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November 3, 2019
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Bethel Presents Heaven to Earth

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Leap into Love Part 1

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  • [ENERGETIC MUSIC]
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  • [MUSIC]
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  • - HAVILAH CUNNINGTON: WHAT
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  • HAPPENS WHEN WE BEGIN TO HAVE
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  • GOD CONFIDENCE AND A SELF-
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  • ACCEPTANCE FOR HOW WE WERE
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  • CREATED, IT MORPHS INTO US
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  • BECOMING PRESENT TO OUR PURPOSE
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  • ON THE PLANET.
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  • IN MY OWN LIFE, I GO INTO LIFE,
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  • DOING THE RIGHT THING AT THE
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  • RIGHT TIME FOR THE
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  • RIGHT PEOPLE.
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  • AND YET, NOT BELONGING
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  • - KRIS VALLOTTON: HI, I'M KRIS
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  • VALLOTTON AND I'M SO HAPPY FOR
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  • BETHEL TO BE A PART OF THE
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  • TBN FAMILY.
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  • FROM TIME TO TIME, WE LOVE TO
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  • HAVE SOME OF OUR FRIENDS AT
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  • BETHEL SHARE POWERFUL MESSAGES
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  • FROM THE PULPIT.
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  • AND, TODAY, I HAVE THE
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  • PRIVILEGE OF INTRODUCING AND
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  • INSPIRING A THREE-PART MESSAGE
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  • FROM HAVILAH CUNNINGTON ON THE
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  • THEME OF IDENTITY.
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  • IN PART ONE OF THIS MESSAGE,
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  • HAVILAH SPEAKS TO WOMEN'S TRUE
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  • IDENTITY, AND SHE HIGHLIGHTS
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  • THE SYMPTOMS OF SELF-REJECTION,
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  • AND ENCOURAGES HEALING FROM THE
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  • OBSESSION OF OUR APPEARANCE.
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  • LADIES, YOU WON'T
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  • WANNA MISS THIS.
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  • AND, GENTLEMEN, THESE POWERFUL
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  • KINGDOM PRINCIPLES WILL HELP
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  • YOU BETTER UNDERSTAND YOUR OWN
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  • IDENTITY IN CHRIST AND THE TRUE
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  • IDENTITY OF THE MOST IMPORTANT
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  • TO GROW IN ALL THESE AREAS AND
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  • MORE, BE SURE TO GET YOUR
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  • OWN COPY OF OUR BETHEL
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  • REVIVAL RESOURCES ENTITLED
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  • "KINGDOM INHERITANCE,"
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  • AND "SONS & DAUGHTERS,"
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  • AND MY OWN WORKBOOK
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  • "THE SUPERNATURAL
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  • WAYS OF ROYALTY,"
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  • WHERE WE GO MUCH DEEPER
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  • ON TOPICS LIKE YOUR
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  • AUTHORITY AND IDENTITY IN
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  • CHRIST AND WHAT IT MEANS TO
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  • BE A SON OR DAUGHTER OF GOD.
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  • ENJOY THIS MESSAGE BY
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  • HAVILAH CUNNINGTON ON IDENTITY
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  • [APPLAUSE]
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  • - HAVILAH: SO WE GET THIS
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  • PASTOR IN OUR CHURCH, YEARS
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  • AGO.
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  • AND PASTOR BOB ONCE TOLD THIS
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  • STORY OF WHEN HE WAS PREACHING.
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  • AND IT WAS ONE OF THOSE
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  • STORIES-- DO YOU EVER HAVE
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  • SOMEBODY IN YOUR LIFE WHERE YOU
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  • HAVE A FAVORITE STORY THAT THEY
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  • SHARE AND YOU WANT THEM TO
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  • SHARE IT ALL THE TIME?
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  • DO YOU EVER HAVE ANYONE
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  • LIKE THAT?
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  • AND THIS WAS THE STORY.
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  • AND I WOULD ALWAYS ASK HIM TO
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  • SHARE THIS STORY.
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  • HE SAID HE WAS PASTORING A
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  • CHURCH UP IN SEATTLE.
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  • AND HE WAS TEACHING ON
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  • THE TOPIC OF SIN.
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  • HE WAS TEACHING ON THIS AND HE
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  • HAD A THRIVING COLLEGE
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  • COMMUNITY AND THEY HAD
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  • MULTIPLE SERVICES.
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  • AND-- SO, HE WAS REALLY TRYING
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  • TO TEACH THEM IN, LIKE,
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  • YOU KNOW,
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  • A BIBLICAL CHARACTER AND
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  • WHAT THAT LOOKED LIKE,
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  • AND SIN AND...
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  • BUT HE SAID AS HE BEGAN TO
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  • TEACH ON SIN, THE ROOM KIND
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  • OF FROZE UP.
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  • THEY DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT TO
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  • RESPOND BECAUSE WHO WANTS TO
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  • AMEN DURING SOMEONE TEACHING
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  • ON SIN, RIGHT?
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  • SO, HE SAID AT ONE MOMENT, HE
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  • REALIZED THAT THE ROOM WASN'T
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  • ENGAGING HIM.
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  • SO, HE JUST KIND OF HAD, LIKE,
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  • A SPONTANEOUS MOMENT.
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  • HE GOES, "WELL, LET'S JUST SEE
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  • WHAT KIND OF SINS YOU
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  • DEAL WITH."
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  • AND SO, HE JUMPS OFF THE STAGE
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  • AND PUTS A MIC IN THE FIRST
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  • PERSON'S FACE.
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  • RIGHT?
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  • AND HE SAID THE PERSON WAS SO
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  • SHOCKED, THEY COULDN'T
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  • HE SAID IT, LITERALLY, IT WAS,
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  • LIKE, CAUGHT.
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  • SO, HE'S LIKE: "WELL,
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  • FORGET YOU.
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  • LET'S GO TO THE NEXT PERSON."
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  • AND HE SHOVES THE MIC
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  • AND THE PERSON GOES,
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  • "S-S-SELF-SUFFICIENCY."
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  • [LAUGHTER]
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  • 'CAUSE IT WAS, LIKE, ALL THEY
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  • COULD THINK OF AS LIKE A NORMAL
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  • THING TO SAY IN FRONT
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  • OF EVERYBODY.
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  • LIKE: HOW BAD CAN THAT BE,
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  • SELF-SUFFICIENCY?
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  • AND SO, HE SAID HE WENT HOME
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  • BETWEEN SERVICES AND HIS WIFE
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  • SAID: "DON'T YOU EVER DO THAT
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  • AGAIN TO OUR COMMUNITY.
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  • WE ARE NOT SHAMING PEOPLE INTO
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  • DOING THE RIGHT THING."
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  • AND AS I THINK ABOUT THAT
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  • STORY, I THINK ABOUT THE FACT
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  • THAT WHEN WE START TALKING
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  • ABOUT SELF-ACCEPTANCE,
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  • RADICAL LOVE TOWARDS OURSELF,
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  • SELF-ABANDONMENT LOSING
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  • OURSELF ALONG THE WAY,
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  • HAVING RELATIONAL REJECTION,
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  • THESE ARE THE KIND OF TOPICS
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  • THAT WE DON'T REALLY WANNA AMEN
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  • AND WE SOMETIMES DON'T WANNA
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  • ACT LIKE THEY APPLY TO US.
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  • BUT, IF YOU'VE BEEN ON THE
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  • EARTH FOR A LITTLE BIT, I KNOW,
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  • BECAUSE IT'S TOUCHED MY LIFE,
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  • AND I'VE BEEN AROUND A LOT OF
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  • US THAT THESE TOPICS ARE
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  • REALLY CRITICAL TO
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  • OUR DEVELOPMENT.
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  • THEY'RE CRITICAL FOR US TO BE
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  • HEALTHY MOMS AND WIVES,
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  • LEADERS, COWORKERS.
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  • IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT.
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  • BECAUSE IT REALLY IS THE
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  • UNDERLYING MOTIVATION IN WHERE
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  • WE WALK INTO A ROOM.
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  • AND I LIKE TO SAY
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  • SELF-CONFIDENCE IS WHEN YOU
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  • WALK IN A ROOM AND ALL YOU
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  • WANNA BE IS YOURSELF.
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  • AND SO, THIS IS REALLY CRITICAL
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  • THAT WE WANT EVERYONE TO LEARN
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  • TO BE THEMSELF, AS WE
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  • GO FORWARD IN THIS.
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  • SO, HERE'S SOME THINGS I WANT
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  • YOU TO THINK ABOUT, AS WE TALK
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  • ABOUT THIS TOPIC AND I PUT YOU
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  • ON THE SPOT WITH SOME OF
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  • THESE THINGS.
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  • FIRST THING I WANT YOU TO THINK
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  • ABOUT IS I WANT YOU TO TAKE ALL
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  • THE TIME YOU NEED TO GROW
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  • AND TO HEAL.
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  • ALL THE TIME YOU NEED.
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  • I WANT YOU TO JUST TO
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  • TAKE A DEEP BREATH.
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  • BECAUSE WE'RE GONNA GET INTO
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  • SOME OF THIS STUFF AND YOU
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  • MIGHT BE LIKE: "OH, NO --
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  • YOU JUST PUT UP MY
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  • ENTIRE CHILDHOOD.
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  • WHAT ARE WE GONNA TALK ABOUT?"
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  • OR: "OH, NO --
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  • I'M FEELING KIND OF
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  • TRIGGERED IN THE ROOM."
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  • OR: "OH, NO -- I NEED TO GO
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  • HOME AND MAKE A BUNCH OF
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  • PHONE CALLS."
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  • AND WHAT I REALLY WANT YOU TO
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  • DO IS SLOW DOWN AND REALIZE
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  • THAT YOU GET ALL THE TIME YOU
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  • NEED, THAT GOD IS GONNA BE JUST
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  • AS GRACIOUS AS HE WAS
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  • TONIGHT IN WORSHIP.
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  • HE'LL CONTINUE TO WALK
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  • YOU THROUGH.
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  • AND ANYTHING HE REVEALS, HE
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  • SIMULTANEOUSLY OFFERS GRACE
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  • FOR TRANSFORMATION.
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  • SIMULTANEOUSLY.
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  • SO, WHATEVER IT IS, TAKE YOUR
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  • TIME AND TO LEARN AND TO
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  • GROW AND TO HEAL.
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  • UH, ANOTHER THING IS: DON'T GET
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  • CAUGHT THINKING ABOUT ANYONE
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  • ELSE BEING HERE.
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  • THIS IS A CLASSIC THING
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  • US GIRLS DO.
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  • WE'RE LIKE, "YOU KNOW WHO
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  • REALLY NEEDED THIS TEACHING..."
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  • [LAUGHTER]
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  • AND...WE GO-- AND THAT'S ALL
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  • WE'RE THINKING IS LIKE,
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  • "OH, THAT APPLIES TO SO-AND-SO."
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  • "OH, MY MOM NEEDED THAT."
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  • "MY SISTER NEEDED THAT."
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  • AND SO, WE GO IN THIS MODE.
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  • AND WHAT'S REALLY CRITICAL FOR
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  • TRANSFORMATION IS THAT WE STAY
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  • PERSONAL, THAT WE APPLY THE
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  • WORD OF GOD TO OUR LIVES, OUR
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  • SITUATION, OUR RELATIONSHIPS.
