Better Together LIVE | Episode 190 | TBN

Better Together LIVE | Episode 190

Watch Better Together LIVE | Episode 190
February 5, 2021
25:55

God loves the most unlikely heroes. When we become more like our Heavenly Father; we rarely "fit in" with the crowd. | TBN Prayer Line: 714-731-1000

Closed captions

Better Together LIVE | Episode 190

Show timecode
Hide timecode
  • - LAURIE CROUCH: THE BIBLE IS
  • 00:00:00.824 --> 00:00:01.591
  • - LAURIE CROUCH: THE BIBLE ISFILLED WITH COUNTLESS STORIES
  • 00:00:01.658 --> 00:00:03.026
  • FILLED WITH COUNTLESS STORIESOF ORDINARY MEN, ORDINARY WOMEN
  • 00:00:03.093 --> 00:00:04.427
  • OF ORDINARY MEN, ORDINARY WOMENWHO GOD USED TO BRING ABOUT HIS
  • 00:00:04.494 --> 00:00:06.729
  • WHO GOD USED TO BRING ABOUT HISWILL.
  • 00:00:06.796 --> 00:00:07.664
  • WILL.WE WERE NOT CREATED TO BLEND
  • 00:00:07.730 --> 00:00:09.032
  • WE WERE NOT CREATED TO BLENDINTO THE NOISE AND THE CHAOS OF
  • 00:00:09.099 --> 00:00:10.767
  • INTO THE NOISE AND THE CHAOS OFTHIS WORLD.
  • 00:00:10.834 --> 00:00:12.302
  • THIS WORLD.TODAY, WE CELEBRATE STANDING UP
  • 00:00:12.368 --> 00:00:13.803
  • TODAY, WE CELEBRATE STANDING UPAND STANDING OUT.
  • 00:00:13.870 --> 00:00:15.205
  • AND STANDING OUT.COME ON -- JOIN US.
  • 00:00:15.271 --> 00:00:19.576
  • COME ON -- JOIN US.♪ [MUSIC] ♪
  • 00:00:19.642 --> 00:00:25.882
  • ♪ [MUSIC] ♪♪ [MUSIC] ♪
  • 00:00:25.949 --> 00:00:32.122
  • - HAVILAH CUNNINGTON: HAVE
  • 00:00:44.434 --> 00:00:44.968
  • - HAVILAH CUNNINGTON: HAVEYOU EVER ASKED GOD WHY HE
  • 00:00:45.034 --> 00:00:45.535
  • YOU EVER ASKED GOD WHY HEWOULD USE YOU?
  • 00:00:45.602 --> 00:00:47.504
  • WOULD USE YOU?(LAUGHING) OF ALL THE PEOPLE IN
  • 00:00:47.570 --> 00:00:48.238
  • (LAUGHING) OF ALL THE PEOPLE INTHE WORLD, WHY WOULD HE PICK
  • 00:00:48.304 --> 00:00:48.838
  • THE WORLD, WHY WOULD HE PICKYOU?
  • 00:00:48.905 --> 00:00:51.007
  • YOU?I THINK IF WE REALLY KNOW
  • 00:00:51.074 --> 00:00:51.574
  • I THINK IF WE REALLY KNOWOURSELVES, WE HAVE A TENDENCY
  • 00:00:51.641 --> 00:00:52.809
  • OURSELVES, WE HAVE A TENDENCYTO BE LIKE: YEAH...I'M NOT THE
  • 00:00:52.876 --> 00:00:54.544
  • TO BE LIKE: YEAH...I'M NOT THEONE YOU SHOULD CHOOSE.
  • 00:00:54.611 --> 00:00:55.445
  • ONE YOU SHOULD CHOOSE.IN A LOT OF QUALIFIED PEOPLE,
  • 00:00:55.512 --> 00:00:56.246
  • IN A LOT OF QUALIFIED PEOPLE,IT'S NOT ME.
  • 00:00:56.312 --> 00:00:58.515
  • IT'S NOT ME.AND I-- I FELT THAT WAY GROWING
  • 00:00:58.581 --> 00:00:59.282
  • AND I-- I FELT THAT WAY GROWINGUP.
  • 00:00:59.349 --> 00:01:01.518
  • UP.AND I ALWAYS SHARE MY STORY
  • 00:01:01.584 --> 00:01:02.118
  • AND I ALWAYS SHARE MY STORY'CAUSE I THINK OUR STORY, THE
  • 00:01:02.185 --> 00:01:02.886
  • 'CAUSE I THINK OUR STORY, THEBIBLE SAYS IN REVELATION, IS
  • 00:01:02.952 --> 00:01:03.720
  • BIBLE SAYS IN REVELATION, ISWHERE OUR POWER COMES FROM,
  • 00:01:03.786 --> 00:01:04.287
  • WHERE OUR POWER COMES FROM,RIGHT?
  • 00:01:04.354 --> 00:01:05.922
  • RIGHT?THE WORD OF OUR TESTIMONY.
  • 00:01:05.989 --> 00:01:08.291
  • THE WORD OF OUR TESTIMONY.BUT, AS A YOUNG GIRL, I DID NOT
  • 00:01:08.358 --> 00:01:09.425
  • BUT, AS A YOUNG GIRL, I DID NOTFEEL PARTICULARLY INCREDIBLE,
  • 00:01:09.492 --> 00:01:12.128
  • FEEL PARTICULARLY INCREDIBLE,OR INTERESTING, OR INTELLIGENT,
  • 00:01:12.195 --> 00:01:14.497
  • OR INTERESTING, OR INTELLIGENT,OR ANYTHING, REALLY.
  • 00:01:14.564 --> 00:01:18.001
  • OR ANYTHING, REALLY.AND, I GREW UP WITH LEARNING
  • 00:01:18.067 --> 00:01:18.568
  • AND, I GREW UP WITH LEARNINGISSUES.
  • 00:01:18.635 --> 00:01:19.836
  • ISSUES.AND SO, IN THIRD GRADE, I'LL
  • 00:01:19.903 --> 00:01:21.504
  • AND SO, IN THIRD GRADE, I'LLNEVER FORGET ONE OF THE
  • 00:01:21.571 --> 00:01:22.172
  • NEVER FORGET ONE OF THETEACHER'S AIDES PULLING ME OUT,
  • 00:01:22.238 --> 00:01:23.973
  • TEACHER'S AIDES PULLING ME OUT,TAKING ME IN THE BACK WITH A
  • 00:01:24.040 --> 00:01:24.807
  • TAKING ME IN THE BACK WITH ASTATE EDUCATOR THAT GAVE ME
  • 00:01:24.874 --> 00:01:27.911
  • STATE EDUCATOR THAT GAVE MESOME TESTS.
  • 00:01:27.977 --> 00:01:28.811
  • SOME TESTS.AND WHEN I GOT HOME THAT NIGHT,
  • 00:01:28.878 --> 00:01:30.079
  • AND WHEN I GOT HOME THAT NIGHT,MY PARENTS SAT ME DOWN AND
  • 00:01:30.146 --> 00:01:31.114
  • MY PARENTS SAT ME DOWN ANDSAID, "YOU KNOW, HAVILAH, THE
  • 00:01:31.181 --> 00:01:32.148
  • SAID, "YOU KNOW, HAVILAH, THEREASON YOU'RE FAILING THIRD
  • 00:01:32.215 --> 00:01:34.684
  • REASON YOU'RE FAILING THIRDGRADE IS BECAUSE YOU HAVE
  • 00:01:34.751 --> 00:01:36.719
  • GRADE IS BECAUSE YOU HAVELEARNING DISABILITIES, AND YOU
  • 00:01:36.786 --> 00:01:39.422
  • LEARNING DISABILITIES, AND YOUHAVE READING AND COMPREHENSION
  • 00:01:39.489 --> 00:01:41.291
  • HAVE READING AND COMPREHENSIONISSUES, YOU'RE DYSLEXIC --
  • 00:01:41.357 --> 00:01:42.192
  • ISSUES, YOU'RE DYSLEXIC --THERE'S SOME THINGS THAT ARE
  • 00:01:42.258 --> 00:01:42.792
  • THERE'S SOME THINGS THAT AREGONNA BE A CHALLENGE."
  • 00:01:42.859 --> 00:01:44.127
  • GONNA BE A CHALLENGE."AND SO, WHEN THE SPIRIT OF GOD
  • 00:01:44.194 --> 00:01:45.295
  • AND SO, WHEN THE SPIRIT OF GODBEGAN TO TALK TO ME ABOUT BEING
  • 00:01:45.361 --> 00:01:46.596
  • BEGAN TO TALK TO ME ABOUT BEINGUSED, I REALLY THOUGHT HE GOT
  • 00:01:46.663 --> 00:01:48.264
  • USED, I REALLY THOUGHT HE GOTIT WRONG.
  • 00:01:48.331 --> 00:01:49.098
  • IT WRONG.AND I WAS 17 YEARS OLD, AND
  • 00:01:49.165 --> 00:01:51.134
  • AND I WAS 17 YEARS OLD, ANDSOME GUYS HAD PICKED MY SISTER
  • 00:01:51.201 --> 00:01:53.102
  • SOME GUYS HAD PICKED MY SISTERAND I UP TO GO TO A PARTY, ONE
  • 00:01:53.169 --> 00:01:54.304
  • AND I UP TO GO TO A PARTY, ONENIGHT.
  • 00:01:54.370 --> 00:01:55.638
  • NIGHT.WE'RE IN THE BACKSEAT OF THIS
  • 00:01:55.705 --> 00:01:56.272
  • WE'RE IN THE BACKSEAT OF THISCAR, AND THE GUY'S PLAYING
  • 00:01:56.339 --> 00:01:57.907
  • CAR, AND THE GUY'S PLAYINGMUSIC, 90S R&B.
  • 00:01:57.974 --> 00:01:58.474
  • MUSIC, 90S R&B.AND, WE'RE SITTING BACK THERE.
  • 00:01:58.541 --> 00:02:00.076
  • AND, WE'RE SITTING BACK THERE.I'M THE CHURCH KID THAT'S
  • 00:02:00.143 --> 00:02:01.477
  • I'M THE CHURCH KID THAT'STRYING TO FIT IN AT CHURCH AND
  • 00:02:01.544 --> 00:02:02.612
  • TRYING TO FIT IN AT CHURCH ANDTRYING TO BE COOL AT SCHOOL.
  • 00:02:02.679 --> 00:02:04.414
  • TRYING TO BE COOL AT SCHOOL.AND, ALL OF A SUDDEN, I HEAR
  • 00:02:04.480 --> 00:02:06.416
  • AND, ALL OF A SUDDEN, I HEARTHE SPIRIT OF GOD SPEAK TO MY
  • 00:02:06.482 --> 00:02:07.350
  • THE SPIRIT OF GOD SPEAK TO MYHEART, AND HE SAYS, "HAVILAH,
  • 00:02:07.417 --> 00:02:08.818
  • HEART, AND HE SAYS, "HAVILAH,WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"
  • 00:02:08.885 --> 00:02:09.619
  • WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"AND I REMEMBER BEING SO GRIPPED
  • 00:02:09.686 --> 00:02:10.587
  • AND I REMEMBER BEING SO GRIPPEDTHAT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
  • 00:02:10.653 --> 00:02:13.189
  • THAT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.SO, I SHOUTED OUT TO THE GUYS
  • 00:02:13.256 --> 00:02:15.858
  • SO, I SHOUTED OUT TO THE GUYSIN THE CAR, "CAN YOU TURN THE
  • 00:02:15.925 --> 00:02:17.260
  • IN THE CAR, "CAN YOU TURN THEMUSIC DOWN?"
  • 00:02:17.327 --> 00:02:17.694
  • MUSIC DOWN?"SO, THE GUY IN THE FRONT TURNS
  • 00:02:17.760 --> 00:02:18.661
  • SO, THE GUY IN THE FRONT TURNSTHE MUSIC DOWN.
  • 00:02:18.728 --> 00:02:19.429
  • THE MUSIC DOWN.I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WAS GONNA
  • 00:02:19.495 --> 00:02:20.063
  • I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WAS GONNASAY.
  • 00:02:20.129 --> 00:02:20.797
  • SAY.I HAD NOT REHEARSED THIS.
  • 00:02:20.863 --> 00:02:21.831
  • I HAD NOT REHEARSED THIS.BUT I SAID, OUT LOUD, MY NEXT
  • 00:02:21.898 --> 00:02:23.099
  • BUT I SAID, OUT LOUD, MY NEXTTHING I SAID WAS, "I HAVE A
  • 00:02:23.166 --> 00:02:25.435
  • THING I SAID WAS, "I HAVE ACALL OF GOD ON MY LIFE!" TO
  • 00:02:25.501 --> 00:02:27.570
  • CALL OF GOD ON MY LIFE!" TOWHICH THEY RESPONDED NOTHING.
  • 00:02:27.637 --> 00:02:28.605
  • WHICH THEY RESPONDED NOTHING.IT WAS DEAD SILENT IN THE CAR.
  • 00:02:28.671 --> 00:02:31.541
  • IT WAS DEAD SILENT IN THE CAR.AND THEN, I BEGAN TO CRY,
  • 00:02:31.608 --> 00:02:33.176
  • AND THEN, I BEGAN TO CRY,BECAUSE, THERE'S SOMETHING
  • 00:02:33.243 --> 00:02:34.711
  • BECAUSE, THERE'S SOMETHINGREALLY PROFOUND WHEN WE
  • 00:02:34.777 --> 00:02:36.246
  • REALLY PROFOUND WHEN WEACTUALLY ACKNOWLEDGE WHO WE ARE
  • 00:02:36.312 --> 00:02:37.080
  • ACTUALLY ACKNOWLEDGE WHO WE AREAND WE BEGIN TO, LIKE, GO
  • 00:02:37.146 --> 00:02:38.381
  • AND WE BEGIN TO, LIKE, GOPUBLIC.
  • 00:02:38.448 --> 00:02:40.216
  • PUBLIC.I WANNA SAY "GO PUBLIC" WITH
  • 00:02:40.283 --> 00:02:41.284
  • I WANNA SAY "GO PUBLIC" WITHWHO WE KNOW WE ARE.
  • 00:02:41.351 --> 00:02:42.452
  • WHO WE KNOW WE ARE.AND I START CRYING.
  • 00:02:42.518 --> 00:02:43.820
  • AND I START CRYING.AND, I LOOK OVER AT MY
  • 00:02:43.886 --> 00:02:45.822
  • AND, I LOOK OVER AT MYSISTER -- 'CAUSE I HAVE AN
  • 00:02:45.888 --> 00:02:47.991
  • SISTER -- 'CAUSE I HAVE ANIDENTICAL TWIN SISTER -- I'M
  • 00:02:48.057 --> 00:02:48.958
  • IDENTICAL TWIN SISTER -- I'MTHINKING SHE'S GONNA KILL ME,
  • 00:02:49.025 --> 00:02:49.592
  • THINKING SHE'S GONNA KILL ME,'CAUSE I'M KILLING THIS VIBE OF
  • 00:02:49.659 --> 00:02:51.194
  • 'CAUSE I'M KILLING THIS VIBE OFTHIS NIGHT -- AND SHE'S CRYING.
  • 00:02:51.261 --> 00:02:52.895
  • THIS NIGHT -- AND SHE'S CRYING.AND I REMEMBER TELLING THE GUYS
  • 00:02:52.962 --> 00:02:54.230
  • AND I REMEMBER TELLING THE GUYSIN THE FRONT OF THE CAR:
  • 00:02:54.297 --> 00:02:55.965
  • IN THE FRONT OF THE CAR:"YOU CAN GO WITH ME,
  • 00:02:56.032 --> 00:02:56.666
  • "YOU CAN GO WITH ME,IF YOU WANT,
  • 00:02:56.733 --> 00:02:57.400
  • IF YOU WANT,BUT I'M GONNA SERVE GOD.
  • 00:02:57.467 --> 00:02:58.001
  • BUT I'M GONNA SERVE GOD.I'VE MADE A DECISION.
  • 00:02:58.067 --> 00:03:00.036
  • I'VE MADE A DECISION.THAT'S WHAT I'M GONNA DO."
  • 00:03:00.103 --> 00:03:00.670
  • THAT'S WHAT I'M GONNA DO."NOW, MIND YOU, I'M 17, WHICH
  • 00:03:00.737 --> 00:03:02.305
  • NOW, MIND YOU, I'M 17, WHICHMEANS I HAVE COMPLETE-- LIKE,
  • 00:03:02.372 --> 00:03:04.674
  • MEANS I HAVE COMPLETE-- LIKE,NO IMPULSE CONTROL.
  • 00:03:04.741 --> 00:03:05.275
  • NO IMPULSE CONTROL.THIS WAS AN IMPULSIVE MOVE.
  • 00:03:05.341 --> 00:03:07.677
  • THIS WAS AN IMPULSIVE MOVE.I GET OUT OF THE CAR.
  • 00:03:07.744 --> 00:03:08.845
  • I GET OUT OF THE CAR.I LAUGH, BECAUSE THE GUYS NEVER
  • 00:03:08.911 --> 00:03:09.846
  • I LAUGH, BECAUSE THE GUYS NEVERTOOK US TO THE PARTY.
  • 00:03:09.912 --> 00:03:11.214
  • TOOK US TO THE PARTY.I LOOK OUT AND THEY TOOK US
  • 00:03:11.281 --> 00:03:11.848
  • I LOOK OUT AND THEY TOOK USHOME, WITHOUT US ASKING.
  • 00:03:11.914 --> 00:03:12.782
  • HOME, WITHOUT US ASKING.I JUST LOOK OUT AND THEY HAVE
  • 00:03:12.849 --> 00:03:13.416
  • I JUST LOOK OUT AND THEY HAVENOW DROPPED US OFF AT THE
  • 00:03:13.483 --> 00:03:14.450
  • NOW DROPPED US OFF AT THEHOUSE, WHICH TELLS YOU HOW BAD
  • 00:03:14.517 --> 00:03:15.485
  • HOUSE, WHICH TELLS YOU HOW BADAND AWKWARD THE ENVIRONMENT
  • 00:03:15.551 --> 00:03:16.686
  • AND AWKWARD THE ENVIRONMENTWAS.
  • 00:03:16.753 --> 00:03:20.156
  • WAS.SO, THERE'S NO PIANO PLAYER,
  • 00:03:20.223 --> 00:03:20.757
  • SO, THERE'S NO PIANO PLAYER,THERE'S NOTHING.
  • 00:03:20.823 --> 00:03:21.491
  • THERE'S NOTHING.I GET OUT OF THE CAR, I WALK
  • 00:03:21.557 --> 00:03:22.392
  • I GET OUT OF THE CAR, I WALKINTO MY PARENTS' HOUSE.
  • 00:03:22.458 --> 00:03:23.293
  • INTO MY PARENTS' HOUSE.IT'S PITCH BLACK.
  • 00:03:23.359 --> 00:03:24.093
  • IT'S PITCH BLACK.THEY'RE ASLEEP.
  • 00:03:24.160 --> 00:03:27.130
  • THEY'RE ASLEEP.AND I REMEMBER GOING INTO MY
  • 00:03:27.196 --> 00:03:27.730
  • AND I REMEMBER GOING INTO MYBEDROOM.
