DISPERSAL, EVEN MORE SO
  • 00:21:50.999 --> 00:21:52.334
  • HEART DISPERSAL, EVEN MORE SOTHAN HEARTBREAK.
  • 00:21:52.401 --> 00:21:54.069
  • THAN HEARTBREAK.BUT HOW HE REDEEMED THAT, AND,
  • 00:21:54.136 --> 00:21:56.271
  • BUT HOW HE REDEEMED THAT, AND,MAN, CONTINUES TO, EVEN TO
  • 00:21:56.338 --> 00:22:00.342
  • MAN, CONTINUES TO, EVEN TOTODAY, SHOWING ME PIECES, HERE
  • 00:22:00.409 --> 00:22:01.510
  • TODAY, SHOWING ME PIECES, HEREAND THERE, AND HEALING THEM,
  • 00:22:01.576 --> 00:22:03.478
  • AND THERE, AND HEALING THEM,AND MAKING ALL THINGS NEW...
  • 00:22:03.545 --> 00:22:05.080
  • AND MAKING ALL THINGS NEW...- NONA: I THINK-- I WAS, AS
  • 00:22:05.147 --> 00:22:07.182
  • - NONA: I THINK-- I WAS, ASYOU ALL WERE SPEAKING, I WAS
  • 00:22:07.249 --> 00:22:08.183
  • YOU ALL WERE SPEAKING, I WASTHINKING ABOUT THE SCRIPTURE
  • 00:22:08.250 --> 00:22:10.085
  • THINKING ABOUT THE SCRIPTURETHAT SAYS: CREATE IN ME A CLEAN
  • 00:22:10.152 --> 00:22:11.720
  • THAT SAYS: CREATE IN ME A CLEANHEART AND RENEW THE RIGHT
  • 00:22:11.787 --> 00:22:14.156
  • HEART AND RENEW THE RIGHTSPIRIT WITHIN ME.
  • 00:22:14.222 --> 00:22:17.292
  • SPIRIT WITHIN ME.I THINK, A LOT OF TIMES, WE
  • 00:22:17.359 --> 00:22:18.460
  • I THINK, A LOT OF TIMES, WETALK ABOUT HEARTBREAK AND THE
  • 00:22:18.527 --> 00:22:20.362
  • TALK ABOUT HEARTBREAK AND THENEED TO REPAIR A BROKEN HEART.
  • 00:22:20.429 --> 00:22:21.563
  • NEED TO REPAIR A BROKEN HEART.BUT, IN FACT, WE DON'T
  • 00:22:21.630 --> 00:22:24.599
  • BUT, IN FACT, WE DON'TNECESSARILY REPAIR A BROKEN
  • 00:22:24.666 --> 00:22:25.667
  • NECESSARILY REPAIR A BROKENHEART; WE NEED GOD TO CLEAN OUR
  • 00:22:25.734 --> 00:22:26.401
  • HEART; WE NEED GOD TO CLEAN OURHEART.
  • 00:22:26.468 --> 00:22:29.337
  • HEART.WE NEED GOD TO GO IN AND SCRUB
  • 00:22:29.404 --> 00:22:30.605
  • WE NEED GOD TO GO IN AND SCRUBAWAY ALL THE SMUDGES AND ERASE
  • 00:22:30.672 --> 00:22:33.241
  • AWAY ALL THE SMUDGES AND ERASEALL OF THE SCRIBBLES OF LIES
  • 00:22:33.308 --> 00:22:35.944
  • ALL OF THE SCRIBBLES OF LIESAND LABELS AND ALL THOSE THINGS
  • 00:22:36.011 --> 00:22:39.114
  • AND LABELS AND ALL THOSE THINGSTHAT WE, OFTENTIMES, ABSORB AS
  • 00:22:39.181 --> 00:22:41.082
  • THAT WE, OFTENTIMES, ABSORB ASOUR IDENTITY.
  • 00:22:41.149 --> 00:22:43.084
  • OUR IDENTITY.I LOVE HOW, WHEN IT WAS SAID,
  • 00:22:43.151 --> 00:22:45.787
  • I LOVE HOW, WHEN IT WAS SAID,"RENEW IN ME THE RIGHT SPIRIT,"
  • 00:22:45.854 --> 00:22:48.490
  • "RENEW IN ME THE RIGHT SPIRIT,"WHAT THAT MEANS IS, IN ORDER TO
  • 00:22:48.557 --> 00:22:49.624
  • WHAT THAT MEANS IS, IN ORDER TORENEW SOMETHING, YOU HAVE TO
  • 00:22:49.691 --> 00:22:50.759
  • RENEW SOMETHING, YOU HAVE TO"NEW" IT, AGAIN.