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  • AND, IT'S REALLY-- LET ME SAY,
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  • WE CAN'T JUST APPLY IT TO
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  • ANYBODY ELSE,
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  • 'CAUSE WE DON'T KNOW
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  • WHERE THEY'RE AT.
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  • WE GOTTA GIVE THEM GRACE TO BE
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  • WHERE THEY'RE AT.
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  • BUT WHAT WE CAN DO IS LET THE
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  • WORD OF GOD READ OUR LIVES AND
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  • SHOW US WHAT WE NEED IN OUR
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  • OWN WORLD.
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  • SECONDLY-- THIRDLY, IS WE NEED
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  • TO LET GOD BE GOD.
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  • AND THIS IS REALLY CRITICAL
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  • WHEN WE TALK ABOUT
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  • TRANSFORMATION, AND GROWING,
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  • AND SELF-ACCEPTANCE, AND LOVE
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  • IS THAT, SOMETIMES, THERE'S
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  • SOME THINGS THAT ONLY
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  • GOD CAN DO.
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  • AND SO, OFTENTIMES, THE WORLD
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  • IS LIKE: WORK A LITTLE HARDER.
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  • DIG A LITTLE DEEPER.
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  • LEARN A LITTLE MORE.
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  • AND WE WANT TO BE, UH STUDENTS
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  • OF THE WORD.
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  • BUT WE ALSO NEED TO KNOW THAT
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  • WITHOUT A SUPERNATURAL TOUCH
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  • FROM GOD THE FATHER, THEN WE
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  • WILL MISS SOMETHING AND WE WILL
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  • GET INTO WORKS.
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  • AND WE ARE PEOPLE OF GRACE,
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  • NOT WORKS, RIGHT?
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  • SO, WE WANNA MAKE SURE THAT OUR
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  • WORKS LINE UP WITH THE GRACE
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  • THAT WE'VE RECEIVED.
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  • AND SO, IT'S CRITICAL THAT WE
  • 00:06:24.280 --> 00:06:26.120
  • JUST LET GOD BE GOD IN THE
  • 00:06:26.120 --> 00:06:27.210
  • MIDDLE OF IT AND JUST RELAX,
  • 00:06:27.210 --> 00:06:29.170
  • AMEN?
  • 00:06:29.170 --> 00:06:31.290
  • I FEEL LIKE I MISSED ONE.
  • 00:06:31.290 --> 00:06:32.180
  • UUUUUM, THAT'S IT.
  • 00:06:32.180 --> 00:06:33.260
  • OKAY. WELL, MAYBE...
  • 00:06:33.260 --> 00:06:35.050
  • UH...
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  • OH, NO.
  • 00:06:37.080 --> 00:06:38.150
  • SECOND ONE: DON'T TRY TO MASTER
  • 00:06:38.150 --> 00:06:39.070
  • ALL OF THIS IN ONE DAY.
  • 00:06:39.070 --> 00:06:40.090
  • TRANSFORMATION IS A PROCESS.
  • 00:06:40.090 --> 00:06:42.030
  • IF YOU'RE ANYONE LIKE ME, I'M
  • 00:06:42.030 --> 00:06:42.240
  • KINDA ONE OF THOSE-- UH, I'M
  • 00:06:42.240 --> 00:06:45.020
  • NOT COMPETITIVE.
  • 00:06:45.020 --> 00:06:46.040
  • I'M MORE JUST KIND OF LAZY,
  • 00:06:46.040 --> 00:06:47.100
  • WHERE IT'S LIKE: IF I COULD
  • 00:06:47.100 --> 00:06:48.160
  • JUST GET IT DONE, THEN I COULD
  • 00:06:48.160 --> 00:06:50.000
  • GO BACK TO HAVING FUN
  • 00:06:50.000 --> 00:06:50.180
  • IN MY LIFE.
  • 00:06:50.180 --> 00:06:51.060
  • IS ANYBODY ELSE LIKE: CHECK,
  • 00:06:51.060 --> 00:06:52.000
  • CHECK, CHECK, GOOD?
  • 00:06:52.000 --> 00:06:53.170
  • BUT THIS REALLY IS ABOUT
  • 00:06:53.170 --> 00:06:54.050
  • TRANSFORMATION.
  • 00:06:54.050 --> 00:06:55.200
  • AND SOME OF THIS STUFF -- IT'S
  • 00:06:55.200 --> 00:06:56.240
  • GONNA TAKE YOU A COUPLE YEARS.
  • 00:06:56.240 --> 00:06:58.250
  • IT'S GONNA TAKE YOU
  • 00:06:58.250 --> 00:06:59.220
  • SOME SEASONS.
  • 00:06:59.220 --> 00:07:00.170
  • IT'S GONNA TAKE YOU SOME GOING
  • 00:07:00.170 --> 00:07:02.180
  • WINTER, SPRING, SUMMER, AND
  • 00:07:02.180 --> 00:07:03.160
  • FALL AND PUTTING ALL OF THIS
  • 00:07:03.160 --> 00:07:04.230
  • TRUTH INTO PRACTICE.
  • 00:07:06.000 --> 00:07:09.000
  • SO, TAKE YOUR TIME AND REALIZE
  • 00:07:09.000 --> 00:07:09.210
  • THAT TRANSFORMATION
  • 00:07:09.210 --> 00:07:10.070
  • ISN'T OVERNIGHT.
  • 00:07:10.070 --> 00:07:10.210
  • IN FACT, I RARELY TRUST
  • 00:07:10.210 --> 00:07:11.160
  • TRANSFORMATION THAT HAPPENS
  • 00:07:11.160 --> 00:07:12.170
  • INSTANTANEOUSLY.
  • 00:07:12.170 --> 00:07:13.250
  • I THINK THAT'S A
  • 00:07:13.250 --> 00:07:14.210
  • BUT IN ORDER FOR US TO WORK OUT
  • 00:07:17.130 --> 00:07:18.080
  • OUR SALVATION, THE BIBLE SAYS
  • 00:07:18.080 --> 00:07:19.200
  • WE GOTTA PUT IT IN A DAILY
  • 00:07:20.000 --> 00:07:23.000
  • PRACTICE AND HABITS AND ALL THE
  • 00:07:23.000 --> 00:07:23.220
  • THINGS THAT WE HAVE TO KIND
  • 00:07:23.220 --> 00:07:24.280
  • OF OWN OURSELVES.
  • 00:07:24.280 --> 00:07:27.010
  • SO, WHEN IT TALKS ABOUT LEAP
  • 00:07:27.010 --> 00:07:27.210
  • INTO LOVE -- WHEN I WENT TO
  • 00:07:27.210 --> 00:07:28.140
  • WRITE THIS BOOK, IT WASN'T
  • 00:07:28.140 --> 00:07:30.060
  • REALLY A TOPIC THAT I WAS...
  • 00:07:30.060 --> 00:07:30.260
  • THINKING ABOUT.
  • 00:07:30.260 --> 00:07:33.110
  • I-- THIS IS MY FIFTH, SIXTH
  • 00:07:33.110 --> 00:07:35.170
  • BIBLE STUDY THAT WE'VE DONE.
  • 00:07:35.170 --> 00:07:36.160
  • AND, YOU KNOW, AT FIRST,
  • 00:07:36.160 --> 00:07:38.270
  • I WANTED TO CALL IT
  • 00:07:38.270 --> 00:07:39.270
  • "LEAP INTO LOVE."
  • 00:07:39.270 --> 00:07:41.280
  • IN FACT, MY SON HAD FOUND
  • 00:07:41.280 --> 00:07:43.060
  • THIS-- WE WERE WALKING AROUND
  • 00:07:43.060 --> 00:07:44.010
  • SAN FRANCISCO, TRYING TO GET
  • 00:07:44.010 --> 00:07:45.130
  • THIS LAST-MINUTE PASSPORT.
  • 00:07:45.130 --> 00:07:46.200
  • AND, ON THIS BRICK WALL, MY SON
  • 00:07:46.200 --> 00:07:48.160
  • YELLS OUT, "MOM, THAT'S YOUR
  • 00:07:48.160 --> 00:07:50.030
  • NEW BIBLE STUDY!"
  • 00:07:50.030 --> 00:07:52.150
  • AND WHEN YOUR 10-YEAR-OLD SAYS
  • 00:07:52.150 --> 00:07:54.120
  • SOMETHING LIKE THAT,
  • 00:07:54.120 --> 00:07:55.140
  • YOU LISTEN.
  • 00:07:55.140 --> 00:07:56.170
  • YOU'RE LIKE: THIS IS THE
  • 00:07:56.170 --> 00:07:57.050
  • HAND OF GOD.
  • 00:07:57.050 --> 00:07:57.200
  • AND SO, I--
  • 00:07:57.200 --> 00:07:58.040
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:07:58.040 --> 00:07:58.240
  • I'M LIKE: WHATEVER IT SAYS,
  • 00:07:58.240 --> 00:07:59.190
  • EVEN IF IT'S LIKE, YOU KNOW--
  • 00:07:59.190 --> 00:08:00.200
  • UM. ANYWAY.
  • 00:08:00.200 --> 00:08:01.100
  • SO...
  • 00:08:01.100 --> 00:08:02.060
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:08:02.060 --> 00:08:03.000
  • EDITING AS I'M THINKING.
  • 00:08:03.000 --> 00:08:04.180
  • SO, I SAY THAT, AND IT SAYS --
  • 00:08:04.180 --> 00:08:05.160
  • IN THESE BIG, HUGE PINK WORDS,
  • 00:08:05.160 --> 00:08:06.070
  • LIKE IN GRAFFITI -- AND IT
  • 00:08:06.070 --> 00:08:08.120
  • SAYS: LEAP INTO LOVE.
  • 00:08:08.120 --> 00:08:11.110
  • AND I'M LIKE: GOSH, I'VE NEVER
  • 00:08:11.110 --> 00:08:12.090
  • THAT'S REALLY--
  • 00:08:13.270 --> 00:08:14.190
  • I LIKE THAT.
  • 00:08:14.190 --> 00:08:15.010
  • YEAH!
  • 00:08:15.010 --> 00:08:15.160
  • I COULD SEE THAT.
  • 00:08:15.160 --> 00:08:16.160
  • AND I'M JUST THINKING ABOUT IT.
  • 00:08:16.160 --> 00:08:18.100
  • AND THEN, I KINDA THROW IT DOWN
  • 00:08:18.100 --> 00:08:21.020
  • ON SOME PAPER AND, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:08:21.020 --> 00:08:21.250
  • THROW IT AT THE WALL
  • 00:08:21.250 --> 00:08:22.170
  • AND SEE IF IT STICKS.
  • 00:08:22.170 --> 00:08:23.040
  • AND THEN, I START THINKING:
  • 00:08:23.040 --> 00:08:23.250
  • WHAT DOES IT, YOU KNOW, MEAN TO
  • 00:08:23.250 --> 00:08:26.220
  • LEAP INTO LOVE?
  • 00:08:26.220 --> 00:08:28.180
  • AND THEN, I START THINKING
  • 00:08:28.180 --> 00:08:30.010
  • ABOUT THE JOURNEY OF
  • 00:08:30.010 --> 00:08:30.210
  • SELF-ACCEPTANCE AND
  • 00:08:30.210 --> 00:08:31.140
  • RADICAL LOVE.