  • 00:03:27.797 --> 00:03:29.198
  • BEDROOM.AND I KNELT DOWN BY MY BED.
  • 00:03:29.265 --> 00:03:31.034
  • AND I KNELT DOWN BY MY BED.AND I SAID THIS JUST OUT LOUD,
  • 00:03:31.100 --> 00:03:32.535
  • AND I SAID THIS JUST OUT LOUD,I SAID: "GOD, I'M NOT MUCH.
  • 00:03:32.602 --> 00:03:33.836
  • I SAID: "GOD, I'M NOT MUCH.I'M YOUNG AND I'M 17.
  • 00:03:33.903 --> 00:03:37.006
  • I'M YOUNG AND I'M 17.I'M A GIRL, WHICH DOESN'T
  • 00:03:37.073 --> 00:03:39.442
  • I'M A GIRL, WHICH DOESN'TREALLY SEEM TO BE A GREAT THING
  • 00:03:39.509 --> 00:03:41.110
  • REALLY SEEM TO BE A GREAT THINGFOR PEOPLE IN MINISTRY, AT THIS
  • 00:03:41.177 --> 00:03:43.413
  • FOR PEOPLE IN MINISTRY, AT THISPOINT.
  • 00:03:43.479 --> 00:03:44.347
  • POINT.AND I HAVE NO SPECIAL GIFTS OR
  • 00:03:44.414 --> 00:03:45.748
  • AND I HAVE NO SPECIAL GIFTS ORGRACES.
  • 00:03:45.815 --> 00:03:46.549
  • GRACES.IN FACT, I'M PRETTY ILLITERATE
  • 00:03:46.616 --> 00:03:48.051
  • IN FACT, I'M PRETTY ILLITERATEAND REALLY UNINTERESTING.
  • 00:03:48.117 --> 00:03:50.820
  • AND REALLY UNINTERESTING.BUT IF YOU COULD USE ANYBODY,
  • 00:03:50.887 --> 00:03:51.521
  • BUT IF YOU COULD USE ANYBODY,YOU CAN USE ME.
  • 00:03:51.587 --> 00:03:54.324
  • YOU CAN USE ME.I'M AVAILABLE."
  • 00:03:54.390 --> 00:03:55.391
  • I'M AVAILABLE."AND I REMEMBER TEARS STREAMING
  • 00:03:55.458 --> 00:03:56.192
  • AND I REMEMBER TEARS STREAMINGDOWN MY FACE.
  • 00:03:56.259 --> 00:03:57.260
  • DOWN MY FACE.(VOICE EMOTIONAL) I SAID: "GOD,
  • 00:03:57.327 --> 00:03:57.927
  • (VOICE EMOTIONAL) I SAID: "GOD,I'M YOURS.
  • 00:03:57.994 --> 00:03:59.195
  • I'M YOURS.LIKE, IN ALL OF IT.
  • 00:03:59.262 --> 00:04:00.063
  • LIKE, IN ALL OF IT.I GOT NOTHIN'.
  • 00:04:00.129 --> 00:04:00.530
  • I GOT NOTHIN'.I GOT NOTHIN' TO WOW YOU, BUT
  • 00:04:00.596 --> 00:04:02.932
  • I GOT NOTHIN' TO WOW YOU, BUTWHAT I DO HAVE -- IT'S YOURS."
  • 00:04:02.999 --> 00:04:04.200
  • WHAT I DO HAVE -- IT'S YOURS."AND I REALLY STRUGGLED WITH--
  • 00:04:04.267 --> 00:04:06.869
  • AND I REALLY STRUGGLED WITH--YEAH, I SAID THE PRAYER, I
  • 00:04:06.936 --> 00:04:09.238
  • YEAH, I SAID THE PRAYER, IBELIEVED GOD, BUT I BATTLED
  • 00:04:09.305 --> 00:04:11.140
  • BELIEVED GOD, BUT I BATTLEDWITH MY OWN SIGNIFICANCE.
  • 00:04:11.207 --> 00:04:13.276
  • WITH MY OWN SIGNIFICANCE.BECAUSE, I WAS SO UNIMPRESSED
  • 00:04:13.343 --> 00:04:15.445
  • BECAUSE, I WAS SO UNIMPRESSEDWITH MYSELF.
  • 00:04:15.511 --> 00:04:15.912
  • WITH MYSELF.I DIDN'T KNOW HOW ANYBODY ELSE
  • 00:04:15.978 --> 00:04:17.313
  • I DIDN'T KNOW HOW ANYBODY ELSECOULD GET ANYTHING OUT OF WHAT
  • 00:04:17.380 --> 00:04:18.448
  • COULD GET ANYTHING OUT OF WHATI WAS SAYING OR DOING.
  • 00:04:18.514 --> 00:04:18.981
  • I WAS SAYING OR DOING.AND SO, I REALLY HAD TO WORK
  • 00:04:19.048 --> 00:04:20.016
  • AND SO, I REALLY HAD TO WORKTHROUGH THIS PART.
  • 00:04:20.083 --> 00:04:22.118
  • THROUGH THIS PART.AND I WAS BROUGHT TO THAT
  • 00:04:22.185 --> 00:04:22.919
  • AND I WAS BROUGHT TO THATSCRIPTURE, EPHESIANS 4:1 THAT
  • 00:04:22.985 --> 00:04:24.020
  • SCRIPTURE, EPHESIANS 4:1 THATSAYS WE ARE TO LIVE WORTHY OF
  • 00:04:24.087 --> 00:04:25.254
  • SAYS WE ARE TO LIVE WORTHY OFTHE CALLING THAT WE'VE
  • 00:04:25.321 --> 00:04:26.556
  • THE CALLING THAT WE'VERECEIVED.
  • 00:04:26.622 --> 00:04:27.423
  • RECEIVED.AND I DIDN'T HAVE A LOT OF
  • 00:04:27.490 --> 00:04:28.091
  • AND I DIDN'T HAVE A LOT OFGIFTS.
  • 00:04:28.157 --> 00:04:28.858
  • GIFTS.BUT ONE THING I COULD DO WAS I
  • 00:04:28.925 --> 00:04:29.659
  • BUT ONE THING I COULD DO WAS IWAS A VERY CONVINCING PERSON.
  • 00:04:29.726 --> 00:04:30.293
  • WAS A VERY CONVINCING PERSON.AND SO, I KNEW THAT THERE WAS A
  • 00:04:30.360 --> 00:04:33.196
  • AND SO, I KNEW THAT THERE WAS ACALL ON MY LIFE TO CONVINCE
  • 00:04:33.262 --> 00:04:34.263
  • CALL ON MY LIFE TO CONVINCEPEOPLE FOR THE GOSPEL.
  • 00:04:34.330 --> 00:04:34.964
  • PEOPLE FOR THE GOSPEL.BUT I BEGAN TO LIVE THIS OUT,
  • 00:04:35.031 --> 00:04:36.999
  • BUT I BEGAN TO LIVE THIS OUT,THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE LIKE
  • 00:04:37.066 --> 00:04:38.801
  • THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE LIKEEVERYBODY ELSE, I DIDN'T HAVE
  • 00:04:38.868 --> 00:04:39.569
  • EVERYBODY ELSE, I DIDN'T HAVETO LOOK LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE,
  • 00:04:39.635 --> 00:04:41.070
  • TO LOOK LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE,I DIDN'T HAVE TO SOUND LIKE
  • 00:04:41.137 --> 00:04:42.071
  • I DIDN'T HAVE TO SOUND LIKEEVERYBODY ELSE, BUT THAT I
  • 00:04:42.138 --> 00:04:42.605
  • EVERYBODY ELSE, BUT THAT ICOULD BELONG BECAUSE THIS IS
  • 00:04:42.672 --> 00:04:44.440
  • COULD BELONG BECAUSE THIS ISWHO HE HAD CALLED ME TO BE.
  • 00:04:44.507 --> 00:04:45.508
  • WHO HE HAD CALLED ME TO BE.AND I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU
  • 00:04:45.575 --> 00:04:46.843
  • AND I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOUGUYS, BUT I LOVE THIS ROMANS--
  • 00:04:46.909 --> 00:04:48.745
  • GUYS, BUT I LOVE THIS ROMANS--IN THE BOOK OF ROMANS,
  • 00:04:48.811 --> 00:04:50.246
  • IN THE BOOK OF ROMANS,CHAPTER 12.
  • 00:04:50.313 --> 00:04:52.749
  • CHAPTER 12.AND WE READ THIS KIND OF
  • 00:04:52.815 --> 00:04:53.282
  • AND WE READ THIS KIND OFCONSISTENTLY, AS A COMMUNITY
  • 00:04:53.349 --> 00:04:53.883
  • CONSISTENTLY, AS A COMMUNITYOF FAITH.
  • 00:04:53.950 --> 00:04:54.984
  • OF FAITH.BUT I LOVE THE MESSAGE VERSION.
  • 00:04:55.051 --> 00:04:56.552
  • BUT I LOVE THE MESSAGE VERSION.IT SAYS: "DON'T BECOME SO WELL
  • 00:04:56.619 --> 00:04:58.020
  • IT SAYS: "DON'T BECOME SO WELLADJUSTED TO YOUR CULTURE THAT
  • 00:04:58.087 --> 00:04:59.722
  • ADJUSTED TO YOUR CULTURE THATYOU FIT INTO IT WITHOUT EVEN
  • 00:04:59.789 --> 00:05:01.157
  • YOU FIT INTO IT WITHOUT EVENTHINKING."
  • 00:05:01.224 --> 00:05:02.225
  • THINKING."AND I FEEL THAT WAY, SOMETIMES.
  • 00:05:02.291 --> 00:05:04.560
  • AND I FEEL THAT WAY, SOMETIMES.LIKE, WE JUST HAVE THIS-- IT'S
  • 00:05:04.627 --> 00:05:06.028
  • LIKE, WE JUST HAVE THIS-- IT'SA SUPERFICIAL CUSTOM.
  • 00:05:06.095 --> 00:05:08.164
  • A SUPERFICIAL CUSTOM.YOU FIT IN.
  • 00:05:08.231 --> 00:05:09.599
  • YOU FIT IN.YOU CAN BE BOLD, BUT YOU CAN'T
  • 00:05:09.665 --> 00:05:11.434
  • YOU CAN BE BOLD, BUT YOU CAN'TBE THAT BOLD.
  • 00:05:11.501 --> 00:05:12.368
  • BE THAT BOLD.YOU CAN THINK THIS, BUT YOU
  • 00:05:12.435 --> 00:05:12.969
  • YOU CAN THINK THIS, BUT YOUCAN'T THINK THAT.
  • 00:05:13.035 --> 00:05:13.603
  • CAN'T THINK THAT.AND THERE'S THIS KIND OF
  • 00:05:13.669 --> 00:05:14.670
  • AND THERE'S THIS KIND OFINDOCTRINATION THAT THE WORLD
  • 00:05:14.737 --> 00:05:16.739
  • INDOCTRINATION THAT THE WORLDWANTS US TO BE WHERE WE GO:
  • 00:05:16.806 --> 00:05:18.307
  • WANTS US TO BE WHERE WE GO:THIS IS THE RIGHT TIME TO BE
  • 00:05:18.374 --> 00:05:18.908
  • THIS IS THE RIGHT TIME TO BEMARRIED.
  • 00:05:18.975 --> 00:05:20.910
  • MARRIED.THIS IS THE RIGHT EDUCATION.
  • 00:05:20.977 --> 00:05:21.577
  • THIS IS THE RIGHT EDUCATION.THIS IS THE RIGHT WEIGHT TO BE.
  • 00:05:21.644 --> 00:05:23.346
  • THIS IS THE RIGHT WEIGHT TO BE.THIS IS THE RIGHT, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:05:23.413 --> 00:05:24.714
  • THIS IS THE RIGHT, YOU KNOW,ACADEMICS, OR WHATEVER IT IS.
  • 00:05:24.781 --> 00:05:25.815
  • ACADEMICS, OR WHATEVER IT IS.AND, REALLY, GOD IS SAYING: I
  • 00:05:25.882 --> 00:05:27.984
  • AND, REALLY, GOD IS SAYING: IWANT YOU TO KNOW MY PERFECT
  • 00:05:28.050 --> 00:05:28.885
  • WANT YOU TO KNOW MY PERFECTWILL FOR YOU.
  • 00:05:28.951 --> 00:05:30.186
  • WILL FOR YOU.- CECE WINANS: YES.
  • 00:05:30.253 --> 00:05:31.487
  • - CECE WINANS: YES.- HAVILAH: YOU HAVE A UNIQUE
  • 00:05:31.554 --> 00:05:32.288
  • - HAVILAH: YOU HAVE A UNIQUECALL ON YOUR LIFE.
  • 00:05:32.355 --> 00:05:33.289
  • CALL ON YOUR LIFE.I HAVE A UNIQUE PLAN FOR YOU,
  • 00:05:33.356 --> 00:05:33.956
  • I HAVE A UNIQUE PLAN FOR YOU,AND IT'S YOURS.
  • 00:05:34.023 --> 00:05:35.792
  • AND IT'S YOURS.AND NO ONE ELSE HAS TO DEFINE
  • 00:05:35.858 --> 00:05:37.193
  • AND NO ONE ELSE HAS TO DEFINETHAT.
  • 00:05:37.260 --> 00:05:38.628
  • THAT.NO ONE ELSE HAS TO TELL YOU
  • 00:05:38.694 --> 00:05:39.295
  • NO ONE ELSE HAS TO TELL YOUWHAT IT IS.
  • 00:05:39.362 --> 00:05:40.062
  • WHAT IT IS.IT'S ME AND MY PURPOSE AND
  • 00:05:40.129 --> 00:05:41.531
  • IT'S ME AND MY PURPOSE ANDPLAN.
  • 00:05:41.597 --> 00:05:42.265
  • PLAN.AND THEN, IN ROMANS, IT SAYS IT
  • 00:05:42.331 --> 00:05:44.000
  • AND THEN, IN ROMANS, IT SAYS ITSO CLEARLY: THE REASON WE HAVE
  • 00:05:44.066 --> 00:05:46.269
  • SO CLEARLY: THE REASON WE HAVETO BE TRANSFORMED IN OUR MINDS
  • 00:05:46.335 --> 00:05:48.237
  • TO BE TRANSFORMED IN OUR MINDSIS NOT SO THAT WE HAVE GOOD
  • 00:05:48.304 --> 00:05:48.971
  • IS NOT SO THAT WE HAVE GOODTHOUGHTS.
  • 00:05:49.038 --> 00:05:50.072
  • THOUGHTS.THAT'S JUST THE WORLD.
  • 00:05:50.139 --> 00:05:51.741
  • THAT'S JUST THE WORLD.THAT'S COLBIE CAILLAT SAYING,
  • 00:05:51.808 --> 00:05:54.277
  • THAT'S COLBIE CAILLAT SAYING,YOU KNOW, GOOD THOUGHTS,
  • 00:05:54.343 --> 00:05:54.944
  • YOU KNOW, GOOD THOUGHTS,THINKING GOOD THOUGHTS, WHICH,
  • 00:05:55.011 --> 00:05:56.279
  • THINKING GOOD THOUGHTS, WHICH,IT'S NOT BAD TO HAVE GOOD
  • 00:05:56.345 --> 00:05:57.647
  • IT'S NOT BAD TO HAVE GOODTHOUGHTS.
  • 00:05:57.713 --> 00:05:58.281
  • THOUGHTS.BUT THE BIBLE SAYS THE REASON
  • 00:05:58.347 --> 00:05:59.248
  • BUT THE BIBLE SAYS THE REASONWE RENEW OUR MINDS IS SO THAT
  • 00:05:59.315 --> 00:06:02.552
  • WE RENEW OUR MINDS IS SO THATWE CAN KNOW THE WILL OF GOD.
  • 00:06:02.618 --> 00:06:03.186
  • WE CAN KNOW THE WILL OF GOD.YOU WILL NOT KNOW THE WILL OF
  • 00:06:03.252 --> 00:06:04.287
  • YOU WILL NOT KNOW THE WILL OFGOD FOR YOUR LIFE, I WILL NOT
  • 00:06:04.353 --> 00:06:06.289
  • GOD FOR YOUR LIFE, I WILL NOTKNOW THE WILL OF GOD FOR MY
  • 00:06:06.355 --> 00:06:07.457
  • KNOW THE WILL OF GOD FOR MYLIFE, UNLESS I BEGIN TO HAVE
  • 00:06:07.523 --> 00:06:08.925
  • LIFE, UNLESS I BEGIN TO HAVEHEAVEN'S THOUGHTS ABOUT MY
  • 00:06:08.991 --> 00:06:10.760
  • HEAVEN'S THOUGHTS ABOUT MYPURPOSE AND MY PLAN AND THE
  • 00:06:10.827 --> 00:06:12.929
  • PURPOSE AND MY PLAN AND THETHINGS THAT GOD HAS FOR ME ON
  • 00:06:12.995 --> 00:06:14.163
  • THINGS THAT GOD HAS FOR ME ONTHIS EARTH.
  • 00:06:14.230 --> 00:06:15.665
  • THIS EARTH.- CHRISTINE CAINE: I FEEL SO
  • 00:06:15.731 --> 00:06:16.566
  • - CHRISTINE CAINE: I FEEL SOMUCH LIKE YOU.
  • 00:06:16.632 --> 00:06:18.034
  • MUCH LIKE YOU.YOU KNOW, MY STORY'S DIFFERENT.
  • 00:06:18.100 --> 00:06:19.302
  • YOU KNOW, MY STORY'S DIFFERENT.BUT, YOU KNOW, HERE, I'M THIS
  • 00:06:19.368 --> 00:06:20.536
  • BUT, YOU KNOW, HERE, I'M THISUNNAMED, UNWANTED, ABUSED
  • 00:06:20.603 --> 00:06:22.371
  • UNNAMED, UNWANTED, ABUSEDADOPTED KID FROM THE BACK OF
  • 00:06:22.438 --> 00:06:22.972
  • ADOPTED KID FROM THE BACK OFSYDNEY, AUSTRALIA.
  • 00:06:23.039 --> 00:06:25.174
  • SYDNEY, AUSTRALIA.AND, IT ALL COMES BACK TO THE
  • 00:06:25.241 --> 00:06:26.008
  • AND, IT ALL COMES BACK TO THEWORD OF GOD.
  • 00:06:26.075 --> 00:06:28.277
  • WORD OF GOD.I DON'T KNOW HOW ELSE TO SAY TO
  • 00:06:28.344 --> 00:06:30.813
  • I DON'T KNOW HOW ELSE TO SAY TOPEOPLE THAT, BASICALLY, GOD
  • 00:06:30.880 --> 00:06:32.548
  • PEOPLE THAT, BASICALLY, GODCALLS YOU.
  • 00:06:32.615 --> 00:06:36.385
  • CALLS YOU.I CAN'T EVER DENY WHERE I'VE
  • 00:06:36.452 --> 00:06:37.220
  • I CAN'T EVER DENY WHERE I'VECOME FROM.