  • 00:22:50.826 --> 00:22:53.161
  • "NEW" IT, AGAIN.SO, THERE MUST HAVE BEEN A
  • 00:22:53.228 --> 00:22:53.862
  • SO, THERE MUST HAVE BEEN ARIGHT SPIRIT TO START WITH.
  • 00:22:53.929 --> 00:22:55.497
  • RIGHT SPIRIT TO START WITH.SO, REALLY, WHAT GOD'S LOVE
  • 00:22:55.564 --> 00:22:56.865
  • SO, REALLY, WHAT GOD'S LOVEDOES IS HE RESTORES US TO WHERE
  • 00:22:56.932 --> 00:23:00.068
  • DOES IS HE RESTORES US TO WHEREWE WERE INITIALLY SUPPOSED TO
  • 00:23:00.135 --> 00:23:00.902
  • WE WERE INITIALLY SUPPOSED TOBE.
  • 00:23:00.969 --> 00:23:02.037
  • BE.AND I LOVE THAT BECAUSE, WHEN I
  • 00:23:02.103 --> 00:23:03.905
  • AND I LOVE THAT BECAUSE, WHEN ITHINK ABOUT ALL THE WAYS THAT
  • 00:23:03.972 --> 00:23:06.274
  • THINK ABOUT ALL THE WAYS THATMY HEART HAS BEEN MUDDIED AND
  • 00:23:06.341 --> 00:23:08.310
  • MY HEART HAS BEEN MUDDIED ANDWALKED UPON, AND, MANY TIMES,
  • 00:23:08.376 --> 00:23:10.645
  • WALKED UPON, AND, MANY TIMES,TRASHED, IT'S INCREDIBLE TO
  • 00:23:10.712 --> 00:23:13.348
  • TRASHED, IT'S INCREDIBLE TOTHINK OF THE VAST EXPANSE OF
  • 00:23:13.415 --> 00:23:15.784
  • THINK OF THE VAST EXPANSE OFGOD'S LOVE AND HIS POWER TO
  • 00:23:15.851 --> 00:23:16.751
  • GOD'S LOVE AND HIS POWER TOCLEAN A HEART THAT HAS BEEN SO
  • 00:23:16.818 --> 00:23:18.820
  • CLEAN A HEART THAT HAS BEEN SOUSED AND SO ABUSED.
  • 00:23:18.887 --> 00:23:22.157
  • USED AND SO ABUSED.AND YET, NOW, YOU KNOW, I LOOK
  • 00:23:22.224 --> 00:23:23.492
  • AND YET, NOW, YOU KNOW, I LOOKAT ALL OF YOU AND I SEE YOUR
  • 00:23:23.558 --> 00:23:24.326
  • AT ALL OF YOU AND I SEE YOURBEAUTIFUL SMILING FACES,
  • 00:23:24.392 --> 00:23:25.527
  • BEAUTIFUL SMILING FACES,DESPITE ALL THAT YOU HAVE GONE
  • 00:23:25.594 --> 00:23:26.895
  • DESPITE ALL THAT YOU HAVE GONETHROUGH.
  • 00:23:26.962 --> 00:23:28.096
  • THROUGH.IT'S A TESTAMENT TO JUST HOW
  • 00:23:28.163 --> 00:23:30.031
  • IT'S A TESTAMENT TO JUST HOWINCREDIBLE OUR GOD IS.
  • 00:23:30.098 --> 00:23:32.467
  • INCREDIBLE OUR GOD IS.AND I'M HOPEFUL, AS I LISTEN TO
  • 00:23:32.534 --> 00:23:34.369
  • AND I'M HOPEFUL, AS I LISTEN TOYOUR STORIES, BECAUSE IT LETS
  • 00:23:34.436 --> 00:23:35.237
  • YOUR STORIES, BECAUSE IT LETSME KNOW THAT GOD IS REAL AND
  • 00:23:35.303 --> 00:23:36.738
  • ME KNOW THAT GOD IS REAL ANDGOD CAN DO A WORK IN ALL OF OUR
  • 00:23:36.805 --> 00:23:38.306
  • GOD CAN DO A WORK IN ALL OF OURLIVES.
  • 00:23:38.373 --> 00:23:42.744
  • LIVES.- MO: HE HAS.
  • 00:23:42.811 --> 00:23:44.880
  • - MO: HE HAS.- SHEILA: YOU KNOW, I LOVE
  • 00:23:44.946 --> 00:23:46.381
  • - SHEILA: YOU KNOW, I LOVETHAT, NONA.