  • 00:08:31.140 --> 00:08:32.060
  • AND THAT WAS KIND OF THE
  • 00:08:32.060 --> 00:08:33.030
  • TAGLINE THAT WE WORKED ON
  • 00:08:33.030 --> 00:08:33.280
  • FOR MANY, MANY MONTHS WAS:
  • 00:08:33.280 --> 00:08:35.150
  • WE'RE GONNA TALK ABOUT
  • 00:08:35.150 --> 00:08:36.040
  • SELF-ACCEPTANCE AND
  • 00:08:36.040 --> 00:08:37.000
  • RADICAL LOVE.
  • 00:08:37.000 --> 00:08:39.000
  • AND, AS I KIND OF DOVE INTO THE
  • 00:08:39.000 --> 00:08:41.030
  • WORD AND JUST SPENT, REALLY,
  • 00:08:41.030 --> 00:08:41.240
  • HOURS AND HOURS GETTING IN AND
  • 00:08:41.240 --> 00:08:43.250
  • KIND OF SEEING WHAT WAS THERE,
  • 00:08:43.250 --> 00:08:46.060
  • AND SEEING WHAT THE END OF THE
  • 00:08:46.060 --> 00:08:47.080
  • RAINBOW LOOKED LIKE AT THE END
  • 00:08:47.080 --> 00:08:49.130
  • OF SELF-ACCEPTANCE AND AT THE
  • 00:08:49.130 --> 00:08:50.160
  • END OF RADICAL LOVE, I FOUND
  • 00:08:50.160 --> 00:08:51.120
  • THAT IT WASN'T ENOUGH FOR US TO
  • 00:08:51.120 --> 00:08:53.040
  • WEAR THE BADGE OF
  • 00:08:53.040 --> 00:08:53.230
  • "I'M COMPETENT."
  • 00:08:53.230 --> 00:08:54.270
  • IT WASN'T JUST ENOUGH TO SAY,
  • 00:08:54.270 --> 00:08:57.140
  • "I LIKE MY CURVES."
  • 00:08:57.140 --> 00:08:58.000
  • COME ON.
  • 00:08:58.000 --> 00:08:59.270
  • IT WASN'T JUST ENOUGH TO SAY,
  • 00:08:59.270 --> 00:09:01.020
  • "I'D RATHER BE ME THAN YOU."
  • 00:09:01.020 --> 00:09:01.290
  • RIGHT?
  • 00:09:01.290 --> 00:09:03.270
  • IT WASN'T ENOUGH.
  • 00:09:03.270 --> 00:09:05.010
  • IN FACT, THAT'S WHAT THE WORLD
  • 00:09:05.010 --> 00:09:05.220
  • WILL SAY.
  • 00:09:05.220 --> 00:09:06.040
  • BUT, REALLY, BECAUSE WE ARE
  • 00:09:06.040 --> 00:09:07.130
  • PEOPLE OF PURPOSE, WHAT HAPPENS
  • 00:09:07.130 --> 00:09:09.170
  • WHEN WE BEGIN TO HAVE
  • 00:09:09.170 --> 00:09:10.210
  • GOD CONFIDENCE AND A
  • 00:09:10.210 --> 00:09:12.080
  • SELF-ACCEPTANCE FOR HOW WE WERE
  • 00:09:12.080 --> 00:09:13.220
  • CREATED, IT MORPHS INTEREST US
  • 00:09:13.220 --> 00:09:15.110
  • BECOMING PRESENT TO OUR PURPOSE
  • 00:09:15.110 --> 00:09:18.070
  • ON THE PLANET.
  • 00:09:18.070 --> 00:09:19.180
  • ALL OF A SUDDEN, WE ENGAGE.
  • 00:09:19.180 --> 00:09:21.020
  • IT'S THE FIRST STEP.
  • 00:09:21.020 --> 00:09:23.210
  • THE END OF THE RAINBOW
  • 00:09:23.210 --> 00:09:25.000
  • IS NOT ME.
  • 00:09:25.000 --> 00:09:26.060
  • THE END OF THE RAINBOW IS GOD.
  • 00:09:26.060 --> 00:09:28.080
  • THE END OF THE RAINBOW IS OUR
  • 00:09:28.080 --> 00:09:29.190
  • PURPOSE ON THE EARTH, AND,
  • 00:09:29.190 --> 00:09:30.160
  • ULTIMATELY, WHAT WE'LL DO
  • 00:09:30.160 --> 00:09:32.010
  • ON THE EARTH WHICH WILL
  • 00:09:32.010 --> 00:09:32.220
  • GIVE US FULFILLMENT.
  • 00:09:32.220 --> 00:09:34.000
  • WE'LL TALK A LOT ABOUT THAT.
  • 00:09:34.000 --> 00:09:34.200
  • SO, THE FIRST CRITICAL PART TO
  • 00:09:34.200 --> 00:09:36.140
  • SELF-ACCEPTANCE AND RADICAL
  • 00:09:36.140 --> 00:09:39.060
  • LOVE IS TO REALIZE THAT ONCE WE
  • 00:09:39.060 --> 00:09:41.260
  • EVEN GET TO THAT PART IN OUR
  • 00:09:41.260 --> 00:09:44.020
  • LIFE, IT NOW ALLOW US TO SHOW
  • 00:09:44.130 --> 00:09:47.130
  • THIS STUDY IS ABOUT BELONGING
  • 00:09:49.260 --> 00:09:50.170
  • TO OURSELVES.
  • 00:09:50.170 --> 00:09:52.190
  • IT'S ABOUT FINDING OURSELVES,
  • 00:09:52.190 --> 00:09:53.250
  • RECOVERING OURSELVES, REDEEMING
  • 00:09:53.250 --> 00:09:55.150
  • [SOUND OF VEGETABLES BEING
  • 00:09:58.250 --> 00:09:59.180
  • CHOPPED]
  • 00:09:59.180 --> 00:10:00.140
  • - VOCALS: GOD, OUR FATHER
  • 00:10:00.180 --> 00:10:03.180
  • [BABY LAUGHING]
  • 00:10:03.180 --> 00:10:05.050
  • LORD OF ALL
  • 00:10:05.050 --> 00:10:06.010
  • [CLATTERING]
  • 00:10:06.010 --> 00:10:07.150
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:10:07.150 --> 00:10:10.040
  • - LITTLE GIRL: MAMA, CAN YOU
  • 00:10:10.040 --> 00:10:10.250
  • DANCE WITH ME?
  • 00:10:10.250 --> 00:10:11.260
  • - MOTHER: OH, OF COURSE, BABE!
  • 00:10:11.260 --> 00:10:13.050
  • OH...YEAH...
  • 00:10:13.050 --> 00:10:15.220
  • [MIRTHFUL SOUNDS]
  • 00:10:15.220 --> 00:10:18.210
  • [VOCALIZING]
  • 00:10:19.230 --> 00:10:22.230
  • [BABY GIGGLING]
  • 00:10:22.270 --> 00:10:25.270
  • - MALE ANNOUNCER: IN "KINGDOM
  • 00:10:29.120 --> 00:10:30.030
  • INHERITANCE," BILL JOHNSON AND
  • 00:10:30.030 --> 00:10:30.260
  • HIS FELLOW BETHEL TEACHERS
  • 00:10:30.260 --> 00:10:32.200
  • REVEAL HOW TO EMBRACE AND WIELD
  • 00:10:32.200 --> 00:10:34.060
  • THE AUTHORITY GOD HAS ALREADY
  • 00:10:34.060 --> 00:10:35.050
  • GIVEN YOU IN KING JESUS.
  • 00:10:35.050 --> 00:10:36.080
  • THIS CD SET IS YOURS, TODAY, IN
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  • THANKS FOR ANY GIFT OF SUPPORT.
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  • AND FOR A GIFT OF $150 OR MORE,
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  • WE'LL ALSO SEND YOU THE
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  • SIX-MESSAGE DVD SET
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  • "SONS & DAUGHTERS," AND
  • 00:10:45.290 --> 00:10:47.130
  • "THE SUPERNATURAL WAYS OF
  • 00:10:47.130 --> 00:10:49.070
  • ROYALTY" WORKBOOK TO TAKE YOU
  • 00:10:49.070 --> 00:10:50.030
  • FARTHER IN YOUR GOD-GIVEN
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  • CALL OR GO ONLINE, NOW, TO
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  • REQUEST THESE POWERFUL
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  • RESOURCES.
  • 00:10:56.060 --> 00:10:59.060
  • [NEW, ACOUSTIC MUSIC]
  • 00:10:59.060 --> 00:11:00.210
  • - VOICE OF CHILD: WHEN I GROW
  • 00:11:00.210 --> 00:11:01.120
  • UP, I WANNA BE JUST LIKE YOU,
  • 00:11:01.120 --> 00:11:02.030
  • MAMA.
  • 00:11:02.030 --> 00:11:02.120
  • - MOTHER: AWWW...
  • 00:11:02.210 --> 00:11:05.210
  • SO, LET'S READ ABOUT HOW GOOD
  • 00:11:05.210 --> 00:11:06.120
  • GOD IS.
  • 00:11:06.120 --> 00:11:06.220
  • GOD IS SOOOO GOOD TO US.
  • 00:11:06.220 --> 00:11:09.200
  • EVERYTHING THAT WE NEED...
  • 00:11:09.200 --> 00:11:11.290
  • [CHILD WHISPERING]
  • 00:11:11.290 --> 00:11:12.240
  • ...HE GIVES TO US.
  • 00:11:12.240 --> 00:11:13.150
  • - LITTLE GIRL: READ ME THAT
  • 00:11:13.150 --> 00:11:14.130
  • ONE, RIGHT NOW.
  • 00:11:14.130 --> 00:11:14.280
  • - MOTHER: I'M READING ABOUT
  • 00:11:14.280 --> 00:11:15.200
  • THE LITTLE CAT AND THE
  • 00:11:15.200 --> 00:11:16.100
  • LITTLE BIRD...
  • 00:11:16.100 --> 00:11:17.040
  • AND, SOMETIMES, THE SHADOWS
  • 00:11:17.040 --> 00:11:19.160
  • SEEM DARK, BUT IS GOD
  • 00:11:19.160 --> 00:11:20.260
  • STILL GOOD?
  • 00:11:20.260 --> 00:11:21.120
  • - LITTLE GIRL: YEAH.
  • 00:11:21.120 --> 00:11:22.200
  • - MOM: GOOD.
  • 00:11:22.200 --> 00:11:23.200
  • WHEN IS GOD GOOD?
  • 00:11:23.200 --> 00:11:24.250
  • - LITTLE GIRL: EVERY DAY.
  • 00:11:24.250 --> 00:11:26.050
  • [APPLAUSE]
  • 00:11:27.050 --> 00:11:30.050
  • - HAVILAH: I WAS THINKING
  • 00:11:30.050 --> 00:11:30.240
  • ABOUT THIS TIME WHEN I WENT TO
  • 00:11:30.240 --> 00:11:31.220
  • SPEAK AT THIS CHURCH.
  • 00:11:31.220 --> 00:11:33.000
  • AND IT WAS A...ABOUT A YEAR AND
  • 00:11:33.000 --> 00:11:34.210
  • AND, I HAD-- I WAS GONNA GO IN
  • 00:11:37.050 --> 00:11:37.260
  • TO DO A WOMEN'S NIGHT.
  • 00:11:37.260 --> 00:11:38.290
  • AND, AS I FLEW INTO THE PLACE,
  • 00:11:38.290 --> 00:11:41.130
  • I WAS RUNNING LATE.