  • 00:06:37.286 --> 00:06:38.154
  • COME FROM.LIKE, NOWADAYS, I'M GETTING,
  • 00:06:38.221 --> 00:06:40.089
  • LIKE, NOWADAYS, I'M GETTING,YOU KNOW, MORE OF THE EDUCATION
  • 00:06:40.156 --> 00:06:41.824
  • YOU KNOW, MORE OF THE EDUCATIONSIDE, I'M GETTING MORE OF THE
  • 00:06:41.891 --> 00:06:43.359
  • SIDE, I'M GETTING MORE OF THEOTHER STUFF.
  • 00:06:43.426 --> 00:06:44.026
  • OTHER STUFF.BUT WHAT BROUGHT ME TO WHERE I
  • 00:06:44.093 --> 00:06:45.194
  • BUT WHAT BROUGHT ME TO WHERE IAM IS GOD, AND BELIEVING THE
  • 00:06:45.261 --> 00:06:46.395
  • AM IS GOD, AND BELIEVING THEWORD OF GOD, AND TRUSTING IN
  • 00:06:46.462 --> 00:06:48.064
  • WORD OF GOD, AND TRUSTING INTHE WORD OF GOD.
  • 00:06:48.130 --> 00:06:50.066
  • THE WORD OF GOD.- HAVILAH: THAT'S RIGHT.
  • 00:06:50.132 --> 00:06:51.334
  • - HAVILAH: THAT'S RIGHT.- CHRISTINE: BECAUSE, I WAS
  • 00:06:51.400 --> 00:06:52.101
  • - CHRISTINE: BECAUSE, I WASNEVER ANYBODY'S FIRST CHOICE.
  • 00:06:52.168 --> 00:06:53.369
  • NEVER ANYBODY'S FIRST CHOICE.THIS HAS GOT TO GIVE SOMEONE
  • 00:06:53.436 --> 00:06:54.303
  • THIS HAS GOT TO GIVE SOMEONEHOPE WATCHING THIS TODAY.
  • 00:06:54.370 --> 00:06:55.004
  • HOPE WATCHING THIS TODAY.I'M NOT PARTICULARLY GIFTED OR
  • 00:06:55.071 --> 00:06:56.572
  • I'M NOT PARTICULARLY GIFTED ORTALENTED.
  • 00:06:56.639 --> 00:06:57.740
  • TALENTED.I DON'T SING.
  • 00:06:57.807 --> 00:06:59.675
  • I DON'T SING.I WAS GONNA SAY I DON'T EVEN
  • 00:06:59.742 --> 00:07:00.710
  • I WAS GONNA SAY I DON'T EVENSING LIKE CECE, BUT I SING ONE
  • 00:07:00.776 --> 00:07:02.678
  • SING LIKE CECE, BUT I SING ONENOTCH WORSE THAN HOLLY -- AND
  • 00:07:02.745 --> 00:07:04.680
  • NOTCH WORSE THAN HOLLY -- ANDSHE CAN LET YOU ALL KNOW WHAT
  • 00:07:04.747 --> 00:07:05.581
  • SHE CAN LET YOU ALL KNOW WHATTHAT MIGHT BE DONE A THING.
  • 00:07:05.648 --> 00:07:07.483
  • THAT MIGHT BE DONE A THING.[LAUGHTER]
  • 00:07:07.550 --> 00:07:08.017
  • [LAUGHTER]I WAS NEVER FIRST-PICKED.
  • 00:07:08.084 --> 00:07:09.018
  • I WAS NEVER FIRST-PICKED.AFTER I SPOKE MY FIRST SERMON
  • 00:07:09.085 --> 00:07:09.652
  • AFTER I SPOKE MY FIRST SERMONAT CHAPEL IN BIBLE SCHOOL, THE
  • 00:07:09.719 --> 00:07:13.856
  • AT CHAPEL IN BIBLE SCHOOL, THEDEAN WHO DIDN'T BELIEVE IN
  • 00:07:13.923 --> 00:07:15.558
  • DEAN WHO DIDN'T BELIEVE INWOMEN GOT UP AND SAID,
  • 00:07:15.625 --> 00:07:16.359
  • WOMEN GOT UP AND SAID,"CHRISTINE CARYOFYLLIS, AFTER
  • 00:07:16.425 --> 00:07:19.262
  • "CHRISTINE CARYOFYLLIS, AFTERTHAT PATHETIC EFFORT, NOBODY
  • 00:07:19.328 --> 00:07:20.463
  • THAT PATHETIC EFFORT, NOBODYWILL EVER HAVE YOU GO AND
  • 00:07:20.530 --> 00:07:21.030
  • WILL EVER HAVE YOU GO ANDPREACH FOR THEM."
  • 00:07:21.097 --> 00:07:23.232
  • PREACH FOR THEM."- CECE: (SYMPATHETIC TONE)
  • 00:07:23.299 --> 00:07:24.333
  • - CECE: (SYMPATHETIC TONE)OHHHHHH...
  • 00:07:24.400 --> 00:07:24.834
  • OHHHHHH...- CHRISTINE: I MEAN, THAT WAS
  • 00:07:24.901 --> 00:07:25.568
  • - CHRISTINE: I MEAN, THAT WASMY FIRST ANALYSIS ON--
  • 00:07:25.635 --> 00:07:26.068
  • MY FIRST ANALYSIS ON--I MEAN, I COULD GIVE YOU STORY
  • 00:07:26.135 --> 00:07:26.669
  • I MEAN, I COULD GIVE YOU STORYAFTER STORY IN MY LIFE OF WHERE
  • 00:07:26.736 --> 00:07:27.803
  • AFTER STORY IN MY LIFE OF WHERETHE ENEMY WILL ALWAYS ATTACK
  • 00:07:27.870 --> 00:07:29.839
  • THE ENEMY WILL ALWAYS ATTACKYOU, PRIMARILY IN THE AREA THAT
  • 00:07:29.906 --> 00:07:31.007
  • YOU, PRIMARILY IN THE AREA THATGOD MOST WANTS TO USE YOU.
  • 00:07:31.073 --> 00:07:31.574
  • GOD MOST WANTS TO USE YOU.NOW, BY THE GRACE OF GOD,
  • 00:07:31.641 --> 00:07:33.709
  • NOW, BY THE GRACE OF GOD,30 YEARS LATER, I'VE SPOKEN
  • 00:07:33.776 --> 00:07:34.710
  • 30 YEARS LATER, I'VE SPOKENAROUND THE WORLD.
  • 00:07:34.777 --> 00:07:36.979
  • AROUND THE WORLD.THE LORD'S DONE WHATEVER HE'S
  • 00:07:37.046 --> 00:07:38.247
  • THE LORD'S DONE WHATEVER HE'SDONE, BUT LET ME JUST SAY: IT
  • 00:07:38.314 --> 00:07:39.382
  • DONE, BUT LET ME JUST SAY: ITHAS BEEN A STRUGGLE TO BELIEVE
  • 00:07:39.448 --> 00:07:41.450
  • HAS BEEN A STRUGGLE TO BELIEVETHE TRUTH OF THE WORD OF GOD
  • 00:07:41.517 --> 00:07:43.052
  • THE TRUTH OF THE WORD OF GODOVER THE FACTS, MY WHOLE LIFE.
  • 00:07:43.119 --> 00:07:45.187
  • OVER THE FACTS, MY WHOLE LIFE.I MEAN, I WAS THE ASSEMBLIES OF
  • 00:07:45.254 --> 00:07:46.856
  • I MEAN, I WAS THE ASSEMBLIES OFGOD YOUTH DIRECTOR, BUT THERE
  • 00:07:46.923 --> 00:07:47.890
  • GOD YOUTH DIRECTOR, BUT THEREWAS NO OTHER WOMAN.
  • 00:07:47.957 --> 00:07:48.758
  • WAS NO OTHER WOMAN.I WAS ONLY THE ONLY WOMAN EVER
  • 00:07:48.824 --> 00:07:50.459
  • I WAS ONLY THE ONLY WOMAN EVERIN THE ROOM.
  • 00:07:50.526 --> 00:07:51.294
  • IN THE ROOM.I WAS, A LOT, IN EVANGELICAL
  • 00:07:51.360 --> 00:07:54.063
  • I WAS, A LOT, IN EVANGELICALCIRCLES THAT WERE CESSATIONISTS
  • 00:07:54.130 --> 00:07:55.698
  • CIRCLES THAT WERE CESSATIONISTSAND I'M THE PENTECOSTAL.
  • 00:07:55.765 --> 00:07:56.766
  • AND I'M THE PENTECOSTAL.I MEAN, I COULD JUST TELL YOU,
  • 00:07:56.832 --> 00:07:57.400
  • I MEAN, I COULD JUST TELL YOU,LIKE, I AM THE MOST UNLIKELY
  • 00:07:57.466 --> 00:07:58.901
  • LIKE, I AM THE MOST UNLIKELYPERSON EVERY STEP OF THE WAY TO
  • 00:07:58.968 --> 00:08:01.871
  • PERSON EVERY STEP OF THE WAY TOBE DOING WHAT I'M DOING.
  • 00:08:01.938 --> 00:08:04.206
  • BE DOING WHAT I'M DOING.[LAUGHTER]
  • 00:08:04.273 --> 00:08:04.941
  • [LAUGHTER]AND, THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO SAY
  • 00:08:05.007 --> 00:08:05.875
  • AND, THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO SAYTO SOMEONE, THOUGH: ONCE YOU
  • 00:08:05.942 --> 00:08:07.376
  • TO SOMEONE, THOUGH: ONCE YOUGET TO THE PLACE WHERE YOU
  • 00:08:07.443 --> 00:08:09.111
  • GET TO THE PLACE WHERE YOUBELIEVE -- IF YOU SAY, "GOD,
  • 00:08:09.178 --> 00:08:10.746
  • BELIEVE -- IF YOU SAY, "GOD,HERE I AM, AVAILABLE," GOD CAN
  • 00:08:10.813 --> 00:08:12.081
  • HERE I AM, AVAILABLE," GOD CANUSE ME -- HOW YOU STAY THERE--
  • 00:08:12.148 --> 00:08:14.517
  • USE ME -- HOW YOU STAY THERE--AND THE EXAMPLE THAT I GIVE IS
  • 00:08:14.584 --> 00:08:15.785
  • AND THE EXAMPLE THAT I GIVE ISMY MAMA JOYCE.
  • 00:08:15.851 --> 00:08:17.019
  • MY MAMA JOYCE.I TALK TO HER, ALL THE TIME.
  • 00:08:17.086 --> 00:08:18.454
  • I TALK TO HER, ALL THE TIME.AND -- CAN I TELL YOU? -- I
  • 00:08:18.521 --> 00:08:19.622
  • AND -- CAN I TELL YOU? -- ISTILL HAVE NOT, TO THIS DAY,
  • 00:08:19.689 --> 00:08:21.190
  • STILL HAVE NOT, TO THIS DAY,MET A MORE HUMBLE WOMAN WHO
  • 00:08:21.257 --> 00:08:22.892
  • MET A MORE HUMBLE WOMAN WHOJUST SAYS, "I'M FROM FENTON,
  • 00:08:22.959 --> 00:08:24.126
  • JUST SAYS, "I'M FROM FENTON,MISSOURI, I DIDN'T FINISH HIGH
  • 00:08:24.193 --> 00:08:26.729
  • MISSOURI, I DIDN'T FINISH HIGHSCHOOL," YET SHE WRITES THREE
  • 00:08:26.796 --> 00:08:28.664
  • SCHOOL," YET SHE WRITES THREENEW YORK TIMES BEST SELLERS A
  • 00:08:28.731 --> 00:08:30.399
  • NEW YORK TIMES BEST SELLERS AYEAR AND SHE DOES, LIKE--
  • 00:08:30.466 --> 00:08:31.634
  • YEAR AND SHE DOES, LIKE--YOU KNOW, HER LIFE GOES ON.
  • 00:08:31.701 --> 00:08:33.336
  • YOU KNOW, HER LIFE GOES ON.[HAVILAH LAUGHING]
  • 00:08:33.402 --> 00:08:34.203
  • [HAVILAH LAUGHING]BUT: "CHRISTINE, GOD CALLED ME.
  • 00:08:34.270 --> 00:08:35.137
  • BUT: "CHRISTINE, GOD CALLED ME.THE SAME GOD THAT CALLED ME IS
  • 00:08:35.204 --> 00:08:37.273
  • THE SAME GOD THAT CALLED ME ISTHE SAME GOD THAT KEEPS ME,
  • 00:08:37.340 --> 00:08:38.407
  • THE SAME GOD THAT KEEPS ME,IF I JUST KEEP MY LIFE RIGHT,
  • 00:08:38.474 --> 00:08:39.842
  • IF I JUST KEEP MY LIFE RIGHT,DON'T HAVE ANY STRIFE, DON'T
  • 00:08:39.909 --> 00:08:41.844
  • DON'T HAVE ANY STRIFE, DON'TGOSSIP, DON'T SLANDER, TREAT
  • 00:08:41.911 --> 00:08:43.045
  • GOSSIP, DON'T SLANDER, TREATEVERYONE GOOD..."
  • 00:08:43.112 --> 00:08:44.614
  • EVERYONE GOOD..."I'M TELLING YOU EXACTLY AS SHE
  • 00:08:44.680 --> 00:08:45.247
  • I'M TELLING YOU EXACTLY AS SHESAYS IT TO--
  • 00:08:45.314 --> 00:08:45.681
  • SAYS IT TO--THIS -- THIS IS THE SIMPLICITY
  • 00:08:45.748 --> 00:08:47.216
  • THIS -- THIS IS THE SIMPLICITYOF IT ALL.
  • 00:08:47.283 --> 00:08:48.284
  • OF IT ALL.SHE GOES: "I CAN'T
  • 00:08:48.351 --> 00:08:48.951
  • SHE GOES: "I CAN'TOVERCOMMUNICATE IT.
  • 00:08:49.018 --> 00:08:51.954
  • OVERCOMMUNICATE IT.BASICALLY, IF I JUST CONTINUE
  • 00:08:52.021 --> 00:08:53.255
  • BASICALLY, IF I JUST CONTINUETO BE A CHRISTIAN, THE SAME GOD
  • 00:08:53.322 --> 00:08:54.924
  • TO BE A CHRISTIAN, THE SAME GODTHAT ANOINTED ME THEN IS THE
  • 00:08:54.991 --> 00:08:56.359
  • THAT ANOINTED ME THEN IS THESAME GOD THAT ANOINTS ME, NOW.
  • 00:08:56.425 --> 00:08:57.526
  • SAME GOD THAT ANOINTS ME, NOW.I'M NOT ANY BETTER NOW BECAUSE
  • 00:08:57.593 --> 00:08:58.127
  • I'M NOT ANY BETTER NOW BECAUSEI'M ON TV.
  • 00:08:58.194 --> 00:08:59.462
  • I'M ON TV.I'M NOT ANY BETTER NOW BECAUSE
  • 00:08:59.528 --> 00:09:00.730
  • I'M NOT ANY BETTER NOW BECAUSEI HAVE THIS BIG MINISTRY.
  • 00:09:00.796 --> 00:09:02.164
  • I HAVE THIS BIG MINISTRY.AND THE MINUTE MY TRUST GETS ON
  • 00:09:02.231 --> 00:09:04.600
  • AND THE MINUTE MY TRUST GETS ONTHOSE THINGS INSTEAD OF ON GOD,
  • 00:09:04.667 --> 00:09:07.069
  • THOSE THINGS INSTEAD OF ON GOD,THEN I'VE LOST IT."
  • 00:09:07.136 --> 00:09:08.904
  • THEN I'VE LOST IT."AND I FEEL THE SAME WAY.
  • 00:09:08.971 --> 00:09:10.339
  • AND I FEEL THE SAME WAY.IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW MANY
  • 00:09:10.406 --> 00:09:11.474
  • IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW MANYACCOLADES I GET AND IT DOESN'T
  • 00:09:11.540 --> 00:09:12.742
  • ACCOLADES I GET AND IT DOESN'TMATTER HOW MANY DEGREES I'VE
  • 00:09:12.808 --> 00:09:14.243
  • MATTER HOW MANY DEGREES I'VENOW GOT.
  • 00:09:14.310 --> 00:09:15.511
  • NOW GOT.ACTUALLY, THEY'RE USEFUL FOR
  • 00:09:15.578 --> 00:09:16.912
  • ACTUALLY, THEY'RE USEFUL FORTHE PURPOSE OF GOD, BUT THEY
  • 00:09:16.979 --> 00:09:18.581
  • THE PURPOSE OF GOD, BUT THEYARE NOT THE THING THAT DEFINES
  • 00:09:18.648 --> 00:09:20.416
  • ARE NOT THE THING THAT DEFINESTHE CALL OF GOD ON MY LIFE,
  • 00:09:20.483 --> 00:09:21.917
  • THE CALL OF GOD ON MY LIFE,THEY ARE NOT ACTUALLY WHERE I
  • 00:09:21.984 --> 00:09:23.352
  • THEY ARE NOT ACTUALLY WHERE IGET MY ANOINTING FROM, THEY'RE
  • 00:09:23.419 --> 00:09:24.787
  • GET MY ANOINTING FROM, THEY'RENOT WHERE I GET MY POWER FROM.
  • 00:09:24.854 --> 00:09:26.689
  • NOT WHERE I GET MY POWER FROM.THE SAME GOD THAT PLUCKED ME
  • 00:09:26.756 --> 00:09:28.658
  • THE SAME GOD THAT PLUCKED MEOUT OF ANONYMITY AND OBSCURITY
  • 00:09:28.724 --> 00:09:29.725
  • OUT OF ANONYMITY AND OBSCURITYPUT HIS HAND ON MY LIFE AND HAS
  • 00:09:29.792 --> 00:09:31.193
  • PUT HIS HAND ON MY LIFE AND HASKEPT HIS HAND ON MY LIFE.
  • 00:09:31.260 --> 00:09:32.161
  • KEPT HIS HAND ON MY LIFE.THAT'S THE SAME GOD THAT WILL
  • 00:09:32.228 --> 00:09:33.162
  • THAT'S THE SAME GOD THAT WILLKEEP ME THERE.
  • 00:09:33.229 --> 00:09:34.163
  • KEEP ME THERE.AND I THINK WE HAVE TO
  • 00:09:34.230 --> 00:09:35.598
  • AND I THINK WE HAVE TOUNDERSTAND WE CAN PREACH A
  • 00:09:35.665 --> 00:09:37.199
  • UNDERSTAND WE CAN PREACH ATHOUSAND SERMONS -- AND YOU'VE
  • 00:09:37.266 --> 00:09:38.367
  • THOUSAND SERMONS -- AND YOU'VEALL HEARD 'EM: GOD USES ANYONE,
  • 00:09:38.434 --> 00:09:39.201
  • ALL HEARD 'EM: GOD USES ANYONE,LOOK AT ALL THE UNLIKELY PEOPLE
  • 00:09:39.268 --> 00:09:40.970
  • LOOK AT ALL THE UNLIKELY PEOPLEIN THE BIBLE -- BUT, AT SOME
  • 00:09:41.037 --> 00:09:42.371
  • IN THE BIBLE -- BUT, AT SOMEPOINT, YOU'RE JUST GONNA HAVE
  • 00:09:42.438 --> 00:09:43.906
  • POINT, YOU'RE JUST GONNA HAVETO BELIEVE IT, THAT THE
  • 00:09:43.973 --> 00:09:45.074
  • TO BELIEVE IT, THAT THEUNLIKELY PERSON IS YOU.