  • 00:23:46.448 --> 00:23:47.482
  • THAT, NONA.IF YOU EVER CAME INTO MY HOME
  • 00:23:47.549 --> 00:23:48.116
  • IF YOU EVER CAME INTO MY HOMEAND WE WALKED OUT INTO THE
  • 00:23:48.183 --> 00:23:49.684
  • AND WE WALKED OUT INTO THEBACKYARD -- WHICH I DO EVERY
  • 00:23:49.751 --> 00:23:52.687
  • BACKYARD -- WHICH I DO EVERYSINGLE MORNING, MY TWO LITTLE
  • 00:23:52.754 --> 00:23:54.556
  • SINGLE MORNING, MY TWO LITTLECHEWY DOGS IN TOW -- THERE'S
  • 00:23:54.623 --> 00:23:55.357
  • CHEWY DOGS IN TOW -- THERE'SSOMETHING I SEE EVERY MORNING.
  • 00:23:55.423 --> 00:23:56.591
  • SOMETHING I SEE EVERY MORNING.AND IT'S HEART-SHAPED, AND IT'S
  • 00:23:56.658 --> 00:23:57.425
  • AND IT'S HEART-SHAPED, AND IT'SMADE OF CEMENT, AND MY SON MADE
  • 00:23:57.492 --> 00:23:58.093
  • MADE OF CEMENT, AND MY SON MADEIT FOR ME WHEN HE WAS 5 YEARS
  • 00:23:58.159 --> 00:23:59.094
  • IT FOR ME WHEN HE WAS 5 YEARSOLD.
  • 00:23:59.160 --> 00:24:00.795
  • OLD.HE GOT LOTS OF PIECES OF BROKEN
  • 00:24:00.862 --> 00:24:01.830
  • HE GOT LOTS OF PIECES OF BROKENGLASS AND BROKEN POTTERY AND HE
  • 00:24:01.897 --> 00:24:03.164
  • GLASS AND BROKEN POTTERY AND HEPUT THEM ALL.
  • 00:24:03.231 --> 00:24:05.166
  • PUT THEM ALL.AND THEN, HE WROTE WITH HIS
  • 00:24:05.233 --> 00:24:06.568
  • AND THEN, HE WROTE WITH HISLITTLE FINGER: "I LOVE YOU,
  • 00:24:06.635 --> 00:24:08.103
  • LITTLE FINGER: "I LOVE YOU,MOM."
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  • MOM."AND I LOVE IT FOR TWO REASONS.
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  • AND I LOVE IT FOR TWO REASONS.I LOVE IT BECAUSE CHRISTIAN
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  • I LOVE IT BECAUSE CHRISTIANMADE IT, AND I LOVE IT BECAUSE
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  • MADE IT, AND I LOVE IT BECAUSEIT'S A PROFOUND DAILY REMINDER,
  • 00:24:12.307 --> 00:24:13.775
  • IT'S A PROFOUND DAILY REMINDER,IT'S A BEAUTIFUL THING THAT GOD
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  • IT'S A BEAUTIFUL THING THAT GODWILL DO WITH A BROKEN HEART, IF
  • 00:24:15.577 --> 00:24:16.478
  • WILL DO WITH A BROKEN HEART, IFYOU GIVE HIM ALL THE PIECES.
  • 00:24:16.545 --> 00:24:21.349
  • YOU GIVE HIM ALL THE PIECES.IF YOU FIND YOURSELF IN THAT
  • 00:24:21.416 --> 00:24:22.050
  • IF YOU FIND YOURSELF IN THATPLACE, TODAY, I WANT YOU TO
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  • PLACE, TODAY, I WANT YOU TOKNOW, JUST AS LISA SAID, WE
  • 00:24:23.218 --> 00:24:24.052
  • KNOW, JUST AS LISA SAID, WEHAVE A COMPASSIONATE,
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  • HAVE A COMPASSIONATE,EMPATHETIC, HIGH PRIEST IN
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  • EMPATHETIC, HIGH PRIEST INJESUS WHO KNOWS WHAT IT'S LIKE
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  • JESUS WHO KNOWS WHAT IT'S LIKETO HURT, TO WEEP, AND HE IS
  • 00:24:29.024 --> 00:24:31.393
  • TO HURT, TO WEEP, AND HE ISWITH YOU.
  • 00:24:31.459 --> 00:24:32.394
  • WITH YOU.AND I WOULD CONSIDER IT PURE
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  • AND I WOULD CONSIDER IT PUREJOY TO PRAY FOR YOU, RIGHT NOW.
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  • JOY TO PRAY FOR YOU, RIGHT NOW.FATHER, I WANT TO THANK YOU
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  • FATHER, I WANT TO THANK YOUTHAT YOU'RE WILLING TO SEND
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  • THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO SENDJESUS.