  • 00:11:41.130 --> 00:11:42.050
  • AND, SOMETIMES, THAT HAPPENS.
  • 00:11:42.050 --> 00:11:44.110
  • WE FLY OUT OF REDDING, WHICH IS
  • 00:11:44.110 --> 00:11:45.130
  • CRAZY TOWN, ALREADY.
  • 00:11:45.130 --> 00:11:46.070
  • AND THEN, WE'VE GOTTA TAKE
  • 00:11:46.070 --> 00:11:47.070
  • THREE FLIGHTS TO GET ANYWHERE.
  • 00:11:47.070 --> 00:11:48.040
  • AND SO, AS I GET ON THIS
  • 00:11:48.040 --> 00:11:49.290
  • FLIGHT, EVERYTHING IS DELAYED.
  • 00:11:49.290 --> 00:11:51.080
  • AND I AM LIKE, "WELL, I DIDN'T
  • 00:11:51.080 --> 00:11:52.190
  • SHOWER," WHICH IS OKAY IF
  • 00:11:52.190 --> 00:11:54.080
  • YOU'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE.
  • 00:11:54.080 --> 00:11:55.180
  • BUT, I ALWAYS DON'T WANNA GET
  • 00:11:55.180 --> 00:11:57.010
  • UP EARLY TO SHOWER, 'CAUSE THEN
  • 00:11:57.010 --> 00:11:58.120
  • I'LL BE TIRED THAT NIGHT, SO I
  • 00:11:58.120 --> 00:11:59.090
  • KINDA GAMBLE.
  • 00:11:59.090 --> 00:12:00.100
  • BUT I NEED TO SHOWER 'CAUSE
  • 00:12:00.100 --> 00:12:01.080
  • MOMS SHOWER IN THREE DAYS.
  • 00:12:01.080 --> 00:12:03.110
  • LIKE, THAT'S HOW WE SHO-- LIKE,
  • 00:12:03.110 --> 00:12:04.260
  • THAT'S HOW WE LIVE OUR LIVES,
  • 00:12:04.260 --> 00:12:05.170
  • RIGHT?
  • 00:12:05.170 --> 00:12:06.210
  • AND SO, IT WAS SHOWER DAY.
  • 00:12:06.210 --> 00:12:07.120
  • AND I KNEW I NEEDED TO SHOWER,
  • 00:12:07.120 --> 00:12:08.050
  • SO WE SHOWED UP.
  • 00:12:08.050 --> 00:12:08.270
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:12:08.270 --> 00:12:10.270
  • WE SHOWED UP TO THIS--
  • 00:12:10.270 --> 00:12:11.140
  • THIS EVENT.
  • 00:12:11.140 --> 00:12:12.060
  • AND I SHOW UP TO MY HOTEL ROOM
  • 00:12:12.060 --> 00:12:13.190
  • AND I AM RUSHING.
  • 00:12:13.190 --> 00:12:14.210
  • I'VE GOT LIKE 30 MINUTES TO
  • 00:12:14.210 --> 00:12:16.050
  • THROW MY CLOTHES ON, TAKE A
  • 00:12:16.050 --> 00:12:17.120
  • SHOWER, GET OUT, AND GO.
  • 00:12:17.120 --> 00:12:18.040
  • I GET INTO THE SHOWER, I FORGET
  • 00:12:18.040 --> 00:12:19.090
  • MY SHAMPOO, I'M WASHING MY HAIR
  • 00:12:19.090 --> 00:12:20.220
  • WITH SHOWER GEL.
  • 00:12:20.220 --> 00:12:22.110
  • I'M JUMPING OUT, I THROW ON MY
  • 00:12:22.110 --> 00:12:24.040
  • DRESS, I GRAB THE SHOES.
  • 00:12:24.040 --> 00:12:25.090
  • I REALIZE I BROUGHT THE WRONG
  • 00:12:25.090 --> 00:12:26.180
  • SHOES.
  • 00:12:26.180 --> 00:12:27.200
  • SO, NOW, I'M JUST FEELING LIKE
  • 00:12:27.200 --> 00:12:28.240
  • NOTHING IS MEASURING UP.
  • 00:12:28.240 --> 00:12:30.290
  • I GET IN THE CAR AND I DRIVE TO
  • 00:12:30.290 --> 00:12:32.110
  • THE EVENT, WHICH IS GONNA BE
  • 00:12:32.110 --> 00:12:33.070
  • SO, IT'S THOUSANDS OF WOMEN
  • 00:12:37.040 --> 00:12:37.240
  • THAT ARE GONNA WATCH THIS
  • 00:12:37.240 --> 00:12:38.130
  • EVENT.
  • 00:12:38.130 --> 00:12:38.270
  • AND I SHOW UP.
  • 00:12:38.270 --> 00:12:39.110
  • AND I AM FEELING A MESS.
  • 00:12:39.110 --> 00:12:41.260
  • YOU EVER FELT THAT WAY?
  • 00:12:41.260 --> 00:12:42.140
  • AND I DON'T ALWAYS-- I DON'T
  • 00:12:42.140 --> 00:12:43.130
  • NECESSARILY FEEL THAT
  • 00:12:43.130 --> 00:12:44.270
  • WAY IN REDDING.
  • 00:12:44.270 --> 00:12:46.100
  • [LAUGHS]
  • 00:12:46.100 --> 00:12:47.020
  • I FEEL THAT IN OTHER PLACES.
  • 00:12:47.020 --> 00:12:48.280
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:12:48.280 --> 00:12:49.190
  • AND SO--
  • 00:12:49.190 --> 00:12:50.280
  • THAT'S NOT MEAN.
  • 00:12:50.280 --> 00:12:51.260
  • I THINK WE, HERE -- WE'RE
  • 00:12:51.260 --> 00:12:52.280
  • MOUNTAIN GIRLS.
  • 00:12:52.280 --> 00:12:54.060
  • WE CAN BE COMFORTABLE.
  • 00:12:54.060 --> 00:12:55.040
  • NO ONE'S WEARING HEELS TO
  • 00:12:55.040 --> 00:12:56.030
  • TRADER JOE'S.
  • 00:12:56.030 --> 00:12:57.000
  • I LIKE THAT.
  • 00:12:57.000 --> 00:12:57.200
  • THERE'S NO SHAME IN THAT.
  • 00:12:57.200 --> 00:12:58.140
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:12:58.140 --> 00:12:59.110
  • WE'RE GONNA WEAR OUR BIRKS TO
  • 00:12:59.110 --> 00:13:01.030
  • TRADER JOE'S.
  • 00:13:01.030 --> 00:13:01.240
  • THAT'S NORMAL.
  • 00:13:01.240 --> 00:13:02.190
  • YOU WEAR HEELS, WE'RE LIKE,
  • 00:13:02.190 --> 00:13:03.090
  • "WHAT, DO YOU HAVE A JOB
  • 00:13:03.090 --> 00:13:03.270
  • INTERVIEW?"
  • 00:13:03.270 --> 00:13:04.100
  • THAT'S HOW WE THINK.
  • 00:13:04.100 --> 00:13:05.010
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:13:05.010 --> 00:13:06.140
  • RIGHT?
  • 00:13:06.140 --> 00:13:08.130
  • SO...SO, I GO IN AND I AM
  • 00:13:08.130 --> 00:13:10.020
  • FEELING, ALREADY, LIKE I DON'T
  • 00:13:10.020 --> 00:13:11.220
  • HAVE IT TOGETHER AND I NEED
  • 00:13:11.220 --> 00:13:12.180
  • SOME PREP TIME.
  • 00:13:12.180 --> 00:13:13.220
  • AND I'M JUST-- I'M JUST KIND OF
  • 00:13:13.220 --> 00:13:14.240
  • FEELING OUT OF SORTS.
  • 00:13:14.240 --> 00:13:16.060
  • AND WHEN I WALK INTO THE GREEN
  • 00:13:16.060 --> 00:13:17.250
  • ROOM, THERE IS THIS PASTOR'S
  • 00:13:17.250 --> 00:13:19.020
  • WIFE AND SHE IS MAJESTIC.
  • 00:13:19.020 --> 00:13:21.090
  • THAT'S ALL I KNOW HOW TO SAY.
  • 00:13:21.090 --> 00:13:22.030
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:13:22.030 --> 00:13:23.050
  • SHE IS LEAN AND TALL.
  • 00:13:23.050 --> 00:13:25.060
  • SHE HAS THESE CHEEKBONES.
  • 00:13:25.060 --> 00:13:26.150
  • SHE IS PERFECTED.
  • 00:13:26.150 --> 00:13:28.280
  • SHE'S WEARING DESIGNER CLOTHES.
  • 00:13:28.280 --> 00:13:29.200
  • HER HAIR IS NOT OUT OF PLACE.
  • 00:13:29.200 --> 00:13:31.070
  • AND SHE WALKS UP TO ME.
  • 00:13:31.070 --> 00:13:32.150
  • AND I AM NOW LATE.
  • 00:13:32.150 --> 00:13:33.190
  • AND I DON'T KNOW IF SHE'S
  • 00:13:33.190 --> 00:13:35.040
  • PUNISHING ME OR SHE JUST
  • 00:13:35.040 --> 00:13:36.040
  • DOESN'T HAVE TIME FOR ME, BUT
  • 00:13:36.040 --> 00:13:37.010
  • SHE GOES, "HERE'S YOUR RUN
  • 00:13:37.010 --> 00:13:38.140
  • SHEET, THERE'S YOUR MIC, WE'LL
  • 00:13:38.140 --> 00:13:39.050
  • SEE YOU OUT THERE."
  • 00:13:39.050 --> 00:13:40.170
  • AND I'M LIKE: OKAY.
  • 00:13:40.170 --> 00:13:42.030
  • AND, ANYTIME I START FEELING
  • 00:13:42.030 --> 00:13:43.150
  • THAT I'M JUST PART OF A
  • 00:13:43.150 --> 00:13:44.250
  • CONVEYER BELT OF MINISTRY, I
  • 00:13:44.250 --> 00:13:46.060
  • START NOT LIKING IT, WHERE I'M
  • 00:13:46.060 --> 00:13:47.210
  • LIKE: I'M HERE TO MINISTER.
  • 00:13:47.210 --> 00:13:48.270
  • I'M NOT HERE TO BE, LIKE,
  • 00:13:48.270 --> 00:13:49.210
  • THE COMEDIAN.
  • 00:13:49.210 --> 00:13:51.280
  • DO YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING?
  • 00:13:51.280 --> 00:13:52.180
  • AND SO, I'M LIKE: OKAY.
  • 00:13:52.180 --> 00:13:53.220
  • AND SO, I'M PROCESSING ALL OF
  • 00:13:53.220 --> 00:13:54.140
  • THAT.
  • 00:13:54.140 --> 00:13:56.230
  • AND, AT ONE POINT, SHE'S OVER
  • 00:13:56.230 --> 00:13:57.140
  • IN THE CORNER.
  • 00:13:57.140 --> 00:13:58.100
  • I GO TO GET A DRINK.
  • 00:13:58.100 --> 00:14:00.140
  • AND AS I'M TRYING TO CALM DOWN,
  • 00:14:00.140 --> 00:14:01.130
  • I'M LIKE: LET ME JUST GET
  • 00:14:01.130 --> 00:14:02.030
  • SOMETHING TO DRINK.