  • 00:09:45.141 --> 00:09:46.075
  • UNLIKELY PERSON IS YOU.AND THEN, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO
  • 00:09:46.142 --> 00:09:47.777
  • AND THEN, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TOGET OVER YOUR OWN EGO TO NOT
  • 00:09:47.843 --> 00:09:49.245
  • GET OVER YOUR OWN EGO TO NOTTHINK THAT YOU'VE SUDDENLY
  • 00:09:49.311 --> 00:09:50.780
  • THINK THAT YOU'VE SUDDENLYBECOME ANY BETTER AND THAT'S
  • 00:09:50.846 --> 00:09:53.149
  • BECOME ANY BETTER AND THAT'SWHY YOU'RE WHERE YOU ARE.
  • 00:09:53.215 --> 00:09:53.883
  • WHY YOU'RE WHERE YOU ARE.THEN, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO
  • 00:09:53.949 --> 00:09:55.718
  • THEN, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TOFIGHT BATTLES OF SUCCESS,
  • 00:09:55.785 --> 00:09:57.653
  • FIGHT BATTLES OF SUCCESS,BATTLES OF PRIDE, BATTLES OF
  • 00:09:57.720 --> 00:09:58.788
  • BATTLES OF PRIDE, BATTLES OFEGO TO KEEP YOURSELF HUMBLE.
  • 00:09:58.854 --> 00:10:00.890
  • EGO TO KEEP YOURSELF HUMBLE.'CAUSE SCRIPTURE SAYS HUMBLE
  • 00:10:00.956 --> 00:10:02.391
  • 'CAUSE SCRIPTURE SAYS HUMBLEYOURSELF IN THE SIGHT OF THE
  • 00:10:02.458 --> 00:10:03.526
  • YOURSELF IN THE SIGHT OF THELORD.
  • 00:10:03.592 --> 00:10:04.060
  • LORD.IT'S NOT EVERYONE ELSE'S JOB TO
  • 00:10:04.126 --> 00:10:04.760
  • IT'S NOT EVERYONE ELSE'S JOB TOKEEP ME HUMBLE; IT'S MY JOB.
  • 00:10:04.827 --> 00:10:05.361
  • KEEP ME HUMBLE; IT'S MY JOB.HUMBLE YOURSELF IN THE SIGHT OF
  • 00:10:05.428 --> 00:10:07.029
  • HUMBLE YOURSELF IN THE SIGHT OFTHE LORD, AND THEN, IN DUE
  • 00:10:07.096 --> 00:10:08.631
  • THE LORD, AND THEN, IN DUESEASON, HE WILL ELEVATE YOU.
  • 00:10:08.698 --> 00:10:09.999
  • SEASON, HE WILL ELEVATE YOU.- HAVILAH: CHRIS, WOULDN'T YOU
  • 00:10:10.066 --> 00:10:11.033
  • - HAVILAH: CHRIS, WOULDN'T YOUSAY TWO PEOPLE ASK THE
  • 00:10:11.100 --> 00:10:12.134
  • SAY TWO PEOPLE ASK THEQUESTION, WHERE THEY SAY, "HOW
  • 00:10:12.201 --> 00:10:13.869
  • QUESTION, WHERE THEY SAY, "HOWDID YOU GET WHERE YOU ARE?
  • 00:10:13.936 --> 00:10:14.870
  • DID YOU GET WHERE YOU ARE?WHAT DO I NEED TO DO?"
  • 00:10:14.937 --> 00:10:16.105
  • WHAT DO I NEED TO DO?"AND YOU'RE THINKING: YOU'RE
  • 00:10:16.172 --> 00:10:17.173
  • AND YOU'RE THINKING: YOU'REASKING THE WRONG QUESTION.
  • 00:10:17.239 --> 00:10:18.574
  • ASKING THE WRONG QUESTION.IT'S NEVER: WHAT DID YOU DO TO
  • 00:10:18.641 --> 00:10:19.942
  • IT'S NEVER: WHAT DID YOU DO TOGET ME HERE?
  • 00:10:20.009 --> 00:10:21.110
  • GET ME HERE?THE QUESTION IS: WHAT DOES GOD
  • 00:10:21.177 --> 00:10:22.978
  • THE QUESTION IS: WHAT DOES GODHAVE ON YOUR LIFE AND YOUR
  • 00:10:23.045 --> 00:10:24.013
  • HAVE ON YOUR LIFE AND YOURPATH?
  • 00:10:24.080 --> 00:10:26.015
  • PATH?YOU'RE ASKING THE WRONG THING.
  • 00:10:26.082 --> 00:10:26.849
  • YOU'RE ASKING THE WRONG THING.THERE'S THIS CULTURE THAT'S
  • 00:10:26.916 --> 00:10:27.717
  • THERE'S THIS CULTURE THAT'SOBSESSED WITH: WHAT DID YOU DO
  • 00:10:27.783 --> 00:10:29.218
  • OBSESSED WITH: WHAT DID YOU DOTO GET SUCCESS?
  • 00:10:29.285 --> 00:10:30.186
  • TO GET SUCCESS?WHAT'D YOU GET TO MAKE
  • 00:10:30.252 --> 00:10:30.820
  • WHAT'D YOU GET TO MAKERELATIONS WITH THAT?
  • 00:10:30.886 --> 00:10:32.221
  • RELATIONS WITH THAT?HOW DID YOU GET PROMOTED THERE?
  • 00:10:32.288 --> 00:10:33.322
  • HOW DID YOU GET PROMOTED THERE?HOW'D YOU GET THIS OPPORTUNITY?
  • 00:10:33.389 --> 00:10:34.423
  • HOW'D YOU GET THIS OPPORTUNITY?HOLLY, YOU KNOW THAT.
  • 00:10:34.490 --> 00:10:35.758
  • HOLLY, YOU KNOW THAT.LIKE, YOU'RE IN A WORLD WHERE
  • 00:10:35.825 --> 00:10:37.226
  • LIKE, YOU'RE IN A WORLD WHEREYOU'VE SEEN A LOT OF PEOPLE
  • 00:10:37.293 --> 00:10:39.061
  • YOU'VE SEEN A LOT OF PEOPLEHAVE A LOT OF INFLUENCE.
  • 00:10:39.128 --> 00:10:40.563
  • HAVE A LOT OF INFLUENCE.AND YOU KNOW IT'S REALLY--
  • 00:10:40.629 --> 00:10:41.097
  • AND YOU KNOW IT'S REALLY--THERE'S REALLY NO SUCCESS PATH;
  • 00:10:41.163 --> 00:10:43.232
  • THERE'S REALLY NO SUCCESS PATH;THERE IS A "OBEY GOD AND HE'LL
  • 00:10:43.299 --> 00:10:45.201
  • THERE IS A "OBEY GOD AND HE'LLDO WHAT HE NEEDS TO DO."
  • 00:10:45.267 --> 00:10:46.869
  • DO WHAT HE NEEDS TO DO."BUT, I DON'T KNOW -- WHAT DO
  • 00:10:46.936 --> 00:10:47.603
  • BUT, I DON'T KNOW -- WHAT DOYOU THINK ABOUT THAT?
  • 00:10:47.670 --> 00:10:50.206
  • YOU THINK ABOUT THAT?- HOLLY WAGNER: YEAH, YOU
  • 00:10:50.272 --> 00:10:50.740
  • - HOLLY WAGNER: YEAH, YOUKNOW, I REMEMBER WHEN
  • 00:10:50.806 --> 00:10:51.207
  • KNOW, I REMEMBER WHENI FIRST STARTED.
  • 00:10:51.273 --> 00:10:54.710
  • I FIRST STARTED.AND BACK IN THE DAY -- THIS IS,
  • 00:10:54.777 --> 00:10:55.511
  • AND BACK IN THE DAY -- THIS IS,YOU KNOW, A LONG TIME AGO --
  • 00:10:55.578 --> 00:10:57.012
  • YOU KNOW, A LONG TIME AGO --THIS IS WHEN PEOPLE WOULD GIVE
  • 00:10:57.079 --> 00:10:59.014
  • THIS IS WHEN PEOPLE WOULD GIVETHEIR TESTIMONIES, WOULD TELL
  • 00:10:59.081 --> 00:11:00.583
  • THEIR TESTIMONIES, WOULD TELLTHEIR STORIES, RIGHT?
  • 00:11:00.649 --> 00:11:01.550
  • THEIR STORIES, RIGHT?AND THEY WOULD HAVE THESE
  • 00:11:01.617 --> 00:11:04.587
  • AND THEY WOULD HAVE THESEREALLY DRAMATIC STORIES
  • 00:11:04.653 --> 00:11:09.024
  • REALLY DRAMATIC STORIESYOU KNOW, FROM DRUG
  • 00:11:09.091 --> 00:11:09.458
  • YOU KNOW, FROM DRUGADDICTIONS.
  • 00:11:09.525 --> 00:11:10.626
  • ADDICTIONS.YOU KNOW, REALLY DRAMATIC
  • 00:11:10.693 --> 00:11:11.193
  • YOU KNOW, REALLY DRAMATICSTORIES.
  • 00:11:11.260 --> 00:11:11.694
  • STORIES.OR, EVEN ONES LIKE CHRIS' STORY
  • 00:11:11.761 --> 00:11:12.361
  • OR, EVEN ONES LIKE CHRIS' STORYOR HAVILAH'S STORY.
  • 00:11:12.428 --> 00:11:13.295
  • OR HAVILAH'S STORY.AND, I DIDN'T HAVE THOSE
  • 00:11:13.362 --> 00:11:14.530
  • AND, I DIDN'T HAVE THOSESTORIES!
  • 00:11:14.597 --> 00:11:15.965
  • STORIES!RIGHT? THAT WASN'T MY STORY.
  • 00:11:16.031 --> 00:11:17.166
  • RIGHT? THAT WASN'T MY STORY.I WAS RAISED BY TWO PARENTS WHO
  • 00:11:17.233 --> 00:11:19.902
  • I WAS RAISED BY TWO PARENTS WHOLOVED ME, I WAS IN CHURCH MY
  • 00:11:19.969 --> 00:11:21.070
  • LOVED ME, I WAS IN CHURCH MYWHOLE LIFE.
  • 00:11:21.137 --> 00:11:22.104
  • WHOLE LIFE.LIKE, I BASICALLY SKIPPED
  • 00:11:22.171 --> 00:11:24.173
  • LIKE, I BASICALLY SKIPPEDSUNDAY SCHOOL.
  • 00:11:24.240 --> 00:11:25.674
  • SUNDAY SCHOOL.I PARKED IN THE
  • 00:11:25.741 --> 00:11:26.976
  • I PARKED IN THEHANDICAP-ONLY PARKING PLACE.
  • 00:11:27.042 --> 00:11:27.843
  • HANDICAP-ONLY PARKING PLACE.I MEAN, THAT'S WHAT I DID.
  • 00:11:27.910 --> 00:11:29.678
  • I MEAN, THAT'S WHAT I DID.I MEAN, THAT WAS THE BAD
  • 00:11:29.745 --> 00:11:31.280
  • I MEAN, THAT WAS THE BADTHINGS, RIGHT?
  • 00:11:31.347 --> 00:11:32.047
  • THINGS, RIGHT?SO, EITHER WAY, WE FEEL LIKE
  • 00:11:32.114 --> 00:11:33.249
  • SO, EITHER WAY, WE FEEL LIKEWE'RE NOT THE RIGHT PERSON TO
  • 00:11:33.315 --> 00:11:34.016
  • WE'RE NOT THE RIGHT PERSON TOUSE.
  • 00:11:34.083 --> 00:11:34.884
  • USE.SO, I GUESS IT DOESN'T MATTER
  • 00:11:34.950 --> 00:11:36.585
  • SO, I GUESS IT DOESN'T MATTERWHICH SPECTRUM YOU FALL ON --
  • 00:11:36.652 --> 00:11:37.853
  • WHICH SPECTRUM YOU FALL ON --YOU START WONDERING: CAN GOD
  • 00:11:37.920 --> 00:11:38.821
  • YOU START WONDERING: CAN GODUSE ME?
  • 00:11:38.888 --> 00:11:42.892
  • USE ME?AND, THE MORE I READ THE BIBLE,
  • 00:11:42.958 --> 00:11:44.994
  • AND, THE MORE I READ THE BIBLE,THE MORE I REALIZE HE ONLY EVER
  • 00:11:45.060 --> 00:11:46.929
  • THE MORE I REALIZE HE ONLY EVERUSES THE ONES THAT NOBODY
  • 00:11:46.996 --> 00:11:47.763
  • USES THE ONES THAT NOBODYTHOUGHT WOULD BE USED.
  • 00:11:47.830 --> 00:11:48.798
  • THOUGHT WOULD BE USED.- CECE: HALLELUJAH...
  • 00:11:48.864 --> 00:11:49.598
  • - CECE: HALLELUJAH...- HOLLY: RIGHT?
  • 00:11:49.665 --> 00:11:50.633
  • - HOLLY: RIGHT?- HAVILAH: YEAH...
  • 00:11:50.699 --> 00:11:51.133
  • - HAVILAH: YEAH...- HOLLY: THE ONES THAT MEN
  • 00:11:51.200 --> 00:11:52.401
  • - HOLLY: THE ONES THAT MENVOTED FOR.
  • 00:11:52.468 --> 00:11:53.302
  • VOTED FOR.LIKE, IF YOU LOOK AT SAUL --
  • 00:11:53.369 --> 00:11:55.738
  • LIKE, IF YOU LOOK AT SAUL --RIGHT? -- THAT MEN VOTED FOR.
  • 00:11:55.805 --> 00:11:57.673
  • RIGHT? -- THAT MEN VOTED FOR.NOT THE ONE THAT BECAME PAUL.
  • 00:11:57.740 --> 00:11:59.341
  • NOT THE ONE THAT BECAME PAUL.IT'S KING SAUL.
  • 00:11:59.408 --> 00:12:00.976
  • IT'S KING SAUL.MEN VOTED FOR HIM!
  • 00:12:01.043 --> 00:12:01.844
  • MEN VOTED FOR HIM!AND HE, THEN, ACTUALLY HAD THIS
  • 00:12:01.911 --> 00:12:03.245
  • AND HE, THEN, ACTUALLY HAD THISMELTDOWN.
  • 00:12:03.312 --> 00:12:03.779
  • MELTDOWN.AND, YOU KNOW, GOD LET THEM
  • 00:12:03.846 --> 00:12:05.681
  • AND, YOU KNOW, GOD LET THEMHAVE A KING, 'CAUSE, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:12:05.748 --> 00:12:06.515
  • HAVE A KING, 'CAUSE, YOU KNOW,DID.
  • 00:12:06.582 --> 00:12:07.716
  • DID.BUT I JUST THOUGHT: MOST OF THE
  • 00:12:07.783 --> 00:12:09.485
  • BUT I JUST THOUGHT: MOST OF THETIME, THE ONES THAT GOD CHOSE
  • 00:12:09.552 --> 00:12:10.953
  • TIME, THE ONES THAT GOD CHOSEWERE THE UNLIKELY ONES!
  • 00:12:11.020 --> 00:12:12.454
  • WERE THE UNLIKELY ONES!AND SO...THAT GIVES ME COMFORT.
  • 00:12:12.521 --> 00:12:15.224
  • AND SO...THAT GIVES ME COMFORT.(LAUGHING) BECAUSE...
  • 00:12:15.291 --> 00:12:16.559
  • (LAUGHING) BECAUSE...SO, WHENEVER I START TO FEEL--
  • 00:12:16.625 --> 00:12:18.727
  • SO, WHENEVER I START TO FEEL--THERE HAVE BEEN SO MANY TIMES
  • 00:12:18.794 --> 00:12:20.963
  • THERE HAVE BEEN SO MANY TIMESWHEN I HAVE BEEN THE FIRST
  • 00:12:21.030 --> 00:12:23.265
  • WHEN I HAVE BEEN THE FIRSTWOMAN ON A PLATFORM, TO TEACH.
  • 00:12:23.332 --> 00:12:25.634
  • WOMAN ON A PLATFORM, TO TEACH.AND, I'LL START TO GET
  • 00:12:25.701 --> 00:12:26.836
  • AND, I'LL START TO GETTREPIDATIOUS OR "OH, MY
  • 00:12:26.902 --> 00:12:30.139
  • TREPIDATIOUS OR "OH, MYGOSH...OH, MY GOSH..."
  • 00:12:30.206 --> 00:12:30.973
  • GOSH...OH, MY GOSH..."BUT THEN, IT'S JUST LIKE: NO!
  • 00:12:31.040 --> 00:12:33.642
  • BUT THEN, IT'S JUST LIKE: NO!HE'S PREPARED ME FOR THIS!
  • 00:12:33.709 --> 00:12:35.644
  • HE'S PREPARED ME FOR THIS!IT'S LIKE I'VE BEEN UNLIKELY IN
  • 00:12:35.711 --> 00:12:36.312
  • IT'S LIKE I'VE BEEN UNLIKELY INSO MANY THINGS.
  • 00:12:36.378 --> 00:12:39.381
  • SO MANY THINGS.AND SO, HE'S TRUSTING ME WITH
  • 00:12:39.448 --> 00:12:40.583
  • AND SO, HE'S TRUSTING ME WITHTHIS MOMENT.
  • 00:12:40.649 --> 00:12:42.117
  • THIS MOMENT.AND I GUESS THE THING THAT
  • 00:12:42.184 --> 00:12:43.085
  • AND I GUESS THE THING THATKEEPS ME FOCUSED IS THAT HE'S
  • 00:12:43.152 --> 00:12:44.453
  • KEEPS ME FOCUSED IS THAT HE'STRUSTING ME WITH THIS MOMENT
  • 00:12:44.520 --> 00:12:48.424
  • TRUSTING ME WITH THIS MOMENTAND IT'S NOT FOR ME.
  • 00:12:48.490 --> 00:12:49.491
  • AND IT'S NOT FOR ME.IT'S ACTUALLY TO KEEP A DOOR
  • 00:12:49.558 --> 00:12:50.092
  • IT'S ACTUALLY TO KEEP A DOOROPEN.
  • 00:12:50.159 --> 00:12:51.594
  • OPEN.BECAUSE THERE'S A GENERATION OF
  • 00:12:51.660 --> 00:12:52.695
  • BECAUSE THERE'S A GENERATION OFYOUNG WOMEN COMING THROUGH.
  • 00:12:52.761 --> 00:12:53.295
  • YOUNG WOMEN COMING THROUGH.AND SO, HOLLY, YOU DON'T MESS
  • 00:12:53.362 --> 00:12:54.730
  • AND SO, HOLLY, YOU DON'T MESSTHIS UP.
  • 00:12:54.797 --> 00:12:55.364
  • THIS UP.BECAUSE SHE'S GONNA COME
  • 00:12:55.431 --> 00:12:55.898
  • BECAUSE SHE'S GONNA COMETHROUGH.