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  • JESUS.JESUS, I WANNA THANK YOU THAT
  • 00:24:43.939 --> 00:24:44.606
  • JESUS, I WANNA THANK YOU THATYOU WERE WILLING TO COME.
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  • YOU WERE WILLING TO COME.HOLY SPIRIT, I WANT TO THANK
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  • HOLY SPIRIT, I WANT TO THANKYOU THAT YOU THAT YOU ARE WITH
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  • YOU THAT YOU THAT YOU ARE WITHUS, EVEN NOW.
  • 00:24:49.778 --> 00:24:50.712
  • US, EVEN NOW.AND I PRAY FOR ANYONE WATCHING
  • 00:24:50.779 --> 00:24:52.881
  • AND I PRAY FOR ANYONE WATCHINGOR LISTENING TO THIS SHOW WHO
  • 00:24:52.948 --> 00:24:54.249
  • OR LISTENING TO THIS SHOW WHOFEELS ALONE, WHO FEELS BROKEN,
  • 00:24:54.316 --> 00:24:56.418
  • FEELS ALONE, WHO FEELS BROKEN,I PRAY FOR THE HEALING OIL OF
  • 00:24:56.484 --> 00:24:58.753
  • I PRAY FOR THE HEALING OIL OFYOUR PRESENCE, TO TOUCH 'EM
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  • YOUR PRESENCE, TO TOUCH 'EMFROM THE TOP OF THEIR HEADS TO
  • 00:25:01.389 --> 00:25:03.058
  • FROM THE TOP OF THEIR HEADS TOTHE BOTTOM OF THEIR FEET.
  • 00:25:03.124 --> 00:25:04.960
  • THE BOTTOM OF THEIR FEET.AND LET THEM KNOW THAT YOU LOVE
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  • AND LET THEM KNOW THAT YOU LOVETHEM, THAT YOU SEE THEM, AND
  • 00:25:06.227 --> 00:25:07.195
  • THEM, THAT YOU SEE THEM, ANDYOU ARE WITH THEM.
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  • YOU ARE WITH THEM.THANK YOU THAT YOU ARE CLOSE TO
  • 00:25:09.898 --> 00:25:11.199
  • THANK YOU THAT YOU ARE CLOSE TOTHE BROKENHEARTED AND YOU SAVE
  • 00:25:11.266 --> 00:25:13.568
  • THE BROKENHEARTED AND YOU SAVETHOSE WHO ARE CRUSHED IN
  • 00:25:13.635 --> 00:25:15.904
  • THOSE WHO ARE CRUSHED INSPIRIT.
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  • SPIRIT.IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN.
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  • IN JESUS' NAME, AMEN.- LISA HARPER: THANK YOU SO
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  • - LISA HARPER: THANK YOU SOMUCH, SHEILA.
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  • MUCH, SHEILA.THE BIBLE TELLS US TO PRAY FOR
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  • THE BIBLE TELLS US TO PRAY FORONE ANOTHER.
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  • ONE ANOTHER.AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT OUR
  • 00:25:27.916 --> 00:25:28.950
  • AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT OUR"BETTER TOGETHER" TEAM WANTS TO
  • 00:25:29.017 --> 00:25:30.285
  • "BETTER TOGETHER" TEAM WANTS TODO.
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  • DO.PLEASE CONNECT WITH US:
  • 00:25:31.353 --> 00:25:32.487
  • PLEASE CONNECT WITH US:@BETTERTOGETHERTV
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  • @BETTERTOGETHERTVWE WANT TO HEAR YOUR PRAYER
  • 00:25:36.658 --> 00:25:37.192
  • WE WANT TO HEAR YOUR PRAYERREQUESTS AND PRAISE REPORTS.
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  • REQUESTS AND PRAISE REPORTS.THANK YOU FOR JOINING US,
  • 00:25:38.793 --> 00:25:39.527
  • THANK YOU FOR JOINING US,TODAY.
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  • TODAY.TOMORROW, WE'RE GONNA TALK
  • 00:25:40.629 --> 00:25:42.530
  • TOMORROW, WE'RE GONNA TALKABOUT HOW TO KNOW THE HEART OF
  • 00:25:42.597 --> 00:25:44.366
  • ABOUT HOW TO KNOW THE HEART OFGOD.
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  • GOD.WHEN OUR DESIRES ALIGN WITH
  • 00:25:45.533 --> 00:25:46.868
  • WHEN OUR DESIRES ALIGN WITHHEAVEN, ALL THINGS BECOME
  • 00:25:46.935 --> 00:25:47.702
  • HEAVEN, ALL THINGS BECOMEPOSSIBLE.
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  • POSSIBLE.WE CAN'T TO BE WITH YOU, THEN.
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  • ♪ ♪
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