  • 00:14:02.030 --> 00:14:03.020
  • I TAKE A SIP.
  • 00:14:03.020 --> 00:14:05.050
  • AND YOU EVER HAD THAT WHERE YOU
  • 00:14:05.050 --> 00:14:05.270
  • HAVE A HOLE IN YOUR LIP?
  • 00:14:05.270 --> 00:14:07.180
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:14:07.180 --> 00:14:09.010
  • SO, I TAKE A SIP.
  • 00:14:09.010 --> 00:14:10.220
  • AND AS I TAKE A SIP, WATER
  • 00:14:10.220 --> 00:14:12.160
  • POURS DOWN THE FRONT OF ME.
  • 00:14:12.160 --> 00:14:13.280
  • AND SHE SEES THE WHOLE THING.
  • 00:14:13.280 --> 00:14:14.200
  • I THOUGHT SHE HAD MISSED IT.
  • 00:14:14.200 --> 00:14:15.160
  • AND SHE LOOKS AT ME AND SHE
  • 00:14:15.160 --> 00:14:16.170
  • GOES, "DRINK MUCH?"
  • 00:14:17.030 --> 00:14:20.030
  • SHE DID.
  • 00:14:20.030 --> 00:14:22.130
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:14:22.130 --> 00:14:24.280
  • AND I REMEMBER FEELING LIKE I
  • 00:14:24.280 --> 00:14:26.190
  • WAS, LIKE, THIS SMALL, LIKE, I
  • 00:14:26.190 --> 00:14:28.080
  • FELT LIKE: I'M WEARING THE
  • 00:14:28.080 --> 00:14:30.090
  • DRESS THAT I HAD TO WEAR 'CAUSE
  • 00:14:30.090 --> 00:14:32.210
  • I COULDN'T FIT IN THE ONE
  • 00:14:32.210 --> 00:14:33.270
  • I WANTED TO BRING;
  • 00:14:33.270 --> 00:14:34.260
  • I WORE THE SHOES THAT I DIDN'T
  • 00:14:34.260 --> 00:14:36.180
  • WANNA WEAR,
  • 00:14:36.180 --> 00:14:37.260
  • BUT THAT'S THE ONLY ONES
  • 00:14:37.260 --> 00:14:38.140
  • I BROUGHT;
  • 00:14:38.140 --> 00:14:39.130
  • MY HAIR IS STILL WET FROM
  • 00:14:39.130 --> 00:14:40.090
  • SHOWER GEL; I HAVE RE--
  • 00:14:40.250 --> 00:14:43.250
  • YOU KNOW?
  • 00:14:43.250 --> 00:14:44.200
  • I-- IT'S JUST-- I'M A MESS!
  • 00:14:44.200 --> 00:14:45.110
  • AND, AS SHE SAYS IT, ALL I
  • 00:14:45.110 --> 00:14:46.180
  • WANNA DO IS YELL, "YOU'RE
  • 00:14:46.180 --> 00:14:47.070
  • MEAN," AND RUN TO MY CAR AND
  • 00:14:47.070 --> 00:14:48.070
  • SAY, "THIS IS ON YOU."
  • 00:14:48.070 --> 00:14:51.020
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:14:51.020 --> 00:14:51.180
  • I-- JUST THAT FEELING OF, LIKE,
  • 00:14:51.180 --> 00:14:52.290
  • MEAN GIRLS.
  • 00:14:52.290 --> 00:14:53.150
  • NOW, WAS SHE JOKING?
  • 00:14:53.150 --> 00:14:54.280
  • I THINK SHE WAS TOTALLY JOKING.
  • 00:14:54.280 --> 00:14:56.170
  • I REALLY, BEFORE THE LORD,
  • 00:14:56.170 --> 00:14:57.220
  • DON'T THINK SHE EVEN KNEW WHAT
  • 00:14:57.220 --> 00:14:59.060
  • WAS GOING ON INSIDE OF ME.
  • 00:14:59.060 --> 00:15:00.220
  • I THINK IT WAS PROBABLY A JOKE
  • 00:15:00.220 --> 00:15:02.050
  • SHE SAID IN HER FAMILY SHE
  • 00:15:02.050 --> 00:15:03.040
  • MEANT IN A TEASING WAY.
  • 00:15:03.040 --> 00:15:04.070
  • BUT, TO ME, BECAUSE OF HOW I
  • 00:15:04.070 --> 00:15:06.200
  • WAS FEELING ABOUT MYSELF AND MY
  • 00:15:06.200 --> 00:15:09.000
  • ENVIRONMENT, IT FELT LIKE SALT
  • 00:15:09.000 --> 00:15:10.130
  • ON A WOUND.
  • 00:15:10.130 --> 00:15:11.280
  • IT FELT LIKE I WAS EXPOSED.
  • 00:15:11.280 --> 00:15:14.180
  • IT FELT LIKE SOMEBODY OPENED
  • 00:15:14.180 --> 00:15:15.140
  • THE BATHROOM STALL ON ME,
  • 00:15:15.140 --> 00:15:16.160
  • RIGHT?
  • 00:15:16.160 --> 00:15:18.010
  • AND YOU'RE SITTING THERE,
  • 00:15:18.010 --> 00:15:19.070
  • GOING: I DON'T WANNA BE HERE.
  • 00:15:19.070 --> 00:15:20.030
  • I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
  • 00:15:20.030 --> 00:15:21.000
  • BUT I FEEL EXPOSED.
  • 00:15:21.000 --> 00:15:23.270
  • AND WHEN I THINK ABOUT THIS
  • 00:15:23.270 --> 00:15:25.080
  • TOPIC OF SELF-ACCEPTANCE AND
  • 00:15:25.080 --> 00:15:28.020
  • RADICAL LOVE, I...I GOTTA BE
  • 00:15:28.020 --> 00:15:28.260
  • HONEST.
  • 00:15:28.260 --> 00:15:31.190
  • I DON'T ALWAYS-- I DIDN'T KNOW
  • 00:15:31.190 --> 00:15:33.020
  • IF I COULD TEACH IT, NOT
  • 00:15:33.020 --> 00:15:34.150
  • BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE A HEART
  • 00:15:34.150 --> 00:15:35.210
  • FOR IT, BUT I KNOW I'M NOT
  • 00:15:35.210 --> 00:15:36.250
  • COMPLETE IN IT.
  • 00:15:36.250 --> 00:15:37.230
  • AND I KNOW THAT I'M NOT
  • 00:15:37.230 --> 00:15:39.160
  • STANDING UP HERE AS A EXPERT
  • 00:15:39.160 --> 00:15:41.070
  • THAT SAYS: I GOT THIS.
  • 00:15:41.070 --> 00:15:42.060
  • LET ME TELL YOU HOW TO GET
  • 00:15:42.060 --> 00:15:43.030
  • THERE.
  • 00:15:43.030 --> 00:15:44.030
  • LET ME SHOW YOU HOW AWESOME
  • 00:15:44.030 --> 00:15:44.230
  • THIS COULD BE.
  • 00:15:44.230 --> 00:15:45.110
  • I'M ACTUALLY TEACHING AS
  • 00:15:45.110 --> 00:15:47.050
  • SOMEONE WHO'S ON THE JOURNEY
  • 00:15:47.050 --> 00:15:48.090
  • MYSELF, IN AN AMERICAN WORLD OF
  • 00:15:48.090 --> 00:15:49.220
  • WOMEN WHERE THINGS ARE PERFECT
  • 00:15:49.220 --> 00:15:51.030
  • AND GLOSSY, AND EVERYTHING CAN
  • 00:15:51.030 --> 00:15:52.190
  • BE FIXED, OR CUT OFF, OR
  • 00:15:52.190 --> 00:15:54.090
  • ALTERED.
  • 00:15:54.090 --> 00:15:55.180
  • AND I'M ALSO IN AN ENVIRONMENT
  • 00:15:55.290 --> 00:15:58.290
  • WHERE WE'RE NOT ALLOWED TO AGE.
  • 00:15:58.290 --> 00:16:00.170
  • AND WE'RE NOT ALLOWED TO LOOK
  • 00:16:00.170 --> 00:16:01.290
  • PREGNANT IF WE'RE NOT.
  • 00:16:01.290 --> 00:16:03.230
  • AND--
  • 00:16:03.230 --> 00:16:05.070
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:16:05.070 --> 00:16:06.240
  • COME ON.
  • 00:16:06.240 --> 00:16:09.180
  • AND-- AND-- AND WHAT I WANT US
  • 00:16:09.180 --> 00:16:10.230
  • TO DO IS...I WANT US, AS WOMEN,
  • 00:16:10.230 --> 00:16:13.030
  • I WANT US TO GO ON THIS JOURNEY
  • 00:16:13.030 --> 00:16:14.230
  • OF DISCOVERY OF WHAT GOD REALLY
  • 00:16:14.230 --> 00:16:16.120
  • CREATED IN US, LONG AGO, AND TO
  • 00:16:17.000 --> 00:16:20.000
  • REALIZE THAT I'M ON THIS, JUST
  • 00:16:20.000 --> 00:16:21.280
  • LIKE YOU'RE ON THIS, AND THIS
  • 00:16:21.280 --> 00:16:22.190
  • ISN'T A PERFECTED STATE.
  • 00:16:22.190 --> 00:16:24.060
  • IT'S REALLY SOMETHING WE GROW
  • 00:16:24.060 --> 00:16:24.270
  • IN.
  • 00:16:24.270 --> 00:16:25.130
  • I WAS THINKING ABOUT TIMES WHEN
  • 00:16:25.130 --> 00:16:26.280
  • I...PROFOUND SELF-ABANDONMENT,
  • 00:16:26.280 --> 00:16:28.140
  • WHEN I LOSE MYSELF IN MY
  • 00:16:28.140 --> 00:16:30.060
  • JOURNEY.
  • 00:16:30.060 --> 00:16:32.070
  • I THINK ABOUT WHEN I WANT TO BE
  • 00:16:32.070 --> 00:16:35.000
  • IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE
  • 00:16:35.000 --> 00:16:36.090
  • BUT MY FEAR OF REJECTION KEEPS
  • 00:16:36.090 --> 00:16:38.170
  • ME DISENGAGED FROM SHOWING MY
  • 00:16:38.170 --> 00:16:40.210
  • AUTHENTIC SELF.
  • 00:16:40.210 --> 00:16:42.110
  • I THINK ABOUT WHEN I WANNA BE
  • 00:16:42.110 --> 00:16:44.180
  • FULLY PRESENT AS A MOTHER BUT
  • 00:16:44.180 --> 00:16:46.180
  • MY FEAR OF FAILING THEM CAUSES
  • 00:16:46.180 --> 00:16:49.000
  • ME TO DISENGAGE INTO
  • 00:16:49.000 --> 00:16:51.040
  • PERFECTIONISM.
  • 00:16:51.040 --> 00:16:53.030
  • I THINK ABOUT ME WANTING TO BE
  • 00:16:53.210 --> 00:16:56.210
  • FULLY PRESENT AS A WOMAN OR A
  • 00:16:56.210 --> 00:16:58.070
  • LOVER, BUT THE UNSEXY THINGS IN
  • 00:16:58.170 --> 00:17:01.190
  • LIFE CAUSES ME TO DISENGAGE
  • 00:17:01.190 --> 00:17:02.270
  • INTO FANTASY.