  • 00:12:55.965 --> 00:12:57.233
  • THROUGH.- HAVILAH: THAT'S GREAT.
  • 00:12:57.299 --> 00:12:57.833
  • - HAVILAH: THAT'S GREAT.- HOLLY: SO, MY JOB IS TO TAKE
  • 00:12:57.900 --> 00:12:59.535
  • - HOLLY: SO, MY JOB IS TO TAKEWHATEVER HE'S TRUSTED ME WITH
  • 00:12:59.602 --> 00:13:01.871
  • WHATEVER HE'S TRUSTED ME WITHAND...KEEP THE DOOR OPEN SO
  • 00:13:01.937 --> 00:13:02.504
  • AND...KEEP THE DOOR OPEN SOTHAT SHE, THE NEXT SHE --
  • 00:13:02.571 --> 00:13:04.206
  • THAT SHE, THE NEXT SHE --RIGHT? -- THE NEXT MISFIT,
  • 00:13:04.273 --> 00:13:07.309
  • RIGHT? -- THE NEXT MISFIT,THE NEXT UNLIKELY HERO --
  • 00:13:07.376 --> 00:13:10.713
  • THE NEXT UNLIKELY HERO --RIGHT? -- OR AN UNLIKELY PERSON
  • 00:13:10.779 --> 00:13:12.348
  • RIGHT? -- OR AN UNLIKELY PERSON-- RIGHT? -- WILL STEP HERE.
  • 00:13:12.414 --> 00:13:13.415
  • -- RIGHT? -- WILL STEP HERE.BUT, I GUESS WHEN I LOOK AT ALL
  • 00:13:13.482 --> 00:13:15.184
  • BUT, I GUESS WHEN I LOOK AT ALLOF YOU -- FIVE OF US, RIGHT
  • 00:13:15.251 --> 00:13:17.019
  • OF YOU -- FIVE OF US, RIGHTHERE ON THIS SCREEN THAT I'M
  • 00:13:17.086 --> 00:13:20.189
  • HERE ON THIS SCREEN THAT I'MLOOKING AT YOUR CUTE FACES -- I
  • 00:13:20.256 --> 00:13:22.858
  • LOOKING AT YOUR CUTE FACES -- IBET NONE OF YOU WOULD SAY,
  • 00:13:22.925 --> 00:13:24.627
  • BET NONE OF YOU WOULD SAY,"OH, YEAH -- I KNEW WHERE I WAS
  • 00:13:24.693 --> 00:13:25.394
  • "OH, YEAH -- I KNEW WHERE I WASGONNA BE AND DOING WHAT I'M
  • 00:13:25.461 --> 00:13:26.528
  • GONNA BE AND DOING WHAT I'MDOING, AND..."
  • 00:13:26.595 --> 00:13:27.696
  • DOING, AND..."I DON'T THINK SO.
  • 00:13:27.763 --> 00:13:29.365
  • I DON'T THINK SO.I MEAN, I EVEN THINK ABOUT YOU,
  • 00:13:29.431 --> 00:13:30.966
  • I MEAN, I EVEN THINK ABOUT YOU,ANITA.
  • 00:13:31.033 --> 00:13:31.667
  • ANITA.WE'VE HAD SO MANY
  • 00:13:31.734 --> 00:13:32.601
  • WE'VE HAD SO MANYCONVERSATIONS, YOU KNOW, OVER
  • 00:13:32.668 --> 00:13:33.502
  • CONVERSATIONS, YOU KNOW, OVERTHIS LAST YEAR, THAT I'VE
  • 00:13:33.569 --> 00:13:34.036
  • THIS LAST YEAR, THAT I'VELOVED, BUT I REMEMBER WHEN, ALL
  • 00:13:34.103 --> 00:13:36.472
  • LOVED, BUT I REMEMBER WHEN, ALLOF A SUDDEN, YOU FELT LIKE:
  • 00:13:36.538 --> 00:13:38.407
  • OF A SUDDEN, YOU FELT LIKE:WHOA! THERE'S A WHOLE BUNCH
  • 00:13:38.474 --> 00:13:39.608
  • WHOA! THERE'S A WHOLE BUNCHMORE PEOPLE LISTENING TO MY
  • 00:13:39.675 --> 00:13:41.810
  • MORE PEOPLE LISTENING TO MYVOICE, RIGHT NOW.
  • 00:13:41.877 --> 00:13:42.244
  • VOICE, RIGHT NOW.- DR. ANITA PHILLIPS: YEAH.
  • 00:13:42.311 --> 00:13:44.313
  • - DR. ANITA PHILLIPS: YEAH.RIGHT? OR ASKING ME QUESTIONS.
  • 00:13:44.380 --> 00:13:45.214
  • RIGHT? OR ASKING ME QUESTIONS.AND WHO KNEW...RIGHT?
  • 00:13:45.281 --> 00:13:47.216
  • AND WHO KNEW...RIGHT?AND SO, I GUESS THAT'S BACK TO
  • 00:13:47.283 --> 00:13:47.850
  • AND SO, I GUESS THAT'S BACK TOCHRIS' POINT.
  • 00:13:47.917 --> 00:13:50.185
  • CHRIS' POINT.IT'S JUST LIKE: WHO KNEW, YOU
  • 00:13:50.252 --> 00:13:51.453
  • IT'S JUST LIKE: WHO KNEW, YOUKNOW -- RIGHT? -- THAT YOU
  • 00:13:51.520 --> 00:13:52.221
  • KNOW -- RIGHT? -- THAT YOUWOULD BE HERE?
  • 00:13:52.288 --> 00:13:53.956
  • WOULD BE HERE?BUT GOD KNEW.
  • 00:13:54.023 --> 00:13:54.490
  • BUT GOD KNEW.- DR. ANITA: RIGHT.
  • 00:13:54.556 --> 00:13:54.957
  • - DR. ANITA: RIGHT.WHAT ELSE WENT WITH THAT WAS
  • 00:13:55.024 --> 00:13:56.525
  • WHAT ELSE WENT WITH THAT WASJUST LIKE, ALL OF A SUDDEN, ALL
  • 00:13:56.592 --> 00:13:57.192
  • JUST LIKE, ALL OF A SUDDEN, ALLTHESE PEOPLE ARE LOOKING AT ME,
  • 00:13:57.259 --> 00:13:58.093
  • THESE PEOPLE ARE LOOKING AT ME,AND I'VE BEEN DOING WHAT I'VE
  • 00:13:58.160 --> 00:13:59.628
  • AND I'VE BEEN DOING WHAT I'VEBEEN DOING ALL THE TIME I'VE
  • 00:13:59.695 --> 00:14:01.096
  • BEEN DOING ALL THE TIME I'VEBEEN DOING IT -- YOU KNOW, JUST
  • 00:14:01.163 --> 00:14:02.865
  • BEEN DOING IT -- YOU KNOW, JUSTMINDING MY BUSINESS, DOING MY
  • 00:14:02.932 --> 00:14:03.499
  • MINDING MY BUSINESS, DOING MYWORK.
  • 00:14:03.565 --> 00:14:04.900
  • WORK.BUT I THINK WHEN IT COMES TO
  • 00:14:04.967 --> 00:14:06.235
  • BUT I THINK WHEN IT COMES TOWORRYING ABOUT FITTING IN,
  • 00:14:06.302 --> 00:14:07.436
  • WORRYING ABOUT FITTING IN,SOMETIMES, WE'RE CHALLENGED
  • 00:14:07.503 --> 00:14:08.237
  • SOMETIMES, WE'RE CHALLENGEDWITH BRINGING ALL OF US
  • 00:14:08.304 --> 00:14:08.771
  • WITH BRINGING ALL OF USWHEREVER WE GO -- ALL OF ME.
  • 00:14:08.837 --> 00:14:09.405
  • WHEREVER WE GO -- ALL OF ME.YOU KNOW?
  • 00:14:09.471 --> 00:14:10.506
  • YOU KNOW?SO, I'M A PROFESSOR AND I...
  • 00:14:10.572 --> 00:14:11.774
  • SO, I'M A PROFESSOR AND I...LOVE DEEP ACADEMIC
  • 00:14:11.840 --> 00:14:13.375
  • LOVE DEEP ACADEMICCONVERSATIONS.
  • 00:14:13.442 --> 00:14:14.410
  • CONVERSATIONS.I'M A PREACHER; I...HAVE A DEEP
  • 00:14:14.476 --> 00:14:15.544
  • I'M A PREACHER; I...HAVE A DEEPPROPHETIC GIFT.
  • 00:14:15.611 --> 00:14:17.179
  • PROPHETIC GIFT.AND I'M A THERAPIST.
  • 00:14:17.246 --> 00:14:18.380
  • AND I'M A THERAPIST.AND, FOR A WHILE, IT WAS LIKE:
  • 00:14:18.447 --> 00:14:19.315
  • AND, FOR A WHILE, IT WAS LIKE:WELL, WHO AM I SUPPOSED TO BE,
  • 00:14:19.381 --> 00:14:20.316
  • WELL, WHO AM I SUPPOSED TO BE,TODAY?
  • 00:14:20.382 --> 00:14:20.849
  • TODAY?DO THEY JUST WANT ME TO SOUND
  • 00:14:20.916 --> 00:14:22.284
  • DO THEY JUST WANT ME TO SOUNDLIKE A THERAPIST, OR, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:14:22.351 --> 00:14:23.519
  • LIKE A THERAPIST, OR, YOU KNOW,DID THEY CALL ME TO PREACH?
  • 00:14:23.585 --> 00:14:26.021
  • DID THEY CALL ME TO PREACH?BUT IF I DON'T PREACH ON A
  • 00:14:26.088 --> 00:14:26.855
  • BUT IF I DON'T PREACH ON AMENTAL-HEALTH TOPIC, WELL...
  • 00:14:26.922 --> 00:14:29.058
  • MENTAL-HEALTH TOPIC, WELL...THEN, AM I TALKING ABOUT
  • 00:14:29.124 --> 00:14:29.892
  • THEN, AM I TALKING ABOUTRESEARCH TOO MUCH?
  • 00:14:29.959 --> 00:14:30.726
  • RESEARCH TOO MUCH?IT'S JUST LIKE: WHO DOES THIS
  • 00:14:30.793 --> 00:14:31.827
  • IT'S JUST LIKE: WHO DOES THISPARTICULAR AUDIENCE WANT ME TO
  • 00:14:31.894 --> 00:14:34.330
  • PARTICULAR AUDIENCE WANT ME TOBE?
  • 00:14:34.396 --> 00:14:36.031
  • BE?WHO DO THEY THINK THEY'RE
  • 00:14:36.098 --> 00:14:36.598
  • WHO DO THEY THINK THEY'REASKING FOR?
  • 00:14:36.665 --> 00:14:37.366
  • ASKING FOR?AND IT JUST TOOK ME A FEW
  • 00:14:37.433 --> 00:14:38.400
  • AND IT JUST TOOK ME A FEWMOMENTS -- THANK GOD, BECAUSE
  • 00:14:38.467 --> 00:14:40.636
  • MOMENTS -- THANK GOD, BECAUSEOF MY MOM -- NOT TOO LONG,
  • 00:14:40.703 --> 00:14:42.771
  • OF MY MOM -- NOT TOO LONG,'CAUSE SHE ALWAYS TAUGHT ME
  • 00:14:42.838 --> 00:14:43.372
  • 'CAUSE SHE ALWAYS TAUGHT ME"JUST DO YOU."
  • 00:14:43.439 --> 00:14:44.273
  • BUT IT DEFINITELY TOOK ME A FEW
  • 00:14:44.840 --> 00:14:45.441
  • BUT IT DEFINITELY TOOK ME A FEWMOMENTS TO INTEGRATE ALL OF
  • 00:14:45.507 --> 00:14:46.942
  • MOMENTS TO INTEGRATE ALL OFTHAT AND REALIZE I DON'T HAVE
  • 00:14:47.009 --> 00:14:48.410
  • THAT AND REALIZE I DON'T HAVETO BRING ONLY PIECES OF ME TO A
  • 00:14:48.477 --> 00:14:49.712
  • TO BRING ONLY PIECES OF ME TO ASPACE.
  • 00:14:49.778 --> 00:14:50.412
  • SPACE.AND, A LOT OF TIMES, WHEN WE'RE
  • 00:14:50.479 --> 00:14:52.047
  • AND, A LOT OF TIMES, WHEN WE'RETRYING TO FIT IN, WE'LL CUT
  • 00:14:52.114 --> 00:14:53.983
  • TRYING TO FIT IN, WE'LL CUTAWAY PIECES OF US TO FIT INTO
  • 00:14:54.049 --> 00:14:55.217
  • AWAY PIECES OF US TO FIT INTOSOME SPACE THAT'S SMALLER
  • 00:14:55.284 --> 00:14:56.785
  • SOME SPACE THAT'S SMALLERINSTEAD OF STEPPING IN AND
  • 00:14:56.852 --> 00:14:57.686
  • INSTEAD OF STEPPING IN ANDSHAPING THE SPACE BY BEING ALL
  • 00:14:57.753 --> 00:15:00.022
  • SHAPING THE SPACE BY BEING ALLOF WHO GOD MADE YOU TO BE.
  • 00:15:00.089 --> 00:15:02.057
  • OF WHO GOD MADE YOU TO BE.AND THAT DOESN'T REQUIRE
  • 00:15:02.124 --> 00:15:03.025
  • AND THAT DOESN'T REQUIREPERFECTION.
  • 00:15:03.092 --> 00:15:04.994
  • PERFECTION.IT DOESN'T EVEN ALWAYS REQUIRE
  • 00:15:05.060 --> 00:15:05.627
  • IT DOESN'T EVEN ALWAYS REQUIRECONFIDENCE.
  • 00:15:05.694 --> 00:15:06.395
  • CONFIDENCE.IT JUST REQUIRES RECOGNITION
  • 00:15:06.462 --> 00:15:08.263
  • IT JUST REQUIRES RECOGNITIONTHAT WE HAVE THIS TREASURE IN
  • 00:15:08.330 --> 00:15:09.665
  • THAT WE HAVE THIS TREASURE INEARTHEN VESSELS.
  • 00:15:09.732 --> 00:15:12.067
  • EARTHEN VESSELS.I'M THE EARTHEN VESSEL.
  • 00:15:12.134 --> 00:15:13.135
  • - HAVILAH: I'M CURIOUS,
  • 00:15:13.902 --> 00:15:14.370
  • - HAVILAH: I'M CURIOUS,DR. ANITA -- WHAT WOULD YOU
  • 00:15:14.436 --> 00:15:14.970
  • DR. ANITA -- WHAT WOULD YOUSAY, YOU KNOW, IF SOMEONE SAYS,
  • 00:15:15.037 --> 00:15:16.171
  • SAY, YOU KNOW, IF SOMEONE SAYS,"WELL, I BROUGHT MY WHOLE SELF,
  • 00:15:16.238 --> 00:15:17.272
  • "WELL, I BROUGHT MY WHOLE SELF,BUT IT FEELS LIKE THAT'S WHEN
  • 00:15:17.339 --> 00:15:19.008
  • BUT IT FEELS LIKE THAT'S WHENREJECTION HAPPENS, THAT'S WHEN
  • 00:15:19.074 --> 00:15:19.908
  • REJECTION HAPPENS, THAT'S WHENI DON'T FIT IN"?
  • 00:15:19.975 --> 00:15:22.311
  • I DON'T FIT IN"?YOU KNOW, WHAT DO PEOPLE DO?
  • 00:15:22.378 --> 00:15:24.213
  • YOU KNOW, WHAT DO PEOPLE DO?DO THEY SAY-- 'CAUSE THIS IS
  • 00:15:24.279 --> 00:15:25.614
  • DO THEY SAY-- 'CAUSE THIS ISWHAT'S HAPPENING SOCIALLY,
  • 00:15:25.681 --> 00:15:26.515
  • WHAT'S HAPPENING SOCIALLY,ONLINE: I'M BRINGING MY WHOLE
  • 00:15:26.582 --> 00:15:27.950
  • ONLINE: I'M BRINGING MY WHOLESELF AND PEOPLE DON'T LIKE WHAT
  • 00:15:28.017 --> 00:15:28.584
  • SELF AND PEOPLE DON'T LIKE WHATI'M SAYING.
  • 00:15:28.650 --> 00:15:29.218
  • I'M SAYING.OR: I'M BRINGING MY WHOLE SELF
  • 00:15:29.284 --> 00:15:30.319
  • OR: I'M BRINGING MY WHOLE SELFTO MY COMMUNITY AND I DON'T--
  • 00:15:30.386 --> 00:15:31.353
  • TO MY COMMUNITY AND I DON'T--HOW DO I SHOW UP BUT STILL, YOU
  • 00:15:31.420 --> 00:15:36.191
  • HOW DO I SHOW UP BUT STILL, YOUKNOW, MAKE SURE THERE'S SPACE
  • 00:15:36.258 --> 00:15:36.825
  • KNOW, MAKE SURE THERE'S SPACETHAT I'M NOT BEING TOO MUCH?
  • 00:15:36.892 --> 00:15:38.427
  • AND I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S EVEN
  • 00:15:39.194 --> 00:15:39.962
  • AND I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S EVENTHE SPACE.
  • 00:15:40.029 --> 00:15:41.096
  • THE SPACE.I'M JUST CURIOUS WHAT YOU WOULD
  • 00:15:41.163 --> 00:15:41.797
  • I'M JUST CURIOUS WHAT YOU WOULDCOUNSEL SOMEONE TO DO?
  • 00:15:41.864 --> 00:15:43.399
  • COUNSEL SOMEONE TO DO?- DR. ANITA: THE WAY YOU SHOW
  • 00:15:43.465 --> 00:15:44.166
  • - DR. ANITA: THE WAY YOU SHOWUP IS CONSISTENTLY.
  • 00:15:44.233 --> 00:15:45.768
  • - HAVILAH: YEAH, YEAH --
  • 00:15:46.368 --> 00:15:46.869
  • - HAVILAH: YEAH, YEAH --FULLY...
  • 00:15:46.935 --> 00:15:47.136
  • FULLY...- DR. ANITA: CONSISTENTLY BE
  • 00:15:47.202 --> 00:15:47.770
  • - DR. ANITA: CONSISTENTLY BEYOURSELF.
  • 00:15:47.836 --> 00:15:48.070
  • YOURSELF.- HAVILAH: ...YOU KNOW,
  • 00:15:48.137 --> 00:15:48.604
  • - HAVILAH: ...YOU KNOW,KNOWING, LIKE: I AM THIS
  • 00:15:48.670 --> 00:15:49.438
  • KNOWING, LIKE: I AM THISPERSON.
  • 00:15:49.505 --> 00:15:50.005
  • PERSON.- DR. ANITA: RIGHT.
  • 00:15:50.072 --> 00:15:50.472
  • - DR. ANITA: RIGHT.BE EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE,
  • 00:15:50.539 --> 00:15:51.206
  • BE EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE,WHATEVER PART OF YOU IS TAKING
  • 00:15:51.273 --> 00:15:52.908
  • WHATEVER PART OF YOU IS TAKINGTHE LEAD THAT DAY OR WHATEVER.