  • 00:17:04.070 --> 00:17:07.070
  • I THINK ABOUT WHEN I WANT TO BE
  • 00:17:07.070 --> 00:17:08.080
  • PRESENT TO MY CALLING, BUT MY
  • 00:17:08.080 --> 00:17:10.100
  • FEAR OF MISSING OUT CAUSES ME
  • 00:17:10.100 --> 00:17:11.160
  • TO DISENGAGE INTO
  • 00:17:11.160 --> 00:17:13.070
  • ENTERTAINMENT.
  • 00:17:13.070 --> 00:17:15.140
  • I THINK ABOUT WHEN I WANNA BE
  • 00:17:15.140 --> 00:17:17.290
  • CONFIDENT IN MYSELF, BUT THE
  • 00:17:17.290 --> 00:17:19.140
  • MESSAGING OF "I COULD BE
  • 00:17:19.140 --> 00:17:20.220
  • BETTER, I COULD BE STRONGER, I
  • 00:17:21.000 --> 00:17:24.000
  • COULD BE FASTER, I COULD BE
  • 00:17:24.000 --> 00:17:25.240
  • BRAVER" CAUSES ME TO DISENGAGE
  • 00:17:25.240 --> 00:17:27.180
  • INTO SELF-ABANDONMENT AND
  • 00:17:27.180 --> 00:17:30.120
  • ABANDON MY AUTHENTIC SELF.
  • 00:17:30.240 --> 00:17:33.240
  • AND ALL OF THESE ARE SIGNS OF
  • 00:17:34.230 --> 00:17:37.230
  • SELF-ABANDONMENT, WHERE WE
  • 00:17:37.230 --> 00:17:39.000
  • REJECT OURSELVES AND LEAVE
  • 00:17:39.000 --> 00:17:39.190
  • OURSELVES.
  • 00:17:39.190 --> 00:17:40.110
  • AND SO, WE-- IN MY OWN LIFE, I
  • 00:17:40.110 --> 00:17:41.280
  • GO INTO LIFE DOING THE RIGHT
  • 00:17:42.020 --> 00:17:45.020
  • THING AT THE RIGHT TIME FOR THE
  • 00:17:45.020 --> 00:17:47.020
  • RIGHT PEOPLE, AND YET, NOT
  • 00:17:47.020 --> 00:17:48.180
  • BELONGING TO MYSELF.
  • 00:17:48.240 --> 00:17:51.240
  • AND SO, THIS STUDY IS ABOUT
  • 00:17:51.240 --> 00:17:52.240
  • BELONGING TO OURSELVES.
  • 00:17:52.240 --> 00:17:54.270
  • IT'S ABOUT FINDING OURSELVES,
  • 00:17:54.270 --> 00:17:57.100
  • RECOVERING OURSELVES, REDEEMING
  • 00:17:57.100 --> 00:17:58.220
  • WHAT WE HAVE, AND MOVING
  • 00:17:58.220 --> 00:17:59.240
  • FORWARD.
  • 00:17:59.240 --> 00:18:01.220
  • I LOVE THIS QUOTE BY
  • 00:18:02.180 --> 00:18:05.180
  • HENRI NOUWEN.
  • 00:18:05.180 --> 00:18:07.030
  • HE SAYS: "SELF-REJECTION IS THE
  • 00:18:07.030 --> 00:18:08.230
  • GREATEST ENEMY OF THE SPIRITUAL
  • 00:18:08.230 --> 00:18:11.080
  • LIFE BECAUSE IT CONTRADICTS THE
  • 00:18:11.080 --> 00:18:13.070
  • SACRED VOICE THAT CALLS US THE
  • 00:18:13.070 --> 00:18:14.170
  • BELOVED.
  • 00:18:14.210 --> 00:18:17.210
  • BEING THE BELOVED CONSTITUTES
  • 00:18:17.210 --> 00:18:18.190
  • THE CORE TRUTH OF OUR
  • 00:18:18.190 --> 00:18:19.210
  • EXISTENCE.
  • 00:18:19.210 --> 00:18:20.240
  • SELF-REJECTION IS THE GREATEST
  • 00:18:20.240 --> 00:18:23.220
  • ENEMY OF THE SPIRITUAL LIFE..."
  • 00:18:23.220 --> 00:18:26.120
  • I WANT YOU TO THINK ABOUT THAT
  • 00:18:26.120 --> 00:18:27.260
  • FOR A MINUTE.
  • 00:18:27.260 --> 00:18:29.100
  • COULD IT BE THAT YOUR GREATEST
  • 00:18:29.100 --> 00:18:31.270
  • ENEMY, RIGHT NOW, YOUR GREATEST
  • 00:18:31.270 --> 00:18:33.100
  • HINDRANCE, THE PART OF YOU THAT
  • 00:18:33.100 --> 00:18:34.220
  • DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO BE PRESENT
  • 00:18:34.220 --> 00:18:36.120
  • IN YOUR LIFE IS ROOTED AND
  • 00:18:36.120 --> 00:18:37.010
  • GROUNDED IN SELF-REJECTION.
  • 00:18:37.010 --> 00:18:38.170
  • AND MAYBE THAT SELF-REJECTION
  • 00:18:38.170 --> 00:18:40.260
  • ISN'T SOMETHING YOU BEGAN WITH.
  • 00:18:40.260 --> 00:18:42.110
  • MAYBE IT WAS GIVEN TO YOU.
  • 00:18:42.110 --> 00:18:43.120
  • AND MAYBE YOUR MOM DIDN'T KNOW
  • 00:18:43.120 --> 00:18:45.220
  • HOW TO ACCEPT HERSELF, SO SHE
  • 00:18:45.220 --> 00:18:46.290
  • GAVE YOU HER OWN COPING
  • 00:18:46.290 --> 00:18:48.070
  • METHANISMS-- METHODS, AND HER
  • 00:18:49.000 --> 00:18:52.000
  • OWN BEHAVIORS, AND HER OWN
  • 00:18:52.000 --> 00:18:52.270
  • STRATEGIES, AND HER OWN
  • 00:18:52.270 --> 00:18:53.220
  • SELF-IMAGES.
  • 00:18:53.220 --> 00:18:54.250
  • OR MAYBE IT WAS SOMETHING ELSE
  • 00:18:54.250 --> 00:18:56.150
  • IN YOUR LIFE THAT BEGAN TO
  • 00:18:56.150 --> 00:18:57.290
  • TRAIN YOU TO BE WHO YOU ARE
  • 00:18:57.290 --> 00:19:00.100
  • TODAY, BUT YOU'VE ABANDONED
  • 00:19:00.100 --> 00:19:01.170
  • YOURSELF ALONG THE WAY.
  • 00:19:01.170 --> 00:19:03.020
  • AND YOU'RE IN A-- YOU'RE IN A
  • 00:19:03.020 --> 00:19:03.230
  • JOURNEY OF RECOVERING YOURSELF
  • 00:19:03.230 --> 00:19:05.170
  • AND SAYING: WAIT A MINUTE.
  • 00:19:05.170 --> 00:19:06.180
  • I WANT TO BE WHO GOD'S CALLED
  • 00:19:06.180 --> 00:19:07.200
  • ME TO BE.
  • 00:19:07.200 --> 00:19:08.180
  • I DON'T WANNA LOOK LIKE
  • 00:19:08.180 --> 00:19:09.280
  • SOMEBODY ELSE AND TRY TO ACT
  • 00:19:09.280 --> 00:19:10.250
  • LIKE SOMEBODY SO THAT I FEEL
  • 00:19:10.250 --> 00:19:12.030
  • IMPORTANT.
  • 00:19:12.030 --> 00:19:12.240
  • I WANNA BE ME WHEN I WALK IN
  • 00:19:12.240 --> 00:19:14.130
  • THE ROOM AND I DON'T WANNA FEEL
  • 00:19:14.130 --> 00:19:15.220
  • BAD ABOUT IT.
  • 00:19:15.220 --> 00:19:16.100
  • WHEN I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY
  • 00:19:16.170 --> 00:19:19.170
  • SECOND SON, HUDSON, I WAS
  • 00:19:19.170 --> 00:19:21.010
  • DIAGNOSES WITH POSTPARTUM
  • 00:19:21.010 --> 00:19:22.180
  • DEPRESSION.
  • 00:19:22.180 --> 00:19:23.120
  • POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION AND
  • 00:19:23.120 --> 00:19:25.260
  • POSTPARTUM PSYCHOSIS ARE TWO
  • 00:19:25.260 --> 00:19:27.070
  • DIFFERENT THINGS.
  • 00:19:27.070 --> 00:19:28.030
  • ONE IS WHEN YOU FEEL
  • 00:19:28.030 --> 00:19:29.130
  • DISCONNECTED FROM LIFE AND IT'S
  • 00:19:29.130 --> 00:19:30.260
  • VERY HARD; IT'S A CLINICAL
  • 00:19:30.260 --> 00:19:32.040
  • DEPRESSION.
  • 00:19:32.040 --> 00:19:32.230
  • BUT THE OTHER ONE IS WHEN YOU
  • 00:19:32.230 --> 00:19:34.060
  • WANNA HURT YOUR CHILDREN.
  • 00:19:34.060 --> 00:19:35.060
  • AND SO, THEY LIKE TO FIGURE OUT
  • 00:19:35.060 --> 00:19:36.050
  • WHAT YOU HAVE VERY QUICKLY.
  • 00:19:36.050 --> 00:19:37.080
  • AND SO, I REMEMBER GOING INTO A
  • 00:19:37.080 --> 00:19:38.190
  • COUNSELOR AND SPENDING A LOT OF
  • 00:19:38.190 --> 00:19:40.270
  • TIME WITH HER.
  • 00:19:40.270 --> 00:19:42.230
  • AND, THE WAY THAT SHE FOUND OUT
  • 00:19:42.230 --> 00:19:43.240
  • THAT I WAS EVEN DEALING WITH
  • 00:19:43.240 --> 00:19:45.050
  • THIS-- AND I WOULD NEVER HAVE
  • 00:19:45.050 --> 00:19:47.220
  • WALKED INTO A COUNSELOR'S
  • 00:19:47.220 --> 00:19:48.120
  • OFFICE BEING A MINISTER.
  • 00:19:48.120 --> 00:19:50.010
  • WE DIDN'T GO TO COUNSELORS; WE
  • 00:19:50.010 --> 00:19:51.060
  • ONLY SENT PEOPLE TO COUNSELORS.
  • 00:19:51.060 --> 00:19:52.210
  • I WALKED IN AND SHE SAID,
  • 00:19:52.210 --> 00:19:55.050
  • "WELL, LET ME JUST ASK YOU A
  • 00:19:55.050 --> 00:19:56.180
  • FEW QUESTIONS."
  • 00:19:56.180 --> 00:19:57.030
  • AND SHE WENT DOWN 14 OF THE
  • 00:19:57.030 --> 00:19:59.020
  • SYMPTOMS OF POSTPARTUM AND SHE
  • 00:19:59.020 --> 00:20:00.090
  • SAID, "YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT I
  • 00:20:00.090 --> 00:20:01.020
  • THINK?"
  • 00:20:01.020 --> 00:20:03.020
  • AND I SAID, "YEAH, I'D LIKE TO
  • 00:20:03.020 --> 00:20:04.000
  • KNOW WHAT YOU THINK."
  • 00:20:04.000 --> 00:20:04.180
  • AND SHE SAID, "OUT OF ALL 14
  • 00:20:04.180 --> 00:20:06.120
  • SYMPTOMS, YOU HAVE 13 OF THEM."
  • 00:20:06.120 --> 00:20:08.220
  • AND I JUST BURST INTO TEARS,
  • 00:20:08.280 --> 00:20:11.280
  • RIGHT IN HER OFFICE, AND SAID,
  • 00:20:11.280 --> 00:20:12.280
  • "AS A LEADER..." --'CAUSE
  • 00:20:12.280 --> 00:20:13.250
  • THAT'S WHAT WE DO -- "...WHAT
  • 00:20:13.250 --> 00:20:14.210
  • DO I DO?"
  • 00:20:14.210 --> 00:20:15.060
  • AND SHE SAID: "DON'T DO
  • 00:20:15.060 --> 00:20:15.280
  • ANYTHING.
  • 00:20:15.280 --> 00:20:16.130
  • GO HOME, GET A GOOD NIGHT'S
  • 00:20:16.130 --> 00:20:17.030
  • SLEEP, AND I'LL SEE YOU ON
  • 00:20:17.030 --> 00:20:17.220
  • FRIDAY."
  • 00:20:17.220 --> 00:20:18.050
  • AND AS WE TALK ABOUT
  • 00:20:18.050 --> 00:20:21.040
  • SELF-REJECTION, WHAT I WANT YOU
  • 00:20:21.040 --> 00:20:23.010
  • TO UNDERSTAND IS-- I'M GONNA
  • 00:20:23.010 --> 00:20:26.010
  • TOUCH ON A LOT OF DIFFERENT
  • 00:20:26.010 --> 00:20:26.290
  • AREAS TONIGHT.
  • 00:20:26.290 --> 00:20:27.250
  • AND WHAT I WANT YOU TO
  • 00:20:27.250 --> 00:20:30.060
  • UNDERSTAND IS THAT NONE OF
  • 00:20:30.060 --> 00:20:31.060
  • THESE ARE THE MAIN SOURCE.
  • 00:20:31.060 --> 00:20:32.040
  • THEY'RE ALL SYMPTOMS TO
  • 00:20:32.040 --> 00:20:33.240
  • SELF-REJECTION.
  • 00:20:33.240 --> 00:20:35.200
  • THEY'RE ALL SIGNS THAT THERE
  • 00:20:35.200 --> 00:20:37.090
  • MIGHT BE A DEEPER ROOT OF
  • 00:20:37.090 --> 00:20:38.220
  • SELF-ABANDONMENT ALONG THE WAY.
  • 00:20:38.220 --> 00:20:40.270
  • AND SO, DON'T GET STUCK.
  • 00:20:40.270 --> 00:20:42.100
  • IF I GOT STUCK ON, "I DIDN'T
  • 00:20:42.100 --> 00:20:43.260
  • SLEEP THROUGH THE NIGHT," OR,
  • 00:20:43.260 --> 00:20:45.140
  • YOU KNOW, "I FELT OVERWHELMED,"
  • 00:20:45.140 --> 00:20:47.050
  • OR, "I FELT LIKE I WAS...YOU
  • 00:20:47.050 --> 00:20:48.270
  • KNOW, I WAS SAD ALL THAT TIME"
  • 00:20:48.270 --> 00:20:50.230
  • -- IF ALL I WAS DOING WAS
  • 00:20:50.230 --> 00:20:52.040
  • TRYING TO NAVIGATE THOSE, THEN
  • 00:20:52.040 --> 00:20:53.150
  • ALL I WOULD DO IS THROW THINGS
  • 00:20:53.150 --> 00:20:55.040
  • AT THAT.
  • 00:20:55.040 --> 00:20:56.150
  • BUT WHAT WAS CRITICAL WAS FOR
  • 00:20:56.150 --> 00:20:57.230
  • ME TO UNPACK THE REASON I ENDED
  • 00:20:57.230 --> 00:20:59.180
  • UP REALLY BANKRUPT -- MENTALLY,
  • 00:20:59.180 --> 00:21:02.060
  • EMOTIONALLY -- IN MY LIFE TO
  • 00:21:02.060 --> 00:21:03.240
  • BEGIN TO STRUCTURE SAFETY AND
  • 00:21:03.240 --> 00:21:05.040
  • HELP AROUND ME.
  • 00:21:05.040 --> 00:21:06.230
  • AND I HAD TO GO TO THE ROOT,
  • 00:21:06.230 --> 00:21:07.270
  • WHICH SOME OF THOSE ROOTS WERE
  • 00:21:07.270 --> 00:21:09.000
  • THAT I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO SAY
  • 00:21:09.000 --> 00:21:09.280
  • NO.
  • 00:21:09.280 --> 00:21:10.120
  • AND SOME OF THE ROOTS WERE THAT
  • 00:21:10.120 --> 00:21:11.180
  • I FELT LIKE I WAS RESPONSIBLE
  • 00:21:11.180 --> 00:21:12.190
  • FOR HOW EVERYONE FELT ABOUT ME.
  • 00:21:12.190 --> 00:21:13.210
  • AND SOME OF THOSE ROOTS WERE
  • 00:21:13.210 --> 00:21:15.050
  • THAT I WAS DEEPLY GROUNDED IN A
  • 00:21:15.050 --> 00:21:16.150
  • BUBBLE HOME.
  • 00:21:16.150 --> 00:21:19.050
  • I WAS IN A MINISTER'S HOME,
  • 00:21:19.050 --> 00:21:20.030
  • WHERE EVERYONE WAS LOOKING AT
  • 00:21:20.030 --> 00:21:20.290
  • ME.
  • 00:21:20.290 --> 00:21:21.130
  • AND, EVEN IF I DIDN'T CARE,
  • 00:21:21.130 --> 00:21:22.030
  • THEY WERE TELLING ME WHAT THEY
  • 00:21:22.030 --> 00:21:23.040
  • THOUGHT ABOUT ME.
  • 00:21:23.040 --> 00:21:23.230
  • AND ALL OF THAT WAS CRITICAL TO
  • 00:21:23.230 --> 00:21:25.280
  • UNDERSTAND THAT THAT'S WHAT LED
  • 00:21:25.280 --> 00:21:27.040
  • ME INTO A PLACE OF DEEP
  • 00:21:27.040 --> 00:21:28.120
  • DEPRESSION.
  • 00:21:28.120 --> 00:21:30.160
  • AND SO, ANYTHING WE TALK ABOUT
  • 00:21:30.160 --> 00:21:31.240
  • IT'S THE MOMENT WHERE YOU GO:
  • 00:21:35.130 --> 00:21:36.040
  • OH, THAT'S A SYMPTOM THAT SHOWS
  • 00:21:36.040 --> 00:21:36.280
  • ME YOU'RE AT THE RIGHT PLACE AT
  • 00:21:36.280 --> 00:21:38.210
  • THE RIGHT TIME, AND THIS STUDY
  • 00:21:38.210 --> 00:21:39.120
  • IS CRITICAL FOR YOUR
  • 00:21:39.120 --> 00:21:40.190
  • MOVING FORWARD.
  • 00:21:40.190 --> 00:21:41.210
  • SO, TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND
  • 00:21:41.210 --> 00:21:42.250
  • DON'T LOOK AROUND.
  • 00:21:42.250 --> 00:21:44.040
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:21:44.040 --> 00:21:46.100
  • SO, THE FIRST EVIDENCE OF
  • 00:21:46.100 --> 00:21:47.010
  • SELF-REJECTION IS THE OBSESSION
  • 00:21:47.010 --> 00:21:49.280
  • WITH APPEARANCE.
  • 00:21:51.110 --> 00:21:54.110
  • THE OBSESSION WITH APPEARANCE.
  • 00:21:54.110 --> 00:21:56.030
  • BECAUSE ALL OF THESE ARE FRUIT;
  • 00:21:56.030 --> 00:21:58.090
  • THEY'RE NEVER THE ROOT.
  • 00:21:58.090 --> 00:21:59.280
  • SO, ANYTIME WE HAVE AN
  • 00:21:59.280 --> 00:22:01.230
  • OBSESSION WITH OUR APPEARANCE--
  • 00:22:01.230 --> 00:22:03.030
  • YOU GO: "WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?
  • 00:22:03.030 --> 00:22:03.270
  • I LIKE TO LOOK NICE."
  • 00:22:03.270 --> 00:22:04.220
  • I LIKE TO LOOK NICE, TOO.
  • 00:22:04.220 --> 00:22:05.210
  • THERE'S NOTHING WRONG
  • 00:22:05.210 --> 00:22:06.100
  • WITH THAT.
  • 00:22:06.100 --> 00:22:07.100
  • BUT THIS IS WHEN IT BEGINS TO
  • 00:22:07.100 --> 00:22:08.210
  • BE DANGEROUS IS WHEN OUR
  • 00:22:08.210 --> 00:22:09.280
  • APPEARANCE HAS THE FINAL WORD
  • 00:22:09.280 --> 00:22:12.180
  • OVER OUR VALUE.
  • 00:22:12.180 --> 00:22:14.110
  • WHEN OUR APPEARANCE HAS THE
  • 00:22:14.110 --> 00:22:15.230
  • THEN WE GET INTO DANGEROUS
  • 00:22:19.130 --> 00:22:20.120
  • PLACES WHERE, ALL OF A SUDDEN,
  • 00:22:20.120 --> 00:22:21.090
  • "I BETTER BE THE CUTEST GIRL
  • 00:22:21.090 --> 00:22:21.290
  • IN THE ROOM OR MY
  • 00:22:21.290 --> 00:22:23.100
  • VALUE IS GOING TO FADE."
  • 00:22:24.220 --> 00:22:27.220
  • "I BETTER BE THE PERSON THAT
  • 00:22:27.220 --> 00:22:28.180
  • EVERYONE IS LOOKING AT OR I
  • 00:22:28.180 --> 00:22:29.080
  • WILL LOSE MY IMPORTANCE."
  • 00:22:29.080 --> 00:22:30.180
  • AND FOR SOME OF YOU, TO BE
  • 00:22:30.180 --> 00:22:33.110
  • HONEST, BECAUSE OF YOUR LACK OF
  • 00:22:33.110 --> 00:22:34.200
  • LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE IN YOUR
  • 00:22:34.200 --> 00:22:35.290
  • LIFE, THAT'S ALL YOU HAVE...WAS
  • 00:22:36.070 --> 00:22:39.070
  • YOUR PRETTY FACE AND YOUR CUTE
  • 00:22:39.070 --> 00:22:41.000
  • REAR END.
  • 00:22:41.000 --> 00:22:43.290
  • AND I DON'T BLAME YOU FOR
  • 00:22:43.290 --> 00:22:45.050
  • PUTTING YOUR WEIGHT IN THAT,
  • 00:22:45.050 --> 00:22:46.100
  • BECAUSE THAT'S BEEN YOUR SOURCE
  • 00:22:46.100 --> 00:22:47.230
  • OF ATTENTION.
  • 00:22:47.230 --> 00:22:49.230
  • BUT WHAT I WANNA DO IS
  • 00:22:49.230 --> 00:22:51.130
  • CHALLENGE YOU THAT YOU ARE MORE
  • 00:22:51.130 --> 00:22:52.280
  • THAN A PRETTY FACE AND YOU ARE
  • 00:22:52.280 --> 00:22:55.030
  • MORE THAN A CUTE BEHIND.