  • 00:15:52.975 --> 00:15:53.675
  • THE LEAD THAT DAY OR WHATEVER.JUST BE YOUR WHOLE SELF,
  • 00:15:53.742 --> 00:15:55.377
  • JUST BE YOUR WHOLE SELF,CONSISTENTLY.
  • 00:15:55.444 --> 00:15:58.714
  • CONSISTENTLY.BECAUSE TIME PROVES CHARACTER.
  • 00:15:58.781 --> 00:15:59.481
  • BECAUSE TIME PROVES CHARACTER.LIKES ON YOUR POST DON'T PROVE
  • 00:15:59.548 --> 00:16:00.949
  • LIKES ON YOUR POST DON'T PROVEYOUR CHARACTER.
  • 00:16:01.016 --> 00:16:03.185
  • YOUR CHARACTER.LIKES ON YOUR POST DON'T
  • 00:16:03.252 --> 00:16:04.253
  • LIKES ON YOUR POST DON'TCONFIRM YOUR CALLING.
  • 00:16:04.319 --> 00:16:05.821
  • CONFIRM YOUR CALLING.LIKES ON YOUR POST DON'T DEFINE
  • 00:16:05.888 --> 00:16:06.822
  • LIKES ON YOUR POST DON'T DEFINEYOUR IDENTITY.
  • 00:16:06.889 --> 00:16:08.090
  • YOUR IDENTITY.BUT, OVER TIME, PEOPLE WILL
  • 00:16:08.157 --> 00:16:09.458
  • BUT, OVER TIME, PEOPLE WILLBEGIN TO RECOGNIZE YOU, BUT
  • 00:16:09.525 --> 00:16:12.027
  • BEGIN TO RECOGNIZE YOU, BUTONLY IF YOU SHOW THEM WHO YOU
  • 00:16:12.094 --> 00:16:13.462
  • ONLY IF YOU SHOW THEM WHO YOUCOMPLETELY ARE.
  • 00:16:13.529 --> 00:16:15.097
  • COMPLETELY ARE.AND SO, CONSISTENCY AND TIME
  • 00:16:15.164 --> 00:16:17.433
  • AND SO, CONSISTENCY AND TIMEWILL SHAPE THE SPACE THAT GOD
  • 00:16:17.499 --> 00:16:19.134
  • WILL SHAPE THE SPACE THAT GODHAS FOR YOU TO BE.
  • 00:16:19.201 --> 00:16:21.270
  • HAS FOR YOU TO BE.HE DOESN'T WANT YOU TO BE
  • 00:16:21.336 --> 00:16:21.904
  • HE DOESN'T WANT YOU TO BECUTTING YOURSELF ALL UP IN
  • 00:16:21.970 --> 00:16:23.005
  • CUTTING YOURSELF ALL UP INPIECES.
  • 00:16:23.072 --> 00:16:23.572
  • PIECES.- HAVILAH: I LOVE THAT.
  • 00:16:23.639 --> 00:16:24.807
  • - HAVILAH: I LOVE THAT.- DR. ANITA: BE YOUR WHOLE
  • 00:16:24.873 --> 00:16:25.441
  • - DR. ANITA: BE YOUR WHOLESELF, CONSISTENTLY, AND IT WILL
  • 00:16:25.507 --> 00:16:26.108
  • SELF, CONSISTENTLY, AND IT WILLBE OKAY.
  • 00:16:26.175 --> 00:16:29.078
  • BE OKAY.- CECE: YEAH.
  • 00:16:29.144 --> 00:16:30.212
  • - CECE: YEAH.- DR. ANITA: YEAH.
  • 00:16:30.279 --> 00:16:30.879
  • - DR. ANITA: YEAH.- HAVILAH: AND IT'S EXHAUSTING
  • 00:16:30.946 --> 00:16:31.547
  • - HAVILAH: AND IT'S EXHAUSTINGTO...TO NOT KNOW WHO YOU WERE.
  • 00:16:31.613 --> 00:16:33.615
  • TO...TO NOT KNOW WHO YOU WERE.LIKE THEY SAID -- WHEN YOU TELL
  • 00:16:33.682 --> 00:16:34.383
  • LIKE THEY SAID -- WHEN YOU TELLTHE TRUTH, YOU DON'T HAVE TO
  • 00:16:34.450 --> 00:16:35.417
  • THE TRUTH, YOU DON'T HAVE TOREMEMBER WHO YOU ACTED LIKE YOU
  • 00:16:35.484 --> 00:16:36.118
  • REMEMBER WHO YOU ACTED LIKE YOUWERE.
  • 00:16:36.185 --> 00:16:37.920
  • WERE.- DR. ANITA: THERE YOU GO.
  • 00:16:37.986 --> 00:16:39.688
  • - DR. ANITA: THERE YOU GO.- HAVILAH: AND I THINK THAT'S
  • 00:16:39.755 --> 00:16:40.556
  • - HAVILAH: AND I THINK THAT'STHE THING -- LIKE, WHEN YOU
  • 00:16:40.622 --> 00:16:41.156
  • THE THING -- LIKE, WHEN YOUTELL THE TRUTH, THEN ANYWHERE
  • 00:16:41.223 --> 00:16:43.358
  • TELL THE TRUTH, THEN ANYWHEREYOU GO, YOU'RE THERE.
  • 00:16:43.425 --> 00:16:44.226
  • YOU GO, YOU'RE THERE.ALL I CAN RELATE IT TO-- AND
  • 00:16:44.293 --> 00:16:45.160
  • ALL I CAN RELATE IT TO-- ANDYOU MENTIONED THIS, 'CAUSE YOU
  • 00:16:45.227 --> 00:16:45.794
  • YOU MENTIONED THIS, 'CAUSE YOUSAID, "WOW, ALL OF A SUDDEN, I
  • 00:16:45.861 --> 00:16:47.129
  • SAID, "WOW, ALL OF A SUDDEN, IHAVE A PLATFORM THAT I DIDN'T
  • 00:16:47.196 --> 00:16:48.230
  • HAVE A PLATFORM THAT I DIDN'THAVE BEFORE."
  • 00:16:48.297 --> 00:16:48.831
  • HAVE BEFORE."I THINK ABOUT DAVID AS A YOUNG
  • 00:16:48.897 --> 00:16:49.932
  • I THINK ABOUT DAVID AS A YOUNGMAN, WHO WAS FIGHTING THE LION
  • 00:16:49.998 --> 00:16:51.767
  • MAN, WHO WAS FIGHTING THE LIONAND THE BEAR AND THEN GOLIATH
  • 00:16:51.834 --> 00:16:53.836
  • AND THE BEAR AND THEN GOLIATHCOMES, AND THEY'RE LIKE: WHO'S
  • 00:16:53.902 --> 00:16:55.537
  • COMES, AND THEY'RE LIKE: WHO'STHIS PUNK KID WHO THINKS HE CAN
  • 00:16:55.604 --> 00:16:56.805
  • THIS PUNK KID WHO THINKS HE CANKILL A GIANT?
  • 00:16:56.872 --> 00:16:57.806
  • KILL A GIANT?AND DAVID GOES: NO, NO -- THE
  • 00:16:57.873 --> 00:16:59.875
  • AND DAVID GOES: NO, NO -- THEGOD WHO DID WILL DO IT, AGAIN.
  • 00:16:59.942 --> 00:17:02.044
  • GOD WHO DID WILL DO IT, AGAIN.I'VE BEEN DOING THIS FOR A LONG
  • 00:17:02.111 --> 00:17:02.711
  • I'VE BEEN DOING THIS FOR A LONGTIME.
  • 00:17:02.778 --> 00:17:03.979
  • TIME.AND I THINK, YOU KNOW, IN
  • 00:17:04.046 --> 00:17:05.514
  • AND I THINK, YOU KNOW, INHOLLYWOOD, THEY SAY, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:17:05.581 --> 00:17:06.281
  • HOLLYWOOD, THEY SAY, YOU KNOW,OVERNIGHT SUCCESS TAKES 10
  • 00:17:06.348 --> 00:17:06.849
  • OVERNIGHT SUCCESS TAKES 10YEARS.
  • 00:17:06.915 --> 00:17:09.518
  • YEARS.AND I WANNA SAY THE SAME THING
  • 00:17:09.585 --> 00:17:10.119
  • AND I WANNA SAY THE SAME THINGIN THE KINGDOM.
  • 00:17:10.185 --> 00:17:10.619
  • IN THE KINGDOM.ANOINTING AND QUALITY OF
  • 00:17:10.686 --> 00:17:12.121
  • ANOINTING AND QUALITY OFCHARACTER AND INTEGRITY AND
  • 00:17:12.187 --> 00:17:14.156
  • CHARACTER AND INTEGRITY ANDYOU HAVING A PLATFORM THAT GETS
  • 00:17:14.223 --> 00:17:14.890
  • YOU HAVING A PLATFORM THAT GETSRAISED -- OUR GOAL IS NOT TO
  • 00:17:14.957 --> 00:17:16.859
  • RAISED -- OUR GOAL IS NOT TOBECOME SOMETHING BECAUSE OF THE
  • 00:17:16.925 --> 00:17:18.293
  • BECOME SOMETHING BECAUSE OF THEOPPORTUNITY.
  • 00:17:18.360 --> 00:17:21.363
  • OPPORTUNITY.OUR GOAL IS TO SIMPLY BE AND
  • 00:17:21.430 --> 00:17:21.964
  • OUR GOAL IS TO SIMPLY BE ANDOPPORTUNITIES COME AND GO.
  • 00:17:22.030 --> 00:17:24.299
  • OPPORTUNITIES COME AND GO.AND THEN, WHEN THEY LEAVE US,
  • 00:17:24.366 --> 00:17:26.368
  • AND THEN, WHEN THEY LEAVE US,COME OR GO.
  • 00:17:26.435 --> 00:17:26.869
  • COME OR GO.WE DON'T CHANGE BECAUSE WE
  • 00:17:26.935 --> 00:17:28.437
  • WE DON'T CHANGE BECAUSE WEDIDN'T CHANGE IN THE FIRST
  • 00:17:28.504 --> 00:17:30.172
  • DIDN'T CHANGE IN THE FIRSTPLACE, BECAUSE THE OPPORTUNITY
  • 00:17:30.239 --> 00:17:30.873
  • PLACE, BECAUSE THE OPPORTUNITYDIDN'T MAKE THE WOMAN OR THE
  • 00:17:30.939 --> 00:17:31.473
  • DIDN'T MAKE THE WOMAN OR THEMAN, RIGHT?
  • 00:17:31.540 --> 00:17:32.040
  • MAN, RIGHT?SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK, CECE?
  • 00:17:32.107 --> 00:17:34.076
  • SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK, CECE?HAVE YOU NOTICED THAT IN YOUR
  • 00:17:34.143 --> 00:17:34.710
  • HAVE YOU NOTICED THAT IN YOUROWN WORLD, AT ALL?
  • 00:17:34.776 --> 00:17:36.245
  • OWN WORLD, AT ALL?HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE A
  • 00:17:36.311 --> 00:17:37.079
  • HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE AMISFIT?
  • 00:17:37.146 --> 00:17:38.180
  • MISFIT?- CECE: OH, MY GOD -- YES.
  • 00:17:38.247 --> 00:17:38.780
  • - CECE: OH, MY GOD -- YES.I MEAN, EVERYTHING'S BEEN SO
  • 00:17:38.847 --> 00:17:40.149
  • I MEAN, EVERYTHING'S BEEN SOGOOD.
  • 00:17:40.215 --> 00:17:42.317
  • GOOD.I NEVER-- I HAVE NEVER FITTED
  • 00:17:42.384 --> 00:17:44.219
  • I NEVER-- I HAVE NEVER FITTEDIN.
  • 00:17:44.286 --> 00:17:45.053
  • IN.I'VE NEVER FELT LIKE I WAS
  • 00:17:45.120 --> 00:17:45.654
  • I'VE NEVER FELT LIKE I WASQUALIFIED.
  • 00:17:45.721 --> 00:17:46.255
  • QUALIFIED.BUT I LEARNED AT A VERY EARLY
  • 00:17:46.321 --> 00:17:49.024
  • BUT I LEARNED AT A VERY EARLYAGE-- AND, AGAIN, I'M SO
  • 00:17:49.091 --> 00:17:49.892
  • AGE-- AND, AGAIN, I'M SOGRATEFUL YOU BROUGHT UP DAVID.
  • 00:17:49.958 --> 00:17:50.893
  • GRATEFUL YOU BROUGHT UP DAVID.MY FIRST SOLO, I WAS PROBABLY
  • 00:17:50.959 --> 00:17:53.662
  • MY FIRST SOLO, I WAS PROBABLYABOUT 8 YEARS OLD.
  • 00:17:53.729 --> 00:17:55.230
  • ABOUT 8 YEARS OLD.I'VE NEVER-- I'VE ALWAYS HEARD
  • 00:17:55.297 --> 00:17:56.265
  • I'VE NEVER-- I'VE ALWAYS HEARDBETTER SINGERS.
  • 00:17:56.331 --> 00:17:57.799
  • BETTER SINGERS.I GREW UP IN DETROIT -- LET ME
  • 00:17:57.866 --> 00:17:59.001
  • I GREW UP IN DETROIT -- LET MEJUST SAY THAT, OKAY?
  • 00:17:59.067 --> 00:17:59.701
  • JUST SAY THAT, OKAY?MOTOWN.
  • 00:17:59.768 --> 00:18:01.470
  • MOTOWN.[HAVILAH LAUGHS]
  • 00:18:01.537 --> 00:18:02.070
  • [HAVILAH LAUGHS]ARETHA FRANKLIN.
  • 00:18:02.137 --> 00:18:02.604
  • ARETHA FRANKLIN.I'M TALKING SINGERS AND SINGERS
  • 00:18:02.671 --> 00:18:03.972
  • I'M TALKING SINGERS AND SINGERSAND SINGERS.
  • 00:18:04.039 --> 00:18:06.175
  • SO, I'VE NEVER HAD THE BIGGEST
  • 00:18:06.975 --> 00:18:07.543
  • SO, I'VE NEVER HAD THE BIGGESTVOICE, I'VE NEVER HAD THE
  • 00:18:07.609 --> 00:18:09.144
  • VOICE, I'VE NEVER HAD THEBIGGEST RANGE, BUT MY FIRST
  • 00:18:09.211 --> 00:18:11.914
  • BIGGEST RANGE, BUT MY FIRSTSOLO I WAS 8 YEARS OLD, AND MY
  • 00:18:11.980 --> 00:18:13.882
  • SOLO I WAS 8 YEARS OLD, AND MYPARENTS MADE ME SING.
  • 00:18:13.949 --> 00:18:15.584
  • PARENTS MADE ME SING.I DIDN'T WANNA SING.
  • 00:18:15.651 --> 00:18:16.785
  • I DIDN'T WANNA SING.NEVER WANTED TO BE OUT FRONT.
  • 00:18:16.852 --> 00:18:17.819
  • NEVER WANTED TO BE OUT FRONT.TO THIS DAY, MY FAVORITE PLACE
  • 00:18:17.886 --> 00:18:21.089
  • TO THIS DAY, MY FAVORITE PLACEIS BEING AT HOME.
  • 00:18:21.156 --> 00:18:23.192
  • BUT, WHEN I SANG THE SONG, THE
  • 00:18:24.092 --> 00:18:25.294
  • BUT, WHEN I SANG THE SONG, THESONG WAS "FILL MY CUP, LORD."
  • 00:18:25.360 --> 00:18:29.698
  • SONG WAS "FILL MY CUP, LORD."AND, I BEGAN TO CRY.
  • 00:18:29.765 --> 00:18:30.265
  • AND, I BEGAN TO CRY.'CAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO DO IT.
  • 00:18:30.332 --> 00:18:31.867
  • I WAS NERVOUS, I JUST--
  • 00:18:32.401 --> 00:18:32.868
  • I WAS NERVOUS, I JUST--BUT, YOU KNOW, IT WAS BACK THEN
  • 00:18:32.935 --> 00:18:34.002
  • BUT, YOU KNOW, IT WAS BACK THENWHEN THE OLDER PEOPLE SAW WHAT
  • 00:18:34.069 --> 00:18:35.704
  • WHEN THE OLDER PEOPLE SAW WHATWAS IN YOU, BEFORE YOU EVEN SAW
  • 00:18:35.771 --> 00:18:36.371
  • WAS IN YOU, BEFORE YOU EVEN SAWIT IN YOURSELF.
  • 00:18:36.438 --> 00:18:38.173
  • IT IN YOURSELF.AND IT WAS LIKE, "OH, NO,
  • 00:18:38.240 --> 00:18:38.707
  • AND IT WAS LIKE, "OH, NO,YOU'RE GONNA DO THE SONG."
  • 00:18:38.774 --> 00:18:39.474
  • YOU'RE GONNA DO THE SONG."I HAD NO SAY IN IT.
  • 00:18:39.541 --> 00:18:40.742
  • I HAD NO SAY IN IT.AND I REMEMBER THE KIDS IN
  • 00:18:40.809 --> 00:18:43.345
  • AND I REMEMBER THE KIDS INCHILDREN'S CHURCH -- THEY WERE
  • 00:18:43.412 --> 00:18:45.047
  • CHILDREN'S CHURCH -- THEY WERELAUGHING AT ME.
  • 00:18:45.113 --> 00:18:46.682
  • YOU KNOW, 'CAUSE I'M UP THERE:
  • 00:18:47.549 --> 00:18:48.116
  • YOU KNOW, 'CAUSE I'M UP THERE:[SINGING SHAKILY]
  • 00:18:48.183 --> 00:18:49.084
  • [SINGING SHAKILY]♪ FILL MY CUP, LORD ♪
  • 00:18:49.151 --> 00:18:49.585
  • ♪ FILL MY CUP, LORD ♪♪ I LIFT IT UP, LORD ♪
  • 00:18:49.651 --> 00:18:51.753
  • AND SO, HALFWAY THROUGH THE
  • 00:18:52.688 --> 00:18:53.222
  • AND SO, HALFWAY THROUGH THESONG, I BROKE DOWN CRYING, BUT
  • 00:18:53.288 --> 00:18:54.289
  • SONG, I BROKE DOWN CRYING, BUTI MADE IT THROUGH.
  • 00:18:54.356 --> 00:18:55.791
  • I MADE IT THROUGH.AND THEY MADE ME DO IT AGAIN,
  • 00:18:55.857 --> 00:18:56.525
  • AND THEY MADE ME DO IT AGAIN,THE NEXT YEAR.
  • 00:18:56.592 --> 00:18:57.426
  • THE NEXT YEAR.AND THEY MADE ME DO IT AGAIN,
  • 00:18:57.492 --> 00:18:58.627
  • AND THEY MADE ME DO IT AGAIN,THE NEXT YEAR.
  • 00:18:58.694 --> 00:18:59.761
  • THE NEXT YEAR.- HAVILAH: WOW...
  • 00:18:59.828 --> 00:19:02.364
  • - CECE: AND, SOONER OR LATER,
  • 00:19:02.931 --> 00:19:03.498
  • - CECE: AND, SOONER OR LATER,I STARTED REALIZING THAT IT WAS
  • 00:19:03.565 --> 00:19:04.666
  • I STARTED REALIZING THAT IT WASSO NOT ABOUT ME.