  • 00:22:55.030 --> 00:22:57.100
  • AND THAT YOU-- IF YOU DEVELOP
  • 00:22:57.100 --> 00:22:59.020
  • YOUR INSIDE JUST AS MUCH AS
  • 00:22:59.020 --> 00:23:01.090
  • YOUR OUTSIDE, THEN, WHEN
  • 00:23:01.090 --> 00:23:01.270
  • YOUR OUTSIDE FADES, YOU
  • 00:23:01.270 --> 00:23:02.150
  • WON'T LOSE ANYTHING.
  • 00:23:02.150 --> 00:23:04.270
  • AND SO, WE'VE GOTTA BE ABLE TO
  • 00:23:04.270 --> 00:23:06.020
  • TEACH OUR WOMEN AND OUR
  • 00:23:06.020 --> 00:23:07.150
  • DAUGHTERS THIS.
  • 00:23:07.150 --> 00:23:08.140
  • AND, IN AN OBSESSED CULTURE THAT
  • 00:23:08.140 --> 00:23:10.110
  • SPENDS TIME DRIVING EVERYTHING
  • 00:23:12.180 --> 00:23:15.180
  • TO APPEARANCE, WE'VE GOTTA BE
  • 00:23:15.180 --> 00:23:16.090
  • THE ONES THAT HAVE A DIFFERENT
  • 00:23:16.090 --> 00:23:17.120
  • NARRATIVE FOR OUR WOMEN THAT
  • 00:23:17.120 --> 00:23:18.200
  • SAY: IT IS OKAY TO AGE.
  • 00:23:18.200 --> 00:23:20.070
  • IT IS OKAY TO GAIN SOME WEIGHT.
  • 00:23:20.070 --> 00:23:21.190
  • IT IS OKAY TO NURTURE AND
  • 00:23:21.190 --> 00:23:22.200
  • MOTHER.
  • 00:23:22.200 --> 00:23:23.290
  • IT IS OKAY TO NOT LOOK LIKE A
  • 00:23:23.290 --> 00:23:24.270
  • GLOSSY MAGAZINE.
  • 00:23:24.270 --> 00:23:26.260
  • YOU BE WHO GOD'S CALLED YOU TO
  • 00:23:26.260 --> 00:23:28.040
  • BE AND YOU ARE MORE THAN A
  • 00:23:28.040 --> 00:23:29.090
  • PRETTY FACE -- YOU ARE A
  • 00:23:29.090 --> 00:23:30.100
  • COME ON.
  • 00:23:33.280 --> 00:23:34.140
  • YOU ARE A NURTURING POWERHOUSE.
  • 00:23:34.140 --> 00:23:35.280
  • AND ALL OF THE BUMPS, AND
  • 00:23:35.280 --> 00:23:37.250
  • BRUISES, AND LINE, AND ALL OF
  • 00:23:37.250 --> 00:23:39.200
  • THAT HAS TO DO WITH ME
  • 00:23:39.200 --> 00:23:40.260
  • BEING A WOMAN.
  • 00:23:40.260 --> 00:23:43.040
  • I LOVE WHAT MATTHEW, THE BOOK
  • 00:23:43.040 --> 00:23:44.110
  • OF MATTHEW, CHAPTER 6, VERSE 27
  • 00:23:44.110 --> 00:23:45.030
  • SAYS.
  • 00:23:45.030 --> 00:23:47.080
  • AND THIS IS THE MESSAGE
  • 00:23:47.080 --> 00:23:47.260
  • VERSION.
  • 00:23:47.260 --> 00:23:49.010
  • NOW, I'M GONNA THROW A LOT OF
  • 00:23:49.010 --> 00:23:50.010
  • SCRIPTURE AT YOU, SO YOU DON'T
  • 00:23:50.010 --> 00:23:51.070
  • HAVE TO TURN THERE.
  • 00:23:51.070 --> 00:23:51.240
  • BUT I WANT YOU TO WRITE THESE
  • 00:23:51.240 --> 00:23:53.030
  • VERSES DOWN AND SPEND THE NEXT
  • 00:23:53.030 --> 00:23:54.160
  • WEEK IN THESE VERSES.
  • 00:23:54.160 --> 00:23:56.000
  • GET IN THERE AND DIG IN THERE
  • 00:23:56.000 --> 00:23:58.100
  • AND FIND OUT WHAT ELSE IT'S
  • 00:23:58.100 --> 00:23:59.290
  • SAYING IN THE WORD.
  • 00:23:59.290 --> 00:24:01.100
  • BUT MATTHEW, CHAPTER 6 SAYS:
  • 00:24:01.100 --> 00:24:02.280
  • "HAS ANYONE BY FUSSING IN FRONT
  • 00:24:02.280 --> 00:24:05.020
  • OF THE MIRROR EVER GOTTEN
  • 00:24:05.020 --> 00:24:06.060
  • TALLER BY SO MUCH AS AN INCH?
  • 00:24:06.060 --> 00:24:08.150
  • ALL THIS TIME AND MONEY WASTED
  • 00:24:08.150 --> 00:24:10.140
  • ON FASHION.
  • 00:24:10.140 --> 00:24:12.030
  • DO YOU THINK IT MAKES
  • 00:24:12.030 --> 00:24:13.150
  • A DIFFERENCE?
  • 00:24:13.150 --> 00:24:14.010
  • INSTEAD OF LOOKING AT THE
  • 00:24:14.010 --> 00:24:16.200
  • FASHIONS, WALK OUT IN THE
  • 00:24:16.200 --> 00:24:18.060
  • FIELDS AND LOOK AT
  • 00:24:18.060 --> 00:24:20.040
  • THE WILDFLOWERS.
  • 00:24:20.040 --> 00:24:20.210
  • THEY NEVER PRIMP OR SHOP."
  • 00:24:20.210 --> 00:24:22.240
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:24:22.240 --> 00:24:24.200
  • I DON'T THINK THEY'VE BEEN TO
  • 00:24:24.200 --> 00:24:25.200
  • TARGET, BUT WHATEVER.
  • 00:24:25.200 --> 00:24:26.070
  • "BUT HAVE YOU EVER SEEN COLOR
  • 00:24:27.080 --> 00:24:30.080
  • AND DESIGN QUITE LIKE IT?
  • 00:24:30.080 --> 00:24:31.060
  • THE TEN BEST-DRESSED MEN AND
  • 00:24:31.060 --> 00:24:32.120
  • WOMEN IN THE COUNTRY LOOK
  • 00:24:32.120 --> 00:24:33.110
  • SHABBY ALONGSIDE OF THEM."
  • 00:24:33.110 --> 00:24:36.000
  • [MUSIC]
  • 00:24:36.000 --> 00:24:37.110
  • - KRIS: I HOPE YOU ENJOYED
  • 00:24:39.280 --> 00:24:40.180
  • THIS MESSAGE ON IDENTITY, FROM
  • 00:24:40.180 --> 00:24:41.090
  • BETHEL, BY HAVILAH CUNNINGTON.
  • 00:24:41.090 --> 00:24:42.040
  • IN IT, SHE IDENTIFIED SELF-
  • 00:24:42.040 --> 00:24:43.060
  • REJECTION AND THE OBSESSION WE
  • 00:24:43.060 --> 00:24:44.190
  • HAVE WITH OUR APPEARANCE.
  • 00:24:44.190 --> 00:24:46.080
  • AND HER KEY POINTS WERE
  • 00:24:46.080 --> 00:24:47.180
  • ALSO POWERFUL -- THAT HURTFUL
  • 00:24:47.180 --> 00:24:49.100
  • PEOPLE OFTEN HAVE A ROOT OF
  • 00:24:49.100 --> 00:24:50.180
  • SELF-REJECTION.
  • 00:24:50.180 --> 00:24:52.040
  • WE SHOULD DEVELOP OUR INSIDE,
  • 00:24:52.040 --> 00:24:53.140
  • SO THAT WHEN OUR OUTSIDE FACES,
  • 00:24:53.140 --> 00:24:54.290
  • IF YOU'RE LOOKING TO DISCOVER
  • 00:24:57.140 --> 00:24:58.130
  • OR SETTLE YOUR IDENTITY IN
  • 00:24:58.130 --> 00:24:59.260
  • JESUS, BE SURE TO GET YOUR OWN
  • 00:24:59.260 --> 00:25:01.020
  • COPY OF THE BETHEL REVIVAL
  • 00:25:01.020 --> 00:25:03.250
  • RESOURCES ENTITLED "KINGDOM
  • 00:25:03.250 --> 00:25:05.010
  • INHERITANCE," "SONS &
  • 00:25:05.010 --> 00:25:06.260
  • DAUGHTERS," AND MY OWN WORKBOOK
  • 00:25:06.260 --> 00:25:08.290
  • "THE SUPERNATURAL WAYS
  • 00:25:08.290 --> 00:25:09.210
  • OF ROYALTY."
  • 00:25:09.210 --> 00:25:10.230
  • THANKS FOR SPENDING TIME WITH
  • 00:25:10.230 --> 00:25:11.200
  • THE BETHEL FAMILY.
  • 00:25:11.200 --> 00:25:12.170
  • AND BE SURE TO WATCH PART TWO
  • 00:25:12.170 --> 00:25:13.230
  • OF HAVILAH'S MESSAGE ON
  • 00:25:13.230 --> 00:25:14.230
  • GOD BLESS.
  • 00:25:16.270 --> 00:25:18.230
  • [MUSIC]
  • 00:25:18.230 --> 00:25:19.070
  • - MALE ANNOUNCER: YOU POSSESS
  • 00:25:19.070 --> 00:25:19.280
  • MORE HEAVENLY AUTHORITY, POWER,
  • 00:25:19.280 --> 00:25:20.240
  • AND FAVOR THAN YOU'RE CURRENTLY
  • 00:25:20.240 --> 00:25:21.200
  • BUT YOU CAN STEP INTO THIS
  • 00:25:24.090 --> 00:25:25.040
  • HIGHER LEVEL OF LIVING SIMPLY
  • 00:25:25.040 --> 00:25:26.000
  • BY DISCOVERING YOUR IDENTITY.
  • 00:25:26.000 --> 00:25:27.120
  • IN "KINGDOM INHERITANCE," A
  • 00:25:27.120 --> 00:25:28.220
  • FIVE-MESSAGE SERIES ON AUDIO
  • 00:25:28.220 --> 00:25:30.050
  • CD, BILL JOHNSON AND HIS FELLOW
  • 00:25:30.050 --> 00:25:31.220
  • BETHEL TEACHERS REVEAL HOW TO
  • 00:25:31.220 --> 00:25:33.180
  • EMBRACE AND WIELD THE AUTHORITY
  • 00:25:33.180 --> 00:25:36.120
  • GOD HAS ALREADY GIVEN YOU IN
  • 00:25:36.120 --> 00:25:37.080
  • IT'S YOURS TODAY IN THANKS FOR
  • 00:25:39.190 --> 00:25:40.100
  • ANY GIFT OF SUPPORT TO TBN'S
  • 00:25:40.100 --> 00:25:41.220
  • GLOBAL MISSION TO ADVANCE THE
  • 00:25:41.220 --> 00:25:42.260
  • KINGDOM OF JESUS CHRIST.
  • 00:25:42.260 --> 00:25:44.270
  • TO TAKE YOU FATHER AND FASTER
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  • IN DISCOVERING YOUR TRUE
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