  • 00:19:04.733 --> 00:19:07.502
  • SO NOT ABOUT ME.YOU KNOW, BY THE AGE OF 10, I'M
  • 00:19:07.569 --> 00:19:08.170
  • YOU KNOW, BY THE AGE OF 10, I'MSEEING PEOPLE CRYING IN THE
  • 00:19:08.237 --> 00:19:10.672
  • SEEING PEOPLE CRYING IN THEAUDIENCE, I'M SEEING PEOPLE
  • 00:19:10.739 --> 00:19:12.207
  • AUDIENCE, I'M SEEING PEOPLEWORSHIPING GOD, AND I REALIZED
  • 00:19:12.274 --> 00:19:13.709
  • WORSHIPING GOD, AND I REALIZEDIT WAS SO NOT ABOUT MY GIFT,
  • 00:19:13.775 --> 00:19:16.478
  • IT WAS SO NOT ABOUT MY GIFT,BUT IT WAS ABOUT MY OBEDIENCE.
  • 00:19:16.545 --> 00:19:19.881
  • - DR. ANITA: YES!
  • 00:19:20.449 --> 00:19:21.016
  • - DR. ANITA: YES!- CECE: AND SO, I FELL IN LOVE
  • 00:19:21.083 --> 00:19:21.683
  • - CECE: AND SO, I FELL IN LOVEWITH GOD AS A KID.
  • 00:19:21.750 --> 00:19:22.417
  • WITH GOD AS A KID.AND I FELL IN LOVE WITH GOD,
  • 00:19:22.484 --> 00:19:23.585
  • AND I FELL IN LOVE WITH GOD,AND, IT WASN'T ABOUT MY GIFT.
  • 00:19:23.652 --> 00:19:24.953
  • AND, IT WASN'T ABOUT MY GIFT.AND HE BEGAN TO TRUST ME WITH
  • 00:19:25.020 --> 00:19:26.521
  • AND HE BEGAN TO TRUST ME WITHWHAT HE PUT INTO ME.
  • 00:19:26.588 --> 00:19:27.289
  • WHAT HE PUT INTO ME.AND SO, BEFORE I KNEW IT, I'M
  • 00:19:27.356 --> 00:19:28.890
  • AND SO, BEFORE I KNEW IT, I'MSINGING BEFORE THOUSANDS OF
  • 00:19:28.957 --> 00:19:29.691
  • SINGING BEFORE THOUSANDS OFPEOPLE.
  • 00:19:29.758 --> 00:19:30.459
  • PEOPLE.AND I'M JUST PRAYING, SAYING,
  • 00:19:30.525 --> 00:19:31.893
  • AND I'M JUST PRAYING, SAYING,"HOLY SPIRIT, I'M HERE, SO YOU
  • 00:19:31.960 --> 00:19:33.328
  • "HOLY SPIRIT, I'M HERE, SO YOUANOINT ME AND DO WHAT YOU WANNA
  • 00:19:33.395 --> 00:19:35.063
  • ANOINT ME AND DO WHAT YOU WANNADO," YOU KNOW?
  • 00:19:35.130 --> 00:19:37.566
  • DO," YOU KNOW?AND THEN, I SEE HIM MOVE.
  • 00:19:37.633 --> 00:19:39.167
  • AND SO, WHEN YOU REALIZE THAT,
  • 00:19:39.735 --> 00:19:40.836
  • AND SO, WHEN YOU REALIZE THAT,YOU KNOW, YOU ALSO REALIZE YOU
  • 00:19:40.902 --> 00:19:43.939
  • YOU KNOW, YOU ALSO REALIZE YOUWEREN'T BORN TO FIT IN.
  • 00:19:44.006 --> 00:19:45.007
  • WEREN'T BORN TO FIT IN.GOD DOESN'T WANT YOU TO FIT IN.
  • 00:19:45.073 --> 00:19:46.208
  • GOD DOESN'T WANT YOU TO FIT IN.YOU KNOW?
  • 00:19:46.275 --> 00:19:48.844
  • YOU KNOW?PRINCESSES DON'T FIT IN.
  • 00:19:48.910 --> 00:19:49.811
  • PRINCESSES DON'T FIT IN.YOU KNOW.
  • 00:19:49.878 --> 00:19:51.046
  • YOU KNOW.I WAS RAISED WITH NO PANTS, NO
  • 00:19:51.113 --> 00:19:52.914
  • I WAS RAISED WITH NO PANTS, NOMAKE-UP, HATS ON.
  • 00:19:52.981 --> 00:19:53.715
  • MAKE-UP, HATS ON.I ALWAYS-- I WENT TO SCHOOL
  • 00:19:53.782 --> 00:19:55.017
  • I ALWAYS-- I WENT TO SCHOOLWITH NO PANTS.
  • 00:19:55.083 --> 00:19:56.018
  • WITH NO PANTS.I NEVER FIT IN.
  • 00:19:56.084 --> 00:19:59.354
  • I NEVER FIT IN.BUT I HAD EVERYTHING TO DO WITH
  • 00:19:59.421 --> 00:20:00.022
  • BUT I HAD EVERYTHING TO DO WITHWHERE GOD WAS TAKING ME AND ME
  • 00:20:00.088 --> 00:20:01.023
  • WHERE GOD WAS TAKING ME AND MEUNDERSTANDING THAT IT'S NEVER
  • 00:20:01.089 --> 00:20:02.024
  • UNDERSTANDING THAT IT'S NEVERABOUT YOU.
  • 00:20:02.090 --> 00:20:03.825
  • ABOUT YOU.IT'S NEVER ABOUT YOU.
  • 00:20:03.892 --> 00:20:04.826
  • IT'S NEVER ABOUT YOU.AND WHEN WE EMBRACE WHAT GOD
  • 00:20:04.893 --> 00:20:07.829
  • AND WHEN WE EMBRACE WHAT GODWANTS US TO DO...
  • 00:20:07.896 --> 00:20:10.032
  • AND I WANNA SPEAK TO THE YOUNG
  • 00:20:10.832 --> 00:20:11.600
  • AND I WANNA SPEAK TO THE YOUNGPEOPLE, TODAY -- 'CAUSE IT'S
  • 00:20:11.667 --> 00:20:12.200
  • PEOPLE, TODAY -- 'CAUSE IT'SNOT ABOUT JUST BEING OLD.
  • 00:20:12.267 --> 00:20:13.335
  • NOT ABOUT JUST BEING OLD.I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM, A LONG
  • 00:20:13.402 --> 00:20:14.002
  • I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM, A LONGTIME AGO.
  • 00:20:14.069 --> 00:20:16.104
  • TIME AGO.- HAVILAH: COME ON.
  • 00:20:16.171 --> 00:20:16.672
  • - HAVILAH: COME ON.- CECE: SO, GOD WILL KEEP YOU
  • 00:20:16.738 --> 00:20:18.473
  • - CECE: SO, GOD WILL KEEP YOUIN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL.
  • 00:20:18.540 --> 00:20:20.342
  • IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL.HE'LL KEEP YOU IN JUNIOR HIGH.
  • 00:20:20.409 --> 00:20:23.178
  • HE'LL KEEP YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL.
  • 00:20:23.812 --> 00:20:24.379
  • HE'LL KEEP YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL.HE'LL KEEP YOU IN COLLEGE.
  • 00:20:24.446 --> 00:20:25.580
  • HE'LL KEEP YOU IN COLLEGE.HE'LL KEEP YOU AS A SINGLE--
  • 00:20:25.647 --> 00:20:26.181
  • HE'LL KEEP YOU AS A SINGLE--HE'LL KEEP YOU.
  • 00:20:26.248 --> 00:20:27.316
  • HE'LL KEEP YOU.BUT, YOU JUST HAVE TO BEGIN TO
  • 00:20:27.382 --> 00:20:28.684
  • BUT, YOU JUST HAVE TO BEGIN TOEMBRACE THOSE PRINCIPLES.
  • 00:20:28.750 --> 00:20:30.919
  • EMBRACE THOSE PRINCIPLES.YOU KNOW, EMBRACE THOSE
  • 00:20:30.986 --> 00:20:32.087
  • YOU KNOW, EMBRACE THOSEPRINCIPLES -- THE GENERATIONS.
  • 00:20:32.154 --> 00:20:35.524
  • YOU KNOW, ONE OF MY FAVORITE
  • 00:20:36.124 --> 00:20:37.025
  • YOU KNOW, ONE OF MY FAVORITEPEOPLE -- I USED TO HANG OUT
  • 00:20:37.092 --> 00:20:37.693
  • PEOPLE -- I USED TO HANG OUTWITH THE MOTHERS OF THE CHURCH.
  • 00:20:37.759 --> 00:20:39.728
  • SO, MY BEST FRIEND WAS MY
  • 00:20:40.429 --> 00:20:40.929
  • SO, MY BEST FRIEND WAS MYGRANDMOTHER.
  • 00:20:40.996 --> 00:20:42.130
  • GRANDMOTHER.YOU KNOW, I WOULD BE AT PRAYER
  • 00:20:42.197 --> 00:20:42.764
  • YOU KNOW, I WOULD BE AT PRAYERAT 6 A.M. IN THE MORNING, SO I
  • 00:20:42.831 --> 00:20:44.166
  • AT 6 A.M. IN THE MORNING, SO INEVER-- I HAVE NEVER FIT IN
  • 00:20:44.232 --> 00:20:45.600
  • NEVER-- I HAVE NEVER FIT INWITH MY FRIENDS; I'VE NEVER FIT
  • 00:20:45.667 --> 00:20:47.936
  • WITH MY FRIENDS; I'VE NEVER FITIN WITH PEOPLE MY AGE.
  • 00:20:48.003 --> 00:20:49.171
  • IN WITH PEOPLE MY AGE.BUT IT WAS ALL ABOUT EMBRACING
  • 00:20:49.237 --> 00:20:51.373
  • BUT IT WAS ALL ABOUT EMBRACINGTHE ANOINTING THAT WAS ON MY
  • 00:20:51.440 --> 00:20:53.408
  • THE ANOINTING THAT WAS ON MYLIFE.
  • 00:20:53.475 --> 00:20:55.210
  • AND...THEN, YOU START BEING
  • 00:20:56.278 --> 00:20:56.812
  • AND...THEN, YOU START BEINGCOMFORTABLE NOT FITTING IN.
  • 00:20:56.878 --> 00:20:59.081
  • COMFORTABLE NOT FITTING IN.AND YOU UNDERSTAND THAT IT'S A
  • 00:20:59.147 --> 00:21:00.015
  • AND YOU UNDERSTAND THAT IT'S APRIVILEGE NOT TO FIT IN.
  • 00:21:00.082 --> 00:21:01.016
  • PRIVILEGE NOT TO FIT IN.YOU UNDERSTAND THAT IT'S AN
  • 00:21:01.083 --> 00:21:03.618
  • YOU UNDERSTAND THAT IT'S ANHONOR NOT TO FIT IN WHEN WE
  • 00:21:03.685 --> 00:21:05.087
  • HONOR NOT TO FIT IN WHEN WEGIVE ALL OURSELVES TO HIM.
  • 00:21:05.153 --> 00:21:11.326
  • AND, AGAIN, GOING BACK TO EVEN
  • 00:21:11.993 --> 00:21:12.561
  • AND, AGAIN, GOING BACK TO EVENWHEN WE'RE TALKING ABOUT
  • 00:21:12.627 --> 00:21:13.128
  • WHEN WE'RE TALKING ABOUTREJECTION, IT'S NOT THAT IT
  • 00:21:13.195 --> 00:21:13.895
  • REJECTION, IT'S NOT THAT ITFEELS GOOD.
  • 00:21:13.962 --> 00:21:15.097
  • FEELS GOOD.IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD NOT TO FIT
  • 00:21:15.163 --> 00:21:15.764
  • IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD NOT TO FITIN.
  • 00:21:15.831 --> 00:21:16.665
  • IN.IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD ALL THE
  • 00:21:16.732 --> 00:21:18.900
  • IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD ALL THETIME NOT TO FIT IN.
  • 00:21:18.967 --> 00:21:20.535
  • TIME NOT TO FIT IN.BUT WHEN YOU SEE WHAT GOD
  • 00:21:20.602 --> 00:21:22.204
  • BUT WHEN YOU SEE WHAT GODDOES...EVEN WHEN YOU'RE
  • 00:21:22.270 --> 00:21:24.306
  • DOES...EVEN WHEN YOU'REUNCOMFORTABLE, YOU DON'T WANNA
  • 00:21:24.373 --> 00:21:25.674
  • UNCOMFORTABLE, YOU DON'T WANNASTOP THAT BECAUSE YOU'RE
  • 00:21:25.741 --> 00:21:27.142
  • STOP THAT BECAUSE YOU'REUNCOMFORTABLE.
  • 00:21:27.209 --> 00:21:28.777
  • LIKE HOLLY SAID, IT'S NOT ABOUT
  • 00:21:29.311 --> 00:21:29.945
  • LIKE HOLLY SAID, IT'S NOT ABOUTUS; IT'S ABOUT THOSE WHO ARE
  • 00:21:30.011 --> 00:21:31.146
  • US; IT'S ABOUT THOSE WHO ARECOMING AFTER US AND IT'S ABOUT
  • 00:21:31.213 --> 00:21:33.048
  • COMING AFTER US AND IT'S ABOUTALL THE PEOPLE THAT GOD WANTS
  • 00:21:33.115 --> 00:21:34.149
  • ALL THE PEOPLE THAT GOD WANTSTO TOUCH THROUGH US, EVEN IF WE
  • 00:21:34.216 --> 00:21:36.885
  • TO TOUCH THROUGH US, EVEN IF WEDON'T FIT IN.
  • 00:21:36.952 --> 00:21:38.019
  • DON'T FIT IN.YOU KNOW?
  • 00:21:38.086 --> 00:21:41.156
  • YOU KNOW?- HAVILAH: YEP.
  • 00:21:41.223 --> 00:21:42.090
  • - HAVILAH: YEP.- CECE: THE ANOINTING HAS
  • 00:21:42.157 --> 00:21:42.657
  • - CECE: THE ANOINTING HASNEVER FIT IN.
  • 00:21:42.724 --> 00:21:43.525
  • NEVER FIT IN.[LAUGHS]
  • 00:21:43.592 --> 00:21:46.128
  • [LAUGHS]- DR. ANITA: COME ON.
  • 00:21:46.194 --> 00:21:46.928
  • - DR. ANITA: COME ON.- CECE: YOU KNOW -- IT ALWAYS
  • 00:21:46.995 --> 00:21:47.562
  • - CECE: YOU KNOW -- IT ALWAYSSTANDS OUT.
  • 00:21:47.629 --> 00:21:47.896
  • STANDS OUT.IT'S ALWAYS DIFFERENT.
  • 00:21:47.963 --> 00:21:49.898
  • AND IT'S ALWAYS SOMETHING THAT
  • 00:21:50.399 --> 00:21:50.966
  • AND IT'S ALWAYS SOMETHING THATYOU HAVE TO GUARD AND YOU HAVE
  • 00:21:51.032 --> 00:21:52.934
  • YOU HAVE TO GUARD AND YOU HAVETO BEGIN TO SEE THE VALUE OF
  • 00:21:53.001 --> 00:21:54.836
  • TO BEGIN TO SEE THE VALUE OFWHAT YOU CARRY.
  • 00:21:54.903 --> 00:21:56.171
  • WHAT YOU CARRY.AND WHEN YOU REALLY GET A
  • 00:21:56.238 --> 00:21:57.439
  • AND WHEN YOU REALLY GET AGLIMPSE OF THAT, IT REALLY
  • 00:21:57.506 --> 00:21:58.373
  • GLIMPSE OF THAT, IT REALLYDOESN'T MATTER ABOUT FITTING
  • 00:21:58.440 --> 00:21:58.974
  • DOESN'T MATTER ABOUT FITTINGIN.
  • 00:21:59.040 --> 00:22:00.275
  • I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT FITTING
  • 00:22:00.942 --> 00:22:01.543
  • I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT FITTINGIN.
  • 00:22:01.610 --> 00:22:02.644
  • IN.- DR. ANITA: AMEN.
  • 00:22:02.711 --> 00:22:03.645
  • - DR. ANITA: AMEN.- HOLLY: YOU KNOW, BUT THEN,
  • 00:22:03.712 --> 00:22:04.312
  • - HOLLY: YOU KNOW, BUT THEN,WHAT'S ALSO GREAT -- RIGHT? --
  • 00:22:04.379 --> 00:22:05.747
  • IS THAT HERE WE ALL ARE, RIGHT?
  • 00:22:06.581 --> 00:22:07.682
  • IS THAT HERE WE ALL ARE, RIGHT?WE'RE TOGETHER AND THERE ARE
  • 00:22:07.749 --> 00:22:08.483
  • WE'RE TOGETHER AND THERE AREPEOPLE WATCHING, AND WE'RE
  • 00:22:08.550 --> 00:22:09.017
  • PEOPLE WATCHING, AND WE'REACKNOWLEDGING THAT WE'RE A
  • 00:22:09.084 --> 00:22:10.752
  • ACKNOWLEDGING THAT WE'RE ALITTLE BIT OF THE MISFITS.
  • 00:22:10.819 --> 00:22:12.287
  • LITTLE BIT OF THE MISFITS.BUT YOU FIND OTHER...MISFITS.
  • 00:22:12.354 --> 00:22:13.722
  • BUT YOU FIND OTHER...MISFITS.AND YOU GO, "OH, YAY!"
  • 00:22:13.789 --> 00:22:15.424
  • AND YOU GO, "OH, YAY!"SO, WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER.
  • 00:22:15.490 --> 00:22:19.161
  • - CECE: YEAH, AND I REALLY
  • 00:22:20.195 --> 00:22:20.729
  • - CECE: YEAH, AND I REALLYTHINK IT'S GOD'S WAY.
  • 00:22:20.796 --> 00:22:21.930
  • THINK IT'S GOD'S WAY.- HOLLY: WE'RE ALL A LITTLE
  • 00:22:21.997 --> 00:22:24.299
  • - HOLLY: WE'RE ALL A LITTLEBIT--
  • 00:22:24.366 --> 00:22:25.033
  • BIT--- CECE: I THINK IT'S HIS WAY.
  • 00:22:25.100 --> 00:22:25.801
  • - CECE: I THINK IT'S HIS WAY.WHEN YOU LOOK THROUGHOUT
  • 00:22:25.867 --> 00:22:26.334
  • WHEN YOU LOOK THROUGHOUTSCRIPTURE, SOME OF OUR GREATEST
  • 00:22:26.401 --> 00:22:27.169
  • SCRIPTURE, SOME OF OUR GREATESTHEROES -- NONE OF 'EM FIT IN.
  • 00:22:27.235 --> 00:22:28.069
  • HEROES -- NONE OF 'EM FIT IN.I MEAN, JOSEPH.
  • 00:22:28.136 --> 00:22:30.472
  • I MEAN, JOSEPH.YOU TALKED ABOUT DAVID.
  • 00:22:30.539 --> 00:22:31.139
  • YOU TALKED ABOUT DAVID.GIDEON.
  • 00:22:31.206 --> 00:22:31.706
  • GIDEON.YOU KNOW?
  • 00:22:31.773 --> 00:22:33.175
  • AND I DO BELIEVE THAT GOD WILL
  • 00:22:34.276 --> 00:22:34.843
  • AND I DO BELIEVE THAT GOD WILLCHOOSE THOSE PEOPLE WHO
  • 00:22:34.910 --> 00:22:36.378
  • CHOOSE THOSE PEOPLE WHOUNDERSTAND THAT, YOU KNOW:
  • 00:22:36.445 --> 00:22:37.212
  • UNDERSTAND THAT, YOU KNOW:WITHOUT HIM, I'M NOTHING.
  • 00:22:37.279 --> 00:22:38.647
  • WITHOUT HIM, I'M NOTHING.I'M ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
  • 00:22:38.713 --> 00:22:41.450
  • - HAVILAH: I WAS THINKING
  • 00:22:42.083 --> 00:22:42.584
  • - HAVILAH: I WAS THINKINGABOUT HOW I WOULD COME HOME
  • 00:22:42.651 --> 00:22:44.419
  • ABOUT HOW I WOULD COME HOMEFROM SCHOOL AND MY MOM USED TO
  • 00:22:44.486 --> 00:22:45.854
  • FROM SCHOOL AND MY MOM USED TOSAY, "YOU KNOW, HAVILAH,
  • 00:22:45.921 --> 00:22:47.222
  • SAY, "YOU KNOW, HAVILAH,THERE'S A CALL ON YOUR LIFE."
  • 00:22:47.289 --> 00:22:49.357
  • THERE'S A CALL ON YOUR LIFE."AND WHEN I WOULD GET TO THE
  • 00:22:49.424 --> 00:22:50.659
  • AND WHEN I WOULD GET TO THEPOINT WHERE SHE WOULD TRY TO
  • 00:22:50.725 --> 00:22:52.194
  • POINT WHERE SHE WOULD TRY TOTELL ME, "WELL, THIS IS WHAT IT
  • 00:22:52.260 --> 00:22:53.195
  • TELL ME, "WELL, THIS IS WHAT ITLOOKS LIKE TO BE A BELIEVER,
  • 00:22:53.261 --> 00:22:55.330
  • LOOKS LIKE TO BE A BELIEVER,AND THIS IS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE
  • 00:22:55.397 --> 00:22:56.665
  • AND THIS IS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKETO BE A LEADER," I WOULD CRY.
  • 00:22:56.731 --> 00:22:57.299
  • TO BE A LEADER," I WOULD CRY.AND MY MOM SAID THERE WAS
  • 00:22:57.365 --> 00:22:58.533
  • AND MY MOM SAID THERE WASALWAYS THIS POINT WHEN SHE HAD
  • 00:22:58.600 --> 00:23:00.001
  • ALWAYS THIS POINT WHEN SHE HADUS AS TEEN GIRLS WHERE THERE
  • 00:23:00.068 --> 00:23:02.304
  • US AS TEEN GIRLS WHERE THEREWAS THIS WAR.
  • 00:23:02.370 --> 00:23:03.872
  • WAS THIS WAR.IF YOU EVER LIVE WITH A TEEN,
  • 00:23:03.939 --> 00:23:04.506
  • IF YOU EVER LIVE WITH A TEEN,YOU UNDERSTAND THIS, WHERE
  • 00:23:04.573 --> 00:23:05.474
  • YOU UNDERSTAND THIS, WHEREIT'S: "I'M NOT GONNA DO WHAT
  • 00:23:05.540 --> 00:23:06.575
  • IT'S: "I'M NOT GONNA DO WHATYOU WANT ME TO DO."
  • 00:23:06.641 --> 00:23:07.142
  • YOU WANT ME TO DO."AND, THERE'S THIS BATTLE!
  • 00:23:07.209 --> 00:23:08.043
  • AND, THERE'S THIS BATTLE!AND SHE SAID: "WHEN I WOULD
  • 00:23:08.109 --> 00:23:09.211
  • AND SHE SAID: "WHEN I WOULDFEEL THAT BATTLE, I'D BEGIN TO
  • 00:23:09.277 --> 00:23:10.745
  • FEEL THAT BATTLE, I'D BEGIN TOSPEAK TO YOUR SPIRIT -- NOT
  • 00:23:10.812 --> 00:23:12.280
  • SPEAK TO YOUR SPIRIT -- NOTYOUR MIND, NOT THE ATMOSPHERE.
  • 00:23:12.347 --> 00:23:13.548
  • YOUR MIND, NOT THE ATMOSPHERE.I WOULD SPEAK TO YOUR SPIRIT.
  • 00:23:13.615 --> 00:23:15.817
  • I WOULD SPEAK TO YOUR SPIRIT.AND I WOULD SAY, 'YOU ARE A
  • 00:23:15.884 --> 00:23:17.986
  • AND I WOULD SAY, 'YOU ARE ALEADER, YOU ARE CALLED, YOU ARE
  • 00:23:18.053 --> 00:23:18.753
  • LEADER, YOU ARE CALLED, YOU ARESET APART, YOU DON'T NEED TO
  • 00:23:18.820 --> 00:23:20.055
  • SET APART, YOU DON'T NEED TOWORRY ABOUT THAT, RIGHT NOW.
  • 00:23:20.121 --> 00:23:21.323
  • WORRY ABOUT THAT, RIGHT NOW.THERE'S A PURPOSE IN THIS."
  • 00:23:21.389 --> 00:23:23.758
  • THERE'S A PURPOSE IN THIS."AND SHE SAID, "WHEN I WOULD
  • 00:23:23.825 --> 00:23:24.659
  • AND SHE SAID, "WHEN I WOULDSPEAK TO YOUR SPIRIT, I WOULD
  • 00:23:24.726 --> 00:23:25.827
  • SPEAK TO YOUR SPIRIT, I WOULDFEEL ALL THAT SOFTNESS IN YOUR
  • 00:23:25.894 --> 00:23:27.462
  • FEEL ALL THAT SOFTNESS IN YOURHEART BEGIN TO CHANGE --
  • 00:23:27.529 --> 00:23:29.197
  • BECAUSE YOU'RE A SPIRIT!
  • 00:23:29.764 --> 00:23:30.532
  • BECAUSE YOU'RE A SPIRIT!THAT'S WHO YOU ARE."
  • 00:23:30.599 --> 00:23:31.299
  • THAT'S WHO YOU ARE."AND SO, I JUST WANNA...I WANNA
  • 00:23:31.366 --> 00:23:31.933
  • AND SO, I JUST WANNA...I WANNASPEAK THAT OVER EVERY PERSON
  • 00:23:32.000 --> 00:23:34.269
  • SPEAK THAT OVER EVERY PERSONTHAT'S WATCHING THIS, TODAY.
  • 00:23:34.336 --> 00:23:36.771
  • THAT'S WATCHING THIS, TODAY.IF YOU'RE IN A BATTLE, RIGHT
  • 00:23:36.838 --> 00:23:37.839
  • IF YOU'RE IN A BATTLE, RIGHTNOW, OF WONDERING WHERE YOUR
  • 00:23:37.906 --> 00:23:38.773
  • NOW, OF WONDERING WHERE YOURSIGNIFICANCE IS; OR YOU FEEL
  • 00:23:38.840 --> 00:23:40.242
  • SIGNIFICANCE IS; OR YOU FEELINVISIBLE, YOU KNOW; YOU FEEL,
  • 00:23:40.308 --> 00:23:41.776
  • INVISIBLE, YOU KNOW; YOU FEEL,LIKE, INSIGNIFICANT; YOU MIGHT
  • 00:23:41.843 --> 00:23:43.812
  • LIKE, INSIGNIFICANT; YOU MIGHTEVEN FEEL LIKE "YOU KNOW, I HAD
  • 00:23:43.879 --> 00:23:45.213
  • EVEN FEEL LIKE "YOU KNOW, I HADSOME REALLY GOOD DAYS BUT MY
  • 00:23:45.280 --> 00:23:46.915
  • SOME REALLY GOOD DAYS BUT MYGLORY DAYS ARE BEHIND ME, AND I
  • 00:23:46.982 --> 00:23:48.049
  • GLORY DAYS ARE BEHIND ME, AND IDON'T KNOW WHERE I AM RIGHT
  • 00:23:48.116 --> 00:23:50.418
  • DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM RIGHTNOW" AND YOU'RE BATTLING WITH
  • 00:23:50.485 --> 00:23:51.052
  • NOW" AND YOU'RE BATTLING WITHTHAT, I JUST WANNA SPEAK TO YOU
  • 00:23:51.119 --> 00:23:53.221
  • THAT, I JUST WANNA SPEAK TO YOUTHAT YOU ARE...YOU ARE HERE ON
  • 00:23:53.288 --> 00:23:55.223
  • THAT YOU ARE...YOU ARE HERE ONPURPOSE.
  • 00:23:55.290 --> 00:23:56.825
  • YOU KNOW, I JUST QUOTE THAT
  • 00:23:57.492 --> 00:23:58.260
  • YOU KNOW, I JUST QUOTE THATQUOTE THAT SAYS JUST YOU BEING
  • 00:23:58.326 --> 00:23:59.928
  • QUOTE THAT SAYS JUST YOU BEINGBORN IS EVIDENCE THAT YOU
  • 00:23:59.995 --> 00:24:02.998
  • BORN IS EVIDENCE THAT YOUPOSSESS SOMETHING THIS
  • 00:24:03.064 --> 00:24:04.833
  • POSSESS SOMETHING THISGENERATION NEEDS.
  • 00:24:04.900 --> 00:24:06.735
  • GENERATION NEEDS.AND I DECLARE THAT OVER YOU,
  • 00:24:06.801 --> 00:24:07.335
  • AND I DECLARE THAT OVER YOU,RIGHT NOW.
  • 00:24:07.402 --> 00:24:08.603
  • THE FACT THAT YOU ARE ALIVE AND
  • 00:24:09.204 --> 00:24:10.071
  • THE FACT THAT YOU ARE ALIVE ANDBREATHING AND STILL ON THE
  • 00:24:10.138 --> 00:24:11.373
  • BREATHING AND STILL ON THEEARTH TELLS ME THAT THERE IS
  • 00:24:11.439 --> 00:24:13.074
  • EARTH TELLS ME THAT THERE ISPURPOSE IN YOUR LIFE AND THERE
  • 00:24:13.141 --> 00:24:14.576
  • PURPOSE IN YOUR LIFE AND THEREARE PEOPLE WAITING FOR YOU.
  • 00:24:14.643 --> 00:24:16.444
  • ARE PEOPLE WAITING FOR YOU.SO, LORD, I ASK, RIGHT NOW,
  • 00:24:16.511 --> 00:24:19.114
  • SO, LORD, I ASK, RIGHT NOW,THAT WE WOULD LOOK PAST OUR OWN
  • 00:24:19.180 --> 00:24:19.781
  • THAT WE WOULD LOOK PAST OUR OWNINADEQUACIES, AND OUR OWN
  • 00:24:19.848 --> 00:24:21.816
  • INADEQUACIES, AND OUR OWNHESITANCIES, AND OUR OWN LACKS,
  • 00:24:21.883 --> 00:24:25.820
  • HESITANCIES, AND OUR OWN LACKS,AND WE WOULD SAY: GOD, I
  • 00:24:25.887 --> 00:24:26.821
  • AND WE WOULD SAY: GOD, IBELIEVE THAT THERE IS SOMEONE
  • 00:24:26.888 --> 00:24:27.455
  • BELIEVE THAT THERE IS SOMEONEWAITING FOR ME, ON THE OTHER
  • 00:24:27.522 --> 00:24:29.157
  • WAITING FOR ME, ON THE OTHERSIDE OF MY OBEDIENCE.
  • 00:24:29.224 --> 00:24:31.426
  • LIKE HOLLY SAID, I DON'T WANNA
  • 00:24:31.993 --> 00:24:32.561
  • LIKE HOLLY SAID, I DON'T WANNABE AN OLD LADY THAT'S BURIED IN
  • 00:24:32.627 --> 00:24:33.929
  • BE AN OLD LADY THAT'S BURIED INMY OWN LIFE, FULL OF OFFENCE
  • 00:24:33.995 --> 00:24:35.564
  • MY OWN LIFE, FULL OF OFFENCEAND AFRAID.
  • 00:24:35.630 --> 00:24:37.232
  • AND AFRAID.BUT I WANNA CONTINUE TO HAVE A
  • 00:24:37.299 --> 00:24:38.800
  • BUT I WANNA CONTINUE TO HAVE AHEART THAT'S ALIVE AND WILLING
  • 00:24:38.867 --> 00:24:40.035
  • HEART THAT'S ALIVE AND WILLINGAND OPEN AND HUNGRY AND...
  • 00:24:40.101 --> 00:24:40.902
  • AND OPEN AND HUNGRY AND...READY.
  • 00:24:40.969 --> 00:24:43.171
  • READY.SO, I PRAY, RIGHT NOW, SOFTEN
  • 00:24:43.238 --> 00:24:44.005
  • SO, I PRAY, RIGHT NOW, SOFTENOUR HEARTS.
  • 00:24:44.072 --> 00:24:44.906
  • OUR HEARTS.GOD, IF THIS LAST YEAR HAS
  • 00:24:44.973 --> 00:24:46.875
  • GOD, IF THIS LAST YEAR HASTAUGHT US ANYTHING, IT IS ABOUT
  • 00:24:46.942 --> 00:24:49.945
  • TAUGHT US ANYTHING, IT IS ABOUTSOFTENING OUR HEARTS AND BEING
  • 00:24:50.011 --> 00:24:50.812
  • SOFTENING OUR HEARTS AND BEINGCURIOUS AND LEARNING AND
  • 00:24:50.879 --> 00:24:51.613
  • CURIOUS AND LEARNING ANDLISTENING.
  • 00:24:51.680 --> 00:24:53.648
  • SO, GOD, I THANK YOU THAT WE
  • 00:24:54.616 --> 00:24:55.116
  • SO, GOD, I THANK YOU THAT WEMAY NOT FIT IN WITH EVERYBODY
  • 00:24:55.183 --> 00:24:56.084
  • MAY NOT FIT IN WITH EVERYBODYAROUND US, BUT WE FIT IN WITH
  • 00:24:56.151 --> 00:24:58.453
  • AROUND US, BUT WE FIT IN WITHTHE KING OF KINGS, AND THE LORD
  • 00:24:58.520 --> 00:24:59.788
  • THE KING OF KINGS, AND THE LORDOF ALL, AND THE CREATOR OF THE
  • 00:24:59.854 --> 00:25:02.090
  • OF ALL, AND THE CREATOR OF THEUNIVERSE, AND THE ONE THAT WE
  • 00:25:02.157 --> 00:25:03.592
  • UNIVERSE, AND THE ONE THAT WEWILL END UP WITH IN ALL
  • 00:25:03.658 --> 00:25:04.459
  • WILL END UP WITH IN ALLETERNITY.
  • 00:25:04.526 --> 00:25:05.360
  • ETERNITY.SO, WE BLESS YOU, GOD, IN
  • 00:25:05.427 --> 00:25:06.895
  • SO, WE BLESS YOU, GOD, INJESUS' MIGHTY NAME, AMEN AND
  • 00:25:06.962 --> 00:25:08.196
  • JESUS' MIGHTY NAME, AMEN ANDAMEN.
  • 00:25:08.263 --> 00:25:10.231
  • AMEN.- CECE: AMEN...
  • 00:25:10.298 --> 00:25:11.633
  • - CECE: AMEN...- CHRISTINE: AMEN.
  • 00:25:11.700 --> 00:25:13.301
  • - CHRISTINE: AMEN.- DR. ANITA: AMEN...AMEN,
  • 00:25:13.368 --> 00:25:13.835
  • - DR. ANITA: AMEN...AMEN,AMEN.
  • 00:25:13.902 --> 00:25:14.636
  • AMEN.- HOLLY: AMEN.
  • 00:25:14.703 --> 00:25:16.571
  • - HOLLY: AMEN.- LAURIE: CONNECT WITH US ON
  • 00:25:16.638 --> 00:25:17.272
  • - LAURIE: CONNECT WITH US ONSOCIAL MEDIA AND LET US KNOW
  • 00:25:17.339 --> 00:25:18.006
  • SOCIAL MEDIA AND LET US KNOWHOW OUR TEAM CAN PRAY FOR YOU.
  • 00:25:18.073 --> 00:25:21.076
  • HOW OUR TEAM CAN PRAY FOR YOU.[NEW MUSIC]
  • 00:25:21.142 --> 00:25:22.043
  • [NEW MUSIC]YOU CAN WATCH
  • 00:25:22.110 --> 00:25:22.877
  • YOU CAN WATCH"BETTER TOGETHER" EPISODES
  • 00:25:22.944 --> 00:25:23.445
  • "BETTER TOGETHER" EPISODESON-DEMAND.
  • 00:25:23.511 --> 00:25:24.446
  • ON-DEMAND.GO TO: BETTERTOGETHER.TV TO
  • 00:25:24.512 --> 00:25:27.349
  • GO TO: BETTERTOGETHER.TV TOSTREAMS ALL OF OUR LATEST
  • 00:25:27.415 --> 00:25:28.216
  • STREAMS ALL OF OUR LATESTCONVERSATIONS.
  • 00:25:28.283 --> 00:25:32.787
  • CONVERSATIONS.NEXT TIME ON "BETTER TOGETHER":
  • 00:25:32.854 --> 00:25:34.756
  • NEXT TIME ON "BETTER TOGETHER":- HOSANNA WONG: BUT THEN,
  • 00:25:34.823 --> 00:25:35.390
  • - HOSANNA WONG: BUT THEN,HAVING A HUSBAND AND REALIZING:
  • 00:25:35.457 --> 00:25:36.257
  • HAVING A HUSBAND AND REALIZING:WE'RE GONNA CHOOSE EACH OTHER,
  • 00:25:36.324 --> 00:25:37.392
  • WE'RE GONNA CHOOSE EACH OTHER,EVEN WHEN I'M NOT MAKING YOU
  • 00:25:37.459 --> 00:25:38.793
  • EVEN WHEN I'M NOT MAKING YOUFEEL LIKE YOU WANNA LOVE ME,
  • 00:25:38.860 --> 00:25:39.594
  • FEEL LIKE YOU WANNA LOVE ME,RIGHT NOW -- THIS CHOICE THAT
  • 00:25:39.661 --> 00:25:41.796
  • RIGHT NOW -- THIS CHOICE THATWE'RE MAKING ACTIVELY THAT GOES
  • 00:25:41.863 --> 00:25:43.164
  • WE'RE MAKING ACTIVELY THAT GOESBEYOND OUR FEELINGS.
  • 00:25:43.231 --> 00:25:46.901
  • BEYOND OUR FEELINGS.- LAURIE: WATCH "BETTER
  • 00:25:46.968 --> 00:25:47.535
  • - LAURIE: WATCH "BETTERTOGETHER" WEEKDAYS AND TUESDAY
  • 00:25:47.602 --> 00:25:48.236
  • TOGETHER" WEEKDAYS AND TUESDAYNIGHTS, ONLY ON TBN.
  • 00:25:48.303 --> 00:25:52.707